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5/29/21 - The inner life has been keeping me quite active lately. The websites I used to check all the time and was so excited about, don't hold interest for me any more. There is a change taking place in my consciouosness. I'm re-reading the instructions and advice that spirit channeled through me over the past 45 years since kundalini awakened and changed my life. I've been busy taking the easy way out. Yes, there is an easy way out of the connundrum and confusions of this world. This morning before making love with my hubby I saw it again, as a spiritual vision, what the easy way is. The easy way is the feminine way. It is goddess technology, feminine methodology. I understood better what it means to "take the easy way out" out, as in follow your heart. The "easiest way out" as it was explained to me, is not to avoid something you don't want to do. It is not to avoid
​ work or a task or a challenge that is facing you. No. You don't hate it. You allow it to blossom into a full-blown experience. You invite it. This is the easy way through life. It is the goddess way. The goddess way is the feminine way at its best and finest. Men have feminine energy too, a full 50%, so men can take this way out of situations too.

I’ll give an example that I know only too well. Let’s say you don’t want to get up and out of bed because it’s too painful and your back aches and you’re so comfortable here in bed. Of course you know you have to get up but you don’t want to. The thought of the aches and pains is - ugh. You’re in resistance mode. So OK. Do something to make yourself feel good. Stop resisting. Relax. Relax totally. Let go. Surrender. Stop thinking about getting up. Take the easy way out. Now, speaking to your body, doesn’t that feel much better? Yes, it does, but you feel a pressure and a need to get up. So first relax and slip back into relaxation. It’s a feeling of nothing matters. Surrender to this comfortable feeling of lying in bed relaxing. Enjoy it to the fullest. It is sensual and comforting. Allow that feeling to take you over. Surrender to it. Give up. Wave the white flag of surrender. That means stop all thoughts of having to get up. Your thoughts are an imposition. They are hurting you, bothering you, causing you discomfort so stop thinking those thoughts. Truly give up. And if you are successful at giving up and surrendering your painful thoughts of having to get up, you will be surprised to find yourself suddenly hopping out of bed eager to start yaur day. Wow! What just happened?

Well, the answer is, you got your ego out of the way. You slipped down underneath your controlling ego which is a tyrant which tries to control everything you do, so you have to trick it. I've been experimenting with this. It really works. There is a powerful power behind the ego but the ego is in control and keeps a lid on it. The ego  is composed of automatic habits built from the past years. The ego never changes. If anything, it gets more controlling over time. It has always done it this way and so it rants and raves and insists on doing things its own way. It has always done it this way. It is the only way it knows. So the "easy way" is to agree with it. The body follows the ego's habits. So step down, go low, give up, surrender, wave the white flag, but all the while secretly know and trust the power that exists behind the ego. You are tricking the ego so it stops fighting you.

The ego is merely a mechanical program that you yourself put in place. You began copying certain habits by watching your parents early in life. You obeyed their instructions to wash your hands, brush your teeth, keep your elbows off the table. Slowly your body learned the robotized program of functioning in the world. But it's just a program. Now that computers are here to stay, we can understand what a program is. It is the software of the body but there is a master intelligence behind it who created the program and that is you. YOU are the intelligence behind the machine of the body. YOU are the lord of the mansion. You are the genius who lives here. You understand what a controlled program looks like, so trick the automation program by surrendering. This lowers its guard and opens the door. You enter into the interior of the program and your HIGHER power is activated. It isn'you the smaller personality that is the power, but the universal power behind the body.

I think this is very difficult for most people to understand - that there is a universal power behind us. The way to access this powerful universal power is to give up, surrender, stop all thought, stop all resistance, stop all movement. Relax and you're in. The first sensation is one of peace and comfort. Find the peace and comfort. The program that is robotized and that controls your habitual body responses is gone, letting the real power take over. Your higher self is the real power that is the fuel for the body. It is the genius behind the personality that is you. Once you understand how it works, you can get inside the program and access the universal power which is the immortal you that never dies. Fall back into bed and your body is so thankful that it relaxes and suddenly, the universal intelligence takes over. The ego falls silent and you're bounding out of bed with energy to spare. 

I've done this a number of times. Not every time, I'm still working on it, but it is a wonderful trick to learn. The ego a very simple artificial creation. Think of computer apps and programs that are created to do specific select functions. They are not very big. The body is created to do small select functions that are fundamental to living in the culture with others. But YOU are the genius that lives the life and enjoys the adventure. YOU are the one for whom the body was built in the first place. Your body was created for you and was programmed to serve you, but it must be updated from time to time. You need to teach it new tricks.

The real intelligence that is YOU can outsmart the ego every time if you become aware of this fact. It is a fact of life. The process is one of surrendering trust in the body and relying on the power that is behind the body. Stop thinking the body is everything. It's just a tool and the ego is in charge of the fundamentals of life. This that I am talking about is an advanced trick. It's sneaky. Make believe you are going back to bed and the tyrant believes you and backs off. Then the REAL power can charge ahead, because the real power is the soul and it has a mission to accomplish by getting out of bed. It's only the body that is holding you back. The real you is the power behind the body and ego. You are so much more powerful and intelligent than any mechanized program. You are not the ego. You are the immortal intelligence called the soul who is residing in the body. You are the lord and owner of the mansion. You run the whole show. Your body runs on a divine spec. There is a divine blueprint. You don't even have to think about digesting food or breathing or eliminating or walking. The power from which you spring does all the work. Trust it. When you surrender control to the inner power, it is the ego that is surrendering. The small controlling part of your nature. Surrender control to your task master, the ego. If you fight with it, it hardens its heart and kicks back, making life more difficult. Don't fight. Give in. It is the skill of the martial arts. It is the way of the goddess who steps back effortlessly into her stillness.  

The masters teach that it is in the stillness that power resides. Power runs thebody, emotions and thought from a still point in the center. The ego is just a tool. Your body was programmed to do certain things automatically and you, unknowingly, went along with the program. You learned how to function in your body. You grew up trusting that your body was everything. It helped you to get along with everyone else. It is called the ego. The body relies on habits to feel comfortable, but it is possible to change old habits and make new, more exciting habits. For that, the mechanical program must be tricked. Surrender to what the body wants but have an intention to install a new one. The body runs on old programs. It runs on habit which does not require intelligence. To change the non-thinking habit, access the power of genius within. Learn this trick and see if it doesn't work in other situations, like tension-filled arguments. See if you can trick the ego into backing down. Surrender into the martial arts central stillness and perhaps the angry confrontation will fizzle out. Let the underlying power of stillness kick in. See if you aren't suddenly surprised at what happens next without you're even thinking or planning. Let the overlighting power of the body take charge. It is your  higher self, who is in charge. It is always in charge. If you let your petty and personal pride (ego) dissolve, it will come forward.

The higher self WANTS to be here. It wants to be part of the action of the world. It wants to enjoy being here. It behooves us to stop resisting and to learn  how to access the stillness within -  the easy way to a fuller, more abundant and richer life. That's the goddess way. But don't be fooled into thinking it's for women only.  That is the old school verbiage. It's actually for all humans. Men are half feminine, half masculine just as women are half masculine, half feminine. We all have both active natures and stillness natures. Our masculine nature is our active, assertive, productive tendencies. But we have a feminine nature equally powerful. In fact, it is MORE powerful than the active nature. It is the stillness that is the universal all-knowing and all-powerful creator within us. It is in every moment and in every action of every body. One just has to become still to access it. It is there for men to use on a cyclical basis, alternating between action and the stillness of their own cosmic nature. 
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5/8/21 - I am “seeing”. Seeing is having a bleed-through of clear awareness. I am seeing the “history” in people, their sublimated memories. Akashic? I noticed it at an event recently. In the following days I became more aware of this in people. There is history there packed into people, literally PACKED in, crunched down, stuffed in, held frozen and locked up inside the skin. The body is nothing more than a belief (and a wrong one!) that the body is solid flesh and blood. The memories I am seeing is not flesh and blood, it’s not physical, it’s the soul’s memories, the person’s memories, adventures, lessons learnt, experiences gained over the journey. Many lives, many excitements, much knowledge. Knowledge that is awesome, that this soul has gathered over its many travels. Knowledge that goes out beyond the earth to the stars and beyond. This is all being held inside the skin. The body is like a chest of treasured memories, unopened, still closed up in the closet. We have adapted to keeping it closed and stuffed down inside us because that’s the way of the world. But the truth is, we are not physical. The spiritual path or enlightened path is the awakening to these memories stuffed and locked inside us, inside the chest of treasures. This is not an allegory. Inside the human chest is a human heart, and inside the human heart there are treasures. When we open the memories in the heart, we begin to know and understand energy fields. We remember things. This is the reason why I have always wanted to do massage. Only with women for now, to train the women so they can break out of their skin and enlarge themselves to reconnect with their memories, push back the envelope they’ve been locked into, and allow their feelings to surge forth and be felt. Too much focus has been on the exterior of the skin. It keeps the feelings closed off and unacknowledged. Stuffed down inside. Massage by strangers brings new fresh energy to them. Their energies spring to life when a stranger touches them. Instincts come alive. The women’s bodies have an inner connection to this knowledge, so they are the first to deal with. The male bodies have the outer role to play. The male needs the female to complete him as the female needs the male to complete her, but not in the way you think. There is more to this story. Massage by women for women will bring forth astounding results in inner knowings coming to the surface. The plan is that women will then awaken their men spontaneously. The memories and knowledge locked up inside the male bodies have created the locked-in human condition. Open the chest and release the wisdom and knowledge and it will spread phenomenally out into the world and change the world.

I see the soul as an interlacing of golden meridians that are woven in tiny little conduits, like a vast webbing of light throughout the entire body. It back-lights the stuff that has been frozen and locked in place, not moving. The meridians have been shut down in most people. Some are open but many are so totally disconnected due to the heavily packed frozen memories, that they are stagnant and not moving. Move the stuff around!  Let the soul be free! It yearns to be free. The frozen energy is not wrong, it should not be judged as wrong. It is just not moving. The soul can’t reconnect itself to its outer self. When I massage someone I feel to try to connect with the soul in the body in order to awaken it, enliven it and activate it so it moves out to the surface to become a part of living and breathing world. 

A plane of existence is merely a state of conditioning. There are seven planes of conditioning for a physical human being to experience. These have been defined as dimensions. Chakras are openings to those dimensions. There is 1D, 2D, 3D, 4D, 5D, 6D and 7D. The first condition is mineral, the second condition is plant, third animal, fourth human (technically human but humans have been held back to third, there’s a problem here). The fifth dimension is unity consciousness, sixth dimension is God consciousness, seventh dimension is becoming an individualized God I Am consciousness, which is known as ascension. Humans today are struggling to disentangle from the dark’s hold on us. We’ve been interfered with by dark intelligences known as alien forces or artificial intelligences. It has taken over the earth and trying to make humans artificial. i.e., the Borg. It has been holding humanity back from reaching the next dimension which is the fifth. The key is love. We have been held back from expressing love. We are struggling to free our emotions and feelings which will allow us to experience love. Fluidity and freedom of expressing ourselves on all levels is the key. We must flow our emotions and our feelings freely. Did I mention freely? It is important to get that. Once we are freely expressing our feelings, then our feelings will move us. Once they are again flowing fluidly through us and we are not holding them back and stuffing them down any more, then we will be back on course in the evolutionary scheme and preparing for the fifth dimension of unity. We are designed to explore all seven dimensions. All seven conditionings as physical humans living in solid bodies on planet Earth. Ascension is not escaping but fulfilling the seven states of conditionings while in physicality. Then there will be heaven on Earth and we will experience all of the gifts that we know in our hearts is possible. 
   


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5/4/21 - This morning I woke up with ideas for structuring the long-awaited massage exchange network I’ve been wishing for. My own personal desires have been removed and I have activated my masculine side. I can now focus better on organizing it without having to worry about my own needs. I understand now why men compartmentalize. They need to focus on getting a job done. Compartmentalizing is a trait I never had before. I seem to be moving past the disempowered feminine stage of constantly wishing for more love, and I'm now braiding (a good term someone used recently) - braiding my feminine and masculine traits together, side by side, equally. The masters teach exercises in raising the vitality forces up from the bottom of the spine through the etheric central column of the spine to the heart and head where it feeds the brain with intelligence. This is similar to the torus pattern of the earth. Energy flows up from earth and out the top of the head and back down around like a fountain into the earth again. It keeps the body vitalized. 

How do I dare mention the massage exchange network so openly here on my blog? After 30 years of holding it back and silently praying for it? I wonder if it is truly time. It must be for there is a daringness I didn't have before, a boldness, a sense of freedom to go ahead. Talk about it. See how it changes things. If there is any response. I follow the advice of the Ascended Masters and they want this. I have been afraid to bite the bullet. But there is a calling that won’t stop so it must be time. There is need to create a teaching about higher love, and what better way than through encouraging and supporting massage swaps - without sexual overtones. This is coming from the ascended masters.

There is room in our home for as many as 16 individuals at one event, or as small as 6 individuals. There are four massage tables. I have done the calculations. The commitment and determination is taking shape. It must be practical. There must be equal numbers of men and women because I don't want men not wanting to touch men, or women not wanting to touch women. 
 
On the philosophical side, there are guidelines need to be defined and distributed widely, which need to be understood and pre-agreed upon before accepting an invitation. Invitations have not been issued yet. The emphasis is on high quality love, spiritual love, through human touch, hands and body strokes. Touch that transmits warmth, respect, gentleness and caring. Soul nourishment stimulates the soul. It is love like the love from a loving mother or father. It is not sexual. Giving love and receiving love in such a high manner will bring up and clear away phobias, fears and sexual imbalance, which is a problem in our world, In this manner a person is able to experience sensations that are mostly kept suppressed. Once they are permitted to rise upward, they will lighten upward because of comforting love, then they can be felt and identified with. This is the connection needed to one's own higher self.

Though massage is the central purpose of meeting, there is also social mixing and discussion. It has taken many years for me to reach this point of actually telling the world about it. I used to try to do this from a more spiritual perspective but I failed. I just jumped dimensions, realizing that spiritual growth is not a goal for most individuals who may not know there is such a thing. For some yes, but most people are seeking comfort and safety. The pandemic's isolation has created a longing for human touch and connection. Perhaps this activation of a massage exchange network comes forth at the right time. After 30 years of wishing and thinking about it. It just wasn't time before. 
 
Cost will be no more than $20 per person. For all the years I've thought about it, I always wanted it to be free, but my masculine side is more realistic and practical. This is an up-close, person-to-person, face-to-face event, like a workshop. It's not digital. There will be discussions about the aura because when you are close enough to touch someone with your hands, you are already invading the other person's space. And their space is invading yours. It's time to know about the aura. It's time to respect it. The auric field has everything to do with how a person feels. It responds and reacts to everyone you touch. Without understanding the significance of the aura, one cannot set boundaries or sense invasion. People become emotionally or mentally entangled and drawn out of their own path where they are supposed to be. People are attracted to others more than arginally so, like excessivelly so, because of imbalances in the auric field. The chakras and meridians will balance, at least temporarily, under the ministration of warm, caring human touch.

Muddied and confused thoughts and feelings can be cleared in an hour by a higher-minded person giving the massage. This is training not like massage schools train, but like the masters train. They will be overlighting this endeavor. Deeply embedded emotions are triggered when loving strokes are applied to the body. The light in one person attracts the light in the other person. Past-life tendencies that have been long suppressed and buried, are stimulated by the loving touch. It stirs and moves old energies into action. They start to rise, attracted by this warm, nurturing, safe touch. Then you feel it. It's a sensation of love. It washes away the old dirty energy that was suffocating being buried for so long in the tissues. Warm human touch is an excellent therapy. This is an opportunity I'd like to give to people who understand the concept. I have long years of experience hosting intimate parties. Now I am hosting a loving massage exchange network. Howerver. this kind of touch must be learned before it can be practiced. Hence the purpose of writing about it. Perhaps in a year. Who knows?
 
A massage exchange network such as this has never been offered before. The purpose is to experience the higher self, which is an inner experience, not a sexual experience. This is ascension massage. If the emotions are raised up and spiritualized, then the body is raised up and spiritualized. Higher emotions thrill the body. They generate power and increase vitality. It is healthy and clean. One feels more at peace because the male-female energies come into alignment. It is a refining of the auric field. The purpose is to become more refined instead of turning it sexual. You can be sexual later. For the purpose of this work, it is important to RAISE the vitality not press it down. Identify with the higher self and the higher dimension. Absorb it, allow it, feel it and trust that it will bring you unimaginable rewards. Trust that your massage partner will not hit on you for sex - and that YOU will not hit on them for sex! For both of you will have learned the workshop protocol. 
 
Feel the feelings of being unconditionally stroked, soothed, massaged, regenerated, revitalized and re-stimulated. Instead of reaching out to the other person, reach IN to yourself. Stay focused on your own feelings. This may be difficult to do. The tendency of all of us is to reach for the nearest body to hug, hold and be close. Many people will read this far and say, "No sex? No way!" That is why I am spelling it out in no uncertain terms. Stay in your own lane, meaning your own central spinal column, the main trunk of your tree of life. The goal is to clear the central canal so the energies can flow upward. The goal is your heart first, and then your head. Be focused in your heart. The heart is where the human meets the divine. There is too much of the human in people and not enough of the divine. There is such a thing as a divine human who is balanced and can enjoy everything there is to enjoy in life without harming or controlling another person ever. The focus is on innocence. Cultivate the inner sense, the inner senses of the body. When this male-female imbalance is corrected there will be peace in the world - at least in your world - and you will live a long and happy life. 
 
One final note. It is important to recognize the role of sexuality. It is how human beings express their love. It has fallen down to the lowest common denominator over the thousands and thousands of years, through the dark ages and long before. Yet, with a higher understanding of the auric field and the central column of light, sex becomes the instrument of transformation from human to divine. It is a most essential part of the human being when it is freely given and freely received and there is a match through the inner sense. Innocence is the divine nature of human beings. We don't lose our human qualities and personalities but we gain a higher respect for ourselves and others. Sex should not be discarded, it should be raised up. It can be fulfilled with a little advance training. Kundalini is the force behind the orgasmic sensations. Keeping it down low and locked into the groin and not permitting it to rise up the central channel, mankind has been kept from advancing spiritually.

Don't throw the baby out with the bath water. There is time for passion and self indulgence that we all know so well, but it must not be harmful any longer. It must be cured of causing pressure and harm. Sex uses a compacting motion to push the vital energy down, way down in the sex organs, instead of allow that health-giving exuberence to rise upward through the levels to the heart where bliss is experienced. Continual pounding and stimulation down there is done to create pressure for the build up and subsequent release. There is nothing wrong with that as a technique but it harms people. This workshop is being offered as an ascension massage to raise the consciousness of human beings. If not interested, then perhaps you are not quite ready for this. Perhaps later. There is more to the story but first things first - establishing a massage exchange network. It is just beginning. Let's see who notices it!  Love, Diana

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4/26/21 - This morning I did some exercise and breathing. There were rays of sunlight in the abdomen. Yes, it is good. Good as long as you connect with the highest in you. The body needs to be spiritualized, irradiated with cosmic star dust. Open the higher portals, top of head, middle of head, throat, thymas, heart. Let cosmic radiation come down into the lower body. I had some unusual sensations, ending in some beautiful song in tongues. I am thinking I should create a new website and dissociate from Anakosha. A man visited who  contacted me about ascension massage. It's all about the power of touch. Don't lose the focus on the power of touch. It’s all about the power of touch. There are many paths to the goal, but all are motivated by the power of love. There are many paths, many religions, but all are motivated by the power of love. 
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4/19/21 - This is a brief update after my computer crash. Files that were at first thought lost, have been retrieved but I haven't figured out how to use them. Not being a natural technoid, I don't organize left brain data easily, which brings me to my main thrust. During this transition and adaption process, I find certain habits fading away. I'm not interested in working them the way I did before. The most important interest that looms up bright and powerful is the divine feminine movement, or simply the feminine movement. This is a heart calling. It is important not to leave the men behind when I focus on the feminine side, because men have a feminine side too.  Soft, tender and loving, men need help in breaking free from the prison of patriarchal control which has been in effect for eons, who knows how long this has been happening? The belief that men are the ones in charge by creating boundaries and limits so that freedoms are squashed, and wars have to be fought to preserve whatever is important to them, is eons old. Been around a long, long time, and women have been victimized.

This is now changing.  The feminine is on the rise and the masculine is being dismantled but this is happening in EVERYONE, not just men, not just women. It is a human evolution moving towards a more refined state of life and unity together as a whole people. In every human body there are feminine traits and  masculine traits but they have been out of balance, i.e., a predominance of one set of traits over the other. Left brain being analytical, practical and shutting down emotions, with the right brain being harmonious, cosmic and peaceful, and shutting down analytical and practical functioning. The re-alignment between left and right brain tendencies reflects in the study of the aura. There is a mathematical precision of balance between the emotions a person entertains and mental thoughts. 

The loving side of individuals, which is an emotion, is germinating in both genders, and the angry controlling side is being replaced - angry because of the soul's sense of loneliness and feeling unloved. Men are experiencing confusion and havoc as this happens, as if control is being taken away from them. But women too need help in breaking free from their own prison of anger and loneliness, for they too feel anger and justified in retaliation as the heart opens and power pours in from their masculine side. 

There are many good articles coming forth about how both men and women are being benefitted from this new feminine era. I have just posted a very interesting article on the Goddess page about bonobos and chimps and how bonobos evolved to become a feminine tribe and chimps evolved to become a patriarchy. The difference between the two tribes is easily recognized and reflected by our human society.

A notation on the top of the Anakosha Home will quickly show the dates of recently posted articles. Newsletters will continue to go out but right now I only have 30 or so people on the list who were in my phone contacts. If you want to receive newsletters from me, send a message via the contact page.  I will continue posting notes on Diana's Blog. 
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4/6/21 - My computer crashed on 3/30/21 and everything that is connected with hardware technology including phone and emails are in a state of flux. As the sole person working this website, I am in the middle of switching technologies, both external hardware and inner soul contracts. There may be some changes taking place in the final outcome. As everyone is aware who checks this site, there is a major transition and upgrade taking place everywhere around the globe. The old ways are dissolving and the new is taking its place. It is uncomfortable and difficult to live through the switch-over, but each person is responsible for making appropriate adjustments to align from a more heart-centered space and a more warm and caring attitude. Slow down and connect with this heart-felt moment. The heart is the new base line and foundation. What is happening is an elevation of consciousness, as in raising upward, skyward, to meet cosmic, universal standards. Thus the need to let go of former boundaries and bitchiness. Yes, bitchiness. As in complaining. Use love and light instead. This has been posted on my personal website also:  http://Galacticfederation-naplesfl.org. 
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3/18/21 - The pearl of great price is the jewel in the lotus. The flowering at the top of the head as the petals unfold, reveals the diamond-like essence traveling up the stem from way down deep below in the mud. The jewel is hidden in the mud (the groin) and must be raised up the spine (the stem) consciously by the individual through disciplined practices so that it can flow and open and activate the gates inbetween to reach the thousand petaled lotus at the crown of head, the brain cells. The power behind sex is the feminine energy. Feminine energy is all that is sweet. It is not competition but acceptance of other people’s skills, appreciating them and blessing them for the work done. Feminine energy yields control instead of competing for control when someone else demands it. The male tends to fight or resist authority, whereas women yield to authority. It is the skill of a Kung Fu practitioner who steps back and to the side when someone aggressively attacks. Feminine energy is wise and does this only in situations as a maneuver, not forever, such as a slave who yields to his overlord out of subservience. A man does not lose his masculinity when he practices this discipline but increases his personal vitality by embodying and expressing his softer side. 
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3/6/21 - Today I discovered a new official messenger for the Ascended Hierarchy of Light, who are my  guiding light and have been all my life. I'm on the inner track, not as an official channel but as a student. I listen, learn, meditate and follow their advice. This is not a religion. Ascension is an inner path of solitude and love, connecting with one's higher spiritual source through the heart. If you are interested in the Ascended Masters of Light, who also work in tandem with the Galactic Federation of Light, check HERE. Official voices for the Ascended Beings are extremely rare. The Masters are eager to connect with unascended beings but very few people have knowledge about them, which inhibits connection with them. I was surprised to discover this outlet for Them. I have posted a little background information and listed some youtube links of real live honest-to-God Ascended Masters speaking through a very clear, pure female voice. Bless you. They will be coming forward more and more. Their Presence can be felt as warm comforting love. I will try to find a good way to describe in concrete terms what an Ascended Master is and how one becomes one.

