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9/19/20 - Intelligence is one half of our consciousness, love is the other half. Both intelligence and love are divine attributes and by bringing them into balance a species evolves to higher understanding which is beneficial to the whole race. By using both intelligence and love equally, an individual brings happiness and freedom into its life, family and associates. They learn to harmonize together. But on earth they are not equal. On earth today, there is a great need for love to be expressed. Love keeps people connected, whereas intelligence can be manipulated and made to work to the advantage of the negative-intended person. 

There is a malevolent force that has embedded itself into the human collective, which is doing everything it can to stop love from manifesting. The malevolent force does not want love between humans to take place for it would dissolve the separation that keeps people down. This malevolent force has become, over eons of time, embedded in both male and female consciousnesses so we do not know when we are utilizing it. It pits women against men and men against women as well as nation against nation and race against race. It does this to prevent unity between diverse cultures. Unity raises the consciousness and this malevolent force does not want that. Malevolence cannot be seen. It can be hidden very well under the guise of charm. It is an invisible force because it is an intentional force. It is how a person thinks and plans and holds that plan for long periods in its mind. Where a person puts and holds its attention and focus is where the energy goes. It becomes either benevolent (for the good of all) or malevolent (hurtful and deceiving all).  It takes intentional conscious thought to change automatic habits, for the malevolent force is embedded in everyone of us who were actually born here on earth. It covers the planet like a cloud and it does not want unity to happen.

Both men and women equally have this malevolent force in them. However each one of us also has divine love and divine intelligence in us and in our body cells and in our consciousness. For we were created in an immaculately perfect image and that image has always been there. A human being cannot walk, breath or exist without that divine protection flowing through the body and mind like a river of life. It IS a river of life.  And what we do with that river of life and conscious thought is on us. We are responsible for it. This malevolent force is a foreign invader, an alien force that can ONLY be overcome with love, but love that is manifested and expressed in an intelligent way. All humans share intelligence and love, but do we use it? The divine attributes of intelligence and love are selfless, while the malevalent attributes are selfish. They obstruct and deny and create divisions and diversions among people who are striving and working towards unity and wish wholeheartedly for unity and peace. So the greatest thing to do in these days is to express love in the form of unity. Togetherness. Joining arms, legs, hands and hugs in a show of togetherness and faith in the greatest power in the universe. The patriarchal culture came into existence not by men against women, but by an alien invasion - a malevolent force to prevent humankind from growing in recognition of the innate divine love that is within them. They came to keep us from manifesting our divinity which would bring peace to all nations and to the earth itself, which is a conscious living being who grows our vegetables for us.  

I (Diana) have always focused on love rather than intelligence (left brain activity) because I come from light and love and it was almost total in me. I chose not to fight or resist or use force in this life because it wasn't in me. I did what was natural to me - I allowed freedom of expression to everyone I met. That was how it was done where I came from and it worked well there.  So I lived life here in the same way but unfortunately I did not know the whole story!!  I came to learn something. I learned that I was nurturing the malevolent forces as much as I was nurturing the benevolent forces. 

This did not come natural to me but I recently activated my left brain. It's a complicated story how I did that so let me skip over that part (my husband asked me) and now - surprise!  - piercing rays of light and revelations. I am enjoying greater insight. Instead of being blinded by an automatic willingness to serve, I am now employing conscious intention to use my left brain too, along with my right brain. Left brain is ability to focus and use speech centers, form words and connected thought, and things like that which I was not very good at. The result is whole brain which means whole body and whole mind. It brings intelligence into the picture, which I used to think was only a male attribute. I find that it is not. Not at all. I had become too unbalanced, leaning so much on forgiveness, love, compassion, empathy, nurturance, serving others - that I was like a tree leaning way over to the right and almost touching the ground.

Now I see the difference. There is a wholeness to life that brings balance. So, what about evil? People are becoming conscious of it. Well, there are those who want to fight evil, and that is their choice. We are all here to learn something about ourself.  I learned about the evil presence, and that part was good, I needed to understand that. But I also learned about intelligent love. Not airy fairy love but solid, grounded, intelligent love. I have learned to right myself back up straight and tall, instead of leaning over to one side. I can radiate love better this way, by using intelligence and wisdom. 

Everyone is going through their own waking-up process, which means becoming more fully alert and aware and conscious of how they act and what happens within them every time they have a "knee-jerk" reaction to something. We are not designed to be robots and follow someone else's orders. We've learned to look to masters, teachers, authorities, priests, etc., but that only makes us robots reflecting someone else's thoughts.
We are being guided to become more sovereign than we have been, and to  start thinking for ourselves with more wisdom and discernment, and more truth, and to manage our bodies, minds and souls better, by following innate values. We are being guided. No one else can do it better than ourself. We are gods in training. 

The symbol of Anakosha is a wave, a wave that is growing up out of the sea and building a momentum and is almost ready to break. I have made this symbol into a pretty golden amulet that I wear around my neck. At the tip of the wave is a little diamond, indicating a brilliant reaching upward and forward with intention. Love is a wave that must be built into a consistent momentum through continuous action and practice. I had to learn how to also build in intelligence. I was too feminine. Now I am learning that masculine is also part of my structure.
I have had to learn by almost dying because I gave so much of myself. I wasn't very smart! 

Intelligence too has to be built into one's life through conscious and consistent practice. It's done by thinking for oneself instead of following someone else's rules. This lifetime has been a profound lesson in learning to not block out the other side. Consider the left brain. Or consider the right brain. Whichever side is being rejected, it has to be integrated. The division lies within myself.  I am grateful to have this pointed out to me. (Thank you DK) I have had to understand its importance. Intelligence has to be built into the human species equally, along with love. Love yields space for another to grow. It is a nurturing quality. But if someone has taken a wrong direction, does love continue to encourage? One who is too encouraging must then turn to intelligence as a countering balance to love to prevent it from going bad. Love must be coupled with intelligence to be a benevolent force and not a malevolent one. Fighting, yelling or protesting only causes more damage and kickback. Malevolent forces use various forms of manipulation to divert attention and distract. Love and intelligence working together in equal proportions has been the divine plan all along. This is what the current chaos is all about as people are working out their true beliefs vs. their erroneous beliefs. What is the right way? What is the wrong way? They must find out by whatever means, and they will.

We are here to understand both sides of the dividing line - the divine which is benevolent and the artificial which is negative. The divine masculine and the divine feminine are one side of the equator, and the malevolent forces are on the other. But first we must integrate intelligence (masculine) with love (feminine) in our OWN life before we can hope to work with others in a balanced way. It is the divine plan which operates in harmony throughout the universe. A myriad species are evolving throughout the universe, throwing off the disharmony and agitation as they do. The artificial creations being discarded as evolution towards light advances, are what we call the invading dark forces. They have been around forever. The battle has always been a battle of consciousness. Who will choose love and light? And who will choose to battle? It takes severe self discipline not to fight back. I choose to hold light and love.  


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9/10/20 - : How can your higher self connect with you, your mortal self, except by you the mortal reaching up and being the best you can be? In every moment? Then your immortal self can reach down to connect with you. For, having been born into the lower vibrational world you had to descend to fit in with the lower vibrations. It is by giving of yourself in the best way possible that you expand, and the honorable, compassionate, forgiving you reaches up and becomes reintegrated with the your higher self again. Become the most honest you can be, the most pure you can be, the most perfect you can be, the most wise, the most intelligent, the most modest, the most selfless. THEN you become your highest and best and your crystal light body can make that connection with you. 

Your connection to your higher self is like your connection with any other friend you have in life. To maintain communication with a friend you must pay attention to your friend. The same is true with your higher self, which is you on a higher more expansive level. Keep your telephone line open. Give it a glance in its direction, remember its presence, talk to it once in awhile, ask it questions, listen to its answers, align with it, know and respect its more beautiful qualities, its nature. That’s how you connect with your higher self. Your higher self is buttoned into you through your chakras. [I saw this vividly] Your higher self is all around you like an invisible bubble. It is not up in the sky. It is a transparent crystal bubble, it looks like the bubble a child blows through the ring. It is all around you on all sides and below you. It is the REAL you as you appear on the higher dimensions. It vibrates with the fires of your very own spirit. You are a small dark and dense form suspended floating in the middle of this beautiful bubble of light, clarity and perfection. It loves you. It is like crystal clear waters twinkling in the sunlight splashing colors through you the way a diamond flashes prisms of light.

You are the rich yolk inside the egg of your higher self bubble, condensed so you can create life in the physical world. You are the child inside the womb of your Divine Mother. You are the figure inside the glass snow ball. You are the seed germinating new sprouts that are growing in the world around you. You are surrounded on all sides by your very own God/Goddess/Divinity. Expand yourself and reach up to connect with the answers to your question. Touch the hem of the garment of your higher self and listen to its advice and counsel. All your needs are answered when you go IN and then UP to the higher realms where your higher self resides. Higher dimensions where purity resides and where everything you could possibly need resides and is available to you. When you are lonely, hungry, depressed, inadequate, afraid, failing, confused, hurt, suffering, overwhelmed, shut down, frozen - then go IN and UP. Up in the higher realms you are none of these things. You are perfect, complete and ascended. Go IN and then UP to your expanded regions to feel the peace and assurance that you are well and have a home.

You adopted these low vibrations so you could fit into this world of solids and create here. To re-adopt your former glory, go IN and UP to your higher self. Focus on your higher self. Give attention to your higher self. Contemplete it. Release the adopted vibrations that are less than who you really are. Simply touch the hem of the garment and you will receive a sense of your greatness. Do not be afraid. Release the fear. Become ME for I am your true self. The Self you want to become. The self you dream about. As you move up the frequency range to higher, more noble sense of self, you will not be able to connect with those who are on the lower frequency range except through love. They become static to your ears and disharmonious to your sensitivities. If you want to stay in contact with the lower frequency range of people, then you must bring my love down with you into lower frequencies and not compromise yourself. Your love can influence others. 
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9/3/20 - This blog has been sadly neglected!  It is because so much is happening here in my humble home. Here in my quiet intimate space I call my own, deeply personal changes are taking place. I am writing about them daily in my journal, but there is so much more happening so fast that it's faster than I can edit it for publication and posting. There is a swiftly moving river of awareness moving past me, rushing by and awakening brain cells of recognition. I see myself with my hair flying behind me in the rushing wind. But I am going to try to post a few things from my journal to keep this blog a little more active. Yesterday's journal I realized how important it is to admit a mistake and so I'll enter it here. .

Admitting a mistake brings me closer to my God self. It is my soul striving to reach perfection, but my ego does not like to admit a mistake. Admitting a mistake is the ego’s way of cooperating with my soul, for my soul works together with my ego. My ego must learn to assume humblenss. It is an act of tenderness and love to be humble. The ego is the outer shell for my REAL consciousness, which is larger and wiser than me as ego. It is the soul who is learning through the experiences I have, and when I make a choice that is slightly wrong - or badly wrong - then a recognition and admission must follow. Because I don't owe it to my ego in a false pride sort of way. I owe it to my soul to agree to amend my actions and get back on track with it - my soul, my higher self. If I don't, my ego builds the outer shell thicker and makes  matters worse, builds a thicker skull that is harder to penetrate. My soul is bigger and wiser than my ego. My soul is a higher form of "me". My soul is trying to reach upward to betterment. And recognizing a mistake I made, then I am part of the problem. My  authentic self realizes the mistake but can my small and petty ego, so full of pride, work with my soul and take that step and admit it?

If I was insensitive, or judged something or someone falsely, or simply spoke too quick before I understood the situation, then I must recognize it. Because if I don', my ego retains prideful and is defensive.  By recognizing my insensitivity with some humbling words to myself, I move myself back into step with my own beauty and refinement.

Go back to the heart, I wrote in my journal. Where is the heart? Not in the chest. It is in the center of the body. Where is the heart of a flower? In the center. Where is the heart of a room? In the center. Where is the heart of a problem? In the center. The center is where the power resides that can redeem a battered situation. The real power, the God power, which can harmonize and make right the error and bring everything back into a "feel-good" place. Balance. Rightness. Forward movement. Admitting a mistake is love in action. It is being reverent. It is a graceful bowing of the ego's head. Admitting a mistake, as small and inconspicuous as it may be, resurrects the sweet power of love for life, interest and enthusiasm. It is going back to the heart of power and reconnecting with that power whose presence remains hidden to the outer world.

If something doesn't feel right, then go back to the heart and reconnect with the power within which is softness and wise and fatherly love.  Father love which is like a stillness. The same power that is in the seed of a tree is in the human being. An acorn can grow the tallest of oak trees. But the power is invisible. We can't see that power. Yet, when we plant a seed, it germinates, sprouts, moves upward through the soil into the air and begins to grow. Some day it becomes a mighty tree. That same power is in a human being. It is invisible. It is in the center of the human being. It is not up there at the top of the head, and it is not in the chest. It is in the center of the body. Measure a human being from foot to crown - where is the half-way point between foot and crown? Where is the center? It’s in the pelvis, at the tailbone, in the vicinity of the root chakra. The heart of the body is in the pelvic bowl, formed by the pelvic bones. Upon the marble pedestal formed by the pelvic bones is the invisible flame of life. The spirit of the body that grows a tall oak tree. Think into that center. Ground into your heart. Don't worry! You won't become an oak tree! Breathe and focus into that flame of life and feel what you become.  It is instantaneous. Walk with both feet on the ground. Square your shoulders. Know yourself as fulfilled with the power of yourself.

This power has been distorted. Cut off through rape, abuse, pain, torture and manipulation of every kind so that people have shut down and removed themselves from off the pedestal and away from the flame of their very own power. The founding church fathers have trained us well to be ashamed of our personal power, our grace and love and beauty and feelings full of worshipful emotions to God. They trained us to be ashamed of what is "down there". They said it is a sinful place. Don't go there, don’t touch, don’t think about it, ignore it, dismiss it, reject it.

So I say "Return to the spiritual grace that is at the heart of the body."  Reclaim your power. It is the spiritual center of your body burning on a marble pedestal formed by the pelvic bones on top of two tall pillars of marble. Here is where the spirit is anchored. Here is where the soul resides. It is rooted into the ground.  Retrace the steps of forgiveness and be quiet about it. Don't tell anyone. No one deserves to know what you are doing because it is sacred. Only your very own self should know what you are doing. Where you are going to drink the waters of spirit. The soul will thank you for it. Your soul is the only one who can welcome you back into your own power and loving embrace.
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8/15/20  - Today I had an inspiring thought to re-listen to Shannon Port's "Healing the Manipulated Sexuality" video, which I posted on this website about 5 years ago. I discovered that she posted a new video in May this year entitled, "Awakening the Divine Feminine Power of Humanity", which I reposted here on this website. Click here to view: http://www.anakosha.org/sexual-healing.html and page down to the bottom of that page.  Her work echoes mine over the years. I'm sorry that I didn't keep track of her work. There is so much new information coming to light, it is hard to cover all of it. Shannon is giving very good information on the divine feminine. Visit her website:  www.artofthefeminine.com. 

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6/16/20 - It's been awhile since writing here into my blog. Perspectives are changing and becoming more refined. There is too much preciseness in the unfolding understanding to capture in finite words. But I thought I would try today. Spoken words don't portray the deep meaning I am intending. They are weak and ineffectual. Maybe that's why we are becoming more telepathic. Mental telepathy is how the galactics and masters speak to us. I guess that's why I have been receiving such exquisite ideas in my mind.  The word "love" for example. My understanding of love has changed over the years. I believed SO much in love, unconditional love, that it set me off on a journey to try to track it down. I ended up focusing on the divine feminine for I felt the men in my life weren't capable of understanding it. I was on a journey to unravel the mystery of love. 

First of all, these are my personal thoughts. I don't pretend to be an authority on love. I'm not a teacher of love, though at one time I aspired to be. I'm not. These are my own thoughts. My own conclusions. And frankly, they are constantly changing. Or rather expanding. Love was first planted in me as a seed many years ago. It was during an out-of-body guided meditation that I had an amazing spiritual experience that took me up and out of my body into a never-ending sea of loving light that had no boundaries, ever, in every direction. It wasn't a one-time incident, it was ongoing, a continuous thread lifting me up every day. My husband brought me back down and I'd go back up and out into loving light again. It took me between 8 and 10 years to master it and return to normal. Even then I was so filled with love that I gave it to everyone who would let me. And when I emptied myself finally and had no more to give, I kept trying to give more love until I went badly deficit. Because, I learned later, love has to be returned to the giver to keep human situations positive. Otherwise they become imbalanced.

