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9/8/17 - The Love Club's first massage swap for loving couples Sat., October 7, 2017. $20 pp.
Hello everyone!  You are invited to attend our very first massage swap for loving couples. It is going to take place in my home out on rural pastureland in North Collier County, Naples. Imagine, if you will, arriving at the door and being hugged through the front door by me and my partner David. We will have four massage tables set up in various rooms in the house, completely equipped with sheets, towels and lotion. We are friendly and love to host small gatherings. My husband who is not interested in massage will also be here in the background as protector. This gathering will be no more than 8 couples. A total of 16 people. It starts at 4 pm and goes until at least 8 pm but it may last longer. There will be light snacks and drinks to tide over the hunger pangs.
 
The first thing we'll do is give you time to mill around and meet the others who are here, and also have a tour of the house to locate the bathrooms and where to put your things. If you are the first couple here, then you can help us greet the next couple who arrives and give them a tour of the house. We do not know yet how many will be here, because this is only the first one and sometimes people wait to see how the first one goes before attending. And, yes, there will be more to come. They are scheduled for the first of every month on into the future. The schedule of dates is posted at the bottom. Mark your calendar if interested.   .
 
The second thing we'll do is have a sit down introduction circle. We feel it is important to get to know everyone face-to-face and put a feeling to each face. Emotional feelings are what helps us to "read" someone. We read people better through our feelings and emotional responses than we do through eye and ear.
The third thing we'll do is have a discussion and demonstration about massage. David will demonstrate on someone on a massage table. This type of massage is loving and it feels sensual and is very, very nurturing and healing, but it is not sexual. We will not go in that direction so everyone can relax. I have to say this because some will want to go there, causing stress and anticipation, and others will NOT want to go there, causing stress and anticipation. That is why we keep it safely non-sexual. David is our in-house massage therapist. He is trained in all methods of massage and channels heavenly divine love.
 
The fourth thing we'll do is choose partners for the massage. Massage swaps are one-on-one. Two people to a table. You give to someone and you receive from that same person. You will be asked to choose a partner other than your own mate. It is important that you are OK with this so discuss it first before accepting. If you really need to stay together for the massage, you might as well stay home. By sharing massage with a stranger you'll step outside your comfort zone and enlarge your ability to interact intimately with others. This is a test. It is the price of admission to join the Love Club. There will be some flexibility in choosing massage partners. We will do everything we can to make sure everyone is comfortable and no one is pressured, but this is the whole point of the Love Club - stretching your boundaries and diminishing fear of intimate touch. Since there will only be four massage tables operating (we're limited by space) half of the group will massage while the other half will be in discussion. Then they'll swap places. I'll ask for questions ahead of time. They can be anonymous. No one will know it was you who asked it. You'll have a chance to ask any question you like, including very personal questions which are awkward to ask. We are equipped to handle it all.
 
Please reply directly to me by clicking HERE to ask questions or to register to attend on October 7. Each couple are potential friends and I'll treat them that way. We have single friends who would love to attend but at the moment we need to limit it to couples to assure gender balance. We can pair two singles together on a first-come number basis. Just let me know if you want to come without a partner. I'll keep track. I am personally hosting and monitoring the list of people. We will ask $20 pp to help with costs, pay on arrival. Free to a couple who can arrive early and stay late to help.

Dates for Massage Swaps
$20/pp couples
        
Sat., Oct. 7, 2017 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Nov. 4, 2017 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Dec. 2, 2017 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Jan. 6, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Feb. 3, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Mar. 3, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Apr. 7, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., May 5, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
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9/7/17 - Do not be afraid. Your fear is your very best friend because when you pass through the doorway of your fear, you literally change yourself on a cellular level.  Walk into the mouth of the lion.  That is your most powerful and rapid transformation.  That's what the vision quest is all about.  You are put into situations where you must rely only on what is inside you.  The person faces his demons.  You move through very quickly.  The civilized structure put a stop to this because they wanted to keep fear in its place, to frighten you. They wanted you to be afraid.  So, embrace the thing that has kept you from moving - that which you fear the most.
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9/6/17 - Love is contained not in the physical body itself but in the consciousness that resides in the physical body, and is moving through the physical body like electricity moves through a light bulb lighting it up and casting a radiance around it. Individually, you and I, each person is that unique consciousness that is streaming non-stop through our body. We are more than the physical flesh and bone. Much of what we radiate out into the atmosphere is coming from what we are conscious of. And most of it is not constructive. We listen to the news and we listen to friends' complaints and we ourselves are unhappy and live in fear and in stress, which means our consciousness is DESTRUCTIVE. We are all putting destructive radiation out into the atmosphere. Our thoughts and our feelings need to be raised up to a more positive, constructive, intelligent and refined attitude. Consciousness means attention. Whatever you put your attention on, there goes your destructive or CONstructive radiation out into the world. Into the world that you are building around you as you walk, talk and move about. You create your own reality.

It is no wonder that the earth is hurting and in pain and is now revolting and rebelling and thrashing out with storms, earthquakes and fire. Love is contained not in the physical body itself but in the consciousness that is streaming through the body right now. Right this very instant. The love is not contained in the physical body of the tree, love is contained in the consciousness of the tree. Love is not contained in the body of the fish or the blade of grass, it is contained in the consciousness of the fish and the blade of grass. Consciousness is everywhere existent. Consciousness is the sea of life that enters into a human body and becomes personal as soon as it becomes conscious of being human. But we humans are also conscious of love. Or are we? We come from love so love is built into our physicality, but are we conscious of love? Do we reflect love? Do we express love in our words? Our consciousness is our life force. Our consciousness builds our personal world around us. A loving consciousness builds a loving world around a person.  An angry consciousness builds a world that is less desirable, less happy. It is easy to understand when you look at it from that angle.

I am focusing these days on love because it is the end of my tedious and uncomfortable journey through this life. It has been quite an adventure but I have arrived at the final conclusion. The conclusion is that love is all there is. It is being validated for me in many ways and I am writing about it here. I am blogging about it and I have posted a page called "The Love Club". A lot of people will think that it's about sex and on one hand it is and on the other hand it isn't. Because love is contained in the consciousness of an individual, not in the flesh body. Where is your attention focused right now?
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8/31/17 - Dates have been posted for the The Love Club massage swaps - Click HERE

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8/11/17 -  Words shape our reality. We need to introduce some new words. Old words of yesterday and centuries past created our world as it is today by everyone's common agreement. While it is slowly changing, it is important to note that words are a significant factor in changing our physicality and our physical limitations. New words create a new reality. It's not the actual word itself but the emotion that the word contains and carries out to its mark. It's the FEELINGS of the words that create our world, our home environment, work environment, towns, cities and countries. The TV, news, mags, books, internet, entertainment, everything that broadcasts words is either re-affirming the old or introducing the new, moment by moment. When we use new words with new meaning that is more emotionally elevating, we are changing our world for the better because it is our emotions that weigh us down or lift us up. Words that create worry or fear are heavy. Words that make us wonder or consider, lift us up. It's subtle. Some people don't bother to wonder over something they don't understand and flip it off. Others will get it if they consider it. That is not a judgment. It is a filtering mechanism. It's how we attract the kinds of people we want to us. That's why I write on this blog.

I am introducing not just new words, but new meanings by how they are strung together. It brings new light into the reader. Meaningful emotions are involved with the way I string the messages together. They are in a formation that expresses something. One word after another specific word carries forward and upwad an emotional feeling. It lines up in a slightly different way. It is coded to attract certain people who are on the same feeling wave length. This changing of our world is going on rapidly right now. Some people are not paying attention to the change and prefer to reject change. They prefer to see the old words spoken in the old way to reaffirm what they knew and are attached to. But old words used in old lineups tend to be heavy and weigh people down. A lot of us are bored with the old way. We are trying to lighten our world. We do it with words that contain our feelings. Truth works that way.

Telling someone a half truth in order to maintain a status quo is heavy energy. We all do it. But if I try to stretch that half truth into a whole truth, I actually can make changes in my environment like I did this morning. I won't tell you the details, but it worked. I was in just the right state of mind to tell the whole truth instead of fudging my feelings and telling only a half truth. The whole truth altered my experience. I frankly was amazed! I must try this again. I urge others to try it. We have learned to compromise in order to fit in and make things work. But what if it works better by telling the whole truth instead of a lie or half truth?

It's the same way with blame. There is blame going on around me. The blame is  when someone refuses to accept responsibility that something irritating that happened was attracted to you by you, yourself. Everything that affects me has been attracted by me for a reason I don't want to look at and so I assign blame to someone else. Someone else did it. And yet, I drew it to myself because I needed to resolve this lack in me once and for all. It keeps coming back up so it's time I dealt with it. If I try to blame someone else for it, I will successfully divert it now, but it will pop back up again sometime in the future. It'll keep coming because I'm not accepting it. The answer is to accept responsibility for anything irritating or "bad" that happens to me. Worse, I cause resentment and retaliation because most people won't accept blame and an argument follows. It's a negative when someone throws blame around.

I've learned this. I've learned to accept negative situations and not blame other people for something "bad" that happens to me. And ever since I've learned that, "bad" things don't happen to me any more. It's an interesting phenomena. Interesting things to me. Challenging things happen. Opportunities happen. Excitement happens. Life happens. But "bad" does not happen any more. This is a learned skill. I'm not "better" than anyone else. I've just been around longer. I've learned how to do it.

Yesterday I posted a message on the page, THE LOVE CLUB on this website. It's interesting. Since launching that page several weeks ago there have been a lot of hits. People are curious. They wonder about it. It looks interesting. Let's see what THE LOVE CLUB is all about. There was nothing on the page for several weeks. It just said, "Coming soon!" But yesterday I posted a lengthy message. Most people will not read it because it's not a brief message. It's not fast enough to hook the busy person's attention. It's not a quick fix. I've been told for years that my articles are too long but it hasn't daunted me. If anything, I have grown longer articles. That's because I'm putting feelings into my words. I am putting more feelings into my words than I used to. I'm broadcasting more of my Self out into the world. I am changing my personal up close environment by doing that. I'm filling up my own energy field, my aura, with my OWN feelings instead of letting other peoples' energies infiltrate me.

It is like the weeds around my house. They pop up. I cut them down and pull them out, and they keep growing back and popping up. They are invisible to me until they break through the top soil and I see them. That's the way the emotions work. The feelings inside a human being is the love inside the human being that has been repressed or suppressed. It would be love if it were expressed, but it turns to not-love when it is repressed. It takes on a darker color and becomes invisible. And so, while it can't be seen or felt for the moment, it weighs heavy. It's a bog-down situation. And it builds up inside. It can't be felt but it grows and grows because it's a seed of a feeling that should have been let go and like, gone with the wind. But when it's held back it becomes so strong that eventually it feels like you're going to explode. That's when a person takes notice. That's why I write lengthy articles. I'm expressing feelings that, literally, no one wants to hear. So I am talking to the air around me. Anyone can pick up on it. I am releasing it into the world. I am no longer hiding myself. There are no more secrets.

Maybe I am influencing the feelings in others. I don't know. I am altered by others when I read the articles that capture my attention and so probably others are likewise being influenced. We are all in the world together and we are all influencing each other in ways that are good and light, or negative and heavy. That's the way I weight the words I read. Do I feel lighter? Happier? Freer? Joyful? Yes, I stop and read this. So if someone doesn't get that feeling from my writings, they will flip the page and move on. That is good. They are choosing what they want to influence them. We all have free choice and we have to be responsible for what we let into our energy field. I have gotten so much through the written words of others. I have been lightened by the words of others - INlightened - by the words that others have written. I pay attention to how I feel when I am reading. And sometimes I want a heavier thrust to my emotions. It takes all kinds. But I get the message better through my emotions than I do through my intellect. Words create our reality and our immediate surroundings.

So, as I ramble on with these thoughts, I am sharing with you certain information about myself. They are my feelings in a certain formation. They are strung together in order of emotional content rather than intellectual content. Some people find my writings spacey and whoo-whoo. That's how the ascended masters dictate. It would seem they are being random, but they're not. Over time I have learned how to "read" the ascended masters dictations when they come through someone reliable and is a clear channel. There is light - enlightened information - in every sentence that one would not get if they scanned it briefly. You have to link one word with the next with the next on down the line to the period at the end of the sentence. And then you go on to the next sentence and see that the enlightened message keeps going on through the page to the next page and the next.

And hidden in this message, for those who have continued to read through this, is an invitation to join David and me next Wednesday, from 1 to 4 pm for an informal chat at my house. Strictly informal. Just spontaneous chat session. We are beginning to gather those who resonate with the messages I've been writing. We want to have people join us to plan with us and soundboard with us, sort of like a steering committee, who want to feel it, who want to feel part of a loving and uplifting community who is interested in tantra. I understand someone in Hong Kong might read this or South America who will not be able to attend, but perhaps someone in Naples will read this and want to join David and me Wednesday from 1 to 4 pm. We want to meet some local people who themselves have dreams and want to share the love that is within. David arrives at my house from 1 to 4 pm every Wednesday. It's informal. We just hang out together.

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8/1/17 - Sex has been long maligned as a bad thing and so it was necessary to have a sexual revolution that began in the 40’s with key clubs, when military men returned from foreign lands with an expanded consciousness. The 40‘s key clubs grew into the 60’s sexual revolution when women were gifted with the pill and they joined the men in burning their bras and limitations. Happy drugs, hippy days, San Francisco, Woodstock, free love - it was all a necessary evolution to break the chains that surrounded sexual shame and guilt. The 60’s grew into the 80’s and swinging came out of the closet via the internet with adult social clubs popping up online and nudist clubs becoming socially accepted. Even seniors in their 60’s and 70’s whose parents used to retire to nursing homes at their age started signing up online. Swing conventions reached a peak in the ‘80’s and ‘90’s and now in 2017 there is a noticeable decline in swing conventions and more seekers signing up on SLS and other swing/dating sites who are less focused on sex and more focused on making friends - open-minded friends that might be able to evolve further. What is happening?

What’s happening is sex is becoming boring.  It reached a peak and the sexual revolution is declining. It served us well. It elevated us to higher ground, as a wave would do for a surfer, and it came down on shore with more awareness and discrimination. Non-discriminating sex is no longer acceptable to mature couples. The old anonymous sex that was so much fun in dark group rooms flailing about in total abandon (without drugs, mind you) is swiftly going out of style. It is becoming crude where once it was liberating. We are at a higher place and we see through clearer eyes with more discernment. A white noise can be sensed growing in the background among our people. A white noise that is silent in tone but you can feel the vibrations when you put your ear to the ground. Like when you put your ear to the iron rails you can hear a distant train approaching. 

The white noise is a yearning in the feelings of people. It can't be explained logically because we haven’t been here before. We‘ve never experienced this particular location before in the grand scheme of things. This is new ground. The white noise sounds like (to me), “Is this all there is?” This white noise can be seen vocalized on swing sites like SLS. “We’re not looking for one-night stands.” And, “Seeking friendship and open-minded friends.” And “We are happy with each other and looking for friends in and out of the bedroom.” And, “Getting to know one another first makes for better sex.”

As a culture, generally speaking, we are looking at sex through different eyes today. We see from a more elevated plateau with a longer vision than our parents and grandparents could see. Can you even imagine your parents or grandparents seeing as we see today? Each generation is a little higher up the mountain and therefore more advanced. A little more sophisticated. We, as a culture, in one lifetime (mine) we have crawled out of the prehistoric mud of shame and guilt over sex, and we are standing at a brink with anticipation, feeling around for this new direction, sexually speaking.

So, can sex get any better? A resounding YES! But not by doing it the old way. Not by going down on more people faster with more rudimentary force. That would be immature and going backward. No, there is more to this whole sex business that has yet to be discovered. I have been studying Tantra. Tantra contains hidden information that most everyone has missed. Those who DO know about this hidden information are keeping it to themselves and not revealing it. This hidden information is subtle, so virtually everyone is missing it. You can start receiving it by turning eyes skyward, upward towards the stars. Especially at night. You can do it with the sun too, but there is something magical, something grounding, something visceral, something akin to love that is felt by looking up at the stars. There is information coming from the stars.

The stars bring imagination and softness. When we gaze upward toward the stars at night, we wonder. There are questions that start to form. Our minds retreat to the back row of the theatre and leave us open to see beyond ourselves, beyond what we know every day with our conscious minds. There IS more and we can feel it then, in the nighttime when the sun goes down because daytime glare is too bright. There is more when we look up and it comes to us when we recede from ego power and allow ourselves to drift to higher planes of imagination. We experience it in subtle ways. You can‘t put your finger on it. You can‘t describe it. It is a feeling impossible to identify. It comes as a knowing. It just is. It is just there and you don’t know how you know. And it’s soft. It is not pushy. It blooms like a night flower inside of you. It is not an interference in our daytime way of life. It just is. It’s there and coming closer. And sometimes it actually touches you.

David and I call it love or ascension, but really, no name can be assigned to it. And each of us experiences it differently.  David and I don’t claim to know all about it. We have simply teamed up to do something with it. We call it love and, because in our culture of current belief systems about marriage and fidelity, monogamy and cheating, swinging and sex, and violence and abuse, and all the other unfinished things we struggle with in our personal relationships, we needed to have a name so we call it “The Love Club“. We settled on that name after two years of discussion during which semantics bogged us down. I think we ended up calling it “The Love Club” simply because it‘s simple and leaves you wondering.

I’ve posted a page on the Anakosha website called “The Love Club” but nothing is on it yet. It’s waiting. We are starting to use new words, like kundalini. The old words don’t work any more. For example, the word “sex” is boring to me, and to a lot of other people too, women especially. Actually, just hearing the word “sex” is to watch eyes roll around in sockets, like, “Oh, no, not that again.” Because people everywhere are yearning for something more whole-body. Yet there are others who haven’t even begun their sexual journey yet and sex is something they look forward to. The diversity among people is astounding. That is why “The Love Club” must be open-ended and tolerant of all. It is intended to be loving and to open-minded. It is intended to provide information that is sorely needed. Ancient mystery schools and goddess temples taught sacred rituals. The Love Club will employ some of these.

There will be opportunities to meet others and together, learn these new applications and grow together. There is so much more information about love that will enhance sex than can be told in words because love is a feeling and you have to practice it with someone. Knowing about love will enhance lovemaking skills and relationships. We won’t engage in sex at the Love Club, but we will pack in some powerful techniques which will build self-esteem and confidence.  
 
I will be back tomorrow with some new insight. I get new insight every morning after being in the dream state all night long. You get new insight too every night, even if you are not aware of it. You are learning things while your body sleeps. You may be unconscious of it yet but it is a grass roots thing. In other words, it is growing underground, beneath your conscious mind and one day soon it will pop into sight and you’ll be aware of something that makes you feel, “Ahhhh! I knew that!” And another piece of the puzzle will click into place.

There is more to you than you are giving yourself credit for. You are more valuable that you know. You are wise beyond logic and more noble and more perfect than you realize. You are from the stars. You have information in your cells that have come from the stars that has been locked in by restrictive taboos and it can’t get out. But there are ways to unlock the internal codes. They can be accessed, and love is fundamental to triggering those codes. Loving touch and loving ministration applied to all situations, unlocks the doors. Love - and the freedom to express love - will bring us back to our own natural state of comfort.

I have posted two links at the bottom of the Massage page today. One to some private letters I have written to people about David‘s Tantric Massage. Not letters FROM people, only my responses to them. Anyone who writes a letter to me may be assured of privacy. Your letter is sacred, unless you want to be published. In that case, I will publish it. When someone writes to me (Anakosha) I get all excited because they are giving me permission to talk about things that I have known but have been unable to speak of, for ages. They’ve been unacceptable to the times. But when individuals ask, then I can talk and write about it. That’s how life works. It‘s a universal law. It's called the law of non-interference. The prime directive of Star Trek.

And so, the next time someone asks YOU about something that you have been shy about telling what you know, you are actually being given permission to speak about it. It is then OK for you to tell the truth about what you know. Don’t by shy. Tell the truth because the truth will set you free. There is a great yearning to be set free and this is partly where that comes from. It is the yearning to be yourself.  So when next someone asks, tell what you know, with wisdom, of course. You just might trigger a natural response in that other person which will surprise you and enhance you. There is more in people that is locked up than we realize, and they too are waiting to be recognized and appreciated. We are all united on a level that runs deep underground. We draw from the same nourishment, and that nourishment is love. It comes form Mother Earth. Like grass roots are connected, so are we connected to one another on this deep inner level, and an enlightened intelligence and wisdom is a part of it. We are wise beyond our few known years on Earth. This wisdom and intelligence wants to be set free. It is time to release. It is time to reveal the truth of who you are and what you know, wisely and without hurt to another. That is why the Love Club is coming into being soon.

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7/29/17 - With love and a sense of liberation and freedom I posted a new page on this website called "The Love Club" a couple of days ago. Nothing is in it yet, but it is a beginning. It is waiting. The feeling behind it is that of a mother's maternal need to hug everyone free, and it's backed with a fierce determination to override all obstruction. There is a softness coming that is natural to everyone. As I search once more through the massive quantities of journals I've kept since that day in 1976 when kundalini awakened, I am re-discovering the original intention. I have been waylaid, due to forces beyond my understanding, and this re-search is bringing me back in touch with the original plan for Anakosha.

I always believed that Anakosha was my higher self speaking to me, and I still believe that today. The name was given to me in a deep meditational trance back in 1993 after my husband died. It was during a healing session and I was out of body when I was presented with the word "Anakosha" written slowly across a black void in red and gold firey flames. I was awash in the name Anakosha. It consumed me. And then, after that, I resumed normal life and went on along my path, just like everyone else.

But besides Anakosha, which is my real self or higher self who is always impressing me and trying to express through me (and not always succeeding), there is another guide, an ascended master by the name of Djwal Khul. He is commonly known as DK for he guides many people. He was a Tibetan Buddhist when he was embodied centuries ago and, unbeknownst to a lot of people, he was a Tantric master. Thus, because of my sexual lifestyle and struggles between love and hate that it has caused in me, it is to DK that I go for guidance. The feeling I get from him is compassion. That's his calling card feeling. And he is always there when I need to ask a question. He usually starts answering me before I have finished asking. I can tell he is interrupting me because of his use of the word "you". Up to that point I am using the word "I" as in "I am confused." And "I don't know what to do." And then my thoughts take a turn to "you". I found a journal entry yesterday from  2015,which I'd like to share with you. My thoughts turned to...

“The man-woman issues that you experience and continue to experience are actually an inner journey as you seek understanding about yourself. You learn through bumping up against what is NOT comfortable to you. You play with this for awhile, struggling with it, and if you are successful in accepting that this really is not what you want (some people never discover this) then you will shed it and not do it again. Of course the evolutionary journey is about discovering this process in a kindly way so that you do not hurt other people in the process. So when you reject them you find ways to let them down easily. This is the hard part. What you are learning about yourself is what doesn’t fit comfortably with you, and what does.. What doesn’t feel right to you? Do you continue to hash it around and try to make it work? This prolongs the pain and the struggle. What feels good to you on all levels, will cause elation and joy. if it feels good on only one level but not the other two or three levels, It does not cause elation, but rather a sense of a pulling towards something as if that something will give you completion. For example, a piece of chocolate cake might taste good to your tongue, but your mind knows it is wrong for your diet and your feeling causes a feeling of guilt. The man-woman issues are the bumping up against energies of other people, to show you that there are many energies that exist in your life and it is a matter of selecting those energies that complete you and fulfill you, rather than trying to make something fit when it doesn’t fit you at all. Like a dress two sizes too small just won’t give you a good feeling. The man-woman issues are a journey in self discovery but many people do not give themselves enough credit to believe their inner intuition. They may have a gut feeling that this person is not right for them, but they try to make it work because they don’t believe their feeling. They believe MORE in being courteous and trying to fit in. This is being dishonest to yourself when you do this. It is damaging not only to yourself but to the other people you are engaging with because they too are not feeling comfortable. If you’re not feeling good about the connection, then they are not feeling good about the connection. Elation and a joyful happy feeling is always the sign that you are doing the right thing.

"The man-woman issues and struggles that you have pertaining to sex is your path of learning about what fits with you and what doesn’t. The discovery part is what doesn’t fit. Trust that and release it and let it go. You will move on when you become consciously aware of this. To remain unwilling to accept this is how you remain in the struggle. Evolve your awareness by trusting your sense of good and bad. By discovering what makes you feel bad and releasing it or taking steps to release it (it may take time) you are discovering the truth of your inner self. It is a discovery of awareness. It is not an outer world discovery. The outer world presents things to you one at a time. As if on parade these things and people come into your view. It is up to you to say “yes” or “no” to these persons and objects. You must decide what doesn’t fit with you. As you eliminate the not-self, you will be left with your authentic self. Your real self. That which is what has been called “the Knower”. This is the part of you that is eternal and lives on after death of the body to live again in another body, all the while gathering wisdom and understanding."

DK’s words were very clear.  I understood. This was in February 2015 and in May 2015 I told everyone that I was quitting the lifestyle. Within a week of my announcement to long-time lifestyle friends, I met David who has become a soul-mate friend on the journey to greater love - greater than personal love. The kind that awaits everyone as a next step on their path.
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7/26/17 -  Greetings to all my dear readers! I am flooded with information about Love today!  I can't keep up with it all. I am by-passing a lot of them, because there are simply too many. When I find myself skimming articles instead of absorbing the light from them (light is information) I know it’s time to be more selective in my reading. I learn by absorbing the light. When I just skim through beautiful articles of higher meaning, my eyes get it and my brain gets it but my FEELINGS don’t get it. Light remains unfelt. It is when I absorb the Light fully into my feelings, by taking the time to absorb the information that is hidden within and behind the word itself, that’s when the Love takes hold in me. I feel the Love within the information.

Love and Light seems to be flooding the planet hourly. It is lifting those who hear and see and know. It is bypassing those who do not hear or see and therefore do not know. The earth is in transition. I am in transition. Anakosha is in transition. You are in transition. We are all gaining higher ground. Any pain we feel is caused by resistance. What are we resisting? We are naturally Love and Light. We are made of Love and Light. If we are resisting we are fighting against our nature.

A woman contacted Anakosha last week. I get several messages through the Anakosha website every week. David and I went to meet a lovely lady and had such a delightful time. She subsequently had a massage session with David. David is a miracle worker. He channels divine love and light. You too can have a beautiful healing session with David. You can reach him through the contact page HERE. He does therapeutic massage and also Tantric Massage but the energy is the same.

Everybody we meet these days is an Anakosha contact. She lives somewhere else, not in Florida, as many Anakosha contacts come from around the country, even other countries as far away as Singapore, the United Kingdom, South Africa, Australia. I receive letters from both couples and singles seeking something. There is a something missing in the lives of virtually everyone, but most people don’t know how to find it. Men think it’s more meaning sex, women think it’s more meaningful love. Some want to know how to get it through the swing parties, which Anakosha speaks of fluently, and others want more loving connections and meaningful love encounters. Everyone is very different, depending upon their prior history going back many lifetimes. All of us are evolving. You, me, your husband, wife, and each alone, on our own, privately, in the inner levels of our soul. There is hunger within the heart for something more. The soul is parched. We are all seeking for something that stirs us. A fire? A hope? A vision? A connection?

You wouldn’t believe the stories I hear from people. I don’t post these letters because they are private and sacred. But sometimes I post my response. I just responded to a woman I've been communicating with for awhile. I keep talking about hosting a group here but I haven’t issued an invitation yet. Meanwhile she is struggling within herself over things she doesn’t understand. This is why I'm planning to host a gathering of like-minded people, but it’s not in right divine time yet. The energies are not quite right yet. I have an inner ear to the heavens and I see the smooth perfection of the higher realms. I see many people there moving and working and sending us thoughts of love to try to wake us up to our natural relaxed state. But we are so busy struggling and resisting that light. We feel guilty when we sit down and take time out. We feel we must keep working or we must keep helping or we must keep resisting the “bad guys”. There are many resistance projects in the world being labeled love and light and help, but they are all struggles. What David and I have agreed upon, is simply Love. Love not as in lovemaking, but simply Love. Love is not a personal relationship or a sexual relationship. Love is a selfless shining of goodness from ones heart. It is as natural as the sun that shines, and the water that flows downhill. We are Love and Light and we need to shine more naturally.

This is easier for women to do. And in fact the modern woman is being primed to be the leaders in helping to de-stress the world and bring calm. Women have been disempowered of their natural ability to shine love because they (we) have submitted to the male in our lives. The way for women to become empowered is to attune with the divine feminine within themselves, which is unconditional Love - not their sexuality as the men keep pushing them into against their nature. Since sex is the primary driving force within many men - it being the most peak experience that leaves them feeling de-stressed and good - sex has been the main focus for women as well. It is natural to submit to men, biologically. The magnetic attraction is more than can be controlled, normally, by those who are yet unaware of their power. And so women follow the men into sexual activities when they don’t really want to.

This has caused no end of trouble at home and confusion for women. Many women are emotionally struggling because they are hooked into the men in their lives. Having been in the lifestyle of swinging for over 40 years now, and still engaged somewhat but from a higher and smoother perspective, I continue to see this. Many women identify with my writings, which is why I keep writing.

Empowering the women is what my colleague (David) and I are intending and projecting into the future. He works with his hands, as a licensed massage therapist; I am giving up my massage license and moving on. Empowering women requires some sharing of information. Such as - women are not intellectual. They don't relate easily to the logic that men promote. Women are brighter and smarter but they’re not intellectual in the sense they are not ruled by the head, but by the heart which also means gut instinct. It’s biological based on the flow of the soul.  Those women who are entrepreneurs and acclaimed by the world for their intelligence are still just women using native skills - the same native skills that ALL women have. The women who are considered intellectual giants are still women. They're just more determined to use their brains more than their feminine energies. Strong business-like women are still female first, biologically, and thus they have a superior foot up compared to men who are not biologically connected to the great unbroken sea of love and light which we were born out of, men included. Men simply have an outer orientation because they have a different role to play in life.

When women are connected into their divine feminine, they become balanced again, still able to do what they want to do, but with far more brightness. Women are amazing creatures when they are empowered. They are nurturers and wise beyond men because they're connected to the divine. They know more, see further and feel deeper. Women have become sublimated, dumbed down and messed up by a too-dominant masculine force - impersonally speaking - so our first job is to empower the women and bring them up and out of the smog. Help them reconnect through loving, warming, encouraging support, to the divine feminine within them. This is no mamby-pampy, wishy-washy love! Watch out for the empowered woman! That's what David and I are planning to do. He is doing it already with his massage sessions. I will fill in from my end by hosting some warming, loving, massage parties or workshops.

The men are invited but they’re going to have to take several steps back in the sense that this workshop is not going to end in sex. I feel confident they will understand and feel the goodness that will emerge from this effort. It is all about empowering the women. David is giving sessions to women right now and they are divine love sessions. He channels divine love. His sessions are called "therapeutic" or "tantric massage", but they are not restricted to those labels. He is totally 100% selfless. He empties himself of his ego and is able to use the divine love that flows through him like a radar beam. It finds blockages and melts them. She feels the releasing of blockages as blissful, warmth, peaceful, and sometimes tears stream down her cheeks.

David is not a saint by any means. But during this time when he channels divine love, he empties himself of the ego. He doesn’t have a personal motivation. No personal needs or desires. He is a tool of universal, pure love energy. Don’t expect anything from him. Let him channel. When the session is over, he is back to normal man again.

Since most everybody is coming from a level of sexual neediness or wantingness, I am unsure how many will respond to this invitation. Sex has been such a nuisance to shoo out of the way to get to the larger picture. It keeps bugging me. Lovemaking is not the demon, you understand; it’s the focus on sex. Attention is where we focus. Sex is too small and too petty and too physical to focus on, so we must learn to widen our focus. The focus on sex is a bully. It keeps clouding the issue of Love. It’s pushy and pushes itself into the limelight, when there are bigger things at stake.  The focus on sex prevents Love from being FELT. It keeps shorting out the fires of love which burn across the heavens and attempts to touch the soul but the focus on sex keeps getting in the way. Anyone who wants to get down to the "meat" of the matter (i.e., sex) should not come to this event, but should go to a swing club. Because we'll be focusing our attention on loftier planes via human hands, human hugs, human connection. It will be very human and very meaningful. It will be more intimate than sex. It will be more about Love, not sex, and how to MAKE Love, how to generate it, how to cultivate it, learning where it is located, learning what thoughts attract it and what thoughts repulse it. How to maintain love within a relationship, and how to make a relationship feel sacred.

The Love Party will be far, far, far, far, far, more than sex. Sex has limited me for the major part of my adult life because of its narrowness. I SO wanted to feel the largeness of love with a man, but I couldn’t because of sex. The pushiness of sex would always get in the way and demand attention and fulfillment like a little boy stamping his feet in a tantrum. Of course, I yielded and gave in to the little boy in the men. I always thought that was my duty. And then I met David and he helped to grow out of that submissive state. So the Love Club or Love Party, or the Love Workshop, whatever we end up calling it, is going to be a breakthrough experience for everyone who is drawn to attend. It truly i's about something far greater and far nobler and far more god-like than human beings have generally been able to experience up until now - except for those who have studied the proper Tantra.

Watch for an invitation. It will be coming soon. It will go out to all who ever contacted Anakosha. Remember, you are made of love. And light. Light is information so you have this information about love within you, through inner knowing. You can feel it. You are made of happiness and peace. You are made of joy. You don’t have to put forth effort to be in your natural state of peace, relaxation and happiness. It is natural to you underneath the facade of stress. You can fulfill yourself without exertion. Exertion is a sign that you are fighting something. Relax and be yourself. What are you fighting? What are you resisting? A relaxed state of mind and action is natural. Ease is natural. Comfort is natural. The trials and hardships are wearing you out. Relax, close your eyes, breathe in deep and breathe out deep, fill your lungs and empty your lungs, put your hand over your higher heart (between your heart and throat). Do this until you feel the peace come forth. You will feel the peace. Do this periodically. Relax. Breathe. Re-set your vibrations back to natural.
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7/6/17 - The Massage Club posted under MASSAGE is actually a Love Club. I used to call it that but then changed it to a Massage Club. No, it hasn’t started yet. It’s getting closer to becoming reality though. I’m waiting for everything to be ripe, smooth and ready. It’s close. Recently I received validating information from Spirit regarding the Love Club. I channel sometimes. I usually get this information when I have fingers on the keyboard and it just flows on through. Sometimes I am writing to a friend, sometimes to my journal, and sometimes for my blog here on this website. Today I stumbled upon an entry from a while ago, as if a reminder to get with it and get started. Actually I am getting ready to send announcements out. I’ve been dragging my feet, for which I apologize. I know people are waiting. I’m somewhat of a space case with my head in the clouds. It is taking me awhile to get my feet on the ground.  

From Spirit: The Love Club is being formed to introduce love into the world of human relations on a scale that is larger than has been known before. The concept is one of receiving love first, before giving love, for the world has you all indoctrinated into believing you are not capable of receiving love. That you are not worthy of receiving love. That you are sinners and therefore that you must somehow redeem yourselves and prove that you are worthy of being loved. Nonsense! You are a child of love and therefore love has been built into you. Your design has been cut out of the father and mother of love. You are immensely valuable and irreplaceable. Within your body, mind and feelings there runs gold. It is a firey brilliant flashing golden river that breathes through you. You ARE love walking. You ARE love talking. You ARE love expressing. You ARE Love on every level of your being. You simply do not believe it. This is the reason why the Love Club is being brought forth at this time.

Once you have accepted love, and allowed love to reside in you, and to be received by you, into your body cells and your structure, then you will be able to give love to others because you will KNOW love and what love feels like. Until then, you cannot give love to others. And you will learn how extraordinarily free love feels when you have removed all barriers and false beliefs that hold you back. Love is your natural environment. Love is free. Love flows freely through you now. Believe it and set your sights higher, wider and without reservations. Love yourself first. Allow yourself to receive love from your higher mind and higher heart, for you have reduced your mind and heart to lower vibrations and you cannot see or feel clearly the truth of love.

You are an infinite expression of love. You are a higher mind and a higher heart than you realize. You are an immense well spring of love. An artesian well of love pumping up from the depths that are beyond you unknown to you, being pumped up into sight and vision, into your personal world. You are ready to receive love. Practice receiving love. Practice being held by friends, lovingly. Feel the love start to flow within you. Just feel it. Don’t respond. Just feel and allow the love to register on your inner body structure. See what it feels like.

The Love Club starts out on an esoteric level (inner level) but it will expand outward into physical relationships as the Love Club grows. We will maintain the inner connection all the while, for love comes from within each person. Each one is a transforming station stepping down the infinite and formless energy of love, through the perceptions of the mind, and down further into the body cells of the organs and tissues of the heart.  First it is received, then it is expressed outwardly to others.

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7/4/17 - All is quiet here at our place on this holiday of the 4th of July. Freedom day and celebrations are in order. But I am peaceful, internal, hopeful and I will leave all celebration to those tied to the "form" world. I'm in a unified field which is very peaceful to me. I can feel things backing up, sorting out, adjusting, realigning, becoming more unified. Things are on the brink of spilling over into the vision and sound world so we can see and hear.

This morning there are wonderful postings on the sananda.website, one of several I trust and check every morning. Many, many, many. I hope you are participating. There is an increasing flow of truth coming out. It's flooding the planet. It's too fast and too much for me to keep up, but I try. This is a major thing that's happening to our world. As an ET from another place told Bob Dean, contactee, (I'm listening to youtubes) the ET told Bob "If you only knew how special you are, you would bend your knee to one another...."  I must find that spot and take it down exactly - and I'm planning to. The ET who works in a lab undercover is giving a history of who we earthlings are and how important we are, how special, how remarkable.

The human being on this planet is the culmination of many, many, many other races from other planes, dimensions, planets and places in the universe. They all came here and manipulated - planted their genes into us, this planet, the earth, rearranged its natural order - and stepped back to watch to see what would happen. It was interference on one hand but it was an experiment on the other by god-like-beings who themselves are evolving, though far ahead of us. The earthling is some kind of miracle that made it. The human being was apparently messed up so many times it looked hopeless, held back and enslaved and damaged and obstructed and prevented from seeing, but all the while the genes from all these other races are in us, floating as junk DNA. Their intelligence is in us, and it's connecting now. It's linking up. We are becoming aware and, as the ET told Bob Dean, we're more than them. We are becoming something they are NOT! And they're watching to see what we're going to do and how we're going to do it.

I received just a hint of this stupendous thing, this miracle that the earthling has hidden inside of himself and herself. The human race - each human - the poor and penniless and the rich and famous (who were poor and penniless in another life) and the ignorant and the wise. We are all members of a special species that will change things not just in this world but in many worlds and planes of existence. Our world is not being changed by "them" from outside and beyond. Our world is being changed from within us, from within each one of us. They are giving us affirmations and confirmations but we are doing the work. They're not giving us anything we don't already know, somewhere inside of us. Haunting flashes, shadowy memories, familiar sensings, gut feelings. We're linking up junk DNA, the part of us that comes from other races and other dimensions. We are so much more than we've been told.

"They" are helping us by giving us hints but we are doing the job. One of those jobs is to "simply be". Hold onto the good feeling that comes. That's all we need to do. The good feelings are the natural feelings. We don't have to do earth-shaking acts. It's a participation effort to become natural. Every single human being on the planet is doing its part. We're cultivating our genetic pool to become good, intelligent, loving and wise. And "they" are able to watch and monitor us, to see how we're doing. The level of conscious awareness that is taking place. How far we are waking up. How much of the inner truth we are allowing and accepting.

"If only you knew..." and now we are becoming aware and getting to know. We are now getting this information, not from "them" but from ourselves. We are revealing what we know. I am feeling the readying of this within me. And you are feeling the readying of this within yourself. Word is out. It's flooding the internet. People are waking up. We're not just waiting for the RV or for Nesara or free energy devices or cures for diseases - it's a team effort to bring all of these and more out into the open and not be afraid any more to be who we are. It's a blossoming. It brings tears to the eyes of those who know what's happening. We just have to apply wisdom and patience as the process is ongoing and connecting genetic material in our bodies and brains. We have to use heart-centered intuition and wisdom to recognize what's true and what's disinformation, what is the timing and what is not time.

Oh, I have a lot to write. The massage club remains my focus but within me the energy still hasn't settled yet. There's more coming in. It's still processing and I'm sure it is for you too. New energies - facets of ourselves that are disconnected - are coming home to roost. Parts of you and parts of me are coming back to us and we have to stop and let it enter our daily lives and welcome it home. Embrace it in fullness. It all has to be connected up as a whole. This is happening to everyone. We had been cut up and distorted and parts of us were left out there hanging, unused and unusable. This is the end times now. In order to move ourselves into the new times, all those parts of us have to be gathered up and accounted for. Forgiveness is a major thing. Forgiveness of self and others. This is going on with everyone. It's not a matter of waiting, it's not a matter of patience, it's a matter of accepting, opening, allowing and adjusting to ourselves. Not to other people, but to our inner selves. We are getting ready to receive more - and bend the knee to each and everyone who comes in our front door.

6/16/17 -  Today’s blog is about Tantra but it’s rather lengthy, so please bear with it as I prepare the way. Do you know that a closed mind leads to degeneration?  Firm and fixed belief systems are good on one hand, to keep life organized, but one must have some openness mixed in to allow fluidity and change. It is the fresh infusion of newness over on top of the old that humanizes us and brings us the feeling of being alive. Keep an open mind as you read this, but don’t give up your own ideas and your own past experiences. Rely on yourself. It is the fusion of the old and the new that stabilizes you and makes you more solid. Sometimes new ideas are scary and threatening, but as we consider them and allow them to process - is it good for me or not? - this is how we expand ourselves to become more of of our potential. We must grow or we will stagnate. Learning more about Tantra is two-pronged. We become more spiritual, and we become more physical. In other words, we become more human. Human beings are gods and goddesses in training to do miraculous things in the world of men. We are learning. We are becoming more aware of ourselves.

Humanity believes itself physical. It has believed so for a long time. But slowly and gradually we have become aware that there is a non-physical part within us. We are physical but we are not dead pieces of meat. There is something alive in us walking, breathing, seeing, hearing, feeling. There are stories being told from the “return-to-life” people. I’ve met some and heard the stories. You probably have, too. These stories tell us that when we die, only the body dies but that we actually go on living. The spirit thought it was a body but when it stepped out of the body it found itself in an etheric type body, fully conscious and aware. Even MORE aware than it was while in the body. Tantra works with spiritual forces that most of us are not very aware of.

The etheric body is an exact duplicate of the physical body at death. It looks the same but it can start changing its appearance soon after death, because the person finds it can "think" changes almost instantly. It can think back to its childhood home and in an instant, be there. Or think of a loved one and be there in that person’s presence, instantly. And one can change how the body looks. It can appear younger or older or more beautiful, however it wants to. And if a limb is missing, it can have a new limb instantly. This process of learning how to use the etheric body, and live in the etheric world of emotions and thought, takes a little time to get used to. But there are helpers who come to assist. But the point is, you are not just a physical body. There is an emotional aspect to you that has been curtailed. Both men and women. Through Tantra we can access that part of us that we have blocked or suppressed. We don’t use our emotions very effectively here on earth in our earth bodies. Tantra is love in the etheric body; it is called emotions in the physical body. We need to access our emotions.

We can begin accessing Tantric love now, while we still live in a physical body. We don’t have to wait until after death to step into our etheric body which is our awareness body. We can open channels to our etheric body right now, through certain training. This is why we need a more open mind. This can be a big jump for some people. To begin to wake up to our fuller potential while remaining human, is to spiritualize our human bodies. When we spiritualize our bodies we can enjoy all that physical life can offer but in a better, smoother, peaceful, more loving way. That’s the main objective of Tantra. Not to leave the body but to come more fully into it and ground it into reality.

I didn't mean to write this when I started. My thoughts just took a quirky turn. The intention was to write something on my blog just to let everyone know that I am still here. It's been awhile since I last journaled. Yes, things are happening in my life and yes, things are evolving. The death and dying scenario above is merely a lead-in to the subject of healing brokenness, boredom and stagnation. There are ways to uplift, refresh and rejuvenate. Tantra is an ancient teaching, but a new idea to us in the West. It is coming into awareness in America. I’ve been mentioning it for years as a slide-by. It is thought of as sexual because everything has been made sexual here in America. People think, maybe it is a new sexual technique?  A new love technique? A new spiritual technique?

I’m letting my mind free-fall here because it’s a subject that no one is master of. Well, almost no one. I want to explore this concept in writing, for it is the way I grow awareness. By writing about it I can put into words what, alone in mind, is confusing. It has been said, “When confused, talk to someone. It will help.“ So this is my way of talking about what is on my mind. People write to me through Anakosha and they express various needs. Everyone is searching for something that is slightly different from everyone else, but almost everyone wants more freedom to interact with others. They are reaching to interact but there are blockages. There are situations holding us back. Or belief structures holding us back. Or contracts and agreements holding us back. We are antsy. We want more connection. More freedom. More love. More honesty. Fill in your own words here.

As I read the letters coming to me I feel as if they are straining at the bit. Like a horse strains to be let loose of the reins that hold it back. What is it that holds us back? Most of the letters coming to are written by men, but that's understandable I suppose. After all, Anakosha started out as a swing club and its pages are filled with references pertaining to the subjects of love, sex and intimacy. But now that Anakosha has changed focus towards love in human sexual affairs, the communications coming from men are surprisingly more heart-centered. They contain more of a feminine quality. Men too are seeking more intimacy, not just women. But we’re not leaving sex out of the picture. Sex is a very important part of being human. It is the evolutionary force within humankind which elevates us to higher status. The sexual feeling of release, as in orgasm, is a lesser version of the bliss and rapture that awaits us. There is a spiritual truth waiting to be discovered behind what we think of as sex.

So why has it been so degraded and misunderstood? Because women are damaged. Men too have been damaged, but with all due respect, men are secondary to the main problem. Sorry, but that’s just the way it is. Feminine sexual energy is the strongest creative force on this planet but it‘s not free. It has been locked into place and hunkered down. It is not free and it must be liberated. Sexual energy is sacred and women carry the sacred key within their bodies, unknowingly. When the women are liberated and healed of their blockages, they will become empowered in ways that men will LOVE!  Therefore, men will be healed secondly. It is all very natural.

As I wrote yesterday to someone, I have seen so much and learned so much, that I am now a graduate of a very advanced school that has no name but ranges from the lowest to the highest. I am a woman who has been in the lifestyle and hosted swinging events for 40 years, while simultaneously studying advanced spiritual matters, mystery school teachings that most people aren’t privy to because they are not interested. Not that I’m better than anyone else, but that I’ve studied and learned some things that opened doors for me - doors that were pretty heavy and required some intense training to get through.

Now that I have integrated both paths together, the down and dirty and the divine grace that is the true aspect within us, you could say I am fairly well learned on the subject of sex, love and intimacy. I’m kind of smiling as I write this because I want to lighten the mood. But learned as I am, I am only a woman, and a woman can’t do the things a man can do. It’s a function of biology. A man’s energy flows in an outward direction to move, shake and change the world in which he lives, whereas a woman’s energy flows inward and upward to the heart to ensure comfort, peace and emotional nourishment for whoever needs it. It’s difficult to be a mover and shaker outwardly, while maintaining emotional peace and comfort at home (within).
 
Then I met David. David is a soul mate friend. He is me in a man’s body. He is a licensed professional massage therapist. David is not his real name. He and I have been weaving our knowledge together over the past two years, communicating on all levels. Our minds are linked and we think pretty much like one. But I’ll be retiring as a therapist this year while David is expanding his professional career by adding Tantric Massage to his venue. He has broken through a ceiling which is profound, in my estimation.

David’s sessions range from therapeutic massage to loving energy massage to tantric massage to ascension massage. Actually it is all of these and more, because universal love energy cannot be defined in words. It is an experience. David channels creative love energy from source. He is a gifted healer.  He flows love when he puts his hands on people. I can write about it but I don’t flow it the way he does. When he flows love, he knows where the blockages are. He tells me things that he probably wouldn’t tell a client. For example, he wrote yesterday, “I could feel the Love flowing, but it was like a trickle in certain areas. Being squeezed as it were. She has deep seated blockages, but if I was to work with her to help her to heal, the first things to concentrate on are the huge scars she has. These are absolutely interfering with the flow.”

He was referring to etheric scars. He can tell when the flow of energy is blocked or is being diverted around an area that is closed off. In another instance, he wrote, “She received and received and received. And, so did I. The feedback was pure bliss. Afterwards, as I tried to process the sheer beauty of it all, I knew that a huge breakthrough had been made and that it was as if from that point onwards, everything will be deeper, more powerful and at the same time more nuanced.”

Remember, this is not personal lovemaking. It may sound like it but it’s not. This is therapy. It is important to understand that this is a more true Tantric Massage than most of what you see online, which is often portrayed as pornographic. A Tantric Massage channels creator energy, which is love, through the body‘s meridians. The meridians are a web-like structure that criss-crosses the whole body. Acupuncturists have charts of the meridians on their walls, which identify junctures where blockages occur in which to put a needle. In ancient Sanscrit the word meaning “web” is called tantra. Tantra means web. That is where Tantra comes from. We have adopted the word when but it simply means a web, like a net. It's not so esoteric after all!

Our physical bodies have an etheric webbing running through it which also spills out into the air around is as a force field. We call it an aura. Our auras can be dim and dark, or bright and light and colorful, depending on how well our life force is moving through our bodies. The webbing is composed of tiny, hair-like hollow tubes, and they go everywhere. Through these tubes our consciousness, which is spirit, flows. Either fast and full of vitality, or weak and slow. When those tiny tubes become blocked in any number of places, our consciousness - our life force - slows down. Less life force to the brain causes slower mental alertness. Less life force to the liver causes slower liver functions, etc. David flows life force into his client’s body, similar to how an acupuncturist works with needles. It is an increase in the love force. Anybody who has had acupuncture will remember how peaceful they felt afterwards. David’s clients feel the same way.

Knowledge of Tantra is actually knowledge of the web and life force. One FEELS the web, and when one feels the life force one feels it as love. It is a wonderful feeling. As David is working on a client, he can feel where the love is flowing because it causes a feedback loop and he feels it too. He feels blissful feelings which enhances his own loving feelings within himself. That is the science of Tantra. People must train for it. It is not done overnight. He can likewise feel when the life force has diminished or come to a stopping point. Or where it diverges into two separate flows as it goes around a blockage. Knowledge of Tantra is done through feelings, feelings of love which expand or contract. An authentic Tantric practitioner is able to influence the flow from having practiced with it, but it is not coming from him personally. He is allowing the flow to come through him as a channel and into the body of his client. He cannot personalize it or it would cut down the flow through him. He would not be able to be a channel or a healer if he did that.

David can feel love flowing versus where love has been diminished and where there is no love flowing at all. As he continues to hold his hands on the physical body, the love flowing from him (through him) seeks for the love that is present within the client and is attracted towards it in that direction, and thus breaks barriers caused by pain, trauma, surgery or whatever caused the emotional repression. This is a very rudimentary definition. The real experience has to be felt.   

The teachings of Tantra come in layers. You can only learn up to a certain point and then you need help for an expert. I have studied and learned it intellectually, while David has the “feel” for it intuitively. Maybe he lived it in prior lives, I suspect he did. But advanced knowledge of Tantra at some point by-passes conscious understanding and becomes pure feelings of love. That’s where the references of Shiva and Shakti come in. They represent the universal creative force as one. The male creative force and the female creative force at the highest levels are one being and it is purely experiential.

But coming back to the here and now of Tantra, the information is becoming known because we’ve asked for it. We are ready for it. And David has emerged as an authentic practitioner. Knowledge of Tantra has been vague for centuries but it’s starting to dawn on us that we are a loving people who have closed ourselves off to love. As we become more understanding and tolerant, Tantra is coming forth to us. Tantra is love. It is the web of life that is inside of us, on the etheric plane. As we open our minds to the possibilities, we will begin accessing it. It‘s experiential. We can access it during normal sexual activities as long as love is somehow involved. Just one person alone can access love, without telling the sex partner. Love is a real energy and it is possible to learn how to flow it. Let us learn together.