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2/28/21 - When you are confused, don't focus on the person or person's or the situation. Focus on the flow. Step back, unfix your eyes, go into daydream state and transcend. This has saved me often. Focus on the flow. When you are in the flow you are in the flow of love. It gives you a glow. You shine. You are wide. You see things you can't see otherwise. You are open to everything. This is the crucial part. You are not in love with any one person. You are in love with all things everywhere. You are not confining your love to one person or even two people or even three people or even a group, or a nation or a world. You are in love with the flow of life itself, which is love. You are bringing forth divine love so you become the glow and the flow personified. There is nothing that is not lovable because you are in love with all that is manifesting as all things great and small. This may seen like a fairy tale, but try it!
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2/27/21 - (An excerpt from a channeled message by Master Djwhal Khul on 5/6/14) "Wake up and become the master of your body. Unify your powerful spirit and vision with your animal body. Make the link and activate the powerful kundalini energy that is stored in the base of the spine in the extreme further end of the coccyx. While most people have not been trained in how to make this connection, it is a very easy thing to learn.  Place your attention into your physical heart. Then place your attention into your coccyx. Then make a light connection between the two. There are barriers in place. These barriers are what are called "chakras". Chakras need to be understood, activated and cleansed before they will open and allow the Earth's magnetic life force to rise up to join the love in your heart. It is called the mystical marriage in some cultures. But until the chakras open to allow this passage to take place, pressure builds up in the groin and it is felt as growing sexual energy.
 
"The human body was created to be a physical tool for spirit. The human animal was cultivated to be a host to spirit. You as a body were born into limits and as you nurture and expand the love and light in your heart, you are melting the barriers that prevent your highest ecstasy while on earth. As your chakras open and fill with love and light, understanding dawns. Moments of clarity take place. Otherworldly peace is felt at certain times. The more you choose the path of love and light, called the path of peace and non-violence, the more your spirit and your physical body join together in harmony, which opens the door to the higher dimensions and frequencies.
 
"Your spirit is a positive pole, electrical.  Your body is a negative pole, magnetic. The mistake made by many on the spiritual path is to forget the body and seek upward to spirit. Many try to escape their body and their physical world but fulfillment can only be found by CONNECTING with the body. The  body is a necessary part of the process. And only YOU can make this profound connection with your love and your acceptance of your situation. This profound connection has been referred to as the mystical marriage. One may seek spiritual enlightenment by returning to spirit and leaving the body behind to die, but to create a beautiful life on earth with abundance, love, peace, joy and much, much more, love must be applied through action, word and attitudinal behavior. Living in harmony with love and peaceful intentions expands who you are, what you were born with, and moves you past your former self and former boundaries and limits, closer to the ideal person you feel yourself to be.
 
When you as an individual live with another person and can do so without controlling them or abusing them or arguing with them, or in other words when you can overcome your selfish focus on yourself, when you can work out disagreements through negotiation peacefully, you have taken a big step toward becoming more of a master of your destiny.  This shows that you are living in love. Many people think that living in love means sexual affinity, but it is more than that. Living in love is living in peace and in harmony.
 
Then you may feel the impulse to reach out to others. Work with your partner in this new adventure as you expand your love even further than between the two of you. Expand it through listening, sharing ideas, negotiating and preparing the groundwork for intimate connection through love. You are here to learn how to live with respect, dignity and appreciation. Then you may enjoy the fruits of your labor for you will have grown quite close together, without resistance.
 
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2/22/21 - There are many threads coming through me the last few days. It is difficult to isolate just one of them. The challenge is to stay in the NOW moment and not swerve left or right, or up and down, but stay centered at all times and just watch to see where I am moved.

I am being guided every day to listen to Elena Danaan who is a very very loving and happy joyful soul, she spreads only light and love as she speaks in an Irish tongue, her channeled messages from Pleiadians, Sirians and other protector guides of ligt. She has been given an implant in her head which she talks about. She has some amazing  information to share from the off-worlders. Go to youtube and type in "Elena Danaan". There is a lot of disclosure information being reported of the DUMB clearings, the rescuing of children from underground tunnels by the Galactic Federation of Light.

Other thoughts are leading me to re-read old journals, and am finding amazing information, much of it is channeled so I'll copy from one year ago today (and two and three years ago): 

(Spirit channeled in 2002) - What can you do to best please Spirit? Remember us during the day. Remember Spirit and the connection is made. The Oneness is there, ready for use, ready for direction, ready with abundance, even as you brought forth $1800 today, so will you bring forth more - much, much more. Abundance is in the re-membering, the reconnection with Spirit, the joy of Spirit is watching you reach up and as you do it tingles down your arm to sizzle with happiness through your entire being. You are like the brilliant child in a classroom of dull other children. The teacher sees, the teacher knows, the teacher is ecstatic to realize how this student is standing forth ready, willing, able to face the unknown because he has the unknown waking in him, grasping upward, with open palms, light flooding, enfolding the world in a fist of great magnitude. Yes, my friend, you may ask your question and bring us down into more concrete form.

(me asking:) I want so much to heal - to put my hands upon people and share this consciousness, for lack of a better word, with others. Is this going to work out for me? Will I get my massage license? Pass the board exam? Be able to go out and touch people? Heal and soothe? What can you tell me about this component in my life?)

(Spirit:) Well, now, we are looking forward in time and see you growing strong and confident in your ability to heal. There has been a blockage in your emotional field (energies) from a time when your healing was looked upon as dangerous. You were stoned and thrown to the wolves to eat. A very traumatic life for you which ended on a sour note - an unfinished note. And so you are to break that block with the loving wish to resume healing. The love and desire to heal and serve the light is growing stronger by the day so that soon it will break the shell that you have built around yourself. Breaking out of the mold of decay and stagnation is your biggest task and the one that is the biggest challenge. Yes, ground yourself firmly into the Earth. Be at one with the people in all of your bodies, not just physical, but emotionally as well.  Meaning, let yourself be who you want to be. You have been poking little rays of your light here and there, casting your light erratically, seeking to find stability. A little beam here anchored. A little beam there anchored. A little beam tomorrow. You are changing the air about you. You are building a light body, bringing forth a LIGHT BODY! a body of enlightenment. And each step of light that you take, so must you take a step to anchor it. It is important to bring that light, that knowledge, that awareness and understanding down into density and clothe it with a strong base. Take one step at a time. Too many beams of light will destabilize you and you will lose your center. Take care, my friend, to walk the path - the avenue that has been prepared before you, for the edges of the path are your guidance. Stay within them and the way is a simple falling forward. No effort is required. Thank you for listening to me. I am here for you whenever you need my counsel. Take care, my friend, walk softly. Walk with tenderness and Spirit will walk with you. Keep your focus on the sun when you’re doing hands on healing. Your consciousness is your plug-in to channel the divine light. It’s like using the vibrator. You have to plug it in to get the electricity.

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2/17/21 - Love is a conundrum. Two people can fall in love but it cannot be captured for long because love cannot be imprisoned. The two people falling in love can hold it in their captivity for awhile but it does not last, at least not in that initial intensity of the coming together because love is the vastness of eternity. It is all that is. Love can’t be contained in a small enclosed area. It needs to flow. Love needs to be everywhere and connect with everything. The love that has been brought into the physical world by two people who fall into rapture together with each other, will burn itself out unless it is moved and expanded upon to include others, for that is the reason for its existence. If it does not move freely, naturally, spontaneously, the human who tries to hold it back by enclosing certain manmade laws around it, will suffer. He or she MUST let love flow freely or the vessel which tries to hold it stoppered like in a bottle, will wither and die. It must flow free.

Lovemaking, what we term when bodies come together physically, can be experienced in ways other than engaging the lower chakras and parts of the physical body. As we allow love to expand it rises further up to higher frequency levels and we find ourselves expressing that fluid aliveness and stimulation that is so natural between open-minded peoples and it brings us new food for thought, new experience, new adventures, advancement, collaboration, sensations not previously known. If we curtail expressions of aliveness moving in through the spontaneous flow in a more natural flow of goodness, we die the slow death to the physical for it is that non-physical river of life that  keeps the physical alive.

Today the culture is exploring non-monogamy in various forms. This is good, but it is still tied to the lower frequencies, to that which we call sexual expression, the lower chakras, as if we must. As if that is the law. There is an attempt to break free of this imprisoning law of “we must have sex” by many people, for the human race is embroiled and stuck at the first two or three chakras. We long to be free, we long to rise higher but we don’t understand it, or what it means or how to do it. The sex expression has become such an important element for human beings that it has overshadowed all the other elements of a higher nature, or courage, enlightened intelligence, love, reverence, purity, truth, peace, nobility and elegance of the soul. The disease and suffering, poverty and ignorance is caused by the stuckness of this river of life that hungers for higher ground. Going over the lower ground consistently, eternally, has caused wounds, scar tissue and callouses on the soul but we have learned to live with it. We have not tried to move to higher ground. Let this beautiful life move through! Move it! Let it go where it wants to go! Break with ancient tradition. Be free. Be spontaneous within the self, not to push it on anyone else. Do it for yourself. What do you have to lose except suffering, disease, ignorance, pain and death? What do you have to gain? New life, happiness, liberation, love without limits and freedom! Give freedom and you gain freedom. Release control over others and you gain self control. Expansion is a gift from one to another. Liberation is the result of letting go of control and expanding the river of higher spontaneous urges to flow outward freely into expression. It raises the hopes, and raises the dreams and raises the love and raises the community in which we live. Facilitate the flow with conscious assurance.


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2/15/21 - Last night someone said they didn’t like exercise because the body has only so much energy and exercise is a waste of energy. I went to sleep thinking about that. I woke up realizing that this is exactly what I’m exploring in the divine feminine - that the earth is a battery charger. We can be the live wire that connects the sun to the earth. The earth is a power source, just as the sun is. It is the feminine power source and our bodies are of the earth and vitalized by the earth. We can be recharged by the sun if it is connected to the earth. When a human being advances itself in understanding that ALL power comes from the Father Sun and Mother Earth, then that being becomes a “hollow reed”. Then a human being can be recharged on a daily basis and remain youthful with vitality flowing. No disease, long lived, enlightened, intelligent, creative, doing the work he was designed to do and able to pursue his calling. It is not ego but pure simple natural intelligence. This is what I am investigating and exploring in the search for the divine feminine. It is a search for feminine because, from my perspective, there’s too much artificial masculine on the planet and the divine feminine is required. Not artificial feminine, because artificial feminine is really masculine. It is forceful, opinionated, judgmental, harmful to others and destructive. But the DIVINE feminine is wholesome, innocent, available to all who need succor. A man can have a feminine soul living in a man’s body, but he too is artificial because that’s what our culture has become. We’ve lost the natural divine nature.
 
It is CONSCIOUSNESS that is the crucial component. Becoming conscious is how we return to natural and turn away from artificial. Just as an artificial intelligence such as a car requires an electrical connection or spark to make it work, so does the natural human need a spark to make him or her work, function, breathe, operate on the planet. The natural system is the sun and earth connection. That’s why a brilliant breakthrough thought, such as a eureka moment causes a rush of excitement. “I found it!” You get it! You understand! It is a rush of power. You puzzle over a problem for a long time and when suddenly it hits you like a bolt of lightening, that is the conscious connection. The live wire. The Eureka moment. You understand. You became a conduit in that moment where both Father Sun and Mother Earth rushed together to complete the connection. They made contact. The contact was made through you because YOU are Mother Earth, one of Mother Earth’s creatures. What happens at that moment? You as spirit consciousness from the Sun just made contact with your body consciousness made of earth. Mother Earth is the mother of all sentient life. Sentient life is evolving. She builds and supports sentient life forms. Your body is a growing species, a sentient life form, but it has YOU as a spirit consciousness living in it. You don’t know you are spirit living in an earth body. You are a magnificent spirit, a glorious, wondrous living spiritual consciousness living in a temporary sentient life form.
 
It is your body that is learning, not your spirit. You don’t know this yet because you have been covered over with a veil of forgetfulness. I am telling you truth now. It is your BODY that is the ignorant one, not you. You just have to remember by going off alone and listening to your innate wisdom. Cut off the distractions of the outer world. Your body and you need time alone. Your body needs to be clued in and updated. Then you and your body will have some remarkable discussions! Believe me. I’ve been doing this for years. Your body is what needs educating. Your body is the child that is learning how to be a grownup. Your body is the student in school room Earth, learning how to be a good and open conduit for Father God and Mother God to meet and connect within it.  Father Sun and Mother Earth. You are the directing force. You are the eternal mind that never dies that is operating in your body. The body dies and you go on living. When your body dies you go on to the next body or the next assignment. Who knows what that is? You are the intelligence of the body and you never die. You are the spirit that is bringing Father Sun down into your body and passes it through to Mother Earth. Ground yourself through your body.
 
This is what I have been chasing down to figure out. The connection is conscious awareness. The connection is between Sun and Earth. This is what keeps our bodies alive except that most humans don’t realize it. This is the vaster plan that is designed for the human being to find out for himself. It is called the divine plan. It is the conscious connection and it is done through alone time an hour a day. We have not lost the feminine understanding - we have not found it yet. It is the inward part of ourself. It is our mission to find it. Maybe we never had it before. Some people HAVE had it before. There are highly advanced people on the planet who have descended down from higher realms to become born here. They came to have an adventure here and bring their vast knowledge and wisdom with them. They have had it before but they were covered over from birth. While they have grown up here they lost it again. But there are others who are ascending from lower planes and they have never found it, ever. So this is new to those souls.
 
So it is my eureka moment to learn about the earth’s power, and that we need to tune into it as a body and as a brain. The feminine side of our connection is our body. The masculine side of our connection is our spirit. In between spirit and body is a growing awareness, a growing personality, a growing intelligence, an intelligence that is gaining wisdom through experience. The soul is not the spirit. Spirit is Father God. The soul is the child of Father God. Mother God is in the feminine counterpart of Father God. She gives birth to sentient life and anchors the evolving soul to the planet so the child soul can have experiences. Like a toddler learning to crawl, walk and  have relationships and learn about itself and test itself to see what it is capable of. It’s the body that needs to understand. If the body understands, then the soul understands because the soul is who inhabits the body. We think it’s all mental, but it’s not. The body has to understand. The feelings of the body are crucial. Critical. Connect with feelings of the body. If we don’t connect with the body, we die without fulfilling our mission. We go back to spirit realms and we don’t need to understand because we know everything when we’re in spirit.
 
In the body we don’t know everything. That’s the whole purpose of the physical body and the physical journey - to find our “live wire” connection between Sun and Earth. To do that we have to cut away the irrelevant stuff that creates a maze of distraction. We are here to find “my” way. I’ve got to do it “my” way the song says. It is OUR  way that we are supposed to discover, not other people’s ways. OUR way is unique. OUR way is our task and our mission. It is our calling. We were given a job to do and the job is to discover who “I AM!” We find that out through feelings. What feels good versus what feels wrong. Our path is the good path, the right path, the easy path. If it feels right it is easy. There is a lot of diversion in the world that disrupts our journey of seeking our own truth because we stop and listen to other people. But if we listen to our body’s feelings, we will know which is good for us and which is not. We have to feel our way through the body. The body is the feminine aspect of us, the feeling aspect, and it has been shut down and cut off. Our wisdom has been cut off. Our magnificence and our truth has been cut off.
 
We shut it down because masculine forces, which are mental forces, ruled the world. We don’t know HOW to feel. We haven’t had practice feeling with our body. What is an emotion? What is an instinct? Everyone is throwing their opinions out into the world and it creates confusion. It creates density. It creates a big thick coagulated soup of energy particles that don’t seem to fit together easily. Some fight and repel. Others have some affinity. That is our atmosphere. The feminine side of humanity – of both genders, men and women - would have harmonized our atmosphere long ago if it hadn’t been subverted and undermined by masculine superiority which it is becoming known is the evil force. The dark force has taken control and broadcast lies and untruths which has been distracting us and riling us to fight each other. When you have a Eureka moment, you have a rush of power and excitement that revitalizes the body and mind and causes great peace in the end, after the excitement dies down.
 
Accept the power of the Eureka moment. Recognize it as a sizzling contact between Father Sun and Mother Earth. You discovered the answer to a puzzle you’ve been struggling with. Take a moment to say “Thank you” and honor it. You made a live wire connection between Father Sun and Mother Earth. Your body is a conduit to Mother Earth. You made contact with Source. Your masculine side and your feminine side are one whole spirit, the holy spirit in religious language. It was cut off on purpose – to give you a world of duality and opposites and make you work at searching to discover the real truth. Together they are one whole spirit, sacred and divine, but while they are separate – and humanity has kept it separate – they are not connected. The sun is in the sky and the earth is the ground we walk on and they don‘t seem to be connected. When you are no longer in a body you are reconnected with spirit, with home, with your natural place in the universe. You leave behind the body and you remember who you are again.
 
Unless you achieve the state of an ascended master, you are not all the way back to oneness with God yet, but you are in a beautiful, comfortable summerland place where you are in bliss. You are in heaven with family and friends who you remember. You’re not confined to earth, which limited you in every which way. When you drop your body, you as a disembodied ascend upward out of the maze into higher heaven realms, and by affinity naturally go to where you are most comfortable. Which is how we should be doing it on earth while we’re in a body. We will eventually get to that place where we go to where we are most comfortable instead of being distracted and bogged down by fantasies and wishful thinking.
 
The bottom line: focus on the sun and earth as the male and female of your body. Source comes raying down upon you from the Sun through the crown of your head, and Source comes raying up to you from Mother Earth through your feet and legs. They meet and connect through the spine. Both sources are the same God source, 

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2/14/21 - (Channeled) This is not to take you away from what you call a normal life, but to give you pause to connect with the cause behind your normal life. This is to go beyond to that deep ocean that you are, to find out how far down you go below the surface of your mundane and superficial life, so that you might engage more of its power and ease as you go about your daily affairs. For truly there is more beyond these words that I am attempting to convey. People are like beautiful young children covered in mud and I would have them washed by the sweeping innocence that wafts upward from that which underlies the caked-on crud that is getting in the way of each other, into their eyes, nose, ears and mouth. The children are clear and pure in reality but they are not seeing it nor appreciating nor receiving the sensations and benefits of that full bloom of the flower that they are. There is so much crud covering them!!! This requires pushing on the envelope that you walk around in, the vehicle you live in, the physical normal mud, pushing it out of the way, like pushing on a door that is stuck closed.
 
There is a certain amount of resistance to this information, this approach, because it confronts what you’ve grown up believing in. So the temptation is to turn and walk away from these words. But I am telling you a story which I think shows guidance to those who are ready to awaken the right side of their brain to other dimensions for which they carry frequencies. Higher dimensional energies are coming through your bodies so you are living, moving and breathing new energies called love. When you feel disappointed or “down”, that is the crumbling and going away of the old energies that you owned and believed in. They are crumbling under the incoming new energies. Let go. Move on. It’s not you that is crumbling but old, old, belief systems that you thought you were, that you identified with. You are not what you think you are, or what you believe in. You are the one believing, the one behind the belief. You do not “go away” or disappear. You can’t “go away” because you are the one who is creating this whole thing that is what you call “reality”. Stay firmly anchored with your feet on the ground and your mind on your self. Take deep breaths, deep, deep breaths, and watch the tornado swirl around you but not touch you because you are anchored in your mind and in the heart of your being.

(Me joining in) When you are running out of gas (energy, hope) come and cuddle with me. We will anchor each other in bliss together. There is purpose in this. Fulfillment, joy. Sometimes its hard to keep your spirit attached to your body and keep functioning. That’s the time to hold someone close, physically close, just hold and anchor, not sexual, not personal, just physically get close and hold onto the physical life. This anchors the spirit, and spirit to spirit, it holds onto the physical and keeps it from flying away for lack of validation or meaning. Physical bodies together give spirit meaning. I wish I had had someone to hold me like that in my darkest night 50 years ago.
 
There is a light in you. Don’t let it go out. I’ll help you keep it alive and burning. To anchor the light is to reach deeper inside of yourself, deeper and deeper still. You are actually reaching beyond yourself, beyond what you think of as yourself, beyond your ego self to the REAL you which is far away from the pretend surface ego. The real you is beyond what you thought you were. Holding firmly to your body while letting go, letting go, letting go, you are able to open your inner channels and draw in more of your REAL self to anchor into your physical reality. This comes in waves. We are going through tremendous upheavals right now. One day is normal, next day is wind swept like a tsunami and you need to hold onto someone for support.
 
If in doubt, just show up! If you don’t know what to do, just step outside and stop and breathe and open your mind. Be here now. Just stop and shine. Just show up for life and the powerful energy of your deeper more authentic life will take care of the rest. You will be shown what to do. Life moves you and guides you, inspires you, assists you. There is a plan in the making and you are part of it. Just show up and wait a few minutes for it to guide you. 

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2/13/21 - During morning rituals this morning a tickle started in my lungs. I've had issues with my lungs which is gradually getting better with my practices on various energy movements.  This morning a special healing session evolved out of my coughing. I coughed and tried to “get it” as I normally do to bring it up and dismantle it. I asked,  “How can I get rid of this tickle and cough for good?” The answer came instantly:

“You can’t get rid of it, you must love it back into your self. Find it, love it, embrace it and it will release the junk and allow it to clear and rise up." So I allowed it to rise. First I accepted it through silent connection, then I directed it upward with my consciousness. It loosened. I could feel it rising up into my throat. I clasped my hands together in unity and felt the connection warming between them. This took a while. Then I went down to the red tailbone chakra and “saw” the rising up of the vital energy to the orange at the sacral chakra, and the yellow at the navel and the green at the heart/lung. I then used some violet flame but not a lot.

Then I became aware that I was using my masculine energy. It is the male in me who directs. The female in me is the responder, the spontaneous one who freely flows. I see that I go back and forth between the male directing with an agenda, and the female free-flowing and spontaneous. During the neck exercises I realized that what I’m doing is not physical, but rather I’m exercising my conscious directing force. I’m becoming aware that I am the director of the movement in me. I am initiating and the feminine in me is responding. It’s a wider opening of awareness.

Instead of focusing on exercising my physical muscles, which is a limited consciousness, I’m seeing past that limited view to realizing I’m exercising my conscious awareness. Consciousness is all I have in the end. Consciousness is all there is in everything. We are programmed and trained to limit our perception to the physical world. We zoom in on a situation, or something that captures our attention to one narrow point of focus. This is an expansion exercise. We are infinite intelligence captured by a physical brainwashing program to zoom in on finite points.  We are physical so the key is to become conscious of what lies beyond the physical. We can use the physical body as a tool, as a device or an instrument, but we can be aware at the same time by seeing beyond the physical into the higher vibrating space within and around. It is the auric field. The we are still aware of the physical but seeing through it as if it is transparent. 

I am seeing that now. I am not denying the physical, just seeing past it. My body is a tool like a pair of pliers is a tool that I use to unscrew a stuck jar lid. I am the super intelligence that is using the body. I am especially using the brain as a device to think of this and project my thoughts. I connect with this wider realization. I am more than thought and more than emotion. I am the infinite consciousness that does not have a body at all. Consciousness resides for a short time in the body but leaves it at desk. My consciousness is forever unlimited and connected entirely with the Godhead, the creator which is all consciousness everywhere. So right now I am flowing THROUGH this body and this physical brain is giving me the ability to focus my attention where I want to focus it. I am the one in charge. I create my own reality. Consciousness is the hidden jewel inside the body. That’s what the Tantric path teaches. It teaches how to use the body as a tool for sensation, enjoyment, pleasure, challenges, enlightenment, kindness, generosity and all sorts of delightful experiences. But most important it teaches unity and harmony through blending and unifying the opposites and negative situations. Only the physical embodiment can give these opportunities to learn how to unify opposites. In heaven there is only love. There is no division. The physical life, according to Tantra, does not have to be a negative prison, holding one captive inside walls. There are no walls when love is applied with conscious direction and focus on unifying the two sides that are fighting each other. If we think we are “just” a body, or it’s “just” sex or “just” work or “just” a house, then the focus is on the lowest level, mundane, common, ordinary, average. Tantra teaches that we CAN redirect our approach to one of unity. 

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2/11/21 - I’ve been active at night out of body while my body sleeps. In the morning I have to re-activate it. It’s harder to do as I get older. I feel the aging process, or is it the ascension process?  Coming back and waking up the body is becoming more difficult and slower to accomplish. I’m asking how to fix it. I’m doing certain visualizations which are good, they’re working to some extent. But I then have to get up. I have to move the body. Energy has to start flowing again. It’s done through a give and take of reverence and gratitude. I am being shown the figure 8 on its side, the infinity symbol. It’s through giving and receiving gratitude and inspiration. Giving and receiving, giving and receiving gratitude and inspiration. Everything in the universe is a giving and receiving of gratitude and inspiration. It is a flowing that keeps life in harmony. It is done by connecting. That’s why this earth is dying. There is no flow, no connection between humans. It is a stalemate. If we learned how to connect (connection is an important theme in the last few days) we would move ourselves and be healthier and more vital and younger. 