But I didn't know that then. I tried to recreate the love I was slowly losing, by trying to get people to give it back to me in the same resonance. But they couldn't do it. I put the pressure on people by talking about love and trying to explain it. I really, really believed this unconditional, infinite, wonderful feeling of love could be reached by human beings with human beings, if only they would understand and try with me. I refused to give up trying. I tried all sorts of ways to get people to go with me on this, to feel the love and be with this amazing loving vibration with me. But alas, they couldn't, and eventually - picture me turning and walking away. I was laying too heavy an expectation on people who weren't ready. I realized most people didn't understand what love is if they never experienced it before. They only knew the word and not the meaning.  Most of them hadn't had the same experience I had had, of being immersed in the infinite sea of love and light. Thus it was MY journey, this trek, not theirs, of having to face some harsh realities about the human condition - my own human condition - not theirs.  

I didn't know that it was impossible to bring infinite love to human beings because human beings are finite. Including me. I am finite. I'm not talking as though I'm above it all.  Not at all. I'm learning something here. Understanding begins with me. Recently I have had flashes of seeing myself in a sea of 8 billion people. Just one in 8 billion. Everyone is like me and I'm like everyone else. I thought I was invincible because I experienced this huge vast love and I soared every day out of body for 10 years.  Ha!  Now I wonder what they have to show me? Maybe others have had this same experience I have had.

So I had to conclude it was impossible for me to train others in love because love comes from within and only the soul has access to this great love. A human being can't give love to another human being. It has to come from the heart and the soul. It has to blossom from within.  In my ignorance and searching for love, I overused the word “love” and they got tired of hearing me repeat it over and over. I apologize now and ask their forgiveness. I thought they didn’t understand me, but it was ME who didn’t understand them. I didn't understand that the human condition is a finite condition. A fixed and locked-in-place frozen condition. Each of us are human because we have entertained some degree of shadow and pain and suffering, and allowed it to be woven into our beautiful everlasting, eternal light. We are embedded with distortions that we have to look at squarely in the eye and get rid of it. I had to SEE this for myself. I’ve had to grow in wisdom and maturity. And that is changing by the day. Is the human being frail, weak, evil, argumentative, confused and greedy? Or is the human being loving, kind, tolerant, compassionate and passionately forgiving? Even angelic?

I think the later. But now that I see that - and again, it's my personal opinion - it is not my job to try to persuade others. However, I would recommend not listening to "words" being thrown about carelessly, harming others in the process, but rather listening to the silent inspirations that twinkle on and off in the mind. And to the surges of joy that twinkle on and off in the heart. I suggest letting love be the guiding influence, not empty "words".  It will keep a person centered in the central column that runs up and down the spine, and not pulled hither and yon by scraggley outside forces.  And not expect anyone to think like you do because they won't. They can't. They aren't you. You are unique. It is my personal opinion that love is the you you've been waiting for and looking for all your life. It's inside, not over the hill and far away.  It's inside. We all keep giving it away to others without realizing the value of it. We squander it and suddenly we become empty when love is not returned because everyone else is doing the same thing - squandering love away.  Relatively few people are taking the time to recognize that love blossoms within as a sacred moment. And the failure to recognize it causes it to disappear again. Building up love within is the great work for everyone. Build it up so we can share it with someone important to us, this priceless valuable love. It's awesome. It's eternal. It's everywhere but it goes unrecognized. It is symbolized by the figure eight symbol lying on its side - the infinity symbol. It is the giving and receiving, and the giving back and the receiving back, and the building of love with someone precious and valuable in a continuous figure eight flowing. It is simply recognizing it. That's all it takes, is recognition.

I have modified my expectations of people. I have zero expectations of a return. This way I don't look for love from people, I look for love from nature. I have softened my expectations so that I am more tolerant and more aligned with the natural human. Just how he or she is today. No expectations. The true meaning of love is respect for where he or she is right now. Whether they are a young child, a rebellious teen, a young adult, middle age, oldster, that's all they can be right now. They need to be honored, respected and acknowledged without any expectations. No longer seeking love from others but feeling it in quiet unexpected moments, such as yesterday in the pool.

After an exhausting 6-hour shopping trip, I tore off my clothes and plunged into the clear water, leaving the groceries for my husband to unpack. It was a hot day and the water was 90 degrees. I wilted and drooped into the water, lifeless. I rested my head on a foam noodle and let my legs dangle down, going totally limp. Not a muscle moved. No thought. No agenda. No sound. Emptiness. Floating aimlessly, my head bumped softly against the cement overhang and I felt love caress me. So sweet, so warm, so non-physical, love wafted through me. From the cement pool deck? Unsure, I looked to see. No one was there. It was a feeling as if a human being were caressing me, minus the pressure of fingers and hands. I wondered. Of all the people I’ve known who could possibly give me that kind of feeling? My husband is the only one and then extremely rarely. It felt like love itself and I thanked the cement and the water, and the sky and the trees, and the birds and the clouds, saying thank you to nature all around me.

I guess I was empty enough, exhausted enough, drained enough that my walls were down and my resistance gone. I was vulnerable then to receive the love that I'm normally too busy to notice.
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5/13/20  First, a brief mention - my personal email has been hacked. Stopped. Blocked. I'm not sure but it's not working. A new g-mail account has been opened but it's not functional yet. A few more steps are required. 
So if anyone has been trying to reach me and have not received a response, that's the reason why.

Yesterday morning right in the middle of watching a spy movie at the kitchen table over brunch, a download began talking to me in my mind. I clicked pause and began writing: "You have got to stop chasing the God that you think is above you or beyond you, and begin to accept the dark side that you are seeking to escape from.  Or change or resist or fight. The dark side is in yourself. You are the God you are chasing and at the same time resisting and refusing to look at. Yet not only are YOU God, but everything and everyone you encounter is God, is your self. You are everywhere doing everything, experiencing every situation, every sweet feeling, every sour note, every pain, every pleasure, every abundance, every lack, every electron swirling and vibrating within you in ecstasy and in fear. You are all and everything. You are alive. You are motionless. You are activity. You are realization dawning, you are every last breath dying. You are every new baby being born, every mother pushing out a new birth, you are all of this. You must stop chasing the dream that you think is beyond you, and settle down into your knowing. You are that knowing. You are all that is, no matter where your body is located at this moment. 

[This came as an answer to my wondering why I have been drawn to certain political videos by whistleblowers after shunning them for years.] 

Stop! Listen to the activity in you. Listen to the stillness in you. See them together. Move them together into the eternal mix. When you chase the light and refuse the dark that you don't like, you remain unbalanced. Discover the magic of blending. Listen to the activity. Don't resist. Allow it. Love is allowing all that is in motion to complete its journey. Allow the activity. Love and allowance soothes the disquiet and assists it towards its wholeness. Then you are applying magic - the magic of now. Eternity is now.  As an eternal immortal realize how important it is to remain anchored within your physical, no matter what, grounding the eternal now into what is happening on the earth plane. Do not run away from what is taking place on the earth plane. Do you realize how important it is to NOT chase the illusion? The dream? The agenda? 

Do not seek to build new hopes. Relax into the eternal, everlasting hope which is you. Your home. You are all that is. You carry all that is with you every day in every way. There is no hope greater than yourself. You are the hope of the universe. Instead of resisting what you think of as dark, relax into the stillness from which you came. Don’t focus on the dark. Focus on the stillness, the wholeness within you. All depends on you. Reality depends on you arriving at the center of your stillness. At the center of your wholeness. Do not focus on the dark. Do not focus on the light. Focus on your stillness. Create your stillness. You have been running away from your stillness. Your male side and your female side are blended in your stillness. Your active imagination and your stillness. Stop resisting your active imagination. Allow it into your stillness where you are at peace and at one with Father, Mother God. You are the God of your dreams. You have been chasing, not allowing. You have been chasing a dream when you are the dreamer and have been the dreamer all along. You have been chasing your tail while your heart remains in the stillness of love, light and truth.  Be done with the chasing. You have safely arrived. Listen to the cacophony that is taking place in your world but do not engage with it. Allow. For now. For now. Remember the now.

Question: After coming to the end of a video by a super soldier, how he had been abducted, and tortured to create psychosis and fragments of his consciousness, I asked, "Now that I am listening to these horror stories, what do I do with this information?" There was a pause and then quietly, "Allow it. Allow it. Don't DO anything with it. Simply allow." I realized later that the information I used to run from is processing itself into me without pain. It is truth coming home and finding a way to unwind and curl up inside me and be redeemed all by itself. I wondered if I should DO anything with this information. It seemed I must past the information on, as if I must be part of the solution in a more active way, spreading the word. But the answer was “Allow it. Do not DO anything. Allow it. It will find your stillness. It will absolve itself if you remain in the sacred heart of stillness. Allow it to come to you. Do not DO anything. Do not THINK of what you should do. Simply allow.”

Question 10 minutes later: Am I connecting with my divine masculine? Yes we have guided you to reconnect with your divine feminine first, and you have done well. Now you are in the process of recovering your divine masculine. These two divine powers have been dormant over many lifetimes. They have been covered over by distortions created by the human artificial thoughts. The divine has needed to be released from these distortions. You have uncovered your divine feminine first. We have guided you. And now you are seeking your divine masculine. You have asked what IS the divine masculine? How does it work, you have asked. We are guiding you. It is not the human masculine you are seeking, but the purity and wholeness of the holy Father within you. You must feel this. You will find your answer as your feel it and comprehend it. You must feel this while you are in your physical body. You know that you must create light and wholeness IN YOUR BODY. Your body is the sum total of all that you are. If you leave your body without creating and fulfilling your wholeness, then you will have need to return. 

Now that you have rediscovered and re-embodied your divine feminine, you must enter the deep underground dark to rescue your divine masculine. Your divine masculine has been captured and stolen. It has been discredited, enslaved, yet it has been sucked of its life force - YOUR life force has been sucked away by the distorted artificial creations. Your divine masculine has been sacrificed for the development and cultivation of human monsters. Your willingness to correct the wrongness is the divine will in you. It is Father God’s will to correct it. All that is needed is your willingness to acknowledge. Simply acknowledge. Simply allow. You do not need to join the cacophony of voices in the outer world. Simply allow while retaining your cosmic lightness.

In your past, you forfeited your divine will, your masculine self, and allowed yourself to be soothed and placated into non-action. You hung on desperately to the divine feminine for support. Now that you have recovered your divine feminine, you are seeking your divine masculine. You are entering the dark tunnels by listening to youtubes, videos, articles, reporters, of dark events. These stretch far and wide and out away from the light of reason into crevices and holes of artificial creations that are not pure. These are the playgrounds of humans trying to find answers, trying to find the light. As you use the powers of love and light in wholeness and stillness, without judging, you are allowing the dark to find you. The dark is drawn to you. You are allowing the dark to find you. If you do not judge it you are allowing it to return easily, to blend smoothly, back into light, its originating source. You are absolving it. You are redeeming it. You are rescuing it. Love allows action to complete its necessary return faster, quicker, more efficiently. It is the infinity symbol. What goes out must return. As above, so below, back above again. Love and action are combined together in this way. Love and action brings you back into harmony and wholeness. Together, male and female, you reclaim your balance by allowing the blending. God the father and God the mother are guiding you as the child who has been wayward, away from home, exploring and adventuring, making misdeeds, then returning back to be resolved and welcomed back to the father’s mansion and celebration. But it is up to YOU to make your own mark on the world. Father Mother cannot do it for you. Nor can your older sisters and brothers. 

The Chinese masters have labeled these two polarities yin and yang, one is always within the other as a supporting mechanism to strengthen its theoretical twin. It is one and the same but for purposes of adventures in duality and polarity they must act separately. In your low vibrational planet, yin and yang were separated a long time ago, creating an age of darkness, rebellion and confusion. Yin and yang lost its ability to reclaim itself and its wholeness. They fought each other because of dark role models and controlling masters. They were thus disengaged from one another, yet they needed one another. They cannot exist without the other. Now, after eons of experimenting with separation and polarity, they are returning to one another, seeking each other, hoping to rejoin with the other to become one again in this era of light. Your world will soon be joining the other races in the galaxy, for you are evolving out of imbalance into wholeness and balance. Your wholeness will trigger the evolution of many other species on many other planets, suns and galaxies, for your world has been the lowest, the deepest, darkest and therefore the weakest and the most lost.  When the lost one is found and redeemed, then all the others can stop their searching and go home. Earth was the weak link in the chain of a myriad links. When humanity on this planet regains its wholeness, it will become the foundation stone for the rest of the universe. 

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5/7/20 Today I have updated the Ascension page which I totally re-wrote from a new perspective. I also added articles to the Disclosure page and to the Galactic page. I am working hard to assimilate all the changes that I am experiencing personally. I have to do a better job of organizing to fit the new articles and information coming from others. I love to read them and want to post them here to share with others. The world is expanding, along with the information that is appearing. It is a revolutionary time. New pieces of information to consider are churning and upsetting the applecart which was carefully done through yesterday.

Today there is a wider perspective to assimilate into the whole. For example, this morning I had to decide where to place Mahatma Gandhi's message. I didn't know if he was ascended or not, so where to place his beautiful message? Also Matthew Ward, is he ascended? I don't know so I wasn't sure where to place his informative messages either. Decisions, decisions.  Galactics are those off-world races I DO know about, but what about the ones I've never heard of before? They too are coming within human range of sight.  I think for now I'll include Mahatma Gandhi into Galactics.

I have not forgotten about the wonderful world of massage, lovemaking, bonding and communicating with other people up close. When the quarantine time has moved on and people are more comfortable, this can be resumed. But this is a new phase and new information is being integrated into the picture. It will be such a far-reaching plan for humanity to be a greater piece of the universal puzzle. But humans have something that the rest of the universe wants from us. We are important to neighboring galaxies. We are different, and we are becoming awake. We don't yet know just HOW valuable we are, but I know. It's our emotions. We have a rich and fertile ability to FEEL. Most races (extraterrestrial) who have been around for millions, billons of years longer than we have, evolved up and out of physicality. Humanity still has its physicality firmly in place. All we need is to remove the not-so-good emotions from our fields. Those emotions that drag us down. They are the gremlins in the woodwork. As we are assisted to become more noble and more pure in our nature, we will lose the negative side of our emotions and immerge with our beautiful emotions intact and greater than ever. This is what the other races want from us. They want our DNA!  Can you imagine? We have had their DNA in us for eons, since they added to our evolutionary process with theirs. And now they want some of our DNA because we are so rich in physical emotions (not our negative emotions but our positive ones). 

And we thought we were the underdogs of the galaxy! We have vastly underrated ourselves. We have been reduced via the reductionist theory to a "skin" factor. We were unessential to the dark powers that governed us. Now we are rising up. Not in rebellion, but in intelligence and wisdom. In kindness and respect for each other. There is something in the wind that is changing us. It can't be defined. It is a divine growth factor. A self-realization. It is self-enlightenment. It is our higher self descending more firmly into our bodies. It is our real self, the holy self, the beautiful, remarkable, sensitive, caring, healthy self. The normal self. The natural self is quickening and coming alive.

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4/19/20 - A little catchup is in order. My attention which was originally put to blogging, has been spreading out to further and wider spaces. Lots of changes are taking place on the surface as inner awareness is expanding. Several weeks ago I posted a new page on this website called COUPLES, with plans for a glorious future for couples in love, but today I replaced it with DISCLOSURE.

Whew. This rapid expansion of new information that is coming out of the woodwork (not yet in the mainstream news but alternate sources) is very difficult to keep up with. But I am committed to the light and I can't NOT include it into my ongoing blog. The light is information. The light is truth. The light is love. The light is peace. Humanity is gearing up worldwide to changing over from a hostile world to a peaceful world. Plan for a a period of chaos before we get there, but not military chaos as in a war. No. The chaos that is going to affect all of us is psychological and emotional. It is going to be very, very important to stay grounded. BREATHE!