Anakosha is working towards a two-pronged effort - one is David’s Tantric Massage, which will empower  women by healing the damage done from living in a world of too much force. Also teaching men who assist with their wives. And secondly we are hoping to have enough people to hold massage swaps, so everyone can practice on other people, not just their own mates. Flowing impersonal love is an essential part of Tantra teachings. To flow love, one must take it beyond personal. Personal constricts and diminishes the flow.

The web of life - of love - is everywhere, hence the phrase “oneness of life“. It pervades humans, animals, plants, minerals, air, water, fire, earth. Love is the creative principle flowing down into density and manifestation. It is intelligent. If we think things are not intelligent, then they are not. They are dumb to us. But if we think things are in fact intelligent and have consciousness, then things everywhere respond and interact with us through the web of life. Thus, we become more spiritualized yet while still in a physical body enjoying good food, good friends, good sex, good entertainment, good ideas, and opportunities. We become more perfected and refined as human beings.  After all, we are gods and goddesses in training. We are learning, always learning, to keep an open mind to the possibilities that are endlessly pouring into us. Endlessly flowing downward into the material world and into our bodies. It is Shiva flowing into Shakti.  

I love to speak about these things. I don’t understand the life force but I have experienced it. David actually FEELS it as love flowing and he feels when it is not flowing. Life force energy can come in full strength or it can come diminished to a trickle. When it stops altogether the body dies. The heart stops pumping. When it flows full force it is felt as bliss and more bliss on into rapture and nirvana. But in practical terms for now, it is a healing force and women are the key holders and women are blocked.  We must liberate the feminine and free her to become natural woman, wild and free, so she can turn around and mirror back to the men in her life, the full force of what she is feeling. We cannot command her to feel if she is blocked. She must come into feeling from within herself. Only love can do that.

I receive requests from men who ask about women. For one who hears, let him hear this: The question to ask is about yourself, of yourself. You can start practicing FEELING feminine energy within yourself. Remove the blockages within yourself, by allowing love to activate within you. You can love yourself. Tantra is a teaching about loving yourself, but I better not get into that right now or it will lead to another lengthy article. We will keep posting about Tantra. The masters recommend reverence in solitude to get in touch with your own divinity.

David and I hold an intention for a massage club gathering but first we have to have more people who have expressed interest in this concept. It is a slow growth, which is the best type of growth. If you are interested, contact me through the contact page. If you want to contact David, also write to him through the massage page. We both receive it. Let us know your thoughts. Introduce yourself or selves. Become a participant.

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5/26/17 - Most people are afraid of love. Most people think it's about falling in love with someone else and thus dangerous to the current relationship. But it’s not. Love is not a falling. Love is expanding and enhancing. Love is not an emotional attachment. Love is not a substitution of one person for another. Love is much, much bigger than that. The mistake is in interpreting personal love for the immensely larger Love that is available to us. Love with a capital L.

So if you love your husband, as I love my husband, and we feel a lack somewhere that is not being fulfilled, then there is some love that your husband or my husband is not giving us. The same holds true for your husband. If there is something he feels is missing in his life which he cannot define (or dare not define), then there is some love that you are not able to fulfill in him. It’s scary, isn’t it? Most people don’t want to hear this, but love is lacking somewhere.

So what we have to do is build our love. Love is inherent within us. We don’t want to substitute the love we already have but expand on what we have. We don‘t want to sacrifice or give up what we already have. That has been very good so far, but we‘ve hit a ceiling. A limit. We simply want to expand. We are ready to expand. It’s time. We feel it’s time. It's like when a couple starts out in a small one-floor home, and they live together and grow together in many ways, on many levels, and they have babies and settle into hobbies or work projects, and they need more room. So they build a second floor on the house to provide more space.

We need more space. We need to stretch ourselves. We need to grow. Your creativity and your passion needs to grow. Your soul needs to express more outwardly into the physical world. You want to interact with more people, on more levels. You want to soundboard and to talk to people. You are happy with what you've already got at home, like the little flower bush in your garden is happy with what it's got, but it needs to grow more branches because it is growing past the wall. It’s trying to express more of life within itself.

So a relationship needs to grow more freely, more expressively, more passionately, more creatively and more spontaneously. That’s how human beings grow and evolve. We all, as souls in physical bodies, require room to grow ourselves outward more expressively. We might not want to call it “love” but that’s what it is actually. Everything is love. Everything is created out of love. Love with a capital L. Things are not created out of hate or anger or violence. Those things tear down and destroy. Anything good grows and evolves out of love with a capital L. We grow from love with a small l to Love with a capital L. And that Love that is capitalized grows bigger and bigger and bigger, the more we apply it sensibly, with wisdom, with truth, with respect.

So where do you go when you aren’t receiving enough love in your life and you don't want to throw away what you DO have?  You reach out to others. It’s time to talk. In past ages human beings cheated. Today, there is a movement towards more honesty, more openness. We are learning to be more truthful about our needs. We are growing up. We are beginning to learn that others feel like we do. We are suspect we are not alone. In prior ages we thought we were all alone in this, but now, with the internet and instant communication, we are learning we are more alike underneath, than not. The spiritual movement is showing that we all come from the same source. From Love with a capital L. The onus is on us to expand outside of our comfort zone which has not been fulfilling us.

Humanity is a species that is heart-centered. We did not know that before. Or if we did, we kept it to ourselves. Now, more openly we are admitting it, and drawing new conclusions. We are in an age of remarkable transition. We growing closer whether we like it or not because we know ourselves better. We are beginning to hold hands.  We are finding new ways to fulfill our needs and to advance ourselves so we feel better with ourselves. Feeling good is GOOD! To feel happy is good. To love each other is good. That is what my husband and I did with swinging, and that is what David and I are doing with the yet-to-unfold massage parties. Swinging wouldn’t give me what I needed, it only gave me sex. So I asked the universe to help me find a way to expand and bring love in. I don’t want to give up swinging but I have temporarily given it up because it was hurting me to conform to its limitations. In order to evolve into love I had to step outside of swinging. There was no opportunity for the deeper, wider, more loving interactions to develop in swinging. I wanted to spend more leisurely time with a man or a woman, alone without the pressure to “move on” and “get with it”. I wanted more time to enjoy the process of enhancing feelings of love. Not sex, but love. I subsequently learned that other women wanted this too, but the men didn’t understand my need. They only knew about copulating and oral sex. And once the climax took place, they were done and they moved on. And I was not fulfilled.

Please don’t get me wrong. I don’t judge them now. I did at first but not now. I understand the need for lovemaking. There is going to be a strong compulsion to go into lovemaking at the massage parties, just like in swinging. But if it goes into sexual lovemaking prematurely an abortion happens for those who are not ready or who simply don‘t want to. It is a waste of precious moments of pleasure and oneness - all lost forever - when someones need is so great that they must copulate NOW!  To satisfy a heated desire of someone else is what urges me to create a massage party that does not have sex as it’s goal. Sex has a way of taking over the more refined aspects of love. It’s denser, thicker, stronger, louder and lustier than the sensitive and delicate radiation that flows between two people, skin to skin, barely touching. Loving with hearts, minds and feelings is emotionally empowering and retrains the body’s capacity to FEEL love. This practice of slowing down and focusing on skin to skin produces more love than sex can produce. This is what people call “erotic”. Such moments are rarely felt in swinging scene because of the lack of education about love and eroticism. In the lack of knowing about it, sex is all there is.

Most people are not ready for FREE love. I don‘t mean free sex, but free love. Swingers are very good at free sex, but free love refers to loving others freely and giving them time to grow and expand their capacity to love. I give people the freedom to expand in love. David gives people the freedom to expand in love. We don’t pressure people into any kind of action at all. We give freely the time and energy and space for people to feel free. We would like to demonstrate this to others - how to give everyone they meet space and time to grow and expand their pleasure zones and feel the feelings of warmth that is so difficult to put into words but they are expansive and liberating, blissful, connective, fulfilling and more.

Free love is giving love freely to everyone. Free love is providing room, space and time for everyone to get to where they want to go without pressuring them or intervening for them or nudging them or wishing they would hurry up. Free love is the opposite of being selfish. Picture selfish, then picture the extreme opposite. That is unconditional love. No expectations. Free love is selfless. Free love allows love to grow in other people. The science of love is, If you want more love, you GIVE more love. Free love is a higher form of love.

Most of us think of love as being something personal between me and my mate, and that is very true. We don’t diminish that. It is beautiful love and it’s very personal. Free love is not personal. Free love is transparent and open and non-possessive. There is no emotional attachment in free love because it is not possessive. It is not exclusive. It is friendly and loving, but it is not an emotional attachment. This is what we have to learn how to do if we want to expand from small love into larger Love with a capital L because free love is inclusive and there are many people who are waiting to be loved and be shown how to love above and beyond the narrow confines of man-made laws of monogamy. You can have many, many friends in the free love category. You can enrich your world by leaps and bounds by learning about free love.

Most people are not ready for free love. Loose free love. Light free love. Transparent free love. Non-attachment free love. The kind of love that is patient and allows everyone to grow and adapt at their own rate of speed without pushing them to “get there”. Most of us need to be shown what free love looks like and feels like. Most of us need to experience it. Most of us need to practice it. Most of us would like to see it demonstrated. Most people fail in demonstrating free love because they become attached to someone emotionally, which creates an exclusive relationship shunning the others they would practice with. When someone falls in love with someone, even if only temporarily, an ownership quality develops. This, we need to learn how to overcome if we are to be free. None of us like the feeling of jealousy, but no one creates it except ourself. We don‘t like feeling suspicious, distrustful or insecure because someone we love is loving someone else. We create those feelings inside of us and we can uncreate them by becoming bigger people, capable of more Loving more with a capital L and giving them room to grow.

We couples - I include myself here - want to expand and enjoy free love but we are bogged down with the cultural tradition of ownership of partners. We are wrapped up in each other’s “stuff”.  Free, loose, light, transparent, non-attachment love is difficult to get to in the close-knit cocoon of a monogamous relationship. That’s why we need to get together and discuss this and practice this. I am eager to have a group of like-minded people to share this concept with. I know it can be done. We just need time to practice and find out what it feels like to loosen the stranglehold of the old paradigm - obeying each other til death do we part. It’s time to free ourselves up - not leave our wonderful beloved mates - but expand and experience the higher, greater, freer, looser, transparent, non-attachment friendships with other people without feeling guilty about it. It will enhance our home life. It will brighten our relationship. It will charge it, empower it, evolve it, lift it and create new opportunities. We will be surprised at ourselves in the end.

David has been saying right along. “All there is is love.“ He is referring to free unconditional, transparent, love from the highest source of all. David has been through a spiritual transformation. I watched him and supported him through an intense period. Today he says, “Once you experience this Love (with a capital L) you will never be the same. You will be changed.” He has said this repeatedly to me and to others.

Today I read a channeled massage from an ascended master the same thing. I get lots of channeled articles from the spiritual realms. I process these articles and lower them into the physical. I ask myself, how does this feel to a human body with five senses? We are human. We are physical. We have fives senses through which we interact with the world and other people. We are not spiritual, we are human. So how can we use this information in the physical world?  We five senses allow us to feel, see, hear, taste and smell other people and the world around us. Without them we would be alone in a sea of darkness. So I lower these very high, non-human, spiritual messages down into physical and imagine what it would be like to FEEL this in a human body. David has said, “All there is is love, and once you experience this Love you will never be the same.”

The article I read this morning says, “Love is POWERFUL!  You have no idea how powerful It is, and when you know yourself once more as Love, as you will, joy and wonder will flood into your heart – the Tsunami of Love. All you need do is to allow it to happen. You have become so accustomed to your severely limiting life as a human that it seems normal, and you are very reluctant to release your hold on it.  The awakening process has been carefully and divinely planned to ensure that it occurs smoothly, gently, and with an intense experience of being loved. When you feel the Love that is being offered to you, you will be unable to resist It or retreat from It because Its attraction is so strong.  It will draw you Home, which is where, at the deepest level of your being, you always are.”

But I am here to say, we don’t have to wait until we are out of body. Let‘s experience this Love while in a human body with five senses. It is sensual. It is erotic. It is Love that is so far beyond personal love that you can’t possess it. We can keep our personal love but this is going outside the front door into the wide open world of more love. Bigger love. It is kind of hard to understand what I’m talking about here, so the only thing to do is experience it. That’s why David and I are focusing on getting together a massage party.

Human beings are built to experience ecstasy. Dr. Candace Pert, PhD, was a neuroscientist who spent her life in a laboratory studying human cells. She said in a 2003 lecture, “We’re actually ‘hardwired‘ for bliss—both physical and divine.” Her work is worth exploring. You can find her on the internet. She changed the way we look at emotions and science.

In conclusion - again, I apologize for writing such lengthy articles - to all those swingers out there who would love to join a massage group for massage parties but hold back because there’s no romantic ending (sex) afterward, I’ll repeat what I have been saying all along. Swinging is a good first step but quick sex falls short. There are more steps we need to take in our exploration of human relationships, love, intimacy and eroticism.  These next steps must be tethered to the heart or we won‘t get there. Love is heart-centered, not groin-centered. If it's not heart-centered, our intimate connections are going to continue to be dirty, shameful, surrounded by guilt, kept away from children, done in the dark, in secret, cheating, afraid to talk about it, that kind of low attitude.

The next step toward bigger, better love is not the same steps you would take towards bigger, better sex. There are ways to intensify the sex feeling in you and your partners, but it won’t expand you or make you feel larger and more liberated. Intensifying sex feelings through whatever techniques you can find, is like creating a bomb. It compacts all the molecules, chemistry and energies into a smaller and smaller space - the smaller the better - so there is a bigger explosion. Love with a Capital L is felt as the opposite by allowing yourself and the others around you to decompact, loosen up, relax, breathe, slow down, unzip. Defuse the bomb

As we learn more about love, intimacy and eroticism, we expand our auras, open our hearts, lose our jealousy and possessiveness and elevate our minds. We learn how to keep love in our focus. We start building the second story on our home relationship in a wholesome, decent, uplifting and transparent way. There is more love to experience and our bodies are hard-wired to receive it, quivering in need for more love. We are ready to receive it. There is more love to tap into and to share, more love to give and more love to receive, more love to surround ourselves with. It is experiential. I could talk or write until I’m blue in the face but you wouldn’t feel it.  We have to feel it. It is all about owning the feelings of love. It is emotional. It is intuitive. It is genuine. It is authentic. It is sincere. But we can't keep talking about it. We have to do something about it to move the love out of its hidden spaces (the blocked areas) into action. We need to share it. That’s why David and I are focusing on creating a massage party.

I am also thinking of hosting a women’s talk and massage session because I see many women are disempowered and afraid to speak from their heart, the soft heart of the divine feminine, in the presence of men. I have been approached about doing women’s talk sessions in the past and have done some, but I have put this on the shelf and forgotten about them.  However, recent indications are showing that women continue to need same-gender support, both emotional and mental support, to help them clarify their feelings. Other women are healers for their sisters when they are genuinely supportive, nurturing and express qualities native to the divine feminine which is within each one, underneath the mask of male/mental programming (criticism, competition and condemnation). Women, when in the sacred goddess mode of heart-centered love, serve as wonderful, uplifting mirrors to their sisters, reflecting, “You’re OK, and what’s more, you are RIGHT!"

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5/14/17 - Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers and would-be mothers who read this. There is a happy upward movement of love going out and around the world today from offspring to Moms everywhere. A Mother's love is a special kind of love. It is feminine. It nurtures where things are not right and it helps to mend them.

Speaking of feminine, this week David and I will meet with a woman without her husband with the intention of inviting her into the  massage swap group for loving couples. Apparently he is not ready, bless his soul. We love the men - our men - but many of them simply are not ready to receive nourishing, loving massage. It is perhaps the objectivity and physicality that men have worked with all their life which cannot understand what this that we do is all about. What is the purpose? How does it fit it into MY life? Why should I do it? Why should I trust it?

This that David and I are offering is educational. It's a demonstration in how to relax and receive. I guess that is difficult for men to do but we are hoping. We invite the men to participate with us to LEARN about it. Accompany their wives and find out more about it. Learn what it is like to receive love in a different way other than sensual or sexual. How to relax and be soothed by people who care without wanting anything back. How to be appreciated in a kindly fashion. The biological chemistry that men work on, I suspect, not being masculine, is having to be on guard and watching out for the dangers in life. They are the protectors of their women and children. It has been the cultural programming of men of our species for a long time. And under those conditions, yes, I can see where it is difficult to drop one's guard and to suddenly trust. That is the woman’s role, to trust and intuite and feel kindly towards others. It is a difficult thing to do for men. That is why David and I invite couples to come in to meet us first, just to talk and share information. We don’t want to push massage on anyone, but that is our method of working with people and we do not charge money for it. It is free.

As I am beginning to understand it, men by and large have been so busy serving in the man's' role, that he cannot simply drop that role and open himself to receiving the support and nurturing from others.  That is what we have decided to offer this to the women even if their men do not want to, or are not ready to accompany them. It is the women who are the leaders of the new age dawning upon us, the age of enlightenment or lighting up on the INSIDE.  Light and love are synonymous, so when we light up the INSIDE, we are awakening the love inside. Women will be leading the way in the coming days.

Women have talents that men don't have. They just don’t have confidence in those talents. They have not been supported in those talents. They have been put down. Women have the softness that is inherent in human kind, and they are safeguarding that softness until it is time to bring it forth. David and I are offering to assist in bringing it forth. We love our men and we want to bring forth the softness in them. And the intuition and the feelings of being loved and cared for in our men. We have not been able to demonstrate that in the past ages because of the violence of our planet and cities.

Women have the inner connections that will help prepare the men to receive this finer activity of life, after they themselves have received the spiritual support and spiritual confidence that they are right and they have been all along. Now is the time for women to stop allowing themselves to be dismissed, and to be stronger and more daring and courageous in standing up for that softness that they represent in their inner hearts but have not dared express in their outer world.

It is a subtle but conscious act to press the will of love, kindness and nourishment outward onto life, after centuries of having been intimidated. Women are designed for this but have been forced to fold their wings because practical matters take precedence in a mentally-driven world. The divine feminine‘s purpose is to correct the mean and ugly and nourish the good and noble. Slow hands stroking with a warm heart is good for a person because there is a weaving together of both or all parties’ energies. It is used, not for foreplay, but for cellular healing, soul healing, which sensitizes a person to receive better, bigger, more and wiser. Slow massage is not foreplay for sex. Working the genitals is foreplay for sex. Slow massage with a warm heart all over the body is different. It prepares a person to receive love, to feel love, and to flow love back. This is the universal love. Love with a capital L. There is a “heart-of-God” feeling to it on a cosmic scale.

David and I work on the vibration of love. Love is not personal. Love is a universal principal. Is a spiritual intelligence. Most people think of love as something reserved for mates, lovers, families and very special friends, but it is actually the glue that holds everything together - galaxies and suns and planets and moons and the entire nature kingdom and allows civilizations to continue. And it holds people together, their relationships, communities and families, and neighbors and co-workers. When something is falling apart in life, think love. Shift the focus to love and picture love all around that part of life that is not working. Put some time into imagining Love.

Love has to be consciously applied and thought of. It's an effort to figure out what is the right vibration of love, how it feels, where to focus, what to do to bring it about. But finding the right feeling, texture or vibration of love is a worthwhile effort. When you hit on it you know. It’s transformational. It's a soothing, peaceful, mending vibration. The thing that is broken may not get fixed instantaneously, like magic, but YOU will be. And when YOU are soothed, mended and healed with the Love vibration, then your world begins to change. It will rearrange itself to conform to YOU. As David says, “After you have received this universal Love with a capital L, you will never be the same again.“  David channels more universal Love with a capital L than anyone else I know,
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5/8/17 - I want to share with you this morning what I wrote to a man who expressed "disconnect" with his wife. I share this with loving intentions. I have been thinking about the plight of men recently, and this one particular message spurred me into saying things that I have been hesitant to say because it makes me sound like a feminist. Without divulging his words, here is what I intuited and felt to write to him.

Thank you A for writing and expressing your inner feelings. It is good to reach out like this. And like you, I don't know where to begin to express what is in my heart to say to you. Let me pause and think - and ask guidance.

You are not alone in expressing thoughts about a disconnect with your wife. I hear this from many men.  I am pretty equally balanced today between the feminine and the masculine. I can see both sides and feel the frustration of both genders, but there is a bottom line cause to the disconnect that can be addressed. Again, this is universal. Not only between you and your wife, but between men and women everywhere who are experiencing this disconnect. Believe me! I've seen it up close and it's so real and so obvious that it has required everybody to turn a blind eye to it.

You call it a sexual disconnect but it's not sexual - it's a love disconnect. She needs a love connection. You may have had the love connection at one time, but then it went away probably. You probably say to her "I love you", but it's meaningless if there is no love energy flowing between you. Love is an energy - an emotional energy - that flows. When the love energy stops flowing, then it's a pretend game of being together. Most couples do the pretend game. I'm OK, you're OK, the kids are OK. Life is smooth, all is good, keep the bills paid, life goes on. But the love energy stops flowing.

You as a man are conditioned to relate to the outer world of objects, things, people, practical, logical, labor, get things done - and you don't allow yourself to feel the emotions. You were trained to be that way.

On the other hand, women are conditioned to relate to the inner world of feelings, intuition, emotions, the passing of the energies back and forth, love and nurturance, feeling the earth beneath her feet, intuiting the emotions of a friend or relative, wanting to hug and hold and befriend someone.

Now if you don't see your wife that way, it's because you have closed off to her. And if your wife does not see your hurt and pain and need and desire for her, it's because she has closed off to you. Women close off because they are not getting what they need on a deep, inner, soul level.

Men close off because they are trained to not feel, or at least not express their feelings, and not to dwell on those feelings. Emotions are something men are trained to bite back and suck it up. Real men don't cry. That sort of thing.

So both men and women are living closed off. The fault is in neither of you. It is a cultural phenomenon but it's now in the process of changing.

For thousands of years, our culture has been male dominated. Men ruled everywhere - in the home, in schools, in governments, in business, in military, everywhere. Men made the rules. Women were designed to stay at home and be available for the man when he came home. She had to do it. The new movie "The Hand Maids" is showing this in brutal relief. There is a new age coming, and it's feminine. It is feminine rising to balance the waaaaaayyyyyy overdue male imbalance. Men ruled and it's time for men to not rule any more. This is going to be a process. This is a time for women to become empowered and to allow their natural loving instincts to come forward. It's not going to happen overnight but there is some immediate advice that is coming forward to all the men everywhere. You too!

Take a step back. Allow your heart to receive this information. That it's not about sex. Sex is an illusion. What is sex? Is it penetration? Is it her being open to you? Is it a prolonged lovemaking that begins with softness and kisses and then lengthens into hugging and talking and whispering sweet nothings in each others ears? That is lovemaking. Sex is simply the ACT of penetration. Or the ACT of giving oral sex. Sex is the ACT of using the genitals to arouse.

Women don't want that. Women want love. Women want hugs. Women want patience. Women want men to stop what they're doing and listen. Women have a lot to say but men don't listen because men think it's irrelevant to their own life. They have to work. They have to pay bills. They have to be responsible. They have to objectify everything. They objectify their wives.

Women don't want to be objectified. Women don't want to be a sex object. Women don't want to be penetrated genitally -  unless they are turned on. Women don't get turned on by oral sex. Women don't want men to keep poking them and prodding them and making sexual jokes to them, trying to get them turned on. Women want to be loved.

Men don't know how to love. Men don't understand the purpose of love. Men only understand sex and penetration and that they want a woman because once he gets inside of her he feels safe and loved. Men know that women are important for that reason but men don't know how to GIVE love in return. Men take love through the sex act. They do everything in their power to persuade, coerce, sweet-talk a woman into opening herself to receive him sexually. And in that brief  time of sex he can have some softness. An orgasm. A climax. Or maybe just a feminine feeling. He needs the feminine.  She needs the masculine. But they don't get it through sex;  they get it through love.

I recommend a simple exercise that you can do all alone. Because you each have a higher self, a spiritual self that is hovering around and through you which is love. Your spiritual self is love and you ARE love.

The exercise is this. Visualize your wife's face in a smiling, glowing, beautiful expression. You can picture her whole body in a beautiful freedom in some way that is pleasing to you. But most important see her face. It is smiling and happy. An image that you would love to see on her face again. Visualize her smiling and glowing. And tune into that image as often as you can during the day. Take some time to be still and visualize it.  You will be actually touching her energy with that picture. You are superimposing new beautiful energy over her. Imprinting that loving energy into her. And make no mistake about it - this is a loving gesture. She needs love. And silently, quietly, without saying anything at all to her, see if you notice changes. Don't try. Just visualize and observe. It is very simple.

You can do this with other people too. It is a way of sending love. It is like a prayer but without words. It's sending light to lighten up a situation. You can do this with a friend, a boss, a child, a parent with whom there are disagreements. By visualizing "happy", or "glowing" or "joyful", you are helping to raise their mood and lighten them up. You're not asking for them to change, you're loving them. That's all you're doing. You're loving them. This is what your wife wants, but it's a feeling, not words. Not actions. Not a coercion or a manipulation. It's simply love. And you are simply loving her.

Let me know how it works for you.  And you can't do it one time only and hope to change the course of history. Do it all the time, or whenever you think to do it. Make it a new habit in your life.

So lighten up and see how it affects other areas in your life. It's not about sex. It's about love.
Diana of Anakosha
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4/28/17  Today I have posted some new information on the MASSAGE page about our newly forming massage club for loving couples. Also a new post, that David is offering Tantric Massage sessions for $100 per session. He is also offering training for couples to learn Tantric Massage, also for $100 per session.

David and I have been learning and growing, each individually, rapidly. For those who haven't kept up with this blog, David is not my husband, he is a soul-mate friend who thinks like I do and we share a common dream. We are collaborators in loving massage. We are each married to other people and happy with our home lives. But we have a common goal and a common dream, and we are working towards implementing it. It has taken time to get to this point. Nebulous shifts of energies -  trials, corrections and more trials - but a fixed pattern is finally emerging. We are confident it is ready. This is going to work. It is all about love.. We use the personal love to build on. We start with couples already in love. Each couple who has mated together and formed a bond knows what love is. Now we can expand on that to impersonal love - learning how to love other people without becoming attached to them. This is a larger love. A more universal love. Brotherly and sisterly love. Because we need each other in order to expand. That's what the new massage club for loving couples is all about. We're building on couples who already have love between them.

And yet, personal love tends to develop into a rut. A "ho hum" attitude of the same ol' same ol' thing, always the same. Where does one go to expand on love, or recharge it, or re-energize it? It was there once, where did it go? There have been women over the years who have voiced to me the following. Not just one woman, but quite a few of them, and it takes courage to say this out loud, even to another woman. They want more elegance, more refinement. They want to feel more important. They want to feel more respect, more dignity, more valuable. They would like to feel, as one woman said, like a princess and worshiped instead of being treated like a sex object.

But it is not the men's fault that women are treated in such a manner. It is partly the women's fault for consistently catering over eons of time to the needs of male sexuality. Boosting the male superiority. We live in a world that has been male-dominated for endless centuries. It is both mentally and physically male-oriented. And all the while, the feeling nature has been ridiculed and put down. In men especially, not just women.  And so women have adapted. We women have learned also to hide our feelings. We have become male-like ourselves. We too are mentally and physically oriented.

Now, today in 2017, the world is lightening. There is more feminine energy rising across the planet. It's coming onto the planet from space. The source is galactic. It is coming from the stars and the movement of space currents, star dust from billions of suns moving through the darkness of space. This is the real cosmic power. This is what is awakening our hearts and solar plexus and the earthiness of our bodies. It’s not a brain thing. The movement is going deeper down into the cells. We are feeling what we haven't felt before. These are body sensations. Our bodies want more refinement. They are taking on the cosmic star dust. Our bodies want to be respected more, and to feel as if they matter. They are not slugs or pieces of meat crawling on the ground barely alive. Our bodies want to be revered and be considered sacred. Men's bodies too. We all need to be treated with more dignity.

The women are leading the way on this new path to the stars. But curiously enough the men are wanting it too.  They just don’t know how to go about it. They are at a loss for words. They need the women to lead them and show them. To demonstrate sensitivity and caring. I have had experiences with men in the swinging lifestyle where they revealed to me that they are tired of the sexual pressure, of all the pressure of being "the man". . We women always thought it was us who were being treated badly, but men have been treated badly too. The responsibility lies on each of us. Men and women alike. Dignity and honor are star dust particles and we have ignored them. The particles are waking up in us. We are not just a brain walking, or genitals walking. We have been created every tiny atom out of a universal energy of intelligence, love, light, beauty and purity. Of course, we don’t know this. Of course!  We have been taught the exact opposite. We have been taught that we are low on the totem pole and we have been programmed to act lowly, with low self-esteem, low sense of value, low expectations, and to feel shame for attempting to matter. It was a clever ruse to disguise the human angel by covering us with dirt.

But that time is over now. We are awakening and embarking on a new trail up the mountain of conscious awareness. The innate dream we carry is real and has to be implemented because we are the dream.  Each one of us has something of value to offer the world right here in our own quiet little place in life. We're connected to the larger picture. We're not separate. The feelings of sensitivity, passion and idealism are connections are activating us. David and I believe in sharing because it is through sharing that we are going awaken the sleeping giant inside each of us. We’ll help you awaken if you help us awaken. We’re all in this together. It's a click-click-click connecting up to something we cannot even imagine. Together we will know ourselves where we couldn't know ourselves, alone, separated from the whole. Together we have enough power to lift this earth out of the mud and chaos that it has been wallowing in for centuries. This power is not physical. Not in muscles but in intelligence, feeling and wisdom. We are first and last internal creatures, not external. There is an inner fire in us that is getting ready to flame into action. And that action is love. Respect. Sacred union with other bodies, other minds, other souls. Lest I lose you in all this lofty talk, it's about making sex sacred.

Women are asking for more respect and the men are willing to give it if they only knew how. They need help. Women, we must give them that help. The problem is, many women are simply getting angry. They themselves need help. Women don't know how to be honorable and respectful to men because they don't feel honored or respected themselves. How do we correct this deplorable situation? We get together and start loving one another in a new kind of way. A lifting up way.  Women are seen lashing out because they don't know what to do or how to raise themselves.  Men are doing the same thing. Frustration is emerging because the feeling nature has been shut down. We need to wake up the feeling nature and we do that through loving massage. That's the reason for the massage club for loving couples.

The feminine nature in us that is rising and we're calling feminine, is not feminine at all. It is spiritual. It's the inner life of emotions and feelings and intuition that is rising and breaking through the crust like a new innocent blade of grass.  It’s the inner growing outer. It’s love and we're going to have FEEL that love. Along with love we're going to feel respect and honored and appreciated. We are going to feel like celebrating and loving everyone. And we can lie with people and love them and stroke them and kiss them in ways that are honorable and not dirty.

Our massage club is about pulling together people who enjoy higher qualities. Who enjoy the journey itself, not the goal. Not the finish line. Not the end, but the journey. The process is the journey.  We don‘t change overnight. We'll have to practice how to appreciate one another and how to open to one another. We are hugely defensive and shut down, as a people, as a culture. So we'll have to learn how to trust one another and massage one another with caring. This is the reason for the massage club for loving couples. We'll stop looking at each other as if we were physical objects, and start looking at each other as emotional, spiritual beings that are changing, that are filled with love and light and purpose and purity.

We have been treating our bodies as stationary objects, like a wooden chair that is broken. Our medical community examines the physical and tries to fix the physical part, yet it is the spirit that has been broken. The spirit has left the body and we need to find a way to reel it back in. We do that by feeling the feelings of love and caring. And the way to regenerate love and caring is to GIVE love and caring. It is amazing to me that so many people don't understand that feeling love and caring does not mean you have to give up sex! It means to care about how you perform sexually. An attitude shift is required to bring in love and respect into the sexual act.

These feelings have been shut down so we live in a shell. We need to reawaken the inner self. We need a transfusion of nourishment for the soul. This is how we make sex a sacred act. When we start to treat each other, not as problems to be fixed, or controlled or educated or changed to do it "our way or the highway", and when we stop programming our children after our own ideas, and give them space to grow and enlarge themselves from within, when we stop storing our elders in a nursing home when we get tired of "fixing" them, when we get tired of booting out the politicians and replace them with new politicians who turn corrupt the minute they get into office because that's the nature of politics, when we wake up and realize that this type of "fixing" is not going to fix anything because we're not physical beings. Nor are we mental beings. We are intelligent beings who are spiritual. It's a spiritual intelligence and it is networked into the heart.

We are separated through the mental construct, but we are connected with each other through the heart, which is the core of the feeling membrane. It leaves the body at death and moves on to higher life. We are supposed to become heart-oriented BEFORE we die - to bring this feeling element back into the world of the living. Our feeling nature is all but dead in us right now, in the way we live. It is waking up. Yes. But it's not being lived. What's the phrase? We need to walk our talk, and talk our walk. We haven't learned what love is yet. It contains the answers to life's mysteries. Love harmonizes all that we do. It is loving and understanding. We are interwoven with the stars and suns of our home galaxy, which supports us with light, intelligence and love. It's time we break out of our cocoon stage and grow some wings. The men like to say, "Grow some balls". But what we really need to do is grow our wings and fly effortlessly higher than that.

There are emotional energies pouring through the atoms and molecules of our bodies, and these energies keep changing. We keep evolving. The world is changing. The banks, economies, policies, schools, police, medicine - all are in the midst of change via chaos. Turbulence is underway, but turbulence is love in motion. We can use it.  Vast loving chaos is underway and love will pull to us what we need. We can use it. The more sensitive spirit within each of us has had enough and we‘re stepping forward, ahead of the masses. We are not going to leave our bodies and go to some higher plane. We are bringing forth love into our bodies. Each of us in our own way, during the day as we walk and talk. Notice how much love you express. Notice how much not-love you express.

And relationships are changing. Love relationships are changing. Love is growing larger. Love is bursting out of its seams. It's wanting to expand but we're holding it back, holding it in. We will explode if we don't find a way to express love. We need to gather together, and we are forming the massage club for loving couples to help us do that.  Emotional energies are waking up. Feelings are coming up and pressing to be expressed. Bite the bullet and express them.

I am doing that right now. I am aware that I am pushing the envelope here and typing things that probably sound crazy or off the deep end, but I'm letting go and letting these feelings come out into words. It feels good. There's a flow and I always feel good when I finish and press "Publish" and it's out there on the web for all to see. We don't know what's inside us until we say it or hug someone or take the initiative to jump over the fence into the wide open spaces of freedom.  Then we know ourselves. We know ourselves the way we are supposed to know ourselves - from the heights of our beings. Not from the meagerness of hiding inside the closet.

These high, high energies are descending down and through what we think are physical bodies but they're not physical. So, OK, you can call them physical if you want to. But they are really whirling particles of intelligence that have become clumped together because we've been taught to hold back and therefore have slowed down so they're like sticky molasses glued together over time. Our bodies are really not physical at all underneath the molasses.  My body is not physical and my husband's body is not physical. We're clumps of slowed-down energy, thick with holding back the free energy that we are (inside). Release that energy and we're free.

When we go to a swing club the guys are so hungry for feminine energy (which they have refused to express in their daily lives) that they rush toward the women, any woman, to get up close, to hug, to touch and they think it's for sex. Sex is the goal.  But, truly, it's not sex they want. They don't know any other way to make contact with the lovely feminine feeling that they, themselves, have blocked off from expressing, that they must fight other men for a woman. It's the only way they know how to feel the softness of femininity. Capture a woman and make her his own, even if for only an hour. The solution to this madness is to start opening up our feelings and sharing them. The massage club for loving couples to swap massages with each other is a beginning.

 Men admire femininity in a woman but they don’t see it or feel it inside themselves. So we women have to stop capitulating to the lowest common denominator in the man who does not know yet that sex IS the lowest common denominator, and it's keeping him there. We must help men to feel the love and nourish his soul, not for our sake, but for his.

We are spiritual people with emotional feelings, and we are mal-nourished in feeling wanted and appreciated. Many of us are skin hungry, which means our souls are hungry for deeper nourishment. Men especially have been closed down due to their outward orientation. They interact with the physical world, not the inner world of emotions. They don't know how to connect with their feelings. The massage club for loving couples will help.
We all need it, but men especially need to be led back to their own hearts and feelings through experience. Not just with words. Let us nurture one another without using each other as sex objects. When we allow ourself to be nurtured by someone else, it doesn't matter who, it is a matter of receiving love, then our feminine energy comes alive. We change. We become more balanced. More whole. More complete. Women don't have to give a man a blow job to make them feel like a man. In fact, I have learned that some men feel abused and dirtied when a woman does that to him. He's not fooled. He may appreciate the kindness temporarily, but he knows it is all an act. It’s not real. We’re not being honest with each other. Let’s speak our truth out loud and stop catering to the lowest in each other. It is time we women started to revere the men and offer them honest feedback to break the crust open. Let the inner life bleed.  It's good energy to offer honest feedback.

I have been patiently considering the ways of how to do this. I hosted swing parties for so many years. I saw things and have tried things - various ways to bring forth a higher vibration of love connection to the lifestyle. Forty years of hosting swing parties have been peppered with single solitary workshops, massage events, exercises, whatever. So many. But mostly I failed. I failed myself.  I wasn't strong enough to stick to the power of love and truth of my inner knowing. I kept folding and capitulating. I kept giving up. I kept surrendering to the lowest common denominator until I couldn't take it any more. Then I began my journey which is leading me here, now, today.

Recently I met a man who is a good listener and has reflected with me on this subject. How do we awaken the respect in people? David and I met every Tuesday and it was not and is not sexual, nor romantic. It is a larger love that has taken place. We have been weaving together inner thoughts and visions, sharing our thoughts with each other. It has been the building of a sacred relationship.  It's more real and I always feel lighter and clearer minded when he leaves.  When you take away controlling ego - i.e., intellectual superiority - and you take away sexuality and personal romance in a relationship, what you have left is something more real.

Swinging is actually a good beginning. it just doesn't go far enough. It becomes fixated on the physical sex, which becomes the goal of the gathering.  Swinging has carefully avoided love as though it’s a taboo subject. Swinging lacks feminine energy. It lacks feeling. Swinging is not going to last if it doesn't bring in more love and more feeling. It must grow up and become a mature activity with a larger purpose than sex as the end result. A larger goal like compassion and love for everyone in the room. If women keep capitulating to male dominance and control, this isn't going to happen. Men have been spoiled. Mothers, wives and daughters all spoil them because OUR mothers and grandmothers demonstrated this is the way we survive in a man's world. Women have learned to be clever. They know how to play that angle.

David and I would like to see more depth and realism in human relationships. We'll start with intimacy relationships because love between a man and woman, or lack thereof, is at the crux of the matter. Babies born to unloving parents contain the seed of not-love. So let's start with learning what love is between a man and a woman and stop pretending it's a man's world because it isn't. It's a human world that is unbalanced and it needs to be balanced, and love is the ONLY way to bring it together in harmony. The call is going out for empowered couples. Will you please join David and me in starting a massage club of loving couples? 
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4/2/17  This morning I woke with feelings and impressions of expansion. I think I was learning in my dreamtime how to expand. I could still feel the sensation of expanding myself. The words were, "When you are in pain, expand. When you are frustrated, expand. When you are angry, expand. When you are confused, expand. When you are lonely, expand." The sense  I was getting was that it's the conscious effort to expand that does the work. The "working it out" is done by thought, desire and intention, not by physical labor. I remembered the pool filter.  Spray cleaning the filer is a job I have to do every month. It's the perfect example of how to apply this principle to every day life.

When I clean the cartridge filter to the pool every month I have to struggle with the steel housing.  It's old and bent and it's seen its best years. To unscrew the top of the housing is a job. I have to chisel it off with a screw driver and hammer because it won't budge any more. Then I lift out the cartridge to spray it to clean it with a hose. That's the easy part. Then I have to screw the top back on, which is terribly difficult because the threads are all worn. I started hating this job. I was developing an attitude over this monthly project that used to be easy. The alternative is to buy an whole new, very expensive pool filter. Screwing the top back on requires three or four repeated efforts because the thread do  not catch, so I have to back it off and try it again, and finally using the monster wrench to force it at the end. I was using force on this job from beginning to end.

One day it dawned on me as I was struggling to put the steel cover back on, that I needed to ask the elementals in the steel to help me. I have been reading in the ascended master books principles for living more in harmony with the earth. My attacking the frozen and resistant steel housing with frustration was not being very harmonious. So I stopped what I was doing and went silent, imagining the living conscious spirit in the atomic structure of the metal container. I first connected with my higher self by focusing on my heart, and then imagined the living consciousness of the metal housing. I started talking to the steel elementals and thanking them for their service, all the while imagining the steel housing in a state of perfect harmony with beautiful transparent rays of light enfolding it. This was a fairly normal meditative visualization, but I seldom think to do it when I am involved in a mundane task - like working with a frozen steel housing.

When I felt I was harmonized sufficiently, I very slowly turned the large screw on the top, listening with inner ears and seeing with inner eyes the life and consciousness within the steel. I maintained this awareness with every slow turn of the large screw. It takes 21 turns to complete the screw-down of the top of the pool filter. As I reached the 10th and expected resistance, there was none. I cautiously continued, keeping my harmony and stillness and reached the 15th turn. Still no resistance. I continued on 18, 19, 20, 21. Still no resistance.  I felt around the rim for lop-sidedness which signals that it went on crooked again. If so, I would have to back out and do it over again. But this time it was firmly embedded into its groove. The steel was purring like a kitten. I was amazed! It worked! I didn't even have to use the oversize wrench to make the final turn to tighten it by force which I had done in the past. I felt the urge to say silently, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you. I love you. I love."This was the day that changed my relationship with the pool filter housing. It is still old, bent, and frozen in certain parts, but I have a new relationship with it. I don't hate the job any more.

Neale Donald Walsh once said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. I related that statement to this experience with the pool filter. Discomfort is normal for most people. We've grown comfortable with discomfort and therefore we don't always realize that we are having a situation that we could improve upon if we were aware. Discomfort is the normal comfort zone for a lot of us but it creates labor-intensive responses to situations, which only builds stress, anger and frustration because we're doing it the hard way.  We're using force on what is a living, conscious, breathing being. It's normal for humans to use force. It's the big change that we are all growing through now. How to expand past force and become friends with objects of nature and people who are not normally likeable.  Our old way of doing things is our comfort zone, but we need to come to the end of our comfort zone of discomfort. It's time to find more expanded and harmonious comfort that is gentle with us.

It takes awareness to know when we're uncomfortable, to catch ourselves in the act of being uncomfortable so that we can do something about it. So that we can stretch ourself beyond that discomfort. That is where pain, a bad situation or a terrible, traumatic event is an opportunity. I can’t open the door to new life when everything is going well and I am happy. But when I am at the threshold of pain or suffering or something is going wrong, then I have an opportunity. Standing at the threshold of feeling bad and life is threatening to pull down under into a bad place, it's a perfect opportunity to go within and push that feeling back. Expand when you are in pain. Expand when you are lonely. Expand when you are sad.

At that moment of discomfort I have a choice whether to continue being in discomfort, or expand by relaxing inward into the silence and stillness of my heart. Meditation is something that everyone should be doing, at least a little every day, to get some practice in for the real thing, for when it is needed the most. By expanding inward into the silence of your heart you open the door to - what? You don't know but there is stillness there. There is silence there. There is peace and there is acceptance And newness. It's a new place and there is fresh air. Relaxing inward and shifting the anger or pain to silence and stillness opens the door to newness. It is expansive. It lets in new life. It is a widening that sheds light on what has been an uncomfortable situation which was hurting and bothering me.

I think this is what is meant by growing by expanding. It‘s a choice to expand and not resist or continue hating and being uncomfortable. Choosing to expand is a gentle act. There is a subtle shift of consciousness to adapt to a larger field. Feeling comfortable is the reward. It is not drastic, like jumping off a cliff, eyes closed and hoping for the best. It’s a gentle thing, pushing the limits back on my own horizon.  It  blends my former horizon with the new horizon. It’s comfortable. The unknown becomes like being an open field of fresh air and soft grassy meadows under a blue sky. It is peaceful. Our job as human beings who are evolving our consciousness to higher planes is to keep pushing on the limitations. Expanding the envelope that we live in. Our job is to open windows and doors and let fresh air in. As the teacher Ramtha said, to make known the unknown. The unknown is full of opportunity and promise but we can't see it if we are in resisting mode.

It’s like when clothes are too tight and I can’t fit into them any more. The human response is to hate ourselves and determine to go on a diet or do more exercise to whittle down who we are, try to fit into the old clothes instead of adjusting our attitude and going out and buying new clothes that fit better and we are more comfortable in them. Allowing the expansion to take place instead of fighting it relieves the pressure. It ends the fight we are having with ourselves. Duality has become such a way of life for us that we have grown accustomed to fighting. We fight mostly with ourselves, not with other people. We are competitive because we see we are in duality and the two opposing forces continue to grind in on each other. There is consciousness in everything, including our own brain and muscles. By entering into the silence, we can bend those forces to harmonize instead of fight, if we choose to and know how to. And when we experience harmony we can't help but bend the knee in thanksgiving for this opportunity to heal. Weaving the known (the former perspective) with the unknown (that which we are inviting to come forth) together is like two lover’s embracing after a quarrel. There is a sensation of being stronger yet gentler. By joining together two separate energies, two different perspectives, two opposing thoughts, two different colors and world views, we become whole.

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3/26/17  The other morning while making love, once again the heavens opened and I could see beyond my normal sight. It happens after meditating on love. That particular morning I had been thinking about our massage project and how so many people spoil the massage by anticipating sex afterwards or during, and I was wondering as I often do, how can we circumvent this problem?  While making love that morning I saw a most wonderful vision. I saw what expectations are doing to people. I saw expectations as a flower fully open, its petals were the expectations, each one different, unfolding in complex patterns outward, all around the center stamen, which appeared as the jewel in the lotus.

The central stamen was revealed as the prize that is overlooked by everyone holding an expectation and seeking its fulfillment outside, beyond the center. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls, barriers and boundaries that block our way to the real and true core of self. We search outside of ourselves and away from our real self at the center by defining for ourselves what it is we want to have happen, based on prior experience. Our prior experience becoming the standard by which we base future desires upon.

Each person holding an expectation has set up a scenario of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in the far reaches of the mind, far away from the prized central core. The expectations are so much less than what our real self wants us to have and can gift us with. It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to experiment with this. We have created what we are so far, by holding onto lesser images than we are capable of. We are learning. We are the creators of our life. We just haven’t learned to look beyond what we know to the unknown that is waiting to flow in. We are each holding onto limited standards. It was apparent that we must relax our expectations and allow ourselves to drift back to our center, and drink from the nectar that is waiting for us there. It is our spiritual core.

Expectations are a though we hold in our minds and wish for, but newness does not come from a thought held in the mind. It comes from beyond the mind, beyond what is formerly known, from what is formerly experienced. The newness is something that has never been experienced before. It has to be new to move our feelings and emotions to excitement. The spontaneity of random encounters. When we fix our mind on an object, we are stopping energy from moving. Mental energy stays still and fixed, when we hold a thought. This will not work for us to give us an exciting new experience. We need the sensation of energy moving through us. That is what causes excitement, exhilaration of feelings.  A mental picture that is stationary and holding cannot provide that excitement.

Random encounters are exciting because they are not set up ahead of time by the mind. They are not expected. We can only have this kind of enthusiasm by retaining an open mind. A truly wide open mind. This means going into the heart and releasing all mental control over what happens. Expectations are stationary and immovable. They just sit there on a shelf collecting star dust. They cannot provide emotional feelings. Joy and elevated feelings of rapture come from opening the mind and the mental window to let fresh air blow in from beyond. There is a river of life and light and love that comes through in a spontaneous flow, if there is freedom and no  coercion, no pressure, no boundaries set by expectations. By hanging onto the expectation of wanting a particular person, a particular outcome, a particular mood enhancer, the gifts that spirit can provide are held back. The gifts that are waiting for us are the gifts of awakening love within our own body cells. It is unexpected. We do not know what they will be or what they will feel like because we have never experienced them before. They are beyond our control. We can’t control this experience waiting to be visited upon us. We can only allow it to flow. The only thing we can do to help it along is drop all boundaries, expectations, walls and barriers that would block it from happening.

We must interact with real live human people to create a flow that is unlimited and unconditional, with no expectations. That is the only way to be truly free. In our massage gatherings it order to create a truly free environment for massage it must be safe from expectations. A truly free and loving massage can release elevated feelings, even rapture, when there is no expectation of sex, either wishing for it or being afraid of it. Many women are hesitant to have massage because of their fear of being violated. Many women would love to have a warmly loving and nurturing massage but are defensive because they do not trust what will happen. Each of us has a lot of different energies and histories that we hold locked inside our body. Inside our bodies we have exquisite feelings, both good and bad, but they are generally kept tightly closed to us, so we can't feel them. They are not moving. When a small group of us gather for mutual massage, we will be helping each other to release those feelings, so we don't want any pressuring or coercion to take place, even if it is just a "wish" for something more. An open mind needs to be held by both the giver and receiver. We will be merging with love. We want each other to experience an openness to love that is within them. When there is love flowing within, there is softness and a relaxing and an ease of restriction. Sensation begins moving and it is a wonderful release of the long-time stress that held it in.

This type of massage goes beyond the limitations and focus on physicality. We allow feelings to move when we are not fixated on any particular part of the body. The feelings locked up in us are indefinable and unknown, and they will be able to move only when there is unconditionally loving people assisting. Even the receiver is assisting the giver by being unconditionally open and receptive. Healing hands and receiving hearts are the formula for connecting in an authentic and mutually compatible way, for neither will be expecting anything from the other. This is how we expand beyond ourselves into something greater. Again, this is how we help each other through massage, both giver and receiver can experience the expansion together, as one. Even two strangers who do not know each other. Such is the power of unconditional love. Not personal love, but impersonal love. Impersonal love is greater than personal love.

The greater is more than can be understood in words. Words are finite, fixed and concrete. That is why we have to experience it. The flow we will be able to assist in releasing is a gift of profound value. As the giver pours all of self into the moments of the massage, the receiver feels it and both enjoy the expansion process. This is a highly unusual process. One that cannot easily be found through mental processes, such as meditation. As we open the dense physical body to spiritual love, we enter into a connection that is unusual for strangers to experience together. Both giver and receiver may experience a oneness. The sense of being two separated people often disappears. This is not personal love, and a couple need not feel jealous if one of them experiences this with another person. It is not personal. It is spiritual but the body is going through a metamorphosis of releasing. The giver is a healer. The receiver is also a self-healer, allowing it to happen. It is universal love, impersonal love that does the work. Not the individual.

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3/15/17 Today I am becoming conscious of my four lower bodies coming into alignment. I experience them as bubbles within bubbles, exactly like the pictures of the aura is portrayed in graphic form. I am aware that they are not in alignment. So I am seeing the process of my awareness bring them into alignment. I am balancing them simply by being aware, and visualizing them, these four lower bodies. I doubt many people have heard that term so I am introducing it here now. My four lower bodies are the energies of my mind thinking (one body), my feelings feeling (another body), subconscious or automatic tendencies like habits (another body) and my physical body (the flesh body). The three non-physical bodies are my eternal immortal consciousness that jumps from body to body when one body dies and it must take on another body. The soul, you might call it.

These four lower bodies are fragmented. Because I am studying cosmic law with the masters I am boning up on knowledge that has been around from before the beginning. Jewels of teachings that are not commonly known. I am here to share this knowledge as I myself am experiencing.

My four lower bodies are being pulled into alignment as I wash dishes and prepare breakfast. There is a beam of light shining on this process. I can see them, sense them, as these four alignments take place. I have been wondering about them. They are coming into alignment now, this morning. This process is becoming conscious. It's in the forefront of my brain.  I need to share it so I am here to describe it.

What David and I are doing with our loving touch massage is realigning the four lower bodies in people to bring about healing and a sense of love. Self love. It starts from within. When the four lower bodies are integrated and realigned, the person feels peaceful, happy, and more present in their body. This is what love feels like. It is personal and it is powerful. It's hard to shake someone out of their feelings of love. This happens automatically when someone receives a massage, more or less. It depends on their ability to relax and receive it whole-heartedly. Some people can't. Whether a person can maintain the beautiful feeling also depends on whether the person is aware enough to know what is actually happening within them. The lack of knowledge keeps people from maintaining the alignment.