Mother earth needs the sun but it’s a reciprocal arrangement. Everything is reciprocal. When reciprocation stops, the flow stops. People diminish, deteriorate and die. The earth receives from the sun and gives back to the sun in gratitude and reverence. Mother earth and sun have a relationship. Same as my body and my spirit have a relationship. Body is feminine, spirit is masculine. Earth is feminine, sun is masculine. In the morning my spirit re-enters my body and consciously I breathe and acknowledge fresh energy into it. I breathe deeply into my body and revive it physically. Spirit and the body have a reciprocal arrangement. I am the one in power, the one in residence in the body. It’s up to me to receive inspiration back into the body, and get up and give inspiration back to spirit through reverence, prayer and gratitude. My morning ritual. Then I get on with my day of constructive activity, creating, inspiring, forming relationships with my family, friends and community. The spirit at night receives inspiration from higher planes while my body sleeps. The body returns the inspiration through reverence and prayer when I first get up. I must move. I must get up and move every morning and give gratitude to the higher realms of spirit for inspiring me. I give gratitude to the angelic community and the ascendeds who serve the lower densities and are on call at all times. We are watched and cared for while we work in lower density.
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2/10/21 - Things are broken on the third dimension because there is no love here. Everyone is looking for love in all the wrong places - the outer world. Love comes from within. Very few are generating love - love of the divine nature, real love, genuine love, love of self which is love of God because self is God. I toned today in the pasture the words out loud: spiritual ascension massage because that’s what I dream about. That is my calling but I see I must teach it, practice it, reciprocate it. I think I may have to hold classes. No sexual touching. Don’t touch yoni or lingam or scrotum. No kissing of genitals or breasts or lips. No sexual arousal touching. The goal is raising the body consciousness to the heart, inner body, raising the energies through thought alone when becoming aroused, not reaching outward to someone. Raise them up to the heart. If one becomes sexually aroused, expand, expand, expand. Lift upward, lift, lift, lift. This is a new teaching. It’s not a judgment against sex. Another time we can go out into sex. This is a whole different teaching. It is an inner elevation, an ascension teaching. This is a teaching and a practice in how to raise the energies up past the genital blocks which force the impulses off to the side. Sex is a detour where one is diverted. One’s attention is waved off to go sideways off and away from the main path that goes up to the heart and head. We go off to the side to have sex. To revitalize the whole body with love we have to go straight up the main column to the heart through thought and intention. We don't swerve left or right. It’s a new teaching never taught en masse before. The body is then flooded with this huge warm blissful love that is overwhelming. We become each one a cauldron of love and we share it because it is pouring in through the heart and it goes everywhere, not just to the genitals which is over in a few minutes, and the man is wasted and goes to sleep and the woman is still yearning for love.   
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2/7/21 -  I see that when I am in the divine feminine space, I am in the most beautiful place, in love with all beings impersonally. When I am in masculine mode I lose that beautiful place, that sense of being serene and home. I lose it by focusing on something narrow up ahead of me. I actually see the sub-atomic particles of my energy all focusing outward ahead of me to a point of forward focus which shuts out everything and everyone else. In masculine mode I‘m sending all my energy out beyond me to a single point to get something done and I no longer feel the peace and serenity of peace and all-encompassing love and wellness, bliss, comfort, and the caring for all beings that I have when I‘m in feminine mode. I see the serenity and stillness of being divine feminine. No one is excluded.

The masculine person can retreat to this place of the divine feminine if they knew it was available to them. Women don‘t know it either. We have all become masculine in our goal-orientation, pointing forward, unable to hold the center. Holding the light in the center is what it’s called. What I am here for, what I‘m searching for is to highlight this place, and show that it is possible to attain right here in this reality. It is perfectly serene and quiet and complete, right here, right now, and it includes everywhere and everyone.

I think often about gathering people for purposes of divine love. I read it in my 1983 journal this morning. Over breakfast I heard the words, “A community of higher love where no money changes hands.” Thoughts of a community of individuals that pitches in and finds ways to function without money through good will friendliness and cooperation, using the divine feminine, impersonal love, love for all, using forgiveness, truth, fairness, ability to listen and receive what others are offering, no jealousy, no envy, no rebellion. Problems there will be, but there will be negotiation, everyone attempting to hold the equanimity together, practicing cooperation together. No one is higher than another. All pitch in together. I remember now that I have written this up for the Village of Freedom for Anakosha. It’s a community where everyone participates. There are orientations and round robin discussions, no leaders but everyone together. I’ve written about this somewhere. Must find it. 
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2/3/21 - These messages that I present here are messages from spirit to me personally. I would like to emphasize that I am not preaching to others. I'm sharing advice that comes to ME during times of revelation. They are for my own personal benefit. They come from a higher source than my brain.  Going to sleep I was thinking about masculine traits as they compare to my more feminine traits. In the night I woke up with this information.

The masculine does not relate to the esoteric or metaphysical or mystical or ascension teachings. So the masculine words are different. They are more 3D, but I have to find the RIGHT words, the higher level words, not the lower vibrational words which I am accustomed to applying to men. I must see men in a different light and assign new words to them. Like positive, constructive, inspiring, refined, beauty, grace, pagaentry, classical music, classic design, artistry, sophistication, elegance, nobleness, majestic, royal, music of the spheres having no tragedy in it, only glory and victory of life eternal. Triumphant, arousal of altruistic elements, enlightened human nature, progressive humanity. Perfection. Not a materialist culture but a spiritual culture of exotic, erotic, classical genius. Safety, dignity, reverence for life, reverence for the finest, noblest, and trust without judgment. Sons of heaven, sons of the father in glory and magnificence. Balance, poise, gracious, humble, wise. These words came to me while feeling them through masculine vibrations.

Energy is the same in hate and in love, in fear and in confidence. It is the rate of vibration that makes the difference in its quality. When you pour light and love into hate and fear you quicken the vibration of that quality and change it into constructive expression. Call to a master to pour his light through you. Your call will be answered and your light expanded in every cell. The divine masculine is the inner and finer qualities of human. Where human masculine tends to control other people and outside situations, the divine masculine seeks control over his own lower nature. The discipline of the masculine is exerted over oneself, not another. Being objective and without emotional attachment is divine masculine. The human masculine is being subjective and emotionally attached. The advice being given is to look into oneself objectively, without emotional leanings left or right. That is utilizing the divine masculine. Cut to the heart of an issue objectively without considering the other person's opinion.
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1/24/21 - Last night I woke in the night with words “the REAL anatomy behind the artificial intelligence (mask, ego)." I saw the spiritual anatomy. Later I saw the creator mind as a sea of consciousness - random little balls or globes just milling around bumping into one another. They require conscious guidance to form them into something meaningful. This is the calling upon the divine mind (God) to manifest. We don’t know about this, we don’t know anything about this, or how to do it. I am being shown through the Baird Spaulding books, the masters tell how. We can call forth anything we want by focusing on a picture. We must form a picture and a visual of what we want and then we must hold it in mind rhythmically at the same time every day and BELIEVE it. Believe that the universal mind, the Godhead, will organize it and provide it. We must KNOW it. How do we get to know it? We then call on the random God particles to form what we hold in our minds. We must believe and we must receive as we call them forth in the shape of a form. We build the form with our mind and the particles will come and mold themselves around it, around the pattern and fill in the pattern that we hold in our thought. Whatever we want, bread, jewels, a building, a home, a nation, a community activity, whatever we want. It will come.

We are like the stamin at the center of the flower with all the petals folded in over on top of it. We must unfold our petals, one by one, the gifts within, to get to the unlimited power within. We are all divine, men, women and children. Both men and women are divine in their origin. We are human only temporarily. Our origins remain tucked away within, waiting to be used. The human is a conglomeration of experiences, unfulfilled memories and left over trash accumulated over the millennia of time we have been here. But the divine is still within us, pure and clean as it was in the beginning, in our original version. For we as humans are not eternally physical. We just think we are and feel we are and so we chase the physical. But in the end we leave our physicality behind and go back to the divine origin, taking our experiences with us. It is not in vain that we live these lives in the physical. We are growing in wisdom. We are a child of God, the creator, learning to unfold into gods ourselves, our success depends on learning the magic of unfolding. We are going through creator school to learn how to visualize, how to create with our thought and with our wonderful elevating feelings. All that we create in the world of the physical is dust when it is all over. But what we experienced while building it is not lost. We are what we have experienced so far, to date, in this moment. But there is more that God wants us to experience. God wants us to create a more perfect world in form and to people it with purity, love, divine intelligence, for this is what God is and what God wants you to birth in you, his people. He wants you to manifest in the physical, on planets of purity. That is where we are heading.

We are learning how to be divine and human at the same time, in the same body, as human beings able to enjoy our human nature and our elevated status at the same moment with our emotional heritage, the wonderful foods, and the lovemaking, the hugging, playing, creating, engaging in participatory sports, gymnastics, dance, art, music, science, bettering ourselves, refining ourselves, purifying ourselves, becoming more of who we are in our original version. For there is more we can create. To build a physical world without hurting other people but by lifting and loving and enhancing the people around us, that is how we build a better world, as gods and goddesses, as men and women who have put aside the low animal nature and warmed up to the divine nature that is flowing through us, showing appreciations, gratitudes, happiness, joy, instead of the cold and calculated and callous, the unfeeling and inconsiderate, unreconciled and incomplete human. We MUST integrate our aloof abstract spirit with our warm, loving and compassionate human nature. This is the divine plan. The human plan is a mess with its artificial masks and artificial intelligence. It feels its divine origins activating but there is so much disillusionment still active in the world, adding to frustration, tiredness from fighting, from confusion, not knowing what to do. The illusion still has its hold on humanity. The divine cannot get through. As we gain more leverage on the divine within, we will stop fighting and stop resisting the dust forms around us which are being dismantled as we speak. They are returning to dust as we let them go, as we realign with the divine within us, the positive, peaceful loving nature within us.

The more we align with hope, encouragement, excitement, enthusiasm for positive outcomes, the more we raise our vibrations and our frequencies in the body. Our consciousness is freed from the battlefields of pain and suffering, fighting and resisting and defending, and we feel the peace. The rest falls away and diminishes from sight. Because we are not the physical form, the physical form would also fall away. But it will not fall away if we place love into our forms, our bodies and our minds. We are spirit in our original, we have no form. We have only love in our original nature. We were without form then. We were given form to see what we could do with it. Humanity has done a bad job of maintaining the form. Now we are shifting and we are given a new understanding and a new chance to redeem the form and keep the form and maintain the physical. We maintain the physical by filling it with love, forgiveness, compassion, caring and kindness, but we MUST let go of the resistance and the fighting against everything including ourselves.

We MUST practice letting go and becoming intimate with ourselves. We can preserve our physical bodies in an eternal state of beauty if we align with our original nature, which is divine, which is intelligence, which is refinement, which is creative and joyful and free. It is not far away from us. It is within us. We must learn what that means. Nobody knows what that means. I will guide you into knowing what that means. The divine within is the immortal intelligence and supreme knowledge which is you in your original state. Love is all that is. Love creates all that is, all good things. Keep your eye on the good and noble and don’t get sucked into fighting - for anything at all. Nothing is worth fighting over. Fighting brings you down the wrong side into oblivion. We must change course and learn the uphill direction and how to get into that right direction to preserve our youth, our sanity, our sense of good will and rightness, and the joy of sharing all good things with our other brothers and sisters. Fighting for a cause is fighting the external which is illusion. Only the divine is eternal and lasts forever and we are divine in origin. Our consciousness is a permanent fixture in our bodies. We are a presence in our bodies that is eternal. We must acknowledge our true nature which is eternal. God intends us to learn who we are, so that we can maintain a divinely created form in a divinely created world.
 
The purpose is to enjoy physicality and all of the positive and uplifting emotions and thoughts which enhance the joy of being alive. But these young gods must overcome the selfish desires which create friction, competition, suffering, and abuse on their brothers and sisters. It is the divine original self that we must reconnect with. Who is it? How do we find it? The power behind the mask is connected to through intimate practices and rituals, first alone, then with others. It is a flowing through us. We are used to working for a goal. Wrong. Once we get to that goal we think we are happy and settled, but then boredom slowly creeps in because that was not the goal after all. That was just a stepping stone to a higher goal. There is no goal now in the new age. There is only a flowing of the divine, which is the power behind the ego mask. Maintaining the physical is a continual flowing, maintaining a continual connection and awareness of the divine flowing through the physical form. Every human body, man, woman and child, is a divine being which has created a body into which and through which it operates. The divine is abstract love, light, intelligence, but don’t hang your hat on the words. The divine has no name. It cannot be known. It is the allness, the wholeness and it cannot be known. The only way the divine can be known is through expression as it flows through physical forms. The physical becomes the divine as the divine becomes the physical, as the divine flows through the form and as the physical allows the divine to flow through itself. The ego has stopped it. Ego is the artificial intelligence. We must set the ego aside and become the knower. Become the presence that is flowing and making itself known as the truth as it presses itself into the body cells, including the brain as it flows on through.
 
We are the human element that the Godhead has commissioned us to build. We have built it. We are now able to become more of our original God-self, child of God, pure, refreshing, clean, flowing through the body, cleaning out the old human debris left behind, for an animal lived here and left sediment behind. We are divine in nature. We are coming to know ourselves more. The only way the divine can be known is through expression in the physical world. The physical becomes what it was always meant to be, an instrument for the all-that-is to use to enjoy itself and walk on the ground and feel the sensations of touching, smelling, tasting, hearing, seeing. As such, the body is feminine. It is the receiver. The male body and the female body are both receivers, receiving the flow from the vast intelligence of creator, what we call God, the one that cannot be known except as it imprints upon our body as it flows, never stopping. As long as we breathe, we breathe in the vastness of eternity into our body and our cells drink it up and are maintained in vitality and youth and health. The body is feminine. The divine is the vastness that we are receiving as we breathe. Align with the divine within. I am in a female body so I identify with the divine feminine. My husband is in a male body so he identifies with the divine male. Your first resonant feeling before human thought starts to move is your soul. It will not lie to you. Your soul is ancient. Your brain is only as old as this one lifetime. Listen to your soul.

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1/22/21 -  (Message from spirit about sex) It’s time to wean. I've been hearing this for about a month now. It's time to wean. It is time to withdraw from dependance on something. Withdraw your dependance. You are leaning upon and you fear that you will never have it again so you keep chasing it and depending upon it. It is time to replace this that you are depending upon with knowledge that it will always be there. Wean yourself from the dependance on it because it is creating a longing for it. It is creating a desire in you for it which is creating a fear that you will lose it, which is fear itself that is invading your consciousness. It is time to wean yourself from fear of losing it, from fear of loss. It is a false belief. You have created a false belief system that you need this thing. You believe you need it and that it is the only way to reach your heaven, your goal of fulfillment, it is the only way to bring forth heaven on earth, and the only way to feel good, the only way to feel orgasm and the freedom from all the pressures you normall feel day after day and none of that is true. It is a false belief that you hold. You believe it and so it is stuck in you, creating a groundhog day effect. A replay of the same thing, over and over and over, ad infinitum. It is time to wean yourself from this belief. Release yourself from depending on that little appendage that you think is your identity and your salvation and your key to heaven and the release into freedom. Release yourself from the volumes of stuckness that have held you back. Women have come to rely on this appendage too. It is not only men who depend on the appendages, for women have appendages too. We women have to also release ourselves from depending upon the sexual appendages.

This is why we marry. We call it love and falling in love and wanting to spend the rest of our days with this person, but it’s really a dependency on the person that we are marrying. We are committing to depending upon this person, to provide us with the love and caring, but it’s really the orgasmic tool that we are assuring ourselves by marrying them. We are securing the access to our freedom and salvation and heavenly pleasures by marrying, but it is a false belief. We are marrying a physical appendage to go along with our own physical appendage, our physical genital appendage - men depend on securing a woman because of HER tool, her appendage is a warm soft pocket into which he places HIS appendage and he depends on that. We each, man and woman alike, depend on these accessories which are temporary physical appendages, not our divine nature which we already ARE. We are divine in nature and we have the capacity to feel the love within our divine nature, but we have been led to look elsewhere, out there, to others, to other objects and other people and we can’t find it there so we start chasing it. We develop fear and insecurity and a sense of loss because we are looking in all the wrong places. It is within. It is within our own consciousness. We have not lost anything at all, except our focus. We have lost our focus, which means we have lost our way. We have lost our center. We think we are alone and we are afraid that we will never find our way back again, and we compound that fear the more we depend on our sexual appendages. It is the wrong focus to have.

You are chasing a rainbow that is ephemeral. It is the outer world that is the dream. The material objects of things, money, houses, toys that pleasure you, having all the right friends to nourish you and keep you safe and warm and protected, to assure you that you are A-OK, and then death takes you anyway and you are alone with yourself again, picking up the pieces and trying to remember who you are and where you left off at the time of the LAST death and having to leave the body. The “things” and the “people” we leave behind are fellow travelers, not saviors. They too are seeking salvation from outer “things” and other “people”. They are not here to save us or allow us to depend on them. We are so afraid that we will lose access to salvation, warmth, security, pleasure, abundance and love that we hang on to them as if we are drowning. We live so in fear that we chase it. It is a falsehood and an illusion because we have the love inside of us. In our consciousness. In our bodies. In our minds and in our feelings. We have lost our OWN connection to this beautiful place, this beautiful SELF because we have been distracted by the outer world and these sexual appendages. They are like tools of addiction.

Wean yourself by trying out a new way of human interaction and closeness and nurturance without using these appendages. See what you feel by weaning yourself away from that physical area on the body. It is like quitting smoking. Do not light that cigarette and do not reach for it. It is like quitting alcohol addiction. Do not pour that alcohol into a glass and do not even reach for the bottle. It is like quitting any drug. Do not reach for the tools that you think you need. Stop it. Wean yourself from it. Find another way to think. Find another way to feel. We at the Love Club are seeking this for ourselves. We are seeking another way to feel warm and nourished by coming closer and touching and hugging and massaging with other human beings, without reaching for the appendages that we have habitually relied upon to give us what we thought we wanted and needed. We at the Love Club are providing a new way to explore warm togetherness. It is not the body we are weaning ourselves away from; it is the dependency and sense of fear and loss that we are weaning ourselves away from. It takes conscious will to change how we think, talk and touch that we wean ourselves away. We are not giving up the ability to make love or to have sex. That is not the issue at all. Not at all. It is the habit of feeling loss and insecure and dependant upon someone else that we are weaning ourselves away from.
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1/20/21 - St. Germain has been coming into my meditations lately, kind of pushing himself in. The message I received this morning is that when women meet in circle, they/we are creating a mandala. We are coming together to create a sand painting just like the Tibetan Buddhists do when they gather to create an intricate beautiful design without following a pattern. They follow an inner pattern. There are many of them working on one painting without an external pattern. How do they know where to place their dainty grains of colored sand? It is a mystery to those who know only to follow someone else’s instructions.

The Buddhists know there is a greater design, a greater plan, but we don’t know that yet. We, the women, are about to learn it. It is the next stage in our evolution, here in the west. The greater design has ALWAYS been there. The greater design works outward through each individual’s breathing and living. Each woman in our sacred circle, now members of the goddess team the world over, adds their divine breath and presence to the design, the mandala that we will create for Earth. We are each capable of reflecting the divine plan because we contain the whole picture within us, or at least have access to it.

The concept that the universe is a hologram came about when in 1982 at the University of Paris a research team led by physicist Alain Aspect discovered that under certain circumstances subatomic particles, such as electrons, are able to instantaneously communicate with each other regardless of the distance separating them. Much has been written about “we are holograms and live in a holographic universe”. The grand plan comes from source, or the oneness that created all that is, from the largest universe to the smallest insect, all of us and our little kitties and doggies, reflect the divine plan through awareness, and awareness grows. Each of us outpictures (expresses) what we feel comfortable expressing. When someone forces us to do something we are not ready for, we are uncomfortable. If someone forces us, because there are “laws on the books” to do something we really don’t want to do, we grow resentful. We feel pain. We suffer. We grow hateful. We grow violent because we are not functioning according to our plan, our role, our purpose, what we were designed for. We have become distorted, corrupt.

We are projections of the divine intelligence. Source is a falling forward and outward into manifestation in the physical. All of us are flowing outward into expression through our free will. And through our free will we may refuse to follow the inner plan, and instead follow in someone else’s footprints, looking to them as “master” instead of ourself. We are projections direct from source intelligence, God or Goddess if you choose. We are meant to fit ourselves into life according to our comfort zone, we choose the friends we best fit with. We choose the city or town or state we best fit with. We choose the work we best fit with. Our hidden inner self struggles to find what we like the best. The design of the world is unfolding through human beings as they evolve and express what is in their hearts. It is held back when they are NOT expressing what is in their hearts. We are not supposed to follow in someone else’s foot prints, we are meant to step in our own. We are not meant to follow rules or agendas created by someone else because the design for each of us alone comes forth from within as a prompting. We are prompted by an inner push to go here, or go there, or say this or say that. We have a piece of the grand design to contribute to the mandala that is being painted.

A circle of women with this understanding in mind will gather for a short time and look first within themselves for the highest prompting, and then allow that prompting to come forth and follow it. What thread of awareness will fit best with the other expressions coming from the other women in the circle? We weave together in the moment, with no one taking a leadership role for others to follow. No one is qualified to be a leader in such a circle. A teacher may lead a class, it is true, but in this gathering of goddesses, it is a circle, not a leader-teacher situation. We are here to contribute our inner light.

It may seem that I am leading, but I am not. I have been trained to be a gatherer, not a teacher or a lecturer. A writer, yes, I love to write. It is my passion, but I write from my heart with an intention to express what I am feeling, seeing and knowing. The intention is not to “make” or “shape” or “change” other people. This has been the crux of my learning - how to ascertain the difference between expressing who I AM versus attempting to teach, change or influence other people to do it my way. This has been the center of my learning over the years. My awareness has grown towards the center of this very thing. I must not draw other people into my circle because then I draw them away from their own center. This is the philosophy of the advanced civilizations from higher, more evolved worlds. They know not to interfere, because they are responsible for their actions. Karmic kickback. You reap what you sow and if I tempt others away from their true mission in life, I am responsible and I must return to that place again and again to correct the mistake by becoming aware. That is why, when I am presented with offers to step into the limelight, I decline. I did not understand why I was so insistent on stepping back each time an offer came my way, but now I know. I do not like to even post things on Facebook because it draws attention to me and comments suck me into threads and pathways down which I don’t want to go. The rabbit hole it is called.

People say “But how do you know unless you try it?” It is the seduction game to pull the unaware person in. I am aware of that particular method of entrapment. Many people must follow that path, and it is not for me to prevent them taking it. It is their journey and their exploration. My role is to gather those who understand what I’m writing about. And, then as we gather together in sacred circles, we can mix and blend and talk and laugh and maybe some day sing and dance. Never being musical myself I hope for it. The difference between following the light and following the dark? Someone wrote to my galactic website and asked, “How can we identify light beings from dark entities? The answer was by feelings of hope, upliftment, peace, love, joy, exhilaration and simple kindness. It’s a radiation of loving comfort. You want to hug the person who makes you feel like that. Dark entities cause feelings of hopelessness, discouragement, confusion, fear, loss. If you feel anything less than peaceful loving comfort that makes you want to hug the person, then he or she is sending negative energies. Don‘t judge them. Don’t find fault, find a way to neutralize the bad feelings or, if unsuccessful, find a way out as quickly as possible.
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1/18/21 - "No! Spontaneity takes priority!” I said to someone who apologized for interrupting me. And indeed it does. Spontaneity is the greatest gift of spirit. During our conversation that day I remembered with more sureness that spontaneity is what I seek and appreciate the most in my life. It is true freedom. In that conversation I told my guest that I respect men more today than ever before because I see them as being so “fixed”. They are like “fixtures” planted in the middle of the house and unmovable so you have to walk around them! They are solid anchors to the earth, concrete like stone. My husband holds me down and anchors me. Without him and the fixed positions he takes, I would be unstable and unhinged. I could on him to be my anchor. He is like a life support.  In earlier times I used to resent it. Now I admire it. I have grown to appreciate it in the men because they make me see the beauty in its opposite – spontaneity. Spontaneity is the opposite of fixed. Preplanned agendas, following routines, someone else's rules and schedule - these reflect back to me what I don't want in my life. Men reflect to me that which I love the most - spontaneity and freedom. 
 