As these ground-breaking, earth-shattering revelations come out - that we have had the wool pulled down over our eyes, it will be like a kick in the stomach. We trusted the authorities. They were our gods. We relied on them to do the right thing. We always have. So when they turn out to be small little people hiding behind a curtain, we need to suddenly grow up and not cry like babies. The role ahead of us is to be mature and discerning. Adults who can control our shock. The dark leaders of the world are being taken out. We will learn as the plan proceeds. It will out slowly.

We would never be able to accomplish this cleansing of the planet alone, humanity alone, without higher help since the earth and its population have become riddled through and through with shadow energy. It's part of our life now. There is "not light" in us. We could not survive here without the shadow running through us. So we are going to have to allow the "not light" to be drained away from us., and it's going to be difficult for those who have a LOT of it. Earth would have been long gone as a planet by now - it would have disappeared from the solar system - if it had not been for the celestials, galactics, ascended masters, archangels and others higher in evolution watching over us. The intervention that we are in the midst of right now, the change-over called the shift, has been very carefully planned by moderating the human race on a minute to minute and hour by hour basis. They are beaming love and light down at us from many ships orbiting the skies. We have been mercifully protected from knowing too much too fast, but at the same time we have been spoon fed information and love to wake us up. It had to be gentle and careful or it would injure our minds and our emotional stability.

But the truth has to be told and IS being told - that humanity has been living on a prison planet for millennia. We thought we were the only intelligent species in the universe but that was the dark's agenda who infiltrated our world. Steps were taken to keep us in the dark. But don't fret. It's not all bad. We are waking up and we are being blessed and loved and nurtured as we wake up to our own personal amazing truth that we are beautiful whole and complete human beings. We are not sinners after all. It was all a lie. We are coming into, slowly and gradually, the truth of our own identity. Who we are among the other celestials. We know what we know. We just didn't believe it. We are going to start believing it now. We are going to start trusting our own inner knowledge now. We are going to say, "I KNEW that was not right! I just KNEW it!"

On the same taken, we are going to have to accept the fact that we are mere babes in the wood, spiritually speaking. We ARE spiritual beings, after all. Even if we don't know that, we will soon find out. We will start remembering. Then we will have to say, "But which way is Home? Where is Home and where do we go from here? Where is our mother and father?" For there is a mother and father, and we instinctively know that. But we've been manipulated into thinking we were sinners by the leaders of orthodox religion who held us in their grip. I left the church when I was 21 because I saw it then, and many have, but there are still a lot of people who still trust the church. We've been in the hands of dark intelligences all of our life, and all our parent's lives, and all our grandparents lives, and all THEIR parents and grandparents lives and on down the ancestral line, we have carried over the dark side. But there is no one to blame. We should not blame. Instead, we need to pick up our marbles and turn around and go home. Look for the path that takes us Home. We are all going Home.

We are being led there. Trust the new lightening process taking place. News coming out will shock you. We are going back into the light, and the whistle-blowers and truth-tellers are helping us get there. We have to look the lie in the eye and see it for what it is and refuse to accept it. With grace. Through contacts with higher intelligent beings, we will learn not to fight against it but go with the flow, as the news unfolds and is lay out in front of us and everyone to see. The information is being disseminated. I posted two new videos that were released this month by well-educated doctors who are, as they say, pissed! They are talking. Humanity is unfolding its wings. We are intelligent. We are wise. We just didn't know. We can govern ourselves. We just were told we couldn't. We only need to start trusting our innate knowledge. Trust what is happening. It is a process unfolding. A few bumps here and there will not stop it. Just go with the flow and use your shock-absorbers. Rely on love and the comfort of your family and friends. Rely on your heart which is your feeling nature, your empathy and your instinct. These are leading us to trust in ourselves and to STOP trusting the so-called authorities. Let the collapse happen knowing it is only temporary because there is a backup plan by the higher light forces. They have it under control. The safety blankets are in place. 

Seek the truth within yourself. Take time to contemplate and to listen to your self speak to you. Learn to love yourself. Love of self means taking time out to spend time with yourself. To get to know yourself. To feel what yourself is feeling and what it is saying. Take time to listen now. It's not selfish to be in love with yourself.  It is not narcissistic to think of yourself first. It is not greedy to fill yourself with consideration and awareness and sensitivity and become vulnerable with yourself and to cry, because that's how you love yourself. Crying is a release and then more love can come in. When you have given yourself enough love you will feel peaceful and deep and grounded. Then you will have enough love and consideration to give to others. A dying man or woman is of no help to society or a family, so fill yourself with love each morning before going out the door. We are being told to help ourselves FIRST. To cultivate ourselves first and take responsibility for ourselves. And if you need help, ask. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Then someone else will feel genuinely proud to be of service. Meditate on this. Take time out to contemplate on this that is coming. Take time out to feel the peace within. 

Beautiful, highly evolved, intelligent beings are working behind the scenes to help us grow up and take charge of our own lives so stop being vulnerable to the wrong people, and start rebuilding our communities with happiness. Don't be afraid to seek comfort with friends and with those you trust. Don't be afraid to open your heart to those who are in synergy with you.

Many blessings to all. Please check out the DISCLOSURE page when you have time. Be true to your Self and stay grounded.
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​3/30/20 - Well, it is a Monday morning again and the worldwide fear pandemic is still underway, but there are continuing revelations taking place within everyone. And there are changes on this website. I've been fiddling around with it under guidance of spirit. I have had new more expanded understandings and I can't handle the many divisions I have created. I have five websites going right now. How did this happen? Now I have to down-size. I am moving into oneness and losing my ability to separate into categories. The global pandemic is not really about the corona virus, although we need to be sensible about it and take whatever precautions are required - keep your social distance and self-quarantine as advised - but there is something more important taking place. I'll be posting some of this information here on Anakosha, just as I have been doing right along in a hinting sort of way.

GALACTIC page. One of my five websites is a galactic federation website separate from Anakosha. You can see it here. Recently I started posting galactic information on Anakosha because Anakosha is my home. It is where I am anchored. I started Anakosha years ago. It started first as a couples swing site but it has changed over time. This has always been my online home, how I interact with the world. My main theme has always been love between human beings but it expanded from there.  I'll be posting more galactic information here in the future. The galactic intervention is not really an intervention, it is a returning. They are family and we have their DNA in us. All earth bodies have DNA from somewhere out beyond earth. We come from the stars.  This is a complicated subject that is not known to our earth-educated minds, but it is known by our higher consciousness which is our soul. There are glimmers of recognition starting to come through to individuals. As long as we are in an earth body having an earth life as a human, we don't know about our origins in the stars, but we will. We have homes in other places. We come from regions that are not taught on earth. We are being prepared for when this information will come forth. We need to be prepped emotionally and mentally. We will be visited by extraterrestrial family, but not in the way we have been expecting it. We are learning to pick up information mentally. What is known as telepathy. The governments of the world have done their best to keep this knowledge from us, but it's coming through the cracks in the system. Through telepathy. Through higher consciousness and mind-to-mind or empathic channelings. The human race is becoming empathic. There will be more about this on future Anakosha pages. But love remains the highest theme of all. Divine love and human love.
 
GODDESS page. I will be taking down the Goddesssphere.org website which I published in January this year,  which no one knows about anyway. I will simply post divine feminine articles on the GODDESS page here instead. I was really excited when I created the Goddesssphere website. It was a huge interest at the time but it peaked and fell away in months. The interest faded and I moved on. The intention at the peak was to gather women together to share feminine values with each other and validate what women know and feel without men around. I felt it would help women to gain confidence in themselves but it turned out I was searching for myself alone. I wasn't doing it for them but for me. And I found it. I found that the divine feminine was in men too, and it is that part of us which is spiritual. It is the part that is in constant communication with source, or creator if you like. It has been stamped out by the rigid patriarchal system where women did not have freedom to be their beautiful, loving, spontaneous self.  Feminine skills were made illegal centuries ago, so that females were second class citizens, or servents.

It was my intention to join the growing numbers of womens gatherings around the world and have one here in Naples, but I was moved to a larger picture. Bringing the feminine forward is definitely happening today all around the world. It is the most important issue on the planet right now, and is the most essential factor in the transformation of the government systems of the world. But there is more. As I look back and wonder "Why did I start a goddess circle if it all went away? What happened?" I realize that it was something personal that I had to experience for myself. It was karmic. Karma is unresolved issues, and I definitely had unresolved issues with men. I had to soundboard with other women to realize it and I did. I broke away from an underlying subservience to men. I now thank those women who were there for me, who performed like mirrors for me and reflected the great, wondrous feminine love that I had, back to me. Men could not do that. So it was a short three months that I entertained the goddess circle as future project and then it collapsed. It was a thoroughly rewarding and rich cleansing process. Now I am ready to move on. We are ALL growing into higher consciousness in our own unique ways. As our souls lead us to where we need to be, we shift and change to new thought processes. It's a private journey. The galactic intervention is assisting in this expansion process as we wonder about extraterrestrials and search the skies and read about them. 

Still on the subject of the divine feminine, subservience to men is a trait that was bred into women from the time they are born as a girl. We don't know it. We can't see it but it is in the background of our being. Having confronted it in myself and getting past it, I now see the patriarchy through a different lens. We have beaten that horse, the so-called patriarchy, to death.  I have empathy for the poor men and wouldn't want to be one at this time.  It has become evident to me that men too are victims of an unchecked, ruthless society that created a cruel, loveless society - a mechanized, robotized system that took away humanity's innocence and made it illegal to be free. There is a new motto for Anakosha emerging in my thoughts. I'll probably add to the masthead: "Integrating the divine feminine and divine masculine into the mechanized human." Or something like that. There is no separation gap between men and women. The only separation is between human and divine. Both genders are the same human species with the same false ideas and issues. Human has become false. We have been syphoned off, split off from our decent, warm and compassionate nature (our God self) and made to follow rules that are painful and not natural. The human being would be innocent, wholesome and kindly, if he were not forced to do things he or she did not want to do for basic survival. The problem is not the split between men and women but the split between our divine nature and our forced, mechanized nature. We have both divine and mechanized programs operating within us. Each is contradictory to the other. Our human nature opposes our divine nature, and our divine nature opposes our human nature. We are split. We have split personalities. It keeps us in tension and constant stress. We are now being asked to stay home. There is a benefit to staying home because there is war going on behind the scenes. Stay hunkered down and consider who do you want to follow? The human who is in fear? Or the divine nature of your God-self that is loving and kind to others? It's a test. Which one do you want to entertain? 

At last, we are getting to the crux of the matter. This is the dividing point. What we choose to think about takes us off into that direction. We have gotten off track by following fear and making susrvival the issue instead of love for our brothers and sisters. Even a dying person can forget he or she is dying by doing something for someone else. It turns the tables and creates goodness within. We need to spend more time entertaining good, decent and noble thoughts which does not require learning because it's innate. It's natural to us. I've been calling it divine but forget the word. It is who and what we are underneath the phony mask of trying to fit into an imperfect world. We've had to work hard to adapt to a rigid and unholy system. We've left many a dead body behind in other lives, only to be reborn and try again to get it right. But what is right? We are fed the same disgusting system because we never knew any better. It was the only way. We were not informed of our God self. There were no teachers for most of us. A few found their way to India in the '60's and '70's when it was starting to break open here in the US. But for the most of us, we missed that chance. 

That's what I am here to talk about. I am Anakosha and I am moving into position to expand on the new age coming in. We are on the threshold of a new dawn, but there is a storm underway. We don't know what is going on, but we are to entertain higher, lighter, more loving thoughts. This is how we get through the storm. By integrating our higher perspective into our lower perspective. Be at peace. Be alert. Be kind to yourself. This is how to mesh with it. How to stay balanced and rooted. How to be comfortable inside your own skin. How not to be rattled and afraid when shocking news comes blaring out of the TV or your computer screen. Stay in the higher consciousness of compassion and kindness and love. We've been led to believe we are small, meaningless and guilty. The entire human race has been engulfed by a mechanized system which is cold and dark. News of just how dark is going to be coming forth. Shocking news, they say, will be coming. Be prepared to stay hunkered down when your neighbors get rattled and go off the deep end.  Be like the massive oak tree that survives the hurricane. Trust that it will not last. The dark that has been overlaid on top of your natural goodness can be pierced quietly by staying in your center, rooted and grounded to Mother Earth the way the massive oak tree is grounded. Remember yourself as the wondrous, starry-eyed innocent child you were at 18 months. 

Mechanization killed our faith in ourselves but we can get it back because it didn't go anywhere. It just went underground. We can bring it back up by choice of our how we think. Have faith in the awesome unknown that lets us live on, life after life and death after death, to try again to see if we can do it better next time. Life is eternal. We are eternal. The body comes and goes. We don't remember but our soul does. We have an accumulated wealth living inside us which is our soul. We've been indoctrinated by a shadow program. We were made to believe in a dark and cruel world and to be afraid, but we are breaking through that now. The veils are falling away. We are each doing this alone. It's an individual process to learn how to trust in oneself again, MORE than trusting the system. We don't go into rebellion or fighting or protesting, we go into an elevated perspective. We rise above it and see from an airplane's view or better yet - a spaceship's view from outer space. We have another chance in these days to live again more naturally and wholesomely through the love program. Watch where your thoughts go. Reject the robotization process that is a killer of souls.

Robotization and mechanization don't have to be bad words. We don't have to reject technology. Not at all. Technology comes with an advancing, evolving consciousness. It benefits the whole. It is good. Mankind is on the cutting edge of a new age which is advancing us further than we have ever been before as an earth race. We will be connecting spirituality with technology. This step of merging spirituality with technology requires a higher and wider perspective, and we only get that through having love and compassion for others and faith. Coupling spirituality and technology is known to the Extraterrestrials as organic technology. Those races who have lived millions of years longer than humanity, has conquered space travel because they have organic space ships. They have gigantic motherships that are alive. There is a mind meld with the ships. There are stories by those who have traveled in them by invitation. The ships breathe and follow mental instructions from those who live inside them.

We are moving into this new knowledge in the coming era ahead. It is done by using our hearts with our minds and intellect, thus we can "feel" a connection with inanimate material. We will learn that nothing is inanimate as we think now. Everything has consciousness, even a rock, and therefore that consciousness can be communicated with through heart and mind coupled together, just as a human can communicate with a pet. . We will learn how to communicate through feeling coupled with intellect. By respecting and having compassion for the object we include them and thus bond with them, just as we do with our lover. In the next era we will grow in our ability to feel love. It is through consideration of others that love begins. It is an inclusive process. We become "more" when we include other life forms. We rise to higher planes in the universe. It is the evolution of consciousness. We have to become conscious of being love, kind and considerate. This is done by feeling. It is not done by intellect alone. Intellect does not have feeling. The mind cannot feel, but as I lower My thinking down out of the ivory tower which I normally reside in, I slow my thought down and they "click" in with other people around me. I am discovering this and experimenting with it. It allows me to "bond" with people. It is  the same process we go through when we take a lover. Staying in the intellect (the ivory tower) we stay separate and think we know better than everyone else. We tend to think of others as "stupid" or "ignorant" or "unworthy". That is why we need to learn how to bring love down to street level and practice lowering our thoughts to blend with our neighbors WITH AWARENESS to keep it light. 

Intelligence needs to be coupled with feeling. Love is a feeling. Love is the feminine in people. The feminine has been missing and needs to be brought back into every system on earth. It is the element that will transform and save the earth. This is the reason for the women's movement. Not the human woman but the divine woman. The divine feminine. The goddess movement. The human feminine has lost it. The human male has lost it. The divine feminine and the divine masculine is found again through feeling. Feelings of a loving nature that is unconditionally caring for all, not selective like one here and one there according to how we feel they connect to us. That's the human part. Unconditional love is respect for everyone even if they do NOT connect with us. That's where the mental blends with feeling. We have to learn more about how to do this. We will require advanced training to learn how to respect and honor all living things. We need to draw on spirit, our higher God self. Spirit is in charge and knows what to do in ALL circumstances. Following spirit is how we advance to higher ground. We have to stop judging others as beneath us or over us. No one is greater or below us. We are all equal through love. The loving side of technology, the feminine side of technology, will bring an end to disease. Magnificent healing machines will be coming soon which will be organic. You'll feel the peace and calmness when you are being treated. It will resurrect the health and the life force in you. The feminine side of technology will turn us around from the destructive path we were on. It will save us from destroying Mother Earth. Human nature lost its way when it created systems without the feminine influence. Because of that, because we were on the verge of destruction as a planet, we are now going through an intervention.