Very few people are aware of the four lower bodies - the three subtle bodies they carry around with them as an auric force field, emanating through the physical body.  It is not knowledge that is commonly available.
The four lower bodies are not supposed to be separate, but the way humankind has fragmented itself over the eons, these four lower bodies have become separated. Our job - all of us - is to become aware of how we let them fall out of alignment and how we might maintain their integrated wholeness as we work through our day. 

The ascension process (you may know that term by now) is an integration process. It's an inner process of realigning these four lower bodies, because the higher bodies are already aligned. They don't fall out of alignment. They are in their perfection at all times. But everyone is struggling with their four lower bodies being out of balance, and struggling without having this knowledge. How many people know that they have four bodies and not just one? Having this knowledge will help. You have been mis-aligned and diverted away from your own naturalness and your own power source.  You are a natural being that has been torn apart by forces you do not know about. You are seeking to know yourself, and well you should, for you are an immortal being temporarily living in a temporary body which may die without your consent. You have lived many lives, one body after another, in a series of reincarnations which you are mercifully shielded from remembering. If you were able to remember, you might not be able to handle what you learn about yourself. You are meant to live only one life at a time, so you can focus without distraction on your life immediately in front of you.

When you descend as one integrated consciousness into a human embryo and grow up through childhood and adulthood, you become fragmented. Parents don’t know these things, you are not taught these things, and so-called experts don’t know these things either. Only the ancient master teachers know these things and have left clues in hidden places. This knowledge is completely overlooked in the maze of  human life as it is today. But because you don't know this, it doesn't take away from the facts. You have four lower bodies that are misaligned and therefore not in tune with each other. This scatters your energy. People wither and die from fatigue struggling to understand their problems and confusions, and they are missing important information.  Imagine a car that loses some of its cylinders or they are misfiring.

The master teachers keep telling us about these four lower bodies and how to realign them. I am using my own words to describe this. There are many ways to describe it, using different words and terms. This is my way. But the term "four lower bodies" is a phrase that can be found most everywhere on the internet today if you look for it. And you'll get a ton of information. The masters keep telling us to go into your own heart and breathe into the heart and focus on the light in the heart, because that’s where your core is. That's where you r understanding is. That's where you are integrated into your naturalness. Your wholeness. That’s where your consciousness is anchored. We call it the soul. When your body dies, you might degenerate slowly and die in stages. In fact, other organs can stop functioning one by one, but but as long as your heart keeps beating there is a chance you can regenerate if you know how. Nobody else can do it for you. Because your consciousness is the life of your body and it is anchored in your heart. It is the power that powers your body. It dimmed down in most of us so we have to blow on it and breathe on it and focus on it, like we do on dying embers in a camp fire, to bring it back to life. This flame of life is what keeps your body alive. Your soul is already alive. It is not going to die when the body dies.

Back to the practical. Your four lower bodies need to be brought back into alignment. Our culture keeps us fixated on outer world things, like making money, tending children and medical issues, etc. We won't go into all the distractions that keep sucking us outward, fragmenting us into dozens of different areas that need our help.  We struggle to keep ourselves together. The four lower bodies are the four parts of us that need realigning. Again, they are: (1) your mind which spans both high intelligence and low; (2) your feelings/emotions, both high feelings/emotions and low; (3) your subconscious tendencies that come from your past lives, with bits and pieces from your ancestors, and these are both of high quality and low; and (4) your physical body.

During a normal therapeutic massage, even an at-home massage, where someone gives a simple stroking to help relax someone, there will be some integration of these four lower bodies. You can tell how successful you are by how good the receiver feels afterward, how peaceful, warm and nourished they feel. It is easy to read someone who has been well loved.

David and I have posted a simple "welovemassage" invitation on the massage page on this website. We are inviting couples only at this time to come in and have a four-handed massage with us. Actually three of us will work on each of you, one at a time, individually. It sounds like a basic sensual massage, but what we are actually doing here is CONSCIOUS massage. We both are aware of what is happening, on a deep level, within the body being massaged. We are bringing about an alignment of fragmented, distorted energies within the body. We call it by different names. David calls it "love". I call it "light". But love and light are one and the same energy. Light is information as in understanding something through the brain in a thoughtful manner, where love is the FEELING in the body which doesn't require the mind. You can feel something without it going through the brain. It is a direct transfer of power into the cells of the receiving body.

A physical body can be assisted to wholeness and balance through massage, but it is even more successful when it is done by people with conscious knowledge of what they are doing. If they are able to maintain a steady stream of elevating energies of peace and calm, the four lower bodies - body, mind, feelings and etheric body - flow naturally together into oneness. This is what brings about the state of peace and bliss. Normally fragmented in all of us, they are positively affected by a loving consciousness. And it is best that it be a peaceful, serene, loving consciousness.  God forbid it be a negative consciousness. Scattered, random thoughts that bounce from thought to thought and thing to thing, or talking mindlessly in chatter during the massage, will do more harm than good. This approach to massage is much more than a therapeutic massage. It is immensely valuable to their wholeness.

The masters call these four lower bodies four separate WORLDS in which we live. Your mind lives in its own world with thoughts, both high thoughts that are creative and exciting, and low thoughts that drag you down. Your mind seeks other people whose minds are compatible with your mind. Your feelings and emotions live in another world composed of feelings and emotions, high feelings that inspire and elevate and low feelings that drag you down. You tend to seek out people who are compatible with and supportive of your feelings and emotions. You validate each other and help each other to grow and understand when you share your feelings and emotions with other people.

And then there is your subconscious world which contains all of your past lives and unresolved situations that need resolving and therefore "nudge" you to do things you don't want to do. This part of you is called your astral body or etheric body. You carry it around with you wherever you go. You can't run away from it. It comes forward to be integrated. It will make you more whole as you come to understand yourself more. Our culture has kept us in darkness about these things. But it is time to become aware of them and we can start doing that through conscious and loving, kindly massage to wake up the inner body's feelings.

When you bring these three non-physical bodies into alignment with your physical body, even if only temporarily, say for an hour or more after you've had a really good massage, your physical body feels wonderfully peaceful. Everything is right with the world and even if it's not, you don't care because you are back at the center of your galaxy again. You are deliciously warm and feel SOOOO good! It is love. It is an inner love becoming activated because love is all there is. Love holds you together. So when you feel loving, know that you are healing by integrating. It is important to find ways to feel loving throughout the day, week, month and years of your life.

When your body keeps trying to fit things together and there is continually confusion,  your four lower bodies are out of alignment. Go into your heart, your neutral place, where you live in the center of your four worlds. Try your own form of visualization. That's part of meditation;. Find your own way to imagine this. Use your own resources. Breathe into your heart. Meditation is a generic term for going into your heart, or inner core. Only you know where your inner core is at the moment. If it feels in your solar plexus (navel) then start there. Work with what you FEEL. It is recommended by the ancient masters to do this for 10 minutes three times a day. Just breathe. Breathe in and breathe out while focusing on your heart (or navel as the case may be) and you will receive inner instructions.

The vision that David and I hold is of a community of consciously aware individuals who can maintain their equilibrium. Who are loving and kind individuals who want to help "right" the world by bringing people back into alignment and balance. It is up to each person to want to do this. We want to put our hands on as many people as we can to bring about this integration. As someone is integrated from a conscious massage, session, you might tend to credit the giver of the massage for the good feeling he ends up with. And then go home and allow him/herself to drop out of orbit again an and become fragmented again. The work is simply to become aware of how you spin off into separate worlds - mental world and feeling world. And how you do things out of habit, automatically.  The mind thinks one thing, the feelings feel another, the automatic tendencies (subconscious past) nudges them in a certain way, even against your wanting to go that way. And the physical body still struggles with keeping it all together.

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3/12/17  When David and I first met, we found ourselves compatible on one particular point that has become the basic foundation of our continuing relationship. First of all, we are colleagues with a shared vision, we are not romantically involved. This one particular point binds us together. We call it "healing the feelings".

Feelings are a feminine quality. They are non-physical. They are not emotional but they BECOME emotional when they are not expressed. When feelings are held back from expressing on a continual basis, they become suppressed. But in the beginning a feeling is a gentle whiff of a want. It is not pushy. It is sweet and gentle and simple wish. When it is ignored, it drifts downward by the pull of gravity to the lower part of the physical body. If continued, a scab grows around it for lack of attention.  It doesn't go away. It just stays there and eventually it is felt as an emotion.

Emotion is a feeling charged with energy. The longer it grows underground unnoticed, the more powerful it becomes.  The initial anger is simply the body telling the owner of the body that something is wrong here and you better deal with it. If it is not dealt with (expressed) then it becomes rage. Jealousy is the same thing. It starts out with a gentle feeling, doesn't get expressed and so it is buried. Needs that go unfulfilled start out lightly. As light as a feather. Feelings are beautiful gifts of the spirit. These are the feelings that need healing.

What David and talked about from the first day we met, was about our own feelings that have gone unfulfilled. But instead of jumping into bed and having rocking-rolling sexual encounter, as so many people think will clear the air, we talked about ourselves to each other. We compared notes and revealed things about ourselves because we had someone who listened. That's the only requirement to healing feelings - to have someone who listens and allows. People pay lots of money to go to psychiatrists who listen. But we didn't have to pay for this. We found a friend in each other who listened and we listened in return.

We're not trained to do mental work. We are hands-on loving people. We like to hug. We like to hold hands. We like to touch and nurture and be kind. We listen. And we hear. This is mostly non-verbal work. That is how we met. We are both massage therapists and we began by swapping massages first and then discussing our feelings. How wonderful it feels just to touch without expectations.  Massage is not just therapeutic, it is nurturing. It feels good to be touched with kindness that is open-ended. We realized that a kind, open-ended massage is probably one of the best ways to help heal the feelings that have been buried down deep and forgotten. It's a releasing of blockages.

Because of my many years in the sexual arena of swinging - 40 years now - I have accumulated a vast amount of knowledge  about the intimacy needs of people. Very up close. More up close and intimate than most people have had, because I stuck with it long past my desire to do it. I stuck with it because I was a giver and a nurturer and I wanted to help people. I saw a lot of healing during my years of swinging. But I eventually learned that  that people wee covering over their deeper needs and pretending they were OK.  I saw people become more and more shallow the longer they stayed in swinging. I felt we were misplacing our focus. We were replacing our need for love and intimacy with superficial sex.

The shift from needing love and intimacy happens gradually, imperceptibly. It goes unnoticed by the one in need because a temporary high takes place at a swing party. There is sex and social camradery and the couple goes home and makes love and they are happily pleased with themselves. If they are among the lucky ones. Others do not get so lucky and have rocky experiences. But the lucky ones blow out the tubes and re-establish harmony and balance to their bodies and their home relationship. It is good as long as everyone is truly happy. But so often there are deeper needs that go unfulfilled. That is when sex becomes a bandaid.

We are fortunate, those of us who have found this outlet of swinging. But it is not the answer to the longing for love that inevitably wafts upward from somewhere unknown. It is a deeper longing, more than for a sexual encounter. It could be as simple as a need for a hug. We often say to each other, "I need a hug!"

By not getting that simple hug and perhaps a friendly ear to sit, talk and listen with, the need for a simple hug gets buried. The common practice of having sex might relieve the need for a little while, but soon the longing returns.  The momentary purge of a sexual encounter is superficial. The need for intimacy is not relieved by sex because it is not a physical need.  It is an emotional need. Sexual activity does not go deep enough to heal what is malnourished down below. There is a hunger there that is going unnoticed. The need for healing the feelings, in our estimation, means assisting individuals in becoming aware. Becoming aware of feelings that are not even being noticed by the one living in the body temple. 

The flow of life is being curtailed. Blocked. And we need to find ways to alleviate this unnoticed condition.
David and I have found that loving touch, hugs, true conversation while cuddling that may last hours, is a fulfilling way to heal the feelings that we did not know we had.

We flow with feelings all day long. Some people are very good about expressing their feelings, but more of us have not learned how to do that. Many really nice people are blocked because they are so busy helping others that they bury their OWN feelings. Many giving and nourishing people are the worst for wear and tear. Are the first in need of healing. We all need to find ways to express feelings, otherwise they get covered over and a scab forms. Scabs upon scabs upon scabs create a resistance to receiving care for themselves. Givers are the worst offenders to themselves, because they become martyrs and the world loses a beautiful soul as they fade away and dry up. It is easy to say to someone who asks, "Nothing's wrong!"  "I'm OK!"  "I don't have time for this conversation!" And we live on the surface of our skins because we don't let anyone in. It is this type of feeling that needs healing. That needs release. But how? Where do we begin?
 
David and I have discussed it until we plumb ran out of talk. We finally posted a simple invitation on the massage page (here) inviting couples to contact us for a massage swap. We have reduced it to a massage swap as a way to help us all relax and let our defenses drop. We are the first ones in line who need this and want this. And because we are the first in line, everybody who comes to us receives our love from us. It is not sexual but it is tender, caring, sensual and relaxing. To the question "Will it be sexual?" The answer is No. It will not be sexual. Sorry if this disappoints you. But it will be loving to the point that you will feel warm, and loved and perhaps wish it to be so. But no. It will not turn sexual.

Love is the whole point. Not love in the groin area, but love in every single cell of the body, with no focus on any one spot over another. Because a physical body is a complex mix of energies - some divine and some human - we stir the energies up, like we might stir a pot of soup of many ingredients. And we add our love to the mix. We channel love. We ARE love. David and I want to share our love with other people. It is not a personal love. It is holistic. It is universal. It is oneness. A loving touch massage fulfills the need to be loved in a holistic and natural way, simple as a child needs love when it is hurt or hungry. To be alive is to feel the need for love.  Unconditionally loved, without demands for anything more. Just to be accepted, appreciated, adored - even worshiped, as David likes to say. 

Healing the feelings is a step towards feeling free. Everyone is seeking freedom, but much of the sense of suffocation comes from being inhibited by the culture. If we are released from what inhibits us, we feel liberation flood through our bodies. We may laugh and giggle from joy without knowing why we feel so happy. Liberation brings joy and peace. It is a step towards feeling free in all areas of life. This is cosmic law and an ancient teaching of Tantra.  Everyone agrees that feelings and emotions are a feminine need, not a masculine one. Jokes about women and their emotions are a crutch to lean on by men. Men can easily hide their buried feelings in the macho way of making a joke out of women and their feelings.  It may be that men are more in need of healing their feelings than  women.  Women at least know they have unfulfilled longings but men do not often admit to having such feelings.  The male-dominant culture has harmed men as much as it has harmed and damaged women.  Everyone, men and women alike, turn to sex for relief - which causes pleasure - because as of today there is no other way. But we are moving into a more enlightened age.

Now, David and I we are not seeking to give free massages away every day to people free of charge. Because we don't charge for what we are proposing here.  Our goal is find couples to join with our vision. We want a group of couples for massage swaps. We are hoping to share our loving approach and our philosophy in a teaching, counseling manner so others may also  learn on-site, the hands-on and happy practice of giving AND RECEIVING massages to and from others. It is liberating and exciting to do this. It helps heal the feelings by swapping massages with others and talking and getting to know others in a way you can't possibly do over dinner, or even in swinging.

We are hoping to meet a group of couples and eventually a few special singles who are compatible to our philosophy, gather occasionally in a massage swap, one-on-one. To meet, lay hands on people, discuss feelings privately and personally, and enjoy the sense of floating high on liberation of blocked energies that happens when the heart opens and the feelings begin to flow. It's like magic but there must be an attitude preparation before beginning.

When feelings are flowing out from you through your hands, you are LOVE is flowing out through your hands. It's not just a physical rough rubbing of skin on skin. You are releasing your feelings as you massage someone else. Your feelings are required as part of the mix. It is a natural form of loving expression, such as hugging someone to your heart. It is not personal. It is simply nurturing and loving. Love is at the heart of every single human being alive. Love is at the heart of every animal, every plant, every vegetable you eat. Love can be seen in the form of light sparkles in the air outdoors in the sunlight. Love IS the sunlight shining down on us all. Love is the intelligence that is everywhere around us.

This is Tantra. The original Tantra. This teaching is at the heart of the Kama Sutra which teaches the art of lovemaking. How to love another human being is not about sex. How to make love is like learning how to make a cake. There is a protocol and a recipe for making a cake. It takes time. The final result is eating the cake and enjoying the taste.  The final result of making love is the enjoyment of two bodies enjoying the perfect union.
Contentment proceeds out of this type of lovemaking, where a quickie in the bedroom before work or dinner does not produce contentment. A quickie during lunch hour is like popping a pill.  The masters taught the art of lovemaking many centuries ago, but the masses were not sufficiently evolved enough to understand it.
Today we are ready, as a people to receive these instructions. A revolution of consciousness has begun.

When a couple comes to David and I to experience a massage swap with us, they will then go home and discuss it between themselves. What was your reaction? They will ask one another. How did it make you feel? Was there a a thrill or excitement, or was it uncomfortable? It all depends on how they receive it. If the thrill of excitement was felt, then there was movement of energy inside the body, mind and feelings. If so, perhaps they will contact us again, to be placed on our email list to be invited to a group massage swap with a few other couples.

It will be under David's and my guidance to keep it to our standards. It is easy to let standards fall, as everyone can imagine. Especially when there is skin to skin contact for prolonged periods of time, as in massage. So there will be a certain preparation to set the mood before beginning. Our standards are of a higher nature than probably will find anywhere else. I say that without pride or boastfulness. It is simply a fact.

 I think it is important to say as a final note - this is not a pretext to find couples for swinging. I am sure many who read this will wonder if that might be our ulterior motive. But, no. A couple joining this network may become authentically intimate with one or two other couples, or more perhaps, as they get to know each other, and they may swap contact information, but it is not our intention to induce swinging. Our desire is larger than that. It is to heal the feelings and show the way for others to heal the feelings by flowing genuine love to as many people as possible. Love is all there is and it has been blocked in people. We want to help release blocked love. It will change the world.

After 40 years in the swinging lifestyle serving in the sexual arena without the higher sensations of love, I seek to introduce true lovemaking.  Each person may take from our loving massage swapping what they will. It is each person's liberation that is our greatest desire and wish. Becoming freer and freer with each massage swap is our intention. What they do with that freedom is up to them. It is their choice. But it really is all about the freedom to love and the love of freedom.

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3/10/17  David and I have been meeting with a couple and expanding the vision of massage swaps. It is too personal to write about here. But it's all about light and love and the symbiotic relationship between light and love. There is an inner life to each person that is sacred.  But that inner life has been blinded by the insidious controlling games of the outer world. Not only TV, media, news, authorities watching, toxic food, environmental health hazards, violence, crime, disease, etc., all holding your focus on external things - but our own personal involvements with each other that need not be. The focus on the outside world and other people has been the main distraction that keeps us away from our inner life which is rich with clarity, purpose, intelligence, wisdom,  truth and peace. The outer world is a trap and a hazard. There are warnings lights all around but we don't see them.

Meanwhile, we each have a rich and sacred inner life  hat is all-knowing, intelligent, wise, loving, enlightened and at peace. This part is going unnoticed in the chaotic struggle of day to day happenings "out there beyond us".  I woke up last night with these words: Wake up! Pay attention. Your inner life is waiting for you to listen. Listen to your heart. Listen to your OWN feelings. You are an immortal being locked in a cage that is not a cage at all! The outside world has programmed you to think you are trapped but inside there is a secret life that knows. This most sacred life is rich beyond compare.

As David and I continue meeting with this one couple and a second couple is coming to see us soon , we are sharing a great awakening. It is more than we realized when we first started. The inner life begins to awaken with loving touch massage. It is not about sex. Our loving touch massage swap awakens inner wisdom and inner feelings. There is an activation, a stirring of things within. Inside the body. But only if you're ready. You can resist the awakening and just receive a massage. But it's getting more difficult to resist the light and love and wisdom that is inside of you. We each need it. We help each other to wake up by touching each other with love and caring. David and I started it and we are showing others now.

It's simple when we all understand that this is a very loving massage and very sensual, but it is not sexual. It is through sharing touch that we share the spark and the inner knowing. The light turns on INSIDE! The feelings are felt INSIDE.  It is not sexual but it is sensual. The difference between sexual and sensual is that you can feel sensual but you don't act on those feelings. You can feel very, very sensual to the point of being so hot that you feel like you're going to explode. But as long as you don't act on it you are still being sensual and not sexual. If a person can allow themselves to just feel, then the light turns on inside. If you are distracted and start to act towards becoming sexual, then you abort the light-turning on. This doesn't mean you can't make love. It doesn't mean that at all. Making love is a tremendously valuable process between two people. But know the difference between sensuality and sexuality and you will learn more about the awakening process within your own body, mind and feelings. It really does help to clear the mind and balance the chaos and turn on the light and peace within.

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2/18/17 Much has been happening on inner levels. There is more harmony and sensitivity as layers fall a
way like autumn leaves, leaving the more solid trunk clearly showing. The last two mornings I lay in bed feeling warm love and peace as a wholesome and natural radiation within me. It is very unusual and very comforting. I feel so very complete and connected with myself.  This morning it was so deep, so complete, that I didn't feel any need or wish to get up so I laid there for two hours basking in self-love. And I was alone in bed by now! This was an unusual feeling. I've had it periodically over the last weeks. Sometimes after bonding with my husband (meaning making love), but more often alone by myself.

The reason for this unusual activity is that I am in the middle of a certain training or tutorial. I do certain disciplines every day. And my instructor is not in a physical body. I receive these instructions in my mind, quite succinctly. I am learning techniques from a tantra teacher who lived centuries ago and now resides on the ascended planes.  I made contact with him when I bean asking for help with tantra, because tantra was so confusing to me.  He has been showing me that tantra is the path of reconnecting with the body.  With ones OWN body. It is a mystery to those who haven't learned how to do this. But to someone who has practiced this and studied it, it is completely natural and wholesome and real and wonderful. And love is really all that is.

Today I was led to post another channeled article by Mary Magdalene (see it here), another ascended being, and while I was looking through the page on divine feminine, I re-read the one by the Magdalena from last June  (see it here).  As I re-read last June's article, it touched my heart more deeply than it did eight months ago. I understood it better. While Mary Magdalene is commonly thought of as saintly and far beyond human reach, she speaks of the physical body and how she felt when she was human, and about physical love. For those who do not believe in channeling, I would urge you to  read with your heart.

These two articles tie in with the project that my partner David and I have undertaken. We have met and come to know another couple in the last few weeks through our "welovemassage" posting (here). We meet together often and our discussions are taking the shape of a two-prong workshop which is not yet finalized. We are still in the "unfolding it" stage. We would teach these techniques of body connection - getting to know your body through heart-centered love, through hands-on application with and by others of similar mind.

Ideally, we would like to have 20 couples in a massage network, where everyone could learn these techniques and practice on one another. With 20 local couples, we could be assured of at least a handful of couples at each meeting. In simple terms, we would guide focus to the heart, to the chest area, and pull in thought and feeling to that area. The heart is the fulcrum between sexuality and spirituality. The heart is where love resides and where everything, high and low, come together and become one. So there would be conscious training involved.

To fill in a little bit, there are seven energy centers in the body, up and down the spine. Out of the seven energy centers, three reside above the heart and three below the heart. The heart is the central point which integrates above and below. The physical heart resides in the physical level, which is the densest of the seven levels. The physical heart is encapsulated in a beautiful etheric bubble of highly concentrated love and light, which in turn is enclosed round about by an even more refined bubble of love-light, which again is surrounded by an even more refined bubble of love-light. And there are four more increasingly more refined "bubbles" of love-light, one above the other.

Ancient schools taught these techniques for healing, to bring back wholeness to body, mind and feelings. Now they becoming available to us today. We can literally bring our physical illnesses, mental confusions and emotional confusions, back into harmony through certain techniques. We believe massaging the body with kindness, empathy, forgiveness and love, with an awareness of the brilliant sun of the real self shining in the heart, miracles will occur. They already have, but we won't say any more at this time. 

The heart is an untapped source for healing on all levels. And when uncapped, through certain practices and processes, and with love, we can be uplifted and transformed in a very real and practical way. We will soon send out the notice that we are ready to begin practicing with some intimate friends. We will keep you posted. Meanwhile, if you are so eager to begin that you can't stand waiting for us to finalize the plan, do contact us. We would love to meet you for a massage swap.

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1/28/17 This was given to me two days ago. It started out as a message for me, as usual, and I as usual, took the message and expanded on it.  

The kundalini is a mysterious force held in check at the bottom of the tail bone. It is on the etheric plane. Material scientists will not find it unless they have some ideas or knowledge about it. The kundalini is the other half of your spirit. It is the feminine half of your spirit embedded in matter, in your physical body. There is a design to the human body that has been largely unknown except to the few. The kundalini - or kanda - is waiting for you to drop your mental process and lofty ideals and focus - really focus - down into your body. Into the parts of your physical body. This takes some degree of humbleness, humility in the form of love for the body.   This is necessary to connect with the feminine half of yourself, which is locked up tight as a drum at the base of the spine.

Kundalini is feminine. It is the intuitive feeling element of the body. It is soft, warm and is the good feeling of being safe and loved. It is all-knowing and wise, just as women are innately, by nature, all-knowing and wise when they are expressing their natural femininity. But most women have been closed down. The masculine side of each of us, women included, has repressed our feminine side and do not allow it to show. We don't realize we are doing that because we FEEL feminine. But we do not show it. We have learned from the culture to repress our inner feelings, our intuitions, our knowings, our realizations. We zip our lips and remain dumb about it. We have all relied on our mental side as being superior. Men and women included. We have been taught the teachings. Use your mind. Think. Don't be stupid. Remember what you were told. Remember the rules. Don't cry. Don't show your emotions. Emotions are for weaklings.

So the kundalini remains held in check. She, our sweet and beautiful femininity, our feelings, our emotions, our perceptions, our wisdom, our safety, is locked up and we can’t get out. This includes men as well as women, for all of us are angelic in nature. The divine feminine in each human being is held in check and cannot come out when she is not honored. When she is ignored. When she is considered unnecessary and a hindrance. When she is put on the back shelf and dismissed.

The kundalini - the kanda - must be invited to leave her nest. She must be invited by your male side, your superior mental attitude that you know best. This requires on your part, humility, a humbling down, in order to descend and come within range of the kanda. Kanda is a secret name. It means “beloved” in the ancient inner language. Kanda is your feminine side of your male spirit whose separation came about at the time of birth into the physical. The feminine was needed to go down into the dense physical to anchor you, your spirit, to the earth. Your feminine nature is love and love is required to hold something in place. And so there was a division. Your male half remained above, your female half plunged into the earth plane to provide maintenance of the human body. This love is still within you. It has never left. The body temple has been much abused and maligned, but the feminine spirit in the form of the kundalini is still there within the womb of the body, holding the light and the love. This is true of men’s bodies too. Men have spiritual wombs, too. The kanda is there to be “found” by your other half - your superior male abstract consciousness which feels above it all, and thus superior to the body and to feelings of the body.

Our superior mental attitude must descend in attitude. It’s an attitude thing, and it’s a loving thing. As you descend down into your body, you begin to connect with your body. As you lower your expectations you lower your ambitions. Your lower your desire to control, you lower your sight, so instead of seeing outside of yourself, you see inside of yourself. You awaken your inner self as you continue doing this. You lower your dreams. You don’t give them up, you lower them down into your body, gently, carefully. You lower your ideals. You carry them in loving consciousness down. You don’t discard them. You carry them in your embrace, as you would carry an infant. Your dreams are your infant children. Your lofty ambitions and your high principles - these are your children. As you surrender your male attitudes and take on the role of nurturing parent, you descend into the depths of your self. You come closer to the mystery lover within. This is a grand initiation experience.

Humility and humbleness is the key. As you surrender your defensive resistance to the unpleasant, bad and ugly things of the world, the surrendering to love takes place. You begin to feel soft. You feel vulnerable. You feel holy. You feel things you haven't felt in a long time. As you give up the superior defensive attitude, you move closer to the kanda, your beloved, which is truly your SELF! And you move softly - ever so softly - through the thinning illusion - it is thinning more and more as you practice this - the thinning illusion that kept you separate from yourself. What the world knows as kundalini is felt in each person differently. Only you know. The sensation spreads. You are the sensation. It feels like you but you haven't ever felt this before. It is a surprise. It is warm and safe. It feels like you've come home. You are becoming intimate with your other half. Your feminine half that was divided from you before you were born into this world. She came first, ahead of you, down into the earth vessel to hold space for the other half, your male half, to come down and join her.

Your feminine feeling self moves when it is honored. When it is focused on with love. Then it moves. When it is honored. When it is loved. When it is focused upon as in worshiped. It is sacred. You are sacred, but you have been only one half of the whole and you didn't know that. You could not FEEL the sacredness before, but now when you blend with your feminine half which is down there in the body and in the cells of the body, you begin to feel that sacredness. It is all about love.

Practice. You may do this periodically during silent alone time. You may come and go in your experimentation. It is done gradually, little by little, as you grow familiar with your sweet other half. Whenever you surrender your superior position in the ivory tower of the skull and humbly descend down into the body in a sacred, loving, intentional way, you come within range of your beloved feminine side. It is you. It is not someone else. It is you.

When you surrender, the attitude is not in hopelessness or in despair, but in knowledge that something is waiting for you. You don’t know what. Your mind does not know. There is a pull to do this. Everyone feels the pull but most people don't know how to get there or what the pull is. But there is a pull. And when you are ready to hear it, you will. This is the work of every human being. Your other half is waiting for you to connect with it through the body. Sexuality now takes on a new meaning. Your feminine spirit is waiting for you to finish wandering about the surface world of intrigue, adventure and trauma with other beings. It has been waiting for you to be done with that and are willing to undertake the inner journey. To reconnect with the divine self within. It is a journey to be done alone, but it can be facilitated with others who are also aware of this same  inner journey. This is what David and I are exploring. Your inner feminine may also connect with others who are also awakening their inner feminine. Together feminine love may be enhanced. By networking with other people love can be double, triple the feelings of love. It is all about expanding the quality of love within the human community and leave behind the violent nature due to repression of the female and the magnification of the masculine competition and control.

The kundalini is a mystery to humankind but it is not a mystery to someone who has made the journey and eased into sweet balance. The mystery is knowable when the love connection is made. Ascension is not a place, nor a higher plane of existence. It is not in the sky on a star ship or on another planet. Ascension is right here on earth in your earth body as you reconnect with the divine that is also on and in the earth. It has always been here right along. It just needs to be focused on, honored and used in the right way. It’s in the body. It's in the cells. It's in the blood and the water and the bones.  It's available. Most people try to get away from the body and the ugliness that is attached to the human condition. But that's the outer world, not the inner. What we are supposed to do, and what we are designed to do which most people do not understand even today, is that, to COMPLETE the body, we must embrace it in gratitude and in love, from one body to another. That is the “calling home of the body”. When we reconnect with our inner bodies in moments of stillness and love, we touch the fringes of our sacredness. The divine. It's huge.

The key to all of this?  How does one do it? I've been on the spiritual path from age 15 on, and I have felt the pull to leave the body. The spiritual and religious paths take people AWAY from the body, promising more heavenly rewards "above". However, through the sexual lifestyle, coupled with the spiritual lifestyle, I have learned the way to complete the body. You don't want to leave it behind, for then how can you enjoy those beautiful sensations? This is the path of the ancient tantric masters. We must love the body and awaken the kanda, the feminine feeling centers of the body, and integrate our internal male and our female halves to become whole. This is how we do it.

David and I love massage.  We are interested in developing a local network of couples who are interested in group massage nights/days which would act as a social mixer as well as elevating and healing the rift between men and women. David also does a tantric massage with couples for pay, but I do not participate in that. David is more qualified than me for he has had training. You may contact him through the massage page. We both receive it and will answer accordingly.

We are exploring. I'll keep posting as we go along. Meanwhile, if you would like more information, feel free to write through the contact page.

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1/24/17 - We Love Massage. Two days ago I shared a vision about expectations. This morning I came awake
seeing myself among a group of people who were not together but milliing around, like in a mall. I felt them, each one, as if I were in touch with them. I could feel their nearness, each one, even though there were many. I was so open to them. I could feel myself merging with them. They didn't know. They didn't respond. But I could feel them real close. I knew that I would become close with them. I could feel myself merging with them.  I WAS merging with them, all of them, each one separately. They did not have to know. Maybe some of them did.

When I woke up there were words in my mind, ”Imagination is the language of light. Imagine beautiful things and you will be a lightworker.” I wrote it down so as not to forget as often I do in the morning. As I wrote, other words started to flow. “Uplifting things, courageous things, truthful things, justice, mercy, forgiveness, joy, happiness.” All of these start with imagination. Maybe they are not evident in the outer world but we become lightworkers when we use imagination to uplift to higher degrees.

Then I realized this is like a continuation of the message on expectation. “Thought uses words, imagination does not use words. It is uses imagination. Pictures.” Yesterday I awoke imagining projecting myself ahead of myself as I walked. As if I were sending a ghostly image of myself ahead of me in the direction I wanted to go. Today  I am told the words, “Imagination”. Imagination is not thought as we know thought to be. Thought has ground rules. Imagination extends beyond thought, beyond the brain, beyond words.  Words are fixed. The brain is fixed. Thought is fixed words. Imagination is fluid. It is a flow of inspiration. It is fantasy. The only thing we have to do is see that it is uplifting, rather than depressing. Imagination creates so we don't want dark imaginings. We are lightworkers, not darkworkers.

Imagination is fantasy - beyond what is practical in a physical matter world. Imagination can do anything!  Imagination can be applied to a new job, a new house, a new car, a new relationship, solutions to an old problem. Imagination doesn't have to think about it, because thought would take us out of fantasy. We would have to think, "How to accomplish it!" We are not meant to "think". We are being told to imagine. Simply imagine. Think of the Beatles song. They left us with a message. What are the words to that song?

Simply imagine the most beautiful, the best possible scenario you can imagine, and you will be a lightworker. You will be informing the universe that this is what you want. And then leave it. Don't try to make it happen because you can't make it happen. The universe makes it happen for you. That is being a lightworkers. Just imagine it. When we use the language of light, we are allowing our higher self to speak through us. We are simply allowing it. We are allowing the language of light from our ascended self to speak to our world of physicality. Being a lightworker is allowing these beautiful fantasies to flow through us without stopping them with our expectations or doubts. This is the coming age of love. That which we seek is love. The language of light is a flowing of universal information (a language) down into form, into shape, into expression, into sensation.

The language of the fifth dimension, the language of light, the language of fantasy, is a flowing. It is where anything is possible. It is how the ascended ones live, how they communicate, how they create instantaneously. We are getting primed and ready to learn how to use it. We have to jump outside the box of our brain and which holds old programmed thoughts and beliefs, to jump outside that ivory tower into the soup, into the mix, into the creating of a new world for ourselves and our family and community. Like the children do. They don't bother "thinking", they just imagine. We must awaken the child in us.

Imagination is flexible, fluid. open, moving, not fixed as in expectations or beliefs.  Fantasy is a fun flowing, an endless dreaming. There is no finite to it. It takes a little while to get used to using it as a normal way of life. We have to leave the boxed-in parameters behind. We can't fix imagination or it becomes a dead-end. An expectation. Let it come and let it go. It's coming from higher planes. For example, President Trump. He was a disturbance while he was running for president. Now is a wild card. He came out of the blue and he ruffled feathers. He disturbed people mightily. He is breaking into our fixed beliefs. I didn't know I had so many fixed beliefs. Now I am seeing that I do. Trump is breaking them up. He is breaking up a lot of fixed attitudes. He is bringing them out into the foreground for us to see.

His raw and rough approach is causing chaos. Worry. He is rattling the country and the world like an earthquake shaking the ground and uprooting long-standing trees and highways. He has no respect, it is said. He is not respecting manmade protocol and tradition. He is causing us to open our minds (after a lot of struggle). When a tornado comes ripping and roaring through town, we can't stop it because it is bigger than us. We can fight it, we can swear at it, we can get mad, we can get scared, worried, defensive, angry, attitudes that don't help us at all, unless we want a heart attack. A lightworker raises it up, because it is the only weapon we are allowed to change something ugly and bad into something good and positive. We cannot be harmed if we use our imagination for good. Let us be lightworkers. 

It's not about politics, though. It's about our own personal life and finding a way to bring about peace, love, and a better world for ourselves and our loved ones. Protestations and arguments don't bring peace and love. We have to change our attitude, our approach, relax our mind and allow imagination to flow through us for betterment. That is the spiritual law of the universe. It's time for us to learn about it and use it in our own personal world.

We are here to fight corruption and it begins with us, personally. The only weapon we have is imagining better, instead picking up guns and sticks and going to war, we are to imagine something better. We are not allowed, by universal law, to fight the dark with dark. We don’t fight fire with fire. We fight dark with light and the light is our own consciousness. The language of of light is our only tool, and light and love are the same thing. Light is information and love is taking that information and making it real. Living it in our world openly and freely, to
make it manifest into the physical where others can see it, hear it, taste it, feel it, know it is real and not a fantasy. We take free-flowing information and let it free flow through us into the world. We move it. Not just think about or talk about it. We act upon it. That has been my big mistake. Talking about it and thinking about it and not acting on it. My job now is to take this information and act upon what I have been imagining for a long time, and stop thinking about it so much!

We can remold our world by imagining it better, looser, more flowing, more beautiful.  As we do, the dark is lit up as if a flashlight was turned on into a dark closet. The people in the dark are lit up and revealed. Everyone who has dark thoughts are exposed. We can‘t hide our darkness when light is shining. Our weapon is light. When we allow light to express in our personal world, it is felt as love. Maybe sometimes it is felt as tough love, but it‘s love all right. It definitely is. It is information no longer being avoided or denied or repressed. These lit-up areas of our life transform our world almost like magic. It is like when a long-held shame that has been held secret for 25 years, is now told to someone and suddenly we are free. We are the ones we are saving, not the other guy. The dark in us is what holds us back by shutting down information that we have. The dark we should be concerned about is not the other people, but what is locked up inside us. Nothing - literally nothing - is so dark that it cannot relief the pain and suffering and bring about peace and good. That is our job. To stop blaming others and the politicians and the bankers and whoever we want to blame, and start living the light and the love within ourselves.

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1/22/17 - We Love Massage. This is a new project that David and I are working on and slowly unrolling. The vision is far-reaching but it starts with massage. I have posted it in the MASSAGE page. We have had a few massages with a few people and we invite more to contact us. Couples and single women only for now, as we are still evolving.  I am still evolving. There are layers and layers and still more layers of things I have to get through. Clarity is coming every day but it is like peeling an onion. I get past one thing and then something else pops up. These are clearings. AhHA moments. What is being peeled away are layers of expectations. And beliefs I did not know I had.

This morning I had a most wonderful experience during my meditation. I saw what expectations are doing to people. To me. I saw expectations, many expectations and beliefs, in the form of a flower fully open. The flower petals were the expectations and beliefs, unfolding quite beautifully all around the central stamen, which appeared as a shining jewel in the center - the prize that has been overlooked by me. By everyone who is seeking outside of themselves for answers. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls and barriers. Boundaries that block my way to the real within. Yet they are safe enough. They are OK. We search outside of ourselves, facing away from our real self, the prize at the center, by trying to define what we want, what we need, what we feel to others. And what we want to have happen and what we want the other person to do for us. And when we get together in little groups, each person has a different set of scenarios of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions, etc. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in his or her auric field, in the far reaches of our minds, and it blocks us from getting it because it's too fixed, too narrow, too focused. Nobody could possibly fill that expectation.
It is less than what our real self can provide if only we would stop expecting.

It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to learn through trial and error. We are here to experiment through and with other people. We have created a lot of wisdom through our experimentation and our travels with people, some special people, some accidental, some traumatic. We have been creating our life situations by defining what we want and then expecting it to work out that way. But there is the jewel in the lotus at the center of the flower. The real self. The sovereign self who stands alone. We haven’t found it yet. We haven't learned to look inside the treasure chest. When we start to open the jewel-encrusted chest (the body) we are going to find the most extraordinary things. The jewel in the lotus is our bodies and our ability to feel feelings. We are being asked to make arrangements to bring people together so they/we can facilitate each other. With the help of friends we can tap the unknown and allow the sensations of love that will be unearthed. Together, we can do this, with and for each other.

Expectations are a problem. Expectations are scenes and beliefs we hold in our minds of what we want to have happen. It's a planned scenario. We fix our mind on something and it stays there solid and immovable, like a barrier of sorts. We are seeking this thing to happen for us, but it's unattainable because every person has a different picture. No two are alike. We must drop our expectations and allow the unforeseen to happen.  The spontaneous. The flow between people. This can't be controlled. We can't imagine it. It is a feeling. It is a flow. We don't know what is to come because it hasn't arrived yet.  The joyful experience of merging with others without expectations, allows the moving of emotions, the sensation of feelings within us that are not restricted to a limited mental picture. We can find this by coming together with others and touching them and hugging them and interacting with them closely - but without expectations. This is hte hardest thing to understand, but understand we must. We are to drop our expectations which have fixed us on lesser things and hold us to petty goals, fixed like concrete. They are holding us back.

Freedom does not come from someone outside. Freedom is a sensation. It is a sensation of love flowing freely within the self. It is the jewel in the lotus.  It's hard to imagine. Well, I think we've all had a momentary flash here and there. I know I have. We know it's there and it's possible. But what is holding it back? I saw this morning that expectations are holding us back.

Joy does not come from another person. It can be facilitated by another person but that other person cannot give me joy. I have to allow joy to flow freely within me. And to do that I need to trust the person who is touching me. Joy comes from within. Love comes from within, but I have to trust and allow and yield and surrender my blockages so it is flowing from within me. Wow! This, I would not have seen. The concept continues to evolve. I need to trust. So, that is why I have been insisting on no sex during the massage. Another "AhHa!" If we know sex is a maybe or a possible, it keeps my focus outside, external, on what the other people are doing or thinking of doing to me. I am either in fear or in hope. I am kept away from relaxing and trusting and allowing myself to surrender.

The spontaneous free flow with a group of trusted friends is an amazing experience. I have felt it. To be able to flow with freedom and love without having to think about reciprocating or performing or worrying about what's going to happen after. Just allowing the sensations of love to spread all through and through the bodoy from head to toe. And to give that same sensation to another person later. It is a most wonderful experience.
We can’t control that type of feeling. We can only give in to it. We can only go with the flow but we first must create a flow. We must have people to create a flow. We must interact in a way that is free and safe. Safe massage, safe from expectations, safe in the way of simply loving the experience.

We are to merge our personal knowledge with the personal knowledge of other people, up close and intimate but not with sex because sex is an expectation. Massage is safe when everyone agrees there is no expectation of sex. Each of us is an encapsulated body of knowledge and sensation, of light and love, We have exquisite feelings inside but they are locked up and not moving. Warm, loving hands by trusted friends will move sensation around so we can feel more. Our knowledge (our light) is inside us but not moving very much. When gentle caring hands move across our back, legs, arms, face, it moves this light, this inner knowing, around so we become aware of what we know. We are being asked to come together. It is a vision that both David and I have had for many years, but we did not know quite how to bring it about. 

We have evolved a concept of bringing people together through massage to merge our bodies and our knowings and our sensations and wisdoms together - but not with sex because sex is an expectation. We are asked to bring our bodies together so the love that is trapped within us can relax and flow and merge with the love of the others we are interacting with through a simple massage encounter. Sharing to give and receive the sensations. Then we can expand into something greater. The greater cannot be captured in words because words are finite and fixed. The flow of love is not a flow of love but a flow of sensation. We are being asked to drop expectations and enter into the jewel in the lotus which is an eternally flowing river of love. We are being asked to facilitate its moving through the physical bodies. We will be enriched by it.

By dropping expectations we will experience more than we have before, when we held expectations. This is a concept that cannot be properly explained because it is a feeling. It has taken us a long time to put it into words thus far.  The plan is to gather people together who understand, as best they can, and to trust it and not give in to the lesser temptations that our minds have known prior to this. We must let go of prior memories and enter the flow of the "now" moment that is created by our coming together with loving and kindly intentions to assist one another in experiencing the greater without trying to control it or direct it.  Thank you for listening!

I have seen into the future. There is a new age coming of men and women who have overcome personal issues and achieve remarkable heights of love and lovemaking. Sex becomes lovemaking. Sex as we know it disappears from view and it is all about love and lovemaking. This knowledge has been reserved for when the consciousness of the culture is more ready for it. It appears that we are ready for it is coming through many people. This knowledge has heretofore not been accessible. Our minds were too restricted. But it is coming. It is possible. It is of galactic proportions. It is available for those who can set aside their old limitations and yield to the love that is already held locked up inside the muscles, organs, tissues, cells of the body. Oh, the things I have seen! I wish I could express them in words but maybe you get the feeling? I hope so!

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1/18/17 - I had a light bulb pop on this morning. This is something I have known mentally before, but the full meaning hit me in a more personal level. A gut feeling you could say. It hit home.

Stop wanting things! Stop wanting a massage group. Stop wanting this. If you really, really want something, you’ve got to let it go. It is like letting the bird out of its gilded cage. If it's meant for you it will come back. Stop wanting.

I read this in a journal entry from 1982. I started off thinking of a friend who wants a man in her life as a partner so much that she is not getting one. I want a massage group of uplifting and elevating people so much that I am not getting it. Many people are wanting things so badly that they are not getting them. The answer is "Stop wanting." Stop wanting money to pay bills. Stop wanting a new car. Stop wanting a better house. Stop wanting to get well. Stop wanting to fix the daughter's mess she made. Stop wanting. Stop focusing on what you want because what you’re doing without realizing, is you’re focusing on what you don’t have, and when you focus on what you don't have you are blocking the flow of the infinite sea of life, love, abundance, freedom, all that is, the sea of oneness. The universe is designed to provide everything you could possibly want, but you are signalling that you want poverty, lack, pain and suffering, so this comes back to you.

We are focusing on a brick wall made of substance and preventing that which we want from flowing to us. We live in a sea of abundance and trying to manipulate it by telling the flow to "do it THIS way". We are trying to tell the universe what is best for us and we don't tell it in the proper words. We need to change our words. We are using tunnel vision when we should be using higher vision. We are focusing on disharmony when we should be focusing on harmony. The universe works in a loving and harmonious manner, lining up the atoms and molecules so they fit and dance well together.

The sea of life is large and doesn’t have the capacity to manipulate the way humans do. There are laws in effect. Besides, we are focusing outside of ourselves, out there in the maze of the outer world of matter and the telephone to speak to the universal flow is inside our hearts. As we continue to tell the outer world what we want, it is like - to use a popular phrase - like pissing in the wind. It comes right back into our face. This is not working. It is draining our power away. It is stopping us from getting what we want so badly. Universal law is scientific. We must stop wanting whatever it is we  are lacking because lack is the message we are sending out. So how do we stop wanting? My journal entry reminded me. We must replace the continued thought of "want and lack" with a proactive thought of fulfillment and happineness. We do this in the form of an invocation or affirmation. A prayer or a mantra is composed positive happy and fulfilled thoughts.

An invocation is asking someone of higher authority for assistance, like the ascended masters or the heavenly host or the angels or a special guardian spirit, or God. A request for help. Invocations are repetitions that open portals to higher consciousness individuals. Masters. Help comes from higher places when we ask. Help doesn ot come when we close the portal and go about our business on a human level, thinking we can find the answer on our own. The problem we have is not trusting the higher realms. It is a science. Universal law is scientific. And Certain ways of living have been proven. It’s not about being "good" or "bad", but about using the right technique. Looking to higher minds, higher beings, higher laws, is a must to get what we want. Stop wanting and issuing calls for lack, and start issuing calls that are filled with happiness and abundance. Even the ascended masters look to someone higher as they evolve in consciousness. There is always someone higher.  

An affirmation is different. It is the act of verbalizing a positive statement of support and encouragement for oneself alone. It is not asking for a higher being, but affirming something good that you want.This is harder to do because our subconscious is filled with lack and impoverishment and we may think we are affirming good things for ourselves, but in reality an underlying message of lack is woven into the affirmation. That is why calling upon higher beings to help us in getting what we want, is the better and higher way. Look up invocation and see where it leads you. Start doing it. This is my own message to myself. I am just sharing it. An invocation is a mantra calling on higher energies that are not our own.

A mantra or invocation is done in repeated fashion, over and over, to reshape and remold the negative thought patterns that made ruts in the brain synapses. It takes conscious effort to reshape and remold negative thoughts into positive ones. Fifteen minutes a day is a good start, and twice a day morning before starting the day and evening before going to sleep is a very good start, to anchor a new direction. Before we sleep we set the pattern in a positive direction, and during sleep our real self goes in that direction to talk with masters. We always journey while the body sleeps, and we can entrain ourselves to remember when we wake up in the morning. An invocation is more powerful than an affirmation, because we are going directly to the presence of an ascended being and asking him or her specifically for advice and help.

Stop wanting. Stop wanting and relax your efforts to get it. Settle back and trust that your wants are being handled. Relax and smell the roses and use your invocation, affirmation, mantra or whatever technique you have chosen. I will give you my absolutely most favorite mantra of all.

          “I am the light of the heart, shining in the darkness of being and changing all into the golden treasury of
          the mind of the crystal one. I am projecting my love out into the world to erase all errors and to break
          down all barriers. I am the power of infinite love, amplifying itself until it is victorious, world without
          end, amen.”

It was given by an ascended master. I forget who at this point, it was so long ago. I memorized it years ago and continue to use it today, whenever a moment comes along I notice I am saying it automatically. In the beginning I had to work at memorizing it but today I sometimes wake up with this song ringing through my consciousness.

There are many such radiant words available to be found on the internet. One that comes form an ascended master has more light in it. Committing it to memory will help change brain cells from dark to light so you can better receive more goodness. The universe wants you to receive good things. And if your brain can receive more light and goodness, so will your heart, organs, body and your entire world. But it does take conscious will power and an effort to dedicate a certain amount of time to this every day.

Another way to change negative thoughts to positive thoughts is to call forth the positive qualities that you want, specifically. Name them. "I call forth joy from the heart of creation. I call forth courage from the heart of creation. I call forth intelligence from the heart of creation. I call forth truth from the heart of creation. I call forth healing from the heart of creation. I call forth freedom from the heart of creation. I call forth peace from the heart of creation.

The sophistry of the world tends to degrade and ridicule such activities, and if you are thinking, "Ridiculous", be aware that our world is a dark planet that has been mind-controlled and programmed to be at odds with everyone and everything. To be at war and to be in fear and to be in poverty. This is the only way back to self-empowerment. Through the use of consciousness. Consciousness is the only thing you own, because you ARE consciousness. Without consciousness, you are dead. With a twisted consciousness you are at the mercy of those who manipulate you.

Consciousness is not energy. Consciousness CREATES energy. Consciousness does not move. Consciousness is everywhere. Consciousness is life, and it is intelligence, and it is love. But it does not move. It is stillness. You are supported by consciousness and I am supported by consciousness. It is our job to identify with that sea of abundance, intelligence, love, light, information and all that we are. We are more than we think we are. And, what you become conscious of creates your world. What you like and what you don't like. It is all created by what you are conscious of. We do not want to become conscious of dark thoughts or of lack, because that is what comes back to us. We DO want to become conscious of positive thoughts. Mantras and invocations and affirmations are what we use to replace negative or dark thoughts of lack, poverty, pain, anger.

Love is all there is. Love and intelligent consciousness exists in the non-moving space between the whirling atoms and electrons that hold your body together.  Identify with that non-moving space between the electrons and begin filling it with positive thoughts.

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1/15/17 This weekend we had a visit from a couple we've known for many years. It provided two things for me: One was an incredible cuddling, snuggling experience with a man of advanced age.  I haven't experienced anything quite so beautiful in a long time. The second insight is that two people who have been married for a long time are probably not going to be able to do this for each other, and that we need other people with whom to expand our love because the home relationship is usually stuck in a rut of sameness. With all respect to each relationship reading this, we do build a comfortable nest and a wall around our lives together, and it is virtually impossible to break out of that walled-in nest without outside help.