The opposite of “fixed” is spontaneity. Spontaneity is creative. New awareness grows out of such open-mindedness, spontaneous chit chat without any rhyme or reason, bouncing spontaneous thought back and forth with someone without a fixed agenda or predetermined lines. I like being spontaneous. It has been my passion to follow the freedom that flows from somewhere beyond me. Men have always been a block to it. Women have been my best soundboards. I didn’t understand until today. A fixed agenda DOES have a purpose. The purpose of rules and agendas and heavy-handedness and controlling authorities, what to me is the dark side of life, it helps me to appreciate - truly appreciate it and acknowledge the light within me.  Now I understand. Opposites are needed to see the differences. And furthermore, to appreciate the differences.T
 
This leads me to the role of the feminine, which I've been wondering about. What is the role of the feminine besides the obvious nurturing and caring that women provide. What does the feminine being bring to the world? I think it is the divine nature. The divine nature comes through the easy and spontaneous flow between women. A fixed nature is too controlling. If a woman feels free to be spontaneous, if she is empowered from within herself and is truly free, meaning she's not being held down by someone whose control over her is an obstacle, she then acts from spirit. Her response is coming from her true nature, from the divine within, the holy fire within.
 
For a long time I have wondered about the galactics and where do they fit into the overall spiritual scheme of the universe? How do they compare to the ascended masters? Higher or lower? I did not know. Now I know. I found out this morning. I suspected but did not know for sure what the difference was. The galactics are still evolving their species, just like humanity is evolving as a species towards more enlightenment, towards more truth, more justice, more wisdom, more rightness, more balance, more refinement, all in the pursuit of the divine source. We are all evolving higher. We are drawn to the highest. Earth is very low down and is a sub-species because it has been held back by negative forces. There are many races in the galaxy of different origins, and there are many galaxies in the universe and perhaps many universes, I’m not sure about that. But the races are different from us. They are evolutions coming from low to higher intelligence just as we are. Evolution is the maturing into wisdom process. It moves at a naturally slow pace and begins to speed up with growing awareness. We on earth have had alien seeds planted in us from other planets in the galaxy, DNA from different races. The story of our ancient history is becoming well known in these days.

It is not the body that evolves, it is the consciousness that resides within the body that evolves. Other species may look different form humans, but there is a common denominator of grace, wisdom, maturity and the desire to have communication with other peoples. We belong to one unending sea of living light called "consciousness". I've seen it and experienced it through profound mystical experiences with the light and with love. There is an evolution taking place. Galaxies abound. Galaxies are richly diverse with many different species, i.e., Star Trek. Some are benevolent and growing towards more goodness, and some are negative, unmoving, maintaining a fixed position so that others find them to be blocks in the way, deterrents, distractors and challengers to the free flowing growth into more love and light. Those who hold fixed positions have warring natures. They believe they are right and should be the ones in control, while the benevolent ones flow with change, enjoy diversity and new ideas. To us, for I align with this type of person, this is how we grow in wisdom, love, joy and we are elevated.  

The negative ones who remain fixed and rooted to the past are diminishing in numbers on our planet. And those of us who are open-minded are growing in numbers. We are connecting consciously with other species not of this planet. We are receiving what they are beaming to us. We are receiving not through the limited brain mind, for the limited brain mind is fixed. We receive through the overall consciousness which pervades our bodies through feelings, emotions and intuition. According to the more advanced galactics that are visiting - those that are millions of years in advance of us - the ascended masters are different. The ascendeds have completed their journey in polarity just as Yeshua did, merging with their father in heaven. They have completed their sojourn on the planes of duality by shedding their gross bodies and merging with their divine template, inbred from the beginning of time. The galactic races are many. Some are still enjoying the experience of duality on their planets, and others have evolved to greater harmonious planes of love-light.
 
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1/17/21 - A friend writes that he thinks we’re going to 5D, not 4D. There is much discussion about this. It will depend upon the individual. Each person sees differently, according to his or her past experiences. What is the fourth dimension? 4D is the adaptation process as we move out of the fixed and stationary focus on physicality. 4D is the bridge we have to walk across to adapt to fluidity and more unity consciousness, before we enter 5D. The bridge of 4D is a flexible, swinging bridge, not solid ground to us. We are unsure of ourselves and often afraid because what we’re used to is changing. What we believed in all our life, is changing. We are seeing things not staying fixed. We used to be able to count on people and things staying the way they always were. Now there is confusion among our friends and family. There is a wider assortment of differences and beliefs. We thought we all believed the same way but it is becoming apparent that is not true. There is a crazy mixture of different ways of seeing things. Up to now we had things under control. WE were the ones that were fixed and stationary. Now we are not sure who we are any more, or where we belong, or which direction to turn to. This is 4D, the inbetween state. We are shifting our consciousness to a lighter level.

We are being forced to adapt because the ground is shaking. The earth is shaking. We are learning to be more fluid and quick to change direction. We have to be more flexible on the 4D bridge. It is swaying crazily. We have to be more centered. We are learning to let go of fixed expectations. We can't take things for granted any more. We have to. We have no choice. We are slowly learning to be more aware of where we are in the moment, and not take others for granted. We can't expect people to be the way they were last year. It's crazy. It's wild. It's painful. There is an inner struggle. This is an adaptation process. We are adjusting. We are growing wiser. We can't control things the way we used to. We can't demand people to take our advice because we are not sure our advice is good any more. We are learning to let our friends and family choose their own way. They have to do their own adapting. We are letting go trying to control our lives. Our lives are fluctuating too much. We are learning to have faith in something we hadn't thought of in awhile. That there is a bigger plan working out. Higher forces are in charge and we don't know what they are. We are developing an inner sense that this higher plan is to be trusted.  As we learn to trust and allow the changes to take place and as we learn to go with the flow of what is happening and not resist it, we feel freer. We actually feel safer. 
We are moving about more quickly. We are approaching the fifth dimension where everyone lives in harmony, without fear or terror or pain or disease. We are getting there. We are adapting. Life in 5D is harmonious. We will still be in our physical bodies, but because we are more trusting, more allowing, more accepting and more compassionate of others, life will be smoother and more like a paradise. It won't be long now, as long as we allow ourselves to not fight back or resist. 
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1/14/21 - Since you are consciousness (a soul) which is not a body, you can open your chakras very easily with a few minutes using your focus. The key is intense, single-minded focus when you do this. I was awakened last night at 4:44 with the message, “Your chakras are blocked.” I grumbled and denied it. Then “I know. What’s the easiest most efficient way to open them?” I asked. And this is what I was told:

Start with the heart. Focus the green color in your heart area as a light that shines bright green. Focus intently for a few seconds. [I’d say 7-10 seconds]. Say “Green light into my heart area and meridians.” Feel for a subtle uptick in your breathing and a feeling as a sign that universal energy is coming through stronger into your physical body.  [The chakra is an open source of universal life force which shines through an opening there on the high end of your physical range. It’s on the etheric plane but the etheric plane is within the physical dimension. The universal energy has to come down through three other layers that are heavy with your programming and habits, which block the universal flow of clarity. This is why chakras have to be cleared of the debris, and colors are specific to each chakra. So we hold a focus on a color. I should be able to notice an uptick in awareness and vitality after doing this on a daily basis. Frankly, I forget to do it daily, so I dumb down. I’m tuning into my higher self more these days, so I’m being awakened in the night when I’m most receptive.

The seven chakra colors are: root red, sacral orange, solar plexus yellow, heart green, throat sapphire blue, third eye indigo (color of night sky), crown violet. In addition to the seven known chakras, there are three new chakras that are opening in individuals as the atmosphere of earth is lightening and people are becoming more conscious. They are the (8) diaphragm chakra, between the heart (green) and solar plexus (yellow). Picture this chakra the color of lime green. (9) The higher heart chakra (thymus) between the heart (green) and throat (sapphire blue). Picture this chakra the color of turquoise, a mix of both green and blue. (10) The axis or base of the skull (occiput), where the spine meets the brain. Picture this chakra the color of dark blue, a mix between the throat (blue) and third eye (indigo).

​There are now 10 chakras to strengthen on a daily basis by focusing your attention on each area of the body for 7-10 seconds. Picture the chakra superimposed over the spine itself, not out front or behind the spine. In order: (1) Picture the root chakra as a bright red sun shining at the tip of the tail bone. (2) The sacral chakra as a bright orange sun shining in the sexual center. (3) The solar plexus chakra as a bright yellow sun shining at the naval. (4) The diaphragm chakra as a bright lime green sun shining just below the sternum/rib cage. (5) The heart chakra as a bright green sun shining in the heart area. (6) The higher heart chakra as a bright turquoise sun shining between the heart and throat. (7) The throat chakra as a bright blue sun shining above the indentation of the neck. (8) The base of skull chakra as a dark blue sun shining inside the skull where the spine connects to the brain. (9) The third eye chakra as an indigo sun - the color of the night sky with stars - shining in the center of the head. (10) The crown chakra as a bright violet sun shining half in and half out of the top of the head.
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1/12/21 - The disciplines we would undertake to make us better people are the acts we would do if we did not fear the consequences of family and friends. The further along life’s evolutionary path we travel the more we see that the appointed task is to lighten our burden and follow our heart, shunning the ways of imposed cultural tradition. If we were not afraid of consequences we would walk out of our shells as easily as a butterfly does from a crumpled and worn out cocoon. There is no force. We would go naturally forward into easier zones, if we did not worry about rattling cages of the others around us. And if we were to hurry the process and shorten the length of classroom time, we would use force to create happy times for ourselves, lovely healing soothing joyful times in communion with ourselves - for THIS is the discipline, the homework, if “work” be the right word to use. But that is the irony of it all. For we think spiritual homework is “work”. We are conditioned to think “bondage”, “hardship”, “painstaking effort”.

No, my friend, if you choose the path of LIGHT you must choose the path that will make you feel easier, not harder. More loving, more at peace. Relinquish your hold on the tasks and follow the inspiring creative messages coming from your heart urges. Follow your heart - but do not cop out. This is only the “homework” part of life. This is the serious part. During the play part you may go back to building your house of sand. Go to the office, tend your chores, give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar. This enables you to live in Rome. For when in Rome, do as the Romans do. But remember your homework. Your chore is to find a LIGHTER happier way to live.
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1/5/21 - In the night I was aware of asking my higher self again about the divine feminine. I may have been asleep, I’m not sure. I asked, Where is this leading me? I want to know the divine feminine. I don’t understand the difference between feminine and masculine. Can you tell me? I was told (and wrote it down) “You have been endowed with a nature that is capable of loving so greatly that when you reach that ultimate goal there is nothing that could escape your love. Infinite love is in your nature. Infinite love is what birthed you. Infinite love is your home Father and Mother Creator. There is also within you the ability to fix attention on one point, to bring your attention to a finite and single focus. Those who you label “dark” are those who have taken this route. They fixate on finiteness, which creates physicality. They choose this over the love and light nature within them, which is spirit. The dark and the light are dual opposites. Focusing on finiteness creates manifestations. It is where selfishness comes from, creating things for oneself over and above helping others. Those who focus on spiritual love and light serve others. Between these two polarities you play the game of discovery. You discover what draws you and what best suits you. It is between these two polarities that you wander and explore feelings, what feels right to you, what resonates with you, what you choose, what you aim for, what you decide is best for you at the moment. The divine feminine is your choice of exploration. You have explored the physicality by playing with the masculine bodies and you have found it wanting. You have decided to explore the feminine and you have made that now your goal - to see what the feminine holds for you. You have discovered that all females are not like you and you are discarding the theory that all women are the same.

There are vast differences among the women. You are now modifying your search and seeking definition of the DIVINE feminine. As you grow further into your exploration - and you are at that point of discovery now - you are finding that there is no difference between divine feminine and divine masculine. There is simply divine love and light. It is home. It is your goal to discover your own divinity. You have been playing between polarities which you call male and female. Now, because of your continued searching, you are moving closer to discovering the divine nature within you. It is neither feminine nor masculine, other than that you are in a female body so you tend to call it feminine. You are recognizing that the divine nature in the female is subservient by its very nature to the lower vibrational realms. Not to people, which you have ascertained, but to the overall good of the whole. Subservience to fixed, concrete attitudes of those who choose to be fixed and concrete. It is not necessarily feminine to be subservient, just as it is not necessarily masculine to choose the role of fixed, controlling attitudes. Males too can choose the path of the spiritual in search of the divine. The divine nature embraces the whole and the closer you arrive to that supreme holiness, the more you will include all that you meet. It is the way of the godhead to be unconditionally inclusive, rather than separating anything out to be exclusive, which is an alienating process. Subservience, as you are finding, is being subservient to a higher plan. (But how does this work for me in a physical body?) You yourself chose to focus on a single direction over and above all other directions. You singled it out as a focal point to chase down and explore. You chose a direction to follow, through the ascended masters. You have excluded worldly matters in your choosing. Now you are reaching the epitomy, the peak, and the end of your search.

​(But where do I go from here? What do I do with this?) Prior to now you have been searching inward and upward. Now you are starting to emanate. You are beginning to turn your point of focus inside out and to shine it outward. Now you are shining it outward and downward to lower vibrations. Now you are trying to maintain your single-pointedness on the divine but at the same time shine it outward to others. (But how as a human being on a planet of such diversity can I do this? The advice from DK was to go in and UP and I have done that. I find myself going in and UP and I am now at a single lone point - ME! - by searching for the divine.) Now you are at that presence of peace, love and silence. You have discovered that YOU are the point. You are in the process of learning this. You are in the process of turning yourself around from looking inward and you are now looking outward, tentatively. You know that you do not want to lead or teach. You have discovered that. You have been seeing in the market place the heavy, solid, dense vibrations in the people and you are wondering where to go from here. It seems overwhelming to work with such low disturbing vibrations. But you have stood your ground and let it be known through your website that you are stationary and not trying to teach or create or move, but remaining stationary in the peace you have discovered for yourself, and you are now letting it be known by way of invitation to those who wish to visit you in this peace. (Oh, I see. Is this what Yeshua did?) He was masculine. He moved about and rattled cages. You are seeking the very heart of divinity, the core of divinity. You are choosing to be subservient. You are a servant of the divine. The greatest among you must be the least, to serve the greater whole. You have searched for divinity and you have found it. You are now stillness. You are the peace and you do not have to go anywhere to find more peace. Now you invite, you call, you let it be known that you are maintaining peace for others to join you or visit you. You are not creating a movement. You are shining the light for all who choose to visit it, allow it, receive it into themselves. They will join you as they feel the calling.

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1/4/21 - (Message from spirit) Allow the walls to come down. The women are ready now to step into the world scene. They are carrying the rich nectar of divinity within them. They are going to go out and move around and visit each other and buzz and buzz and buzz. They will go from flower to flower and draw forth the honey and awaken each other by doing so. They will poke their little needle nose deep into other flowers to find the sweetness that is there. The flower visited by these busy bees will give of their essence and the bee will take it and move on to another flower and leave some of the pollen with them while drawing forth the essence of that flower. The buzy little bees! They are aware distributing essence, honey, feminine sweetness and moving it around, waking up the feminine bodies that have been stagnant. They could wither and die - I almost did - if they are not awakened and become aware of their role. Their role is to become active, as women, on the world scene. On center stage, not the background any more. They have an essence that is badly needed, is crucial to the saving of the planet and turning it around and away from the destruction where it is heading because the men, with their fixed attitudes of solidarity and belief in solidarity and of being immovable, are leading the planet to destruction. The women who are the social butterflies of the race, who were held back from mixing things up, are now fully ready. They are preparing to step forth and outside the box, outside the building, outside the neighborhood and the cities and travel the globe. Travel the galaxy.
 
The female of the species has many aspects to her. She is MORE than the nurturer and birther of babies. She is also an activist. She joins causes and leads revolutions. She is spirit. She is source. She is change. She embodies the creator. Men do too but there is a season for all things. There is a growing season and a dying season which is a withdrawal to rest. There are cycles which move like waves. They rise and fall like the ocean ebbs and flows. It is in the hands of greater beings who are closer to source, who draw on yet others aobve them who draw on still others beyond and even greater beings further on and still more, greater and greater and greater. There is a progression of magnificence that cannot be seen except for that just above, within range, to give a glimpse of the next step ahead. There is a drawing forth. The eternal essence of creation is beyond we who are in form and focused on our bodies and the planet and our immediate role on the world stage. What is my role here? My purpose? My job? My responsibility? It is only being revealed as I spend time in the eternal “Now” where it is silent and safe and non-moving. I must be very, very still, to see through the portal which cannot be seen when I am moving about, when my mind is moving. The bees are busy! They (we) are waking up and agitating the formerly fixed environment set in stone. The ways of life and living are moving and the ground is shaking. There is movement on all levels.

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1/1/21 -  The feeling of waking up this morning was “Wow! I made it to 2021” and I felt very good with myself. Not high, not low, none of the extremes on either end of the spectrum. I felt not even peaceful, I just felt here now in my bed, comfortable. I felt what normal would feel like. I walked bent-over a little to the shower because I still have the lower back issue and realized I should probably go to the chiropracter, it’s been 4 months since last time. During breakfast I became aware that I have been backing and filling since sending the last NL for awhile. I don't have to think about it any more. Since then I’ve been experiencing nothing much at all. Just a slow gentle letting go I suppose. I didn’t really think about it as letting go, just a normal background knowing that some stage in my life was over, no big deal, and I’m just experiencing being here with Doug. There is nothing new coming.
 
Suddenly I ran across an interview with Valiant Thor which WAS a big deal. I immediately started transcribing this. I am now tuned in and turned onto high energy. I’m almost done with the transcription. It is a special connection. It comes through an implant in a woman named Elena who is an Irish druidess and has an exquisite accent. The interviewer is a woman named Elisa. It is a slow video, a zoom, for Valiant Thor is speaking from a space station in orbit through another who has been in telepathic communication with Elena for some time now, and the interviewer is a woman in Orlando, Florida, on Zoom, asking questions. So it is slow speaking, and Elena’s first language is Irish, not English. So it comes from Valiant Thor in the space station, to Thor Han also in the space station, to Elena through telepathic and holographic projection, answering questions by Elisa.
 
I knew about Valiant Thor’s visit to President Eisenhower in 1957 through 1960 from Frank Strange’s book “Stranger at the Pentagon” in 1957. Val Thor was housed as a VIP at the Pentagon for three years. This is famous in our history, though it comes through alternative sources, not main stream news obviously. I feel excited, as if I have been chosen to do this transcription of a worldwide interview. I feel it is a mission I have been handed and I can’t stop until it’s done.
 
Now THIS is the feeling of being on top. THIS is the feeling I love the most. I have been weaning myself from meditating.  A month ago I committed to a definite plan of exercises to resolve the problem of fluctuating from doing and not doing meditations. I decided to commit to doing them, in a rigid program. I was seriously getting into it. It takes between 3 and 4 hours so I was working at it, trying to cut it down. But spontaneity kept interfering. I keep falling back into the flowing. My problem is going with the flow. I am trying to stop going with the flow, but apparently that’s not going to work. I cut the time down to “OK, I’ll do it in two days.” Then it was covered in three days. Then this morning, the first day of 2021, the ritual went out the window because this transcribing of Valiant Thor’s interview is far more important. I have to accept that going with a flow is who I am.
 
Also a note to make here - I finished reading this morning the article that Muktananda wrote about his own personal experience. It appears in the John White book on kundalini.  Muktananda has many Indian words he uses which I don’t understand but get the general drift of. His story is about how he turned the sexual energy around from flowing downward to flowing upward in his body. A significant event. It was torture for him. It was demonic to him. He felt he was in hell during this time. It was devastating to him. He felt he was a failure after all his intense practices. But then he met the siddhi who explained it all to him. He went on to become a great guru, giving shaktipat to many. Hearing his personal experience and comparing it to my own subjective experiences over the last 45 years, was enlightening. I didn’t have his experience at all. I have always been coming down, where he was trying to go up. I was trying to come down and unable to come down. I was unable to connect with the physical lower density sensuality or sexuality of my body. I continued to have ecstasy experiences and they were too high to come down. So while he was physically trying to go up and trying to “pierce” the veils that were blocking him, I was subjectively coming down and not trying but going with the inner flow constantly. It was an inner wind in me that kept up floating upward. The realization that he was a man with a penis where erections and sexual feelings were normal, was significant. I am not sure that female bodies EVER experience this, although I really can’t say. I don’t know about other women, only what I experience myself.
 
These are my thoughts as I face this first morning of 2021 at my computer where my fingers find keys without thinking. This morning over breakfast I watched Blue Bloods, which is my favorite show when I’m eating alone. The two main characters of the show - the police commissioner and his daughter Erin – both had separate cases they were working on. Each was caught in the middle between the right way to handle it according to the law, and how they wanted to go according to their ethical feelings. Each was caught in the dilemma of not knowing what to do. They were surrounded by advisors, who encouraged following the law. My insight while watching this unfold was: Ask the higher self. Always go to the higher self or be stuck in the craws of the law. We are all here on Earth to re-establish connection with our higher perfection. Our life here is created to be a challenge so we will learn this, that there IS a higher self. There is a greater intelligence that is really US! Our higher self overlights us while we are down on the ground being battered around by external forces which we think we have to obey. No, we are not supposed to “obey” anyone except our higher self. Issues and dramas and traumas are struggles with the opposites and opposing forces that are working against our natural inclinations. Find the natural inclination and go that way. There are always two opposing sides. That’s why we embody here, to take on opposing sides. We are here either help others or learn lessons. In the end it’s always about learning a lesson. And the lesson is always the same -  to join the two opposing forces, to unite, to integrate, to merge, to become one with that which we’re battling. We THINK the force we’re battling is outside of us but it’s actually in our mind. For some reason we take on a split personality and we battle ourselfe. The lesson is to merge  the two sides of OURSELF and feel the peace, the surrender, the relief, the sigh, the relaxation into comfort. This conclusion is eventually reached by all of us.
 
The two forces are actually one force, one loving force that has been split in two to create a low density world. A low density world like Earth is required to offer the dark side of challenges. There is needed opposing forces to create lessons. It’s a chaotic mix here because everyone born here has a different opinion. It’s all organized as part of the great plan. The great oneness provides opportunities for this growth to take place out of love. Like a mother plans an exercise for her child so it can learn. The great intelligence of all is very loving. It is organizing it so we can find ourself. It is within us urging us onward. A situation or traumatic indecision is an awareness opportunity. Merge the two separate sides into one. You can’t do it with your ego. You have to surrender upward to the oversoul. It’s a light above your head. Your oversoul is your higher awareness. We are learning how to surrender to the highest in us. This is how we integrate the opposing force that is eating at us, gnawing at us, making us bitter. Continue to look to the oversoul above your head. We eventually learn to stop fighting the other half of our self. Remember the oneness from which we came that we call home. Some of us are closer to the oneness of home than others. Some are further away from the remembering. It is difficult for them to understand why others are fighting them. Others are so far away from home they are lost. They “know” they are right and they go to furthest extremes to subdue the other side, even to killing them if necessary. This is the dark side we call evil.
 
The lesson to remember is that we are all one force, not two. The oneness. Can you do that? Can you understand the oneness that is behind it all? Can you join the opposing forces in you and sew yourself back together again? Even for a little while? Long enough to move yourself up the rung of the ladder? The two forces are you and you. You are closing off one side of you and claiming the other side to be the only truth. There is a war going on. The war appears to be an external war with other people. You are trying to get them to come around to your way of thinking and seeing and understanding. But there is only one intelligence acting here. The solution is to look to the higher self and surrender to the decision of the higher self which acts as the referee in your battle with exterior forces that seem to be coming at you from all sides. Go silently to the feet of your higher self and take your shoes off because this is sacred ground. Bow your head to this great intelligence. Go to this referee for assistance, for a judgment, for wise counsel, to help you out of this dilemma. This is truly the great solution. Feel the peace. This is the only help that is being offered in these days – to go to the higher counsel which is wiser than you in your normal day-to-day understanding. You can call it prayer, if you like, but extrapolate prayer please from religion. Go to your own higher authority which is not religious but is the sacred authority that is above you, especially for you because you ARE that higher authority up above the earth plane. That authority knows you better than you know yourself. It is unconditionally loving. It won’t take sides with you. It will present the truth to you. It represents you on a higher plane which in turn represents you on an even higher plane. And on and on to greater planes of existence.  You are connected to the wholeness of the living universe in all directions. You are the oneness temporarily assigned to a divided world. You are here on a mission – to see for yourself, to test yourself, to see if you can remember that everyone on the planet is all one undivided species.
 