The ASCENSION page on this website was a little ahead of its time and it will remain on Anakosha. Soon I will post some direct channelings from Ascended Masters themselves. The Masters are concerned. They cannot intervene but they can be called upon by focusing on them. There are instructions to follow. I'm copying them from books and I'll include the title and source where you can purchase them if interested. Most people are not aware of the Ascended Masters, sometimes referred to as the Great White Brotherhood which refers to the white light of their presence. The channel was a woman in the 1950's and 60's, who has since died and is herself now ascended. By making available direct channelings from them will provide more personal detail and bring the Masters closer to us emotionally, making them appear more human like us - humans who have perfected themselves and were able to break the chain of rebirth. As you start using your higher mind by reading and contemplating loftier thoughts instead of looking under rocks out of fear, you will notice a definite difference in your calmness and sense of well-being.

As we advance further into this pandemic of fear, loss and confusion, there will surely be a growing interest in the Masters like St. Germain, Sanat Kumara, El Morya, Hhilarion. There are not that many actually. Over time you get to be able to identify them by their presence. The way you identify a friend who approaches you in the dark or with your eyes closed. These books have been shelved and lost only because the people weren't ready for them. We are getting closer. I will do my part. I personally am grateful and could hug the man and his woman who were there at the time the words were spoken. They went to great trouble and expense to gather these messages and re-published them. You can see the website here where they can be purchased. 
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3/25/20 - I have posted on the GODDESS page today, "There is a purging going on planet-wide". The goddess page is where I'm starting to post the newsletters. Things are changing to the extent that I get somewhat confused over where to post things!  But by recording the changes, I stay in the middle of the road and feel centered and balanced. I hope you will follow along as I make changes on this website. I will continue to post here what the lastest changes are. 
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3/19/20 - As the pandemic slowly engulfs the world with paranoia and fear, threatening to everyone's stability, I am doing the opposite. I am focusing on cultivating Tantra, sex, love and the super-normal powers that we all have within us, innate and available if we only knew how to use them. We all have a mission and purpose for being here, and this has been my chief number one interest from the beginning. Since I've collected tons of articles that have never been published, I will begin by releasing some random ideas just to start the ball rolling. Sex is a common theme and should be of interest to everyone. Perhaps it will serve to ground people's attention and bring them back to sanity. These writings introduce the power BEHIND sex. What is this power that can create such powerful sexual experiences?  

"Sex is the divinity in you.  It is neither male nor female, but the combined force of both. Sex is a force as opposed to a "cancelling out" as some would suppose, or neutrality. When you consider the imbalance of male or female separately, you will see that each suffers from a need caused by a lack of union with the counterpart.  Thus the eternal search for a suitable mate which takes up so much time.  However, once that suitable mate has been found, the struggle for a mate is over and the struggle for balance begins, for finding a mate does not bring the long awaited balance.

"The interaction between male and female is an interaction that takes place within yourself.  The sex force is a physical manifestation of a deep spiritual hunger.  The sex drive is the urge to balance the two extreme natures within you, positive and negative, or as some would say, the aggressive, outgoing, confident nature, and the passive, introspective, shy and hesitant nature.  These two natures exist in all beings for they are the yin and yang, the pendulum of the cosmic clock.  It creates the urge to grow and change.  It creates curiosity and the urge to find ways to unite.  The perspective from one extreme causes curiosity about the other and if the pendulum of opposite views should cease, outer activity would cease also, for the world would come to a rest in the arms of loving embrace."

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3/15/20  - Following is a private letter to someone who asked about Tantric massage. Tantra is becoming increasingly popular but most people don't have understanding because it is a spiritual healing technique. This site carries information about Tantra and Tantric massage, along with the contact information of David, a gifted Tantric massage practitioner in Naples. I want to add to this information to try to increase understanding. I notice there are a lot of hits to the MASSAGE page, so massage is a popular subject and a much needed component of human nature. There is also a rise in interest how it all works, how meditation works and energy works. Massage is a wonderful technique for expressing love. High and holy love. Love is healing. I write about this all the time but it hasn't been absorbed very well yet in our culture. The culture is still fixated on sex. Perhaps this will fill in a little better what Tantric massage is. I will add it to the MASSAGE page.

(Quote) I'm sorry but I don't know any female tantric practitioners anywhere in SW Florida. I wish I did. Whether you should see a male practitioner depends on where YOU are coming from. I have a male colleague in Naples. He is posted on the Anakosha website. But what YOU are seeking and what you expect to happen during the massage makes a difference. Tantra is a spiritual energy treatment, it is not sexual. It uses the powers of the earth and the sun. These are the powers that get blocked and dammed up which create sexual feelings. A Tantric massage helps to unblock the energies. Most people don't understand what it's all about.

The power of the earth is spiritual, and the power of the sun is spiritual. We in our bodies are also spiritual but we live in a physical body which has a lot of blocks in it.  It takes someone who knows what he or she is doing to put hands on a person and connect the spiritual power of earth (magnetism) with the spirit of God in the sun (electrical) and thus open the blocks in the body and allow the energies to flow through your physical body and bring parts back into alignment again, as they should be. The session brings a wonderful peace back to the body, for the body is also spiritual and can be made whole again by releasing blocks. Sex is a feeling of release because sex is a blockage. That's what Tantra is all about but it is not understood very well.

The body is also spiritual. It is composed of cells which are intelligent. They make up the different parts of the body - liver, heart, lungs, sex organs, muscles, etc. They ARE intelligent. Cells are spiritual. They get out of alignment because the person living in the body is not connected to his or her body, and is feeding the body all sorts of wrong thoughts. The body becomes a jangled piece of confusion because the lord of the manor is not maintaining it in pristine condition. The body needs a lot of help to be restored to good, healthy, working condition so it FEELS good. Finding a healer who knows how to remain clear as a channel and allow the spiritual forces to work through him or her is rare. David is such a person.

However, if your thought process links warm good feelings with feminine and a female body working on you, this can make a difference in the results. It is how you think that matters. Your beliefs mold your thoughts into expectations and anticipations. You may want to have a woman who is less knowledgeable about Tantra and more looking to a woman's hands on your skin. This is more shallow thinking but it is legitimate and not to be discounted. It is where your understanding lies and what will make you feel good. Your body is intelligent. It knows it wants SOMETHING. You have to figure out what your body wants and needs. Your body is condensed spirit. It is full of spiritual powers but it is fragmented and compacted and condensed into a physical concerete. It is rare to find a healer who is clear enough and knowledgeable enough to allow the spiritual forces to work through them and into you, the body on the table. David can do it.

Most people think Tantra is a sexual or sensual thing. What they think going into a treatment will alter the results. It is good to have a totally open mind and trust the practitioner. If you are looking for a sensual or sexual result, then you're probably wishing for a female practitioner. If you are looking for a genuine Tantric massage which will give you a wonderful healing, where your body is brought back into alignment as best can be done under your particular body system, then I would recommend going to David.

I hope this explains it a little bit better. Ask more questions if you like. I will try to answer them.


3/13/20 - A self-check for corona virus is posted on Goddess page.
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2/25/20 - Check out the Goddess page - there is a posting about Yin and Yang.
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2/21/20 - Check out the Galactic page for an interesting article on sex from Ivo of Vega.

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2/17/20 - Today I am once again posting on the GALACTIC page and on the GODDESS page, because it is getting too much for me to post on 3 separate websites. I will maintain the separate websites for awhile but because I am unifying, as compared to starting new projects (which I was for awhile), everything I wish to share with the public will go into Anakosha. I am Anakosha and it is getting tiresome to have to separate postings by subject matter so people can find them. Everything that is of interest to me will now be be united and posted here. It simplifies things for me to gather all my chicks and children into one whole website presence. I am Anakosha, known as Diana, and I wish you a pleasant day today.
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​1/20/20 - Well, hello again!  It is a new year and over a month since I have blogged on Anakosha. However, I have been busy posting on the GoddessSphere.org website and also on the Galactic Federation website, both of which can be accessed by clicking "Goddess" and "Galactic" on the menu. Also I have been sending newsletters under the GoddessSphere signature. Busy, busy, busy, going back and forth between 3D and 5D reality and trying to stay balanced. Time passes quickly in 3D but does not exist in 5D, so it is a challenge coming and going.

Today I created a new category on the ARTICLES page called "Ascended Master Djwal Khul Speaks". These are messages he has given me over the years. I thought I would be able to organize them, but time is passing too quickly so I've decided to post them as they make themselves known to me. In 5D you do things as they flow by your window - that is, if you can capture them on the fly-by. DK has been my guide for 44 years and they are priceless dictations of wisdom and instruction. I will post them as time permits. 

I wish all a wonderful year in 2020. The world is about to change and unfold in quick succession. Stay centered in your own heart and mind no matter what happens. Be real. Be solid. Be at peace within your skin. Your first obligation is to keep yourself in the center of your universe. Everyone has to hold their own center. You are not responsible for them (except for the children who are not mature enough to make their own decisions.)

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12/20/19 - After a good solid 10 hour sleep last night with no lingering dreams, an awareness started to dawn on me like a sunrise casting ah-HA! rays all around as I laid on the acupuncture mat. I urge everyone to get an acupuncture mat. It stimulates the meridians and helps back pain.* (See footnote*) 

Over the last month I’ve been plugged into an extraterrestrial group called www.girk-fit-niir.com, which is akin to plugging into a galactic wall socket. Before this, I believed it. Now I feel it. On this website beings from outside our world speak through channels and give us wisdom. It’s not just information. There's a feeling of familiarity. There's a sense of finding something that had been forgotten. Like, “Yes! Of course, of course, I know.” So it’s plugging in to something I once knew but had somehow lost the thread and I've been wandering around looking for it. It's similar to when you're on the phone and suddenly lots of static comes in and you can't hear them any more. Then just as suddenly it clears up and you hear their voice strong and loud again.

The aliens talk about it as telepathic. They are becoming stronger in telepathic communication with us. Instead of appearing in physical form in front of us, which they attempted to do right after WWII showing their ships, but it didn’t work well, there was too much fear, their efforts to approach us stepped back. They didn't want to cause fear and panic. They have been studying us to see how best they could reach us in a smoother way. Abductions took place for a few decades by some of the off-world races in order to get human DNA to mix with their own to create hybrid children. This is standard practice throughout the universe, to mix genes to advance a race. But the abductions, even with amnesia, were causing negative reactions, so that was stopped. They were stumped. They didn’t know how to reach us without causing fear because Earth and its citizens have been so locked down against outside interference.

Then everything changed when they discovered that some humans were empaths. They didn’t realize. It was a profound discovery. They had been perceiving Earth humans as having disorganized minds and emotions that made us impossible to reason with. Thus channeling began through people who were meditators and empaths. They are connecting with us by telepathy. Mind-to-mind. The problem is, most of us have been taught that such things are ridiculous and not remotely possible. It's just so-much fantasy. So people are not pickinup up on higher-dimensional whisperings through their extra-sensory perceptions. The website mentioned above is a portal. It is now online at: www.girk-fit-niir.com. The point for bringing this forward is to share how it fits into a very personal local matter. It dawned on me as I listened through earphones. As the awareness grew steadily brighter and saturated my entire understanding, I realized this is about couples' relationships.

We speak about our relationships sometimes while focusing on issues we have with each other. And yet, issues aside, there is something larger that holds us together inside the relationship. While the aliens are addressing this on a galactic scale, I am seeing the positives playing out personally in our individual relationships. I didn’t see it until this morning. What we have going for us inside our couples' relationships is the same thing the aliens are talking about - telepathic communication. They are talking about a species “collective”. Couples have a relationship "collective". The aliens speak of being part of a collective on their planet, and we don't understand collectives because we on Earth are not one. Not yet anyway. But we understand our own relationships. Those of us who are coupled anyway. Singles may not understand right now, but they have had relationships at one time or another.

The relationship is our collective of two. In swinging we have evolved to include more. Those who are engaged in intimate friendships have moved themselves into a collective. Inside our couple relationships we have built a trust and we have faith in each other. We know what each other is capable of, what motivations, what intentions, what weaknesses, what strengths. We may have disrespected it, we may have cheated or done things behind the other's back, but we knew when it was against the health of the relationship and we tried not to do it again. We who are couples live inside this larger agreement that we could call a collective because it is so much bigger than two individuals. In swinging it is not two individuals who participate, but the relationship itself that participates. And other couples can sense it when a couple is not in agreement with each other. In swinging, there is no confrontation between couples, but there is knowledge, intuitive knowledge, of what the others are thinking. These couples who align with each other grow their twosome collective into a moresome collective. And so do mature civilizations grow also into planetary collectives.

When two individuals fall in love, they join forces, not just bodies. They join minds and hearts and souls and life forces and belief systems and errors and mistakes and issues and everything. Everything that life has to offer is there and present in the relationship. It's a force to be recognized. A relationship is so much more than I understood last week. A nation is a collective, and this week it made a collective agreement to impeach President Trump. A huge sigh of relieve or a long, low moan and beating of breasts. That's what collectives do - they grow together through consensus. Issues are resolved. We as a nation are growing. I believe we are also growing as a planetary collective. We are moving towards consensus as a planet.

Because the aliens are reaching out to us and revealing big-brother wisdom and maturity, and trying to do it in a way that is soft and benevolent, not to cause fear - that's how they reach us. That's how anyone reaches anyone - through gentleness and wisdom so they don't cause fear. Then there is a growing of respect. Perhaps even reverence. When I watch the channel’s eyes and see his arms and hands moving to try to express, and hear the different tones and inflections of the voice, it's easy to recognize a presence that is different from the human who is allowing his body to be spoken through. There are over 2,000 videos posted on the Girk-Fit-Niir website. By watching, my understanding of universal love is expanding. Love works through inclusivity, not exclusivity. Exclusivity is not even mentioned because it's a dead end. Fighting one another does not work. They are pointing out how the wisdom and logic of including those who appear different at first. By including them it gives us more power as a larger whole, whereas excluding them by hating them or holding them in contempt or making intellectual arguments against them, is loss of power. It cuts one off from the whole. They say that the enemy is another you, another aspect of yourself, so why do you fight against yourself? Instead, you should be gathering the different aspects back into yourself to make you more complete.

We know these words from religious texts but we have been schooled away from that approach. We don’t live them because we were trained not to. Now, our neighboring brothers and sisters are reaching out to us to add their voices to our emerging consciousness as a planet. To help, not to conquer or control. They who are coming through Girk-Fit-Niier are a small alliance of 6 species, just a small part of a universal collective. They in turn are communicating with other collectives.

Because couples swinging is my rooted reality, where I evolved personally in understanding the power of inclusivity, I am sensitive to the issues that are often raised inside the couples collective. It takes two to form a relationship and close body contact is an important part of it.   As they bond together physically, each one's personal inner net changes and modifies.  When two, four, six, eight couples bond together physically, each individual grows to the degree they accept the others. We grow in freedom. Close body contact through swinging, also known as couples dating, is an evolutionary path. It takes us into other dimensions, beyond current "norms". Interdimensional experiences take place when there is a larger love, or a larger acceptance, a larger agreement. Without SOME form of love, there is a closing down, a competition, jealousy, fear, suffocation. There are many names. Love is the word that means “inclusive”. Love finds a way, including someone is a way enlarge and evolve. We enlarge to accept the other's thought patterns and emotions, which modifies one's own thought patterns and emotions. Everything becomes larger and more whole. I'm carefully avoiding spiritual words here, but the word "holy" simply means more whole, more wholey, instead of less whole.

Those in swinging are on one hand finding marriage to be a conundrum in the primitive sense of the word (too confining) and on the other hand it is more wholesome. To those on the spiritual path trying to become more open and free, if their spouses are not willing to go along with them and are holding them back, what do they do? Some older people are finding they need to separate from their partner of many years, in order to complete themselves before they die. The galactics are bringing us a reminder of universal love, not the restrictive one-on-one love where you feel you have to protect yourself against invaders. Communication. Communication. Communication.