My husband cannot give me the  same quality of tenderness that this elderly man gave me this weekend. And likewise, my husband could not have received from me that beautiful experience which he received from the other lady. We long-time married or coupled individuals need to expand our love with other people outside of ourselves but - and this is a big but - it is not easy to find two individuals who are each compatible to both of us. Not easy to find. However what is compatible? Does it mean we have to find the same age? The same body type? The same economic class? The same political party? The same philosophy? The same spirituality? The same mental intelligence? There are thousands of categories that could be named and not one couple could fill all of them. No one person can fill all expectations. Not even our true and only best friend we married so long ago. Because we are changing. Everything about is is changing. Because we are evolving past yesterday. We are evolving past what we thought and believed yesterday.

Strangers bring newness. Strangers bring challenges. Strangers bring different energies into our auric field. It shakes us up. It tears us down and undermines our pre-set, pre-negotiated values. It is refreshing. It is my belief that a massage group composed of strangers will provide opportunities for growth. Spiritual, mental, emotional and - yes - physical healing. As long as it is in a safe environment, which means a non-sexual environment. We can practice intimate encounters with strangers via massage and social time as long as we don't have sex as the ulterior motive for our gathering. 

Swinging philosophy is all about intimacy with strangers using sex as the focus, a loving massage group is all about intimacy with strangers using body contact as the focus in a kind and focused way. Love can be felt between bodies when in close contact. It is amazing. I have proven this over and over to myself privately, alone, in my encounters with people. It is absolutely amazing what can be felt when two bodies - or three or four - get together and share love. The weakness in swinging is that it is all about sex and not about love. Love is the important ingredient that is missing. Did you know that traditional swingers do not like the word "love"? They do not want to hear the L word mentioned in swinging circles. They are afraid of it because most people think of love as meaning personal attachment love, as in falling in love and moving in together. Most people are afraid that loving someone means disrupting the home life, getting a separation or a divorce, how to tell the children, and the whole nine yards. The easiest way to defend against this type of disruption is to reject the word "love".

This has been a huge motivation for me over the years. I have been musing over it for a long time. How can I bring love back into human affairs? It is not about "falling in love". That would be exclusionary. It is about expanding love to include more people. Inclusive, not exclusive.  But how? It is about massage. When bodies are close together without sex being the ulterior motive, the bodies can slow down and appreciate simply being together in close contact. Body to body. Hands, feet, arms, legs, toes, stomachs, butts, but not focusing on the genitals. The hair on the head. The whole body feels the contact with another body or two or three or four bodies. This is how we can include love back into human affairs.

Today I re-read the Anakosha ABOUT page (in the above menu) and I realized it was outdated. The last entry on that page was updated in 2014. The Florida Silver Foxes website was announced for couples over 50.  Well, that website has been taken down so it was time today to amend the ABOUT page. It gave me an opportunity to say more about this love approach. It now reads:

Florida Silver Foxes was taken down in 2015. Today Brian and Diana live together in Naples, Florida in a semi-retired, happy couple relationship with occasional visits from a few free-minded friends. They have found a happy medium where each can devote their days to their own interests without interference or supervision from the other. Diana is the web writer of Anakosha. As a student of spirituality, she is aligned with Ascended Master instructions on how to live human life to the fullest. Her interactions with sexual people have been the focus for her instructions.  Over the years she has learned how to channel higher love into human affairs. Her intention is how to express love physically, using the correct mental and emotional approach. The emphasis is on freedom and each one's freedom to choose compatible lovers and how to consciously create one's own experiences without pressure or coercion from anyone, including a mate.  In a truly free society, each individual is sovereign and not obligated to serve anyone else's needs, but rather to live the law of kindness, compassion and love for everyone. Every relationship is sacred but the first relationship to make sacred is the one to SELF.

An expanding understanding of such spiritual forces at play within the seeming ordinariness of life inspires Diana, and fuels her desire to start a loving massage group where everyone can practice conscious choice in company with others who are practicing conscious choice. In a compatible group they can practice sharing hands-on, close and intimate experiences in higher love. This requires moving past physical sex as an expectation. Swinging requires sex. In her experience swinging has limited people to the first two or three chakras which creates pressure, expectation and muddling of boundaries. It stops short of sovereign higher love which can only be experienced by releasing all expectation and entering into the energy of love. Diana is prepared to guide us. She is a prolific writer and uses Anakosha as an outlet for her thoughts.
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1/9/17 - The other day David and I had a group massage with a couple we just met. We did it four people on one table. We massaged first the man and then the woman. We ran energy and raised the vibrations to an extraordinary height. It has taken me a few days to process the experience in order to write about it. It was beautiful!  They did not massage us but we are invited to their house next week so they can reciprocate.

During the massaging we moved energy. It is all about running energy. I just posted something in the kundalini journals, written 35 years ago and never published. No one has ever seen it but me. This channeling tells the story of what we did the other day, massaging. It was all about love and moving the old energies out of the way. Pushing them out of the way so the love could be felt. And we all felt it. It was amazing.

There was no agenda. We just went with the flow. We let our instincts be our guide, although David is more of the leader than I am. We are both trained in massage but he is much better at muscles. I only do energy, he does both muscles and energy. We both have advanced training in running energy and guess what that energy is? It is Love. Love is all there is everywhere in nature, inside people and out. The problem is, we have misused that love and held it back, and colored it with all sorts of this and that and up and down and good and bad and manipulations, etc., etc., politics, selfish motives, ambitions, dislikes, likes, discriminations. Well, I could go on and on describing the darkness that covers the love that is inside of us, in the heart of every cell. We are children of light and love. Light and love are synonymous.

Every human being was born out of Love and I don't mean the human mom and dad because they did not know about this either. They brought you into the world but then you were on your own from the first breath. Love is at the heart and soul of each person. Love is light in formation. Love is light that has been formed into a pattern. There are many patterns. Many species. Mankind is only one species. But within the species there is uniqueness. Each individual has a unique love-light pattern within, over which the muscles, organs and bone structure are built, based on the original perfect design. Always beautiful. Always young. Always. Without love the minerals of earth would not adhere to build a body. Love is the glue that sticks them together and holds them in place. You ARE love and I am love underneath the physical shell, and we are conscious at that perfect level. It is not airy-fairy. We are who we are. We each have a perfect template inside us, over and around us, but we don't know it yet because we are buried inside the human shell. We think like a human and act like a human, but let the human step aside for awhile and we can feel who we are beneath the charade. And we can get there faster with some helpers, as in massage, to help push aside the human energies that clog the arteries of our perfect pattern. There is a design, there is a plan, there is a divine and perfect plan behind everything in our life. We need to find it. We need to own it. We need to put our focus on what is real within our hearts.

Each person we meet on the street has a divine light-love body which is perfect in every way, beautiful, handsome, clean, sparkling and perfect in every way, waiting to be let out of its cage of dirtiness. Just to clear up the words "light" and "love", because it's misunderstood. Light is the creator and the architect who dreams life into existence. Light in this context is the masculine side of the creative intelligence. Love, which is also the creator but in this context it is the feminine side of creator. Love becomes the form. Love is that part of creator that descends into earth planets and takes clay, soil and minerals and builds a form out of them. Only the creator can do that and creator is both light and love. They work together.

Light dreams the blueprint on the architects table, and love goes to work and builds it in reality. We are both the architect and the builder. We are both the masculine side of creator and the feminine side of creator. It is our job to know this and bring these into balance within ourselves. We breathe in the formless design (ideas and insight and vision) and then we go to work and breathe out - build the forms into our world and our reality, via our relationships, our inventions, our music, our art, our writings, our businesses, our brilliant ideas, our newness, our excitement. Our passion goes into the building of our world. But most of us have had to work at bringing forth what is deep, deep, deep inside of us as a knowing and a vision and a hope and a dream. We have to work at it and not give up. And not give in to the dreams of other people because we have our own dream to nurture and see that it becomes manifest. We were born into a slave world. We were taught to obey the rules of others. That makes some people authorities and other people slaves. That is not how it is supposed to be. It was not designed that way. We must take our power back through love, through kindness, by owning our love and our kindness, and making it superior and the supreme voice in our world. We don't do this by fighting or opposing others. We do it through love. By owning the love that we are inside of us. It's time to break the spell of authority figures. All authority figures. We are moving into higher dimensional consciousness. That means you and me and our friends and neighbors. Each of us is sovereign and free of limitations.

We have an exquisite and perfect form on the higher consciousness plane, the etheric plane, that breathes life into our physical body. It already exists in heaven and we are meant to discover it, or uncover it. It is a game of hide and seek. Our beautiful light body is our own true self. It is a light-LOVE body hiding at the very center of our being. Don't use logic on this. Just know it. You do know it if you trust yourself. You are unlimited. Unconfined. Unfettered underneath mankind’s illusions. Recognize the illusions. See them for what they are. Our true self, otherwise known as our higher self, is hidden in the cells of our body at what we call “zero point”, in the space between the swirling electrons. It is exquisite bliss in the non-movement and silence of the space between the electrons, atoms and molecules. Except we don't know it yet.  We haven't tapped that silence yet. The silence of love. The science of love.

We are supposed to find it and uncover it and we can do that through meditation practice and also by moving the old energy out of the way through loving massage (not just therapeutic massage). With loving massage we can move the human energies out of the way so the love can come out of the shadows and circulate freely through a body made loose by tenderness and kindness. We have to move the old "fixed" energy out of the way to be able to do that, while at the same time consciously but silently, with our minds free and unfettered by discipline, engage the love light in the body. By gently loving the energies out of the way, with love, our hands move the fixed-in-place energy, the stuck-in-the-mud energy, the limitations, the set beliefs built up over a lifetime, all the human beliefs like "I'm not good enough" or "I'm a sinner,"  thoughts of incorrect and false vibrations, low vibrations, low feelings. We push all of that out of the way and let the love shine through and waft through the body-mind-feelings like a fragrance from a beautiful flower. We can feel it if - IF - the people are aware of love. We must intend a loving massage, not a sexual massage.

A sexual massage is too low in vibration because it is restricted to the outer shell, the physical.  Love is not physical. It can be seen and felt through the physical, but it must be sparked by the intention of love. Then the physical body can feel the love. So very loving. So full of love it is impossible to describe. Let the love flow. The end result is we feel so loving that when we are done we just want to be still and let ourselves feel that. It is intensified when there are several people involved, hugging at the same time. You don't want to move because you're afraid you'll lose it.  So you just hug together and let it seep into everywhere. That’s a group hug worth waiting for! That’s what happened for the four of us. Contact us through the contact page if you are a couple wishing to share massage with David and me.

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1/5/17 We have had our first meeting with a couple interested in joining our newly planned massage group. A wonderful, lively interaction took place and found that it was easy to come to a meeting of minds. We met simply to chat first and tomorrow we scheduled the massage. I posted a new MASSAGE page today in the menu above and we are hoping for more responses. A few single men were quick to express their interest in joining and sadly we had to decline, at least for the time being. We have expressed our current philosophy on the MASSAGE page, and hope this will change in the near future. Meanwhile women are always welcome and hope they will contact us. Just to meet and talk. After all, this idea of a wholesome, loving massage in group format, is set up primarily for women to feel safe, loved and able to give and receive freely without expectation, and participate in awakening and expressing the divine feminine within all of us.

A special note to single men: Thank you for your interest in our massage group. However, it has only just begun.  We are meeting one couple at a time for discussion first. Secondly we set up a day for massage. At this point we are having only couples. This is to help you understand how we are progressing. If you have a wife or girlfriend or simply a friend who would be willing to come in and talk with us about it, we think we could persuade them to try it. But there is no massaging on the day of our meeting. We are very kind and loving people. We are authentic and sincere. We are not threatening at all. We find women are kind of defensive about having strange men touch their bodies, so we are having couples only at this point. When this group grows, as we anticipate it will, and fills out with more people and there are enough women as there are men, then we can have a single person join once in a while. It is important for everyone's comfort that we have equal numbers of men and women. Wish us luck and wish us to grow bigger!

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1/1/17 Last week David and I met and discussed more on the idea of a massage group. We have been discussing this for over a year and we finally distilled it down to the following verbiage. We are planning to put up a website called "welovemassage" but it hasn't been created yet. I will include it here as a preview of what is to come.

      "We Love Massage"
        Naples, Florida, USA

            We love to share massage!
            The joy is in the sharing.
            Sensual but not sexual.
            We are a man and a woman who are experienced in massage.
            We do not live together but we both live in Naples.
            Our desire is to find other couples who enjoy massage as much as we do.
            We would like to form a small group of like-minded people to meet for massage periodically.
            No experience is required. We will guide those who are unsure or hesitant.
            It is actually quite natural!
            If you love massage as much as we do we would love to hear from you.
            Contact us HERE
            Thank you.

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12/30/16  Men write me from time to time about the intimate subject matter on this website. They are each one so very unique and personal, I would never post them here. However when I receive a really good response to one of my letters, thanking me with such enthusiasm, I can't help but think, "Wow!" to myself. Then I feel it might be worth posting my letter on the website for the benefit of others. This letter could be written to many men in diferent circumstances, and so consider it an open letter to the guys. It is responding to a single man seeking advice in how to get women into the lifestyle of swinging. 

"I am so sorry but I do not have any constructive advice for your stated goal. My philosophy as stated in the Anakosha website is so much about the feminine side of life that I am at a loss what to say to men. Married men have the same problems, I have come to find out. I know married men who are trying to get their wives into swinging and the women are not cooperating. You probably will have better luck with single women because at least single women are seeking some intimacy, where married women are tired of the intimacy that requires them to have sex. Sexual pressure is a constant in the men of their lives. Imagine constant pressure to do something over and over and over, for 20, 30 years. You would shut down too.

If you are truly interested in my website, you will pick up on the hint that love is what makes a woman's world go round. And love is not what men think it is. For any woman, even cold, frigid, up tight women, If you can love her without pressuring her for sex for a period of time that is unknown by anyone, you will gain her trust and love and respect and she will want to give you more than what you could possibly want. It is so very difficult to explain this to a man. But it's all about centuries of being enslaved. It's in the genes passed down the female line. Beneath all of that is the divine feminine - the spirit of the female. Women now want their freedom back, freedom to pick, choose and be free in every way without control, without pressure and without ridicule or degradation by men. Give her absolute freedom and she will (maybe) come around and be willing because that is true love. Anything that even remotely resembles pressure - even an unspoken wish to do more - she sees as a pressure. If she likes you enough she will give you the "more", such as entering into the lifestyle, but first you must prove that you are capable of giving her her freedom. That is love. Then she will follow your lead. The new woman is coded for freedom. Anything less is going to tone her down or turn her off after a while. After the fun of a new relationship.

She wants the freedom to choose and freedom to act and freedom means "don't pressure me". Sex to a woman means sensuality and sensuality is something felt through the whole body as freedom thrilling through her cells. Love does not mean "falling in love".  Love does not mean commitment or marriage. Love does not mean monogamy. Men have it all wrong. Love is not about owning someone and marrying them. Today's woman does not want to "fall in love". She simply wants to enter into love. Love is not attachment. True love is impersonal even at the deepest and most sensual and most intimate of moments. There is no attachment at that level, there is only a bonding between two people that two people enjoy. Nobody is controlling it. She does not attach when she is in divine love.

I am speaking allegorically. There is a hidden meaning. You must look for it. You can help a woman get there to her own hidden meaning because this depth within women is not even known by most women, consciously. It has not been brought forth where they can experience it. They must experience it. Men can help them experience this freedom. It is the new age of love, freedom, equality for women and it comes from the spirit buried in their heart.

I had the most wonderful discussion today with a male friend with whom I have been round and round a lot of issues, discussing them. We do not engage in sex. We are going to start a love club based on massage that does not include sex and does not end in sex, but includes practicing how to be open to love and how to flow with love back and forth like a figure 8 flowing. How to receive love and send it back slightly more enhanced from your own love, and she flows it back even more enhanced with her love, and back and forth. It's tantra-like but we won't call it tantra. It's simply love on an open scale. We will use massage as the tool.

I would be happy to chat more with you. Thank you for the opportunity to speak of these things. I truly wish you beautiful experiences with your seeking love experiences with women. Swinging is a wonderful, personally empowering lifestyle if love is part of your own actions."

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12/22/16  A few women have been writing to me that they like what they read on this website. A few men too, but it is the women who are nudging me to start a love club. I am wishing for it and hope it will come about in time, but this is a struggle on the inner levels for me. A love club will based on the divine feminine level, not the outer masculine. It would not be appropriate for me to post these beautiful letters that are written to me confidence because they are deeply intimate and personal, but I feel it is helpful to publish my responses which they have triggered in me.

Every man also has a divine feminine within him that is covered over by the illusion of "male energy" and "got to be a man" and "got to act like a man". Sometimes I think he is the greater victim of our male-oriented culture.  even more so than women. But this website is a feminine-oriented website, and addresses women, not men.

As a result of the beautiful divine feminine letters I am getting, I am inspired with beautiful feelings how nice it would be to have a women's spirituality group to honor and validate the divine feminine within each of us. When I say "feelings", I mean feelings, not mental ideas or instructions to start such a group. I am simply being reminded of what the femininity feels like.

I was drawn to the divine feminine or goddess teachings many years ago and then didn't stick with it. I was drawn away. Then once again I was led back to divine feminine or goddess feelings. Then once again I was pulled away to the mental perspective and the need to live in this world like other people. This has happened over and over again. Then two years agao I was once again drawn back to the divine feminine through the tantra route and I found a rare writing about the divine feminine. Not the outer tantra as in sexual, but the inner tantra as in sacred relationship with self.

Now again, through rare letters from other women who read this site, I am being drawn back to the divine feminine way of inner feeling as a whole approach to life, instead of approaching through the mind/brain. Feeling is a something that occurs outside of the brain/mind. It is different. Sort of timeless or spaceless. No boundaries but a feeling nonetheless.  For so long I have wanted to not exclude men from anything we women might coordinate, like a gathering, but I can't make myself do it. I have been frozen into inactivity because do I include men? Or don't I? I don't want to exclude them, but I secretly want to. Through recent letters I am once again reminded that women are designed to look inward while men are designed to look outward. And there is a problem in our culture between the two genders. Whenever we women include men into our discussions (and we've tried) the magnetic pull is too strong to hold the vision on the inner. The male energy is just too strong and we fold our wings and let them take over. It is a crazy situation!

This morning during a meditation I was reminded of this. Again. The inner feeling. It is a feeling of such love. Such feminine motherly love and I only get this feeling when I connect with a certain inner vibration. I get this inner vibration when I go into the kundalini spontaneous movements. These inner kundalini movements look like Tai Chi movements when I see myself in the mirror doing them, but I never learned Tai Chi. The movements came automatically and they continue to come automatically and spontaneously when I focus on them, and I can feel the inner "wind" if I can call it that, when it starts to happen. The feeling seeps into my body all over at once. It is like a sweet-smelling fragrance (sometimes I smell a real fragrence). It is like fresh mountain air, or a lovers musk. It is intimate and all over. This I could guide women into feeling but I doubt I could guide men into it. Women are natural at listening within. But we women are constantly drawn away from our inner sanctums (feelings) to serve others.

I would like to bring about a women's workshop on the sacred feminine as an introduction to the kundalini. It would be done through feeling with a minimum of words or explanation, as men would require. Mostly guiding inward. Do you feel it? There is an etheric flower inside of you ready to blossom, and it resides down at the bottom of your abdomen. It is stimulated by loving focus. I would send them home with homework to practice it  alone because it's difficult to do in the presence of others. We women tend to be drawn away from our inner feelings, like the beautiful inner kundalini feeling, which is oh, so feminine in nature, because we want to please our man or to please others, boss, family, children, whoever is in front of us, even other women. This tendency to serve others takes us away from ourselves.

This workshop would not to teach them selfishness but would teach them balance. There is an inner masculine in every women who serves as the protector and male guide. This inner masculine is the practical side of the woman. This inner male knows when it is time to stop giving to others and start giving love to self alone, without others being present. This would be like a meditation or some form of inner discipline of their own choice. The inner masculine knows also when it is time to stop giving love to self and start giving to others again. There is a balance required between activity, as in giving outward, and inactivity, as in giving inward to ourself alone. This balance is true for men also.

The most erotic, the most beautiful, the most seductive, the most tempting and desirous woman of all women, is the one who is fully seated on her own sacred throne. Her inner feminine. She does not give an inch of her feminine power away unless she is fully balanced and whole. If she is not ready to give to "her man" or to anyone, she does not move from off her sacred throne. She remains seated, quiet, regal. She may answer in words but her words are wise and truthful. And when she is ready, she will move off her throne and give like no one has ever given before. She moves like a fierce tiger or a benevolent friend or an angel in disguise or a loving mother or judge and jury. Whatever is required. Because she is balanced.

This is new information that I have been receiving. I see that I had a total breakdown many years ago because I was blindly giving my inner feminine power away to people without discernment and without being balanced. I gave and gave and gave right up to the brink of death so that I had to run away to survive. It was the dark night of the soul that brought me out of the pit of self-sacrifice. It has been a slow journey of learning the lesson. Many, many women have paraded before me revealing the same exact weakness. I see it all around me. It is something that has been a slow learn. But learning, I have been. It is seeping into me through daily life and through being in contact with the ascended ones.  Everyone is giving their power away. Not just women but men too. It is a deeply personal journey we are on.

Women becoming disempowered because the world pats them on their back and gives us validation that we are "nice". We all like being "nice" but we are not meant to sacrifice the bold power that is our inner masculine. Likewise men like being called a strong macho man, but men are not supposed to sacrifice their inner compassion in the form of their inner femininene. It is balance that is coming into the world. When we are in balance we have both boldness of strength to protect, and the loving compassion to give to others. Maintaining this balance is the work of the ages. Growing in awareness is a the journey through life, from birth through death and we continue to grow on the other side of the veil for life is everlasting. We do not stop or end. We continue growing.

While we are in a body and in relationships of all sorts, the true goddess is the woman who maintains her balance and owns her femininity not 100% but fully 50%. There are many men who have a feminine spirit. They too must own their femininity, not 100% buy a full 50% . Feminine power is recognized when held up against masculine power. One is protective and strong and focused on the outer world, and the other is compassionate and loving and focused on the inner relationship with God from whence comes all life. It is she, the feminine side of us that keeps us connected to balance, to intelligence, to love, ever open to the river of life that flows eternally. When we are out of balance and have given our power away so we are weakened, the river of life stops flowing and the "mask" takes over, what we call the ego or outer personality.

The divine feminine does not give up her sensuality or her lusty sex. She owns it entirely. The divine masculine does not give up his sexuality or lusty sex. He owns it entirely. The person who has balanced their inner feminine and inner masculine is a master at everything. They do it right. They do not hurt others intentionally. They are not drawn away from their balance. They are both powerful and loving.

For we woman, this is difficult to do because of centuries of masculine control. We still live in an overly mental (masculine) world. Everything is measured by the mind/brain and controlled from the head by the men in our lives. For women to start putting themselves back in touch with their natural inner feelings again, it is going to take some alone time. Some practice time. Some time being with other women who will validate the divine feminine. How can a woman own her inner power when the world continues to validate her masculine power? Speak up! Take action! Be strong! Don't cry! Don't show your emotions! Women get this program shoved into them  from an early age too, just like the boys.

She has to own herself. And become herself.  When a woman can find her inner kundalini, and feel it open, ah! That is the reward. It spreads so softly like an inner wind, so gentle and subtle that you hardly notice it. But you do notice it because it is so beautiful. It is familiar because it feels natural. How is it you haven't felt this before? But it is so natural that you don’t think about it twice. It takes awhile to even notice that you are in that sweet place within because it is harmony. How long  has it been since you felt harmony all around and inside of you? The longer we can maintain that beautiful feeling in the cells and tissues of our body, the more it lifts, softens and dissolves whatever is not natural. Then it spreads outward into the atmosphere around you and influences others. It is like a super natural feeling. Beyond natural. It is the way life in the ascended master realm. It is possible to experience it here in the physical body. I feel it can be taught if we have a feminine gathering of like-minded women.

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12/9/16  The page most often visited on this website after the whole book on swinging, is the articles on the divine feminine. This continues month after month as I look at the numbers of page visits. This tells me that there is a need to know more about how women truly feel about their sexuality, love and intimacy.  I know from first-hand experience talking with women that men misuse women without realizing they do, by not knowing the inner nature of women and what women really want, both in bed and out of bed. Most men do not have a clear picture of what women yearn for. It is a touchy subject because, from my experience, men really think they DO know. The women they engage with compliment them, and often pretend. Most women adopt the role of being supportive to the men in their lives. They don't want to hurt male egos. Women seldom reveal their secret inner feelings, mostly because they don't don't how.

Again, this is a delicate situation to address, because most men consider sexuality a physical act which requires physical solutions to achieve orgasm and completion, whereas women by nature seek love which lies beyond the physical. We don't know how to explain this to a man, so we women often have to hold back and repress what we really want to say. We just don't have the language or ability to explain. In my struggle to shed more light on this problem, which is why I talk so much about this subject, I asked the ascended masters for enlightenment and asked if they were against sex the way it was being done today, commonly, in most relationships. I was given the following response. 

We are not against anything, for if we chose a side we would divide ourselves. Rather, we choose love. We choose right. We choose light, openness, goodness, joy, freedom. These are the higher, nobler qualities to reach for. When facing the evil being done on Earth by calculated self-serving individuals, we meet together and discuss how to use peace and love to rid the planet of the evil. We do not go “against” the evil, as in using force, but we seek the good response in them. We seek and choose the right response. We seek out the highest good and the most intelligent way to accomplish our purpose of righting the situation. Do you understand the difference? Sex is not evil, it is misunderstood.

Evil is like an unruly bush whch is growing in your back yard that is beginning to look very ugly, with long spindly limbs and very little growth in its center. It appears thin and sickly. A good gardener will clip the unwieldy branches and force the growth back to the center with care and kindness, because he loves his garden and wishes all to be healthy and to grow in the right direction.  So he gently cares for the bush while taking action to curtail the limbs that are growing in the wrong way. He knows there is a purpose for this soul and its existence, so the gardener tends to its growth in the manner of a parent who loves its child. This is how we oversee the evolving human race. We guide with positive inspiration and nudges to do right. We use intelligence  along with patience while the individual struggles to grow. We are teachers seeking the highest and most enlightened way to train these mischief makers who lord it over mankind, keeping them in poverty, lack and suffering. There has been a sad condition on planet earth and it can no longer be allowed to continue. If it is not corrected, the evil will bring the Earth to destruction.

Thus we are making our presence known to humankind. It has been decreed by supreme intelligence and universal law to end the evil but not by force. We are overlighting the Earth and people are responding by choosing the higher way of peace and liberty for all. As the planet rises in vibration, the darker side of all human beings will no longer be able to withstand it. Those who have consciously chosen to cultivate the selfishness and control over others, will drop out. They will not be able to function as they have been functioning. This is how we operate and you are learning to operate within a chaotic culture. By chosing love and light over violence and taking stands against an "opposing" side, you will help yourself.  Ride the waves of rising frequency with joy and optimism and let what you see as negative wither up and fall away.  This is the way of love.

On another note I received the information that, if the first sexual experience is a negative one, no matter what age, if the first sexual experience is done when the body is not prepared in a loving way so it enjoys the experience which awakens the cells within the body to a beautiful experience, then the body closes down. If it is not ready, it is traumatized, for an invasion into the body in a less than loving manner will plant a seed of darkness or rejction. That first experience is then locked into the body as a pain and, unless healed and removed, it becomes a core seed which gathers more dark energy around itself. The body eventually shuts down to feeling.

Most people have negativity in their lower body from sexual experiences, which is the root cause of problems and disease in the area. The river of life is closed down by the body's contraction of muscles and rejection. Love cannot enter freely or flow in a way that it is meant to flow. Innocence and cellular joy is returned to the region only through caring attention and love. This requires advanced healing techniques by accomplished professionals for it cannot be forced. Healing is difficult to accomplish if there is an ongoing relationship which puts pressure on the person to continue to engage sexually. Re-birthing experiences would help by bringing forward the feelings and loving them free by a qualified rebirther.

If there is a problem situation that has arisen in your life, love it. Beam love into it. Embrace it. Welcome it home to your heart. Own it. Love yourself. Love all that you are. Love all that is unlovable about yourself. Of all the noble qualities, love is the greatest. It is the healer of all unpleasant situations that appear in your life. They have arisen before you for you to clear them once and for all so you are free of this problem and forever free of it. Love is the only solution to ridding yourself of it.

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12/8/16 - I continue to receive instructions from the Ascended Masters> I am sharing them openly now, instead of keeping them private as I have done for decades. This site started out as a swing club for couples but is changing its focus as I am changing. As a one-woman website, I express my evolving changes in perception here.  With decades of experience behind me in the lifestyle of swinging, as I look back I have pleasant memories and would not change it for the world. Sexual exploration with my husband was fun, happy, growthul and spiritual. But slowly, after becoming saturated with too much sex I began feeling not so fulfilled as in the beginning. I began coming away from parties feeling disappointed, frustratedg and hungry for deeper touch. The parties became superficial to me, changing gradually over a long period of time, from fun and happy to disappointing and limited. So I stopped. Where was the love in lovemaking? Which is how I thought of it when I started exploring with a loving husband, expanding our love to include other people.

I have since learned that sex is not lovemaking. They are two separate things entirely. There is a reason for sex. There is nothing wrong with sex but I have found that most people shorten the love experience to get to the sex part. Sex is not love and it is inaccurate to think of love as being sexual. It can, of course, between two people in love, but even there it often becomes reduced to sexmaking instead of lovemaking. Sex is a physical act which requires physical effort and action, whereas love is a feeling. And that feeling of love is best experienced when there is little to no physical action. Love is felt on a deeper level. Love is a very refined vibration.

I have been privy to many, many couples and individuals up close during deeply intimate encounters. Most all of them use love in connection with sex. They start out with love, thinking of it as love, and they end up with physical sex. In my opinion, focusing on sex is holding us back from experiencing the profound sensations of love that we are capable of experiencing. Physically. I'm not talking about spiritual love, the kind that takes us away from our body, but the combined sensation of physical and spiritual. Making love seems to be a lost art in the current human civilization.

When love is restricted to the physical, namely by focusing on the hot spots of the body, there is certainly a warm and wonderful feeling that is shared. But if orgasm is the goal, then love is limited. You can't get beyond the physical very far after all energy is spent on getting to the orgasm. We then disentangle and go home or go to sleep, sometimes with one party secretly disappointed and unfulfilled.

There is a capacity for love within our bodies that goes far, far beyond this common experience. It cannot be described except to say that love can expand the experience to the point of filling the whole body to saturation and overflowing, to carry us to realms unknown. At that point the orgasm is blip on the radar. Very small. We experience it as something way beyond describable. It is ecstatic. It is euphoric. It is what people refer to as nirvana. Traditional sex holds us back from this awesome experience because it keeps us in the third dimension.

Fifth dimensional love is the next step for the whole human race. We are on the verge of discovering it. We have evolved past the prudish age where sex was never discussed, to the open age of where we are today, but we have a ways to go yet.  As a civilization we are currently trapped into a web of illusion, caught like a fly in a spider web. A tightly wound web of fantasies, wishes, hopes, desires, disappointments, unfulfilled yearnings, trials and errors, lies, deceat, cheating. Maybe bondage will do it? And on and on, trying new things. All in an attempt for  love. We know we can reach it because we ARE love and it is innate inside of us. The soul knows even if the mind doesn't.  This web of illusion is like a spider web with sex at the center instead of the spider. An illusive concoction that has no resemblance to love.  It's a wrong road. That's why I left the swinging lifestyle and went on to inquire further about the true and ultimate nature of love, because I know it exists. And since human beings didn't seem to know, I began a personal relationship with the ascended masters, who I thought were beyond all of us. To my surprise, they are not. They are available to help, if asked.

So now I am speaking with ascended beings and receiving information. I will explain how this happens. Channeling is something of a mysterious process for a lot of people, even though it's becoming more of a natural thing for many people. First I go into a meditative state. I go to a high level of consciousness by using my own special techniques, and my own thought processes slow down and stop. Then I ask pre-formed questions that I have either written down or fixed firmly into my mind ahead of time. Something I really want to know the answer to because I would not remember to ask once I cleared my mind of all thought. Then I write it down whatever information comes to me. I have a clipboard in my lap. The words are very clear because I am a blank page. However, what comes through is colored by my brain cells and my capacity for words.  That means a part of "me" bleeds through in the information coming from the very high ascended being who is talking to me. In addition, I am editing the information as I post it here, because ascended master dictations are not in colloquial English. They are exquisite and high-minded. So here we go. I am getting permission to do it this way.

Light is not a feeling. Light is information and this information flows constantly through us, each of us. It is unformed information. Free flowing. It is truth.  Light does not have a fixed pattern. It is fluid, not attached to any pattern. It is the formless energy of creation. Light is everywhere. It is the light sparkles I see in the air sometimes. Our untrained minds think of this light as whimsical and random, but the trained mind of a master forms a pattern that is specific to what he wants to manifest. The universal light energy then flows into that pattern like water into a cup. It is then molded and shaped into what the master desires to accomplish or manifest. Thus the light energy becomes a form with a purpose. The master with his trained mind receives and directs the flow of light into something quite specific. He molds the divine light into a shape.

This process is a two-pronged process. First step, he receives the universal light energy by consciously looking up to the source of universal light and making of himself a cup in which to receive the universal light of creation. Secondly, he directs the universal light through his own consciousness which hold a picture of what he wants to do with it. He directs the unformed universal energy into the "cup" or pattern that he is holding as a focus in his mind. His focus is precise and immaculate, for he has learned how to use his mind in this manner. This two-pronged process of receiving and directing is done simultaneously and contiguously. We can learn how to do this ourselves, with training and practice, and we are meant to. It is in our future to learn these skills.

Now (he is speaking to me personally here) You have chosen to manifest a certain approach in your service to Earth and the people. You have chosen touch. Loving touch in a transcendent manner that does not engage the animal instinct. The instinct to copulate is a lower instinct,  limited to the physical body. It does not take into account the higher energy fields that exist within the body. As a soul evolves in consciousness it comes to realize that the body does not fulfill the deeper hungers of the soul. It comes to understand that it is more than a physical body. As it raises its conscious awareness to higher levels, so does its feelings elevate and become exquisitely more refined. It begins to learn and feel that there is so much more to the human capacity to feel.

You are actually not a body but a vibrational field held in form by the fixed vibrations of your thoughts and your beliefs. The vibrations that hold you fixed into the so-called body shape that you see in the mirror, are actually whirling atoms and electrons held in place by the repeating thoughts you think, and the subconscious thoughts of your past. This can be changed. Notice what a person looks like at the end of a hard day at work, before going into an hour of meditation. Then notice what that person looks like after the meditation. How he or she stands, the facial expressions, the smile, the glow in the eyes. The vibrations have changed during that one hour because the mind relaxed and opened. Refreshing new flow of life, love, joy and happiness came flooding in. The body received it because it was open. The cells relaxed. The energy inundated the body and mind and changed the nature of the person. In only one hour. It feels calm now, and happy. It is at peace. That is why meditation is becoming more popular today. It is improving the quality of life for many.

Light and Love are one and the same energy. The same source.  Light is unformed energy that is not fixed; love is energy that is fixed - funneled into the shape of form by an intricate divine plan. The evolution of consciousness takes place in all sentient life. It is focused attention on creation. We love our creations into existence. Light is constantly flowing into and out of form to be used in the living process. Light is a river of life that never stops. You mold this river of life into the creations that you see around you, by your intelligence and choices, and often by your deeply held beliefs. Subconscious beliefs. Your home, children, career, lack, health, relationships, car. all are your creations built and sustained by your beliefs and thoughts. You have limited yourself by believing what you believe, but you can change by changing your thought patterns and choices.

You have held back the unformed river of life that flows endlessly through you from the creator, and it  stops where there is a fixed belief and it can go no further. Thus we mold our reality by our ability to receive fresh new inspiration. What we believe becomes a permanent wall that prevents this river of life from bringing new fresh inspiration into our consciouosness. Your continual fixation on what you believe in has created your environment, your health issues, your relationships, everything that is in your world. To advance yourself, you must open your mind and begin changing your how you react. How do you do this? 

Question yourself. Simply take notice of how you respond to situations and re-examine your responses. Just noticing a response, instead of acting automatically to a situation or person, is the first step. Become aware. Become more awake. When you notice something out of the ordinary, your mind shifts from its customary position.  The ego personality is an automated personality. It is fixed into a pattern which you yourself have built for yourself. To open your mind to more beauty, productivity, creativity, harmony, success, simply begin noticing how you respond automatically. This begins the change in your consciousness. This will open your mind to refreshing new thoughts. To change. If you are afraid of something and fear has always held you back from doing that thing, change your thought to “I can," or "I will", and go ahead and do it.

It is a simple matter but most individuals are stuck in a repeating pattern which is an automatic, robot-like way of thinking. Like the movie “Groundhog Day”. If you put an effort into changing fear into an "I will!", you will be surprised at what happens next. Or in the case of someone who is used to being a doormat, change the thought to "I won't!"  The goal is to get out of your rigid habit pattern, which is mechanical, and allow new air in.  It might be foreign to you at first. But new is exciting. A strange idea can bring forth some very interesting results. Try it. This can be done in small steps. Change doesn't happen over night but it must begin somewhere because the whold world is rising in consciousness and speeding up in vibration. Old belief systems are breaking down. We all need to adapt to the changes that happening, and find alternative ways of doing things instead of copying the old systems in us. An open mind brings forth more feelings that fulfill. They come up from deeper places that feel more authentic and real. They feel more natural, wholesome and good. This is a process of coming back in touch with your own real self. Not the mask but what lies beneath the mask. There is a more powerful you beneath the outer face. Your inner self is hungry to be set free to laugh, enjoy and appreciate other people. Love is what people are seeking. Not sex but love. Love is a sense of belonging and being cared for and the best love is of self. It is an inner journey and it begins with finding the love within.
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12/6/16 - From a soul perspective, marriage is a school where we are given opportunities to expand our ability to love. We learn to be tolerant and not so rigid. We learn this by bumping up against negative situations within the home that we can’t escape because, well, we sleep there. Sometimes our ego gets bruised and we may lash out or we may repress our hurt. We may try to defend ourself or we may develop a harder shell around our heart. Living with another person provides opportunities to become more loving but most often we don't.  Frictions often grow us harder, rather than softer. Let's talk about love and the lessons that relationships provide for us. The challenge is to become a bigger person - and I dont mean fatter!  Expanding our love capability is the most important opportunity that marriage brings us. When we are young we don't usually have the wisdom to respond with a bigger heart, but as we mature and gain in experience we learn the lessons that life is so good at bringing to us. That then makes life smoother.

This happens in other types of live-together situations, too, not just marriage. But with the traditional marriage or live-in relationship, once the honeymoon stage is over and the practicalities of living set in, the two personalities that were overwhelmed by love during the honeymoon, relax. Slowly the signs appear that each person is an individual and not on the same page with the other. They are different now that they relax and let their hair down. Each one is by nature a sovereign being inside their own skin, and now that they are living together, there are certain adjustments that need to be made. Compromises and negotiations. Is one stronger than the other? Which one gives in first? All goes beautifully as long as love reigns supreme and is the primary feeling between them, but it is a shock to wake up one day and find that a disagreement that is blown out of proportion. Suddenly we don‘t know this person at all. We presumed that the love would last forever, but it does not. It's going to require some soul searching.

It is true that love conquers all. All there is is love. The universe was born out of love, and so were we. It is not trite to say that love solves all problems. It does and will.. But this is not minor league advice. It is ascended master advice who, themselves, have conquered their human ego and returned to their divine nature which is love. Applying love to a situation is not done mentally, by thought. It is done deep down in the heart where humility reigns supreme. In order to change the course of an awkward marital situation, love needs to be reawakened in all its power and meaning. A relationship needs to cultivate love every day, by both partners to make it work happily. Learning how to grow love in a marriage requires a heart-based relationship that places love first before ego needs or wants. Sometimes we don't know the difference between ego need and a true need, which is understandable. That is why we are taking the time and energy to explore the subject.

How one cultivates a relationship beyond the honeymoon phase (the teen years of a relationship) into a mature and sacred relationship is by expanding beyond the "me" to the "we". In a sacred relationship we learn to sacrifice our ego which says “I want!” and “I need“, and we adopt the premise of there are actually two of us now working together. This does not cancel out the sovereign rights of each individual but creates a third partner to consider. There is him, her and the relationship. We are now expanding our consciousness. There are three separate entities to consider and it's not easy to manage unless there is a larger love operating within the folds.

Marriage is a tough road to travel, but it has tremendous rewards when the ego is kept under control and the heart continues to reign. The challenges we face polish and refine the rough edges of our small and petty "me" wants.  Learning about love is a process that engages the heart and soul, and only a small percentage of the brain-mind. We use our brain-mind in ordinary day-to-day life to make decisions. The most important part of the brain-mind is making a decision to choose love over the ego wants. There is always a fork in the road at decision time, and choosing the "we" over the "I" is perhaps the most important decision we can make. If we make the right choice, the journey is easy. But if we are unwilling to sacrifice ego needs, the road continues to challenge our spiritual maturity. Many cop out and don’t last long enough in the relationship to learn the lessons the soul prepares for us. There is a reason we were brought together. This mate is the right mate for us at this time. Nothing is an accident. All is in order. It is how we respond that makes the difference between going uphill or downhill.

A very deep love is found by continually examining one’s own ego, the identity created in the mind, devoid of feelings and heart. The ego is the head trip. The mask. The one we developed from childhood into our personality. The ego feels it must have certain rights given to it or it is not content. The heart does not function that way. The ego personality has been trained to strive for fulfillment through other people and outer material objects or goals. More money, better jobs, etc. We were trained to seek perfection in the outer world, not the inner world. The heart does not care about the outer world at all. Physical needs, physical hungers and other urges like sex and the sense of loneliness that crop up over and over again, keeping us striving for fulfillment in the right person, the right job, the right career, but we are seldom satisfied for very long. There are always hungers and needs that push us on to continue seeking.

The divine heart does not have needs, nor hungers, nor wants. That which we call a lonely heart is not the divine heart.  The divine heart is never lonely. It is always fulfilled, joyous and happy. The divine heart is the heart that is the well-spring of love. The human heart does not have the capacity for unconditional love. The human heart loves with a condition attached to it. The divine heart is pure and at peace. It knows only divinie love and it is available to us at all times. It behooves us to learn more about it and to spend more time exploring it and questioning ourselves about it. We are speaking of the etheric heart now, not the physical heart. The etheric heart lies over the physical heart on the etheric plane.  The heart chakra has been called the higher heart. When we go into our higher heart, we enter the holy of holies. It is the sacred heart of our perfection, ga piece of the Almighty. This part of us - and it is right there within our heart - does not hunger or have needs. It is a transcendental experience when we enter it. You cannot miss it if you're looking for it. We are meant to go into our divine heart often, in order to maintain our goodness while on the human journey. It is like going to the watering hole in the middle of the desert to be refreshed before going back on the road again, for human conditions stress and strain us to limits beyond endurance. We must drink of that sacred wellspring as often as we can. It love without any limits or foundaries but we must cultivate it within ourself alone, in private.

When someone says “go into the heart”, it means get out of your head. Take your focus out of your head and put it into your chest area. Your brain is limited to what you know. Your heart accesses intelligence beyond what you know. Breathe through your heart. Use your physical heart as a visual picture. Imagine the sun shining through your physical heart. There are many beautiful pictures on the internet that display the light in the heart, symbolizing the purity there. It cannot be tainted by human actions or thoughts. As more artists tune into spirituality they draw pictures of the heart with light shining through. Your divine self is anchored in your heart. Through your heart you draw forth supernatural qualities that your brain does npt have. So how do we access this divine love in normal everyday situations?

Let’s look at this in a practical, human way. Say you have experienced a situation that is really bad and there seems to be no way out. It’s a road block. You can’t go any further. You and your live-in mate are barely speaking. Each of you is upset, angry and you don’t know where to turn. You are stuck. You have tried everything you can "think" of and it is a blind ally. You have never experienced this particular bump in the road before. It‘s new so you don‘t have answers.

Well, believe it or not, spirit does not care what you are doing on the human level, so don't worry about what God thinks.  Spirit's only interest is in you and your ability to love.  Love is all there is. Everything is made of love. Love and light are synonymous, hence the light in the heart means love in the heart. According to the ascended masters, the human perspective on Earth has gone off the deep end a long time ago and we were but a whisper away from being written off as a planet in the solar system only a short time ago. Mankind’s spiritual nature was aborted. He had gone to the dark side living a heartless, mechanical, robot-type of existence because he lost the way to his divine heart and the love connection. Thankfully, there has been a spiritual turn-around in the last 50 years and we are well on our way to recovering the heart connection and saving the planet.

It is important to realize that the human condition is a very limited field. Spirit does not respect human laws, including marriage laws, because human laws are not heart-based. They are brain-based. Human laws contain so much double-talk that common sense has disappeared and confusion takes its place. Laws contradict. What we know in our conscious brain-minds is miniscule compared to the knowledge and truth that can be accessed through the divine heart. W e know only what we know. We do not know what we do not know and there is a lot to know beyond us. There are levels to consciousness. Many levels. We call them dimensions. But consciousness is still all one consciousness. We are capable of spanning many levels and learning far more than our brain minds could possibly contain, for consciousness is not confined to the brain. We grow as we lift up, look up, and draw on higher authority. The supreme intelligence of what we imagine is our maker, cannot be imagined because we exist inside of it. It's not outside of us. God is not outside of us and neither is love. We cannot find love outside of us because we are living and breathing manifestations of love. By accessing this love there are answers and solutions to every conceivable problem imaginable, including how to travel effortlessly to Mars, Venus, Saturn and other galaxies. While scientists work inside their old guidelines, visionaries draw on universal intelligence (love) and invent new systems of thought.

There is a higher mind that is not confined to the brain. Mind is important. I am not diminishing its importance. But the human matrix says all knowledge is in the brain and it is not. We all use our higher mind during times of inspiration when we receive brilliant downloads of information that appear out of nowhere. This higher mind is accessed through the sacred divine heart and we link up to truths that no human has ever known before. We are invading new territory as we use our divine heart and access higher mind. We do this by going into the heart chakra and spending time in the peace that can be found there. How do we get there? By arranging time out to do it. It is crucial. Everyone should be doing it daily.

Schedule time away from everybody, from phones, computers, children, neighbors, co-workers, and find a quiet place. This is an almost impossible effort in most people’s lives today, so it requires special effort to plan for it. It won't happen unless we schedule it and plan how to make it work. It is essential to prepare the gateway. Once you are in your quiet alone space settled into a comfortable position, close your eyes and take your attention out of your brain and put it down into your physical heart. WILL your attention to move out of your brain and down into your chest area. Imagine a sun shining in your heart. Breathe slow and deep. It will take awhile to slow the breath if you‘re coming from busy activity. Slow your breath down systematically. It is like stopping a giant machine. It takes a while to turn it totally off. Slow it down some more until a certain feeling of peace starts to take hold.

Spirit doesn’t consider your marital problems very important, and neither should you. What spirit considers important is your ability to transcend the problems of your life, and so you are doing that now. You are transcending the outer world's problems and entering into a peaceful inner calm. You sensations of quietness and stillness tell you when you are entering your sacred inner heart. You are an immortal conscious being, just like the ascended masters, but you have forgotten and over-identified with your physical body. You don’t realize just how spiritually powerful and enlightened you are. As you practice sitting in silence every day (and not go to sleep but remain conscious), you will begin to experience your spiritual goodness and wholeness. You will begin to cultivate that all-knowing look that people point to and say things like, “Oh, I’d like to get to know him or her,” because you have a presence that belies your outer form. It radiates from you.

You may not reach a very high state on first try of sitting in silence, but with practice you will. It is a skill that can be learned. It is also an art because you are applying your own understanding and methodology to the practice. It is a solo practice. You are not copying someone else’s technique. You should not copy. You are an original. You are unique. You are one of a kind. You are a child of the light and you have direct access to the natural gifts that the divine has stored within you. It will feel natural because you will be cultivating what you are made of. It is your nature. All that you do in the outer world is not natural to you divine nature, which is why spirit doesn't care what you do outside. It is what you do on the inside that matters to spirit. So now you are cultivating what is in your heart. An ancient teaching given long ago by an ascended one, was “I AM That I Am”. This is a good phrase to use as a mantra. You might try this out and own it for yourself. Everyone is a manifestation of the one universal consciousness. Everyone is an “I Am" for we all inside the supreme intelligence.

While spirit doesn’t care what your human life is doing, YOU care. And what you will find from going into your heart and drawing on the goodness that is there on a daily basis, is that your human life will begin to smooth out. I cannot tell you how this will happen. It just does. It evolves from your calm practice of sitting in silence and absorbing the divinity within you. As you sit in silence daily and evolving your consciousness to higher levels, you will see your home and family, and your work life become happier and more in harmony with your sense of right. It is a growing upward into the light. You will have a wider lens. You are developing spiritual skills and you are choosing to do it of your own free will. It is not a random accident but an inspiration. Mankind must choose to take the high road up the lofty mountain willingly. It may not be time yet for you. Perhaps you will not do anything with this at all. But there will come a day when you will want to sit in silence and contemplate the love that you have been seeking outside in the outer world. You don’t have to call it meditation. It is sitting with your own heart in silence. There really is no name to call it. You are discovering yourself and it is the spiritual path to more love.

Whatever you are doing does not matter to spirit. Just find the love in your heart and don’t abandon the practice because it will carry you beyond and transform the desires, needs and hungers of the outer self. The inner self is greater than the outer self. The outer self is small. The secret life of human beings is much, much greater than the outer life whose focus is on material objects and the limited knowledge taught in schools of higher education. Physical urges will dissipate and the spiritual urge will become your main driving force. Meanwhile, your family and work life will be noticeably happier and run more smoothly. Your ability to tap into your beautiful divine nature is the plan of the creator, whom we call God. It was always The Plan for human evolution to grow in spiritual strength and nobleness and self esteem to become god-man and god-women, while still remaining in physical bodies and enjoying the beautiful bounty of Mother Earth. By going within and tapping your own divine nature - which is natural - you are blending the spirit and matter and bringing heaven to earth.
. It’s a science that is provable.

Love is a universal healing energy but most people do not understand that what we call human love is merely a shadow of the great universal sea of unconditional love. We often think that we must feel love and when we don‘t feel it we think there is something wrong with us. We lose faith in ourselves and God. We doubt. We diminish ourselves. This is wrong. We do not feel love automatically (with the exception of temporarily falling in love).  We have to cultivate love within ourselves, with our mental choices. When we put the effort towards cultivating love within ourselves and practicing with love in our daily tasks, spirit pays attention. Sometimes you might get a prickly sensation on the skin. It’s a message that lets you know you’ve hit upon the right thought. You’re going in the right direction. Spirit is perking up and noticing. You are lining up with the truth that lies within your heart. Or maybe you just notice that you are more calm than usual. Be conscious of these shifts in sensation. They are feelings AND perceptioins.

Most people try to solve their marital problems in a traditional human way, by avoiding true intimacy. The Ascended Masters teach that sacred relationships are honest relationships. Each party honors the other by sharing openly their feelings with the other. The masters advise is that this is the direct way to honor each other and elevate the relationship. Even if a feeling is hurtful to the other, if it is an honest portrayal of feeling, then it brings us closer together. Telling the truth sets us both free.

Marriage is intimate. It is not automatically sacred; we must make it sacred by the way we live within it. Many people use marriage for reasons other than love. Many marriages are made for convenience, or to guarantee a sex mate, or to put food on the table for the kids, or for any number of reasons. Even this type of marriage can be nurtured and cultivated into a sacred marriage through the application of universal love principles. If only one partner puts the effort in and the other does not, then that one who desires it most should go once again into the inner chambers of his sacred heart and seek counsel. By cultivating divine love, one cannot fail to find direction. However, the best relationship is where both partners agree to try this approach of honesty and the sharing of inner feelings.

Most of us don't realize that we ARE spirit, not a body or a brain. These are vehicles which we use to move around in the physical world. We are soul inhabiting what is not physical at all but a whirling mass of electrons and atoms held together by thought. We have been living in a restrictive way of life because that’s what we were born into. We have been closed down to the natural law of harmony and love that the rest of the universe enjoys.  We have been crimped. Just as when we crimp a hose and the water cannot get through, so are we  stopped from flowing with the universal life force. As we choose to return to love and the ways of kindness, gentleness and understanding, we feel once again the truth contained within. .