The only authority is right there above your head, the oneness at the crown of your head, a oneness seeping downward into your dense brain. Look up and become silent. Respect it. Ask for its advice and listen for a while. It will present solutions if you listen. It would be wise for everyone to do this. The episode of Blue Bloods this morning ended with both characters finding a way to satisfy the law and also come to terms with their own ethical sides. They actually found a way. Each was at peace with the outcome of their cases. It wasn’t perfect but they each felt at rest because they merged their human with their divine oversoul. That’s what we’re here for – to merge our humanness with our divinity. They each accepted the outcome. Both sides won. It was a good story. However there were those involved who didn’t agree with the outcomes. There will always be those who don’t agree with the outcome you decide upon, but that is not your problem. Each decision is either for the good of the whole or against the whole. If you find a solution that integrates both sides to your satisfaction, then it is a decision that is good for the whole. We are encouraged to remember this. 
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12/29/20  This morning during my inner silence time a terrific awareness burgeoned forth. The aliens talk about telepathic communication. That’s what they are doing with us. Instead of appearing in physical form in front of us they are connecting by telepathy, mind to mind with sensitives. They've been doing this right along for a number of years. Mostly it has been ridiculed but it's becoming more acceptable today.

It dawned on me like a rising sun, this is what we have in our personal relationships with each other - telepathic communication. We humans are a “collective”. The aliens speak of a “collective”. They repeat over and over that they cannot say something if it is not appropriate to their collective consciousness. They check in with their own first, before revealing something new to us who are receivers. They talk with their collective to decide if it is OK to enter into that thought pattern. If not, they say so. It occurs to me that we have this also in our couple relationships. We have a collective between the two of us. A couple friend of ours whom we have gotten to know closely, quite intimately, have a collective agreement between the two of them. While she wants to come and socialize with us, he doesn't. It is not that she is “obeying” him, to decline our invitation, it is respecting him. When my husband started relationship with a woman friend by phone, I felt disturbance but it was OK with me (we talked about it and I gave my permission). But when he he started sending her money, that was different. Then our relationship was in serious jeopardy and I told him, rather than "no" I said “go to her”. Explore that relationship with her. In essence, I gave him freedom.

We both felt it was jealousy at the time but later I realized I had done the right thing. When in doubt let the bird go free. If it is not to be, it will come back. If it was meant to be, it will not come back and we both will be free. It was a danger to our twosome collective. We had an understanding up to that point. When an outside force came into the picture, our little collective was in danger. We both felt it. We talked about it. This was checking in with each other. This is our collective. We are happy and in harmony in everything we do, as long as we are both in agreement with it. When something occurs that disturbs the balance, then there has to be a discussion to bring the agreement up to par, or let it go. It is a reaffirming of the contract. A repositioning of it to bring it up to the present.

The extraterrestrial civilizations are here not to disturb our collective, but to enrich it. They study us from a distance in a way we don't understand. They want to add something to us that will help us to grow into more harmony as a collective. They are not here to invade us or take us over. They are not here to challenge us. They are are here as big brothers and sisters. To bring us up to par with ourselves, up to a higher standard so that we are more inclusive instead of exclusive and repelling each other by feeling superior or inferior. They are more advanced spiritually, morally, mentally and technologically, the way the rest of the galaxy is functioning.

The ETs of the light, who are coexisting in harmony according to cosmic law, are all different species. They each have their own collective consciousness as a planetary group, or parts of a planet, but they have grown and matured beyond us. We are the laggards in the galaxy. They respect the other collectives and other species. They meet together at regular intervals to discuss matters, the way a couple does here on earth (or should). They form alliances when such alliances are beneficial and agreements are made. They have ambassadors who attend these meetings. They have representatives who appear for the rest of them, just like we have on Earth, to meet, discuss, talk, work through the areas where there is disagreement. It is an individual who attends meetings of alliances, acting as a representative of the whole planet or a particular region within planet. They do this easily, in a more mature, grown-up manner than earthlings do, because they have the ability to read thoughts and pick up negative motivations, which we here on Earth do not have. We are veiled here and do not see past the surface charm.

When they meet together they already know each other. They are connected as an energetic whole, an energy field. Higher dimensional planets are better at this than those like us who are below them in dimension. We don’t understand dimensions. Only those who are empaths and have an open mind to universal thought can receive this information. These people are channels and they are reporting on this informtion. I am an empath. For many years I was picking up uncomfortable feelings that made me squirm. These unpleasant feelings kept me from speaking. They kept me in fear. The world was like that outside of my pleasant family home on the farm. I had good honest parents who did not keep secrets. Later when I married a man based on unfinished karma, I went downhill badly and was on the verge of a breakdown. But at the last possibly moment I relied on my basic instincts for suvival and left the situation. After that I began to grow back into my natural self prior to that marriage. Now I am seeing others doing the same thing. We all go through difficulties and learn from this. We learn to grow wiser and to care for ourselves FIRST.

Getting past the darkness of past-life karmic situations is necessary before we learn to trust our natural instincts, which lead us back to our wholeness. These natural instincts are breaking up the darkness, which we call evil - the unscrupulous control systems run by immature, selfish and tyrannical liars, cheaters who are capable of dark deeds but fool us by putting on a charming mask. The world is changing because we are receiving contact from a family of neighboring planets, races, species, and higher dimensions all around us, enfolding us like an infinitely extended family. We are all related. Most people reading this probably don't believe this, but understanding will come in time. The higher planes of life live outside of our reality because our reality is heavy and dense. We can't see the larger picture, but we will in time. Just as a jungle native who never saw technology, sees the remarkable view when taken up in an airplane. We are getting the first peeks through our mental contacts, and a few physical contacts that are seldom reported. We are being hailed. We are starting to hail back.

This is so amazing to me. I am so excited. I have been inspired to anchor a group of similar thinkers in this my home where I live, but it has not come about yet. Perhaps later after the pandemic is over and everyone who wants one has had their vaccine. I don't want a vaccine, it would reduce my high frequency. But I understand others who want a vaccine. They should do what they feel is best for them. Then we can get back on the same page and continue moving forward without fear.

There is an open portal to the stars, to the galaxy, to the spiritual realms including ETs, angelics, celestials, ascendeds, whatever you want to call them by name, now in this new age that is here. The shift, they call it, which is an astronomical event. These influences used to be considered outside our normal for centuries, but are now filtering in and seeping into the minds of people. In the past, this type of contact, if anyone were to mention it out loud to a friend, has been received as a threat, as dark, negative, scary, a cautious thing, but it has been happening anyway right along. People who have experienced itjust kept quiet about it. You will see how deep it is by your own internal response when reading this. There is a growing collective happening. We, Earth, are a unique and growing collective. A new Earth is forming. We are part of it. We are ALL part of it. Even those who do not accept this yet and who refuse to accept it with anger, are part of it too. They are a real presence here. They are part of the equation. They cannot be denied. They are experiencing what is happening too, in their own way.
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12/27/20 - These posting come from my journal. They are my musings, my wonderings, my thoughts, and the Master DK comes through during these times. In the final product, it is difficult for a third party - the reader to know who is doing the talking.  It is difficult for me too. I don't always know until later, when I re-read what I wrote. DK is certainly talking here, but so am I from a personal standpoint.

I start out "I’ve got it now. Why the divine feminine doesn’t act." It doesn’t move. It is the creative element that is holding the atomic particles together in the shape of the form. It is everywhere holding form together. It is the form itself. It is the divine feminine who holds the form in place and gives it the power to move and to act. It is the power of knowing. Of knowing itself. It is the consciousness within form that knows itself as concentrated consciousness but it doesn’t move. It is simply conscious. It must hold still to be so concentrated and conscious so that the individual consciousness can know itself. So that it can walk around and speak words and think thoughts, feel emotions, touch solids and put it all together to enjoy itself. The divine feminine is the stillness that holds it all together so that it knows. It is the knowingness. That is why we feel so in touch with ourselves and so at peace when we become still and stop moving. Stop moving everything. All action is masculine. All thought is masculine. All emotion is masculine. Everything that moves in us is masculine because it is actively moving and changing and doing. Masculine is dynamic. All the while the divine feminine is holding still and holding space for the masculine (that means us, you and me) so we can move, think, feel, touch, do. The divine feminine is the peace in the center, holding the central hub of the wheel so we can move and act and change and grow.

All words spoken are masculine. All tastes are masculine. All sound and hearing is masculine because it movement. It is active. When there is no movement, when it is utterly still, it is feminine. We cannot achieve utter stillness while in the body, but we can come closer at some times than other times, and during a deep meditation we can move out of range of our body so that body all but disappears. We move into the higher planes of consciousness even while living here in the world. We can move closer to the brilliance of our own God consciousness the more often we become still. We should practice this periodically while we live in the world of people. That is why it has been said that God is a woman. But you could also say there is no separation between man and woman, God and Goddess, Father and Mother, stillness and action, because it is the same consciousness doing and being still. I pause and think about this. So what’s the point? I ask. Of becoming so totally impersonal that I yield and surrender, and give up wanting anything at all but to achieve the stillness? What’s the point of surrendering it all so there’s nothing left of me that I’ve come to believe in and rely on and know myself as? What’s the point?
 
The point is merging with the divine. Everything personal, every little beam of personal interest, every shaft of personal light, every slant on understanding from the personal platform is a shadow. The shadow is smaller, or lesser, than the brilliance that is the REAL you. The person slant on things interferes with you knowing the divine and holy one that is the real you, that remains silent, still, holding the manifest you in form together. The feminine supports you while you are busy being active, creating, talking, thinking, planning and emoting and doing wonderful things in the world of flesh and blood. The point is to become aware of the light. The consciousness of light is the reason you do this. The point is becoming aware of the light within. The reason for your being is to become alive with the light within and to continue to move around and enjoy the scenery that you have created around yourself through your acting and responding with others. You are weaving the net of life into manifest form. The periodic practice of sitting in silence to connect with the stillness within, during which you shed the personal shadows, does not mean you forsake the physical enjoyments or leave the physical plane. The connection with the light enables you to have a broader, more aware consciousness so that when you return your focus to the material world, you enjoy it more. You are excited to be here. Your conscious connection with the silence within enables you see the light everywhere you look. You enrich yourself beyond measure and beyond the ignorant surface dweller who walks in a dimmer light, and talks in a fog with other skin-walkers.
 
The point where this is leading is to bring you to more conscious awareness of the perfect light within you, secretly held within your every breath. (DK is talking here.) The point is to wake you up to that brilliance that you are underneath the covers. To uncover yourself you take the blankets off and allow the inner knowledge, the sunlight within, to bathe through you. The sun is not above you shining in the sky, it is in you shining outward. The truth shines impersonally outward the way the sun in the sky radiates impersonally on all below it. You saw this morning that the sun is too brilliant to look at. It is too bright for the human form to receive for in the human vessel, the shades are pulled down by the higher self to protect it from the brilliance. It would burn up, otherwise. The personal takes over and tones it down to acceptable levels. The divine feminine in the human vessel and in all of nature is the ever evolving point of allowability, of acceptability, of receive-ability of how much light you can receive that is within you. You are being watched very second and are assisted in your expansion to receive more. You are brought in touch with those who are a little ahead of you so you may touch the hem of their garment, experience their light radiation. And, in turn, you are brought in touch with those who are a little behind you so they may touch the hem of YOUR garment.
 
Those who are ascended above the earth’s physical solid form are ever available to be called upon. You touch the hem of their garment by calling and listening in silence. Sometimes you hear a voice in your mind. Other times you simply know something that you call an insight. Or you are brought in touch with something or someone in the outer world that influences change in you. It is all fluctuation. That is why I feel not to hold a personal desire for myself. It is so that I can stabilize stillness and serenity and hold the center as a sacred place here in my home and property. This is as concrete as stillness can be. This is me choosing this. I focus on this. I hold this in my mind. I cut away all that would disturb this concentration on serenity and stillness. It is not someone else telling me to do this. It is really me doing this. I want this. I choose this. I hold this center dynamically.
 
I want to assist others to find their own center of peace and tranquility. It is freedom. It is liberation from lesser confining restricted thoughts. I offer to be a conduit for peace and freedom. Everyone will eventually come to learn how to do this for themselves. “You are holding the divine in place in a solid framework for others to come and drink and receive the peace and freedom and love you are offering, so they can go home and radiate that love, peace and freedom in their own way. They are nourished by it, not by you but by the connection with peace within the others. Freedom flows impersonally, love flows impersonally, peace flows impersonally. It is not coming from one person. It is not coming from the outer personality. It is coming from the light within. The human being in its outer personality is a shadow, a veil imposed over the brilliance of the impersonal sunlight within. A human being is toned down from its own brilliance and is therefore assumes a personal appearance who has personal desires, wants, needs and fantasies. One human being’s personal is always going to be different from another human being’s personal. But you can come closer to your own brilliance by being in the company of others who are on your same vibrational level. You can grow your own truth by meeting together. You can grow the sacred Tantra by supporting those others who dream of Tantra.
 
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12/25/20 - In the night I woke with these thoughts running through my consciousness: “Talk about dimensions in the Goddess NL" and referred me to a specific page which was enlightening. It was about why we have warm fuzzy feelings with some people, and others not. Why do we feel this special connection? On earth we have souls from all over the universe being born here. We have those who just evolved out of the animal kingdom and have a human body for the first time. They are usually the innocent ones, just learning how to be human. Then we have those who have been in low density for many lifetimes and have lost any semblance of light and goodness. Then we have those who are starseeds from very high dimensions who are here to help lighten the earth. Then we have those from other species and are in human form as a sort of alien form. These could be Lyran (feline), Yahyel (gray/human hybrids), Pleidians (beautiful humans), Reptilians (both friendly and not), and more. They are also here to help, most of them. Their energies are different and each responds to situations according to what they are naturally used to. For me I am loving and kind and like to help people, I step in to anticipate people’s needs and try to soothe the way, but I’m an empath and I use my feelings rather than my intellect. Most people respond from their intellect, mental, logical, they analyze a situation first with their mind and make decisions based on what they have experienced before. So we have beings here who are from 2nd and 3rd dimension, others from 4th dimension, others still from 5th dimension and 6th dimension. Those higher than 6th probably were probably not born here but would appear through some other way I don’t know how.

As for me, I’ve grown into higher dimensions piecemeal, step by step, past lifetimes bleeding through. But here we are - all of us - in physical human bodies, all looking like average human beings, two legs, two arms, one head, looking the way they look. You can’t tell what is going on in the background of their consciousness. You can’t tell who they are. You can’t tell what their motives are except through feeling. By listening and reading between the spoken lines. It is through one's feeling nature that we are empathic and know what is behind someone. You just know in a way you can’t explain. It's not logical. You know what you know, and you make your way through life based on that knowledge. Different races have evolved on other planets, such as the felines (Lyrans), reptilians, bird people, snake people, dragon people, horse people, dog people. Earthlins came  from the monkey/ape people. Each species has evolved in self-conscious intelligence as a group or planetary species. We have animals here on this planet which we consider dumb, but they were planted here by their parent race to be part of this Earth garden of many species, many colors, many fragrances. We all co-exist in the same garden. We are the human species, the most intelligent (theoretically) species of all the kingdoms on earth, but we have not kept up with the planned advancement.

We have been overrun by dark species, foreign to our good nature, alien to our natural goodness. This has kept us down. That is why we were headed for destruction (were), and why the more advanced other planets have been advised to come to help us straighten out our evolution and put us back on track. We need them, the extraterrestrials because we are neighbors in the same galaxy (nearby), and from other galaxies at greater distances. As we evolve more consciously we will realize that we are a part of the larger family of light. They need us too. They need us to come back into the fold, because we are weighing them down, preventing their evoluation because we are part of them. Earth is a heavy density planet, not just third dimension, but warped and disfigured. We are not true to our own evolution. We need straightening out. The planet needs straightening out. That is why we are being visited through the various ET alliances.

Back to our human nature, that is why some people we meet have a special feeling for us, as if they are soul mates, as if we came from the same home planet. I met a man last night who told me about a soul mate he met many years ago. It was after he was married, and she was also married. They felt so good with each other they decided to cut it off because it would mean the end of their marriages. They agreed not to see each other any more, and they didn’t. Isn’t that sad? Why are we so warped that we can't spend time with new relationships? It is so natural, so wonderful, so easy to connect with certain ones. Each of us may look human from the surface, perhaps showing different ancestry yet still an earth-born human being. But we can't tell what is behind the surface hidden underneath in the depths of that person's history, knowledge, talent and awareness. We are each a walking library that contains countless lifetimes of experiences, good and bad. We have a huge accumulation of knowledge. We have all been around the galaxy and beyond gathering experience with different species. We are only visiting the earth in this body we currently inhabit. Because we were born here, we are an earthling but we could have come from Andromeda previously, or Sirius, or the Pleiadies, or any other planet of density. We could have come from another universe, another race, but we were born here in a human body. This is our home now, by birth. By our own voluntary choice to come here to earth at this time - voluntary by our real self which is out of view from this perspective. It is not by accident that we are here. No one made us to it! We volunteered. This awareness and accumulated memories have been pounded out of us by the deep programming from birth, aggressively, consistently, constantly, without let-up. Stamping the rigid finite fixed focus on earth's materialsim. We were told to forget the fantasies and invisible playments that occurred naturally when we were young, so that we shut down our connection to our homes wherever that was.

But the memories are within us and we are remembering them now. They are called mystical experiences or religious experiences and we may not talk about them, but we know who we are. Still, we were born here to participate in the the way of Earth life, and there are others like us out there. If we use our feelings, our empathy, our compassion and open minded-ness and the courage to make friends that feel right and good to us, we will make those connections. We break down the rigid walls by allowing ourselves to use our compassion and love for others as we see fit and feel appropriate. Take time to sit in silence. Implement a meditation program. Find out who you are by emptying your busy mind and busy body and becoming still. Listen to the underlying beating of the grace and perfection within.
 
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12/20/20 - More and more lately, the Ascended Master Djwal Khul has been speaking through me when I write but not always. Sometimes it's just me writing. Other times he takes over and I'm not aware until he uses "you" instead of "me" and I can tell. He has been guiding me for over 40 years but in a humble, back-door kind of way. He allows me to find my own words. I am still learning. I insist on having my own will involved but I have asked him to use my body whenever he feels inclined to speak. Often I do not know if it is he or me who is writing. 

When I speak of consciousness I mean YOU as a human being and your human consciousness. This is not abstract! Consciousness is not a force. Thought and other things are forces. But consciousness doesn’t move. Consciousness doesn’t have energy. Consciousness is behind energy. Consciousness is what begins thought. It begins it by focusing its awareness, or realizing. Consciousness creates forces or energy by becoming conscious of itself, otherwise consciousness is without that realization, content within its wholeness. Consciousness is moving the people and the worlds and the galaxies because it has awakened to consciousness. It has thus separated itself from the wholeness by waking up into realizations which are really frequencies, like an element quite different from the elements we know. It is seen as a crystal or a rainbow or a magnetic vortex of life swirling in place and creating a field around it. I have seen this many times, through the light inside my mind.
 
But consciousness is not a force. I – that which is conscious of being I – is not a force. Because I have entered into this body I have identified for a little while with it, but I live here only temporarily. I – the conscious I – will disengage as it has done in the past and allow the physical substance to fall away, allow the substance and energy of thought to fall away, allow the substance and force of the emotions I created to fall away, and in its place I shall be free and the same as I always have been, richer for my experiences, more fully comprehending what I am. This consciousness is lovely! I am me! I am in love with life for I know that life shall never go away, it always is here, enlightened by my awakening to who I am. This I is not a person. This I is not a feeling. This I is not a thought. This I is not anything mental. This I cannot be destroyed. This I cannot be moved. This I cannot be reduced. This I is the most imperishable of all that can be known. It is immovable, Imperishable, undying, unchanging. And it is the same I that is conscious in you, fooled into thinking that you are different from me.
 
This I is the observer that Krishnamurti speaks of.
This I is the jewel in the lotus in the Upanishads.
This I is the God of formal religion.
This I is the Father of the Christ.
This I is the Over-soul of Emerson.
 
This I is the Self without the trappings of body, clothing, prejudices, preconceptions, expectations, hopes, wishes, wants, hangups, hates, fears, jealousies, fantasies, greeds, appetites, possessions, and human love, human sacrifice, human martyrdom. Yet this I uses all of these to enjoy itself.
 
This I, in the process of becoming conscious, closes up the cracks in its makup. It is soft, shallow and unconscious of itself at first. But in the process of waking up one assumes the physical form – the highest form there is in which to wake up. The highest because it is the toughest. The highest because it is the lowest. The highest because it is the final test, to know oneself in human form. Now in human form one lifts himself, little by little up and pulls himself above the seething, rolling sea of mass humanity, by becoming conscious of his acts.
 
He closes the weaknesses in his personality. He sews up the holes in his psychic garment. He suffers the bangings from outside circumstances until he wakes up and says, “Ah HA! This shall never happen to me again, I shall see to that!” And he sews up the gaping hole in his trousers. He becomes more aware. He becomes more alert. He becomes more wise. He becomes more whole. He bcomes more conscious of himself, for he must watch out for himself. He is responsible for himself.
 
This is growth. This is pruning back the long, spindly arms of the wild and ignorant man growing in the jungle, to nurture his refinement and cultivation. Within the light in my mind I see the strengthening of the frequencies as a crystallization. The focusing of consciousness into oneself, body and mind and self. The strength is unbelievable. There is power beyond imagining when this is done. The mastery of the body’s unconscious appetites, and unconscious habits, is a refinement that allows untold pleasure and sensual experience. Mastering of the body is not giving up sensory pleasure – it is refining sensory pleasure to a delicate, exquisite art, worthy of the noblest son of God. The beauty and exquisite deliciousness that comes from focused consciousness increases the sensory pleasures a thousand times. What fools we mortals be to think we must put these lovely pleasures aside! We must wake up and learn and feel and enjoy and refine ourselves. The God in you has only just begun to enjoy Himself!
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12/18/20 - Let your dreams go. They are pebbles in the way. Flush them out. Become NO thing. Become void. Become. Don’t change things, just be. Don’t heal people. Just be. Don’t want things to happen. Just be. Be the want, don’t focus on WHAT you want. Be the change but don’t focus on WHAT you want to change. Be the healing but don’t focus on WHAT or WHO you want to heal. Do you see? Do you understand the difference? What you focus on becomes solid in 3D. It becomes a pebble that today you might want but tomorrow you will not want and it will be an obstacle in your path. You are being shown many things that you want, only to have them dissolve before your eyes the next day. You are being shown that wanting these things, these material things in the physical world, are illusions. They shift and change hourly, daily. You are being shown how to not want but to remain in an open fluid state of consciousness. The void. The monks who do elaborate sand paintings, magnificent, intricate designs, and then blow them away, are doing exactly what you are doing now: creating a picture of your desires on the world and then blowing them away. Do you understand? 

YOU are the lesson. You! You are the reason, the cause of what is happening to you, for you. YOU are giving yourself a lesson. A truth. An awareness that you need to understand in your 3D body in order to stop doing what you have been doing! Stop wanting a group. Stop designing a group. Stop wishing and praying for a group. Stop trying to figure out what kind of group you want. Stop changing your mind to create new designs. Stop! Let go. Allow yourself some peace. Stop trying. Stop changing. Start enjoying your freedom from trying. Even wanting freedom is an illusion. It becomes a pebble in your shoe to focus on freedom. It becomes irritating. it becomes a “thing”. It becomes an obstacle to you. You are a grand design, created by the Creator itself. 

You are magnificent in your own right, when you stand alone without all these little pebbles that have worn you down from wanting them and not getting them, or wanting them and getting them and then getting bored with them. The coming and going, the creating and dissolution, the building and designing, the controlling that is required to build something - these are all part of the 3D program that is dissolving now. It is the old program that you have been operating within. It has been a carefully constructed gridwork that you were born into and locked into but now the grid is ending and breaking up, leaving you standing there alone with yourself. You are beginning to understand, but you had to remind yourself of who and what you are by speeding up the process of wanting something and then having it disappear and then wanting something else and having it disappear. Creating and dissolving. It is the 3D program ending to make room for the new program that is coming in. You are beginning to understand that you exist beyond the program of cause and effect, of duality, of build and destroy. You exist in a larger field of intelligence and play. The end of my sermon! (I felt DK fading, leaving me feeling empty)

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12/16/20 - Light is a living consciousness. Dark is not bad as long as it has some light in it to keep it alive. Light is conscious of Good/God. Harmony. There are precise laws of Good/God which keeps the planets, suns and galaxies orbiting in order around greater central suns and galaxies. Dark has a purpose. Darkness is lack of light and provides a heaviness of atomic particles. Darkness creates mass and gravity and heaviness. It provides form for physicallity. Is there a science of darkness?? Technology is another story. Technology can be taught to copy consciousness but it can’t be taught good/God or Light. Light is a living force, a conscious living force. It is God. Technology is an artificial copier. it is not innately good/God, nor is it living. Therefore it can become evil, it can become a highly advanced and intelligent evil. It will not last long, however, maybe for a time, but without the impulse to align with Good/God, it will eventually destroy itself. Good is immortal and is growing ever bigger. In comparison, mankind and all of nature is on a continually evolving path of consciousness aligning with Good/God.