If we as an individual can't get along with our mate on this little ol' planet of nations that can't get along, where does it all start? I can't help but think close loving body contact. It's a beginning. There are pockets of people gathering to include others up close. I really don't know if the aliens swing or not, but I bet some of them do. If the species are compatible. Watch Star Trek and the like. The question is raised and considered. With the myriad numbers of planets and star systems out there whose inhabitants are getting along with each other, it goes without saying that they have found the answers that they are qualified to pass on to us. Granted there a few races that refuse to get along with the others, but they are diminishing in number because more and more of them are joining together and relinquishing the belief in separation. The light forces, known as the benevolent ones, are of higher dimensions and higher standards. They are winning because they are joining forces and are more powerful intellectually, emotionally, spiritually and technologically.

This all makes so much sense to me, this joining of forces. It is practical. It is logical. And it feels good. It is joining everything together, no matter on what level one comes from. The effort creates harmony. The universe operates on harmony. Disharmony causes galactic wars. In 1987 there was a harmonic convergence which not many understood at the time. Understanding is growing about harmonics. Sound healing and Reiki is becoming popular and saving lives. The harmonic convergence was an intervention. Joining forces is spreading as a result, globally. It happening in couples' relationships. Swinging, couples dating, polyamory, all forms of alternative intimacies is being explored as a joining of forces. It works when two different individuals, or four or six, sit and talk honestly from the heart with each other, and really focus the light of their understanding on what is being said. Both listening and revealing honestly. So many people are avoiding “the talk“. The inner dawning is slow to rise and shed light, but it does rise if all involved are willing to stop and listen, not just talk but really listen. And not pretend to go along with it just to keep the peace. There is no peace if there is pretense. 

A common problem is where one wants to have "the talk" but the other doesn't. Consider this: it is not a problem but an opportunity to try something different. A refusal or rejection is like a door that quietly opens up to give permission to go back and re-consider. What comes forward in the moment is a path to consider. Choices arise. We create by the seat of our pants. We choose as we go. We learn by mistakes. And if there is a brick wall in front, you walk around it to see how the view appears from over there. I saw a mimic recently work his way along a wall of air. He moved his hands up, down, left and right and he eventually found the end of the wall, and he turned the corner. He got past the wall. You never know what you'll find when you turn the corner. A new view always appears.

A choice is what we do when we are faced with a brick wall. There are many choices. You can back off and let the other win.  You can argue and fight back. You can get in the car and drive for hours. Or go to bed and forget it. Or call a friend to talk to. Or you can go meditate and try to transcend it. There is no end of options. You can leave. What I do - I may appear to give in and let it go, but I am including what is uncomfortable, into my heart. I'm allowing it and respecting it. I am revering it as best I can. It is something the higher ones are teaching us to do. It works for me. It's only the ego that fights and feels it must win, but the heart is not an ego. So I feel more whole and actually feel more peaceful and expanded. It's almost a sensual feeling.

My late husband’s way of dealing with a brick wall (me) was to say, "we're not going to bed with an argument unresolved." He was the wiser of the two of us. He would wait me out. I would eventually fold and sit down to talk with him. He was bigger than me, and older by 14 years. As I listen to the extraterrestrials I realize they are bigger than me. They are waiting us out but they're sitting there waiting. They are reaching us through thought to help us in our understanding. How to overcome brick walls which cause separation and loneliness.

They don’t want to interfere with us but they want to share with us how THEY did it. They are acting like older brothers and sisters. Each species has their own collective, and they are constantly working with other collectives. They use mind-to-mind communication which we have yet to understand. Extrasensory field communication. They are in touch with their collective constantly. In the video sessions I am watching, it is a call-in show, and callers call in with questions to the aliens. Every once in a while after a question is asked, the person who is channeling will sometimes say, “One moment please, I will ask.” There is a pause and then the channel speaks again. The alien presence apparently reached a questionable point where he or she was unsure whether to speak on this line of thought. If the advice is no, then they say, “I cannot say at this time.” And if the advice is yes, they alien presence continues elaborate on the subject asked.

We have this kind of telepathic agreement in our couple relationships, and work relationships and gender relationships. There are relationships of all kinds that are networked into our lives that go far beyond what we are normally conscious of. It behooves us to be more conscious of this beautiful network upon when we rely and have faith it. Having faith in a relationship is a wonderful thing, and we don't want to abuse it by overstepping our boundaries of what is appropriate. By being more aware of this faith-based network that exists between us, we can expand on it with positives. We are all learning. When we feel not to say something out loud, then we don't. We are designed to be in communication with our larger collectives, of all sorts. There are many different ones. The aliens are teaching us about this harmony that exists among us. We are learning how to retain harmony. When we go against our innate feeling of harmony, otherwise known as conscience, we experience a “bad feeling”.

Couples don’t have to put it into words. They understand each other. They know each other. But if something new comes up and there is a question, maybe a feeling of separation, then that's the time to talk. Allowing a feeling of separation to remain, doesn't just "go away". Without noticing it, it's an energy and it would sink down into the body's muscles and tissues. infiltrate muscles and tissues. “The issues are stored in the tissues”, say the healers, and become blockages. It is healthier to clear the air. Sometimes a jealousy is not jealousy at alla, but rather a sense of separation and the worst is imagined. It could be simply a bold new thought coagulating in the unified field where harmony existed, and the other senses the separation. Telepathy at work. The larger network of harmony that keeps the parties informed has thrown off a ripple. Wives often suspect husbands of having an affair because she “just know”. Sometimes it's true and sometimes it's not. Female instincts are commonly used as a crutch when they're not reliable. Some men do the same, although often men don't pay attention to their inner feelings the way women do. Clear the air when in doubt. Bring the unified field up to par, up to current, to reposition the understanding.

The galactics are from all over the galaxy and some from beyond. They are here to assist us into the galactic neighborhood. They are not here to disturb our planetary collective, but to enrich it by adding light and understanding. To help us bring ourselves more into alignment and to a higher standard of inclusiveness to join the rest of the galaxy. They are all different species and so are we. Each a part of their own collective but they have matured in spiritual, moral, ethical levels to respect the other collectives. They form alliances. They arrange meetings. They have ambassadors they send to delegations, just as we have here on Earth but they are not fighting each other. Instead, they are working at how to join each other. They discuss whatever comes to the foreground to be discussed.

That is what I‘m doing with the women‘s gatherings. We are meeting to discuss whatever comes up. We do not know what will come up. It’s an alliance of females. The galactics do this in a mature, grow-up manner because they have greater understanding of the power of telepathy. Women use telepathy more than men do in our world. That’s why I am inclined to meet with women first. Later we can form an alliance with men and see whatever comes up that may be inclusive and respectful to enhance us all and bring us closer together. When the galactics meet together with their vast differences, they do it better than us. We can learn from them. Women are easier to connect with because of their underlying nature being affectionate, spontaneous, loving, unifying and nurturing.

Higher dimensions are higher in all those qualities. We don’t understand what dimensions mean because we don‘t understand what love means. The galactics of higher dimensions are expressing these qualities. Empaths and spiritual people are the ones listening and spreading the knowledge. Everyone has the capacity to be an empath. An empath is one who listens and allows new thought to enter and be considered. It allows differences in. The world is in chaos because people are fighting against others who are different. We can change and we are changing. More light is coming to us and we are receiving it. Galactic intervention has already been happening. There is growing evidence from scientists and others that they have always been here. And further that we are related. They are our extended family. Their genes are in us through our DNA. Hybridization has always been done, from race to race, since the beginning, I am learning.

The galactics, or so-called aliens, live outside of our physical reality but that is not a problem. That is fact. All races have their own physical reality on their planets. It is by consensus that a planetary civilization grows together, evolves and matures together because there is a force field to the planet. We are maturing enough to be aware of their presence. Some are eager, some afraid. But they are peeking in through our windows and waving at us and we are receiving them. This is so amazing to me. I am so excited. It is part of why I am inspired to anchor a women‘s group as a portal to that which is coming. Contact with aliens has been represented as a dark, scary thing. The military has been armed, trained and prepared with super-hero warriors and weapons ready to fight to protect our planet, even while ridiculing the idea there is such a thing to protect against. How strange that they should turn out to be like the lovable ET in the movie by Steven Spielberg. And that the beloved Yeshua and his mother was one of them.  

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12/4/19 - My evolutionary journey to higher levels of understanding continues. Spirituality and sexuality has always been the central theme of my entire adult life. However, from the spiritual love perspective, I found men were slowly but surely wearing me down to where I did not want to be. It was uncomfortable but I didn't know how to not be there if I were to be a loving, giving person. I was both in the lifestyle and a professionally licensed massage therapist working from the spiritual love perspective. But I found myself being reduced, when in contact with men's bodies, to the lowest level of skin contact. It was making me resentful and on the verge of becoming embittered. One day after an encounter where I hit rock bottom, I asked the Ascended Master Djwal Khul, who had been my spiritual advisor for over 40 years, "Please tell me what's wrong with me? I love massage, I love people, why do I hate it now?" And this is what he told me. This is Master DK speaking:

“When a man has his release in a sexual orgasm, he is expelling all the toxins and misqualified energies that he has allowed to build up within him. These impure energies which he himself creates, drop downward, pulled by gravity to the lower parts of his body.  Uplifting happy thoughts and feelings gather around the upper body and head and bubble upward into the atmosphere above the head, but negative particles are dense, made heavier by impure thoughts, selfish motives, unkindness, anger, hatred and meanness. These fall earthward within the auric field of the individual, creating a heaviness that encircles him around. The desire to have sex is a desire to rid himself of unclean emotions and thoughts which he terms “stress”. He feels it as stress and as a suffocation because it really is preventing his own clean and pure life from shining forth and expressing freely in his life.

The desire to have a sexual blowout is a desire to get rid of this heaviness that has built up in his energy field and is now suffocating him. It is causing tension which causes erratic and moody behavior. It is like being in a straight jacket. Women experience this too, in subtly different ways. The life-long work is to learn what causes these mood swings. If a man or woman would learn to raise their thoughts to a happier, higher level and not permit negative thoughts or emotions to linger in them, they would enjoy a more pleasant and freely expressive life - one not driven by the constant need to have a sexual release to feel good again. 

There is nothing wrong with sex but the intent and motive behind it. A sexual "need" is selfish, where a loving attraction to be with someone is not selfish but an expression of joy and wonder. In the latter case a sexual encounter would be relaxed and equally loving rather than darkly demanding. When sexual need is present, there is force behind it which is unnatural. When one has become more uplifting and happy in thought and feeling one feels free and no force is required to feel loving. No negative particles are involved that are pushing for release.

Human kind is here to learn to choose wisely the types of thoughts and feelings entertained.  You are here to learn the cause and effect of negative vs. positive thought.  You are the masters of your thoughts; choose wisely for you prepare your future by the thoughts you carry around with you today.  Negative and depressing thoughts are best changed with forgiving yourself and appreciating even the bad thought. Love and appreciation is the transformative agent.  Do not permit negative thoughts to build up and you will not build heavy dense layers that suffocate you. 

Mankind is here to learn from mistakes, not be buried by the aftermath of mistakes.  Be wise. Become enlightened to the laws of life and flow with them, not against them. Man is here to raise the energies that flow through him cleanly, like a fresh sparkling river of pure undiluted LIFE.  Do not allow that pure undiluted life to become impure by negative thought whether it be a negative reaction or a negative experience.

There is a universal sense of “dirtiness” around sex and prostitution for this reason, though most people are unaware of the truth of it. Women who work in this field take these toxins into themselves in the process of giving the man the release they need. She is doing him a great service. Likewise the man who is performing the service for women. Or men for men and women for women. It does not matter who is performing the service, they are accepting the misqualified energies of the other. That is why you are resisting this behavior.  Those who perform sexual services should learn how to cleanse themselves before and after so they may remain healthy in body, mind and spirit.  

The introduction of Tantra is instruction in inner work. The Western version of Tantra is in error, with a sexual overcast to it. Tantra is a teaching in elevating thought. Practitioners are taught not to release their energies or physical semen (their dirty laundry) into a lover. Tantra is a beautiful purifying course of study that one may undertake alone without a partner.  This inner work involves keeping one’s thoughts and feelings pure and uplifted. Even when a thought or a feeling enters, one learns how to be the master of those thoughts and feelings, and how to change them to kind, loving, intelligent and beautiful thoughts and feelings. In this way he elevates and inspires himself and all who come in contact with him (or her). Purity of body is also required, which one would automatically and naturally be impulsed to follow, if one's thoughts and feelings are inspired by higher and more elevated living. These are the trainings of Tantra. When done in advance, prior to love-making with another person, one has most loving and sweet encounters." (End of message)

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11/12/19  Thought for the day! Stay positive in your focus, even in the midst of challenges. A powerful period of change is upon us. There are so many changes happening at once, it's like a whirlwind. Staying positive puts you above the rocky changes so they don’t bother you so much. Joy is a lifting emotion, find ways to stay in joy. You won't notice the craziness so much. Transcend the changes and be like a bird flying over the terrain. Fly smoothly over the rocking of the earth by find something positive to think on, or do. It's your responsibility to stay sane and positive. Go up to the sun. Imagine connecting with the source of warmth, comfort, light and goodness. You are a creator. Create positive, create goodness, create joy, create vitality. Stay positive in your focus.

Listen to your spiritual guides and teachers. They speak to you by blending in with your own thoughts and thinking. You sometimes wonder, “Now where did THAT thought come from?” Say “Thank you!” to your spirit guides. They are blending with you. Your higher self and spirit guides are always trying to reach you to lift you up. They give you more positive thoughts than your own mind can give you, since your own mind has been programmed to the outer world of physicality, low vibration. Trust any new thoughts that come your way, even if they are out of your league. Trust them. There is a war in consciousness going on. A battle for where you put your focus. Lower forces try to attract your attention tramatic events that rock you, like bombings that cause you to fear, murders close to home, explosions, political dramas, even your own friends and family members spit out dramas and traumas. Don't close off, don't go into panic, don't go into fear and don't argue with them. Just go into positive mode. Stay positive in attitude, thought and feeling. Higher thoughts, higher feelings, higher attitudes. Raise your vibrations to higher frequency. Go up to the sun, give a prayer of thanksgiving, be in peace. Go to the top of a mountain in your imagination. Be above the rocking and rolling. When you do this you are a light worker and peace keeper. 
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11/4/19 - This message was given to me this morning without my asking for it. It surprised me. I  started writing a note to myself but my hand kept on going for two whole pages, front and back. While I was writing I was aware that I am to send this out today. No holding it back, which I am prone to do. Do it today. And I am to send it to the men as well as the women. There is no duality, I am getting. No feminine and masculine in the divine nature within. 

The human craziness we see in the world around us is not out there - it is in you. You fight against yourself. What has happened over many centuries is the imprinting of ugliness by bad controllers and dictators pushing humanity repeatedly into corners, and persecuting those who were not willing and obedient slaves. This created terrible marks on the genetics of those who experienced trauma. Our ancestors then passed their wounded genes on to their children who led still more damaged lives. Also buried in our DNA is rebellion. Our ancestors fought against the oppressors and went through many revolutions, wars and battles. So today we protest and express our frustration. Some express it by spewing hate words out into the already toxic atmosphere, while others attempt to apply reason. Still others retreat into the depths of despair and depression and others pick up guns and go on shooting sprees. It all adds more chaos to the world we live in but we were born into it, and we assume it is normal.

But it’s not. You carry a divine blueprint within you that is perfect, sane, loving and healthy. There are some who recognize this and take steps to raise themselves above the turmoil. They take up yoga, meditation, self-healing, and study ways to bring peace to their own world. These people are on the right track, focusing their attention on themselves, within, to get back in touch with the divinity. Increasing numbers are leaving religion in an attempt to find some semblance of a higher order outside of doctrine, but many still focus on what’s wrong with the world instead of what's wright. They do not realize they carry the wrongness within themselves.

The scars are still there from long-ago ancestors. You cannot be free from corruption when you carry corruption within you. The craziness is not OUT THERE, it’s inside you but it is not supposed to be there. Get rid of it. There are ways. Start the purification process today. Shift back to the center of your body, your heart, your soul, and find some peace.

I took a detour off to the side and started writing only to women, because I needed the feminine for validation. But as I get closer to the divine feminine within myself, I see that this is the same divinity in men, too. It makes no difference whether a man or a woman. I find myself oscillating back and forth in my understanding that men and women are not different. They are the same creature: human. It doesn’t matter if they have a penis or a vagina. They are divine in their inner nature. 