Marriage is a school where we learn tolerance and if we succeed, we enjoy the fruits of greater love. There is nothing the two cannot do if they are together in their agreements. We learn compromise without repressing our needs. Love is not about repression or suppression of needs. A single person living alone can follow his or her own whims without considering a mate. But in marriage we agree to join and go forward as a team and a partnership. There is only one way to have a positive partnership and that is by telling the truth continually. Every day in every way. This is the only way to build true intimacy and true love. We deepen our love by sharing our feelings, the good and the bad.  Otherwise, it is a superficial partnership in name only.

Many people make the mistake of thinking that once they marry, they can stop trying, they can stop putting the effort in. The thinking is that they have captured the man or woman of their dreams. It‘s now locked down and there is no need to try any more. But each one who is now locked into the relationship, continues to grow, change and evolve in consciousness. There is no other way to keep the union together but to keep sharing the changes that occur, every day along the way, so that you grow wider and broader while remaining linked together. Many couples have grown apart but stay together for convenience, which may work for awhile, but without sharing the changes between them, they are not free to evolve in the manner of their liking.

A common problem in relationships is a sense of false possession. Marriage is not an ownership contract. We cannot possess another human being. If we try, we create frustration on both our parts. We are each a free agent. Marriage does not diminish the fact that we are a free agent capable of thinking for ourself. By taking the spiritual path, we will know how to walk the path in a way that is positive and good for all. Oh so often people hide the truth because they don’t want to deliver bad news or to disappoint, but the lie is the beginning of a downhill spiral. Truth is the only way to approach a loving relationship. The spiritual path provides wisdom greater than human courts of law and justice.  

We cannot stop life from happening within us for there is a river of golden life flowing down from our higher self, our God-self. We are evolving and changing. It behooves us to allow this change to take place and not hold it back. When the marriage changes into a difficult school, even if we have small children, or a job or a location that holds us back and there seems no way out, there is only thing to do.  You must talk to each other. It is the time for the tough love talk. It is really surprising at how easy it becomes once the decision is made to have “the talk”. In so many relationships where the two partners each go their own way and avoid sharing deep and honest feelings, it does not need to remain stuck. It is a matter of courage to prepare the way to start the talking. Sitting in the silence of your loving heart, you may ask your soul to help prepare the way for you. The ascended ones are available to help. Ask them.

The answers come in the form of thought. Thought that surprises you because it’s different from your usual thinking. You sense, “Now where did that come from?”

I would venture to say that 95% of the couples I have met in the lifestyle do not share their secret inner life. Mostly because they are not on the same wave length. They are an “outer world” couple, not soul mates who share an inner life that helps them evolve. An outer world couple is brought together for karmic reasons, to help each other resolve issues from other lives. When the karmic debt is fulfilled and paid off, then there is a feeling that they do not need to be with each other any more. Sharing these deep inner thoughts with each other, smoothes the way to freedom on both sides - or brings them back together again on a deeper and more intimate level.

A marriage that is at a stalemate remains a status quo marriage. Non-movement between them leads to holding each other back from moving on with their inner life. We are born to expand our love. If it is not going anywhere in the relationship, then it is best to talk about it and find a way to change it. Again, truth is going to set everyone free. You might say, “Except for the children,” but even children can be dealt with honestly instead of thinking of them as children. Truth is truth no matter what age, and when truth is shared with love, then love wins and the spirit in both is thankful and appreciates it.

Suppression of feelings leads to anger, frustration, depression. Cheating is a temporary relief. It is common. Swinging is comfortable for some, if they are both honest with each other and both want to explore that as an avenue. Open marriages may work, again, if they are both willing to give their blessings to each other in love. Two people can be very creative if they are honest with each other. They will devise a workable solution to their enigma. It is so sad when a man and woman gloss over their secret inner life and pretend that all is well.

They must talk if they want to evolve. This is the advice of the ascended ones. If they do not talk, they will find more awkwardness, separation and unpleasantness ahead. I don’t think any of us fully realizes just how beautifully harmonious two people can come together, how intimate, how enchanted, how sacred they can become, by simply telling each other their innermost secrets and feelings. By taking the time to talk sincerely and authentically. I myself have recently had such an experience. It is difficult to tell a mate what you really want to say to him or her. It’s scary but it must be done if we want to get the feeling of stuckness out and gone so we can move ahead. It is a matter of getting it off our chest. Of removing the block that is holding back our freedom.

Talking and sharing information in words spoken out loud is the only way to convey a message to another person. We can’t keep presuming. Women are guilty of presuming that men “ought” to know what we are feeling. Well, they don’t. Clearly spoken words are the only way to release the truth. We must talk. If one or the other refuses to listen, then we must get creative. It’s a challenge. Find a way. This is tough love. Tough love breaks down barriers so the parties involved can move ahead. How we apply tough love is by delivering hurtful words with compassion. And by being consistent in applying these words with love. It is not helpful to be loving one time when you speak, and the next time being angry when speaking. It is important to be consistent. The soothing flow of water wears away the hardest stone in the river.

Have a fierce determination to not stop applying love. This is for your own sake, because you are cultivating a spiritual quality when you do this. It is good for your own soul and your own future happiness to do this in the manner of a well-spoken gentleman or gentlewoman. It doesn’t even matter if your mate refuses to listen. You will have done your best and moved yourself. You will know when it is done and when you do not have to try any more. You in your secret inner heart are the ultimate authority and creator of your life. Not your mind, not your brain, not your ego, but your divine heart which knows only the truth from a calm inner place. No one else has authority over you except your own soul. Not your mate, not the priest, not the guru or the minister, and not even the guardian angel who watches over you. You have the right to choose how to handle any situation, but choose you must. It is your decision and your free will that will take you where you want to go. Use the enlightened intelligence and discernment that is within your heart.

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12/5/16 - Greetings to the readers of this blog. I have been away studying, learning and growing. Learning how to deal with transition by breaking open blocks caused by old beliefs, which were holding back the flow of energy. Life. Now that I have opened up new levels of energy I would like to explain it and define the instruction I received. Perhaps others will benefit from what I have learned about energy. Invisible guides in the form of ascended masters are available to anyone. It's just a matter of focusing your thoughts. They will answer if you ask. It is kind of amazing. Most people are not aware of this, or just how available this assistance is. 

What is energy anyway? Everybody talks about it but what is energy? Spiritual energy, that is. This is not an article on quantum physics - although in the end it is indeed the same thing. We just approach the subject from a different direction, a different angle, a different consciousness, and therefore we define it differently.

Energy is composed of sub-atomic particles that are intelligent. They are conscious and they are units of consciousness. Little bitty ultra-small particles of intelligence.  Everything in existence, both physical and non-physical, is composed of these invisible sub-atomic particles, held in place by super-intelligent conscious beings called ascended masters and other even greater intelligent beings who are way more evolved than we are. But we evolving to become great masters ourselves one day, as we learn to apply the cosmic and universal laws of life. We live inside the vast and infinite body of God, Creator, All That is, Allah, whatever name you wish to call the supreme intelligence. These sub-atomic sparkles of conscious intelligence are the universal substance by which we build our world and maintain our bodies through constant flow of elements, nutriments, air and consciousness. We are not stagnant. Or we should not be stagnant.

When these little sparkles are randomly floating around, and we see them in the air sometimes sparkling, they are just waiting to be used. We live inside a sea of consciousness while we remain unconscious of this rich field of builiding material.  Through the use of careful study and conscious intelligence we build our world, go to school and study architecture, design, engineering, mathematics and we build bridges, buildings, machines to enhance health, all by applying our consciousness and putting these tiny consciousness units to work for us. It requires focus and attention to detail. Thus we go to school.

As we use intelligence constructively, we build the world around us with more refinement, more beauty, more grace and harmony. Relationships smooth out. Love and peace become more apparent. We use these units of intelligence constructively by directing our thoughts carefully, with more attention and more commitment. But when we are unconscious of what we are doing - and most often we are unconscious - we create unwanted situations. We are meant to learn about these intelligence units and become more conscious of energy. These units can also become blocked or dammed up because we are too "fixed" in our belief system. We mold our life  through our thought patterns. What we focus our attention on we become. What we focus on, these little intelligence units go immediately to work and bring it to us. so we must learn to be more careful what we focus on.

 If we are whimsical and don’t linger too long on any one thought, the intelligence units can't do their job because the master has left the building and abandoned the plan. The little intelligence units go back to floating freely in the air to be used by someone who has a plan. As we become more conscious of these energy units, we will start to use them more constructivelly. We will then begin to change our lives to more beautiful, happy, refined lives. We are to apply more focus - for as long as we feel is necessary. To build a new home, for example, we must spend considerable time with the design of it, or the selection of an architect, or where to get the money. But it is positive movement on our part, and we are putting the available energy units in the air - WHO ARE CONSCIOUSLY AWARE - to work for us. It is our attention, focus and consciousness that commands them to do our bidding. So we are required to become more conscious and we must become more disciplined in how we use our minds.

The more firmly focused on what we want, the more successful we are. However, there is a consideration of marriage partners. Those of us who are committed to living with someone else make compromises. That is another article for tomorrow. It is already written. For now, I want to define these precious energy particles that are available to us, and understand how to use them properly, in constructive ways, not destructive, so that we can improve our lives and our bodies and the world we live in.  This is called energy work. My sister and her partner have a healing business called “Energy Works”. That’s what they do. They are healers and they work with these little bright, golden sparkles of intelligence that we ALL swim in like fish in the ocean. They may not know they do but they are  confident that universal energy works, and it heals. Their practice is thriving.

Those who are not aware of these sub-atomic particles, otherwise known as "energy" or intelligence units, recycle their old thoughts and beliefs over and over again. Their lives do not change but remains in more or less the same condition as always. Life is random and accidental, he or she might say, and this person does not change easily. He wishes for change without having the tools for change. The universe is intelligent and provides intelligent units to accomplish change, but we must know about them. We must know they are there, right there in the air around us. Change comes from consciously tuning into this concept. This idea that is so foreign to most human beings on the planet. Then, once he consciously tunes in, he can begin experimenting and proactively changing HIMSELF. Not the world and not other people and not one’s own husband or wife, but oneself. It is within oneself that change begins. One person can change a whole nation. There are many examples. A person who reads this and comes to a new awareness of intelligence units sparkling in the air around him might say, “Hey! I created this situation, I am going to change it!“ And he or she begins to re-create his world to something better, more loving, more gentle, more productive, more free with more positive outcomes

Otherwise, we build our own house of cards which fall and we build again and they fall, all because we do not realize that we must maintain an orderly thought process long enough to form a pattern of thought and a building of that thought into a feeling that is felt in the body. You literally become the thought and feeling and it transforms your world. It is feeling that keeps us molded into the physical world and physical form. A mental thought cannot do it, it has to be transmitted into a feeling. So it is not a fast, quick operation. It takes time to condense it into matter.

It is by holding a continual pattern of who we are and having continual beliefs that we became who we are today. Even our DNA particles are consciousness units molded into form and passed down to us from our ancesters.  If we want to change ourselves, we must change our beliefs and thought patterns that better express who we want to be. Who we intend to be to reflect the higher truth of ourselves. Our face, hair, body type and personality reflects our long-held beliefs and thought patterns, locked into a fixed position. Our body is a hologram. It radiates out from us with our energy signature. A blind person can tell a familiar person approaching from the energy they radiate. These fixed patterns of beliefs and thoughts draw the same people to us, over and over again. We draw people we want and we draw people we don’t want. Maybe because we have an unresolved karmic debt that needs resolution, or maybe because our higher self (soul/spirit) sees that it is time for us to have an intervention, usually as a reward for having passed a test without knowing we did. Then we meet a new person who has a positive influence on us.

So, considering the vast sea of intelligence units floating in the air around us, when we say, “I am sending healing light to Susan during her surgery,”  I am turning my attention and focus on Susan. I am picturing her and intending (thinking) about healing or loving healing light. I am not just focusing on Susan, I am coloring my thoughts with love. It is the human perogative (free will) to color our thoughts with anything we want to color it with. We could color it black if we were an evil person set on destruction. But that is hardly the case! We “select” the color or quality we want to send the person. If we intend that Susan be healed and feel our love, we qualify our thoughts with that vibration of love and healing. It is that simple. Just an intention alone lines up these little intelligence units of light into an orderly fashion and goes straight to Susan, like a bullet shot from a gun. It is instantaneous because there is no distance in the vast body of God, Creator, in which we move and live. And no time is required. In the vast universe it is all here and now. As we swim in an ocean of an infinite number of sub-atomic conscious units of awareness, we sometimes see them in the air sparkling in the sunlight. They are all around us, all the time. Masters and angels use these conscious units to create physical bodies for themselves so they may appear long enough to deliver a message. These little sparkly guys are friendly, eager to serve, fluid and pliable. They await instructions. They are available to be used to build from.

In our ignorance and untrained minds, we use intelligence units most often to create negative situations for ourselves, which keeps us locked into scenarios we don’t like. The human being is designed to learn, grow and evolve. This is one of those advanced lessons that we need to learn today. Understand that intelligence is available all around us and in us, but we need to wake up and realize it. If we use our minds in a conscious and productive manner, in other words in a way that is constructive to the world around us, we are bringing heaven to earth. This is cosmic law in full bloom. We must learn how to manage our thoughts and relax our firm and rigid beliefs that prevent us from blossoming into a stronger person. For example, religious beliefs that instead of being humane , judge other people according to some set-in-stone standard that is keeps us intolerant.  Such as belief in racial purity resulting in racial bigotry and intolerance, instead of treating people of all types, nationalities and colors with equal respect and honor them as children of the one creator. Such as exerting control over those we love and let them go free to chose teir experiences and explore their own capacities and evolve their own wisdoms. Stop trying to control them. Stop owning them. They do not belong to you. They are sovereign beings in their own skin.  These are examples of rigid belief systems that hold us locked into sameness.

As we become conscious of how much expansive intelligence is out there in the air around us and in us and everywhere - it is inside our own muscles, blood and tissues - we draw more health and harmony into our immediate personal lives. If we practice this even a little, quietly, so no one knows, we can prove it to ourselves. This is a skill that must be learned. It is learned by us as we evolve our consciousness and practice it in a way that we gain confidence in the results. We learn as we go. It doesn't come all at once and it doesn't come automatically by accident. It is not bestowed on an innocent bystander and this knowledge is not random. Incidentally, a random act of kindness is not random. It is a conscious decision to do something kind for another person and it brings its own rewards. As we consciously select kindness and focus on a specific deed, we direct these little intelligence units with more solid results. We don't think of them as "units". We just apply our authority and say, as the master did to the storm, "Peace, be still!" and the storm obeyed. The winds died down. We are to become masters like him.

We have at our disposal the means to create a more harmonious life for ourselves, with more abundance, more good and more positive and uplifting friends. Then, just by radiating positivity we spark others and influence them in a way they can understand without preaching or teaching in words. We simply pay it forward by being who we are.  These intelligent units do not require you to sit in silence for long periods. They require only your awareness of them and your authority over them and the knowledge that they are really there.

Watch and you can see sparkles in the outdoors at certain times of the day. This is the sea of universal consciousness. They obey the voice of authority.  You!  Most people do not know they are the authority of their own life. The universe is moldable and flexible. It is not fixed like concrete. It is always changing, depending on the movements, actions and thoughts of the population. Some are higher thoughts, some are lower thoughts. A more positive life requires higher thoughts. Even the human body is moldable and changeable for the better through the use of positive and loving thoughts. Hateful, fearful,  depressing thoughts, and belief in the "fixed" medical industry which has some answers but far from all answers, can hold you back through the contraction of the muscles and cells of the body which goes into lock-down position out of refusal to expand and become more open-minded. In my estimation, fear is the worst thought and belief of all. By believing that the world is dangerous - then so it will be. You will attract what you focus on

Tomorrow:  how to use energy in a marriage or partnership where compromise is required.

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10/8/16 - Just checking in. I am in an observer position. I am receiving information about the world changing and I can't tell anyone about it because I'm an "insider". I know things that others don't know, it would appear. Because every time I send out a blurb about it, or tell someone, I get a blank look back or no response back by email. I feel I am talking to the wall.  The world is not on the threshold of change, it is already INSIDE the change! We have just not adjusted our eyesight yet. Or our minds. We are blind yet to the new atmosphere and new energies that are swirling in the air around us. We can't see it yet. I think I will add a new page today called "Ascension". This is not ethereal. It is all about you and me and the people around us and the ground under our feet shifting to a new pattern. A new modality. A new consciousness. A new energy is working its way through nerves, muscles, organs and blood.  In other words, a new Earth is forming right here, right now, inside our bodies, inside our minds, inside our homes, our children, our spouses, boyfriends, girlfriends, work buddies and bosses and our government - and the old pattern is breaking down. Melting. Going away. And there is
conflict at the moment but it will pass. Don't fight it. Have faith.

The news media is not reporting what is going on behind the scenes because, if they DO know anything and most of them probably don't, they are under strict orders on penalty of death not to talk about it. About what is coming. About what they know. So the news media is operating on the old grid system which is tied into the oil pipeline. The profit motive. The capitalism that feeds on the people. The status quo.

Meanwhile, there are millions who are working to change things and bring prosperity and peace (no more wars) to the planet. The world is shifting underneath our feet, and in front of our noses. We can't see it yet in the news. We all seem to be waiting for the news to say something. Well, it WILL happen. And soon. Keep watch and keep the faith. Meanwhile, I have decided to go ahead and  post what I know on the Ascension page. These are articles that you probably wouldn't see in your daily life unless you were part of the galactic society that I am part of. This will contain some insider information but not all of it. Nobody has ALL of it. It's like a jigsaw puzzle and there are pieces yet missing. But they are coming together slowly.  I have been in the loop since 1965 gathering this information, and my mind has been stretching ever since because it's a slow drip. A gentle feed. I also post this stuff on my other website: www.galacticfederation-naplesFL.org. 

This does not take away from my primary purpose and that of Anakosha, which is to integrate sex and spirituality. To bring them together through love. The physical grounding of love is probably the most important part of the ascension or speeding up of the joy and happiness and prosperity that is coming - and letting go of the old dark ways of control, greed, selfishness, possession, jealousy and the like. Integrating sex and spirituality together, weaving them together through the love channel is the most important part of keeping sane and balanced. This does not mean you have to go out and have more sex. It means bringing unconditional love into your thought processes. And bringing unconditional love into your emotional and feeling processes. And bringing unconditional love into your daily actions, physical movements, physical tasks, physical walking and talking throughout the day. Anakosha's new ascension page is here.

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9/23/16 - These are thoughts that have been pressing in on me for at least a year. Actually longer, but I'll keep it down to a year.  I kept putting off writing about it but now is the time. The message kept building up and building up and building up. The message is going to explode all over this black page (it's black on my PC) in its own language if I don't spell it out in an orderly fashion.

You do not need sex, you need love. Sex has been promoted and encouraged for eons as the only way to feel good. The release of the God-force in the pelvic bowl by engaging in genital sex, has been put forth and encouraged as the ONLY way to relieve stress and tension for thousands and thousands of years.  Men and women have engaged in it since forever. Probably since prehistory. But it's love that is locked in the body down there. Sex isn't locked in down there; love is.  Indeed it does feel good to engage in sex when you need to, but the "feel good" feeling that you get after sex is supposed to be that way ALL the time. We are not supposed to feel as bad as we do, stressed out, tense, taut, strung out, wired, suffering from psychological, emotional, or physical pain. We get plugged up. The God-force isn't flowing. We are plugged up with false beliefs.

The Earth is changing its position in the galaxy. We are being exposed to new healing energies. We won't go into that right now, but it's having an effect on all of us. All the old beliefs - that we are sinful, bad, etc., are wrong and they are going away. This is allowing in some new ideas about how good we are. How natural. How peaceful. How graceful. How wonderful and in love we are with life. The old beliefs were plugging us up and locking us down into pain. They were wrong. They are the becoming outdated. We used to believe that sex would cure us and make us happy again - and indeed it did.  But now that's all changing. There are people who don't even want sex any more. They are confused about that but it's happening to them. There are new ideas coming out on the internet. I researched "cuddle therapy" yesterday. It started about 5 years ago. I've been thinking about it for 5 years myself. But always sex got in the way.

The old belief system was - well, you need to get laid. Go have some sex with someone and you'll feel much better. As soon as we have an orgasm we experience a wonderful feeling, beautiful relief, a release that is actually quite profound, depending on who you're having sex with. It blows out everything that plugged you up. But then, within a matter of minutes or hours, we are right back where we started from. Closed down and beginning to worry and stress over something ongoing in our life.

It's all wrong. We've been side tracked and hood winked into believing that we need sex and that sex is important and that sex is something we must have in our life or we won't be healthy. I think that's more of a man's belief than a woman's, but irregardless, it's a human belief because women have bought into it to the point they give in and submit even when they don't want to. "Sex is important."  "Sex is healthy."  "You can't live without it." Etc. And of course the movies, books and media keep pushing it into our psyches all the time too. So that we have to strive for sex, sex, sex. But the new age is coming in with a new message. What we need - this is from a higher version of Self - what we need is love, not sex.

So, while some won't believe me when I say, "You don't need sex, you need love," the statement can be backed up with some interesting facts. One analogy,  and there are many, is when you have a splinter somewhere on your body and it gets infected. You ignore it at first because it's just a minor irritation`, but then it becomes infected and it gets painful. Ignore it at your peril because it gets worse. Pretty soon you can't think of anything else except that damn splinter. It's the same thing with stress, tension and worry. It builds up to a point where you can't think of anything else but the ONLY thing that you know can help you - sex. 

The body knows how to keep itself well but WE don't do a very good job of listening to it. The body is sacred. It has an intelligence that is far superior than the human brain/mind which received all of its information from classroom books or other people. Our body knows far, far better than our minds do, how to stay healthy, free, happy and active without pain. Humankind has messed up.

As we are learning how to keep our bodies better in wellness and happiness, people are enjoying longer life and healthier lives. We are meant to live in bliss ALL THE TIME and that's in our future. We're heading in that direction but we have to start taking responsibility for keeping our bodies pressure-free and in wellness. Wellness is actually happiness on the low end, and bliss on the high end. When we ignore those inner stress and tension signs, we start to close down, close up, get plugged up and locked down so that we are hurting. And then we go to the doctor for a pill - or have surgery. Or maybe cut a leg off because it's so bad. And yet, all the while, the body has a natural wellness program built into every cell. The solution is afforded us through the divinely-ordained process of making love and that doesn't mean sex. It means applying love to everything you do including yourself. 

When we remove the splinter that consumed all of our attention, we sigh a sigh of relief. We enjoy wellness. In the same way, if we learn how to remove stress, tension, anxiety, worry, and the painful ways that we tend to force upon ourselves when we really don't want to, then we enjoy wellness. Then we flow with the goodness that nature gave us in the beginning of our sojourn on earth as a little child. We started out in a healthy body. We had to learn how to be unhealthy. It's really not our fault. We were born into a pretty bad place. The solution is love, not sex. Begin loving yourself. Begin paying attention to yourself. What feels good to you? What would make you feel really, really good today?

Go with the flow of goodness within you. Relax into that flow. Don't plug up. Enjoy the pleasures that comes to your mind. The body knows natural ways to feel good, such as when you're close with someone  you care for, or when relaxing and walking in nature, or simply enjoying the intimacy of outdoors, or being in the living room with your family, or sleeping spooned together, or relaxing with a good book - there are so many simple ways to allow the body and mind to merge together. That's what yoga does under formal exercise programs, but you can do it yourself at home - but not with the TV news on please. Mainstream news is an intentional program to keep you in stress and worry so they can sell you the products promoted in the commercial breaks.

You don't need sex, you need love. Loving yourself. Your SELF. Love your body because your body is your SELF. Love the world in which you live and move around in by paying attention to the feelings in your body. As you love your body, you love your mind and you love your feelings. Your nervous system relaxes and all the muscles in your body relaxes, and your brain relaxes and allows the production of serotonin and all the other feel-good hormones. Your body is designed to feel pleasure, bliss, ecstasy, love. But you have to consciously become aware of love. The word "Love" is a good mantra to use. Use the "Love" mantra whenever you have some free time to focus on it. Spread it out around you in waves. The word "Love" carries a sweet and loving energy. You can feel it if you give yourself some time. Pay attention to the feelings in your body. Change your thoughts when you notice stress coming in. Holding a "Love" thought for 17 seconds, they say, will change the chemistry in your body. Work with your body so it feels good, not bad. Release the natural healing elixir stored in it. 

Men and women are designed for sex, but as we grow in evolution and consciousness, we grow out of the animal stage and into the god/goddess stage. A higher evolved creature. One who knows how to make love rather than take sex in the animal way. Make love not to relieve tension but because you feel loving and you have someone to express that love with. If you don't have someone to express that love with, begin to love yourself in the manner I have been speaking. And you will attract someone to love. Eventually. Love is a warm feeling that exudes from people like perfume. It is magnetic. You don't have to push yourself on someone. Just love yourself and you will begin to radiate it.

You don't need sex, you need love, and love starts with loving yourself sufficiently so you don't push your self too hard, beyond endurance, or worry yourself to the point of anxiety, or fear for your survival to the point of panic, or worry because you don't have a girlfriend or a boyfriend to the point of doing something stupid or dangerous. That's on the negative side. On the positive side, you lift yourself up by changing your thoughts to thoughts of gratitude, "I love you" thoughts, "Peace to the world" thoughts. Design some uplifting thoughts that you can make into a mantra. One woman I know uses, "Infinite love and gratitude" as a mantra. She says it silently whenever she thinks of it. She is a very loving person. You feel good in her presence.

Of course, there are many people who do not have intimate partners in their life and so they may think about sex a lot. It is especially to them, that this is directed. Especially for the single men and the single woman. Instead of worrying yourself to the point of anxiety, panic and stress, use the "Love yourself" program to relax and release the love energies within yourself. And then notice how your presence affects the people you meet. Pay attention. Be alert. Become conscious of your SELF. Your SELF is full of love. Cultivate that love within your SELF by relaxing into it and enjoying the sensations of love. They can be felt all over the body. Everywhere. Every part of the body has a different way of feeling love. The chakras in the body respond differently in the groin as they do in the head. Explore the love inside your own body.

Stress, tension and fear are warning signs. Don't ignore them. Apply love. Get real with love and get well by following the messages your body gives you. This is the divine feminine waking up in you. We have all been caught up in the mind, which is masculine. When we begin paying attention to feelings in the body - body talk - we are cultivating the divine feminine. Men are 50% feminine and they have repressed it because the culture taught him to. Let go and relax into the body and start feeling again. Take a breather. Take a walk. Take a break. Stop and consider the feelings within you. Bless you for trying!

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9/22/16  I am gaining so much from re-reading ancient journals! It's amazing. I am encouraging everyone to start writing a journal. When you write to yourself privately, there is a bit more self-delusion I think. At least it has proven to me to be true. When I post an ancient journal on this website, as I am doing, I am seeing things more clearly. I am sort of weighing out how this is going to appear to others. I don't want to edit these journals because I am aware of this self-deception and censorship that is going on in the deep interior of my mind. But writing and expressing inner thoughts and experiences is a terrific way to GROUND who you are. To bring it into the present moment by writing about it is a great way to anchor it into your current reality. I urge everyone to find a way to journal these secret, very private, very personal thoughts and feelings. There really is a REAL SELF that is untainted, uncolored, uncompromised by other people's thoughts and requirements. The real you is sacred and divine. Nobody else matters but that you connect with that part of you. It is the only important part of the journey of life. It is all that matters - that you meet yourself and greet yourself with the honor and respect you deserve, without hiding anything.

We were all hindered when we were born here as infants. As we grow up we forget what we signed up for and pre-agreed to do while here. It's like putting on a deep sea diving suit and plunging down into the murky depths of the waters to feel our way around. And feel we do. We have to feel. The guidance is within, in feelings, not the outer. And there is a life line to the surface world which continues to feed us with fresh air. There is no limit to that substance. It's a forever thing. Living here in the murk of Earth is a temporary training ground in how to follow the inner radar instead of relying on outer senses, outer logic, outer reason. We are here to follow inner guidance. The inner secret life of humans is sacred, pure, innocent and natural. Do what you can to allow it expression.



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9/21/16 I am having insights. Everyone talks about God, religion talks about God, the books I am reading talk about God (and Goddess). Everyone on the spiritual path talks about God but it turns everyone off because no one knows who God is.  Insights are showing me that the real self is God. It is really all about the inner self. The divine immortal self who doesn't die. It is the real self within that is God/Goddess. The power of immortality, infinity, unbounded knowledge, intelligence, who is everywhere present. The inner self has been covered over by muck for lifetime after lifetime and we've lost track of who we really are.

As I re-read 30-year-old journals of a time when kundalini was fresh and innocent and powerfully flowing every day and every day, as I re-read them I am reunited with something. Something I missed. It is reminding me and it is moving me. I don't think I could take the next step without it. So this is carrying me into a new place, a new awareness, the next mission or role that I am to take. But first I have to go back and re-member what it is that I have forgotten. As I am posting these old journals, as I run across the meaningful ones, I ran across one that caused me to stop and say, Uh oh!  

This journal included some heavy details about a swing party. It was a wonderful party. I remember it well. But I had a sudden shudder, a fear? A sense of guilt? Of shame? Of "I must hide this!" Do I want to post this one? Or should I pass on it? I do not want to edit these journals. I either post them as is or I don't post them at all.

So I asked my mentor, my wonderful guide who lives beyond physical sight ( who is available whenever I have a serious question - I don't bother him otherwise) and he answered me with a question of his own: "What do YOU feel about it? " He directed me back to my feelings. What do I feel? What do I really, really feel. Very appropriate for there was something there that I needed to address. It was heavy. It has been a heavy for many, many years.

I said, This particular journal includes some great insight and I would like to post it but it also has quite a lot of detail about the party the night before. What do I feel? I feel fear surrounding this lifestyle. This fear runs deep and includes shame and guilt and involves cultural taboos and family beliefs and thoughts of sin and the whole nine yards, if you will. I have hidden this lifestyle from those who didn't need to know, but every time I hide it from someone who "doesn't need to know", there is a crust that forms over that thought. It gets buried. The whole concept of sex, even between a married woman and husband, is filled with hot flashes of bad stuff, never mind the activities of sex with multiple others.

And yet I have experienced it as loving. I have been 30 to 40 years studying love as a human being, including physical love, emotional love, spiritual love, mental love. It has all been there within the practice of swinging. And yet there has always been an underlying energy of hiding, keeping it secret, don't tell. There has been an underlying repression about everything to do with sex. It's OK to talk about spiritual love, but not about physical love. These feelings came up for me. Am I ready to expose my participation in this? I feel I am at a crossing point. There is a crossing over where two paths intersect and it's an opportunity for a decision. A choice. Each path has an entirely different energy and momentum going for it which carries it strongly forward undiluted.

My movements and experiences over the last 30-40 years have been soaked and immersed in love. I have expanded in my capacity to not only love, but to discern and understand and master my abilities to love. Swing parties are about love too, because people are enlarged by their experiences, in one way or another. You can't help but learn from such close contact. So my feelings of keeping them hidden, versus talking openly about them, presents me with an opportunity to come out of the closet. Do I dare to post this journal? What is holding me back? This is an old energy. It is actually obsolete today. So it's just my own feelings that I have to deal with.

It is no longer appropriate for me to have these feelings of shame, guilt, fear of repercussions and whatever else is attached to them, any more. The love, beauty, grace and dignity that I have experienced is part of the new human who is poised and ready to own all of who he/she is. We are human and we are beautiful. We are graceful, we are honorable, we are caring, we are loving, and we share our love openly. It comes in all forms, shapes, ages, sizes. You name it, as long as it is love. There are all kinds of love. Physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. And love is not love if it is not shared. "Love isn't something that was put here to stay, Love isn't love 'til it's given away." I love that saying. Love is shared. Love is shared closely. Intimately, whether it be mental or emotional or spiritual or physical.  There is no division in love, but there is choice. Free will choice.

So I feel I am on the cusp, on the brink, on the edge, on the very cutting edge of coming out of the closet. Two paths crossing each other, each with a momentum of their own. It's actually not that difficult. It's an easy choice. Nothing hard about it. I just had to put the two paths together so they can be consciously joined. Evolution is a conscious choice and so I choose to unite these two paths. Human love is expressed on different levels. It does not have to be expressed physically but it can be. It should never be forced or pressured, but rather enjoyed. There are those who choose to dabble at the sexual level, others choose not to. There is no judgment. Only choice.

Love is not just etheric, not just spiritual, not just a fantasy of the mind. It is also about feeling. Feelings have been put down. Fear, shame and guilt are feelings. Feelings have been repressed. Repressed feelings become negative with crusts and scabs forming over them. That's when they turn negative. Why hide our feelings so they become negative? That doesn't mean we tell everybody indiscriminately, but not to hide it because we hide it from OURSELVES. That's the danger - hiding it from ourselves. Then we forget we have put it there and it grows a crust over it. So, no, I must become aware when I am consciously hiding a feeling. Feelings are for expressing and letting flow out of us, for that is God/Goddess expressing. We are Gods/Goddesses trying to express the purity and innocence that we are, uncolored, untainted by feelings of "sin". We do this with grace, wisdom, intelligence, and with love. I want to share this beautiful party. It was a fantastic party, warm and loving and most of all it was a whole bunch of diverse people sharing and coming together and learning about each other and from each other. They learned about their own inner selves and they evolved from it. So, I am going to do do it. Yes. I am going to post the party on the Kundalini Journals page. Thank you, DK.

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9/12/16 - Today I have posted a new page called “Kundalini Journals”. It is shown in the menu above. I have been asked to publish my inner life journals, which up to now have been private for me alone, as a way of confirming to others that they too have an inner life. There is an inner life within all of us. It is hidden from view among those who haven‘t started awakening to their spiritual self. Others, like me, maybe like you, have a rich inner life which is not known to others. And yet, even though we are all different on the outside, because of our experiences and adventures and the many lifetimes we’ve lived either on this planet or another one, we have the same spiritual template within.

The human template is the same all over the universe, the galactics say. It is called the Adam Kadmon, or the Christ, or the Buddha body. But it doesn’t matter what it’s called. There are many names for it. It is a spiritual blueprint for the human being and it is within us. We mold ourselves around it when we are embodied, and we hunger to touch it because it’s home to us. We are brothers and sisters of the same light. Our inner life is a journey back to that sacred blueprint, but we are veiled from knowing. We wander until we are guided, maybe one day the veil is pierced and light shines through. And then a gradual process takes place of unfolding excitement.

We do not know what our soul is up to until the light begins to shine through, and then we sense there is a higher mind to us and a higher emotional range that we can feel that is more noble than previously known. When the veil is pierced and the light shines around inside our consciousness, a new kind of journey begins. Mysterious pathways suddenly open. A new excitement dawns. We see beyond the horizon, or we think we do, and we are tantalized and  drawn to it like butterflies to pretty flowers. This is the inner life.

The veil was pierced for me in 1976 when unexpectedly the force known as kundalini activated in me in a most dramatic way. (story here) It was then that I began a relationship with something larger than me. At first I thought it was another entity that had moved in and taken me over. It caused me concern at first, but over time I developed a relationship with it. Ever since that day in April 1976 I have been journaling my experiences. I wrote lengthy hand-written pages at first because I didn’t have a typewriter. Then a typewriter came into our possession, and much later, a computer.

I wrote about these experiences because I am tactile. I understand things when I write them down with pen and paper. Writing grounded the experience and fleshed out the nebulous flights into other realms and the interactions with invisible beings who I later learned were the guardians of the human race. At first, I couldn’t write, but as I continued to flash in and out of other realities, I had to write it down and assign words to it. Putting words to the mystery seemed to make it real. If left undefined it remained elusive and etheric. As I struggled to find words to describe these experiences, the mystery slowly became history. With each journey I was structuring a new reality for myself. An inner reality that I could not share with anyone else. But over time I had the notes to prove it had really happened, just in case I forgot it. It seemed important that I do this. And I put dates on them.

I am reminded that “In the beginning was the Word.” Assigning words to these strange and wonderful - and sometimes negative - experiences was a beginning. Even if only built of words, it was a structure that was real to me. My exterior world kept changing but this inner life of understanding has become more enlightened and more solid and more permanent. As if I have been molding and shaping this mysterious other dimension into or over this dimension. There is a merge happening. My inner life is getting ready to be shared openly with others. I know that other people have had their own inner experiences, for I have read them on the internet.
 
Looking back and reading the words I wrote so long ago helps me to see that I have been in the process of transition. Ascension they call it these days, because there is a higher order at work. My everyday world has been seeded with another more beautiful and harmonious world that is full of light and love, goodness and beauty. I have been integrating the two worlds. I have been building a new world structure right here on the ground where I live. Many others have been doing this too. They are seeding a new reality in the rich fabric of their inner life too. We are all transitioning. We are all seeding a new earth. Well, I guess there are a few who are not, who are refusing to allow the light and refinement in. But I think most of us have been doing this and are preparing for the ultimate shift into a better world. I have recently begun seeing this shift as the emergence of the divine feminine, not the human feminine but divine feminine. A higher form of feminine. A higher form of emotional feeling life. This includes the men. It is not just women who are birthing the divine feminine. Men are birthing the divine feminine too. Men have an emotional side, which is the feminine side, and so both men and women are bringing forth the rich inner life of feelings and higher emotions, like affection, caring, forgiveness, desire to serve and heal, and cultivating a certainsensitivity for all life everywhere.

There is a nourishing going on of inner feelings. What could be called an awakening and an allowing forth of feelings to be expressed and shown. Emotions are feminine and therefore it is called “feminine”, not masculine. Everything feminine has been blocked, put down, persecuted, condemned, over hundreds, perhaps thousands of years. It has been a masculine world of mind power and mind control, where displays of emotion were curtailed, suppressed, cut off and ridiculed, causing stress that led to all sorts of diseases and psychological problems. But that time is over.

The secret inner life of human beings is being set free due to the shift of planetary forces. Men as well as women are experiencing these shifts in emotions. Now it is time to understand what is happening to us. Why we feel the way we do. That is why I am being pressured to release my secret journals, and others are also being pressed to release theirs. Perhaps you are being pressured to reveal your own inner life. It is to share with others and to validate for others who are seeking a friend and a confirmation that they are not crazy or going insane because the outside world does not reflect what they are feeling. So we are sharing with each other for the good of the whole, for we are all one tribe, one family.

Harmony is returning to the planet, Instead of feeling ashamed of feeling happy when others are so sad and depressed, we are learning to be happy anyway. It is natural and comfortable to our inner nature to be joyful. It is unnatural to suppress that feeling. It is natural to be in love with life and to feel like singing and dancing - or crying if you are moved to cry. We were trained to suppress these emotions, but now it’s time to let them out. It’s time to show our real face and feelings to the world. It is time to be honest. It is time to communicate. It is time to share. The secret inner life is emerging into our conscious minds.
 
The inner life of feelings and emotions take place inside our bodies. Inside the cells and the spaces between the atoms and electrons. Our bodies are stretching and loosening. Our bodies are talking to us through feelings. Feelings for more freedom. Feelings to say something that has been held back out of “politeness” or “niceness“. Feelings to express a spontaneous hug and delight simply because you feel it. Feelings to share a happy experience instead of keeping it secret. This is not head consciousness talking. This is not from thoughts. The head doesn’t have feelings. It is down in the body that feelings are felt and move around. It’s body consciousness. There are feelings that have been locked up and suppressed in our bodies from the time we were little people. The issues are locked in the tissues because we were trained to not show certain parts of ourselves.

It is the goddess that has been curtailed. It is the feminine in us that lives in the body, in the space between the atoms and electrons of the cells of the organs, muscles, blood, nerves and bone. The feelings are held in the space between the atoms, frozen. Not moving. When feelings move, the body talks through moods, perceptions, feelings, emotions, psychic awareness, sensitivities. But when feelings are frozen in place, the body talks in the form of stress, tightness, aches, pains, contraction, disease, tension, anger, suffocation. This is not the brain talking, it is the body talking. The brain often misses the signals that the body gives. It is imperative that we learn to listen to our body and act on body signals to relieve the pressure and stress. As we allow ourself to join with the feelings of our body we become more “embodied”. We are not fully embodied when we remain in our heads all the time, thinking, analyzing, projecting, manipulating by thought alone. When we leave the body feelings out of the picture, we are operating on masculine power only. We are being asked to move down into the body to unlock those feelings and let them move through us in a natural way, instead of repressing them or holding them back. The divine feminine is pushing us to let our feelings move like a butterfly that emerges from its cocoon and flies away into the blue sky and sunshine.  

We have been trained to repress our feelings so they remain locked underground, stuck in the mud of earth - our bodies. They plug us up. They keep us frigid and tight. We have to re-experience the same issues. We travel the same path over and over again because it isn‘t allowed to fly free, never to return. Emotions are like rivers. They are meant to flow. These unexpressed emotions are plugging us up and causing frustration. Resentment. Anger. Suffocation. Striking out at others. Rage. Violence. The feminine side of us is rising up in protest. A revolution is underway. The emotions have been blocked for so long it is growing reckless and careless. It just wants to be free. It just wants to be spontaneous. Our time is finally arriving to be free, happy and spontaneous. This is the new earth that is being built in the secret inner life of the people everywhere. There is a knowing within that has not been expressed yet, but it is coming. It will begin expressing very shortly. And then the world will turn upside down. Not in a bad way, but in a beautiful, rich, fulfilling way of abundance, caring, creativity and freedom everywhere. We are restructuring the new earth from the inside, through our rich inner life. As we begin to share our noble ideas and feelings with others, we will bring the new earth out into the open where we can each tie our piece of the puzzle into the bigger picture, pulling it all together into a new beginning. We are beginning to LISTEN. We are beginning to hear about the beautiful inner life of others who are telling their stories. We all are getting ready to launch.

When the divine feminine awakens, it moves you downward out of your head into your heart, into your stomach, into your sexuality, into your legs, into your feet, into the earth itself. It is a movement into matter. It is the bringing of love and attention into the matter body. It is a movement OUT of the theoretical, out of the intellectual, and INTO the sensations of the physical world. It is bringing the physical world alive. This creates in the body a feeling of being in love, of being alive, of being present in the here and now, of being at one when walking on the grass, being at one with the trees, the rivers, lakes and ocean, and being at one with the people and the pets and the birds and all of nature.

Everything becomes more beautiful when you are inside and feeling your own body come alive and quickened. You can identify with everything physical and this is the ultimate spiritual. It’s not leaving the body but coming into the body in the fullness of the moment and in the fullness of your own truth. Not hiding or repressing your truth. This is the goddess awakening - the divine feminine - and coming alive. Your emotions and feelings are waking up and presenting you with another world not made by human thought but made by the divine mother. Mother Earth has been hidden under wraps, dumbed down by mechanical man.

Mother Earth is a divine being and a living being, and we are her children. Our bodies came from Mother Earth and her spirit is embedded as a glowing seed inside of us. She is the parent source of our physical bodies. She gave us an earth force that is powerful beyond belief. It is cradled in the pelvic bowl near the tail bone. We are meant to touch this earth force with our feelings, consciously, and activate it so that it sizzles and sparks and springs into life and travels upward through our bodies to the top of our head, taking us out beyond the stars on a journey never to be forgotten. But we have to descend down into our bodies and unlock our feelings in order to get to it.  

The shift, the ascension, is a conscious descent into the physical body from out of the cold, non-feeling theories of mind. The descent is loving, warm and peaceful when we leave the stop theorizing, projecting, imagining and reasoning mind, and simply descend into the silence of inner space. It is the opposite of most spiritual leaders teach, who lead you up, out and away from the body. When we attempt to escape our body and our life on earth, we suffer, because resistance creates suffering. The way of the divine feminine is to accept our life on earth, our world, our conditions, our bodies, with a loving embrace for love heals and harmonizes. This is very difficult to understand. The goddess teachings are the opposite to what is being taught today.

The way of the goddess is to embrace the lower and degraded parts of ourselves with love, sacredness, appreciation and gratitude, which are healing energies. Not push the degraded parts away or pretend they don’t exist. We appreciate and love not just the lower physical but our lower emotions, lower feelings and lower thoughts. By embracing the lower parts of ourselves - all parts - with the healing energy of love, we calm those lower parts and hug them back into our hearts. By so doing we welcome them and elevate them back where they should be: at home with us in our hearts. We were taught to hide what was sinful, bad or what others would call “bad”, but that has only increased the pain and suffering. It was a tactic used by a dark authority to keep us limited. As the goddess awakens within each of us, it teaches us to love our selves in every way, and to not be afraid to descend into the nether regions, for there we will find the lost parts of ourselves that have disabled us. As we find them and embrace them and accept them back into ourselves, we will become more empowered.

Welcome your negatives back into your life. No one needs to know. This is your own journey. It is a life review and a life regeneration. You have guides all about you ready to assist if you will ask. They are the mentors of our inner life. This is our new journey now - lowering our emotional love down, down, down deep into the depths of our beingness to rescue what has been degraded and put down. We are going to salvage the lost and lift them back up into the love light where they belong, for they are a part of the family, and we are hurting without understanding why.

We MUST feel love for ourselves. For ALL of ourselves. For every thought and feeling of wrong and shame, and bring it back into the fold of our wholeness. Our holiness. When we do this, we feel good with ourselves. The side of us that has been isolated and condemned to an underground prison must be raised. These are emotions and feelings that were created because we did not know what we were doing. The same process is going on in men as it is in women. I saw it in men this weekend, the stirring and releasing of emotions. As one man talked of deep and hurtful things, I just listened quietly and lifted the words and the accompanying pain up into the light with my love. And he was lighter afterward.

Men are no different than women. They have an emotional repression problem too. Men and women have the same divine template. We are alike. We are not separate creatures. We are human beings and we are all throwing off the unnatural yoke and welcoming in what is natural and comfortable. Wholesomeness is returning to naturalness again. We are setting things right. The divine feminine in us is setting things right as we allow our emotions to be felt. We don’t have to show our emotions to other people. We are to feel them quietly within ourselves. We are to pause and reflect once in a while. Periodically throughout the day and return to naturalness. Allow harmony to be restored in the quiet of the inner life. This removes stress and smooths out the fragmentation. Puts things back into balance.

Our mental life smooths out too. We all have a mental life. We have minds that reason and reach high into the stratosphere of intelligence. By moving into the body doesn’t mean we we reject the mind. Far from it. We need our minds. We just need to awaken the feelings so that we have both mental activity AND emotional feeling active in equal balance. We are not just mental beings alone and were never intended to be. Being mental beings alone is what caused all of our sick problems in the world. We need to free up our feelings.

Most spiritual people think the ascension or transition or shift is about leaving the body, but it's about entering the body and loving the body, not leaving it. It‘s about embodying the body fully and elevating it from within, from within the interior of the cells. It’s about fully expressing all that we can be as a human. We are to become wholly human, not just partly human. The ascension is about elevating the body by loving it so much that all the sin and shame and guilt and fear are gone. That is what ascension means - to clear the decks of all the dirt and the body, mind and feelings are clear and clean and divine again. We are not meant to vacate the body and leave it to return to dust. Ascension is about healing the separation that was caused by imbalance - by repressing one side of our nature and allowing the other side of our nature to become a raging bull in a china closet who has temper tantrums and rages at anything that stands in its way. When the emotional side of our nature comes online again, in both men and women, it will help balance the craziness of an uncapped, unbounded male power that has ruled this world for thousands of years and caused such terrible conditions - near to destruction of this world. We are very close to setting these higher virtues free in men and women everywhere, and when it does, it will begin the healing of the planet.

Ascension is about being open and free and loving all that we are, instead of pretending to “be good” and hiding “the bad”. We are what we are. We need to deal with it. We need to face it. We need to walk right into the sewers within us. We can’t escape what we are. We can only transform that which we feel is wrong by loving what is wrong. That takes a a might PAUSE. A pause to look inside and to feel. FEEL. Everything. Every last part, thought, feeling, emotion, past deed. Everything. Our bodies are sacred. We must clean house by loving all of it and bringing it all back into naturalness again. Sacredness. Wrong thoughts, negative thoughts, evil and sinful thoughts of shame and disgust, are transformed by love.

How do we do this? By spending 15 or 20 minutes once a day, better twice a day, and breathing love into every part of the body. Be creative. Devise a plan uniquely for your body. Apply love like an ointment, with your intention, to your liver, your kidneys, your spinal cord, your heart. By taking the silent inner time to appreciate your body, you put love and light into your body. You transform yourself that way. You can tell if you are successful by the degree of peace you feel when done. The human in you needs loving back to wholeness. You clear yourself that way. We have all been plugged up too long by fear, anger, guilt, self-loathing, hatred, and the like. The drama is over now. It's time to go home. Take time each day to bring your love down, down, down into the lower regions of thought, feeling and physical body.

There is a blueprint of the divine within every cell. Our goal is to reach into that blueprint with our feelings. The blueprint is contained in the DNA. We don’t do this with our mind, but with our feeling. We start with a thought, but the thought directs us to go down into feeling. We leave thought and go into feeling by stopping the mind from talking about it. We tough into the blueprint by becoming silent once the thought has directed our focus. The divine blueprint is activated by feeling the sacred within. It can be started by focusing on the word “love” or “peace” or “light” and repeating that word until it becomes monotonous and shifts into feeling at a certain place in the body.

The divine blueprint is untouched by the "bad" that we thought we were. As earthquakes, tidal waves, storms and fires ravage the outer world, our negative thoughts and emotions have ravaged our inner world. So we have to undo that damage by applying love, light and peace to those parts. The shortcut is to be natural. Be alert to when you feel unnatural. When you feel unnatural, stop what you’re doing, even if in the presence of someone. You don’t need to explain. Your first responsibility is to your sacred inner life. Feel your way back to the harmony. Return to your inner peace where you feel comfortable again, and act from there. We are all having to adapt and learn how to be in harmony with our own nature and stop following the path of friends, when they don‘t feel right. There is a purity and a certain sweetness - an innocence - that is within our bodies. We have all felt it at one time or another. It happens often after a good cry, when tears flow and flow and flow. Appreciate this as a cleansing time. Tears wash away the dirt. It’s like a shower. It is time to awaken to your secret inner life which will bring great peace and comfort. You might consider journaling your unusual experiences so you will remember them and begin building a history out of the mystery. In later years, you will see how important these experiences were to you..

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8/23/16 - Last night I had a dream. I am in a group of some kind, the nature of which is vague, but I am in freedom and joy. I see myself laughing and joyous. I am lifting up off the ground dancing in delight, radiant and expressing exquisite freedom and joy. As I come to wakefulness, I am conscious of how important freedom is, and much it is entwined with joy. I remember now, that this is a quality that has been with me all through my swinging career. Swinging is a first step but it's only a beginning. There is so much further to go.

We must work constantly to free ourselves and become truly free, emotionally, mentally, physically and most importantly, spiritually. Only by becoming spiritually free do we feel the exquisite joy I felt in my dream. Freedom and joy go together. They are synonymous. It's not possible to have freedom without joy. And it's not possible to be in joy without freedom. I used to believe that about love and freedom. I believed freedom and love go hand in hand. The love of freedom is interchangeable with the freedom to love. But now I see that it is possible to be in love and NOT be free. And it is possible to be free and not have love in your life. So there is a slight shift in perspective now. Spiritual freedom is something that comes from within the self. The dream is a reminder that I have more work to do on myself, for what holds me from that ultimate, joyous freedom, has nothing to do with other people. It has to do with me. Freedom is not something that can be granted by someone else. Freedom is a spiritual quality that comes from within. There are individuals who have found freedom while confined in prison. So it has nothing to do with cement walls, but with solidified beliefs that serve as walls inside the psyche.

Today was a landmark day for me. I gave a massage to a male client for the first time in eight months. As a licensed massage therapist I stopped taking clients because men were so sexually demanding of me that I was unable to handle them. I was closing down. Just as I closed down on swinging due to an overload of sexually needy men pounding at me. As in swinging, I started out with a great love of giving. I had a bottomless well of love to share with people, but the sexual demands from men grew little by little, small at first, but slowly building to become a major problem. At first only slight dissatisfaction, then more pronounced dissatisfaction, then downright dislike to the point of stopping and saying "No more!"