The soul learns what is good and not good through its feelings. What feels good and what does not feel good it learns to discard what feels wrong. Technology does not have feelings in its cells and therefore does not have the living Good/God to compare itself against. Soul is immortal. It will live forever unless it turns toward darkness and refuses to align with Good/God/Light. It is possible to lose one’s life that way, but those are relatively few. Light is winning throughout the universes. Ascension is the aligning with Good/God through our feeling nature. There is intense focus on Ascension in this time since the ‘60‘s,  ‘70’s, ‘80’s, because the solar system and galaxy is speeding up and we are part of the system. It’s happening without our choosing. But it’s best if we choose according to our feeling good, and rejecting what makes us feel bad. We are going up through layers of dim light to brighter light and brighter realities which is increasing our “feel good” realities, more joy, more delight, more clarity, more togetherness, more bliss, more understanding, more ecstasy. The closer to the ultimate source or supreme peak we go in our self consciousness of feeling good, the closer to Good/God or Allah or Source we come. And all our adventures as a separate being are not lost, are not in vain because we retain the knowledge and learn from it. We are unique yet in oneness with everyone else, the all that is. We are not just a CHILD of God, we grow up to become God, become a part of the Godhead. After learning what is not God in us, after getting rid of everything that is NOT God, through feeling and personal experience, what is left over is God, ecstasy, nirvana, etc. Consciousness, not unconsciousness. We don’t lose ourselves. We become ourselves as God. 

I can’t fix anybody or even heal anyone because everyone is finding themselves  by their own paths and choosings. But I CAN be a sign posted along MY way. Only MY way. My path. The world is a mess because people are trying to find their choices through others outside themselves, and don’t know which way to go. I am getting the feeling that it is all about FEELING. Feeling what is right and what is wrong, not by logic or by thinking, but by FEELING every situation that comes up. We are using excuses like “I have to take the children...” Or “I have to go to work”. “I have to earn money. I have to cook dinner. I have to finish this process. I have to go see someone about... There are many “have to’s” but where are the “I feel to’s”. Everyone is trying to fit a “should” or a “must” or a “have to” into their actions - all of which is an artificial rule or an order or a law or a contract they think they have signed or promised. Where are the “I feel‘s...?” 

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12/14/20 - My personal mission is to hold the center on the feminine divine. In the upper realms there is no masculine or feminine. It is just divine. The higher you go, the more into oneness and less separation. It is all about identifying with this beautiful clear oneness within. There is no separation between me and the oneness. I am the light. I am the glory. I am the peace and the perfection and the allness that lives in forms and beyond forms. I am to hold the center. DK told me to hold myself in the center of the light. I had been shuffling through the women I know, trying to find the ones who best resonate with me. That is fool-hearty. There is no one who resonates with you because you are unique, one of a kind. (DK started talking to me.) It is your consciousness of yourself that is unique. You can never become the consciousness of another person, or another being, but you can click with their oneness. You recognize their oneness. Your uniqueness can click into their uniqueness and you can resonate with their oneness because you and they are one, part of the wholeness. But if you are seeking to resonate with someone who is trying to find themselves, as you are trying to find yourself, it is foolish. You will bog yourself down. It becomes personal.

There are parts of them that you will NOT resonate with, and it will cause you to question yourself and them. This is a bog-down. Give up trying to find the perfect mate. Women are no different than men, they just come in softer packages due to the issues you have had sublimating yourself to immature men in this darkened world. You are lifting yourself out of that mud that was clinging to you. You have separated from it. You are brushing yourself off. You are breathing free of it. But you are still aware that it is a mud-clinging creature. You are trying to find the divine in that mud-clinging creature and you keep trying. You keep questioning “Where is it?” You do not want to give up, but that is exactly what you must do - give up trying. Instead, focus on the glory of God that is within you and that is waiting for you to recognize it within you. Stop trying to resonate with faulty human beings and focus your virtuous thought upon God within. Feel the God within. You are the body resonating with the God within. You feel the I Am within and you are all powerful. But when you allow your thoughts to turn away from the God within and try to capture or figure out the other person, you lose that connection within.

You are here to be a pillar of light. You have grounded yourself. You have built up a column of light by your actions, thoughts and intentions. You have spoken it out loud for others to hear. Do not be pulled separately. Remember that you are building a column of light here and it is within you. Not out side you. It is within you as your consciousness. Be aware. Be alert. Be conscious of the light within you. You do not need to name me. You do not need to assign authorship to your articles. You do not need to assign your own name to the articles. Just present the message. You have done well to present the message. You are receiving feedback. Yes, the women yesterday provided you excellent, clear-eyed resonance to your seeking. They did well. Do not try to conform to them or judge them as better than you or lower than you. Do not even judge them as different than you. Recognize instead, the clarity that came to you through their eyes. It was an excellent connect. Excellent indeed. It was worthy of all of your attempts to find the divine feminine. The divine feminine that you are seeking is in you. Do not look for it elsewhere. Do not try to teach it to others.

The divine feminine is you holding the pillar of this knowledge within you. You are publicizing it now. You are radiating it now. You are letting others know. It is your mission. You wanted to do this. You struggled to arrive here. Now you are continuing to shine the light. You will receive further calls. You will receive those who recognize your light. There will be others. Hold the light. Do not let the light stray. The light is a beacon light, like a lighthouse beacon to lost ships at sea. It is the light that gives them a focus, a place to connect to, a thought to connect to. A feeling to connect to. It is a rightness that they seek. It is a resonance that they seek. The beings in this world tend to lose themselves, even lightworkers tend to go adrift and forget how to find the resonance. When you are lost and there is a confusion confronting you, do this little trick: turn around slowly, as if you are a compass seeking north. Turn slowly through the thoughts that you pick up, the resonances that you pick up as you slowly turn. Turn and allow various thoughts strike you. Is this the way? Keep turning and feeling for the right way. You are a compass seeking the right direction. Walk towards the rightness feeling. There will be a thought attached to it. There is a direction here and a different way to approach or deal with the current situation. Perhaps it is merely to walk away. Perhaps it is to walk towards. Perhaps it is to shift slightly in one direction or another. Feel your way as you shift focus. 

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12/12/20 - I have been asking Djwal Kul to teach me about Tantra. He tells me and I write this down as he is speaking.

"Love made physical is healing. You want a quick fix, but it is not quick. You are accustomed to a society that takes a pill or gets surgery to remove a part of the body that has gone wrong. You are accustomed to having it “your” way but your way has not succeeded, has it? You must learn to open your mind and heart to new things, things that you formerly rejected. It is time to take down the walls that shield you from your healing on deeper levels. Allow your gentle side to take over. Allow yourself to feel the energies of surrender, of giving up. Let your toughness surrender. The whole of you, the whole of your God self cannot come into your life and body because you have created a shell of hardness. It is all done with your mind. Your thoughts of defensiveness, your thoughts of survival, fear of not getting enough, your thoughts of frustration that you allow to play over and over, your thoughts of anger toward someone you felt had wronged you - now feel the energy of surrender. Give it up. This is the attitude of Tantra. It is the path of love."
 
(There is a lull and I am feeling stillness now and I am being given the energies of gratitude, surrender, celestial, angels, joyful, peace, love, light, and then....)
 
"Until the hard shell falls away of these tough stones, nails and rubbish, there is no room for love and the family of light that accompanies it - joy, appreciation, reverence, honor, respect, humility, compassion, beauty, grace, dignity, warmth, peace, safety, freedom. When the family of love and light enter the body it produces wholeness, which is felt as bliss, ecstasy, rapture, nirvana.
 
"It is not a quick fix to reach the profound states of love, but once on the right path there is enjoyment, pleasure, fun. Just take the beginning steps to correct your path, from one of feeling lack to one of feeling delight and fulfillment. It is not sex that is the bridge to higher consciousness, it is love. You must not limit your love to one person and shut off the rest of the world. Your life partner with whom you live is in your life for reasons other than romance. They are in your life to help you learn and grow. The challenges you meet both at home with family and outside of family are your own resistances. You are challenged by your own resistance. Tantra teaches surrender of resistance so that you may blend with the energies of life that are everywhere. Tantra means in Sanskrit “net” or “web”. It refers to the web of consciousness that pervades all existence. Love is the glue that holds us all together. When you are free of resistance you may blend with and enjoy making love with all of life, becoming one with a butterfly, the wind, the grass, the rain, a stone, a child, an old man or woman. All of life is either formless or formed. You are life currently in form but you are only temporarily in form. You are spirit - consciousness - with or without form, and even while in form you may cultivate love without limits, without resistance and enjoy the sensual pleasures of the body to such an extent that you are thrown into rapture and nirvana. It is not sex that does this but love without limits."

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12/11/20 - Enter the center where Yin resides. Yang is the outer whirling arms. Meditation and tantra is the practice of stilling the outer senses and focusing on the inner imagination. Some people say time is moving past so fast they can’t keep up, but time is not moving at all. Only the hands of the clock move, and the arms and legs. Time does not move. There is no movement at the center. Enter the center where there is no movement. There is no sense of movement in the center. The center is where love blossoms. Where connections are felt. Where individuals merge yet retain their individuality. Where individuality expands to greater clarity. The center is where you know yourself and I know myself. The center is where we can enjoy intimacy together. The center is an elevator to higher grander vaster ground, to a higher form of love that is not possessive. The center is where you can have many lovers, many friends, many family members, in harmony, without conflict, without jealousy. The center is where you access your own deepest resources. The center is where physical sex becomes a spiritual and emotional connection. The center is where wisdom flows like water, where visions twinkle and sparkle, where love becomes freedom, and freedom becomes love, where yang becomes yin and yin becomes yang, the outer and the inner, merge and become One with All That Is. The result is bliss, ecstasy, rapture and more. In order to grow in wisdom and love, you must learn how to integrate and balance the ego - which is your sense of being separate from others -  with your higher self which is one with all others. Higher self keeps you sane, whole, balanced, clear and real.

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12/9/20 - Divinity is 100% built on excitement. Excitement energy is the evolving upward ideal energy. It is smooth, not jagged as you are used to calling excited. It wants to return home. It is returning home. Divinity is in you but it has been separated from its home (oneness) by fragmented bits and pieces and you feel it as shut off, shut down. So, it is excited when it is plugged back into itself, the source. It is alive like electricity when it is plugged in. It is going home! Now it is up to you to manage it and control it. Use it in your own way. It is there for you to use. If you are feeling it, use it. Don’t shut it off. Be aware of excitement energy. Be alive. Be in the center of this energy. 

The purpose of density, or physicality, is to raise the mass. Mass is condensed consciousness which forgot who it was. Without the light of consciousness, the mass gets heavier and heavier until the light goes out completely and it is lifeless. I am shown black holes in space that suck up such lifeless objects, but they are recycled and re-purposed on the other side. The purpose of physicality and mass is to create a beautiful glowing physical world with physical human beings who have not forgotten their light. But it has also not forgotten its mass, its physical body. There is a reason for creating mass. Mass provides the fun of emotion and pleasure that solid forms can have with other solid forms who remain conscious of the light within them. Beautiful physical forms are a blend of light and mass. We call it darkness but it is simply mass.

While I meditated this morning I saw a ship directly overhead in the atmosphere beaming down to me. I had a lengthy speaking in tongues session during this time as the inner wind came through me and spontaneously started vocalizing. It was quite strong. It was like a blessing on my own body, into various parts of my body, appreciating and sending love and acknowledgment to my body. I receive the most wonderful experiences when I don't have an agenda or goal or list of exercises. I was told to not reach for spirit. Spirit is already there. All movements are of the mind, the aggressive mind. It is best when I surrender all movement of my mind. When I "think" about something, it comes and takes control of my mind. It is best when I am still. I am told, "Be still and know what is moving. Watch the movements, but be still." I am still learning this. I watch and see how my mind works. 

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12/7/20 - The fourth dimension is all about feelings. We exist within the fourth dimensioin right now, even as we are in the 3rd dimension. The 4th dimension interpenetrates the body. The feelings of the fourth dimension are not just what we receive from the outer perspective, looking at other people, but from the inner perspective of the one who is behind the looking out. Agartha says there are two learnings, one is functional learning through tasks we take on in the physical, and second is observational learning from the non-physical perspective.

I was shown the non-physical observation (the inner) and how it works in tandem with the physical function (the outer), and how it connects and integrates with the physical function learning. This was shown to me in a dream as actors on stage are performing and being filmed by a TV crew. There was then another TV crew behind the first TV crew who were observing the functional TV crew. The functional TV crew were focusing on the actors, zooming in and getting the right angle and sound of each person on stage. The observational TV crew were focusing on the first TV crew, the people who were working at their task of focusing on the actors and filming them from the right angle. I was with the observational crew. We were watching the functional TV crew becoming intensely focused on the actors. We watched them as they watched, listened and observed facial and body movements. They were absorbed in the actors every move and becoming more closely connected with them, even identifying with them, as we observed them from behind them, from a’far.  I saw the TV crew blending with the actors. I could see them becoming one with the actors. They were identifying with the actors.

It was just a normal TV show but this showed me how intense mental focus can become emotionally attached to an object outside itself, and how this intense focused concentration is a link and a connection to the object being concentrated upon. This is how emotion is created. The TV crew were filming only surface appearances of other human beings, but their observations were becoming so intense that they were moving their signature energies back and forth between the actors and themselves, the TV crew, the cameramen, soundmen, and the actors themselves. They were creating a oneness between them. It was energy in motion, E-motion, and everyone was becoming one consciousness as the filming and acting proceeded. Now, we were observing this. We who were watching the TV crew perform its function as film-makers watching the actors, we were being influenced by this going on. We were also being drawn into the consciousness of the filming. We were also being affected. The observer behind the observer of the actors on stage. I am thinking about the web of life which is called tantra.

As I have been listening over the past two weeks to the Galactics channeling through Girkfitneer website, I am studying the connection process. This is like a summary, or conclusion, or the capstone on the study. I see it in action. There is a heightened communication going on here. I am learning and connecting and identifying. As I watch Jim’s face as he channels many different galactic beings, and as I listen to the Galactics speak through him explaining from their side, and as I listen to the chat room questions back and forth between ETs and humans, I am drawn closer and closer into understanding that we are all one consciousness. We were separate and now we are growing into a community of oneness. We are growing in connection. It is only one consciousness that flows through all of us, no matter what planet we are on, and we are becoming that one consciousness as we focus and concentrate on what we learn. I realize this in the middle of the night and wake up to recognize it. I am being shown how separation and duality is healed through functionally interacting with people on the physical level. Through intense focus of mental concentration and listening. I realize it is the same consciousness in them as in us, as in me, no matter what they look like, it doesn’t matter. The same consciousness is in us and in them. It is us. It is them, it is the other. We are all one.

Later, while transcribing the meeting with the government and ETs reported by Tekkrr, I briefly wondered what she looked like. She is Lyran, feline, a lion, but that thought was brief because what she was saying through Jim as he channeled her, was more important. I felt a familiarity, a rightness, a synchronicity, a linking with her. I identified with her, a galactic from beyond earth. That was more important and more valuable to me. In addition, I became more heightened and aware of the process of her use of the English language. Language is important to convey consciousness and feelings, but how is this done as she uses Jim’s body as a conduit and channel? Does she use his brain or his energy? She said she studied the human for two years and learned the thought process of humans and the psychology of humans. But how does this apply to language, such as English, French or German? They do it through telepathy, mind to mind, so maybe it is the intention that selects the right words to use. Maybe the thought behind the thought behind the thought?

This whole experience of listening and observing with the Galactics is first contact with ETs. It is about connecting mentally and consciously with other beings in the galaxy who are more heightened mental beings than we are, whose awareness is higher and vaster than ours. They are of a higher consciousness and they are reaching us to help us expand our own.  I am experiencing an expansion of my consciousness as I listen and connect to what is being said through the channel. I am identifying. Mental observation becomes a connection to the object or person being observed. This is what is meant by “quantum”. The quantum field that scientists are discussing in these times. Everything changes and moves by the observer who is observing. His consciousness is the mover. It is done through consciousness. Many people are unconscious and not aware of their own consciousness. There are levels to consciousness called "awakening consciousness".

On earth we are separated in our consciousness so we reduce our connections with each other to a surface level and ignore the depths underlying the surface. We engage only with what is seen with our eyes. But when I am alone and read articles or listen to videos I listen deeper. It takes me to other planes of consciousness. There is emotion involved when I move my consciousness from one level to another. Emotion is movement. Emotion is movement like crossing a bridge that connects two distinctly separate planes of reality. When I read the Printz book (ascendeds) or listen to Girkfitneer (galactics), I am heightened and I feel excited. I learn things. When I close the book or video and come downstairs it takes a while for me to re-focus. It's denser downstairs. It's more solid and mundane. It is my base foundation and is immovable so I have to allow myself a little time to re-connect. It is the old world, the past, the old consciousness which is fixed in place. But it's OK because I understand. Once I have re-connected to my functional (physical) world again, I am good and feel emotionally connection again to the mundane world and the various tasks that I must do to be a contributor.

The interesting thing is, that now that I have been to a higher plane, I can bring back a better perspective. I can make better decisions pertaining to my physical tasks. I know better what to do and what is appropriate for me to tackle of importance. I have better discernment. I have to be careful though, because if I sit too long at the kitchen table idle, I become stagnant. It is better that I move around more quickly because movement helps me stay connected to my world. Energy is created through connection. Energy in motion is how we connect with each other. I try to move around more often, and try not to sit still in one place too long (difficult for me!) because then I become "settled in place".  If I move around from task to task more often, I feel more alive for some reason. This is a yoga practice, too, I understand. Move yourself more often. Become fluidly connected to your tasks. It helps to be more fully engaged in the world. It is a connection between mind and body, which is what yoga is. Yoga is a yoke between the mental abstract world of thought and the physical world. The bridge is the emotional-feeling of connection. In trying to decide which mundane tasks I should do first, my emotions tell me. There is a fluidity to the physical world and if I myself stay somewhat fluid myself (and not dumbed down) I can detect  what is calling me to action, and what is most appropriate at the moment.

It’s done through feelings of wanting. I want to do this task. If I just sit stagnant and look around the room, I see only through the intellect. In order to connect I need to stand up and move myself to “feel” into the fluidity of the room. I enter into the river of life of the room. Every object has a life force to it. What draws me? Where do I want to go next? Mental observation becomes emotion through connecting with the vibrations of the objects in the room, house or office. I like to think of a human beings. If I am in a circle of human beings, I would be drawn to one or two over the others. I would have more affinity with them.  I heard in Hareesh's video that Tantra is not transcendence, it is about living fully functioning and alive in the physical world. It is engaging with the world, not trying to transcend it like many spiritual paths appear to be teaching. 
 
Men of earth pride themselves in shutting down their emotions and so separating themselves from their girlfriends, wives and children. Men are programmed to do that by their father mostly, and perhaps some mothers do that too. It creates duality, coldness, rudeness and disrespect in the family. The world is in conflict because of the way men – mostly men, some women - shut off their ability to feel emotions and thus do not feel connection. There is that within us that is capable of a better, fuller consciousness with others and ourself.  We instinctively know that we are all one consciousness having separate adventures, but we love doing it “our” way alone, without help. We want to figure things out by ourselves. “Wait, don’t tell me!“ This is the Earth school. We learn by separating ourself from the pack. We are forced to discover the resources within ourself. We are learning to be Self responsible. Self accountable. Self aware and dependent only on our SELF. But there is another side to us which needs to connect with others and the world around us. It is the feminine side of ourself. This applies to women as well as men for we have all done it, not just the men.

There is a shift underway. We are in a new age. We are finishing up the old way and closing them down, each inside of us alone. We are aware. And we are moving ourselves back into balance, away from separation and aloneness, by coming back in touch with our emotions. Our emotions are the bridge to higher consciousness. It is a connection to planes of existence beyond. We are returning to connect first with ourself, then to others, then out to others from beyond this realm. It’s a return to our galactic roots and the universe as a wholeness. We each one of us is feeling it or sensing it in our cells, that we are one in the body of oneness or wholeness of God, depending on what word you choose to use. It is one mind and one source. The one creator. The all-that-is. Still, even though we are being called home to oneness, we are not being called to leave the planet. The shift is entirely a consciousness shift, a mental opening, like the iris of camera lens opens to take in more of the surrounding te4rrain. We do not lose our individuality or our body in this process. We strengthen our individuality. We become more of an individual by staying rooted and grounded in the center of our mind as we expand the experience and take in more than we saw before. There is a sense of wonder and awe the more we can take into our conscious knowledge and remain firmly in our own center. Then we link to others naturally and easily who are doing the same thing. We click in, fit in with the rest of our collective. We, this “I” that I am, is a part of the great mystery. We don‘t lose our consciousness, we expand it. By linking in we become part of the unity of what has been called “heaven”, the infinite, but we retain our individuality. 

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12/4/20 - Very strong lifting sensations cause me to swoon, lay down and trance out. In essence, leaving my body. But it leaves me uninterested when I return. I want to stay in bliss. I am sure this is an ascension symptom. I am conscious during this time but unable to function here, and there is a sense of loss when I return. It is difficult to get interested in the mundane physical life when there is no one on my wave length. I'm mentioning this here just in case I disappear from the web and you wonder. I have followed other people on the web and they disappeared and I don't know what ever happened to them. As I continue to learn more about the higher worlds I am drawn into those higher worlds. They are of harmony, love and grace. Trying to stay in a physical body requires having an interest in the physical world and this world is so chaotic and scared that friends I can relate with are hard to find. We are social creatures and need each other to validate each other. Having friends who can communite freely their innermost thoughts and being up close and personal is important to keep the physical body feeling good, valued and wanted. We are on the path of ascension. That means we are uniting in world peace but there's a way to go yet. I have some feedback to share.

We must learn to stop blaming the dark and evil ones, WE, humanity, are the dark and evil. We, who are gods in training, are stopping our own progress by stopping the fire of Earth, the evolutionary love force coming up from the ground, stopping it from flowing up the spine to activate ALL of the chakras. Chakras are located in the spine on a higher plane called etheric. We’ve all been through the animal phase, now is our time to master the human vessel. Now is time for the upright human. Not four legs but two. We are to stand tall reaching up to the heavens. Humans are creators, designed to flower (we are a flow-er). But we are not flowing as we should be flowing - up through the spine through the central column of light which is etheric. We are stopping the flow at the sacral or sex chakra by having sex without male-female balance. The man and woman are out of balance. Each one of them. It is because we are having sex without reverence, love and appreciation for the highest in us, the holiest in us, that the higher and holiest is not being attained.
 
Yes, an orgasm is good for the body. It clears the lower body but it isn’t reaching the higher body. The fire that is in Mother Earth - the spirit of Mother Earth - is vitality. This is the vitality that feeds us humans. It is the health-giving force but it is also the holy love of Mother Earth that causes spiritual evolution. She is trying to flow her love, her evolutionary force, upward through human beings. She is shining her evolutionary force upward, influencing all sentient beings in nature - the trees, plants, vegetables, insects, animals and birds, but the human being has failed to receive this flowing the way we are supposed to be receiving it. We are a different species altogether. We are still connecting ourselves to the animal ways instead of becoming wholey human - holy humans. We are supposed to be flowering upward towards the heavens. I must talk about this holy force within.
 
The central pillar of light that comes down from above the head, around the spine and into the earth below our feet, is etheric. It is filled with light. We don't even know that we have an etheric body, never mind knowing about the central pillar of light which contains our chakras. The chakras need to be ignited consciously by the person who lives in the body. He must acknowledge this evolutionary force and consciously work with it, allow it and lift it through certain procedures and processes with his mind, but we are not doing that. We have not been told about it. We have been held back in ignorance of the etheric body which is feeding the physical body. We are supposed to be the stewards of the planet, we human beings. We are designed to be the wisest of all the species on earth, conduits through which the higher forces above and the lower forces of earth can meet, unite, expand and become one force within us. We are designed to become fully aware of both our higher powers and our lower powers. This makes us into super humans - intelligent, wise, and with the ability to create beyond what we have created thus far on earth. But we are stopping the flowing (the flowering) by our ignorance about sex. Male-female sex. We do it over and over the same way, stopping it with an orgasm. The orgasm stops it. We should be lifting it higher but we don't know how to do that. This is a Tantra teaching.