Through the GoddessSphere newsletter I am amplifying the divine feminine because that's who I relate to right now. Women offer me comfort because men seem to obstruct me. But, be that as it may, I see that it is the outer human nature that is careening wildly off the page and hurting people, whereas the divine nature is buried down under and inside the human. The human nature has corrupted us but the divine is still there within. This is the message that came to me this morning.

The Seven Seals

You are a divine being born straight out of the heart of Father-Mother God - a divine and holy spark of the Creator. Pure. Sacred. Innocent. And conscious of yourself as an individual. You had no corruption in you. You were simply a consciousness, a spirit spark, conscious of love. As you grew in self awareness you found that others responded to you, so you began to develop an individuality, just like a human baby. And eventually you wanted to explore. You learned about physicality and creatures and worlds and galaxies. And you wanted to go there too. You wanted to descend down into the form world. But before you could do that you were told you had to attend seven schools. These schools would imprint you with essential qualities that you would need, for you will enter a world of many different forms and opposites, and you will need to remember who you are.

Each of the seven schools taught a specific quality. There were many teachers because each quality had many different aspects to it. You were shown the many differences in colors, feelings, tones and vibrations. You were exposed to all of the God qualities before incarnating into flesh. Your mentors were elders who had been through all of it before, and they taught you how to identify subtle situations while on Earth.

You stayed in one school for as long as it took for you to absorb the quality fully so you resonated with it. And when your teachers felt that you were ready to move on to the next school, you began your studies with the next quality. There were only seven schools but each one had so many facets to it - today we have many slightly different sounding words that resonate near the same quality as another, only a smidge apart - so each school was vast, like a university. Everyone who desired to explore the world of form, or third dimension where we are today, had to complete the seven schools. They are referred to as the seven rays of the creator.

The seven qualities are accessed through the seven chakras. For bible scholars, they refer to the seven churches, or the seven candles, or the seven seals. Each quality has a color and a tone, hence there are seven primary colors on Earth, and seven notes on the musical scale. Following are the seven qualities:

The first school imprinted you with will power, for you would need to be fully armed with a strong will to go the whole nine yards and not give up, no matter what situation you faced. The second school imprinted you with intelligence, for you had to be well armed with enlightened intelligence so you would not get pulled off the beaten track by outside forces and do something stupid. The third school imprinted you with love and reverence, for you had to have enough love in you and reverence for ALL life in the outer world that, no matter how dreary a situation, you would be able to melt it with that quality.

The fourth school imprinted you with purity for you would need to know what impurity is when you encountered a situation that did not have the right vibration of purity to you. . It has been called the immaculate concept and you carry within you. It is your saving grace and you need to know these things.

The fifth quality you were imprinted with was truth. You were saturated with God’s truth so that you would know the true truth when you encountered the not-truth in your Earth wanderings. Truth is an immaculate science which is contained within you on a soul level and it heals all disease and error.

The sixth school imprinted you with peace and comfort. You were swaddled and coddled and held inside the arms of peace and comfort so long that you would know whenever you came into contact with not-peace and not-comfort while on the Earth. 

The seventh and final quality you were imprinted with was liberation. You were held within the vibrational resonance of freedom for so long that you were saturated with it and would recognize not-freedom whenever you encountered it.

Further, the essence of freedom was to be held in balance along with the other six qualities - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth and peace. When you had completed attending all seven schools and were fully imprinted with the qualities of divinity you would need, you were then born into a human body. They told you that you would forget all of this when you arrived on Earth, but that you carry these divine vibrations within you, in your soul, and they would be there for you to use but you have to locate them after you arrive. They are your inner nature.

It doesn‘t matter if you are a man or a woman. Your inner nature is divine. Be aware of that. All imperfection that you today call "human" has been overlaid into your cells by human mistakes and errors. Remember that you are divine. Let your inner nature guide you. You have not been taught this. You need to know that you have that within you. You are a noble being from a pristine and high estate. Your soul is divine. You were created from the highest level of all, and you have angel qualities within you. You were born into a world of a myriad strange, foregin and alien differences, but you are armed with the highest and noblest. You are right to say, "I Am What I Am" and believe it. Feel it. It is you. Don’t let others pull you away from who you are. Guide your actions through the feelings of your highest, noblest and truest. 

Is it your will and not someone else’s will that you are following?
Does it strike you as intelligent or stupid that you are doing?
Does this situation feel loving?
Does it feel pure and innocent?
Does it have the ring of truth?
Does it give you a sense of comfort and peace?
Does it give you a feeling of liberation?

I received the following youtube today, which validates all that has been said here. I’m including the link for you to listen to. It is by a man who works with small intimate groups around the world, guiding them lovingly back into their own inner truth.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=29&v=VQv5zybSV8Q

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11/1/19  - The Shadow in you. What you resist composes your shadow. What is something you fear? Name it and repeat it. We need to face the shadow energy in us for the shadow forms at the exact moment that a strong conscious position is staked out. The shadow consists of all the rejected elements of the conscious mind. When we identify ourselves with one end of the spectrum, the rejected end begins taking on a life of its own below the conscious level. In this secret place, whatever is not acknowledged has to be projected onto the outside world in order to be experienced, for the creator has rejected it. The power of the shadow is equal to the degree of insistence and brittleness of the position you take and maintain. Monstrous acts. We must face and integrate elements of the shadow into our lives. 

This does not mean becoming a monster; it means acknowledging it. The activity that creates monsters is not integrating with the shadow and denying its existence in oneself. (i.e., Me? I would never do that!) Integration does not mean acting out, but genuine acknowledgement, admitting that one is capable of doing such a thing. Acknowledging the shadow in you, that which you are fighting against, acts as a psychic release valve relieving unconscious pressure so you are better able to hear the promptings of your higher self. Learn how to approach the shadow. Resistance is your barrier and block. What you resist composes your shadow. 

Resistance is the process by which seeds of evil are sown and grown. When you acknowledge a shadow element in yourself, you feel a sigh. A deep intake of breath. It’s a sign that there was a release. In me, in you, is the full spectrum of human experience, good and bad. We want to acknowledge this. It doesn’t change our approval or disapproval of particular factors. It’s simply willingness to face facts. Allowing a fact is integration. The act of acknowledgement frees you to make better choices. The shadow is redeemed by continual process of honest self-evaluation. When you’re uncomfortable, pay attention and ask yourself, “What am I trying to avoid or repress or deny?”  What is making me squirm? 

Be your own therapist. It’s never a person or thing or act that makes you uncomfortable. It’s something you are trying to avoid seeing and dealing with. Stop and look objectively at yourself. Perhaps someone is coming up your walk right now, ready to knock on your door, and you are uncomfortable for some reason. The best solution to this experience is to say to yourself, “OK, I don’t have control over this so I shall embrace it.” Acknowledgement and embracing is always the best solution. Walk into the discomfort or the fear. It is powerful.

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10/23/19 - My blogs are going into the Goddess page because I can't seem to write if men are in my mind. Once I get past the block that men are holding me back, I will resume posting here on Diana's blog. Meanwhile, check the Goddess page if you are interested.  
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9/28/19 - This morning I realized something. Instead of giving credit to a particular ascended master for the many dictations I have been getting over the years, I am supposed to OWN the wisdom for myself. Whatever I become aware of is MY intelligence in a process of recognition. I have been giving my power away thinking the words came from someone else. I did not recognize my own enlightenment process. (i.e., yesterday's NL) Today I see that God is not a "thing", God is a process. God is one's higher self blending with lower self. And there's a higher self beyond that, and another higher self and another and another, on into infinity. God is growing itself through the many parts. God is evolving. There is no end to God. There is only a process of unfolding. God is not a thing to chase down and discover. Rather, it's a process of recognition. God is the ascended masters, God is the galactics, God is our loved ones who died, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the air, the water. God is the many parts. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is lighting up the world. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials. Not different but the same. I am recognizing this. God is not separate. God is not a "thing". God cannot be owned, one becomes God through the process of elimination (of what is wrong). God is a process of becoming more aware of what is right, and therefore it is a process of becoming more connected. God is a process of evolving. God is the lesser, the dumber, the blinder, the more ignorant, the more dark, the more unenlightened, the more obstruction, the more resistance because God is the many parts. God is the evil evolving into good. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because then it would become something outside of oneself, set apart, a separation, a difference. God is self. God is soul seeking its father and mother. Today I sense familiarity, I sense family. I'm moving closer. God is not separate and apart. I am not ready to say I am God and I am everywhere. But I am in process of becoming more aware than I was yesterday.  

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9/22/19 - Master Djwhal Khul speaking: When someone draws your power and focus from you, demanding your attention and you do not want to give it, they are sucking on your light because they are lacking in light. Love and light are synonymous. Light is masculine, love is feminine. They are one and the same. Those who suck on your power, drain you so you are fatigued beyond understanding and you don't know why.

Your movies call them vampires. They feed off your light and your love because they are  the soul-less ones. They feed off others and do not give anything in return. They are not evil, they are idiots for they have given their power away and have nothing left. So they are now mindless creatures who are ignorant about how life works.

They do not know how to build up light and love in themselves. They gave their power away by depending upon others for their food source, their fuel source, when they should have built up their own supply. By giving up their power and becoming dependent on others they have become dark. Do not be like them. Do not give your light away. When you are fatigued in the presence of such a one, walk away. Find an excuse. Any excuse or simply get up and leave. Hang up the phone.

You have built up your own light for yourself. Do not give it away. Give them instruction instead on how to build their own light. Give them instruction only when you are ready. Wait until you are inspired with a thought on how to give them instruction. Meditate until you are clear. Meditate and build up your own light. Wait until you feel the stirring of brightness and excitement. Wait until your higher self inspires you. Then you will know how to give instruction to those who steal your power.

When you are centered you will be able to give the best instruction. They do not want to do the work themselves and would rather steal it from others, so you must be discerning. Use the appropriate method to turn their sucking back onto themselves. Do not be food for zombies. That is the greatest expression of love that you can give: to turn back the sucking onto themselves. Let them see what they are doing. Give them a lesson in how to build their own light and stop stealing it. 

Light is endowed in every one who is walking, even the dark ones.  Even the walking dead, as some like to call the ignorant and mindless ones. Because nothing can exist without the spark of creator within. Light is hidden in the dark and so it must be uncovered and activated.  It may be denied and some minds may be wiped clean by sophisticated weapons. But there is a spark within that is a spark of creator. Blow on it.

Do not let the light go out, is the message from the sun, do not let the light go out but send it home again.  Blow on that light again and again until it bursts into flame and burns through the veil of darkness and confusion that clouds judgment and vision. Everything has light in it, even the stones and the waters and the trees.  Darkness awaits the light but it has to be blown on from within. Self-focus, self recognition, self-appreciation, self-love, self-discernment and self-empowerment. Meditation and prayer is the road to spiritual recovery.  Spending time alone with ones higher self, focusing on love and light and raising ones voice in prayer, song, praise, gratitude and love. It is through the use of sacred intention and sacred sounds that forms the sacred science of life.

Use the words "I Am Light" often for the words "I Am" whenever you speak those words, is the power of  the light. It is the creator, in you.  Love and light is awareness - clear, untainted awareness - uplifting, clean and bright. It is where all knowledge comes from and all inspiration. Blow on this spark of love and light within your heart and you are growing your own enlightenment. Meditate every day for 15 minutes and your higher self will infiltrate your awareness, through your body, emotions, mind and spirit.

This light and love melts away animosity and the desire for  vengeance. It melts away the urge to do violence. Blow on  light and love in your heart through meditation and prayer, as you would blow on a dying camp fire to bring it back into life. Fuel the flame in yourself with deep breathing and with sacred words. Give your attention to your SELF, not to those who would steal your attention. Your confusion will disappear. Answers will come surprisingly easy.  It is a proven method. Your desire to live will push back the darkness and confusion like a solitary blade of grass pushes aside the concrete in the cement sidewalk.

Look! Look! Look! Pay attention to the ember that glows red in the darkness. Blow on it with all your force and breath. Use the words, "I am Light!" Spend 15 minutes doing this, saying the words over and over:  "I am light, glowing light, radiating light, intensified light, God consumes my darkness transmuting it into light!"  The angels and the great beings of heaven will come to surround you when they hear you calling to the light. They come to support you and to give you strength.

Do not give your precious light, your focus and attention, to someone else unless you are strong and stable enough to support that person. Build up your power. Save yourself first. Your first duty every morning when you first get up is to give yourself 15 minutes of light. Maintain your own light so you may live to serve others and take your place in the grand design that is, at this very moment, weaving earth and heaven together through those who are supporting and maintaining the light.

You are here to hold the space right where you are. You hold your space by acknowledging and appreciating it. Raise your focus upward. Raise your attention upward. Raise your awareness upward to your higher self, your future, your brightness. Right now, as you are sitting here reading this.

Do not let the light go out, is the message from the sun. Do not let the light go out, but send it home again, meaning to your inner higher self which is your god-self, your goddess-self, your divinity.  Higher and higher the flame grows as you pay attention to it. Imagine it as a brilliant blazing sun above you. It is soon ablaze within you on the ground and in you in your higher self,  as you clear the debris from the channels that run through you.   Do not let the light go out but build it up stronger and stronger until it is in full blaze. Then you can help your brother and sister to stop stealing the light from you. 

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9/20/19 - I have been asking Djwhal Khul to teach me about Tantra. He tells me and I write this down as he is speaking. "Love made physical is healing. You want a quick fix, but it is not quick. You are accustomed to a society that takes a pill or gets surgery to remove a part of the body that has gone wrong. You are accustomed to having it “your” way but your way has not succeeded, has it? You must learn to open your mind and heart to new things, things that you formerly rejected. It is time to take down the walls that shield you from your healing on deeper levels. Allow your gentle side to take over. Allow yourself to feel the energies of surrender, of giving up. Let your toughness surrender. The whole of you, the whole of your God self cannot come into your life and body because you have created a shell of hardness. It is all done with your mind. Your thoughts of defensiveness, your thoughts of survival, fear of not getting enough, your thoughts of frustration that you allow to play over and over, your thoughts of anger toward someone you felt had wronged you - now feel the energy of surrender. Give it up. This is the attitude of Tantra. It is the path of love."

(There is a lull and I am feeling stillness now and I am being given the energies of gratitude, surrender, celestial, angels, joyful, peace, love, light, and then....)

"Until the hard shell falls away of these tough stones, nails and rubbish, there is no room for love and the family of light that accompanies it - joy, appreciation, reverence, honor, respect, humility, compassion, beauty, grace, dignity, warmth, peace, safety, freedom. When the family of love and light enter the body it produces wholeness, which is felt as bliss, ecstasy, rapture, nirvana.

"It is not a quick fix to reach the profound states of love, but once on the right path there is enjoyment, pleasure, fun. Just take the beginning steps to correct your path, from one of feeling lack to one of feeling delight and fulfillment. It is not sex that is the bridge to higher consciousness, it is love. You must not limit your love to one person and shut off the rest of the world. Your life partner with whom you live is in your life for reasons other than romance. They are in your life to help you learn and grow. The challenges you meet both at home with family and outside of family are your own resistances. You are challenged by your own resistance. Tantra teaches surrender of resistance so that you may blend with the energies of life that are everywhere. Tantra means in Sanskrit “net” or “web”. It refers to the web of consciousness that pervades all existence. Love is the glue that holds us all together. When you are free of resistance you may blend with and enjoy making love with all of life, becoming one with a butterfly, the wind, the grass, the rain, a stone, a child, an old man or woman. All of life is either formless or formed. You are life currently in form but you are only temporarily in form. You are spirit - consciousness - with or without form, and even while in form you may cultivate love without limits, without resistance and enjoy the sensual pleasures of the body to such an extent that you are thrown into rapture and nirvana. It is not sex that does this but love without limits."

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9/14/19 - This is a re-post of one written a year ago. It's worth repeating.   

Much of what I post here is in response to someone who wrote to me. This comes from a personal letter. Personal communications open us to draw an knowledge that we have inside us but isn't stored in the brain, like memory of where you put your glasses or the name of your next door neighbor. Without having meaningful communications with people, these inner doorways to the soul would not open. Soul memories are stored in the body, not the brain. This is the reason for the all-women's goddess gatherings - because girls like to share stories and men don't appear to. Not in the easy way that girls do it. The following may shed a little more light on why we are gearing up to have goddess gatherings for women only.