This is my problem, not the problem of the men that I have been engaged in. I tell this story as a way of revealing, however clumsy it may be, of how women give of themselves to the point of exhaustion or closing down. I believe many women have this problem. But I'm being kind. I KNOW many women have this problme because I meet them in my day-to-day. Women feel compelled to serve the men and that is the enigma. Why do women feel compelled to give until they are broken?

I have been turned toward the study of Tantra, but it is not sexual tantra I study but solitary tantra. There is a male-female balance inside of me - an energy circuit - that is not balanced. It has been out of balance all my life, and probably through my past lives. Through MANY past lives. I have a momentum built up of serving men until I break. It is a conundrum. I believe it is a conundrum in everyone who has problems with the opposite sex. If I am not balanced in my male and female energy circuitry, then I am out of balance and I am at the mercy of one who is stronger than me. It could be even another woman, and it has been. So what I am studying today, not in a university classroom, but by following the lead of my spiritual guides, is the study of goddess material. The goddess material is all about bringing the divine feminine back into balance in everyone. In men, in women, in our culture, in business, in social exchanges, in all the systems of our planet. It is a study in how to correct the imbalance of male dominance and feminine submissiveness until they break.

It is natural to give love to people. It is natural for BALANCED people to give love to others. Men like to give love too but more often than not, they press it and push it onto their women and children. It is natural for women to love and serve men because women were built to be the nurturers, nourishers and emotional supporters. What women were NOT designed for, or prepared for, was to find men to be overly demanding and overly confident that they are more right than the feminine of the species. This brings me back to freedom. The free flow of giving love freely starts to decline when there is a demand to provide it.

The beautiful wanting to give starts to fade. It declines. It folds its wings. There is a stoppage to the flow. This is what I experienced first hand and it is only by hindsight that I recognize what happened. I did not understand what was happening to me through the years. When men demand sexual favors, even though subtle and almost undetectable, a woman senses it. It alters the free flow of wanting to love. It is no longer a loving quality but an expected thing. I didn't know that I was being "compelled". Instead, I wrapped my mind around the compelling and continued to love whoever was needy at the time. 

But over time, the pressure built. It was a slow building. Women do not realize that they are being slowly tampered with, using their natural grace and love and molding it around a expectation. I want to say here that men also have the same thing happen to them. It is not only a woman problem; it is a man's problem too, for he also experiences this in his day-to-day life. We as humans have learned to adapt to a lesser god's authority without realizing it. And slowly bur surely, we have become disempowered. Our spirits sag. Our hearts lose something that was there in childhood. Hope? 

For me I discovered this very same thing happened to me in my massage practice. I started out with such excitement and desire to serve, love, heal, uplift, inspire, because I felt all those things in myself. But over time, the pressure was on to serve the male physical needs. I didn't understand because I loved so completely and naturally, but the pressure finally built to a "Stop! Enough! No more!" And I stopped taking clients and began studying solitary tantra to find out the secrets of energy. The energy within me. How can I find balance within myself?

What I have learned about myself has been invaluable. I believe that many women will identify with this. I am not sure if men can identify with this, but perhaps. I urge them to try to understand. Because our culture, indeed, our whole entire planet is male dominated. Meaning power rules. Love does not. Male energy is power, feminine energy is love. Male energy is the dominant force on the planet. Love is weak and not very strong. People's ability to apply love is weak. It needs strengthening until it is on an equal keel with power. The goddess teachings of tantra show that power and love are one and the same force when a person is balanced. There is no enemy within when a person is equally balanced in love and power. But it is up to each person to bring those two energies into balance. Nobody else can do it for us.

The men rule the roost simply because "that's the way it works here." Everybody knows that men rule the roost. While the new generations are bringing positive changes in that department, we are still seeing young girls being sold into slavery. And even wealthy young women are being manipulated into spiritual darkness because of their innocense. So it's not over yet. We have reason to hope, however. Change is coming but it's coming slowly. A new Earth is evolving but it's evolving slowly. It's not happening fast enough. Power is still in control. It overrides love and sensitivity. It is the masculine power that is too strong. It's not just in men. It's in women too, but women become too powerful because they have been forced to out of survival. Out of hard knocks.

What is needed to bring things back into balance is for the feminine energies of innocence (inner sense) to be able to be free again without having to guard the doors and shut down the heart. That will only happen when men not only stop putting the pressure on women and girls, but raise their personal esteem of women and girls to a place of honor, respect and appreciation of women and girls. That is how the female of the species will feel safe  enough to come out of their shell and practice loving again freely and spontaneously and joyfully in their expressions. This is the only way women and girls will gain the confidence they need to become strong in love, to become powerful in love and to become stable, responsible and sensible leaders and teachers of love as is their destiny. Because men have a different role to play and they need women to be their equals. It's time to stop being "the boss". TV movies, books and the entertainment culture draw heavily on the male subduing and owning the woman, using, raping, abusing and torturing her. It is a manipulation that needs to be recognized for what it is: a dark program that needs to be deleted and a new one installed. Men need to become aware of how they act, think, feel and speak to the females in their circle. Because they themselves will benefit from a change a consciousness. They are equally feminine inside their hearts.

I heard another story today from a friend. Another male putting down his female partner. She is growing very unhappy and is looking for a way out. Money of course is always a problem. It hooks even middle class women into ownership and unable to move. It is not money, of course, it is her lack of confidence. She believes she is a second-class citizen. She believes the system "owns" her. She doesn't have the power to put herself up and out of the psychic mud she finds herself in. Men, check yourself. Are you doing this to the woman in your life? It is not an isolated story. This is going on everywhere.

The burden is on the men to begin to show respect to women instead of taking them for granted. It's a shift in conscious that is needed. It is their (the men's) responsibility to change their attitudes to love, to honor and appreciate the women in their lives. They have not been empowered. Their power has been taken away. They need to be shown love, honor, respect, gratitude in a truly humble way.  And on the woman's side, it is going to be her responsibility to see this change and accept it and thank him for it. Not to treat it lightly, but to treat it with an equal amount of honor, respect and appreciation back to him. This is how we will change. The burden begins with the more powerful one, and it is reflected back by the less-powerful one. The big guy has to start the ball rolling by backing down and backing off and replacing it with love, honor and respect. But then it's the woman's role to reflect that same honor back to him.  It is going to take both men and women to bring about a change in our crazy culture.

Women will become empowered by being raised up in esteem and given the freedom and safety to express their feelings. Women become empowered when they are not required or compelled to give their love when they don't feel like giving their love. When it is demanded of them, it is not free and it only builds resentment. This is how women have been robbed of their confidence and power to stand up for themselves. It is been going on for centuries. Millennia. The power to stand tall, graceful, noble, truthful and powerful in who they are. Not afraid.

A woman is naturally loving and giving. It is her spiritual nature. She was made that way. She is one half of the whole. A man is naturally the stronger of the two because he is the active one who must assert himself physically and mentally. He has to move and shake the trees. But the two, male and female, naturally work together as complements, creatively, inspirationally and excitedly. I watch the two new kittens who have joined our household. They are brother and sister. They are sitting on my desk now. The female loves to lick and groom her brother, and the male just lies there and takes it. He is obviously enjoying it but we hardly ever see him lick her back. She is the nurturer and the lover of the two of them.

There is a point to my ramblings. It is that women, speaking for myself, want men to not demand and not push and require and not say the subtle things that are intended to ridicule and make us feel small, or unworthy, or incapable. This takes our power away. Once I was a very loving giver to people, and to men in the swinging lifestyle. My career as a massage therapist was also undertaken with a deep wanting to help, heal, nurture and love. But in both cases, the male attitude wore me down. I adapted to their needs when I should not have. I have learned something. I have learned to love myself more than them.

I closed down because I gave too much and did not recognize that I was giving too much. My discernment was weak.This is my fault, not theirs. It was my lesson, not theirs. I finally closed it all down. My ability to love was gone. The love was not gone. My ability to express it was gone. I had closed the door to my heart. I did that willfully. Knowingly. I have learned that love is only love when it is freely given and freely received. Not demanded. When it is demanded, then it is no longer free and it is no longer love. It is an obligation. Resentment builds out of obligation. When I began to resent, it was no longer love. I was giving a bad vibration then. It is not love when a demand is being made and the person goes through the motions while holding onto resentment secretly. This is common in marital beds everywhere. I have talked with women for 40 years from within the lifestyle of swinging and learned that.

True love is available and many people have and express that beautiful love. It is our destiny to become a race of intelligent, enlightened loving beings. We are on the way. We're heading in the right direction. We're learning what makes love and what shuts love down. We need more education about love. More of the type of love that is given freely, from the heart, from a wanting to give, from the desire to share freely and expand what we have, to give love, pleasure and healing freely, without possessing the other person or expecting the other person to do certain things. If we are lacking in something, the burden is on us to reveal that in a positive way, as in a humble request rather than in a demanding way. We should not be taking each other for granted.  Pressure is often subtle. Like a hint or a wish and others feel it. We need to stop doing that. Just ask openly in words, rather than sully up the atmosphere with hidden agendas. I have been guilty of that myself. I am not judging anyone, but sharing what I've learned about me.

A person can feel an undercurrent that is not spoken out loud. We all read each other to some extent. Some more than others. A woman especially can feel an undercurrent for women are internally focused. She reads feelings, both her own and that of her family and neighbors nearby. Sensitive men can read unspoken thoughts too. We are learning to be more intuitive as a race. It is a sign of an expanding consciousness, which means more intelligence. More light is being shone on subjects formerly hidden and mysterious. One area to be aware of for men: Men often presume they are expected to perform when they are not expected to perform. In fact, it is often the opposite. Women quite often wish the man would NOT presume that she expects him to perform. She would prefer him to back down and not take the lead. Not press his expectation on her that he THINKS she wants when in fact she doesn't. This is an important thing to be aware of. It's not just a conundrum, it's a feedback loop. A negative folding back over onto a negative. 

There is something in the goddess teachings called a sacred relationship. A sacred relationship is where two people learn to speak their feelings - their honest feelings - to each other while the other one listens. Each one only speaks of his or her own feelings and does not ask the other one questions. It is a revelatory relationship. It is a time-out period devoted to revealing feelings. The goddess teachings say that when a couple does this on a periodic basis, they cultivate growth between them which expresses in a truly sacred relationship. That is, if both are being honest. Negative feelings are spoken out loud, instead of glossing them over or pretending they don't exist.

So today I experienced a landmark day. I had my first massage appointment in eight months and it was successful. It was kind of amazing. I had closed down my massage practice because of male sexual demands and I grew resentful. I wanted to see if I could open my heart again and not feel compelled to do something I didn't want to do. I wanted to test myself to see if I was sufficiently confidence in my powers of love to be ME and not give my power away to a needy, grabby client. And I succeeded. That does not mean I graduated. Not by a long shot. I will be tested again and again. I will have to be alert but not close down. Alert to the give and take. The 50/50 equality. A healer cannot heal if the recipient is demanding precise actions to be performed. A healer must follow the divine love flowing from higher planes down into the body that needs healing.

It has been the study of the divine feminine that has shifted my understanding of what feminine energy is and is not. It is not blind love, giving to someone who needs it. Feminine energy is balanced with intelligence and discernment, wisdom and the ability to see the broader picture. Not to fall into the trap of neediness. Love is only one half of who I am as a whole human being. The other half of me is masculine. I am androgynous. Everyone is androgynous. We are each half masculine and half feminine, no matter what our bodies look like. Both masculine bodies and feminine bodies are androgynous in energy circuitry. We are healthy when we are equally capable of being powerful, strong and intelligent, and also nurturing, loving and kind.

We have all been trained to be either/or men or women. We are unbalanced because we have shut down the other side of our wholeness. As I grow stronger in my personal power, intelligence and discernment, so do the men in my life need to grow stronger in their feminine qualities, like love, nurturing, listening, supporting, being the follower instead of the leader. As they pull back their demands on women and children, women and children will grow in confidence and honest expression of who they are. We are all equal in our androgyny.

Being androgynous does not take away the fact that we are a particular gender. We have male roles and we have female roles. We are still genderized people.  We were built this way for a reason. We can still make love with those who chose to be intimate with.  But as balanced and whole people our lovemaking is done with freedom and joy. There is a ring of spontaneity to it. It feels natural and playful.  Not because someone needs a sexual release at any cost. And not because one demands it because they hold the dominant alpha position in the home. Androgyny is not about who has the power but about freedom to play and enjoy freely, from the heart. It's a balanced heart quality. Our world misunderstands the word "power". True power comes from balance, not being in the dominant position.
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8/7/16 Just popping in to say hello to those who check in with Anakosha. I have been focused so much on evolutionary changes that are going on within me, my mind and consciousness, that I haven't been able to focus on the external world of writing. I can't write about this at the moment. My perspective has changed so much. I used to get so excited about the adventures I was on that I couldn't wait to get to a notebook or computer to begin journaling all that I was seeing and having happen to me.

I continue to study the divine feminine and divine masculine. I have been led to certain books, going through one after another. It's like taking a course of study and doing homework. It is drawing me ever closer to a realization, and then immediately I am drawn to another level right after that one. It is very like climbing a mountain and reaching a plateau with a wonderful view that sees out across the open land, and you think you've reached the summit only to find another path hidden beneath the foliage that promises a better view further up. And so you continue to climb.

This course of study is full of promise. These books are goddess-related, meaning the divine feminine which has been put down under the male-dominant "thumb" of control. They are beautiful teachings but very soft. So soft they are more like hints than concrete information. These teachings are nebulous in the way that a person's consciousness is nebulous and flickers open and then closes and then opens again and closes again. Goddess teachings are gentle and teasing and full of innuendos and invitational vibrations. It is very much like a young woman who has learned the art of flirting. She knows her powers! And trying to understand the feminine language of flirtation, as any man can tell you, is like reading a mystery book. It requires an open mind and the ability to feel. It is a feeling.

I find myself trying to take these nebulous ideas of goddess teachings, and form them into concrete words and paragraphs to put into writing. But it's impossible. Maybe later after I get further up the mountain to have a better view. The interesting thing is, the divine masculine is not separate from the divine feminine. I'm sure everyone wonders about that. What is the difference? How are they different? They are the same face and the same consciousness, the same enlightenment, the same love. They are intertwined as one mind. In fact, the further up the mountain we go we find there is no separation at all. No male, no female because it is one sea of consciousness without borders, walls or limits. The separation occurs in the process of manifesting. As spirit descends down through the levels it grows denser and denser, and slowly division takes place, at first it's barely noticeable, and then more so because that's the plan. That's the creation process. Until finally male bodies and female bodies are produced. Since we took a downward trail into density and into form, goddess teachings have us retrace our steps back to oneness again. It is done through the inner heart and feeling way. Through love and through harmony.

One thing I keep reflecting on and coming back to is sex, and how people make love with each other. The intimate life of human beings. What I'm aware of is the swinging phase of my life began and grew out of a nourishing relationship we had already begun at home. We were primed and ready because we were both fulfilled at home and we wanted to expand to include other people. So I, as a woman, was ready. My husband was already ready but he was waiting for me to catch up, I suppose, though neither of us realized that at the time. Life has a way of evolving a couple together. But I think of all the couples out there who are trying to figure out swinging and how to go about it. 

Swinging was an important expansion period for me. It was a natural next step to the nurturing relationship that my husband I had begun at home. But there is one thing I would pass on to others and it is this. Men, do not to push your woman into swinging, even if you don't think you are pushing, if you are bringing it up over and over again to her, that's pushing it if she doesn't respond in an enthusiastic and joyful "Yes! Let's do it!". If she doesn't respond in that excited way on her own, or even by herself, then any pushing by the man in her life is probably going to shut her down and off. Her resistance will create a shell around her and whatever sensitivity she DID have, may go away. However, if she's ready, she's ready. If she's ready to expand and try intimacy with other men and women, then it is the most natural thing in the world to begin the exploration.

The opportunity for expansion is a rather small window. It opens when the vibrations are right on both parties and it closes when the energies go out of sync. I believe swinging is a wonderful natural course of events in a couple's life. And it IS a couples experience because it's love that is expanding, it's not just sex. Not just a way to have more sexual encounters. It's actually a spiritual evolution of the human being, including the body, mind, feelings and spirit. It is a powerful classroom, this swinging is. Unfortunately, many women are abused in it, and also men are too, when the sensitivity and higher understanding is missing. Kindness, grace, compassion, forgiveness, enlightened social behaviors, clean minds and clean bodies and more of a higher nature. These are missing from the masses. It's usually always the man who wants to push his way into the swing scene without doing his homework first, meaning working on expanding the relationship he has with his wife.

There are a lot of opportunities in swinging, but it's mostly a male-oriented "sport" where a feminine-oriented love club would be run very differently. The nature of women is goddess-oriented. She has been pushed and taunted to be like a man - to accept sex the way a man accepts sex, that it's good for her, that it's healthy for her, that she can't live without it, and he wants to see her with other men because (in his mind) he's doing it for her. That is how women are "invited" into swinging. It is important not to push a woman through her resistance because she'll go freely if she has been showered with understanding and love at home for a period of time sufficient that she wants to experience other men. Some women will not ever want to, and those husbands who entertain the secret wish and hope, had better recognize the inner nature of his wife. Communication in real, hard, concrete terms, is important. Not to presume and not to continue to wish, hope and pray without concrete discussion. Make it real.

If a woman is coerced into swinging past her time, past the spiritual expiration date, she will lose her ability to be sensitive. She'll build a wall around her heart. Lovemaking should always be tender, gentle, kind and nurturing. If a woman loses that, she will grow old and bitter quickly. Be kind to your women and let her take the lead. A woman who takes the lead with her heart and with love and kindness will amaze and surprise you. You will see a goddess in the making then. But if she agrees with an attitude, like "OK, buster. I'll go the first time and I'll show you, but one thing happens wrong and I'm outta there!" you don't want her to attend a swing party with that state of mind because she has already determined it will be a bad show and she won't like it.

Keep the home fires stoked and warm and don't presume ANYTHING. She can't be persuaded with talk. She can only be persuaded with love. And if you don't know how to persuade with love, then let her lead you. Lay with her without expectations for an hour each day, without sex, and let her love seep into you. Give yourself a month of this exercise and see what happens. This, by the way, is silent coded language in all of the ancient tantric texts. Bringing the man's and woman's energies together so they are in love.

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7/21/16  I received a most wonderful, poignant letter this morning from a young woman in the Naples area that re-inspired me. I am always getting re-inspired and I try again. But when the time isn’t right, well, the time isn’t right. But the time is coming. We all have had to grow a little more. There is a larger plan in the offing. The energies are trying to line up in a way that is lifting, peaceful and harmonious. I wrote this young woman back and received an immediate positive answer. That is what is giving me the “go” signal to try again. I’ll post my response to this letter which made me sad on one hand, but inspired me on the other.

Quote - What you are describing is familiar to me. I have heard this from a lot of women. I have a spiritual side. I have been studying the spiritual side - the divine side - of human nature for a long time. It is the softer side and the tender side of all of us. But men have shut it down. It is not their fault. Not personally. They are victims of a male-dominant culture. It is indeed - you are right - it is indeed in their genes. There is a long story connected to that. This may sound crazy to you but it will come out eventually.

A long time ago our DNA was dismanteled by sophisticated know-it-all guys in Atlantis about 13,000 years ago. Today our scientists are doing the same thing, or trying to, but they're not anywhere near as sophisticated as the Atlanteans were. They dismanteled the human DNA so today scientists say we have "junk DNA", but they're just pieces of the natural man floating disconnected in our cells. We were spiritually set back thousands of years because of that. The end result is men and women were divided into separate creatures.

Before that we walked hand-in-hand, men and women, in love and not divided as we are today. Today men are cut off from their inner, tender, feminine side so they look for it elsewhere. And when they find the "right" woman they latch onto her for dear life. We call it "falling in love" but it's a neediness that men have. Women have it too, women need men too, but we women have an inner connection to our hearts and souls, where men have been cut off from it. So they "need" women. They don't really, they just need to be reconnected to their own emotions and heart. And shown how. They need to be led there.  Men have been chasing women for eons because they are not connected to their own feelings in a body way that we women are. They think sex is going to do it for them, because it feels so good, so sex has become the be-all and end-all for them. It sounds like your husband feels that you are the source of that wholeness and fulfillment that he is seeking but does not realize he won't find it in you. He has to find it in himself.

This information is not generally known except to people who are studying the spiritual side of things. But the goddess is returning. We have been in a male-dominant culture for eons of time but the feminine is rising in power. We are returning to the natural man and woman again. It'll take time, this return of emotions and feelings. It's a cosmic cycle. Your husband can't fight it and he doesn't understand it. He is fearful of losing you if he lets you go and experience what you want to experience with other women.

I have known this for ages but I haven't made any inroads into the male psyche in all the years I've been a "hostess with the mostest" as they used to call me. I too submitted to the male need for control, ownership and possessiveness. But everywhere there are women's groups forming. I have a book from 30 years ago titled "Women Talking". A female psychologist gathered women together to discuss sex and intimacy and how they felt. It wasn't a sexual group, it was simply a talking group. They taped it. It's a great book. It has inspired me to do the same. But I have been struggling and unsuccessful, because every woman comes attached to a man and the man wants to come along too! It is difficult to separate the women long enough to have a nice womens-only time together, because the men want to be present too. They are so afraid that it will take the woman away from him.

That is why I want to have just talk. I have seen the fear and jealousy in many husbands. Their need to remain in control can be seen even in swinging, though in swinging the man has to let go to a certain extent or he wouldn't be welcome. Because in swinging we DO swap sexual partners and he has to go along with that. But still, in swinging there is still a male control which is explained away as “protection”, and  everybody accepts that. The couple sticks together and does everything as a couple and the women don't speak their true feelings, and neither do the men. And because men and women are trying SO hard to conform to whatever rules have been established for swinging, i.e., the men are in control to protect their wives, swinging becomes another form of prison.

The feminine rising in the women today can be seen more in the younger women as you are expressing. It is not sexual, it is the need to be real, authentic, free to express, spontaneous, to feel joyful emotions and be able to love the people they feel to love, and to hug those they feel to hug. This is not sexual! This is a desire to be free, to be liberated. The sexual freedom era had its time from the 60’s through to the 90’s and into the turn of the century. We are now in a whole new cycle. The sexual freedom stage was a necessary forerunner to opening hearts. We are now ready to expand on that.

The feminine is rising in everybody, and it's all about the heart connection - the need for authenticity and real connection of one person with another. Men think it's sexual but it is not. The desire for intimacy is human. Men have a desire for intimacy too but they have been conditioned (programmed) to shut it down. So they latch onto the woman they marry. Men do not have the understanding because they have been shut down and love does not flow in them like it flows in us. They really need our help.

I would like to host a women's gathering just to talk. If you could explain to him that it is strictly for talking - that men are not invited because men get in the way of our talking freely - if he would let you attend a two hour talk session with women - then I would send out an invitation to other women to also join. And hugging is certainly allowed! I agree with you, I love to hug my women friends. It is not sexual for me. It may be for other women, especially younger women like yourself - I have met many bi women and I have been involved myself - but at this stage in my life I don't participate in the sexual part. But women need each other in one way or the other. Mentally to talk, emotionally to feel, physically to hug and spiritually to validate the feminine in them that men cannot validate.
 
But I have tried to establish talking circles and I found that men are either afraid of letting their women attend, or they want to turn it sexual and be part of it. It is crazy. I have been pushing this envelope for many years and I still haven't broken through yet. I don't want to hurt the men or divide up any relationships, but the men have simply GOT to let their women meet and talk with other women to empower themselves. This is where the liberation is going to come from. It is not going to break up homes! The women will be able to recognize themselves in other women and grow strong in themselves - something that has been taken away from them since the dark ages when they were put down and locked away - and bring this empowered love back home to share with their husbands. Empowered is the key word here. Women's circles are the big breakthrough. It WILL be a breakthrough when a great, GREAT love and light and freedom will flood the land.

It is the emotional part that men do not understand and they think they have to "control" it. They have been shut down and they are truly stuck on the outside looking in. They see their wives and girlfriends having all this loving tenderness and they want some too, so they possess them or shut them down. "This is mine, you go find your own." They need to learn to find the love within themselves so they can better understand that they are not losing their wives, they are gaining a greater capacity to love. Love grows in them when they allow love to influence their decisions and when they expand their permission and encourage their wives to spread their wings. That's when the men will feel their own heart strings stirred and feelings start to kick in. Not jealousy feelings or envious feelings or possessive feelings or other low contracting feelings, but the expansive and higher feelings of joy and freedom and creative new ideas, more love, more truth, more authenticity, more understanding.

This is where, if women can only be strong enough and validate each other enough and support each other by meeting regularly and giving updates to each other, women can make inroads into not only their own psyches but that of their husbands too. They will be able to grow new valid and sincere connections to the male emotionally because then the man will start feeling again. His vision will widen. This will be new to him but men do have emotions, they've just been repressed, which is why they don't seem to be able to relate. They don't understand because of the disconnect. Shutting down emotions limits understanding. It's like crowding oneself into a small closet and trying to live in that closet. You can't breathe! There has to be some expansion.

They will get it. Eventually. Because It is fear that causes him to be jealous and it is fear that keeps us all in a contracted posture which requires defensive attitudes. But I remind everyone reading this. Watch for it. The Goddess is coming in and it is now flooding a male-dominant world and causing changes. It is not a fist raised in defiance but a nourishing, gentling, meaningful heart that is opening and trying to open other people's hearts. Men are going to have to get it and they will. It will be the women who lead the way, not the men. The men will have to step down, and they will, as they open to the feelings within them and not pushing those feelings down but let them happen. This is a Goddess teaching. This is how they will experience the beauty and the love and wonderment and the freedom and the joy that comes from their letting go of fear of losing. They will gain something grand, instead.

Sorry for writing a book. I am always writing. Good for you for having a nice talk with your husband the other night. Perhaps this will inspire you to talk with him some more. We might be able to schedule a women's gathering right here in Naples if I get enough women interested.

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7/18/16 - Today I have changed the Tantric Massage page to simply Tantra. Since there has been some further enlightenment about what Tantra is and is not (by almost everybody), we have decided to postpone offering Tantric Massage. Perhaps at a later date. In its place we are offering some interesting articles by various practitioners of Tantra. They will prove enlightening. I hope you enjoy reading them. Today I have posted articles by Nayano. Click here to read.

7/16/16 - During the middle of the night I woke with disparate energy flitting in different directions. My legs tingled and I couldn't find a comfortable position.  I finally got up and went into my meditation room and began performing my exercises. There is a list that I follow. I must have an agenda or I go off into the zone and lose all sense of time. It is not productive for me so I use a list of various techniques, such as breath work, physical movements, toning words, visualizations, chakra work and other spiritual interactions. For two hours I followed the program and ended in spontaneous dance-like movements while softly chanting. The room by then was filled with the most wonderful feeling after weaving myself with my higher self and invisible guides who were ever present because I called on them.

There is always a most wonderful feeling in this low-lit room. An altar is under a wide window that looks out into tree tops, and a massage table is pushed up against the opposite wall. Books line the eastern wall, leaving the middle of the floor open for physical movements. As I slowly wound down after two hours, the silence of the room was warm and peaceful. There was a golden sheen to it and I was in a transcendent state. I felt goddess energy within me for I had done some Tantra exercises I had learned recently, breathing into my womb and sexual areas. I felt the deadness of my lower body coming alive ever so slightly. I felt feminine, as if I were being nurtured and nourished by no one in particular.

As I continued the dance-like movements, which were spontaneous from the now-active etheric energy moving through me, I felt the closeness of other women. I could sense that women needed this kind of sacred session with other women, not men, in order to heal. It was clear to me that men’s energies are not conducive for healing sacred ruptures that are caused by external, physical acts. I felt the goddess energy present in me as a sweetness, a tenderness, a vulnerable and open, unconditional love. It felt as if an angelic presence were in and around me. The room was lit only by multi-colored fairy lights, Christmas lights, which I use all year long.

I felt the closeness of women benefiting from being close to other women in an uplifting environment such as this, after preparing for it in sacred ritual as I had done.  It heals them and brings to life the inner feminine, diminishing the lost and confused outer feminine that has lost her way as a little girl.  Through feminine association they could learn some techniques from each other that they could do at home for themselves and brighten and inspire their life. The goddess is the vulnerable side of women, the deep inner gentleness that has been covered over by a protective shell. It is seldom if ever allowed to express in our culture.

I saw clearly that a man cannot help heal a woman because men have a different energy flowing in them, which is not feminine. Men are like magnets to a woman. When a woman is in the presence of a man, she is magnetically drawn to him to help him, to give him what he needs or wants, for that is the inner nature of woman, unbeknownst to her. This chemistry is subterranean and out of sight, since it is the divine and eternal order of things that the divine feminine support the divine masculine and help him to fulfill his responsibility.

Thus women forget themselves when they are in the presence of men. The opposites attract, even without any intention to do so. I could see this from the transcendent feminine perspective which I was dancing to. I could see the possibility of a goddess healing session for women only. Women would become empowered in the presence of other women by seeing in others what is truly feminine and what is not, through the mirroring process. When man tries to empower a woman through worship, loving touch and adoration, it starts the love flowing in the man, which turns him on so he becomes a sexual magnet, even if he doesn't want to be. But their chemistry is altered regardless.  

I think a women’s circle would help strengthen personal feminine values, which they know they have but are unable to express because of the masculine energy that dominates our culture. Masculine energy is more defined, more mental, more logical and practical as it should be. That is the male role. The air is filled with male agendas and most homes are governed by it. The goddess energy of the divine feminine cannot blossom easily in an atmosphere of male dominance. A woman has to become hard if she wants her voice to be heard.

How plainly I could see this!  But I doubt I would be able to provide this because I would have to organize it and there is the male energy again. It would require planning and leaving the beautiful uplifting feminine atmosphere out of the picture. Sigh. Oh, well. I will just blog about it instead. There is a higher and more tender quality to men, too, but I am a woman and am feeling the need for empowering women. Perhaps some day in the future we will have some empowered women who will then be able to empower the men in raising their own inner heart values.  In ancient times there were temples dedicated to higher heart qualities such as freedom, sacred sex, tolerance, compassion, wisdom, and other uplifting fires of life which need to be cultivated for they do not come naturally to the human being. These ancient temples were most often maintained by women, as priestesses, while the men in priest roles did the organizing and money collecting. Women are the keepers of the inner flame, the heart flame and the bridge to higher consciousness by maintaining a sacred connection within themselves to all living things.  I believe that this is coming in the future, for I have talked with women and they hold these ideas quietly to themselves.

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7/14/16  This morning I had a momentary flash of insight. I experienced breaking the surface of the mud and soaring into the sky, into clarity, into space, into freedom, and leaving Anakosha behind. It was gone. I was clear. Anakosha is no more.  

But here I am blogging about it because in that moment of clarity I saw something. Recently I have been changing perspectives so much and so fast, going through cycle after cycle of one new idea after another, each one better than the one before, and each one telling me, “Yes! This is the one!“, only to have that one fade and another one come to the foreground with even more intensity - well, it has been a whirlwind of a time. And I’m not alone. You are probably going through the same thing. It is impossible to focus on one idea. It has been mind-boggling.

This morning after seeing Anakosha going away, receding from my life, I came to my computer, opened it and found two websites I had never seen before. The first one was Joshua David Stone, spiritual teacher who died in 2005, and the second one was Joshua’s wife, Wistancia Stone. Joshua and Wistancia wrote a book together called, “Empowerment and Integration Through the Goddess“. Another breadcrumb. Ever since I have been studying Tantra I have been following breadcrumbs through a dark forest.

The divine feminine, sacred sexuality, divine tantra, solitary tantra, sacred relationships, kundalini rising, it’s all there for anyone to find. But the doors are not opened by words alone. The heart must be involved too. The door to spiritual guidance is in the heart. The heart is where love resides.

This path of the heart is magical. If you think your life is just fine as is, wait until you knock on this door. It is a journey like no other. I have decided not to take down Anakosha website. I will keep it going because I want to stay grounded in this world. This world is so exciting, now that I have found the new base line (the heart), that I don’t want to leave. This is where it’s at. This is where it’s all coming down. This is where we will see the big changes happen. Where once it was “get me out of here”, now it is “let me stay!“ The big difference is this. I used to think grounding was done through sex. I now know that grounding is done through the heart and through the love that is in the heart. That’s where the transformations begin.

As Earth goes through its ups and downs, lots of earth changes and human emotional changes right now, sex is not going to provide the safety net one would hope for. It is not proper grounding for a spiritually-evolving person. Only the heart can provide that kind of grounding. We don’t have to give up sex but we must learn about heart-based sex, and about sacred sex and about divine feminine and divine masculine, and about sacred relationships of transparency and honesty. This is not found through sex. It can only be found by opening the door to the heart first, before sex.

Sex is important but you don’t need sex, you need love. You don’t NEED sex. You may want it but you don‘t need it. What you DO need, what all people need, is love. Love before sex because sex is a deterrent. It tempts you away from what is real and authentic and whole. Holy. Sex then becomes a doorway to another world. Sex is not a doorway until love is involved. We have been programmed to believe we need sex, and so we have put sex at the top of need list. It is a very deeply ingrained belief system we live under, and it’s very divisive. This belief system was implanted in us by the dark lords of this planet a long time ago, where they dismanteled our DNA and scrambled the codes in order to keep us hungry for sex. We therefore chase it because we need it because we have lost our “other half” which has been cut out of us and supposedly thrown away. But they didn’t throw it away at all. It’s still in us. Our other half is hidden in the heart. The divine feminine. They cut us in half by hiding the feminine. It is nowhere to be found in our current culture. The tenderness and the spiritual connection the source of our life - it has been taken away from us and hidden in the heart. So now we go to the genitals where the spark of life has been kept intact (so we can make babies) but we can’t find the fulfillment of wholeness by having sex. We will never find what we are looking for through genital sex alone.

What we need is love, not sex. By that I mean the genitals are not the important part, neither is orgasm. Love is the important part. When I use the word “sex” I am referring to the act of penetration and stimulation of the genitals. And the goal-oriented pressure to keep having sex. We have made stimulation and penetration of the genitals the most important part of relationships. It is the only spark we know that turns us on. So we keep going there over and over to find it. It becomes the main goal. We were driven to it. Even new lovers whose hearts are open and flowing with new love - they too start thinking about sex and how to do it, when to do it, how far to go with it, how soon to ask for it, and what to wear for it and so on and on, it’s all about sex. Until finally the actual act of penetration and stimulation takes over and becomes the most important thing in the relationship. And heart-based love slowly fades. We have been cut in half in our minds and our emotions and our bodies. We keep forgetting about love and keep focusing on sex.

Singles search for it and long for it, and bored married people search for it and long for it and yet sex is not appropriate for the body until after it has had love. I’m not saying we need to have a one-partner relationship. Not at all. If there’s anything I have learned from swinging it’s that we can have as many partners as we want, as long as love and the heart is the new base line. Heart-based sex is fulfilling. Sex alone is not. Yes, of course orgasm is nice, but orgasms only relieve the pressure that builds up from not-love. Sexual orgasm alone does not transform life like the magic of heart-based lovemaking does. Heart-based lovemaking is honest, open, transparent and expansive through the art of communicating and sharing.

I know a lot of couples living together are not fulfilled. There is a lot of pain and loneliness in these relationships, but cheating is not the answer. If it creates guilt, then the heart is closing down. Is the sex worth it if there is a closing of the heart? Heart-based relationships require more than sex and an orgasm to relieve the pressure of the strain of living without love. Communication is how we begin the journey to find the more fulfilling love we all seek. As painful as it is (gulp!) it’s time to talk. It’s how we open doors to the heart and the unconditional love that is infinite, eternal, and never stops flowing once invited.


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7/6/16  As I was waking up this morning I saw a man, tall, thin, attractive, with a pleasant smile, with a wide open aura. His energy field extended far into the atmosphere in a way that could not be measured in feet, yards or miles but was interdimensional. I heard the words, “Terraforming the earth is done by blending with it consciously, and holding a vision.”

I didn’t realize it at the time, but as I began writing my message for today I realized this pertains to ME and how I relate to my own transformation process. Terraforming is reforming the earth that I carry around with me as a vehicle. I am not my body, I am the consciousness moving through this body which is now changing and I need to go along with these changes and not resist them.

The difference between the physical sensations of the third dimensional body (3D) and the fifth dimensional body (5D) is worth exploring. I've been thinking about this for a long time and have been wanting to explore it with words. I often FEEL things and KNOW things, but in order to write about them I have to work these feelings and knowings into words. It's a mental effort which takes me a long time to do. 

The third dimensional sensations, which are physical and which is where our current world reality is focused, is different from the fifth dimensional feelings, which is where we are headed. We are transitioning into a more integrated state of mind where anger doesn’t exist and resistance is no more. In the absence of negative resistance we will be experiencing more happiness and a sense of well being. Bliss is a word used often. And love. We will feel love and bliss, and no more fear or insecurity or jealousy.

Since sexuality, love and intimacy is the subject matter of Anakosha, we shall use sexually-related words like lust to compare the physical sensations of 3D with 5D. The physical sensation of a sexual turn-on begins in the genital region as a warming up of desire or need for intimacy. It is a third dimensional sensation and grows to hot. It’s a burning desire that can build to excruciating stages if allowed to build in the direction of sexual love. But it starts out as a low gentle simmering in the early stages, especially for women. This turn-on sensation of love (or sex) can be traced to the kundalini, the earth energy which is normally shut down because we don’t express love enough. So when we DO begin to think loving and we are close to a lover or a sex partner, we can feel the warmth starting that familiar glow. We call it a sexual turn-on. We want to make love. We want to have sex.

Does this happen in 5D? The question is often asked. Some would prefer to stay in 3D if they cannot have sex in 5D.  Well, love is felt differently in 5D because in 5D we are going to be lighter. We are not there yet but we are moving in that direction and it helps to know what is happening to us. There is a lightening taking place in our physical cell structure. Sexual turn-on feelings may feel different and may even now be feeling different, causing worry that something is wrong. Not to worry. There is nothing wrong (probably). Don’t panic. As the new waves of ascending love comes in and across the planet, the lid is coming off of what we used to keep a lid on. The sexual feelings below the belt were kept below the belt because of a blockage on the etheric level at  the solar plexus area.

There has been a blockage at the navel region where the umbilical cord connected you to Mom as an embryo. There is a plexus of nerves there that feeds the physical nerves. This is a major chakra point - an opening to the etheric body which we call the aura. It is through the etheric body that we receive pure divine energy%2

6/30/16 - We are continuing to discuss energies that are usually invisible, because they are important  underlying forces that guide us, and we can influence them if we know how and change the course of our lives. Every morning we wake up and do what we always have done in the past. Knowing about energies is not especially important because, well, it’s all too vague and mysterious. Life is hard enough as it is and we are wired strongly in a certain way enmeshed into our reality. The point of this article is to POINT to these inner forces that guide us.

There is an inner life and there is an outer life. The outer life is where we are enmeshed with other people, our work and our family, tasks and other things that we have put into motion that we must follow through with and that we learn from. However, there is an inner life. The inner life is a secret life. No one knows about it except us. It is soul-related or spirit-related. It is the real self and it goes with us after our body dies. We carry our inner life and all the conclusions and experiences that we gained during embodiment. We take that all with us. These are the jewels and precious gems that we gain through the hard physical life. The inner life is the more important life. Keeping our friend happy and afloat is not as important as keeping our self happy and afloat. The inner life is who we really are. There are choices every day in how we respond to situations. This is where we need to go within, to the heart, to listen to the wisdom of our calm and peaceful self within. The divine masculine or divine feminine within. There is the peace and the serenity, when we are alone with our higher self.

This is where the divine feminine and divine masculine comes into play. They are singular. They are one divinity, not two. Look at the difference between feminine and masculine and DIVINE feminine and DIVINE masculine. Anakosha has changed its logo from “integrating sex and spirituality” to “introducing the divine feminine and divine masculine”

The union of feminine and masculine brings us back to singular again. We are One divine being, not two. Source is both feminine and masculine containing both light and love as one being. We also are One divine being as offshoots or children of the One Source. But as humans we divide into two separate beings - into a man or a woman, and we as two separate genders we have adventures. We learn about love through our adventures. We learn that love conquers all division. There are many who haven't learned that yet, so the human game continues to go on so they can experience more and learn from their stressful situations. It is all about learning how to love. The learning part is the "light". Light is information. Dark is misinformation or disinformation. Light is open and sharing information.

The lesson is love. We are to learn methodologies in how to love ourselves first, which is no easy task considering how much we have been put down and degraded in our world of darkness. But when we learn how to love ourselves then love spills out to others around us. Love is a radiation. It cannot be held back. We try hard to hold it back, but when we discover the inner secret of opening our hearts and letting love spill out, it is difficult to hold it back.

As human beings we experience love best of all through sexual intercourse. During sex play we enjoy some loving union with our partner. But sex comes with some hard and difficult lessons. Sex is not always good and is not always right. It comes with psychological differences, and sometimes physical awkwardness. But when DIVINE feminine and DIVINE masculine is considered, then there is unity and harmony. Bringing the sacred into the sexual encounter brings about the ability to love unconditionally, without pressure to perform. This is the secret behind Tantra and Taoism that most people miss because the pictures are priceless and exciting. All is not perfect in the bedrooms of the world. Most people have awkward and challenging moments regarding sex. Sex is not easy. There is pressure from one or the other, tipping and tilting the scales to influence and affect the ability to perform easily, naturally, lovingly, and spontaneously, which would lead to a most beautiful and sacred encounter that Tantra keeps talking about.

It is natural to think that the word “feminine” refers to women, and the word “masculine” to men. And by tacking on the word “divine” in front of it, that just means the same thing, doesn't it? With a sacred slant to it? It is natural to assume this but that is not the case at all. You're about to hear a different spin on this.

I was not ready to write this article before today but I’ve come into some new awarenesses. My new awareness involves men and how they are hurting emotionally. There are men who are experiencing loss. There is a lot of confusion in men today. And some women are also experiencing this if they are more masculine than feminine. But most women are gaining in self-empowerment and confidence, those who are feminine. Women have an emotional side that men don't enjoy very much. Women have looked at men as the enemy, sometimes. As the needy, leery chaser of women, the one to watch out for, the one to deflect and the one to crack jokes about to girlfriends. But the divine feminine is reaching these women. They are changing. The whole world is changing. It is tipping. We are going through a massive shift in consciousness. The shift is changing the energies of the planet from too much masculine energy - where the mind is in control nearly 100% of the time - to the rise of femininity, which is heart wisdom, feeling and emotional appreciation. The rise of feminine power does not mean a fist raised in defiance. It is the power to express love, feelings and emotions of all kind, including pain, instead of burying them or denying them. The rise of feminine power is the right to love when love is called for, and the right to feel free to love, despite former man-made laws and contracts. 

The rise of feminine power is breaking out all over. It is bursting the bonds of former structures, both physical and emotional. It is causing great confusion.  The right to be tender and kind has been denied the human race through authoritarian rules, mostly church-oriented, and through trickle-down laws to schools, education, family, police, enforcement, prisons, etc. All is mental control which is known as masculine control. Feminine grace, love, light, beauty, honor, justice, compassion, forgiveness -- all has been ridiculed by male control which has turned us dark. With the rise of feminine power many structures will fold. Both men and women are feeling this change and don't quite know what to do with it or how to act. Is it right? Is it wrong? Is it acceptable? Will I hurt myself? My family?

This is the reason for going back to the heart. The divine feminine and divine masculine brings one into heart-centered wisdom and freedom. In meditation, for those who practice meditation, they enter into the stillness of their divine self. It is very real. It is sacred. It is serene. It is transcendent. Everybody should practice meditation. Take a class. Learn. The empowering of the feminine is the ability to go into the heart and drink from that sacred fount of life. We each have a divine self that has been forgotten in the trauma and excitement of physical thrills. But we don't have to give up physicality and thrills. It is enough to know where to go for comfort and peace - and to learn the right choice.

This is what is happening within men in this current age. Women are not so confused for they have the feminine freedom rising. They are expressing it more.  Heretofore we have all been submissive, both men and women, to the authorities in our life. No more. We are bursting the chains that have held us down and dis-empowered us mentally and emotionally. The feminine is rising in all of us and this means the DIVINE feminine, not the little feminine. This is bigger than the small ego. This shift is happening on a global scale. The little ego cannot understand it so the only way to go is trust the shift. Go with the flow of love. See the love blossoming all around. Trust it. This is why we are seeing peaceful protests. The people do not want to fight, but they are standing up in dignity and for love. Not bending to the whip any more. This is divine feminine rising.

Men are feeling it but it is confusing to them. They feel lost because the way they are accustomed to handling things don’t work any more. It is no longer a mental world but a heart world. A feeling world. A loving world. There may be news of horrible bombs being exploded and ISIS this and terrorist that, but stop listening to the news and you'll see love blossoming outdoors in the fields. The power structures are tumbling from inside, not with fanfare and fireworks and news announcements, but they are crumbling from within. The news media is the last power structure to fall. Don't pay any attention to what they are doing - promoting fear and acting out the last of the terror on the planet. Soon that too will be gone. We aren't there yet, but we are ALL moving in the direction of peace on the planet and love is coming out to be seen. The heart is taking the place of power by mind. Then sacred mind and sacred heart will work together. ARE working together right now.

It has always been mind control - mental, logic, practical, assertive, scientific - which has guided the masculine-oriented person up to now. Mostly men were raised inside that arena of mental control under a disciplined father figure. Abuse was common. That has been the matrix of the human culture we have been living in.  Mental authority without feeling attached to it is cold and abusive. Now that this is changing, we are seeing eruptions of confusion. There’s nothing a person can do about it because it's bigger than us. We human beings are low man on the totem pole in understanding. The significance of this is gigantic, galactic - no, universal.
Men have been accustomed to being the final word in his family and circle of influence, but the children today are smarter, wiser and more heart-centered. The only way to go is to respond with heart-centered behavior. There are no controlling figureheads. Or there will not be when the shift is complete.  No one person is in control. Every person is a sovereign being ruled by a self that flows from a higher source. We need to learn how to deal with our higher self. It is wiser than we are. The old small and petty system is dying. The new greater system is forgiving, fair, just and loving. Give it time. It is coming in now.

It is now becoming apparent to women that their ability to love is somehow more present and usable. They feel their power. It is kind of strange. Women are becoming conscious of it and trying it out. They are daring to stand up for what they feel. It's not a belief. It's a bodily sensation of being present in the "now".  It's hard to deny and overlook. They are feeling this just a little bit. Perhaps timidly at first but it is growing on them. It is confusing to men. Why is she doing this? She has never done this before. It is because she is becoming aware of her power. She is starting to realize that she has given a lot of her power away and she is now experiencing what it feels like to be more present. It is strange to her too but she likes it. So as women are growing in power, at least their OWN lives, men are experiencing loss of purpose, loneliness, confusion, perhaps fear. What is happening?

Well, there is good news. Actually it is wonderful news! Because when women start feeling their feelings more fully and expressing their truth instead of buckling under to authority figures, they will become the leaders of a whole new way of life. Let the women lead from a sacred space of their feelings and heart. They know truth better in their heart, than men do in their minds. The heart is closest to the divine feminine and the divine masculine. Women will support their men better through love than through surrendering to the male needs which are usually less than heart-centered. We women have not done our men service by patronizing them. This of course is also true of women who are controlling authorities in their family to the point that their men buckle under to their rule of ego. When the true and sacred feminine rises in power, it means we each stand on our own convictions and beliefs peacefully, without force and without arguments. We are flexible, forgiving compassionate but most of all wise beyond our years. To reach divine justice, freedom, love and joy is the reason for the peace marches and non-violent protests. The people do not want to fight for dignity. They are standing for sovereign truth without fighting. Simply standing and loving. That is feminine power showing its face.

This is terribly confusing to those who are used to being in control. Men and women alike. They are the ones who are losing something and don’t know what is happening. Help them by loving them through this upsetting phase of their lives, those of you who are aware what love and nurturing is. It’s not about surrendering. It’s about standing firm in your own conviction and not being swayed by someone else’s opinion. It is about listening to your own heart. Even if you are the only person in the world who can hear your heart talking, listen to it. It is sacred and it is true. But we have to go within to hear it. We can’t find validation for our truth on the internet. Usually. Maybe a little here or there. But don't count on it.  No one will validate you exactly as your heart can validate you. You don’t need the internt or social media or your friend to agree with you. Your friend has his or her own heart that is speaking to her or him.

For those who are feeling lonely, lost and bewildered due to the earth changes underway and massive waves of love sweeping the planet, the question is "What do I do now? Where do I go from here?" Join with the love and freedom and peace that is being made available to you inside of yourself. Feminine power is rising in the form of emotions and feelings within. They are taking precedence over mental self-discipline and self-control. This is where the little masculine and little feminine need to turn to the heart to find the divine and sacred. The little masculine and little feminine don’t have the power to hold it back. They will only get lost by trying to understand. The personality is the ego of the outer world; the sacred is the Ego of the inner world. The outer personality that thought it was in control and acted as if it were in control, is diminishing. It's only way to find peace is to go with the flow.

The powerful male lording it over the submissive female has been a game of cat and mouse, but the game is coming to an end.  Now the higher self is coming to take charge. The divine and sacred self. It is the time to understand and to learn how it all works. And how to turn the reigns over to their own inner divine self. The DIVINE masculine and the DIVINE feminine. I am going to go into how this all works in the next blog/article. But for now, the point is being made that only the divine within is in control and it comes through an open heart - a heart that can surrender to the larger will. Only the heart has the power to assuage the feelings of confusion, hurt, pain, damage, disintegration, and bring healing.

It is through the open heart, the loving heart, that the power of serenity and peace can be felt. It’s not logical. It’s not practical. It’s not scientific. And it can’t be done mentally through the brain, as we think of mind. Both men and women are advised to open their hearts to the divine and sacred. It is done by going silent within and focusing on the heart. I found a picture to post here to help picture the heart, what it looks like with light shining through. In my meditations I try to imagine the sun shining in my heart. The same sun that shines in the sky at noontime. The sun shines so bright you can’t look at it with your naked eye, but I try to visualize that same brightness in my heart coming to me from a greater source than my own personality, and I trust it.

6/16/16 - The divine feminine and divine masculine is a concept that is new to most of us.  We have grown up believing that men and women are separate genders, separate bodies, showing either masculine or feminine tendencies, and we accentuate this division in everything we do. But - and here comes the divine part of it - in actuality we are both masculine and feminine. Bi-sexuals, gays, lesbians, transgenders are exhibiting some of this. And there are hermaphrodites, though rare, who are physically both genders.

Within our normal everyday we carry the potential of being aggressive or passive, depending on situations. We have flowing within us etheric circuitry for 50% male and 50% female energies we call the life force. The life force is Oneness with a capital O (out of which comes the orgasm). Prior to being born we were one force. When we are in spirit we do not have a gender. We have leanings but we don’t have a body to express through, so we are one in spirit. It is only in a body that we divide into male and female. We must have duality - male and female - in order to live in a world of matter and flesh and blood. It is how we create the wonderful objects we do, literature, music, buildings and more. We would not be able to build things if we were in Oneness all the time. We need the push and pull and therefore we need male and female bodies to push and pull against.

It takes two life forces - male and female - to manifest anything. It gives us great joy to do this. We are inspired by the experimentation and explorations between male and female. We enjoy making love. And we enjoy engaging in arguments to test our strength and our personal beliefs. We love the opportunity to defend ourselves, and to test how much control we have over someone else. We grow through this interplay between men and women. And between men and men. And woman to woman. Behind it all is the division of Oneness into two opposing views, which creates life on earth. It is also what creates horrible abuses, terrible suffering, horrendous pain and ongoing chronic disease.

By making the heart the new base line, we will be taking a step upward in consciousness. When we discover how to make bliss, which we will eventually, we will discover that these awkward and sometimes bad feelings between human beings can be dissolved. When the male and female life forces within us are merged in the heart, they become balanced and bliss is the result. Human understanding has no clue how to do this. It requires lifting the base line, from the dividing point where sex and genitals divide, upward to the heart where they merge again. When we are focusing through the heart, we are One and we feel blissful.