Without understanding this, we continue to use the earth force up, spit it out and waste it and it doesn’t flow up the spine to the higher chakras. If we would only learn how to do that we would become a people of refinement and graciousness, and a world at peace with no more wars. We would ignite revelation, divine revelation, faith, hope, love, encouragement, health, abundance and the desire to unify, enrich, refine and beautify everything we touch. Higher purpose would be achieved as we would be in higher service to each other.  I suspect that most people don't know what I'm talking about, but I'll be writing more about this. I'll try to define it in more down-to-earth words. The evolutionary force is stopped at the sexual climax. When the man spends himself during grunting sex. The second chakra is the sex chakra which gives life force to the reproductive organs.  When the focus is on sex, with the climax being the ultimate goal, there is no higher focus on love. All we know is that orgasm gives physical pleasure and bliss. It is always about the physical. but sex brings pleasure and bliss for those who enjoy it, it does not bring pleasure and bliss to those who are in pain and torment for those who are used as tools for sex. It is a selfish pleasure for those who want sex, but it makes victims out of those who don't want it or who are confused about what is expected of them. Children included. 

Bringing bliss and pleasure to the lower body for a few minutes while the higher body doesn't get the benefits, is the animal way. The animals do not have the upright human design. They have a different evolutionary design. Their evolution is on a lower level. They will reach the human level some day. The human being is designed with spirituality hovering overhead, waiting for the man to stand upright and connect with it. It is the evolutionary force designed for the human being. It is the divine plan to draw his attention upward, ever upward to connect with his own divinity which is descending down from the unformed source of life. This is why we are here. It is mankind’s greatest gift, to be able to stand tall, upright and reach upward to the stars that shine above him and cause him to wonder.
 
The females are trying to tell the male of the species that she wants more love. She asks for more love in a myriad different ways. She tries to seduce the man to come up higher past the third chakra at the naval to reach the fourth chakra in the heart. The blockage is at the 2nd chakra, and also more blocks at the 3rd chakra, which is the navel. This block creates issues with personal power. It's selfish power. She tries to bring him up higher beyond the 3rd to the 4th chakra which is the heart chakra, where love is activated and released and floods the bodies of both. Love is a higher power than the 3rd. Going up higher to the 5th chakra at the throat, when this is activated, it releases the power to speak truth frankly and openly without holding back. Then communication begins to take place which is free flowing, truthful, caring and considerate. The 6th chakra at the third eye brings peace and comfort to the one who succeeds in opening it. The 7th chakra at the crown opens and the power to access the soul chakra, known as the 8th chakra, takes place. This in turn activates higher chakras for we are connecting in the web of consciousness to a vastness that we can only evolve into. 

There is a plan and a pre-ordained destiny for humankind to grow into his higher individuality. Each individual has a special and unique sense of purpose. But if this grand evolutionary force is blocked at the lower sex chakra, we are holding it back. I know, sex feels good. And so we keep doing it. We recycle the same experience over and over. We never get past the 3rd chakra where personal power is held locked up, to rise to the heart where love is locked up. We must learn more about sex. Sex is what animals do; lovemaking is what humans are designed to do. It's higher and better and more beautiful but we have become stuck at the animal level.  We haven't reached our destined promised land yet, but we will. A few individuals have done so and more are begiinning training with Tantra. Tantra is the master course to look to, but there are few knowledgeable masters of the art. I have lived Tantra in former lives but didn't have access to memories until late in life. However instinct has guided me. We should not be wasting our life force through superficial sex. We should be practicing love in a worshipful way. It is something that can begin today, tonight, with a beloved partner, but only YOU can do it within yourself. Nobody can take you by the hand and guide you because very, very few people even know about it. Only YOU can raise your vibrations, your attention, your intention and your desire to become more worthy of the life flowing through you, and assume the holiness that you can imagine. But do it secretly. Don't talk about it. It is not for your partner to know what you are doing. Then it becomes self-aggrandizement. Worship your partner silently, with your heart and mind and observe how it plays out on them. Whether you are a man or a woman. Either of you can start practicing Tantra. I will be speaking more about it.

You need a partner to practice with, to observe the beautiful feedback. But again, do not speak about it. It is your own inner work. Don't expect anything from your partner. Simply observe how YOU feel. Don't expect your partner to raise you up (although if you have an excellent partner, then good for you!) But the responsibility is on you to shift your approach to a higher level. We are here to figure out how to do that all by ourself. There is no "how to" manual. Don't waste this precious energy on superficiality and selfishness. Give love in a higher way. Shift focus from self to other. This begins the flow of the vitality, the fire in the belly.
Eventually humankind will learn his destiny - which is to ignite all the chakras so he flows with vitality between heaven and earth, and from earth to heaven. In so doing this, by achieving this, he will find himself remaining stable and feel at home upon the earth.

What I'm talking about is a seed of a new thought. It will not be taken seriously at first but a thought seed will be planted by all who read this. When mankind as a race - both men and women but mostly it's the male who fixates on sex and the genital orgasm -  begins to understand the deeper and higher levels of his own body, he will discover the cosmic bliss. The sexual orgasm is a lower body release of stress and tension, causing a few minutes of knock-out bliss, whereas the full-body orgasm is created with love and one remains conscious into the higher realms. It is a different sensation. The full-body orgasm opens all the chakras at once and ping-pongs on up the ladder to is heart, head and beyond. This can be done without a partner in a different manner. Research Taoism to learn this

There will no longer be a problem of erectile dysfunction in the future man. The pumping action of friction will not be required. When he starts to listen to his feminine counterpart and turns over control to her, he will lose his need to be fixated on his genitals, both his and hers. He will allow her to lead him and they will follow along together. She will know what to do instinctively, for she flows in the upward direction all the time. It is the feminine nature. When he allows himself to follow her lead, the evolutionary force will begin to rise up and activate the chakras within the column of light. When that is accomplished, sexuality will take on a different feeling. It will be of a higher dimension. He will feel the difference. It will feel more wholesome and whole. Holy does not need to be a religious term. It is what mankind will feel in the future naturally, as he gains higher ground. He will no longer need to depend on a woman for sex, as he has been accustomed to doing ever since the fall from grace – the fall out of balance.  But he will be able to enjoy lovemaking without pressure and demand.
 
The evolutionary force coming up from earth can't be seen by physical eyes or measured as a separate "thing" because it is the web of consciousness. It is life itself. Mankind and science depends on measuring devices and the physical senses to prove the existence of something. But how can you prove your own existence? You are the life force coming up from Earth. You can only prove it by feeling more of who you are, more alive, more energized, more happy, more blissful. There is no mistaking the feeling. And when that feeling backs up because it hits wall, like a solid cement wall, and it builds up like water behind a dam, it builds pressure. Stress happens because the vitality from earth is not being distributed. Then there comes a breaking point where he must do something about it or become a danger to himself or someone else. This powerful force has no name in our language, except “sex“. Sex is a blockage at the second chakra, the genital chakra. The new age is bringing new information about this but Tantra teachings have been here from the beginning. This new information, higher level information will bring forth a fully balanced love life. One that serves both genders equally, lovingly, connectively, as worthy of the god/goddess that they are.

The turning away from the grunting sex life of animals to making love with the whole body is a gift that humanity has yet to appreciate. It will be accomplished only when man and woman begin to use reverence, adoration and sacredness in their relationships. When two people allow the evolutionary fire in them to flow up the INSIDE of the etheric central column instead of spiraling out around the central column in opposite directions, each in competition for dominance and control, they both reach the top of their individual heads together. From there the evolutionary force flows up and out the top of the head like a water fountain of life and vitality, blossoming into the atmosphere like a star burst or fireworks display, igniting the soul chakra anywhere from 6 to 9 inches above the head. The soul chakra contains the divine plan for the individual, which will transform each of them without effort. Using reverence, love and appreciation is not a work of hard labor and work. It is a shift in conscious mental attitude. The two lovers will feel wonders unimagined if they start exploring this sacred path. This is a new science and will need to be learned. It cannot be forced, either on yourself or your partner. Love is the only way to begin  Tantric practice. Love, consideration and kindness on both sides.

This article is a forerunner. Just a tiny little seed of a thought. It is not intended to frustrate anyone. Spiritual teachers have not been addressing sex, nor have the Ascended Masters. It has not been time. It was given me last night in the middle of the night. I was awakened and told to “Write this down!“ so I'm doing it.
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11/19/20 - Today I saw that my work with the astral is rewarding me with insight. My exercise routine that utilizes imagining my astral arms and legs are moving and not just the physical is helping me to see it. The astral/emotional is my larger self, the feeling aspect that has been stuck and blocked over centuries of the false belief that we are ONLY physical and nothing more. We have been too focused in the intellect due to the patriarchal rules and follow the rules, follow what "we say you should follow". Everyone including men, have repressed their beautiful inner self, their feelings, emotions, happiness, sensitivies. These ought to flow and not be stuck inside with a warden standing at the door with a gun. Our emotions have been frozen into a block of ice. We have been re-pressing our emotions and feelings and sensitivities. We were programmed to stuff them back into the closet. I received an image of an overflowing closet, packed with so much stuff that you couldn’t fit a thimble into it, all packed inside so the outside would look clean and presentable. You don't even know what's inside of you. The astral body is this clumped-up mess which is totally disorganized and unmanageable and STUCK! I heard advice yesterday (Galactic Arcturian) suggesting if you’re confused, write down on paper the conflicting thoughts that are bothering you that are all jumbled up in your head. Isolate each one and write it down. Put it into linear form. See what is in your closet.  Take each item out of your repressed feeling state and see what you’ve got. It will make sense when you see each thought separate from the jumble.
 
Another piece of advice was: if you have a negative situation going on in your life, visualize it as a past event. This is homework. This is homework in magic. Imagination is the magic. We all have this ability. One technique is to take a negative situation and, using your imagination - your ability to visualize - first see the situation. Your ability to visualize is required. Then, imagine that situation zooming away from you, like a camera might zoom out from a closeup of an insect, to include more of the environment around it. See the negative situation as a scene becoming smaller and smaller as the whole picture widens and widens. See the negative situation fading in the distance. See it as something in the past. Remove it from your present moment. * You are consciousness. You’re not a body. It is your consciousness that is doing the work. Ascension is on everyone’s mind these days, but ascension is the process of enlightenment. Letting consciousness “light up” and move away from the lock-down of past lessons, experiences, training and belief systems. Let your consciousness work the magic of lifting you out of the past and into the doorway of the future. The future is glorious but you’re not there yet. You can’t jump into the future, but you can remove the past, one item at a time, from your jumbled up mess of a hall closet or attic. By removing one item at a time and dealing it with it (through your magical powers of visualization through various techniques which meditation teaches) you lighten the dreariness that you’re packing around with you wherever you go. You lighten your load this way. This is the process of ascension. It requires you to learn and practice some consciousness techniques.
 
People born after 1969 - many young people today are doing it already - but those of us who were born 50, 60, 70, 80 years ago (between 1930 and 1970) were taught rigidly. Year by year we have been going through an ascending spiral like never before on Earth. Those born from 1970 on, those below 50 years, 40 years, 30 years, below 20 years old, are receiving new training. Things are changing rapidly. I am going to galactic school now, actively receiving information from other species, other races, other sisters and brothers, neighbors in the same ‘hood, the same galaxy - they are communicating. They too are changing. Major changes are underway. Not only this little ol’ planet, but all the planets in our galaxy are going through consciousness changes. It is the process of ascension which means the process of enlightenment, which means the process of letting go of yesterday’s beliefs and last year’s education and training. Facts change. The old school believes in “facts” but facts change as we go into higher orbit, higher consciousness, higher realms, higher dimensions of thought.

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11/16/20 - Many of us have been held back by accusations of being selfish. Selfish is a tool of the dark to keep us away from self-contemplation and self-focus on the light within. The light is not like light from a light bulb. When we say “light and love, let light prevail”, that does not mean just imagining light with your mind. It means BECOMING light in body and feelings. Light contains joy and feelings of exhilaration and glee. If its just imagined as a mental picture, there is no feeling to that. The feeling of hilarity, fun, positive excitement is not a thought. It's a true authentic feeling. If you just “think” light it doesn’t do much for you. You have to FEEL it. When you feel light it becomes love - that's where light becomes love - and it fills your body with high emotions, transformative emotions. When you embody the light, which comes from Source, you allow it to move in and take over. You experience an emotional charge. You experience joy and it’s not just mental, though your thought becomes exuberant and free of constraint too.  But it is all-inclusive, body, mind and soul. Soul is feeling it and soul is having a wonderful time embodying the feeling of light in the body. The physical embodying of the light becomes the love experience we all yearn for. Physically our body becomes the love because we can feel the warmth of its goodness. We feel lighter in weight and density and even pain free for the duration of the time that we embody the love.

In the present day most people are not embodying the light. If the majority were, the Earth would change in the twinkling of an eye, or at least within the next 24 hours. There would be noticeable improvements all across the globe and in houses of governments, because the people could not hold back the exuberance, exhilaration, happiness, freedom and sense of being alive that would surge through them. It would be impossible to hold it back. Things would right itself on our world.

But we are not embodying the light right now. We are seeing it from a distance, from the perspective of watching from a’far. We are watching to see who is going to go first in embodying the light. We are watching whistleblowers come forth. They who have been buried in the depths of secrecy and coverups and disinformation, are embodying the light and it is pushing them out into the front lines. The restraints of secrecy have become too much under the inpouring of light to the planet. Secrecy has begun the crumbling because of whistleblowers. They have melted their strictness and reserve, and they cannot live any more with these restrictions. They are being forced to let go. They have to let go because they have been too long without light. The light is now too strong for them. One by one they are stepping out of the dark closets they have been hiding within because of the boss, the leader, the law.

They are talking and revealing and we are watching and listening. We are wondering and weighing if what they say is true. We are processing this information, and it is helping us to consider more truth into our lives. More truth is more light. Lack of information, disinformation and lies have kept the light from us. We are not yet embodying the light but we are watching others embody the light and we are waiting to see what will happen next. We are processing it.  It is good. I too have been resisting the embodying of the light. I wonder why I don’t feel the emotions that other people seem to be feeling. I want to feel the freedom of living the love that I feel. I know I am love. I act in loving ways, I give love to people. I want to give more love as I am drawn in that direction, but I find excuses. I am not ready yet. I am holding myself back. I am waiting too. So I continue to not allow the love to fill me physically, when I really WANT to be filled with love. I am feeling it part way. A little here and little there. Some days more than others. My mission is to learn how to embody love. I write about it a lot but I want to experience it more with others in open community. I want others to feel free too.

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11/14/20 - Authorities are those who think they know more than the others around them. It’s not true of course, but the others are holding themselves back from expressing through thought, word, feeling or form. This holding back appears to be a dumb creature to those who are more vocal and expressive, but there are many reasons for holding back. The greatest reason is often wisdom and generosity, to allow others a chance to show their true colors and character. True, there are those who were born into unrefined or corrupted bodies due to genetics, which is a choice, nature knows best, but the intelligence of the higher mind is always ALWAYS there, residing in, through and around the body, just waiting for someone to recognize it, nurture it, nourish and invite it to express itself, its voice and its actions. Often the quiet people are the more intelligent ones. Instead of boasting and showing everyone a racist, a bully, an elitist, a control freak, a terrorist, criminal, jerk or ignoramus, a quiet one waits until the air settles down and is clear of stupidity before they speak. So it does not suit anyone well to assume an authoritative role over anyone who is quiet, especially over a child because a child can see right through the curtain. It‘s better to take the kinder approach anyway, no matter who it is. Kindness has been known to change the course of historical events and divert disaster. Among the quiet ones there may be the one who is seething with quiet anger and planning a vengeful act and no one knows the danger about to explode. Kindness can change the mind of that one and save lives. Be conscious and choose kindness.
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11/13/20 - Stay positive in your focus, even in the midst of challenges. A powerful period of change is upon us, so many changes happening at once. Staying positive puts you above the changes so they don’t bother you so much. Like transcending the changes. You have a birds eye view. Fly over the rocking of the earth by staying positive. Go up to the sun. Imagine connecting with the source of warmth, comfort, light and goodness. You are a creator. Create something positive and new. Stay positive in your focus. Listen to your spiritual guides and teachers. They speak to you by blending in with your own thoughts and thinking process. You sometimes wonder “Now where did THAT thought come from?” Then simply say “Thank you!” to your spirit guides. They are blending with you when you stay positive. Your higher self and spirit guides, all are the same thing. It is higher than what your own mind and brain can give you. Trust the new thoughts. There is a war in consciousness going on. There are forces that are trying to attract your attention by whatever means possible. Bombs, killings, explosions, political dramas, your own friends and families are spitting out dramas and traumas. Stay positive in attitude, thought and feeling. Higher thoughts, higher feelings, higher attitudes. This is how you raise your vibrations so you are in a higher dimension. Go up to the sun, go up to where the birds fly in your imagination. 

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11/6/20 - Message upon waking this morning: The brain is moving too fast for the body to keep up with it. I’m talking about basic physical movements now. Just how you step and move your arms and hands. We trip over things and fall and stumble and get impatient with ourselves and frustrated. Our body seems to be too slow for our minds. We are moving faster with our conscious minds than our body can keep up. In this way we abuse our body. We are being impatient with our body and we’re punishing it by forcing it to move beyond its capacity to feel. We are mentally too quick and physically too slow. The solution is to slow down. The problem is that we are too intellectual and we are not taking the time to slow down our minds to connect with our body. We are not descending down into the slower and lower vibration of our bodies, and this frustrates us. We tend to find fault with something else. We don’t own being responsible for this frustration that is happening within our bodies. “Who left that thing in the middle of the living room?” We look to someone else to blame. “That damn pool vac is stuck in the ladder again." Frustrated, I look for someone or something to blame. The solution is to slow down and be at peace. Be at peace. Allow the frustration to dwindle down to nothingness. Allow your body some peace. Love your body, feel the peace. This is a walking meditation that I am doing these days. Slowing down and feeling the peace. Loving the cells of my body and not being abusive to them. It goes along with Tantra teachings I am studying.
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10/31/20 - A message woke me this morning. There is a lower third eye between the eyes that shines outward like a ray, projecting all that is still within the ego which lays blame on outside forces and blocks the clarity of the Christ Self. The real third eye is the pineal and pituitary glands in the center of the brain. This is where we surrender all of our ego and enter the void to become still and clear prior to joining with the Almighty at the crown. The lower third eye is still projecting egocentric judgments outward onto other people. All the unredeemed faculties are still there. It is still seeing through the veils. We see through our own faults when we engage with others, and we color them with our own mistakes.


As we grow silent, when we become still and surrender all movement, all thought, all intention, we rise above ego to the real third eye. I was shown the purity of seeing and being only love. A friend wrote about her negative situations and I wanted to write to her, advising her. But in the shower I was shown to only write her in a loving uplifting way, blessing her with words of love. No advice from my stored up junk/trunk of wisdom. Only that I see her hurt through loving eyes, not sympathy but with love. I love her hip and her hurt body. I am hugging her and embracing her with the hands of angels, warm and comforting. Now I see that when I desire to tell others how to correct THEIR hurts, it's me telling myself how to correct my own. Don’t tell others. Fix yourself. It is just ego puffing itself up to tell others. It doesn’t help them. They can feel that it is your ego.

I have been attempting to define the divine feminine but I've been defining the HUMAN feminine, not the divine. This is a remarkable lesson to receive. The message is telling me, "It comes to you in feeling, not in words. Now you know. You are your only teacher. The I AM That I AM. You’ve been trying to teach the divine feminine but you can’t teach it. It has to be realized. The words are only shells and shadows." 
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10/23/20 - (Channeled from DK. I woke in the night and couldn't go back to sleep, I was seeing cell phones in my mind.)  You are your own authorities. There is no one - no one! - who can tell you what to do, how to act, to bow down and serve the wishes of others. The religions have been a sophisticated tool to control you. They have stolen your attention, your power, your thought, your belief in yourselves, away from you. There is no authority given over you by Creator, by heaven, by the angels or the Brotherhood of Man - there is ONLY freedom for you. The Earth is your happy paradise. Doug is correct when he says it is a garden of Eden for lovers. You ARE meant to love one another freely. In all ways, in all dimensions, in all programs of thought and creativity. A wonderful blessed garden of lush tropical beauty awaits your coming out, your breaking free of the tight control that others have placed on your mind, your thought, your emotions. Break free with your feelings. Dare to breathe. Breathe!  Breathe free in your feelings for one another. Even swinging, as free as you felt in that field of pleasure, it was not free for you were still fighting the structure that had been imposed on you. You FELT you were climbing over a wall, you FELT secret. You felt the wall itself was still there.
 
It is time to place yourself outside of the wall into the open fields under the sky and the clouds and the rain to enjoy freedom from old structures. No more garden walls. Only freedom to create, to love, to express your innermost and your higher most thoughts that you enjoy when you are alone in the quiet hours. These inner, higher thoughts and impressions are YOU, your talent, your song, your beauty, yes, your skill and your talent, given to you, bestowed unto you, to present to the united world that awaits you. The glorious beautiful free world of light, love and happiness.
 
(I remembered the cell phone image) Yes, the cell phones were given to you as a rudimentary tool to reach out to others to communicate while mobile, disconnected from the old structure, the old buildings, the old fixed wires in the ground and on poles. You are free now, and the computer has given you access to knowledge you did not have access to before. So now you can ask your questions and open up a fount of information. But you still need to filter that information through your OWN heart and mind. Yes, measure truth through the fine and delicate frequency of your own sensing detectors. As you write these words you are practicing to receive. You are feeling and sensing. Breathe deeply. Breathe gently. Allow the words to flow through your heart. Yes, focus on your heart and the shining light of the sun in your chest. Allow that shining light, that sun, to filter these words coming through to your waking consciousness. You will soon be teaching others to feel through their hearts also. Practice at this. When you watch TV, listen to radio, read emails and books, filter this "in" formation of energy as it rides outward to your consciousness on your own frequency.  You are a frequency forming a focus. You think of yourself as a body. Begin visualizing yourself as a sun shining in your chest, pulsating there, ebbing and flowing and sending messages out to you, your outer consciousness, your outer body, from higher planes.
 
(I stopped to think about that and the flow ended.)
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10/21/20 - (Channeled) So many awarenesses, how do I choose? Assignments – CINA, Ana website, GFL website? I asked DK. Answer: what excites you? Choose IT!! Spiritual anatomy excites me, learning about it, how it becomes physical. Kundalini is God, is the eternal one. The Monad is your individual immaculate concept or pattern. It is the you as you were created by Source in the beginning of your life. A piece of that immaculate concept was sent to Earth to embed into the earth to anchor you here. Around that immaculate immortal seed which has been called kundalini are seven layers. When kundalini awakens dramatically as it did in you, or in an OBE or NDE, all seven layers are broken and the eternal God is set free in the solid body and immediately soars home to the infinite sea of light. Now it is up to you to bring it back down into the solid earth body and enclose it round about with understanding.

It is YOU – your conscious consciousness - that is now bringing the immaculate concept down into the solid enclosure of the body. You do this through love, by praising it, seducing it, welcoming it, caring for it to come down into this confinement of the lower dimension. It is your life, your immortal self. You do not know this at first. You struggle with your immortality and the sensation of being enclosed and confined inside a physical body. It is YOU – your consciousness – that must make this integration. It is YOU who must insist that your immortality and your mortal self walk side by side as friends in the same body. You are the soul, not yet the eternal spirit. You as soul must become refined, purified, cleared of doubt and confusion. You were given a glimpse of the father’s kingdom [when you went into the light] and now you are seeking it all the time but you are anchored into a finite body. You experience frustration at not being able to move freely because you do not yet know how to be at peace with ALL things, ALL situations, ALL people, ALL that is disturbing. You are an immortal but don’t know it yet.

Do the work of unifying everything that disturbs you, angers you, condemns you, hurts you. This does not come naturally to the physical animal but you are not physical nor are you an animal. You are an immortal who does not know it yet. You must work at being love and extending love into everything that comes up in front of your nose. You want the vastness of the all-that-is but you are mortal so what do you do? You work at unifying. You call to your higher self, your immortal self. You direct it into the disturbance or the confusion, whatever is troubling you. You send it, you beam it, you think it, you control the direction of your love. You, the immortal one, take charge of your mortal life! Relax into the immortal self in moments of silence to reconnect. Dream with it often during the day. Recognize its presence and stop what you are doing to allow it into your mind. You are a solid on a physical work assignment with others who also are solid on work assignments, working with their immortal self too, most of whom do not know what you know. They know what THEY know but not what YOU know. Stick to your own story like glue. Create your own path to Home. There is no other can do it for you.