What is happening across the planet is a deep underground movement of inner hearts opening up. The power is coming from below, from the cracking open of the heart. Each individual is feeling it differently. The power of each person's soul is joined in with the heart of Mother Earth, so there is no question how powerful this movement is.  It's growing in momentum. It's very human and very humane. The power of the feminine is expanding and it is tender. It is coming up from underneath a crust that is so thick, so dark and so lonely and dried up from the lack of love on the surface, that it's like a feeble old man who has spent his life being mean and selfish and has grown crusty and brittle. He can hardly walk any more. The old men are dying from lack of love and tenderness in the heart. The power that's causing the shift is love in the heart. The outer crust is dying from the brittleness and ready to crack open. It's not a revolution, it's a healing. But chaos is happening because people are confused. They feel changes and don't know which way to go with it. Many individuals are not prepared for this new influence in their lives. It's a powerful force that is surfacing. Storms, tornadoes, floods and fires are part of the breaking up of the crust, but human beings will survive if there is love in the heart. This is where women step forward with their tender and loving nature. Feminine love is not logical, not premeditated, not scientific, not measureable with instruments and not provable with due diligence and court documents, but it's going to save the planet so it is wise to bite back the taunts and be quiet about it. Just listen and go with the flow.

I have been writing about it (feminine love) for years, and the more I write about it the more it opens doors within me. There are vast underground vaults which are opening for me. I have access and I keep getting more insight the more I shine the light on it. It's coming closer and closer to the surface, like a galactic-sized tidal wave. Men are responding as well as women, to this love. Each of us are feeling the depth deep inside, feeling the softening. Or resistance. Some are resisting and hardening themselves and refusing to go with the flow. But it will only cause pain. When women gather and share their stories, it grows and spreads outward and eases the pain in the world. Women need to gather under the influence of the goddess energies because women are the generators. They are not generating very well right now. Women need to share from their lighter side, not their darker side. It will take leadership. The men will just have to wait their turn because men aren't prepared to listen yet because this is not a verbal language. It is a feeling. 

I've been posting on Anakosha about my experiences with kundalini. Recently I've discovered that kundalini IS the goddess. This is a major piece of the puzzle that was missing. There is an earthy side to spirituality. Fitting that piece into place (for me) enlarges the picture. Kundalini is feminine. Kundalini is the goddess. The female side of God in human form. Not separate. Kundalini or the Goddess is flowing through muscles, blood, tissues and bones of the body and it affects the genital organs in a big way in its flowing northward. Women are aware. Goddess love is the infrastructure but it needs to go higher up, not stopped and obstructed.  It is larger than the physical sensations that have enthralled us and kept us superficially focused, busily hungrily seeking action. God in human form is the goddess underground. It has been kept down and under and needs to be released and liberated. Love has been missing from the whole body enjoyment. The mind, mental, ego, logic, competition, selfishness (male ego) has taken over and held tenderness, graciousness, nobleness, compassion, caring, nurturing (feminine) back and locked it in and did not let it flow naturally. All-women goddess gatherings will help to unlock those prison doors because women share stories that have feelings. Men don't share stories with feelings. A lot of sharing that needs to be done is the spiritually-motivated connection. Sexuality is included in the larger picture, not excluded. Spiritual sex becomes love. Sex and spirit belong together but women have to be given permission to express from their hearts because the quiet within has been overruled by the loud male voice and power structure. 

I posted a blog on Anakosha a couple days ago about a dream I had of this power. It came up from the earth as it was drawn up by the magnetic pull of the sun. Sun is positive, earth is negative. Father Sky and Mother Earth. The power came up through me and caused my body to undulate. I was sitting on top of my husband in the dream, and I was in a transcendental space. Revelations were washing through me. A power like a tsunami took hold of my muscles and I was undulating like a snake as the power rose upward. I awoke still undulating and lay there thinking about it. I published it and, since it touched on sexuality, the number of hits on the website tripled overnight. People don't respond to spiritual writing very well, but they are hungry to know how spiritual love fits into sexual love. How it overlaps. There is great hunger to know how love works in the human body and it is connected to sex. This power (kundalini) expands the outer limits of of the known world, of sex and romantic behavior. It changes it. It pushes it further and further out beyond our limited understanding. It's not something we can read about in books. It has to be felt and experienced. I was amazed to realize that Kundalini is the goddess, the divine feminine. I had a kundalini awakening 42 years ago which was very dramatic. It changed my life. Like, whoa! What is this? I've been trying to figure it what happened ever since. Now, today, I will gather the women together and draw out the kundalini in them by asking them to tell me their stories. I will not teach. I will listen because they have a piece of the vastness that I don't have.

Many women have been following in their husband's footsteps. He has been acting as the provider, protector and voice for her. He was programmed into that role and that responsibility just because that's the way it was. And he did it as best he could. Now it is time to move past the husband as the only authority, giving him some relief and the woman a chance to build her own authority, within. This is a solitary work which requires some release of attachments and issues. It does not mean separation, it means creating equality in how men and women do their life together. This leads to immense relief for the one who carries too much power, and to liberation for the one who does not have enough. It is time to stop catering to the one person who seems to hold authority over others as a ruling power. It is time to start catering to one's own power within, to wisdom, love and truth within. By withdrawing the focus of attention on someone else, and turning the focus of attention to the within, we find peaceful corrections taking place. Equalizing the power structure of the home. It is the great work that we call the spiritual path and all must undertake it sooner or later, when we get tired of chasing rainbows and wars. We come into the world alone, and we leave alone. Hopefully we leave it with more wisdom.

We hold our mates back more often than not by showering them with phony or fake attention, as if that is the role we assumed when we formed the relationship. And the mate is probably doing the same thing without realizing it. We hold each other back. We each need the solitary connection to the god/goddess within, to that which we call the soul. We need an hour or so every day to commune with that powerful presence within. It is calming. Give yourself space. Give yourself time out. Just breathe, relax and allow some inner peace. And when the hour is done, get up and leave feeling lighter, more peaceful, happier and with more energy. The power within supports us. It is mysterious. We can't put our finger on it. We have built superficial personalities, very colorful characters, and we wear it like a costume and a mask to the world. Our outer personality is unique, and precious beyond belief. It is not to be discarded but to be integrated with the god/goddess within, which is soft, quiet, gentle and wiser. What happens is, we merge our outer personality character into the immortal that exists within. We are becoming immortalized as a human being. We become more patient, more kind, more honest, more peaceful, more helpful to others. The goddess within is not a separate being. It is you, but it is still in hiding. We have simply GOT to find out how to loosen it and set it free. 

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9/5/19 - Notice: After today I will no longer post on Diana's Blog but will shift updates to the Goddess page, where I will continue to post. As a receiver personality I receive so much from the warm, nurturing, loving sacred feminine energy fields, which are more fifth dimensional than third or fourth, it feels flat and unresponsive to continue to write here, knowing that it is mostly men to read it. This website attracted men in the beginning because it began as swinging site for couples. But this has faded over the years into a finer approach to love. Of course it does not exclude lovemaking, but I've noticed that most men don't relate to this approach and it saddens me. I really wish it could have been otherwise. But time moves on and most males appear to require a physical focus with physical words to make logical, practical sense of anything. So that is why I am leaving Diana's Blog and focusing on the Goddess blog. I feel better posting there. Anyone can read it if they choose to. It is accessible to the public. Thank you for visiting my website. Blessings, love and light to you personally!
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8/28/19 - I've been working from the feminine side of life, the yin vs. the yang. The yin is an allowing side of life, and a receiving and nurturing side, but due to karma it has been a disempowered side. At least in THIS world. But I am from another world so it doesn't matter. I'm staying balanced. Tantra is a science designed to help people balance their yin and yang sides. It was left behind by great masters, so of course I've been looking into Tantra, reading it, absorbing it, and finding anomalies in it. It seems to me to not have enough "yin" in it. It's focus is "off", but it was a male teaching so it's understandable. The feminine teachings are just now getting started. They will straighten out the anomalies and bring balance to the too-dominant male focus.

I've just been led to re-visit the Taoist exercises. I bought three books back in 2012, read them, found them interesting enough to take notes, then shelved them. Seven years have passed and they are taking on new meaning, BIG new meaning. New understanding. New Light. AHA! I understand! 

We have had a lot of cold "male" teachings given to us. This morning I was given a message about the body being the feminine side of God. God is 50% INSIDE the body as our feminine mother God, coalesced in the root chakra as a pure ball of light on the etheric plane. Pure as the driven snow. God as feminine is inside the body feeding us with warm loving compassion and understanding. While the male side of God is the 50% unformed, in space. The male religions have been pounding into us for eons and eons that God is ONLY up there in the sky and the body is sinful, worthless, filled with the devil's forces, and we all believed them. We've all have been looking for God in the sky. This has confounded, confused and tormented everything and everyone. And the struggle continues to this day. The patriarchal society is still operating its cold, judgmental, superior control "up there" in the brain. It is all analytical There is no room for emotion in the brain. No compassion. No warm love or motherly encouragement or friendly support or welcoming kindness in these cold aloof teachings from the male religions.

When a person begins to listen to the INSIDE of the physical body, they will feel the difference. They will FEEL it because it's a caring feeling. The body has senses built into it. It feels emotion and kindness and love.  It's warming and good. Then a person begins to realize there is divinity flowing through the flesh and blood. Then the male superiority of the brain mind will begin to loosen and surrender to these warm feelings. The ideal ratio is 50% God is in the body and 50% God is out beyond us in space, in the sun, in the stars, wherever. Right now the world is operating (expressing) nearly all through male eyes, out in space, looking up for something not there. It's a cold, isolated, condemning trip, a power trip for some and a worthless trip for others. It creates superiority complexes. If you're 100% in your head, you have to think you know everything and everyone else is dumb or stupid.

When humans start to focus down into the body and meditate in sacred silence on their naval or heart or liver or anything down there in the cells and tissues, that's when they will start to lose their cold superiority. They will start to notice there is harmony here inside. It feels like home in the body. It feels peaceful. It feels "right". This is the feminine side of God. God is here within. Heaven is within. There is bliss within, and beauty, and grace, and freedom from all that bothers and traumatizes. It's very compassionate and welcoming. This is where the Taoists are teaching through their various exercises. It's a very human teaching. Not religious at all.
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8/21/19 - Things are changing for me. I've been visiting the past by re-reading old journals, journals of higher mind. I'm deciding what to post here on this website. I am clearing out inner closets. Ever since kundalini awakened 43 years ago and brought mystical experience into my life, I've journaled to keep myself sane. Over the years I wrote much of it down. The first 5 chapters of a book entitled, "Mystical Movements" - half channeled, half me - has now been posted on this website here as a book in progress. I'm not promoting it, just getting things out into the open. It's helping me to lighten up.

I'm unsure where this is going to lead. Well, actually I have an idea. As I go through old pictures that take me back into the old timeline, it feels as if I'm finalizing things - not for death and dying but for a new beginning. There's a new mission coming. I've kept so much hidden over the years (as everyone has) compartmentalizing this and that in order to fit in, but it's all unraveling now. As I post these things onto the internet via Anakosha, there is a lightening effect. I don't care what people think. For awhile I thought I should create a new website more appropriate to my spirituality, and another for massage, but, no. That would just be creating another room to put things in, separate from the rest of my life. No, it's time to unify everything into one harmonious whole. It's not about spirituality, it's not about massage, it's not about the galactics, it's not about relationships or sexuality or any one particular aspect of life. It's about integrating oneself into one whole being. I've been thinking about this deeply, and too long. So I decided to just put this out there on my blog and stop trying to write to the old timeline. How Anakosha first began was not for swinging. That came later. Anakosha came to me in a vision during an unusual trance meditation high beyond the earth, out in space. So I suppose that what's happening now in my later years, is coming back to my origins.

I am in a softer, quieter, dreamier place, reflective and calm. I'm writing to people differently, with more depth and meaning. Yesterday I went to the chiropractor and after the treatment I started telling him my observations. Bless his soul, he sat and listened and talked with me while clients were waiting outside his door. I came away feeling as if someone heard me. I felt good. Unusually tender and transcendent. Driving home I became aware of how brittle people are, driving fast in their cars, all going somewhere to get something done, unfinished, incomplete, unhappy, moving fast-forward and leaving their essence behind. Where are the quiet, gentle people? I wished once more to have a women's circle. But not just any women - gentle women. Women of the feminine soul. I've been waiting for clarity before taking the next step. Waiting for understanding because the last women's gathering 6 years ago was a disappointment. Now I have a better idea what to filter for. Women of the soul, of the feminine spirit. The women who are not rushing to get somewhere, or who have a chip on their shoulder or a battle to fight. Women who are wise, cool, calm and collected. Yes, a wise women's gathering.

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8/6/19 - (Newsletter today.) There is a power in you that is waiting to be released. The focus of this newsletter has enlarged from women-only to include men. Please cheer me on as I grow beyond my personal limits to see the WHOLE picture of the divine plan moving in unison. The feminine in everyone is coming on-line, integrating into the software of our bodily structures.

Many people walk the spiritual path looking up, as I did. They are seeking refinement, beauty, love and connectedness. They are to be commended for they are seeking more light and love. However, many on this path are intending that sex ought to be toned down or discarded as a crude or low vibration. They do not realize that they themselves are made of light and of love, and by continued looking UP they will not achieve their goal. We must look into our physicality and make peace with it.

There has come a great crudity into and surrounding human sex today, but it's not real. It's fake. Let's look at this with logic. Sex itself is not a sin. It is not what we do with our bodies that is sinful, it's what we do with our minds that causes the negatives. Sex is not a sin. It is the thinking that cause the sin in us. Feeling shame but doing it anyway, coercing people against their will, allowing oneself to be coerced into doing what we don't want to do, then hiding it, lying about it, pretending all is well, stuffing it down into repressed tension, manipulating to appear all is well. These are the things that causes negative eruptions. I am not immune. I don't want to preach. I am investigating my own deep down under.  We bring forth our own negative backlashes. This is the evil that surrounds not only sex but our whole reality. We are not aware what we do to ourselves this way. I explore love.

My study of spirituality and sexuality has been a life-long study. It has been going on for many years, engaging in both sex and spirit simultaneously for 40 years. Now I am in the process of reporting my summary conclusion: Love has won. Victory to the Light! Love and Light are the same energy. One is male the other female, and sex without love does not sustain itself. It is a downward spiraling action. In order to connect us to spirit we have to open the door to love. The door is in the heart. We cannot fulfill ourselves without adding love to our sexual life. It is not about giving up sex, which is the underlying girder that supports human life on earth, it is about adding reverence, love and spirit to the sex act. That is what opens the door to higher experience. If we give up the sexual component, it closes our hearts. It turns us into brittle bones. Romance, passion, and the continued lessons in the art of love adds spirit to the act, it doesn't distract from it. We stay in the playing field of life, and continue to fulfill ourselves, not just in bedroom activities but in the ever evolution of fulfillment. Ongoing. Forward motion. Interaction. Exchange of ideas.

Even though this website started from the sexual field, I'm not implying that a person must engage sexually with someone. Not at all. But because sex is a bodily function like food, drink and eating, there is a resonance in the lower part of the body that is important. The power of love comes up from the earth. It is called kundalini in the east, and the holy spirit in the west. There is more to this story, but basically, this power is the other half of God the creator. It is the half that drives physicality and evolves it so the body can open to the inflow of spirit. Spirit is trying to come to ground. The power contained in earthiness is equal to the power from on high. The power coming up from Earth is the feminine side of God. It came from God.

We've been repressing it. It is what flows inbetween the cells and tissues of our organs and muscles, seeking its other half which is spirit. There are two halves to spirit. This earthy half maintains our physical body. It is feminine and it is holy. It is sacred. It nurtures us. It cares for us. It is a power that has not been accepted well. It has not been used adequately. It is tender, kind, compassionate, forgiving. I has never been released in human beings on the vast global scale that is happening today. It is happening now because we are at the end of a cycle too huge to understand. What is happening is a correction of the too-far-out-of-balance masculine power. The feminine is not awakening so much as it is being released.

Every one has their own purpose for being here. Mine has been to correct past lifetimes of inadequacy as a female being. I allowed myself to surrender, submit, and subjugate my tenderness so I died without fulfilling my mission. This life has been an intense learning period. My study has taken me to the brink of death, and up into the heavens of infinite light and love, and then I've become stabilized as a normal person. I have accumulated knowledge that I've not seen in print yet. 