The divine feminine and divine masculine is a concept that is unfolding today because the planet is going through major cosmic realignments. The world is waking up around us and within us. It is not understood very well, but in days to come we are being led back to understanding that we are all connected. We have love, light and bliss within our bodies, minds and feelings. And when we learn how to stay in bliss just within our own bodies and minds, we immediately connect better with others. We become more in tune with the bliss sensation as we raise our consciousness closer to the heart, for that is the source of love in our bodies. As we refine our bodies and minds consciously - it is a conscious act which requires thought - we begin to glimpse the beauty that lies within us.

We were actually vast beautiful beings of love and light before we were born into this body. We forget it when we arrive here because we are born divided into male and female. We are "colored" male or female and raised as such. Plus we carry memories from former lives, memories that impact us with tendencies toward anger, alochol abuse, hatred of men or women, depression, the urge to kill, war, violence. Our planet - in comparison to other planets - has a very dark history.

But we also carry love and light within us. The human body has a template of perfection. A blueprint upon which we try to build our lives. This template flows throughout the body, ever second of the day. But we “color” it either male or female. Either passive or aggressive. We can reunite these male and female tendencies through conscious application. Meditation, yoga and many other forms of self-discipline helps us to balance our imbalances that cause stress. Sex is another way, but it‘s not a conscious self-discipline too and we fall back into our old ways. We don‘t learn very much from sex. We become enmeshed and entangled instead.

It is inner work, done alone, by oneself that improves the self. The feminine and masculine energies that are divided and unbalanced within us, have created terrible attitudes within us. We lean this way or that way. We dislike this and that. We want but can’t get “this” or “that”. The strain from wishing and not getting, for finding fault and judging others causes great confusion within our otherwise perfect bodies.  Tantra, which I am studying, involves sexuality but there is a hidden meaning behind the various sex postures we see in books. The hidden meaning is overlooked by virtually everyone. It has to do with the heart - the nexus for spiritual evolution while in the body. Tantra doesn’t take us out into space. Tantra is grounded in the heart, the physical heart, which is the center point between the groin and the top of the head. Tantra teaches us about love.

When we focus attention on the heart, we bring the masculine and feminine energies (in us) together into a merge and we enjoy a beautiful sense of connection with ourselves. This oneness is what we enjoy when we are OUT of body, between lives. Oneness is being back in touch with the Creator. The Creator is embedded in the cells of the heart. This light is spiritual, not physical. Understanding the significance of the heart has not yet reached most of us. The heart can think. There are scientific studies going on (HeartMath) that validate this. There are more nerve endings in the heart than in the brain they say. The light in the heart can best be understood as a piece of immortality. We were each born with a piece of the Great Light - immortality - embedded in the heart. We were sent downward into density to take up residence in a human body, and promptly forgot where we came from.

This wonderful piece of immortality which is US - you and me - resides in this body and is conscious. And not only do we, as this wonderful piece of immortality, keep the body together, the heart beating, the blood circulating and all the organs and glands operating harmoniously, but we become lost in human affairs and have many adventures.  So in actuality, we are both vast cosmic beings and very small and petty human beings. We are both the macrocosm and the microcosm at the same instant. And the most important organ to remember to go to, to remember, is the heart. In the heart we can connect with both our small petty human self AND our vast cosmic angelic self, and they merge and become one. We, in all our glory, are anchored in the heart.

All religious and spiritual texts refer to the heart. i.e., the sacred heart of Jesus and the sacred heart of Mary. When the heart beats out its rhythmic pulse, it sends divine information out into all parts of the body through the circulation system which triggers other responses, which is where the human being creates its own problems. If angry thoughts are held in the consciousness, then anger flows out to all parts of the body. If loving thoughts are held in the consciousness, then loving thoughts flow to the body. Whatever we hold in our thoughts flows everywhere in the body, to the glands, organs, muscles, cells, triggering chemicals and holding chemicals back. The body responds to thought. What we think, shows up in the body. Our feelings tell us. Do we want to feel good? Then we must learn to appreciate the heart a little bit better, and nourish the heart with some daily affirming statements. We will learn to use the heart as a microphone. Microphones enhance sound. Speak into the heart like a microphone and your immediate environment will pick it up and resonate with it.

We are built to evolve. We are built to refine ourselves. But it is a mental act. It doesn’t happen automatically. By failing to put conscious thought into the ethers, we fall into doing things mechanically, by rote, by automatic drive. We do not evolve that way. We become a part of the mass consciousness that moves through life in a flock or a herd. To find our way back to our own uniqueness and perfection, we need to think our way back. We need to direct thought to where we want to go, or where we want to rest. We each manifest our thoughts in a unique way. We are rather artistic. Sometimes they are rather fuzzy, with no sharp outlines. And sometimes they are exquisitely beautiful. It’s part of the training. We must take the time to direct our thoughts. Some think too much, others think too little. Find the balance by going into the heart. This will align us better to our inner template of perfection.

Giving recognition to the light in the heart is devotional and produces peace. It impacts those around you. It takes time, however. It takes fifteen minutes, 20, 60 minutes a day. It is a choice. There is no one-plan-fits all. But the nitty gritty of the reason for putting attention into the heart is because it maintains the balance between the masculine and feminine energies. When we leave the heart and return to our normal way of life, we pick up where we left off. There is no judgment, no blame. It is quite normal. This lengthy article on the heart is to shine a spotlight on how important it is. Know where to go to find bliss, happineness, peace and love. Life is a schoolroom. We’ve learned a lot about negatives. Now it is time to learn where to go to find love and peace.  

I have been studying Tantra. On the surface Tantra appears to be mostly sexual, but sex is easy. There are more subtle informations between the lines of those ancient texts. It has to do with the interaction between male and female energies. It’s not just about interaction between bodies, but interaction between minds, and feelings, and choices and repressions and subconscious unresolved issues that have gathered into bundles of great backed-up heavinesses - emotional anguish caused by confusions and sufferings. Some people feel truly and utterly lost. It is not easy to release all of this through sex. Some of can be, yes. And Tantra teaches these ways, but they are mostly missed by Western sophistication and aculturation.   

There is a naturalness to the human body. It is simple and not complex. It is pure and innocent. The cells that go to make up the muscles, organs and other tissues of the body are like innocent babies. They rely on instruction from the one who lives in it. Tantra teaches how to care for the body, mind and feelings. It teaches that the feminine energy is more important than the masculine energy because the feminine body is internally-focused. She feels what is happening inside and outside. She cares. She nurtures. She unifies. She brings peace. She harmonizes the fragments and picks up the pieces. She nurtures the environment while the man rattles around on the outside, building things without regard to harmony, or who he damages in his need to finish the race.

The woman is the embodiment of love. You can't force love, say Tantric texts, you can only cultivate it up through devotional endearments and loving acts. Tantra has rituals. There are pictures we might be deemed pornographic, but the texts contain the teachings. It all comes back to the heart. The spark of light within the heart is you. Your own consciousness. It is not in the brain and the mind does not know that you are hidden in the heart. The real you is totally obscured from view. But your heart maintains the balance between your aggressiveness and your passivity. Or better said, your active side and your resting side. The forces within you are cosmic, no different than the tide which goes in and out rhythmically, but we have become out of balance. The tide is either constantly washing in and never going out, or itis constantly receding and never returning. (to be continued tomorrow)

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6/15/16 - The other day I introduced the heart as the new base line. I also have changed the Anakosha motto above from "integrating sexuality and spirituality" to "introducing the divine feminine and divine masculine". The feminine and masculine energies within your own body come into balance when you focus on your heart. They do not come into balance when we focus on the physical genitals.

When we focus attention on the heart, we connect with our God-self. The God-self is a quality. It is piece of what I call the great light that was sent downward into density (the body) to keep the heart beating and the blood circulating and all the organs and glands operating harmoniously. We fall out of harmony by not recognizing the perfection that is anchored in our own heart. The heart, or rather the spark of light within the heart, maintains balance between our male and female energies. These energies normally fall out of balance, depending on who we are as a personality and how we were raised. We are either aggressive or submissive in our nature. But when we focus on the heart during lovemaking we become balanced again. We must learn how to do this. It won't happen over night. But the reason for talking about it is to focus a light on the heart - and why.

When we focus on the heart while making love, we see our partner through the lens of love instead of as somebody outside and different, who is either doing something to us, or asking us to do something to them. And having to adjust to their demands or their lack of expertise. There are many awkward moments lovers experience in the throes of lovemaking. But when we focus on the heart, miracles happen. We experience the innate love within ourselves first, which radiates slowly outward to all parts of our body, warming it, activating it, connecting us. It is something like when the dawn begins and light spreads subtly at first, barely noticeable, warming the cold night sky. But it is activating life on earth as it steadily climbs higher in the sky and suddenly it is everywhere.

Making the heart the new base line, allows this radiation of love and life-giving warmth to spread equally, harmoniously, all around. And it manifests in physical sensations. We can take our bodies with us into the lightening and ascension process when we focus on the heart. Before, it was focusing on the physical, the form, the genitals, the time, the rushing through, the disharmony between lovers. But when we begin to draw attention to the heart, there is a quality that spreads like a sunrise through everything, unifying it all together into a oneness. That sunrise is love. We don’t have to give up the physical sex. We can take it all with us. But when we begin to focus on the qualities of the heart, everything expands and becomes wider, freer, more joyful, more blissful. It is time to start practicing with the heart visualizations.

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6/12/16 - Today a change has been made in the Anakosha motto, above under the picture, which signifies an evolutionary change in direction. For a long time Anakosha's motto was "Integrating sexuality and spirituality - breaking the mechanical sex habit with love." The focus was on sex. As we learn and grow and expand our understanding of what love is, we invite you to join us in exploring the new base line - the heart. It is difficult to summarize in a few written words the tumultuous journey that has brought us to this realization. I will be posting more about this shortly, as soon as the whirling slows down and becomes stable. The heart is the new baseline, taking the place of the yoni and lingam (the genitals) which has been the be-all and end-all in our culture. The divine feminine and divine masculine are standing on the threshold, entwined in oneness like the beautiful symbol of the yin and yang. So get ready for the next phase of the journey - the sacred journey - which lies ahead!
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5/17/16 - As I continue to research Tantra, I open more and more to the secrets of ancient truths that have been long forgotten. I have been shown a web of light that runs through us from head to toe. And right alongside it runs a web of dark, our shadow self.. It is called the human matrix.  Both webs reside on the etheric plane, and both webs feed our bodies with thought and feeling. Only the web of light, however, feeds us with life. The dark feeds us with negative thoughts and feelings. The dark web mimics the light and copies it, but it doesn’t have the capacity for eternal life. It can’t create life. It can only take the life from the original web of light and use it and color it - embed it - with thoughts and feelings of its own design. The not-light is the web of the human matrix that has messed us all up.

The consciousness of good, justice and right action comes from the web of light, for it comes from that which gives birth to all things, including the dark web. The dark web is the creation of mankind’s selfish ways - ways that are the opposite of the good of the whole. The dark web is filled with error and mistakes, with negative beliefs, of power and control over others, and all the thoughts and subsequent feelings resulting from misinformation and manipulation. The dark web tries to take over. It mimics the web of light and feels it can do better. But it is always lesser than the light itself, and it cannot interact with the web of light so it runs alongside it and goes wherever the light goes, trying to usurp it and do it “one better”. One-upsmanship, the saying goes. Competition. The dark web is what prevents us from living a happy, free, abundant, fulfilling life. We are constantly at war within ourselves over which road to take. Which decision to make. What action would serve me best?  Selfish interests usually always win out over the good of the whole, which is the web of light. The light works on the basis of what strengthens and supports the unity of the whole. What is good for the whole is good for the self, and better than putting the self first. Tantric and Taoist sacred texts call it “bringing harmony between yin and yang”. There is harmony between heaven and earth.

Modern scientists can’t see into the etheric realm, so they cannot support these concepts. Their equipment is built upon the belief in physical matter only. There is nothing else. What one believes is the reality for that particular person. If the scientist does not believe in the etheric plane, he or she wouldn’t spend time trying to find validating evidence for its existence. The etheric plane is the plane where ghosts are seen or felt. Ghosts are the etheric bodies of people who have died. They are held here by their strong attachment to the physical world and emotional bonds of attachment through the dark web. Some instruments have detected etheric fields, such as Kirlian photography which has photographed the aura around individuals. Clairvoyants, mystics, shamans and visionaries have always seen beyond physical matter to the etheric plane and beyond.

The word “web” in Sanskrit is “tantra”. So Tantra is the science of the web of light. Sacred sex teachings and mystical love rituals include mantras, meditation, and rituals of graceful and beautiful movements. These are based on the science of the web of light, the tantra of light, which is the light body that overlights us in everything we do while we are alive. We call it the etheric body. It lives on after death as a ghost until it releases itself from the earth and ascends to its natural home higher up.  The etheric body is the generator of life for us while we live in a physical body.

Tantric and Taoist sacred texts show sexual postures, but there is more. Along with explicit sexual positions valuable teachings are quality are given. Symbols, intonations and mental thoughts and visualizations are taught to focus on while making love. It is what one does consciously with the mind that makes the difference between success and failure. Or which source of influence one draws from - the web of light or the web of dark.

Tantra teaches a positive path of integrating the yin and yang within ones own self, which is the first and primary goal of tantra. What one’s partner does is secondary. One does not have control over one’s partner. But if a man cultivates his own feminine energy, his female partner will also benefit from that for she will feel it. And if a woman cultivates her own masculine energy while making love, her male partner will benefit. If each of them is merging with their own yin and yang within, through thought, focus, toning and visualization, harmony is felt by both partners, as heaven and earth are united within self and with their love-partner.

Each posture has a specific purpose for opening etheric channels into the physical, allowing more love and light to flow, which is felt as bliss. We call it love. The making of love, or bliss, is not an accident that just happens by a miracle. Here in the west we are drawn together through chemistry, and we call it falling in love. It is quite natural. Through natural chemistry we form relationships and move in together. And then a little while later we fall out of chemistry as the hormonal juices have been spent. We say the honey moon is over. It is all done without our effort. It was all natural. We then find ourselves in a relationship without any sexual affinity and drift apart. What happened to the love? To the bliss? To the sex?

In the Tantric and Taoist tradition, the art and know-how of making of love is a conscious act that is practiced from the time of puberty. Girls and boys are taught the ways of love before they become adults. We, on the other hand, are taught to avoid sex because it is sinful and shamful. We are fed from the dark web, where sacred sex traditions are fed from the light. They are fortunate indeed who are born into a family who pass on the tradition of preparing their children in the benefits of lovemaking, for it produces a long and harmonious life that leads to spiritual enlightenment.

Because the man becomes passionate first, before the woman, and the woman starts out slow and cool, he is taught how to slow down down in order to rouse the woman fully and satisfy her.  While much of the sacred texts revolve around teaching men how to satisfy the woman, the secondary teaching is how holding back his emission pumps up his vitality, health and vigor. The benefits of practicing Tantric lovemaking are for both partners.

We in the west see Tantra as a sexual technique, but it is a sexual teaching which requires practice. There are many subtle facets. They are not pages to skip over to get to the bottom line, for the bottom line is not simply a posture but the embodiment of passion built by two people step by step, using moans, tones, sounds, visualizations and other subtleties.

When the light body (which is spirit) flows correctly along certain channels in the physical body, it nourishes the physical body with the bliss we know as love. Meanwhile, the earth forces of the yin and yang, which are part and parcel of the kundalini - the potent sex force of the body at the base of the spine -  must be connected to by spirit to be a successful lovemaking act.  A man starts out at the base of the spine and is already hot with passion, while the woman starts out at the top and is cool. Both partners start out at opposite ends of the heat spectrum. In order to make this love-act successful the man must and coax her to descend down to meet him. Her rate of arousal tells him how he is doing.  If a man rushes to his own selfish completion, he leaves the woman unfulfilled and irritated.

According to Tantric and Taoist teachings, a man must watch the woman’s arousal process and go as slow as is necessary to bring her gradually down to be fully engaged with her sexual juices, her kundalini. The sacred sex manuals refer to this as the art of lovemaking.
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5/12/16 - Information continues to come to me from higher consciousness about tantra, both in the silence and through reading. It is amazing to me that in my journals of 30 years ago I wrote similar insights from personal experience to what I am studying today. For example, I wrote in Decmeber 1986 the following:

"In meditation today, I saw the rod that is “like unto a man, or a woman“. The power is given to the human into the pelvic region, the center, a glow, a tiny glow at the base of the rod, glowing brighter and brighter and brighter. And then another glow above in the head, and above the head, the spiritual nature of man and woman, the higher divine self, the monad.  There has been a separation, this light of man. A piece has been sent downward into the dimensions of physical matter and encased and enclosed in, round about with matter and the higher self is trying quite desperately to reach the lower light - the mother light hidden within the soil of matter. Oh, how clearly I saw this! I have seen it over and over and over, each time with a new beauty and a new spaciousness. It is here now, this light, glowing here in the pelvis and it is up to each man, each woman, to fill in the vacuum and empty spaces in between the lower light and the higher. There is naturally confusion because we are fluctuating between the lower physical consciousness and the higher spiritual consciousness where we know all things and then we lose it and fall downward into the heavy dense condition again. Only to rise once more in moments of ecstasy and inspiration and in those heights we wonder why we were confused. The wild fluctuations are the polarities shifting, first below, then above, then below again. As I saw it, we look like a tube of light, a neon tube, hollow and empty in the middle, with the glows only on either end, first one end, then the other, always glowing on the ends but never in the middle?!  It is in the middle that we must fill in. The middle is our daily life and actions, here and now. We have to blend the higher and the lower and make it all livable and available to us every day as we walk and talk with our neighbors and do our tasks." (End journal)

We had a most wonderful party last Saturday. There were 16 couples that gathered for the purpose of sexual love play. It was so beautiful, loving, smooth, very, very smooth, happy and social. Having dinner together and then joining in bedroom activities, people were revealing their innermost feelings and connecting with others with their innermost feelings. It was quite amazing. The sensation of love became physical, as people made love and later hugged in the kitchen and felt the bond that united them as One. In my studies of tantra, I am discovering that the truth of tantra - why it has continued to stay alive and real for all these centuries -  is because it is the story of man's spiritual ascension to the stars, in triumph over his matter body. When the inner self connects with its other half, the male or the female, depending on which is dominant, they merge in oneness and ascend in the throes of orgasm and "touch the face of God". Even in the throes of passion with a lover seemingly in common sex,  it is actually a private and sacred action going on within, in the deepest most eternal parts of the person where ecstasy and oneness can be felt. We learn, grow and master ourselves through our sexual play with others.

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5/1/16 - Happy May Day!  The idea of making love instead of having sex inspires me again this morning. We human beings are not the physical body we THINK  we are. We are the consciousness that fills the space between the whirling atoms, electrons and molecules that make up our physical bodies. The atoms and molecules are brought together by us. WE are the creator of those atoms and molecules. WE bring them together from a higher level than we realize, and we hold them in place by our thoughts. The difference in how we feel depends on our consciousness, and the thoughts we think and hold onto.

As the non-physical CONSCIOUS awareness that fills the spaces between the whirling atoms, electrons and molecules that compose our body, we make all the difference in the world. We feel good and inspired, or we feel bad and rotten. It's hard to identify with this concept while we are busy living our life, but this is where the problem lies. It's a rat race because we don't realize that we have the power. We have all the power in the world to change the course of our destiny. But because we have been so busy living our material life, not focusing on the spiritual or inner life, we have not been able to draw on the powerful radiance of good that lives within our thoughts. Those who HAVE realized the truth of it are living happy and abundant lives. Not rich with money but rich with everything they need and want because they draw it forth with their thoughts.

By not understanding this we have not realized yet that we can BOG DOWN those same atoms and molecules by thinking low thoughts, when we could actually lighten ourselves up so we are inspired, healthy, peaceful, calm and free in our daily life, personally.

Low thoughts are thoughts of poverty, lack, hardship, anger, frustration, worry. Low thoughts fill the space between the atoms and molecules with negative awareness. We are intelligence, not physical matter. We only inhabit physical matter. When we intellectually hold onto low thoughts, it slows down the atoms and molecules. They become closed in. When they slow down they tend to stick together, like people crowded into a bus station. Imagine leaving a packed bus station and going out into a park with green grass, trees, sunshine and open air, and feeling the sudden release of stuffiness. It's freedom. You are instantly lighter, refreshed and inspired. The atoms and molecules spinning in our bodies are relieved. They pick up speed. The lungs breathe freer. The heart beats more calmly. Everything feels good again.

Crowded bus stations magnify the problem but it's not just thoughts of others that bother us and bog us down - it is our OWN thoughts that bog us down. We feel the effects of the stagnation and suffocation of our the atoms and molecules slowing down in our bodies, minds and feelings. We become depressed by holding onto negative thoughts. This induces negative feelings. I heard an NPR news interview yesterday of an author who wrote a book about chronic depression in his family history. Depression is passed on through genetics, but genetics can be changed by consciously willing it to change. Conscious thought is the waking-up process of the spiritual path, and taking the initiative to change the way we think. We are not a prisoner of our genes. We were given a body, but we are NOT our body. We are the consciousness that flows through our body the way electricity flows through a light bulb. We CAN change our thoughts, and our bodies, minds and feelings will change too, despite what science and the powers that be tell us. That is the spiritual path - becoming aware that we are spirit and not the body. Not the religious path but the spiritual path.

I am trying to point out the value of thinking positive thoughts as they relate to making love because making love and feeling love influences every part of life. Thinking inspiring thoughts, uplifting thoughts, thoughts of joy, of happiness, of gratitude, of appreciation, of love. Love contains all of the positive values we call noble. You can choose to hold onto any positive value you want, and love will be there too. That is the way to make love, rather than sex. Thinking loving thoughts opens up the atoms and molecules that are spinning in your physical body and spins them faster. It opens up the atoms and molecules that are spinning in your etheric body, too, your soul that carries eons of unresolved issues that need resolving. Positive thoughts of forgiveness, compassion, mercy, appreciation, all of these help spin off by centrifugal force, the ancient negatives that carry forward from life to life, unresolved.

You don't need to go over them with a fine-tooth comb to analyze them. You need only to spin them off and away by positive thinking. Feel lighter, brighter and more carefree. Have you ever noticed that all your problems disappear when you are having fun? It is only after the fun is over and you start to pick up the old thoughts again, that you come down off your high. It is instantaneous - thinking positive thoughts. We are each responsible for the quality of thoughts that we hold onto and spread out into the atmosphere so our neighbors feel them and take them home with them and bog their families down with your thoughts, too.  Wouldn't it be better to spread around goodness and love and forgiveness and happiness? Because I am focusing on integrating sexuality and spiritualy, my focus is on connecting lovemaking in with the sex. This is how we make love rather than "have sex".

I maintain a website called www.galacticfederation-naplesFL.org. Other planets in our solar system and galaxy are members of the Galactic Federation of Light who are now in our atmosphere in ships that are cloaked. We don't see them but they're there. You might be interested in checking this site out. I have been following this longer than I have been a swinger. Earth has been a hostile planet for a long time, but the hostility is coming to an end. The era is changing. It is LOVE that is being beamed to Earth now by higher, more advanced civilizations - the Galactic Federation of Light. On those planets the people are born in love and raised by loving parents in a culture of love. They do not have police, nor prisons, nor hospitals because everyone is happy. There are no diseases, no criminals and no lack. They are happy, free and abundantly supplied with all that they need.

We on Earth are beginning to wake up to the fact that we are a hostile planet. Whistleblowers are coming out on the internet. We are becoming aware there is an enlightenment going on. A purge of badness. When wrongs are purged from individuals, love will have a greater chance to be felt in all our systems. But we each, individually, have a responsibility to hold good thoughts, thoughts of love and forgiveness, to help raise the consciousness of the planet. As long as we keep holding onto " He's bad, the policy is bad, the country is in ruins," that kind of thinking, it only keeps the negatives in place. Change it. Be the change. Turn it over to love, peace and good will. We can do this in our lovemaking at home, in our bedroom, and enjoy the immediate benefits in our lives and relationships. And remember the children too. Make love by hugging them and telling them encouraging, supportive, uplifting statements every day. See them beam and smile and become the beautiful child blossoming under that frown.

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4/29/16 - We have a swing party coming up next Saturday. It will be sexual. But today I want to explain why love is so important when it comes to sex. Why it is so important to MAKE LOVE instead of "have sex". Having sex is like serving a piece of meat or a dish on a platter. Here, would you like one? It is something outside of yourself, an object to look at, examine and make a choice over. "Um. Perhaps." It is something being offered to you. Do you want it, or not?  Take it or leave it. It is concrete. A physical thing. Not really too much feeling involved, it's a mental decision that must be made. Unless of course you are horny. Then it's a different story. Then of course you want it. Or if you are newly in love and you can't wait to be in the presence of your beloved. Yes, that is love. But most sex is simply physical. Love is not. 

I don't think there is any difference at all between women and men. Everybody wants love. It's just in how we approach it that is different. We are programmed differently. Most people approach is like a meal. You're not really hungry, but it's important to the other person so you accompany them in the meal. It's part of human life like sleeping, eating and drinking. It's essential to survival. But love is not essential to survival. Love is something more advanced than survivial level. Love is something that we evolve into as we mature spiritually, meaning we become aware of more than the physical aspects of sex. Women especially wish for the more. But men want it too. I know that. As we mature spiritually then love becomes more important and begins to weave in and out of the sexual encounter. Love changes sex.

Why is love so important when it comes to sex? I want to talk about it. It's because we are not physical. We think we are, but we breathe down into the physical from a higher plane, from our etheric body. The etheric body is the soul which wraps around us like a cocoon, or a field of glow, but it's not physical. When you die your  body slumps over, but you, very much alive, float upward or sideways out of your body. You remain standing upright, surprised. You thought you died but you didn't. You're still alive.

OK. So now you are in your etheric body. You've been here before. You are beginning to remember. You are not your body. You are more. Etheric is another name for soul. Soul lives forever. You live forever because you are a spiritual body that has been enfolding your physical body all through its life, caring for it by wrapping loving arms around it and protecting it from harm, leading it away from danger and toward what is good. You are love first, last and always. You just didn't know it when you were in a physical body. You thought you were only physical.

So OK. Place yourself in your etheric body now and imagine. Just imagine stepping into the bigger you that is on a higher level than your finite physical concrete body. Pretend you feel loving if you don't feel it naturally. Pretend. Now look into your physical body and see if you are loving in your physical. The chances are you are not. From your etheric level - from a more expanded spiritual state looking down at your physical self - you can see that you are pretty narrow in your focus. Focusing on the physical world around you. You are holding back a lot of what you are feeling in your etheric body, which is wider and larger and freer and more loving.

OK. Now that we have established that you have an etheric body that is loving, what would you like to do differently after you return to your body? Be more loving, wouldn't you? In your relationships, wouldn't you want to express more love? Wouldn't it feel more free? More liberated? More spontaneous? More loving? We don't when we are in the physical because we have so much work to do. The number one enemey of love is busy-ness. We are all too busy. The time is short and there's so much to do. That's only because we have focused TOO MUCH on the physical world. We watch the clock. We run over all the jobs we have not done yet. We focus on the material world. We focus down, not up where there is more love.

The challenge is to make the effort to look up. Up is where love is. Love is in the sky where there are no obstacles in the way to focus on. Find the love in the sky, in the clouds, in the stars and moon at night. Find the love in your heart because love is an open portal when it is open. It can be a closed portal. A lot of people close their hearts which is why heart attacks are so prevalent. Close down the love and the heart responds with, "OK, you want to close down? I'll close down." Heart attack.

Bring the love you felt in your etheric body a moment ago, back into your body. Bring love down into your physical mind and hold it there. Slowly, slowly, as you hold the thought of love - think "love" - and hold it in your mind and it will slowly, slowly, descend down into your heart and open your heart. Your mind doesn't want to do that because you are busy thinking of some meeting you have to attend, or some labor you have to do, or the clock and you're running late. Your mind is your biggest enemy, so think "love" and hold onto "love" for dear life and hold it steady there in your mind. Hold it steady for one minute, two minutes, three minutes. Hold that thought and as you do, you bring it down out of the sky and into your physical consciousness.

You ARE the consciousness of your soul. You are not your body. You have never been your body. Never. You have always been the consciousness riding in your body, using your body as a tool and as an instrument. You use your hands, your feet, your mouth, every part of you, but you are not your body. You have never been your body. You are the consciousness riding through your body and either bogging it down with negatives, or raising it up with freedom and inspiration.

You can still perform all the jobs assigned you and you can still perform the roles you agreed to play, while bringing love into your thoughts and holding them there while you work. This is a walking meditation on love. This is how you bring love back into your sex life.  Remember, you are love in your etheric body. You are always love in your consciousness, no matter what you are doing in the physical world.

The real you is your consciousness. You can change your consciousness simply by willing it so. Focus on a splinter in your finger and see how you can narrow your focus down to a finite point. Now focus on the sunset and see how you can expand your focus to the whole sky and its beautiful inspiring colors. Now focus on sex. How do you think you can you make your sexual relationship better?

When you focus on love longer than a minute or two you start to FEEL love because love is something you FEEL. It is not an object like a cookie or a glass of wine. It's a quality. Your mind thinks a loving thought but it never reaches the body cells where feeling is felt, unless you hold it still and hold it. Hold that thought. Make it real. Make it sensual. Spirituality is all about QUALITY. In order to make love, we need to focus on the warmth and kindness and caring that love brings to the human vessel. Everyone has a wellspring of love within them. It's what keeps your heart pumping. Love is anchored in the heart specifically, more so than in any other location in the body because the body needs to have the heart pumping to stay alive. Love is planted in the heart for a reason. As soon as the heart fails, the body dies. The wellspring of love is in the heart. The window to love and more vibrant life is in the heart. Focus on the heart and begin to feel around in that area. Think warm. Search your memory for something you remember that gave you a warm, kind, loving feeling. That's the love you want to bring forth. You can bring forth a quality by focusing on the memory of it. Find it and focus on it.

This quality of love - not the lower emotional passionate lust-filled attachment we think of as love but the higher form of love that contains forgiveness and real kindness, caring and heartfelt concern - this is what will raise the quality of a sexual relationship to be more exciting and more inspiring. It will turn your lesser sex into something entirely more wonderful and elevating. Blissful. Radiant. Glorious.  It begins with taking the time to appreciate the one you are with. Appreciation expands the love within you and lifts it up above the narrow physical focus. Instead of thinking genitally and the need to give a sexual orgasm to your partner or to yourself think wider and more expansive. Wider, more expansive and allow that to slow you down. Forget the clock. You are blending. Find love in some distant past memory and latch onto that. Use that as a link to love here and now. I guarantee that your lovemaking will be better. Instead of wishing and hoping that love will happen, you will instead be MAKING love happen. Because what you think is what forms your reality.

I am posting something I received from David this morning. It is all about love. Check out David's blog today.
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4/28/16 - My partner David is undergoing an unusual spiritual transformation called “kundalini awakening“.  Since kundalini awakened in me 40 years ago this month, I have had time to stabilize and ground it, but David has not. He is currently experiencing huge waves of love with a capital L. According to him, Love is everywhere present. “Love is all there is,“ he tells me. And he is having very unusual experiences to validate it. It is impossible to make sense of what is happening when kundalini has awakened in someone. It can be very difficult without a supportive person who understands. You just might want to put him or her (or self) into a rehab center or a mental institution. David cannot write about it easily, but he writes to me. So I asked his permission to post some of his private emails. I just posted one today into David‘s blog.

I would like to discuss kundalini awakening just a little bit more today because it is something that other people have gone through, and will go through in the future. We are hearing more about kundalini in this “new” age, and of course, many people have undertaken kundalini yoga practice. But what IS kundalini anyway? And why does it awaken?  Why is it such a big deal?

Kundalini is an Indian word from the ancient Sanskrit language meaning “coiled spring“. This refers to the bioelectric energy or lifeforce of the body that is coiled up tight as a drum at the base of spine. It’s potent and it’s powerful in the unawakened state. So say the books which threaten with dire warnings not to awaken it prematurely. We don't have a word in English to mean exactly the same thing as “kundalini“ and in the west the process of kundalini awakening is largely unknown. But since I have a certain amount of personal experience plus knowledge from masters under direct instruction, I would like to talk about it because it is important as we enter this more enlightened age.
 
Kundalini awakening takes place on the etheric level, not in the physical body where doctors and scientists can see it or measure it and treat it. And therein lies the problem. We are a materially-oriented people. Most of us do not realize that we even have an etheric body superimposed over our physical body which creates an aura around us.  Or that we have an emotional body superimposed over the etheric body. Or that we have a mental body superimposed over the emotional body, or a HIGHER mental body which functions as a spiritual body superimposed over that. And there are more “bodies” or levels of separate consciousness the higher we go. These separate layers of consciousness surround us, you and me.

These invisible levels of consciousness are also physical matter. They are composed of atoms and molecules just as our dense physical body is, but the molecules are spread further apart and are thus more refined and invisible to normal physical eyesight. We think of these other bodies as unseen forces, but they are actually a part of who we are. We use two of those levels all the time - our minds and emotions. The mental body and the emotional body are two separate levels of consciousness. But more on that later. We actually use even higher dimensions of ourselves too, but we have trained ourselves not to pay attention to such things as extrasensory perception, telepathy or clairvoyance.

The etheric body is the closest to our physical body. The etheric body feeds our cells with lifeforce, which comes down from higher planes through a network of etheric tubes called “tantra” in Sanskrit, meaning “web“. When kundalini awakens in the etheric body, this potent package of dynamite releases more life force than we’ve ever experienced before. It washes through us in such powerful quantities, like many tsnunami waves, that it upsets the entire being and we reel with unknowns. It comes in cycles. Our equilibrium goes crazy when it is cycling. It is like the germination of a seed in the ground, only it’s a seed inside a human being. It washes through the entire being, mind, body, emotions, and it feels like an electric burning or buzzing. The force of it depends on many factors, such as the health, youth and vigor of the host body vs. a malnourished depressed host body.. When kundalini is released in small amounts, it feels good, stimulating and energizing. But when it comes on in full force all of a sudden, with no warning beforehand, it is almost too powerful to handle, unless the person has prepared for it or is very healthy and clean of toxins.

The purpose of kundalini awakening in one fell swoop is because the person is ready for it. It wouldn’t happen otherwise. It is simply time for the evolutionary step. The kundalini is a purifying energy. Its purpose is to wipe clean all the toxins residing within, in mind, body and feelings. If the host body is healthy, young and vigorous, the person should have no problem handling it, although there are dramatic mood swings that are challenging. If the person is not spiritually prepared and not ready for an increase in life force, which can happen by accident from a fall, it can produce serious symptoms. With help, guidance and preparation, which all meditation and yoga practices are, the process can be a beautiful uplifting transition. Today, we are better prepared for kundalini awakening than we were 50 years ago, but still, many people do not understand what is happening which can cause mental or emotional problems.

The knowledge even today is hard to come by. Most people don’t know what’s happening and think they’ve gone mad. They may go to doctors who have no clue. Psychotherapy, medication or institutionalizing the person is often the only way out. I feel obligated, due to David’s experiences, to discuss kundalini awakening and give some basic information. Though not nearly enough can be said here, it is time to enlighten oneself and become familiar. Be prepared. David and I can help if asked.  

A human being is like a seed. An acorn for example. The acorn contains the potential of a mighty oak tree, but it is only a tiny little thing to begin with. From where does the power come that turns it into a great oak? It is truly a mystery which we take for granted. Likewise, a human being is a relatively small creature to begin with, limited in understanding of his unique destiny and place in the universe. But inside on the etheric level, there is buried unlimited potential that we can‘t possibly know about. How can an acorn know it will become a mighty oak tree?

The kundalini energy is contained inside a protective etheric pouch at the base of the spine called the “kanda“. Kanda means "beloved" in the Thai language. The kanda looks like and feels like the bud of a flower before it has opened. In it is contained a piece of the great unformed sea of consciousness, the creator of all that is. It has been separated by thought from its parent source and sent downward into density to give life to matter and form. From the little pouch life force drips UP the spine to the brain in living radiant color (I’ve seen it) and the body lives and breathes. The heart pumps, the stomach digests what it needs and eliminates the rest. It makes love and creates babies. And it has fun. it grows and creates and learns and matures, all from the life force contained in that little pouch at the base of the spine.

Lifetime after lifetime the person lives and dies and is born again, in the form of the etheric body, known as the soul, which never dies. It is immortal. Only the physical body dies and the etheric body continues on with life force containing the kanda, the unlimited potential for this soul. Eventually, after many lifetimes, after the gathering of much wisdom, knowledge and understanding, finally comes the day when the human journey ends and the spiritual journey begins. The kanda opens and the kundalini awakens. The lifeforce gently wafts its spiritual fragrance through the being, flooding it with ecstasy, love and light. But other things happen too, because it magnifies out of all proportion, the “not-self”, the negative beliefs and wounds, pains and hurts, as it seeks to burn them away. Kundalini is known as a sacred fire. It’s purpose is to wipe clean all that does not fit a spiritual life. Without loving help and pre-knowledge, a person can go crazy, thinking he/she is going nuts, mad or delusional. Mental institutions are crowded with aborted kundalini awakenings because there was no help. No understanding friend to assist with love and tenderness. It is heart-breaking to think about all those damaged people, so let‘s not go there..

The spiritual journey is another chapter in the book, for another time. There is a plan for every form created, and its destiny lies in merging the spiritual with the physical - allowing, welcoming, the spiritual energies into the form. As we learn to master troubling situations in our lives and resolve them in a way that creatively benefits the whole human race - in other words, does not harm others - we grow our spiritual skin. We begin the transformation process. The plan is not to die or to leave the Earth plane, but to remain in our physical body. We are not taken out. We do not die. We simply become more fulfilled. More beautiful, more whole, more loving, wiser and more discerning. Life becomes more abundant and  richer, not just in money (although that is included) but in all ways. And we are now well equipped to manage it and help others.

When the kanda opens like a lotus blossom to release the abundance of bioelectric life force contained within it, it opens its petals upward to receive the other half of itself from above. Its unformed spiritual self, long separated, now descends downward and integrates with the form, now filled with love and light, in what is referred to as the mystical marriage in scriptural lore.
 
Every individual has a unique gift to give to the world which is its destiny to fill and complete. Most of us don’t know what our purpose is, but when the kanda opens and kundalini awakens the journey begins toward filling that destiny. This is a process little known by the human race. It may never have been talked about like this before.

The Christians have named this process “being born again" or the second birth. I doubt it has been defined quite like this before, but it is the same thing as kundalini awakening. While each culture has its own language and terminology to define it, the inner working of spirit is the same. It is universal and the language is the language of light. It is a quantum evolutionary step for a human being in the flesh - the germination of the God seed in the etheric body (called the soul) ready to fulfill its physical destiny on Earth. It is not much different from the germination of a vegetable seed which is also impregnated with the God seed. The difference is, a human being grows a new consciousness, instead of a new limb - a consciousness that can pierce the dimensions to the stars.

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4/26/16 - While I am a sexual person hosting swing parties, massage is another story entirely. Here is a dictation received from spirit in 2006 relating to massage. Sex is an entirely different action from massage. I have been trying to form a group for group massage for years but everyone wants to turn it sexual. This is a good explanation about massage from a higher plane.

When you massage, whether it’s a friend or a stranger, it’s not personal. It’s loving and intimate and probably felt as sensual but it’s not personal as the Creator is not personal, is not a chooser of one over another. We are learning here, with our massage, unconditional love, meaning you don’t ask or expect anything back. You’re just the receiver. It is important to practice discipline over yourself because the irony is that you’re going to be turning them on without meaning to. The receiver is going to receive warm, nurturing, love feelings and they will want to touch you back. They will want more from you and may start to get a little gropey. It’s because they feel so good, free, loving and happy.

It’s important to not be pulled into that mode and stop your massage. You can’t do both easily. You can try but then you will be struggling with yourself. You can’t serve their physical needs and continue to serve your role of giving a good massage. It becomes very tempting on one hand (if you are attracted to the person) but on the other hand it may feel disgusting to you if you’re not attracted, and that will end the massage. The solution is to maintain a higher consciousness, above the physical and the personal. The one receiving the massage, don’t touch. Just feel. Just allow. Feel the warm nurturing love coming from this giver but don’t touch back. You will disturb him and distract him, and you wouldn’t want him to abort the massage, would you? After all, that’s how he has given you these nice feelings.

Instead, allow these feelings to grow and build and spread all through your body. Your beautiful chakra energy that was formerly held in a tight pattern, is being stimulated and it is expanding. It needs to go somewhere. Like when water boils in a pot, you need to take off the cover because the steam is expanding. The first chakra to start expanding is the root chakra (genitals). It could be likened to seven cups. The first cup is being stimulated and starts expanding to the next chakra above it, the naval. So suck it up. Image it flowing upward. Expand you consciousness. Relax. Breathe. Allow the arousal feeling to expand upward. When the sense of explosion gets to be too much, suck it up higher and allow the third chakra, the solar plexus, cup to be filled. This is done with visualization and imagination.

When you feel yourself becoming too pressurized (aroused) you find yourself wanting to reach out and touch someone and release (have an orgasm). Suck it up again. Expand the energy again. Breathe deeper. Allow the arousal feeling to go up to the heart. Keep on doing this for the throat, the third eye and finally reach the top of your head. Then when you are so full of erotic energy, and there’s no place else to go, allow the orgasm to take place and it will fill you. You ARE the energy locked in the chakra cups, locked into a holding pattern of rigidity, but now feeling free, loved and encouraged. So allow yourself to expand with these feelings. Go with these feelings, don’t abort the journey by allowing the orgasm to take place before the process has ended. Then you won’t reach the top of your head.

You’re feeling free and loving and wanted. But don’t touch back or you’ll abort the process. This is a very sacred experience. It is especially for you. Not for the giver. Your body, mind, emotions and spirit are all experiencing a “coming Home” feeling which is an inner journey. It’s a healing journey back to the whole again. Holistic. So bottom line, don’t get personal. Maintain the outer role of giver giving, and receiver receiving and finish the job. We are both getting something out of this. The giver is privy to watching the action, being involved, helping, receiving good feelings from it. Watch out for the tendency to jump in and make love or to focus on “make me cum”. This is not for genital satisfaction (root chakra) but for all of the chakras to fill up and feel involved. The cups runneth over.

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4/21/16 - Over the years I have kept a profuse quantity of journal entries. I did this because I have had so many remarkable out-of-body experiences (as I used to refer to them) which caused me to search for answers. Why me? Among these pages after pages of copious entries, there are sprinkled some direct messages from spirit. "Direct from spirit" means they came through my FINGERS rather than my mind. They by-passed my conscious mind, and suddenly I was writing something I didn't recognize. This happened mostly through the pen which I was holding while writing on paper before the computer came onto the scene.

When spirit talks directly through my fingers I know because my consciousness SUBTLY shifts from the personal "me" to another sensation which is not me. I can't explain it very well. In the beginning when I first experienced "channeling" direct messages from spirit, I was shocked back into the small "me". Like, "Where did THAT come from?" Because I spent a lot of time in meditation, both in trance and what you would call simply normal meditation practice, this happened frequently. It took me a while to understand and adapt to it. I suspect many people have experienced this direct connection with their own Higher Self, maybe even in the middle of a work day when not writing or typing on a keyboard. A shift in consciousness can come anytime, and it is like the sun comes out from behind a cloud and shines clear, bright and lucid and words ring like a bell. It is hard to not notice it. And, yes. It DOES have something to do with sex, sensuality, love and our ability to expand physical lovemaking to greater and more beautiful heights. It actually has EVERYTHING to do with it.

This morning while looking for something, I ran across a direct message from spirit. It validates and supports the ancient tantras I am reading today. Is Tantra sexual? Or is it a solitary path one does alone?  It depends on where your base line is. If it is from the old world of duality and opposites, it is sexual. If it is from the state of love and oneness, which is the NEW world we are moving into called the fifth dimension, it is either or both. There is no duality in 5D. There are no opposites to argue with, fight against, or control or resist or try to achieve. It is already yours. But there is more. There is always more. There is discussion, joy, love, exhileration, freedom - and sensual pleasure. In 5D we CAN experience love with another person. It's just in a whole new way that is more than what we can experience currently. It's a rapture experience. In the new world of 5D there is a continuation of individuality and learning. You are MORE you in 5D than you were in the old world of duality and opposites (and war and destruction). It is not an ending but the beginning of a better, higher, more exciting way of life. And we don't have to die to experience it. That's what the ancient tantras are discussing in allegory.

(Spirit talking): Bliss, ecstasy, rapture, these are all felt in the body. They are not spiritual. We cannot feel these ecstatic states of consciousness while in the spiritual because those states of consciousness are natural to us out of body, in the after world, where we live without confinement or limitation of our true nature, for that is indeed who we are in our original state. We belong to the sea of consciousness that is prime creator or God. When we are born into a physical body we are immediately constricted by the cultural belief patterns that are pressed upon us by those around us as do’s and don’ts. Plus they are in our cells, our blood, our DNA, passed down to us from our parents and ancestors. The ecstasy we previously knew before birth is out of reach which at the same time a flickering light of unconscious memory draws us towards it. Our life in a physical body begins as a rigid structure of normal human life. A false life, greatly reduced from our former glory, often moving like an automaton going with the flow of mass consciousness, disconnected from our source. And yet these states of consciousness exist within our physical body, within the spaces between the protons and electrons. The great work is the wakening and realization of this important fact, and the continued exploration of spiritual truths. As we focus on higher ground we slowly begin to pierce the veils of separation and experience the bliss and ecstasy of our former state. The orgasm is an important experience that reminds us of Home.
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4/13/16 - The subject of sex seems to be a very important subject. As my late husband used to say, There is no more exciting subject in the world than sex.  Everyone wants to talk about it. I have been on a field trip through sex, mainly through the swinging lifestyle, and I have kind of passed through it and come out on the other side. I have experienced much - the lows and the highs and beyond. The spiritual side seems to turn a lot of men off. Not the women so much, but since women reflect the opinions of the men in their lives, many women don't want to go there either. But I've got to say this out loud. This one thing.

While most people don't want to hear what I'm about to say, it's important to be aware of it. You can reject it if you want to and you can stamp your foot and have a temper tantrum and rail against it all you want to. And that's OK. You are OK right where you are, and I seriously mean that. You are on your OWN journey through life. You are learning and gathering experience through your steppings. You are gaining exactly what you need to learn.

What I am about to say is simply something that I have learned by being around too long and having been through all the ups, downs and beyonds for too long. So this is just something to consider - or not. Don't change your life over it.  Don't change your habit patterns because of it, because changes have to come from inside of you. From a seed that has been agreed to it, that you digested and owned and cultivated and considered and allowed to take root. You can't make changes from the surface only. You can't make changes in your life on someone else's say-so. No one should take my say-so for fact. What I am about to say is only another viewpoint that is being tossed out into the world, alongside everyone else's viewpoint. As someone once said, Opinions are like noses - everyone has one.

This is what I want to say that I have been debating over for a while.

When you have sex with someone, you create what is called a "cord" to that person. It's an attachment. The cord is etheric in nature but it is a very real connection. And even though you don't intend that to happen, it does anyway. This is more information about our ethereal nature that we have missed out on in our education. We are constantly blending with the other people etherically, those we revolve around during our days. But sex is even more powerful than simply blending with people by talking with them. 

Through this etheric corded connection all the person you have ever had sex with, now has the ability to access your vitality. Your spiritual power which is very real. Your spiritual power is the difference between being up and alert and down and depressed. It's the vital force in you. Sex can be beautiful when mutual love is involved, but sex without mutual love creates, let us say, situations. Or issues. If you have sex with a person that is demanding, controlling or abusive, that person has a direct access to your body and vital force and, through your attention, can suck on you and draw you to them. It is through attention they do this. So if you are involved in a situation that is draining you, stop giving it attention. Cut that cord immediately.

"Cords" are psychic or psychological connections. Because we are built to interact with each other, we need to know how etheric energy fields work. We have not been trained well in this. Anyone can attach to you, but if you are aware, they cannot. Sex is one of the most powerful tools a person has to "own" you. Don't go there if you feel it is the wrong thing to do. Let love be your guide. The sense and feeling of love within you. Most people don't know they are doing it. If they DID knew they would probably not do it because it's a two-way street. The sucking can be both ways and usually is. A relationship is a two-way street. Someone starts it, then the other responds and adds to it. If you know yourself and know what you want, you can avoid these attachments. Sex is very powerful. Both men and women create attachments on the etheric level, when they would prefer not to. We see this in ourselves and our friends all the time. Regrets. Wishing we hadn't done that.  Neither gender has a monopoly on attachments. We all do it! But we can make better choices with a better understanding of our spiritual nature.

I stopped having sex at the swing parties that we host almost a year ago because sex with others became repulsive. I didn't understand. It was a crazy thing to do. I didn't know how to explain it to my friends. After all I had been hosting parties and being active for over 35 years. I couldn't explain, especially to my husband who wanted to continue with swinging. A man needs to be part of a couple to be invited to swing parties, whereas women are more accepted. So, as a man, he cannot be invited easily to parties if I am not willing to participate. So this was a major problem for me because I didn't want to take this away from my husband, but I couldn't continue having sex with others. Why? Why? Why? The question really bothered me. Why?  I loved the people and I loved the hugging but please don't ask me to do that! I love the talking and the social and everything about swinging - and I approve it still to this day. I think it is a wonderful way to experience feelings that you would never be able to experience without engaging in sex. Sex cultivates and stimulates the  vital force of the body - the kundalini - which is the power of the body.

But sex is only the first step in understanding the etheric or spiritual nature which is lives on after we die, and lives again in another body. This etheric or spiritual nature never dies! It is important to know about it! And sex is the first initiation on the long winding evolutionary journey through human life, which is designed to teach and learn so we can grow wiser and happier and more fulfilled. So what goes wrong in human lives? Why do so many relationships end up in trouble? With so much heart-ache?
 
I learned the next step on the long winding evolutionary road to the stars after I made the decision to stop engaging in sex with the many others in swinging. After I made the decision - and it was a hard decision - the next step came into view rather rapidly. My partner, David, come forward within days and introduced himself. Through him I have learned about love - not sexual love but spiritual love. It has brought me alive. I feel free again and excited about life. I  learned from hindsight that it was the lack of love in swinging that was causing me to be repulsed and to close down.

It was love that was missing. I knew it on a theoretical level but I didn't know love on the physical level. My partner showed me about love without sex in a very practical, loving, delightful way. We talk and laugh and share everything except physical sex, because I've had enough of that. I don't want it any more.

I am learning that Tantra is all about the souls journey through physical form. It is not about sex. It is the next stage of evolution. We don't live in a physical universe. We live in a spiritual universe and we are constantly changing our reality because we can. Through our choices and our focus. We bring into our lives what we need and we reject what we don't need any more. And so the next step appears.

If we don't know what we need, then we stumble around trying this and that and bumping up against things and other people until we find out what we like and what we don't like. It firms up our resolve. Our adventures help us to be wiser in our selection process.  I needed love, not sex. I wasn't getting love with my sexual encounters. Lots of fun, yes, but it was very superficial. It wasn't feeding me on a deeper level. I wasn't growing. I was declining. I was closing up. I was deteriorating. I was getting old. I was getting aches and pains.

People say it's natural to get aches and pains as you get older, but it's not. It's not natural at all. Our cells are replenished every day, as old ones die and new ones are born. We are created to be eternally young. It is the not-natural, the not-love that we grow old and tired. Motivational speakers say, Find something exciting to do to get inspired again. But we don't know that early in our lives, and we form "attachments". Cords that connect us "til death do us part".  It is only later in life that we discover that we can cut cords and detach.

I would not take away your journey from you. You are precisely where you should be right now to become wiser and make the right choices. You are OK the way you are. But I am presenting another piece of the path you are following, perhaps a little bit further on. You are walking it alone. While you are here you have friends and family. Enjoy them. But the inner journey is solitary.