You have germinated and blossomed the immaculate you, your eternal light body, which is an individual concept born out of the immortal eternal mind which ALL have been born out of. You cannot follow another’s path any more than they can follow yours because they have their own seed of immortality lying in wait for them to pierce the shell. But, since you came to help Earth grow to unity and peace, you are here to form kinships, relationships in solid form. That requires skill. You have been educated over eons of lifetimes in how to work with other solids who are, like you, following their path to the stars, or trying to. And you have on-the-job training. You KNOW what does not work! You know! You are equipped. All you have needed in this life was confidence in your knowledge. You needed time and space to build confidence in what you know. You have done that. You are almost ready to throw away the hesitation and step boldly out on the world stage with the power of the immortal burning gently – not forcefully or vulgarly – but gently and firmly through your physical presence, your solid physical body. You are ready. Know this. Be firm and steady in the knowledge you have accumulated and built up as treasure in heaven. Own this treasure. Be responsible for the eternal vastness that is in you. The eternal good in you. That is your God. God is goodness without flaws. Can you do that? (Meekly “I can" - thank you DK)

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10/18/20 - (Channeled) The body has a consciousness of its own. It is not the ego. The ego cannot live in the physical body. The ego is confined to the mind because it is abstract awareness. It is not yet formed. Ego receives abstract intelligence from the greater mind. It is the first receiver. The body is the second step-down receiver, the more dense receiver. The divine feminine refers to the physical body. The divine masculine refers to the abstract receiver - the higher mind. Mental refers to the masculine. Our mental thoughts are the the masculine side of us. The physical body refers to the feminine. Our feelings and emotions are the feminine side of us.

Some people refer to the feminine side as emotional and think it belongs to the fairer sex but that is a fallacy. The Tantric teachings are all about bringing the abstract intelligent knowledge into the body through sensual feelings. Tantric masters guide their students in how to FEEL because only the body can FEEL. The mind cannot feel sensations. The mind can foster feeling and cultivate feeling if held long enough, but most human beings do not know how to foster feeling. That is what Tantra is all about. It is learning how to integrate intelligently with the body so the whole person can feel.

The mind has a different role to play. It receives intelligence from the greater mind beyond human. We might call this greater mind "Father" or "Creator" or "God" or "Higher Self". It doesn't matter what it is called. It comes from beyond the human intellect. The human mind receives ideas, inspirations, visions as a flowing of rich and fertile imagination. And the mind latches onto one that appeals to his fancy. This is where though comes from. The mind creates thought out of thin air. When a mind latches onto a thought and thinks about it, and starts to turn it around and around and mix it with other thoughts, it becomes a personality all by itself. It becomes an ego. But if it continues to hold onto the thought, it becomes entangled with other thoughts, and the ego builds into a larger ego. What it SHOULD do, is let it go.

The mind is the intelligence of the person. It is the masculine aspect of the person. It cannot feel. It does not have the ability to feel anything at all. The mind is abstract, without feeling. When ideas, visions and concepts arrive in the mind, it more often stops there and does not descend any further down into the body’s cells and tissues. The ego is now in charge. The body, the feminine, does not receive the idea or feel it or sense it or add its consciousness to it. The ego holds onto it in the ivory tower of the head. The ego refers to the mind. It does not refer to the body. If a person would take the time to sit in stillness periodically, to stop the mind from cranking and turning, the rich and fertile ideas would drift downward under the force of gravity and enter into the physical body’s cells, tissues, nerves and blood stream. There is then a TOTAL receiving. Not just in the mind but also in the body. Then emotion is felt. Emotion changes everything. The idea becomes embedded into the body and the body can add body intelligence to it. The body rounds out an idea and gives it substance. The physical body is the feminine aspect which has been called "the mother" in all the ancient languages. The body is needed to manifest ANYTHING into form. Without the physical sensation of emotion, love is missing. The feminine aspect of a person is the body.

Love is the feminine aspect of a human being. Love must be felt and expressed through the body, or it is not love at all. Many people talk about spiritual love, but if it is not expressed and felt physically, as a sensatin of warmth, kindness, caring, empathy, then the person remains unfulfilled. When a person remains unfulfilled he (or she, I am using the male pronoun for simplicity sake) he then begins to search for it. When he begins to search for it, he uses only his masculine side. This is how humankind came to be dominated by the male, by ego, by cruelty and selfishness. The drive to "get" what he felt was missing created a world driven by male ego. Meanwhile the feminine aspect of everyone remained an untapped resource. The physical body has been ignored in the search for fulfillment. Ancient Tantric teachings are soon to return to the planet, as the other half of the human soul.

A feeling cannot be felt by the mind. It can only be felt as a sensation, emotion or feeling if the person himself will open the trap door at the juncture of the atlas - the vertebra at the top of the spine - and allow the rich consciousness held in the head to flow downward through the spine and out through the meridians and nerves into all the nooks and crannies of the body. Remember - it is Atlas who holds up the world. Now it is time to teach Atlas how to open his trap door and allow the consciousness to descend down the spine into the heart, lungs, stomach and lower abdomen where the mother resides. The infinite must descend down below the brain/mind into the body to manifest in physical reality.

Sleep allows the mind and body to merge during sleep, but if, during the day the person returns to the habit of using only his mental capacity and not his feeling channels, he will continue to feel unfulfilled and keep searching. When the human being does not allow the stream of his life to flow down past the atlas into the sensuality of the body, he lives a shallow life with other shallow beings. Tantra is a training ground in learning this and practicing this. The body is called the divine feminine, or the goddess. It is not only women's bodies, but men's bodies are also feminine. This may be difficult to swallow, but understand - everything that manifests into physical reality has been fostered with loving attention. They have put their feelings of heart and soul into the creation of this manifestation. They have cared for it. They have treated it with kindness and tenderness, no matter WHAT it is. It is your responsibility and yours alone, not your spouse's or partner's, it is your responsibility to find and learn how to utilize the feelings of your own body. This is your feminine side - that part of you which feels. Having more beautiful feelings and not depressing feelings, is how you raise your vibrations and manifest beauty. A negative feeling is your lesson and your teacher. Don't run away from it. Find a way to transform it into a beautiful feeling. Your mind and body must work together. This is the true marriage that is made in heaven.

The flow of ideas is coming from the REAL you, the higher you. You are the REAL living in an artificial world, and you are here to make the world REAL. If you are not feeling the fulness of life you are not letting your life stream sink down into your body where the mother in you can tenderize them. Live those ideas in your daily life. It is your job to figure out how to express love and truth and justice through your interactions with others. Express your ideals in your outward expressions. Live the life you have been given in miraculous ways. It is no one's responsibility to fulfill you and complete you. You must complete yourself. This is a Tantric teaching. The REAL person is known as your father. It is attempting to flow down the central column of your spine to connect with the mother in you - the cells of your body so the mystical marriage may take place.  Then you will experience heaven ON EARTH. You do not need to leave the earth to experience heaven or paradise here. Earth is destined to be a garden of paradise with everyone having all that they need.  Many people have tried to do this that I am talking about in past lives but did not succeed. They had to return and try again in a new body. Each new life as a new-born is different. It presents different opportunities through different parentage and ancestral lineage that have came up through thousands of years in the same culture, social status, economic class. There are many opportunities to learn by coming again into a new life as a new-born.

And all through the many lifetimes it is only ONE being and that one being is you. You are the driving force and director behind the many performances and plays on stage. You are the only intelligence driving the car and choosing the road to go down. It is only ONE father-mother God flowing downward through your arteries and veins. Allow it to flow. It is the new-born baby's responsibility to grow up and follow the inner voice for that is the only voice that will draw it to fulfillment. Emotions have been repressed, therefore the higher noble feelings have been repressed. Therefore the body has been repressed. Therefore it dies. If the consciousness cannot flow through the body and invigorate the cells and tissues of the body to keep it healthy continuously, then the body withers and grows old and dies. And again the divine consciousness goes home to re-think the next incarnation. How can he fulfill the divine plan? How can he do it better the next time? How can he become the master in this physical world and not be distracted? He discusses it with wise mentors, and he is told these things that I am telling you now.

He must not selfishly hang onto his inspirational thoughts, needs and desires. He must open his mind and allow the flow to be drawn by gravity into the lower regions, like a river flowing down to the mother ocean. It is feminine to become a free flowing river of spontaneous ideas. Don’t try to capture them. Don’t try to own them. Don’t try to make them your possession and jealously guard them against theft. Share them with your community. They are not yours to hold selfishly. They are not yours until you BECOME them by living them in the physical. Appreciate them. Thank them. Enjoy them and let them go. Let them disappear into the underground. You won't see them but you will FEEL them.  Don't hold on. Let them take root in the soil of earth and germinate. Germination elevates you and inspires you as they grow roots out into the caverns and crevices of your organs and muscles. Allow them to flow. Be the allower. Be the light heart, not the dark heart. Inspire all those around you. Let life be free.

These thoughts are not yours. They come from the universal mind. Mankind tries to capture universal inspirations as if they were given to him alone as a gift. His little ego interprets unconditional love in a personal way. But they do not become personal until he lives them in his life with others. It must first take root in the physical dimension before it can be seen as real, by taking root through the nervous system which branches like the roots of a tree deep in the underground. This is a process that requires precise thought and caring. To become fulfilled, learn this little trick of the mind - open the trap door of the atlas at the top of the spinal column and enjoy the experience of sliding down into sensation. Otherwise thoughts remain as ethereal blueprints in the mind, no different than an architect's drawing on paper that is never built. A wise man becomes a great philosopher, genius, inventor, poet, artist or musician, by not holding back the flow of inspiration. Put the richness to work immediately. Do not hold back. The time is now. Find a way so it doesn't get hung up on the rocks of the etheric higher mind. Let the rays of intelligence flow on through you spontaneously and outward into some form of expression. They are not real until planted, like a seed, in the heavy soil of the ground. Stop every once in a while and feel the flow. Become still and sense the flow.  Feel what is happening in your inner body. This is a germination process. (Thank you DK).
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10/17/20 - (channeled) Beauty and perpetual youth is the direct result of freedom from entanglement. Freedom from emotional resistance. And freedom from mental objections. Beauty and youth are the result of love for life and the eager acceptance of all situations that come along. 
 
There are two kinds of energy. One is a spontaneous love for life which springs out of a love for God. This one is full of hope and springs out of bed in love. The other is a tense energy. This is the pure energy that has been allowed to be held back, thus it is dirtied and full of the individual’s emotional discharges. It is jerky, unreasonable, uncontrollable, because it has been compressed. It is not a healthy energy and leads to disease in the body and eventually death.
 
I’m not going to teach you how to meditate. I’m going to teach you how to live spontaneously as a young god should, using his love for life freely instead of holding it back. Then you won’t need to meditate. Your life will be an ongoing meditation, following the will of your God. The pure and innocent energy is always flowing through you. When you sleep, when you wake, when you are depressed, when you fight, when you talk, when you eat, when you walk, when you work. it never ever stops. It breathes through you giving you life. If you hold it back it gets compressed. Learn to breathe it out as freely as you breathe it in. Keep it pure.
 
There are six other centers that must be opened before the God-energy is yours. And in each of the six, you must become the controller, not let the newly released energy control you. You control the emotion, the emotion does not control you. You control the sex, the sex does not control you. You control your love, your love does not control you. You control your voice, your voice does not control you. You control your psychic ability to see the truth, your psychic ability does not control you. You control your intellect, your intellect does not control you. Then you will be the master of your body.
 
The body movements I do is the God-energy flowing through the body to balance the body with the environment outside. This slows down the explosive growth. Releases the high-level energy so it does not hurt inside. Integration is an important aspect of growth. Growth and integrate. Growth and blend with the whole. Grow and incorporate your growth into life. Grow and assimilate. Grow and help society to grow along with you. Otherwise you will burst upward in an explosive rate of speed and quickly be out of reach of the common man and woman who live around you. They will not understand. Hitler turned fanatic.
 
It is the safer route to let a young god grow in disguise in his society til he is the master of his life. His beauty will be seen but not touted. His ability will grow to be accepted as something from within the society. The young god will be accepted instead of rejected as super-normal and different.
 
God talks to you through friends, husband, wife, children. I’ll show you how. This is important to understand how to unfold from within, rather than rely on outside changes. You change your Self!

(These are Master Djwal Khul's words. He has been guiding me for over 40 years. Much of my training was on-the-spot and mind to mind as I moved about, but much has been written from his mind through my HAND onto paper. I have been trying to find a way to share them via posts but it has been tangled and I haven't known where to begin. Over the last few days however he is saying, "OK. It is time. Go ahead and post them as you feel to." So from now on if it is channeled I will say so in parentheses. But sometimes I can't tell if it's channeled or not because I have blended with the frequency of the ascendeds and messages flow through so smoothly I think it is just me. Oh, this ascension process is such a mystery - a mystery into the vast unknown future. The only advice I would share is "Just take life on the run and in the flow of the moment. You will blend into your future better that way instead of "thinking" about it.)  

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10/16/20  - This morning I woke with concepts in my mind about how the higher self descends down through layers to become the mortal or physical self. The garment that the higher self wears is me, the physical body aspect. The higher self however is formless, and so it must send more condensed aspects of itself down. These aspects descend in vibration to become denser and denser. Out of thin air the higher self manifests solid forms by first “thinking”. It uses the intellect. It wants to do this, it desires to do this and focuses and intends to do this. It is the movement of an idea, and it is a thrust, and so it manifests as a picture first, a concept, an idea which takes the shape of a form, a human being. We call this the mental body, or thought. This is what we can do too, from our limited mind as a human being. We can reach up with our intellect from our lower place on the ground, and reach up to touch the higher aspects of ourself, our very own higher self, which at the supreme uppermost topmost is stillness. It NEVER MOVES! It is always in stillness. It is a perfect reflection of the I Am That I Am.

The feeling world is yet an even denser form than the mental body. It is more solid so that it can feel the presence and pressures of other selves around us. When we feel the pressures of other selves around us we feel excitement and stimulation in many diverse ways, good feelings which inspire us, and also angst feelings which are uncomfortable to us. The emotional body is our feeling body. It receives impressioins from the physical bodies of other people around us. We feel their presence even at a distance from us.  The feeling body is called the astral body and it is always fluctuating, and bending its rays of light and shadow because there are so many presences in our world giving off emotional thoughts and feelings. They enter us wherever we go. Our higher self remains always, however, in the planes of stillness and perfection, radiating images of perfection, love and glory.

But we don’t receive it well.  It is all consciousness. Everything in this world is consciousness. All bodies and forms are consciousness. How well we receive the radiations of perfection, love and glory from our higher selves is our responsibility. When we feel joy at connecting with a friend or because we accomplished an act, or won a competition, or had a delicious meal, whatever gives us joy, that is our connection with our higher SELF, our true Self, our eternal Self. It is the depressing thoughts of anger, grief, pain, loneliness disgust, or any number of negative thought and feeling that cuts us off from the radiation of our higher self. It is all consciousness. We are conscious beings, but are we aware that we are conscious beings?  Or are we aware only of being a victim of external forces? If so, it is time to change the direction of our consciousness. We can do that ONLY by an act of will. By a decision. By choosing a different, higher, better, more loving thought and holding onto that thought. It is like, when you see a rodent in your house, you sweep it out and get rid of it. There are rodents lurking in the human consciousness. We need to get rid of it.

There is pleasure waiting to fill our consciousness at all times. The five senses are the way our body receives pleasure, but we are not victims of the outside world of other people. We can change our thought patterns which immediately start to change our feeling pleasure/pain centers. There are so many beautiful and diverse vibrations out there in the world around us, from people to animals, to sky, to water, to earths many trees and flowers growing. The higher self exists in stillness. Only we can express its beauty in the way we walk this earth and treat our neighbors, family and friends. Our higher self wants to walk with us in the physical world.  But we are not quite clear yet. We have remnants of miasmas, negative traumas left over from past actions. These are clunky, slow-moving particles that still hold uncomfortable memories. The best way to clear them is to go into the silence and touch the stillness of our higher Self. 
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10/8/20  A most beautiful message was just posted on the Goddess page. It was written by Aurora Ray of the Galactic Federation.com about the divine feminine. This is just a heads-up. She is a beautiful, lovely young woman who has caught my eye because she is also a voice for the Galactic Federation - two of my favorite subjects. I loved this post of hers.

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10/6/20 - A new article was posted today on the Articles page. "The Making of an Immortal" was typewritten though me in 1986 on legal paper which is brown and brittle with age. I don't think I ever re-read this channeling after it was completed.  I had forgotten it existed. It has some good insight in it and I post it for anyone interested in the ascension. Click HERE to read.

This morning I woke while a dream was ongoing. My consciousness was still registering words while I lay still sleeping. I am at first a fly  on the wall. There is a young man, a boy about 12 and he is gay. His mother, in an effort to help him, has enrolled him in a boy’s school or camp, but he is molested, raped. I then step into the scene and approach someone like the headmaster. Someone who is in a superior position at the school.  I ask him, “Why didn’t you help this boy?” The headmaster is unresponsive to me but in the next scene he is knocking on the boy’s door and the boy answers it. The headmaster is very tall and broad shouldered, looking very intimidating to the shorter boy. But then the headmaster's face starts to contort into anguish and pain. A cry is wrenched out of him in a painful admittance, “I’m just like you!” Then he gathers his composure together and begins ministering to the boy. I am waking up hearing the words:  “You are not alone. There are thousands like you, tens of thousands, millions. Perhaps the whole planet is like you. There IS no standard to measure yourself by, no box to fit you into, no template to copy. You must learn this, you must learn who you are by living your own standards. Strengthen yourself and gird yourself up like a man. Believe in who you are, believe it. Trust it.  Honor yourself." The words drifted away as I woke but I knew the message was given to me for a reason. 

I am studying deeper and deeper into the esoteric underpinnings of Tantra. Not the two-person Tantra where a man and woman perform exercises together, but Divine Tantra. The two-person Tantra is a fun and easy beginning step to learn about male and female energies, but the ultimate goal of Tantra is balancing the male and female energies within ONESELF. Everyone born on earth is either male or female, physically, and we enjoy the company of opposite genders. But the goal is to learn balance between the active and passive forces within our own bodies, which bring us problems. When we learn to bring male and female forces together within our Self, then we know the cosmic power of fusion. We become master over our OWN life,  never over another. And no one can take advantage over us ever again. This is the powerful secret underlying Tantra.  It is the making of an immortal, right here on Earth. One doesn't have to die to achieve it.

A side note: The meaning of “gird up thy loins like a man”, means prepare to do battle. In this case, not with outer forces but with one's own inner forces.  In ancient times when robes were worn, to gird up your loins referred to tucking the ends of the robes into the girdle at the waist to get them out of the way when you  swing your sword. The headmaster of the school was saying, Be prepared, there is work ahead for you. It's not going to be easy. 

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9/26/20 -  A new page has been posted on Anakosha. Please check it out HERE.

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9/19/20 - Intelligence is one half of our consciousness, love is the other half. Both intelligence and love are divine attributes and by bringing them into balance a species evolves to higher understanding which is beneficial to the whole race. By using both intelligence and love equally, an individual brings happiness and freedom into its life, family and associates. They learn to harmonize together. But on earth they are not equal. On earth today, there is a great need for love to be expressed. Love keeps people connected, whereas intelligence can be manipulated and made to work to the advantage of the negative-intended person. 

There is a malevolent force that has embedded itself into the human collective, which is doing everything it can to stop love from manifesting. The malevolent force does not want love between humans to take place for it would dissolve the separation that keeps people down. This malevolent force has become, over eons of time, embedded in both male and female consciousnesses so we do not know when we are utilizing it. It pits women against men and men against women as well as nation against nation and race against race. It does this to prevent unity between diverse cultures. Unity raises the consciousness and this malevolent force does not want that. Malevolence cannot be seen. It can be hidden very well under the guise of charm. It is an invisible force because it is an intentional force. It is how a person thinks and plans and holds that plan for long periods in its mind. Where a person puts and holds its attention and focus is where the energy goes. It becomes either benevolent (for the good of all) or malevolent (hurtful and deceiving all).  It takes intentional conscious thought to change automatic habits, for the malevolent force is embedded in everyone of us who were actually born here on earth. It covers the planet like a cloud and it does not want unity to happen.

Both men and women equally have this malevolent force in them. However each one of us also has divine love and divine intelligence in us and in our body cells and in our consciousness. For we were created in an immaculately perfect image and that image has always been there. A human being cannot walk, breath or exist without that divine protection flowing through the body and mind like a river of life. It IS a river of life.  And what we do with that river of life and conscious thought is on us. We are responsible for it. This malevolent force is a foreign invader, an alien force that can ONLY be overcome with love, but love that is manifested and expressed in an intelligent way. All humans share intelligence and love, but do we use it? The divine attributes of intelligence and love are selfless, while the malevalent attributes are selfish. They obstruct and deny and create divisions and diversions among people who are striving and working towards unity and wish wholeheartedly for unity and peace. So the greatest thing to do in these days is to express love in the form of unity. Togetherness. Joining arms, legs, hands and hugs in a show of togetherness and faith in the greatest power in the universe. The patriarchal culture came into existence not by men against women, but by an alien invasion - a malevolent force to prevent humankind from growing in recognition of the innate divine love that is within them. They came to keep us from manifesting our divinity which would bring peace to all nations and to the earth itself, which is a conscious living being who grows our vegetables for us.  

I (Diana) have always focused on love rather than intelligence (left brain activity) because I come from light and love and it was almost total in me. I chose not to fight or resist or use force in this life because it wasn't in me. I did what was natural to me - I allowed freedom of expression to everyone I met. That was how it was done where I came from and it worked well there.  So I lived life here in the same way but unfortunately I did not know the whole story!!  I came to learn something. I learned that I was nurturing the malevolent forces as much as I was nurturing the benevolent forces. 

This did not come natural to me but I recently activated my left brain. It's a complicated story how I did that so let me skip over that part (my husband asked me) and now - surprise!  - piercing rays of light and revelations. I am enjoying greater insight. Instead of being blinded by an automatic willingness to serve, I am now employing conscious intention to use my left brain too, along with my right brain. Left brain is ability to focus and use speech centers, form words and connected thought, and things like that which I was not very good at. The result is whole brain which means whole body and whole mind. It brings intelligence into the picture, which I used to think was only a male attribute. I find that it is not. Not at all. I had become too unbalanced, leaning so much on forgiveness, love, compassion, empathy, nurturance, serving others - that I was like a tree leaning way over to the right and almost touching the ground.

Now I see the difference. There is a wholeness to life that brings balance. So, what about evil? People are becoming conscious of it. Well, there are those who want to fight evil, and that is their choice. We are all here to learn something about ourself.  I learned about the evil presence, and that part was good, I needed to understand that. But I also learned about intelligent love. Not airy fairy love but solid, grounded, intelligent love. I have learned to right myself back up straight and tall, instead of leaning over to one side. I can radiate love better this way, by using intelligence and wisdom. 

Everyone is going through their own waking-up process, which means becoming more fully alert and aware and conscious of how they act and what happens within them every time they have a "knee-jerk" reaction to something. We are not designed to be robots and follow someone else's orders. We've learned to look to masters, teachers, authorities, priests, etc., but that only makes us robots reflecting someone else's thoughts.
We are being guided to become more sovereign than we have been, and to  start thinking for ourselves with more wisdom and discernment, and more truth, and to manage our bodies, minds and souls better, by following innate values. We are being guided. No one else can do it better than ourself. We are gods in training. 

The symbol of Anakosha is a wave, a wave that is growing up out of the sea and building a momentum and is almost ready to break. I have made this symbol into a pretty golden amulet that I wear around my neck. At the tip of the wave is a little diamond, indicating a brilliant reaching upward and forward with intention. Love is a wave that must be built into a consistent momentum through continuous action and practice. I had to learn how to also build in intelligence. I was too feminine. Now I am learning that masculine is also part of my structure.
I have had to learn by almost dying because I gave so much of myself. I wasn't very smart! 

Intelligence too has to be built into one's life through conscious and consistent practice. It's done by thinking for oneself instead of following someone else's rules. This lifetime has been a profound lesson in learning to not block out the other side. Consider the left brain. Or consider the right brain. Whichever side is being rejected, it has to be integrated. The division lies within myself.  I am grateful to have this pointed out to me. (Thank you DK) I have had to understand its importance. Intelligence has to be built into the human species equally, along with love. Love yields space for another to grow. It is a nurturing quality. But if someone has taken a wrong direction, does love continue to encourage? One who is too encouraging must then turn to intelligence as a countering balance to love to prevent it from going bad. Love must be coupled with intelligence to be a benevolent force and not a malevolent one. Fighting, yelling or protesting only causes more damage and kickback. Malevolent forces use various forms of manipulation to divert attention and distract. Love and intelligence working together in equal proportions has been the divine plan all along. This is what the current chaos is all about as people are working out their true beliefs vs. their erroneous beliefs. What is the right way? What is the wrong way? They must find out by whatever means, and they will.

We are here to understand both sides of the dividing line - the divine which is benevolent and the artificial which is negative. The divine masculine and the divine feminine are one side of the equator, and the malevolent forces are on the other. But first we must integrate intelligence (masculine) with love (feminine) in our OWN life before we can hope to work with others in a balanced way. It is the divine plan which operates in harmony

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