We are each one of us stepping up the evolutionary ladder into the unknown. We don't know our futures. We don't know where we are heading. We don't know what we don't know so we take steps blindly and only learn the why of it later. We are risk-takers. Or we should be. If you're sitting at home afraid to take the step you are being nudged to take, then you are missing out on your own empowerment. Your choice can be just as empowering to say "no" as well as "yes". The choice is in the firmness of the decision. It doesn't matter at all, what the subject matter is, whether to do "this" or to do "that". It is in taking responsibility for making a choice. That is the empowerment lesson. Life's evolutionary journey is a journey in unfolding the greater self. We stand  alone on this. Our partners really don't have much to do with our decisions. We are on our own. This is the inner work we are here to do. We are here to evolve ourselves to higher planes of SELF awareness. Self as an immortal god-being. Because we have all this love and awareness available to be more fulfilled. We just need to the tools to know how to access more happiness, abundance, love and creativity.

It has been the study of Tantra that brings more insight. The common understanding is that Tantra is about two people learning how to make love better, but it is actually about one person alone and the journey of the soul in joining with its maker. Tantra is full of parables, allegories and coded names, words and places. For example, the lingam (penis) is called "thunderbolt" among other interesting words. And the yoni (vagina) is referred to as "palace" among other phrases. Each human being has both parts within them. A study of anatomy shows us that. The body is a changeable, temporary vehicle, like a car. After a few years, the car dies out, unless you take pristine care of it, and we go out and buy a new car, all shiny and properly functioning. But the old car can be maintained if there is knowledge in HOW to maintain it.

Tantra does not take us into spiritual realms and away from the material world, like other religions do. It brings us into fulfillment in the matter world. The teachings were laid down thousands of years ago but preserved in hiding until the masses were ready to hear it.  The path of all other religions are aimed away from the physical world, while Tantra fills our lives full of delight and lusty, erotic love and creative thinking. Alert and alive and you can renew your body so it feels younger again.

The intention of this blog is about sex. Know who you are having sex with. When you have sex with someone you don't really want to have sex with, understand that in withdrawal it puts you into a weaker position which makes the other person stronger. If they get their way with you, they create an attachment to you. A cord. In thinking "it's just sex and nothing more", your ignorance makes you weak. You become available to them for sexual love which is a very powerful psychological tool we call "vampirism". It is a psychic sucking of vital force from another person. Many women are coerced into having sex with a man when she doesn't want it. Also I guess it's true that there are men who are coerced into having sex with someone when he doesn't want it.

But know that love changes the game. Become aware of love. If you look for love in an encounter, even a temporary encounter, as in a swinging encounter, if you slow it down and allow for love to enter you, you will change the game. The ratio of vitality changes. If the other person doesn't have all the control, if you take back some of the control, the formula changes. Bringing love into a sexual encounter changes the game. It is not "falling in love" as so many people think of love. It is simply being loving, kind, considerate, slow and real and authentic and caring and talking and connecting - and allowing a harmony to develop before getting sexual.
That changes the game. It gives a person equal power over the one who is trying to take charge and pushing the matter faster than the other wants it to be. Slow it down.

Everyone has the capacity to suck on your vital force and draw you into an attachment. But the larger love - the Love with a capital L - will prevent that kind of attachment from happening. You become the larger Lover. You take control over the lesser situation. If you take the time to create that loving feeling within yourself, that's all it takes. If you can do that, you do not need to ask the other person to find love in them. The chances are they would not know how to do that. You don't even have to talk or use the L word.  Just slow down and bring forth tenderness and eye gazing. If you take the time to create love in yourself, to respect yourself and to center yourself by imagining love surrounding you and within you so you can actually FEEL love softly enfolding you, the other person will feel it too. Your encounter will be very different. 

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3/30/16 -  Much has been taking place in David's and my working together in the field of what we now call Tantric Massage. It is actually much more than what people generally refer to asTantra. David and I have been breaking through ceilings and falling through openings in the ground, finding new depth and new heights, actually weaving new heights and depths together and understanding them. Enlarging our picture. While this sounds all vague and mysterious, we record them in emails to each other.

David and I correspond every day. Sometimes a private conversation conveys more than a carefully prepared article intended for publication.  With this in mind, I want to share what David wrote to me this morning. It is only one example of an ongoing exchange. We are healers and I want to share this as way of explanation of what we do. I know the Tantric Massage offering is mysterious and nobody really knows what it is about. We didn't either when we began. But we have been finding out. We have been exploring. We found that it takes two people to talk something to the surface and discuss it. And we do that. But it occurred to me yesterday that the third person on the table forms a completion. A trinity. That person completes the equation. There is something magical in three people coming together for a common purpose.  It begins with two people sound boarding. And if those two people flourish, then it leads to the next step. An idea is born and begins to take shape. After nine months, David wrote to me this morning in answer to something I wrote to him, which was in answer to something he wrote to me, etc.

"The dream. As I said, I dozed off in the chair, waiting for my next client. I saw a woman, on the table, being worked on by both of us. She was naked, but her physicality, her body was sort of transparent. I could see through her flesh and see her chakras, see her webs. You are right, there is a simply immense, very fine tracing net of love. Emanating from the chakras, but spreading everywhere. Reaching every single cell. I could see filaments, micro filaments reaching every single cell. But, actually, there was something else too. There is a column extending up the spine, which is MUCH bigger, much wider. But there are absolutely zillions of connections from this column that connect in all sorts of ways with the web. Everything is so fine that the connections can't really be discerned, there are too many and they are miniscule. But they are everywhere. There is more too. Both the column and the intricate web were dimmed. The web much more so than the column. The reason they are dimmed is because they are sheathed. I think, I'm not sure, that the sheath is the same for both column and web, but the reason that column appears less dimmed is that the light of the column is stronger, brighter. That plus it is bigger. The sheaths are dark. And they encase fully.

Now, here comes the really blissfully exciting part.

"As we were working on her, I could see the effect on these sheaths. The web and the column was sort of flickering as if the sheaths were being slowly erased. But, as the orgasms happened, it was like seeing a huge flash of light instantly traveling throughout the web and column. They briefly glowed so brightly that the sheath was over powered and the light shone through. And as the orgasms built, the flash of light was stronger and stronger. Brighter and brighter. And each time, the sheaths became more and more insubstantial. Allowing more light to shine and more easily flow. The light is, of course, Love. Love overpowering the dark. As the dream ended, the woman began to Ascend. And as she did, the column just lit up like a searchlight. Utterly flooding EVERYTHING. Literally, nothing could withstand the brightness. All shadows dispelled and reduced to nothingness. Utterly and entirely overpowered by Love. Love. Love. Love." (End of quote)

In summary of the above, I'd like to interject something we discovered. The orgasms David speaks of are mini-releases which begin to occur without touching the genitals. As she is bathed in unconditional love -- and we are open channels to unconditional love -- without any demands put upon her, no expectations, no "working" the genitals, clitoris or yoni, just a nice slow, gentle, whole body massage, her whole body relaxes and lets go of the stress that has built up over years. The love is within her. She is love. Everyone is built out of love. Love is the glue that holds physicality together. Without it we wouldn't exist. There is a structure of love built inside her. Tantra teaches this, but it is subtle. It often goes unnoticed. But this structure of love is covered by a dark substance from years of stress and trauma. As her body relaxes under our gentle massage, so does the dark sheaths surrounding the light body. Love and Light are synonymous. The love is automatically released. It is experienced as a release. It is a mini-orgasm. And more releases are felt as more stress buildup dissolves and more love is released. This occurs while we are simply lovingly massaging her.  

For everyone reading this, I would like to add a summary. David and I had similar dreams when we first met. That is what brought us together. A dreamer who dreams alone, as I did alone and he did alone, with no one to share it with who listens and responds in kind, loses the dream. Chalk it up to hopeless. It will never happen. Here is the advice I would give to everyone. Develop a new kind of relationship in addition to your home relationship. I encourage you to partner with someone who will listen to you and to whom you will listen in return, with whom you can share your dreams and subsequent insights that will develop from the two of you working together. Built on it, and do not make it personal.

Anyone who is compatible with you mentally is a good beginning partner. Whether it lasts or not, is not important. Every journey begins with a single step. This is not a personal relationship, but one with a higher-vision. You do not have to break up your marriage or your relationship. If it is a relationship based on a dream of the heart and not a personal/sexual one, it will add to you. And it will add to your home relationship.

Currently we live in a 3D matrix of personalities overlayed with other personalities. It is confusing because it is personal, sexual and ownership-based. A 5D relationship is a transcendental relationship, not based on ownership, where you meet on a regular basis to soundboard and build concepts based on a higher dream. A heart-based dream.  5D relationships are built on an upward spiral of encouragement, appreciation, cooperation and support. There is room for disagreements, but they are not arguments. They become the nexus for the next talk. To bring the two perspectives together. This is the concept of building harmony and a better product or service in the end. What happens in most relationships is, two people fall into a sexual/personal relationship, and suddenly they are creating problems and becoming confused, rather than spiraling upward to higher and ever higher understanding.
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3/23/16 - Today we have posted a change in the Tantric Massage page on this website. There has been a lot of discussion between my partner and me about our four-handed approach to massage. A bog-down kept popping up due to the fact that Tantric Massage for women requires a certain approach which is different from how we would approach a man. We had to work through this. We both feel more sensitivity for feminine needs than for masculine needs. We are both aware of the accumulated ancestral abuse of women by men over the centuries, and which today continues to manifest in people on both sides of the fence. My intuitive sense that a loving approach is the answer to healing abuse in all its latent forms, led David to contact me. He feels the same way. He has an unlimited reservoir of Love flowing through him with a capital L. He has a hidden underground spring that feeds him continually with an ongoing flow.

As we interacted over the last nine months, we have been led closer and closer towards Tantra. Tantra is a spiritual science that reveals how spiritual fire flows through the physical. It is based on knowledge that we don't have yet in our western world. At least not openly in the main stream.  After discussing this from many angles and having a few clients along the way, David and I have learned some amazing things. The physical body is capable of touching the divine and sacred while rooting deeply into the earth and being earthy.  We knew these things before because we each had experiences with the kundalini, but we didn't know that Tantra contained this knowledge in such a precise science. 

Yesterday during our session together we talked and talked and finally came to a conclusion. We have decided - and it's a done deal - to offer Tantric Massage exclusively to women and not to men. We are removing men from the equation.

This may sound unfair to men and we do not mean to be. But we have now zeroed in on the basic problem that exists for women - and men by reflection - everywhere. Male appetites are distracting. They pull us down to the physical side with their sexual and logical needs.  Women's needs are of a higher caliber and are more inclusive of the whole body, not just a small part of the body. Their need for love has been left sorely unfulfilled and their need for love so ridiculed and denied that it has been a centuries-long downward spiral for the large population of girls and women. Many end badly.  Frigidity is a common complaint of husbands while the wife's request for "more love please" is left unheard or ignored.

With total respect for men, I know it is not their fault because they do not understand this feminine need. That is why David and I are going to focus on women only. The healing begins with women. Tantric Massage is a technique ideally suited to us. It presents a method that is based on balancing the energies of the body. We can use that. We can take a good hold of that and, between us, we can saturate the woman with BOTH male and female love, and nurture and nourish the body so it can feel its own worth again. And access its own power and be happy again and feel fulfilled.  And while men may not understand what the devil I'm talking about, and he may resent the implications terribly, later when he calms down a bit and contemplates what is being said here, he will receive the benefit of it on a deep and long-lasting level.  He too will become empowered into his own happiness and fulfillment as a reflection of his wife or girlfriend. Women hold the key to the transformation of the world because of their ability to love which has been lost, but soon will be found again.

While the science of Tantra provides a perfect balance between male and female forces within and also in the external world outside, the male force has been the stronger of the two for a long, long time. And it seems to be getting even more powerful. In this climate, women are having a difficult time manifesting their feminine power, which is gentle, supportive and nourishing. Their voices are not heard in the storm. It seems hopeless from the vantage point of the world as it exists today. Tantra provides an amazing source of information, if one undertakes it as a serious study as opposed to the ambiguous acceptance that it provides better sex.  

We will be writing more about this as we go along. David is preparing a blog right now to post on David's Blog. David and I each see through different eyes, so he will have a different feel and express a different persona  through his writings than I do. But we have joined forces in this project and are of one mind. We want to assist the women in finding and trusting her female qualities. Her qualities are not the same as his qualities. It is not competitive but complementary to men, if men will take a step back and recognize that. It is not a fist raised in defiance. It is a woman manifesting as a lovely goddess which has been denied expression for many lifetimes. A goddess is not a fairy tale character, she is love fulfilled, intelligent and personified.

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3/15/16 - Since this is my own personal blog with nobody to oversee or censor me (smile) I want to share my own personal experiences with Tantra. Since David and I have been giving loving touch to clients and friends, we have unknowingly opened the door to a more profound and a much older wisdom than we realized. We have recently posted on this site that we are offering Tantric Massages, the two of us together, because we are heading in this direction. This does not make us masters of Tantra. Not by a long shot. We are applying what we are learning and feeling and validating for ourselves, and to each other, and to those we have sessions with. We are becoming immersed in this very balanced way of living.

Tantra is not about other people. It is about the Self. It is about our own body. The more one applies the knowledge gained from this ancient source, consciously, the more one understands him or herself. It does require applying it. It is not just head learning. Head learning stays in the head. Ancient wisdom is head and heart learning. It is learning about the body and the lines of force and currents of fire that weave through the body, either energizing us or depleting us. Or making us crazy.

The energies of the body require balancing and clearing. Intuition is a vague guiding light leading us in the right direction, but we need to move that energy down into the body through some means. And that means, according to Tantra teachings, is conscious breathing. Not unconscious breathing, which is automatic and mindless, but CONSCIOUS breathing. This is done through taking time out, as in meditation, to focus on a certain breathing technique. All learning remains a head trip until it is activated in the body itself. Moving it down is what is meant by "going into the heart". Or "be heart-centered." No changes are made until the energy is MOVED. Moving energy is what Tantra does.

We have no idea how vast and powerful the energy in our body is. It is not mystical. It is only mystical when it stays in the intellect. What we call the ivory tower of the skull.  Mystical is something we lack physical validation for. We don't yet understand it. Mystical comes from the word "mysterious". Mysterious is not understanding. My personal experience with Tantra has been nothing short of amazing.

As I was saying yesterday, the first building block of Tantra is conscious breath.  Conscious breathing means taking time out to focus on your breathing and direct it with thought. After being reminded that the masculine energy follows the right nostril pathway, yesterday I began periodically doing right nostril breathing. Sometimes I did only 10 right-nostril breaths, sometimes 20, sometimes 30, and I did 50 right-nostril breaths the night before. I closed the left nostril with my thumb and breathed for 30 times through my right. This morning I am so balanced that I woke up at 6 and sprang out of bed. I am stunned! This has not happened for 20 or 30 years.  I am always lethargic and slow to get going in the morning. It takes me hours.

I am a senior citizen and like all senior citizens I've been experiencing a slowing down. When I was younger I was a late night person, going to bed  after midnight, maybe 1 or 2 am or even later. but now I am going to bed earlier and still getting up slower and later. Aches and pains have sent me to various body work treatments, and different supplements (no medicines though). And I continue practicing various esoteric techniques which help a lot, but they are of a higher nature. I continued to slow down.

As David and I have been evolving techniques that are close to being Tantric, I decided to look directly into Tantra. I returned to some books on my shelf. I opened them. I re-learned something that I already knew but it didn't "click" long enough for me to practice it. I have more books on my shelf than I know what to do with but they are there to serve me when I am ready.

The light began to dawn. I began to realize that I am operating on too much feminine energy. I am overloaded with nurturing, loving, giving energy. This is only one side of a whole energy field. I have been supportive of other people to a fault. I had a total breakdown early in life because I gave away all my power away and nearly died. It was my tendency to give without replenishing. I didn't know. Well, actually, over the years I learned about the masculine and feminine energies and how they needed to be balanced, but it was knowledge in my head. In my ivory tower. I hadn't applied it. I didn't moved the energy down into my body through exercise and practice and discipline. So it remained ethereal.

So now I began realizing that maybe - just maybe - I needed to vitalize my masculine energy. Tantra's first building block is breath work.  So I started two days ago doing conscious right-nostril breathing periodically throughout the day. I noticed a certain "pick-me-up" almost immediately. In fact, I was running around being active and engaged before I recognized what was happening to me. This morning is amazing to me. During sleep last night I learned something. I woke up awash with this information so that I jumped up and come downstairs to write about it before I forget.

We come from a super-intelligent, super-loving place, a place we call Home, where everyone is in harmony with everyone else and yet we are still individually learning and growing. The learning never stops, even in heaven. It is a beautiful place. But when we are born here on the Earth, we are born into a duality environment. It is not harmonious at all, unless we have a loving home and loving parents. In this world there is right and wrong, up and down, in and out, good and bad and evil, and we have to make decisions all the time. It is thus so in order to learn by trial and error the best way to produce the best results. If we do it wrong, we suffer. If we do it right, we are pleased. It all comes down to learning balance. The old advice, There is a time for action and a time for rest, a time for war and a time for peace. This reflects the cycles of balance. One balances out the other.

Little babies enter the world as beautiful little angels, perfect, sweet and innocent. They fairly glow with perfection. But then they begin to grow up in a world of duality. They are forced to make decisions and sometimes they are wrong decisions due to an in-born tendency which they cultivated in their last few lifetimes. When we arrive here in a perfect little body, the tendencies we cultivated from previous lives begin to manifest. Little signs here and there. Little prodigies show great skills in music, art, dance, sports. It all comes from previous lifetimes. It didn't just appear by magic.

We are what we were. What we have done in the past. Maybe we had lifetimes of aggressiveness and were warriors. Overly masculine. Maybe we were weak and submissive for many lifetimes, overly feminine. And we continue to travel that road in this life, which carries on and on and on, as it did for me until I was depleted at the age of 30. I had to make a change then to save myself, and have been on the personal growth path ever since.

So we come forth with tendencies that we think, "That's who I am. I'll never change." But we can change. Tantra is not the only school for change. Certainly not. But it happens to be a great school for change. Because we need some instruction or we continue to follow along the same path, unconsciously, without doing something about it and relying on the old saying, "I am who I am!" 

I cultivated feminine side of me all my life. I tended to be nurturing, loving and supportive of everyone. I was "nice" to everyone. I would never think of saying something mean to someone, even if I thought it, but I seldom thought it. I was undoubtedly waaaaayyyy out of balance on the feminine side.

When David entered into my life and I decided I did not want to have a sexual relationship with him, and he supported me and continued to be my friend, I began changing. I began exerting my assertiveness. My masculine side. Sexual relationships are where we get all confused over who we are, because we can't help but take on the motives, intentions and tendencies of our lovers and life partners. We become like them and we forget who WE are. "I am what I am!"  Or am I?

Tantra teaches how to be selective in the choice of sexual partners. It teaches this through, first, breath work, and then more. I have learned firsthand and right away that right nostril breathing has shifted me.  Tantric practitioners will guide you in how to breathe when they work with you. It brings a rhythm to your body and integrates your light body with your physical body, or in other words mind, body and feelings become more whole and connected so you can feel feelings again. Feeling feelings is empowering. Actually, it is HEALING the feelings by doing breath work. Then you are in a nice loving balanced place to choose a life mate or a sexual partner to enjoy all those good feelings.

 In Tantra they say that keeping your energies balanced keeps you youthful. I was growing old following my "old" way of being nurturing, supportive, loving, giving. Sometimes I would feel so depleted I would say to myself, "I wish I could have a break from life."  Or "I wish this life would be over."  But it doesn't work that way. We are supposed to learn how to maintain our energies. Our bodies need maintaining just like a machine does.

We can grow so out of balance and so weird in our thinking or depleted or mean or angry that we simply run away from everything and start over somewhere else. But our tendencies will go with us. We can't change the world around us but we CAN change! We can change the way we feel through conscious breathing, whether right nostril to gain more assertiveness and to fire up the get-up-and-go feeling, or left nostril breathing to cool, slow down, calm, be at peace.  Periodically during the day, take time to close one nostril and breathe 20 or 30 times through the other.

Conscious breathing is the first building block in Tantra.
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3/14/16 - Tantra teaches conscious circulation of energy. In the western way of engaging in sex where one of us performs on the other, and then the other reciprocates (hopefully), we often find ourselves doing what we do without consciously thinking about it. It becomes automatic. We become robotized. Machines.

To enhance lovemaking to a higher level, we must become conscious of what we are doing, and further, we must learn how to circulate the energies of bliss, rapture and love, with our minds. In the Tantric tradition, without circulating these wonderful life-giving energies, we do not receive the benefits for which our bodies were built. We are designed to experience rapture. Then, what are we waiting for? We are waiting for some instruction.

For these teachings we must go to the oldest civilization on the planet - the Chinese. The ancient oriental medical science sees and teaches the harmonious circulation of life energies through the human body. It is considered essential to health, which includes lovemaking. Our western-trained medical doctors and health practitioners are not trained in this ancient and advanced science. We cannot blame them for what they do not know, but we can begin to help ourselves.

The Chinese sees beyond the physical to the invisible fire that flows through pathways that criss-cross the body to reach the furthest extremities. These pathways are as thin as a spiders web. They weave round and round and intersect one another, like a spiders web. In fact, that was probably why they called this system "web" or "webbing" in their own language of the time. In Sanskrit, the word web is called "tantra".

The Chinese learned from their forefathers long ago that there are major vitality centers in the human body, from which the life force radiates out in all directions, weaving back and forth and connecting to all the other centers, like rivers of living water feeding the ports of call - the muscles, organs, tissues - with rejuvenating, refreshing, living life.

As written in "Sexual Secrets" by Nik Douglas and Penny Slinger, a very valuable book in my library, "When the life-force becomes stagnated or blocked, disease occurs. It is the natural flow of energy that rejuvenates and renews  both body and mind. We all experience energy 'lows' in our day-to-day lives and know that when we feel vital and 'energized' we can accomplish almost anything. Indeed, it is the maintenance of vital energy that is the determining factor between youth and age. Energy should be circulated throughout the body so that no part of it is starved of vitality."

How does one circulate vitality through the body? Through conscious thought and movement. Tai Chi is a natural dance-like movement that is now being taught as a science, but it was originally spontaneous. I can tell you a little bit about it and how to do it. Conscious thought can also be applied through massage to someone else. A lover perchance? Lovers can circulate and revitalize energy for each other and with each other, simultaneously, once they learn how. David and I are using this natural flow that is present in the body when we do our Tantric Healing sessions. We are learning. We are not masters, but the best teacher is the student who is studying, learning and applying the art being studied. That is us. We each have memories of doing Tantra in other lives.

One of the first building blocks in learning Tantra, if not the first, is conscious breathing. There are a lot of books on breathing, but taking time out to actually do conscious breathing is how you can move energy in your own body right now, today, this moment. It is simple. Too simple for most people to bother with. You can practice conscious breathing alone by yourself at home, and we can give you some basic techniques to practice, or you can practice it with your lover. Lovers can circulate vitality while consciously breathing in sync and thus prepare each other for lovemaking. But so often we are married to an opposite partner who is not interested in the same things we are. If you want to pursue the beautiful art and science of Tantra, you must find a way to do it without upsetting your relationship. You can't force it on someone who is not ready for it. But this is a paradigm changer, and you yourself can achieve amazing results if you FOCUS!

Nik Douglas and Penny Slinger who co-authored the book, "Sexual Secrets" added the phrase "The Alchemy of Ecstasy" to the title. They were westerners exploring Eastern mysticism. They translated what they learned and practiced into laymen's language for us. You can find this book on Amazon. I highly recommend it. But I should warn you - I've had it for 30 years and have never read it from cover to cover. It is too deep. Too much too soon. Not ready. But it is a book to pick up once in a while and look at the pictures. They are amazing. Each time you open to a page, any page, you will be inspired with the freshness and the wholesome and divine goodness that inner circulation of spiritual fire will do for you, your life and your lovemaking.

Let's go back to the first building block of Tantra - conscious breathing. When you close your left nostril with your thumb or forefinger, and breathe 10, 20, 30 times through your right nostril, inhaling and exhaling without changing nostrils, you are firing up your masculine vitality and pumping it through your body. Your masculine energy is your firey, get-up-and-go energy. It will quicken you and you will discover that, if you've been sluggish, it will help you to get up and move around without effort. It could happen without even realizing you are moving fluidly and lightly, whereas before you were feeling aches and pains. Try it.

If you are predominantly male anyway, always busy and energized to the point of being too busy and too active all the time and unable to stop, then your masculine energy has taken you over and running out of control. To balance your energies, according to the Tantric tradition, you would block off your RIGHT nostril and breathe 10, 20, 30 times through your left side. The left nostril activates and clears out the pathways for the feminine energies, gentle, calming and soft energy which is also in you but normally subdued (clogged). The Chinese say we should maintain a balance in our energy flows, yin and yang. Just remember today as you move around in your daily life - left nostril breathes out coolness, the right nostril breathes out hot.  Left cool; right hot.

Tantra can be studied and practiced alone by yourself for better health, harmony and bliss. It is the natural way, studied by our forefathers.  But, again. What makes it so attractive to us in America is that it can be used to enhance our sexuality. And indeed it can. But it requires study and conscious awareness. It's not a pill like Viagra or Cialis. It is possible for a man to experience natural erections, regardless of age, by practicing daily these exercises. Of course, it depends on how blocked and clogged and lazy a man is. A body has to be de-bugged or de-clogged. However you want to say it. And it does require self-discipline and practice. But the simple breathing-together exercises will certainly prove in small ways how effective this method is, if both partners are agreeable to practicing together.

America was founded on sexual repression, and we have been enjoying a sexual revolution over the past 50, 60, 70 years. Tantra comes along as a wonderful tool to learn the finer aspects of ecstasy, love and bliss that our bodies are capable of attaining. Simply by opening and unclogging the pathways that have caused so much stress and distress, pain and chronic disease. There is much we can learn from Chinese elders.
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3/11/16 - Today David and I provided a Tantric Massage to a lady. We will not tell you about it because it is private. The reason for mentioning it is simply to let my readers know we are still on course. There has been so much happening to us, each of us individually, and together as a team. We have been traveling through layers of energies, dense energies that have been holding us back. One level and then a plateau, then another level and then a plateau, and then another level, and so on. It seems to be an ongoing journey, which is kind of crazy and unique since we are not a couple. We are collaborators brought together by a common love - massage.

What has been happening for us and to us validates a long-standing belief, which I have wanted to post here for those couples who are strictly monogamous who do not want to break up their marriages and yet they are feeling stifled. At least one of them is feeling stifled. Perhaps both are and they do not know what to do about it. They do not want swinging, they do not want to cheat, they do not know what to do or how to go about doing it. There are couples who, in their exploring open relationships or polyamory or swinging, have found someone who was exciting and they decided to break up their marriage to move in with their new lover.

What I have discovered is a a higher form of polyamory that does not require a breakup of marriage. It is simply having a meeting once a week and keeping it above the infatuation level. The infatuation level is what people call "falling in love". You do not have to fall in love. What you have to do is open your higher chakras which are more spiritual. You still have your lower chakras open too, where you can have sexual experiences, but when you have your higher chakras open and allow intelligence, discernment, divine love to be active in your personal relationships, you do not become "hooked", as in emotional involvement. What we call ownership or infatuation or falling in love which destroys marriages. 

Opening the higher chakras is what Tantric Massage aims to accomplish. It may not always succeed, because it depends on the person receiving, if they are able to receive the healing love we are offering. That is what David and I have evolved to - assisting others in the opening of the higher chakras.

Everyone has their own package of history they lug around with them everywhere they go. There is a saying that if you think you are getting away from a problem by leaving your current situation, you are probably taking the problem with you. Problems are in-born. You make them yourself through trial and error. We all do. We solve those problems by airing them. It is no different than shaking out the rug to get rid of the dust.  We all have problems that are deeply embedded, like dust in a carpet, which we don't know is there. We can only get rid of the dust by shaking it up and airing it out with someone you trust. A good friend of the same gender or perhaps a lover.

This good friend or lover is often found outside of the home. We encourage people to have trusted friends or lovers outside of the home which they meet with often. It is important to share information that you would not share with your spouse or live-in. Your live-in relationship works because you found ways to accommodate each other so each of you is comfortable with the arrangement. But this type of arrangement more often than not turns into a rut because of old belief patterns. Monogamy, for example. You are supposed to remain faithful and loyal to this one person for life, under the old laws of the land. It's not healthy. To get out of a rut you need some outside traction in the form of feedback, loving support and confidence that your feelings count. You don't have to keep them buried forever, which causes suffocation and stagnation and eventually an early death because there is no way out. It requires a change in belief systems. Beliefs are not forever. You don't have to separate or divorce your long-time relationship to have wonderful friends and lovers to help you gain liberation and beautiful, exciting, benefits on all four levels.

When you open your higher chakras you rise above the human chakras where emotional attachments happen for lack of fresh air flowing through you. There are four human chakras - the root chakra, the sacral or sex chakra, the naval chakra and the solar plexus chakra. These are bog-down areas. The three higher chakras above that are divine. Open the heart, throat and third eye and you start to feel liberated. The flow is coming up from the root chakra, reaching for the crown and the sky beyond. The science of Tantra delves into these things for anyone who is ready to receive this flow of instruction which comes from a hands-on experience.

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3/4/16 - David has posted his own blog today. Check it out in the menu above. There is a dimension beyond the human level that is far and above anything we know as human love for one another. It is rarely available, simply because there have been no role models to lead us, no teachers to guide, no instructors to explain. The ancient Divine Tantra schools gave this millennia ago but the explanations have not been available until recently. Now that Tantra teachings are entering into the mainstream of Western culture, David comes along to speak of this - and hold - this resonance.

The human emotional/sexual relationship tends to come with complexities, such as possessiveness, compromises which bog people down and limit their actions, causing silent blame to build up in the mind, creating arguments that lead to negative outcomes. And then the soft and tender needs of the divine go further underground, remain unfulfilled. And of course guilt starts to pop up, then jealousies if we should stray over the line, and words spoken in anger, which lead to either closing down and shutting up, or lashing out and causing violence.

That's the human side of us. But we spiritual beings. In fact, we are MORE spiritual than we realize. There is a noble, elegant, virtuous and liberated consciousness within us that is very real, very precise, very accurate, very much present and wanting to express in human activities. It is there all the time but human beliefs get in the way. "I believe this."  "I don't believe that." "I am afraid. I don't trust myself."  False beliefs that we are small, insignificant, powerless to change, and we are stubborn in those beliefs. We absolutely refuse to think highly of ourselves and put ourselves down constantly. Or cover it over with a big ego.

The mind is not in harmony with feelings. Feelings are not in harmony with the way we physically live our lives. The subconscious contains past life irregularities that remain unresolved. Soul stuff. So the human body carries around with it a lot of limitations. If we were not limiting ourselves, divinity would flow freely and smoothly through everything in our lives, family, friends, work, recreation, lifting and lightening the load and everything we touch.

The fifth dimension is not "out there" somewhere beyond the sky. It is right here inside the body. All we have to do to get there is link up our spiritual nature - the ideal and beautiful nature -  to our sexual nature - the low and limited. Both are right here inside the bodies we wear. The sexual vibration is a wrong term. It is not sex that we are striving for, but a vibration of perfection that has been lowered down into the physical body to anchor the spirit into this realm of matter and solidarity. Spirit needs an anchor to be able to reside here in this dense environment of matter, and it's a part of our own high consciousness that has been sent downward into matter. It's US that we have to link up to. The kundalini is a piece of the great light (US)  that was sent before us to prepare a body here in the physical plane so we could inhabit it. It is anchored by necessity into the Mother Earth light to hold it here. This is done by sheer magnetism. Gravity. Our kundalini is "married" to the Earth. That is why it is called a female force. These are Tantric teachings.

It is this singular vibration that we call "sex" but which is really a vibration from our spiritual self that we keep struggling to find and connect to. There are many obstacles in the way. We just have to work through them. The teachings are coming. They are here. They are all around us in the atmosphere. We don't need to have a sexual "act" with someone in order to complete this connection or to make this link. It is a precise linking up. Picture a negative live wire and a positive live wire that is slowly coming together to start the car battery. Kaboom!  It's done then.

Having a sexual act before this is done, is unwise. It's OK, sex is OK, sex is fun, sex is wonderful, and we all do it. So it is certainly part of our human nature and it does help us to become more balanced. But it's just not the perfect way. There is a divine plan for humanity. When we wait until after our yin and yang (female and male) energies are in sync, then when we pluck that delicious fruit the heavens open. This is what David is referring to when he speaks of Making Love with a capital M and a capital L.
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3/1/16 - Today David and I have posted our new Tantric Massage offering on the Tantric Massage page here. We are planning to accept couples and women at first, because we want more feminine energy and we want the women to become empowered by their own sexuality. The dynamics may change in the future, as we are all evolving and growing and changing. Click on the Tantric Massage page and find out more about it!

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2/24/16 -  Many changes and shifts in direction have been taking place. My partner David and I have been exploring all of them. We seem to be moving inexorably toward Tantra. I have not wanted to label what I do as Tantra because I know that real Tantra, the original Tantra from the ancient past, is not sexual but involves cosmic love and cosmic connection with everything in the natural and apparently solid world. To call Tantra "sexual" is demeaning and limiting. But (I am emitting a big, long, accepting sigh) it seems to be what people want. And so I guess, since I know the infinite and intimate depth of the Tantric oneness process, I have told David that I would agree to label what we are doing "Tantra". Today I have added "Tantra" to the menu above, but we are still working out the format. Check back later.
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2/4/16  I have just now happened upon an article that I think is so good that I am posting it here in my blog for readers of Anakosha. This article is from Mary Magdalene through Mercedes Mirkel, permission is granted if it is shown in full which, of course, I am doing. It is wonderful advice. Absolutely wonderful. This is what I have been experiencing through the support of my partner, David. How the masculine can support the feminine.

                    Mary Magdalene: How the Masculine can Support the Feminine
                                                            Received through Mercedes Mirkel
                                                                       January 16, 2016

Question: How might the Masculine assist and support the Feminine?

Mary Magdalene: Thank you so much for this question.

There is much that the Masculine can do to assist the Feminine, and there is much that the Feminine can do to assist the Masculine. Both are greatly needed.

In answer to your question on what the Masculine can do, it begins with understanding the necessity, value, and importance of the Feminine. This is a healing process in your world because the Feminine has been greatly devalued. For this healing to occur, your world must come out of the place where so much has been confined to the mind, which is the Masculine. For some of you, this is easier. For some of you, this is harder. But most of you have received tremendous training and enculturation to live in and from your mind.

It is not that the mind is bad. Your minds are amazing. Your minds are so valuable. It is just that you are out of balance and need to come into balance with the Feminine. The Feminine is your feeling nature. The Feminine is your connection to your body, energy, sexuality, intuition, and love.

So the first step is to begin to value these aspects of the Feminine and to stop the insistence that only the mind is valuable. Not every individual is necessarily doing this, but in general, your culture does this and has trained you to do so.

For many this work will begin with loving the Feminine within yourself. It will begin with loving your own body and treating your body as a temple. It will begin with healing shame that you carry relative to your own body, which is a plague in your modern world. So many carry so much shame relative to their body.

Valuing the Feminine will happen through falling in love with your energy and your sexuality. It will happen through healing your relationship to any part of yourself that says your energy or sexuality is sinful, evil, dirty, or shameful in any way. You will get to know your energy and your sexuality, and become strong in that. That strength is needed for your spiritual development.

The healing of the Feminine will happen through coming to know your emotions and allowing your emotions. Specifically, you will allow your emotions to do the work they were meant to do of connecting you to God through the Feminine pathway. This, more than anything else, is the process that most are ignorant of today, and it is so needed. Most have instead learned that emotions are to be avoided. Many have learned that being spiritual means not having negative emotions, only to be happy all the time. This is unfortunate, for your emotions are as valuable to you as your mind and as necessary.

So the process for many will be to start to open to emotions and to learn this process, this pathway, of letting your emotions take you to God. Let your emotions do the work that is so needed and which they were meant to do.

All these ways will very likely be the beginning of opening up to the Feminine within yourself and loving this Feminine part of yourself. When that happens, you will be well prepared and in a natural orientation to honor and value the Feminine outside yourself, in all its forms. This will include honoring, championing, and protecting the Earth. It will include honoring and valuing the Feminine in others, in women or in whatever form the Feminine comes.

The Masculine, especially in its higher form, can support the Feminine through being present and offering presence to the Feminine. Often the tendency of the Masculine is to want to help the Feminine by solving problems. But this is not the highest form. It can be valuable, if that is requested, but it is not the highest form. The highest form is to offer your presence and holding, which is a kind of protection at the energetic level. The Masculine creates the container that the Feminine can open within. This is an energetic process.

So this is one of the ways that the Masculine can be a tremendous support for the Feminine. When you learn to do this you will see that it is a great joy. And you will receive the blessings and gifts of the Feminine.

Has this been helpful to you?

Questioner: Yes. Thank you very much for that profoundly simple, yet profoundly significant, answer.

Mary Magdalene: Your future before you is a tremendous uniting of the Masculine and Feminine. It is what I have always had with Yeshua. It is one of the greatest gifts to know this and to live in this. It is unmistakable. As you grow into it and come to know it, it will be your great joy to support one another in this. It is the most natural thing in the world, like the connection between the sun and the earth. You will naturally be drawn to this.

You can support this process of uniting by clearing the blocks you may have developed in relationship to this. That will set the stage for your opening to and receiving this tremendous gift and blessing.

©2016 Mercedes Kirkel, http://www.mercedeskirkel.com, All Rights Reserved. Permission is given to share this message as long as the message is posted in its entirety, nothing has been changed or altered in any way, and the post includes 1) the title, 2) “Received by Mercedes Kirkel” beneath the title and above the body of the post, 3) this copyright notice (full paragraph), and 4) Mercedes Kirkel’s website (http://www.mercedeskirkel.com).

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1/28/16 - We are inspired! This week David and I gave a loving touch massage to a wonderful, attractive, attentive and receptive couple who live here in the Naples area. If you have been following this blog, you know that it is our main mission in life to cultivate loving couples for massage-plus parties. The plus will come later, though, because our first massage session/meeting is an interview to learn more about the couple. David and I are completely selfless. We are very, very loving people and our goal is to find other loving, selfless people. We are looking for a certain attitude which is selfless, loving, giving, able to receive, open-hearted and uplifting. This describes a good many people, but unfortunately there are a many other people who do not fit that description. Who are either pushy and demanding, or defensive and turned off to any touching whatsoever. That is why we are interviewing couples for this wonderful new journey we are dreaming into view. Eventually, when we have found enough individuals who fit this criteria, we will have a massage party where massage is the main goal, but with an expanded social time added on for free spontaneous intermingling afterwards.

The couple we met this week were loving, warm and accepting and we were so pleased to make their acquaintance and get to know them. We are, as I said, quite enthusiastic looking forward, David and I. We do see a door opening here into more freedom and love. Love and freedom go hand in hand. There is so much more behind the door, waiting for humanity to enter. Both of us are visionaries and we see into the future.

This is just a short post to let my followers know that we have now seeded the dream in real time. A love club composed of Naples area couples and/or singles is on the way. Single women would be wonderful additions to this group, since it is feminine energy at work here and we want MORE feminine energy than male energy. But once there are single women, then we can invite single men in ratio to the women.

This is not a swing club. It is a love club. The entry requirement is not sex but an open heart. David and I look forward to meeting more open-hearted couples for a massage session. It is free. No cost. When we have interviewed enough couples that we can have at least five couples for a massage party, then we will have one.  Go to the Massage page above and contact me, Diana, if you are interested. Fill out the privacy agreement. This is for privacy reasons. Tell a little about yourselves and send it to me.  I'll get back to you.
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1/11/16 - Greetings from the quiet of our home on this, the 11th day into the NEW YEAR 2016. A very Happy New Year to you!  Well, I promised someone I would write in the blog today but I am starting out without a thought in mind.  Let's see. What I can tell you? Oh, yes. I know. My husband and I hosted our last party on New Years Eve. We made a decision just ten minutes after our last guests departed New Years morning.  The decision was a natural one but came upon us quite suddenly, like a bolt from out of the blue. No discussion. We both agreed at the same time. It was rather uncanny after hosting parties for 22 years. Actually for me it has been 35 years. The Florida Silver Foxes website, which is what we called our private parties for senior couples, has been taken down.

There is an old saying that when you outgrow your outfit and can no longer fit inside your boundaries, your reality is expanding. The lifestyle at one time was freedom from boundaries in the '70s and '80s and we had a lot of fun exploring in that arena for a lot of years, always with couples, expanding all the while and meeting lots and lots of people. But now it seems those boundaries are too tight. There are rules, after all, to swinging. And a code of etiquette that everyone must learn and adopt, in order to fit properly inside the accepted limits. But those lines are material focused. Focused on the physical only, without paying much attention to deeper emotional feelings and spiritual insights and fifth dimensional love which is timeless and endless. And new friends found outside the swinging circle who don't fit lifestyle rules have to be excluded. So the rules of swinging have become rather restricted, as our reality is expanding, and each of us is also expanding. There is always a higher truth beyond this one, and we grow into it at each our own pace. I had actually grown ahead of my husband years ago, but I stayed with it for him. Now he has expanded beyond it too, catching up with me.

On a subjective level, it feels like I am expanding far, far out. I was already feeling this during the last year or two at parties. Now I see that it is a feeling of releasing and letting go. You may feel this yourself in some area of your life where something doesn't hold your interest any more and you find yourself daydreaming beyond the current situation. You are not sure what you are looking for, only that your interest is declining. What do you do when that happens? It is an inner mystery - one of the heart - that holds you and draws you to something for a while, maybe a long time, and then suddenly it releases you and you feel boredom creeping in, perhaps it takes the form of feeling tired or old or some form of disease or depression. Whatever you want to call it, your higher self is giving you messages. Look inside and listen.

I knew I was tired of hosting parties and of the limitations of swinging, but I continued because it was my job. My mission. My contract. Now that it is over, I look back and see that it served me well, and now there is a harvesting going on. A gleaning of all that was good, the fruit of the labor and the play, of the times we've had in this unusual arena that is so unconventional to society, and there is a letting go of all that is not good. I am a richer person for swinging and having played and shared intimately with so many people and on all levels. I am being lifted up, like in a balloon. Expanding and lightening. Sort of like an air bubble once trapped at the bottom of a pond feels free to rise and rejoin the air.

It is not a negative but a powerful positive. I just don't know what to do with this website. Should I take it down? Should I leave it up? Should I continue blogging my innermost journey? Should I change the motto underneath the picture which defines it? Should I take "sex" out or leave it in? Maybe I can start to write some fun stories from my swinging days. Looking back down the trail from the top of the mountain, I see lots of scenes unfold before my eyes. Funny ones, serious ones, moving ones, sad ones, insightful ones, all very human experiences that anyone could have had. Maybe I will finally be able to write some of those stories. I couldn't before because I was too close to the ground and too involved. Too busy with the process.

The mechanics of sex continues to be a major problem for the whole human race.  It's global. The mechanics conflict with love and the emotions, which is the bridge to the spiritual side of us. That which is more real and more diverse. The mechanics are concrete. The mechanics mesmerize us and draw our attention to the physical act - the only common thing we can share. Because the mental, emotional and spiritual part of us is too different. We don't like to deal with that in other people. "Just the sex, ma'am. That's all we want."

But there is an inner and outer approach to love, sex and intimacy. The fine line divides inner from outer lies in the one person alone, who is feeling it. Each person is walking through their own discovery process, their own discernment process, all the while following an ideal, a light, a perfection. We seek the other half of ourself. Therein lies the truth. It is within. Not out there some place or in some person. It is good to have someone to discuss deeper thoughts with. Or to NOT talk about deeper thoughts because they cause arguments. Maybe it's better to accept that it's not time yet. And wait for the right time.

It is funny how timing works. After making the decision to step out of swinging in June - meaning stop engaging in sex with the others, not to quite the parties but to personally withdraw from sex, not love but sex - it was only one month later that I was contacted by a man who has turned out to be a soul mate. Not a sexual partner but a spiritual mate. He has provided me with the necessary reflections that I have been missing. For the last six months I have been interacting on a whole new level and have been feeling wonderfully complete. Fulfilled, you might say. I continued along with my husband to host swing parties, but I told everyone including my husband that I did not want to have sex with anyone other than him any more. and I continued hosting parties, giving hugs and warm acceptance to everyone. I told everyone that I loved the feeling of cuddling up against warm human bodies naked if they could handle that with me without pressing for more. Many men were accepting of that, revealing that they too wanted more.

It has been six months and I find my perspective changing. My whole outlook on life has been liberated from the caverns of swinging. I have learned that my view of the world was colored by swinging. It was held locked into a sexual place - a "do" or "don't" place.  And because of that I projected my view out on everyone. I thought it was pressure on me from the outside that kept me prisoner inside these walls, but I am finding that it was my own projections. The lenses through which I looked out at the world that colored it to my way of thinking.  And it was me who changed that. No body else did. I took charge and said, "I don't want to do this any more" and stopped following what I THOUGHT was everyone else's pressure.

I didn't have to stop hosting the parties. I love the liberated connection with free-thinkers. It goes deeper than "vanilla" people. Now that I have removed myself from bed hopping, I have time to enjoy the expansion process that is available when people from common backgrounds get together. I found that I could be myself right there inside the four walls of swinging and be free. This was an amazing discovery: that I had the power to change right there inside the prison of my own making. It wasn't the other people that created the prison. It was me. I just didn't understand. I had projected it onto other people. I couldn't see my way clear. When I stopped having sex with the many others in the swinging scene, I began to see. Really see. And understand.

The reason I am blogging this is to let it go. I am fortunate to have a website into which I can pour my ideas and feelings and not be persecuted. Sharing secret and private information is the privilege of a liberated society - one that is not available to many people across the globe, either due to tradition or to enforceable laws that result in death. Being able to talk about your heart-felt knowings is how we expand ourselves. Sex has always been a secret subject and still is. But once you start talking about it, about the feelings you have as a result of sex, and the insights and perceptions that start coming, there is an immediate sense of freedom. It is a heady feeling. Exciting feeling. The cloaking device that covers us and dims us down, dumbs us down, is the confusion of untruths and coverups. The quickest way to make changes in your life is to tell the truth. At least start out telling what you THINK is your truth. It may change once you're said it out loud, but that's only the beginning of the flow from your own inner self. Keep going. Keep telling the truth as you know it and see how quickly your world and your reality changes.

The liberation device is telling all. If it's difficult to break away from a life that is boring and frustrating, try telling the truth. I'm here to tell you, it works. Your own truth. Not someone else's truth. Only your own feelings. Be careful here not to blame someone else. First, before doing anything outwardly that affects other people,  make an inner decision quietly with yourself. Soundboard with yourself and see if it's time. You don't have to tell anyone else about it. We have all lived under a set of denials and untruths. It's part of the world we live in. So practice telling yourself your own truth. Quietly. Within yourself. Just you, yourself and your heart. Your heart knows what is truth and what is not. When you find something that lifts your mood, your spirit, you know your heart approves. Excitement is a sure sign that your heart wants it. That's how you begin. Re-create your world. You don't have to run away from what you have already built. That would create further adversity.  Change from within. From within your own heart and within your own four walls. You can do it right here at home. Practice saying the truth to yourself.  "I am thus and such and I want this and this and this."

After my decision - and one month of proving time - I now have a world view. A new sense of freedom. The heavens have been opening and raining down all sorts of insights. Clouds are moving out of the way. The sun is shining. My mind is free. I see things that are mind-boggling. I say, "Oh my God!" several times a week and slap my forehead at some new realization. I feel like someone has installed new software into me and it's downloading clear, more efficient programs that are click-clicking into place. Does this make sense?

So I don't know what I will do with this website from now on. I will feel my way day by day and keep you posted. Stepping back from having sex with the many others has cleared my head and put me back in touch with my real self. I totally support the swinging lifestyle. It is good. It is a very powerful path of discovery.  However. swinging is a couples sport and it takes a man and a woman to join a club, unless you are one of the lucky ones who can find a couple to sponsor you and come in as a threesome. To the many men whose wives are not interested, and to the few women whose men are not interested I recommend taking some time to go alone and listen to your heart, not your mind which is so full of fantasies as a result of internet temptations. Follow your heart - your own personal truth - and see where it leads. You might be surprised at the sense of freedom you will feel from within yourself.

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12/28/15 - On Christmas Day I joined a healing meditation for Mother Earth which inspired me deeply. I would like to share it with you.  Earth energy, that which comes from the ground up through your feet, is actually bliss energy. Whenever you feel Earth energy pulsing through your body you feel it as blissfully sensual. Or perhaps it is better phrased “sensually blissful“ because you do feel it as a physical sensation.That‘s because Earth energy is feminine, and feminine energy is sensual. Male energy is not sensual. There is a difference. Earth energy is very different from masculine energy. Masculine energy is electric and comes down from the sun. It brings with it visions, ideas, concepts so pure and so large that they have to be transduced, or stepped down. Father energy or masculine energy is quite different from feminine energy or mother energy.

Earth energy is Mother energy. It comes up from below our feet. It is the feminine soul of Mother Earth and it is bliss energy. We have not been taught this information. It is very late in coming to the forefront of our awareness. This education is overdue. Mother Earth is a living soul and she is feminine. She is motherly. She is bigger than all of us and she provides for us in every way. We - our bodies but not our souls - are built from her minerals, atoms and molecules so that we could enter into them at birth and grow and learn and walk around on the ground here, and talk to each other in human languages.

When Earth energy floods through us - I mean floods us like a tsunami - we go into the daydream state, or we trance out, like we do after having an orgasm, for that is Earth energy flooding us during orgasm. When we are transported into the bliss state we lose all thought and ability to form thought. We drift in the arms of the goddess energy. Shakespeare called it the arms of Morpheus. It is mother love. Feminine love. Goddess love. It is a pure state, uncontaminated by vulgar human thought and feeling. It is a resting state between human and divine. It brings profound inner peace. It feels sensual because it is the half-way state of being out of body, but we are not out of body, we are drifitng. It is hauntingly familiar and enticing to be in this state. It brings memories of - what? Where? Hard to identify but it is safe. We are home here. It is love.

There is no thought in this state of consciousness. It is a resting place, and there is only love, grace, beauty and peace here. Qualities that have no borders or rules or walls or boundries. There is only an awareness of peace and being where you belong. Earth energy comes from Mother Earth‘s heart and soul. Not just the soil and minerals, but her living heart and soul. You were adopted by her when you entered your body. You became a living part of her body. She is a conscious feminine being who has a heart of gold, meaning she is selfless. She gives and gives and gives. She radiates this love every day and night. Even when human beings ravish her and rape her by cutting down her trees, soiling her waters with trash and poison, she continues to grow food becaues it is her feminine nature to give and give and give, without thought of self and without fighting back. That is what feminine energy does.

There was a world meditation yesterday for the healing of Mother Earth, which I took part in;. I was alone out in the pasture, and I felt this energy in the most profound way ever. It was the first time I experienced the earth energy. With all that mankind has done to the planet, Mother Earth continues to radiate a most beautiful energy. I saw it as pure radiant gold and it was loving. It brought a lump to my throat and tears to my eyes. It is too much to bear in the typical hard body of humanity.

But Mother Earth is weakening her ability to hold onto humanity‘s smallness. She is expanding out beyond. She herself is going into trance, into the daydream state, and it is lifting her upward beyond her desire to keep “working” and keep on holding on and holding back. That is why we are also experiencing going into trance more often, going into the daydream state more often, and the wanting to make love more often. It is more natural and normal for us to do that. We are expanding, along with Mother Earth. Our souls are drifting upward to a more pure state of love. It is evolution working within us.

The purpose of the Mother Earth meditation is to stop and listen and breathe quietly, focusing on peace, serenity, and just being. Be still and listen to the breezes, the trees, the grass, the birds, the clouds, the waters under the earth and upon the earth. Just be still and listen. That is tuning into the feminine energy within ourselves. Then we are giving back to the Mother some feminine yin energy which she is hungry for because she gets so much male “busy” energy. Contaminated human energy, not pure, not refined, not elevated, not peaceful. She keeps giving pure, refined, loving, elevated and peaceful energies but she does not get it back. She is losing. She is losing strength. She is losing the will to keep going. That is why she is daydreaming and rising higher up and going back to spirit.