The conclusion I've come to is that we have a light body covering us that is pure love.  The religions called it the "christ". But they have twisted that label around and attached it to someone who lived 2000 years ago, bless his name, and the rest of us are sinners. But it's all been a lie. There are many potential christs walking the earth. The light body which I call the crystal body, is a layer of energy surrounding the physical body and it is unique. It is beautifully formed and it is perfect in every way, for it was created in perfection. Each person's light body is slightly different for purposes of individualization. The creator wants to play and enjoy the pleasures of physicality, so it made a myriad different light bodies. It looks like a diamond crystal with the sunlight streaming through in many colors. It is a prism. It reflects perfection, and it is love. Unconditional love.

Your light body which surrounds you has never been contaminated by human error and the many lifetimes you've lived. It's impossible to corrupt the light body because it is of divine origin. But there are four other, lower, bodies that HAVE been corrupted through trial and error. They are the mental body, emotional body, etheric body (past life records), and the physical body. These have been contaminated in comparison to the light body which is unconditional love. We are human. It is acceptable. It has been our journey.

We've gathered much wisdom in our "away" missions. What works and what doesn't work. We carry unresolved issues still within us, yes, it's true, but our light body is alive and well surrounding us. It courses through the molecules, atoms and cells of the body, but at a very slow trickle in most people. As we learn about this miraculous power intellectually, we can begin to open to it. It can be released so it flows more evenly and bring us more abundance. It is the divine plan for humanity. We've been away and we've been lost. The change coming on us in these days is bringing not only chaos but more understanding. More light, and therefore more love.

This beautiful heavenly light body is a true and real part of who we are. It is a band of light around us waiting to be released and called into play. It is what gives us the feelings of love in its many diverse forms. When we resonate with someone, with a group, or a book or an idea, we can feel it. It's a warming. That means our hearts are opening and the light body is flowing. It is love. It is not personal love, it is heavenly love. Universal love. It is spirit coursing through physical cells and tissues. It gives us emotional feelings. We may feel a sudden impulse to cry because spiritual love releases blocks. Love carries us to higher planes. It is experienced alone as a religious or mystical experience. It can be anywhere. In one's own room at home, or walking in nature or watching the sun rise over a city, and it is experienced when in the arms of a lover, perhaps unexpectedly, when suddenly the heart opens and the earth moves and the angels sing.

But sadly, human romance has been degraded in our hurried, busy culture. There is so little time, that love is harder and harder to find. The love component is often missed in the bedroom. One master recently said that every couple should have a special room set aside strictly for lovemaking. So that the energies are always retained for love. No arguments ever to take place there. Only low lighting, low beautiful music. Everything in harmony.

Love has been removed from our lives by the intense focus on what is occurring in the world. Issues of the day keeps us distracted with a sense of whirling busy-ness. We need to make conscious effort to detach from those issues, if we want to bring love back into our lives. It requires taking time out and slowing down and consciously focusing on love. 

The power of feminine love, what I call spiritual love, has not been released in mankind for eons of time the way it is being released today. It is that sensation that feels beautiful, warm, divine, heavenly and it feels feminine. It is the kind of love that inspires us to want to join and share and make love. It is sacred and it causes a feeling of reverence. This love is available to us at all times. It courses through our bodies, but we don't use it. We've blocked it as a species, as a race. We have not seen it flowing through the community yet. But it will happen. It's coming.

We've been defamed, degraded and defaulted to the lowest common denominator by the consistent mind-bashing of religious preachings of evil, sin, shame, zealotry and bigotry. It is time for religions to go. It is time for humanity to blossom so that love can come out through the beautiful emotional hearts. We haven't seen this yet in the world around us, but we are starting to. It is paying forward the goodness and kindness. 

I have been fortunate to participate in the sexual lifestyle for many years, but at the same time I studied, read and experienced ascended master consciousness. I know  first hand what it looks and feels like and what it can do. It is still there in every human being, or we would not be alive. This is what sustains us. We can forget about it and not know or be aware of it, but it protects us nonetheless while we enjoy our adventures. It is the creator's plan. The creator lives in us through our experiences, and guides us through our instinct and conscience and nudges. What is lacking is education. We have to be exposed to the reality. It is practical. The religions took the concept too far away and made us feel small and sinful. They were wrong to do that. The goddess awakens in us to remind us WE are the gods walking, he's not in the temples and churches.

Our light body is beautiful and right here on the ground. It is the unconditional love in us that wants to see the world at peace and all peoples taken care of with clothes on their back, enough food to eat, clean homes and everyone is safe and loved and happy. That is not beyond our reach. It is our very own inner nature. We are gods walking and we have unconditional love within us to guide us. The search for freedom is this love awakening within the cells of our body. We've been brain-washed to accept the pain and constant hate-talk and bashing of innocence. There is innocence inside us. It hasn't been driven away, it's only been repressed. The feminine side of us is uncovering it now.

Our civilization is not ending, it's just beginning. The end of the old cycle is ending on the stage by shining the spot-light on a devastated landscape of brokenness. But those who are surviving are picking up the pieces by opening their hearts and feeling the grace of unconditional love. Peace to the planet. Love to all beings on the planet. It is already growing and prospering. Those who can't see it are still with the old ways. Enjoy love freely. Enjoy free love. It is not sinful or shameful. Don't cower any more or cover it up, or hide it or lie about it. Don't become deceitful or argumentative, but pass on the openness of love to the children and the younger generations. They already have it. Encourage it in them.

It is through giving and receiving love that we bring forth more of the same to our families, homes and communities. Through unconditional love, not just personal love, we interact and engage with people who are different. We learn how to glean the value from those others who are different and together create something new and better. Through the physical exchange of ideas in a cooperative and kind way, including sexual, love rebuilds broken worlds. We are grounding the spirit into physicality. That's what we are here for. Love needs to be grounded and harmonized and made practical. Then it manifests in beautiful new sustainable buildings, cities, medicine, inventions, art, music, organic government and organic technology without weapons. The goal is to create the quintessential human race.

How could it be sinful to enjoy our physical bodies? If it were truly against the creator's wishes to enjoy pleasurable activities, we would have to give up delicious food, warm bubble baths, relaxing massage, comfortable beds and cushions,  beautiful gardens, fragrant flowers, beautiful music, soft fabrics to wear on our bodies, elegant cars with luxury interiors. But that's ridiculous. Let’s not even go there. Our bodies are built to feel good in every way, including lovemaking. As Candice Pert, a cell biologist said, the human body is neurologically designed for bliss. But in order to get there we have to invoke unconditional love - free love -  because personal love is possessive and creates jealousy, envy, competition and imprisons us.

When true freedom is allowed to shine during intimate encounters, there is automatically a feeling of joy and reverence. It's impossible to hold back the bliss then. The problem is, too many people have been damaged by abusive and controlling sex, which is how spirit is cut off in the body. I’ll talk about this in another article. It’s complicated. A lot of healing is needed. That healing is underway by energy specialists even today. Be assured, sexual healing IS being done. Pills are not going to do it. Maybe in extreme cases pills will help, but patience and nurturance is  required. Spirit knows what to do. Apply unconditional spirit freely with open-hearted praise and forgiveness. This is the power that is waiting to be released.

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 7/25/19 - Many beautiful people walk the spiritual path looking up. They are seeking refinement, beauty, love and connectedness. They are to be commended for they are radiating light and love. However, many on that path are thinking and intending that sex ought to be toned down or discarded as a crude or low vibration. Of course there is crudity, grossness and downright negative evil in many forms surrounding sex. Many are indulging on the dark side of sex. There are those who say that sex is perverted. However....

My study of spirituality and sexuality has taken me down into the caverns of the physical body. The light body which Christians call the "Christ body" is alive and well in the average guy and gal walking the street. It is through this light body that the divine plane comes into being. It is how bliss and rapture flow through the body. It is the driving force behind sex. If we deny that feeling, we are not doing the job we came to do, which is to master the physical body and be the driving force within it. What causes sex to become perverted so that people are damaged, hurt and come away abused and traumatized is simple - there is not enough love involved.

If there is not enough love involved in the sex act, well, that cuts out a lot of people. But insted of casting blame, let's start to make corrections in the sex act. It's a logical place to start in the enlightenment process. More education is needed. Of the helpful kind, not the blame kind. The first step in the education process is to look at the differences between men and women. Or better put, between masculine energy and feminine energy. Feminine love is different from masculine love, BUT women have been following the male version for eons. It's difficult to see women as loving when they are critical, obnoxious, catty and jealous. They've been damaged.

Since masculine energy has been in control and feminine energy (love) has been denied and repressed, there is an abnormal amount of cruelty, resentment, anger, loneliness, confusion, hunger, hurt and downright violence in the effort to get what one feels one deserves. This is a sign that the civilization is unbalanced. No one person can be blamed. There is simply not an equal amount of feminine energy flowing through the ONE PERSON, as there is masculine energy. The feminine energy is all-loving in an all-inclusive way. It's not personal. It's not jealous. It is open and spontaneously caring to others and wanting to please, but often it can be overwhelming and intimidate others, in which case he or she is unbalanced and has too much feminine energy. A balance would be a person who is open and spontaneously caring to others, wanting to please others, but also intelligent, aware and discerning of others in any given situation. This would be a good sign that masculine energy is also present (intelligence, practical and logical). It takes both masucline and feminine energy to be in balance to bring about balance. Unbalanced sex is the culprit of so much of our wrongness. Bringing forth balance requires that we bring forth more of the DIVINE feminine, not the personal feminine who is hungry and lonely and off-kilter. Both men and women are needing this balance and everyone has a different ratio presently flowing. It is up to each person to self-examine for traits of unbalance, one way or the other.

Most people, especially women, are present in the sex act on a one-dimensional level only, or two dimensions at best, with some extremely rare exceptions.  It's physical only. Yet, we have four vastly different facets to our makeup. We have a physical body, an emotional body, a mental body and an etheric body. The etheric body has hundreds of our other lifetimes present whenever we have sex. And so does the one we are having sex with. These energies intermingle. The physical body acts one way, often there are physical problems. The mental body thinks another way, and the emotional body is feeling all sorts of things that are not aligned with the mental or physical. Now, if the mental, emotional, etheric bodies in each person were better in alignment, the love energy could trickle down into the physical body better. Then they could make more beautiful love between them.  Imbalance is created by being out of balance and out of alignment. It will take some education.

My entire life's journey (in this body) is leading to a culmination of understanding about sex and love. I'll be writing more about it in days to come.  Right now, the feminine love energy is not present during the normal sex act as we know it today. But, who knows? Who can see into bedrooms? I speak from personal experience through the swinging lifestyle, which has an element of liberation, and also from my friends outside the lifestyle. Feminine love is not an act. It is a presence like the sun. And like the sun it can be clouded over and dulled even into a state of darkness, or it can shine with such brilliance it overwhelms others and warms them and attracts them.

This is the power in women that has not been released. It is the goddess energy. It's in the cells and only another woman can release it and draw it out because like attracts like. Men can magnetize personal love in a woman, because men have a different biology in their cells. It is a personal power that the male body contains. Men and women attract each other but men dominate in the patriarchal traditional way which we have become accustomed to. In reality sex, or lovemaking, whichever you prefer, is a battle between two natural powers flowing in opposite directions. When a man and woman become close enough to influence each other, as in physical relationship or simply sexual intimacy, each must adapt and adjust to the other. Personality choices are built upon moral, religious or cultural beliefs, but there is something else - a natural LOVE - which is designed to fit well together that has nothing to do with human beliefs. It is a divine love from on high, like from the sun, which is no respecter of persons, places or things. It flows easily outward when a similar love is present or a reason to flow. It is meant to flow. It is meant to shine. It is the goddess energy, and it exists in both parties. 

But the personal mix, based on belief systems, preferences, desires, hungers, needs, all cut this natural love down to personal size. It enters the picture as a "spin" on the playing field. But it COULD be a beautiful intimate act if both were in reverence of one another above and beyond "the spin". So often there is tension and compromise. This one-on-one dynamic that occurs in relationships hurts the relationship because of the differences each imposes that is less than pure love. It drops a veil down over and love, adoration, reverence, the sense of sanctity which comes from on high, can't get through. Human beings are on a journey to learn how to surrender the small personal "spin" and let love flow naturally. Surrender is a good term. 

The power that is in the cells of both genders, is a divine power that is divinely split for the purpose of having duality. The split is natural and both male and female are flowing with natural divine power. The problem is the personal "spin" that has been adapted to. The natural divinity flows both ways, in both parties, and it is LOVE but the personal aspects have cut it down to not-love. Love has been left out of the equation.  However, there is a saving grace. The female body is designed with the original blueprint. Her body is designed to flow love. When she is free and liberated, she flows impersonal love freely, which gives her a natural motherly presence which cares for all living things and the earth itself. She is the nurturer. The male body is designed to focus on form, structure and organization, which must by necessity exclude that which doesn't fit the scenario he's trying to build. Enter the human imbalances (complexities) and the male body and female body have become opposites, when they are designed to be complements to one another, like hands in gloves. And can be again.

The emergence of women's empowerment groups and goddess circles  is not a human endeavor but the birthing of the goddess within - the mother god. The father god is formless and remains above while the mother goddess is built into the form and the structure. The goddess is a universal, creative power that does not move. It is silent. It exists everywhere as a support for form. This power has been buried. Repressed. Denied. Tortured. Put to death by hanging, fire, rape, shock.  As a result, it is veiled. The women in the Middle East symbolize this by covering their faces. The mother god power is a mystic power. It is not controlled by the personality or the intelligence which has been learned in the present life. This power is like the sun that shines. It does not depend upon a mental understanding. We don't have to know how it works but after many lifetimes, many, many, many, of trial and error, we learn to trust it. Some people have had more lifetimes than others, so they carry more wisdom. Others are relatively new in the human scene and have much to learn. But eventually we all learn that there IS a higher power that performs through us, and is not "us" as a personality. It's not a human power. It is something supremely bigger and more intelligent. It is the intelligence that lives behind chaos that, if allowed to play out, forms workable and sometimes beautiful, exquisite designs. This supremely huge power has not been released yet, but it is starting to come forth. The women's empowerment movement is not a movement of human personalities, though it may appear that way. It is being supported by an increase in the goddess flowing forth. 

The goddess power does not depend on prior knowledge. It comes from within the body's cellular imprinting of emotional experience, much of which has been buried. It will surface along with the emotional memories of trauma and repression. Once the body's cells have learned to trust this supremely vast power, then the soul who lives in the body will be able to come through better. The power is pure spirit. It is the Oneness. It is unconditional. It has never been tampered with, or corrupted or diluted. When this love starts to melt the veil composed of many lifetimes of corruption, transformation begins.  One may experience feeling out of the body in great bliss for periods of time. Then it recedes until the next time. Soaring and receding, and gradually the vast power that has been repressed starts to melt the veil and one experiences liberation on a soul level. 

If this power had been free to express through the female over the centuries, we would be living in paradise today. Men would be free in their own form of naturalness. What we call goddess energy is the same power that the mystics, sages and saints have tapped down through the ages. It was supernatural during the dark periods of mankind's history, but in the enlightened periods it came easily to men and women. Great strides were made as minds were cleared of confusion, as we see in ancient ruins of magnificent temples. Goddess power is a natural power available at all times. We are entering a new age of enlightenment. While we are barely in the early days of this new cycle, it will become brighter as time goes on. It is bringing the female out of hiding. She does not need training because her body is designed to carry light, the same energy as love.

The female biology is built to energetically shine support as a presence to all of life. It supports the male purpose of building in form and structure. Feminine balances the masculine.  I'm not qualified to speak on male power, only on the feminine. I am emerging out from under the veil of feminine repression and this is how I'm experiencing. As I said on the home page, Anakosha is my platform. I am writing about my journey and now the male energy is coming more into focus. Male energy focuses on materializing on the physical plane. He makes physical structures by eliminating what does not fit the desired plan. He excludes what doesn't belong in his picture. Materializing is matter-realizing. One must focus intensely on what he wants to materialize. He doesn't have room for the all-inclusiveness of the female. My journey has been through the maze of trying to understand why men and women are so at odds. Why there is so much suffering? Now, towards the end of life cycle, I see how we have become separated. Sex has been the means by which men have dominated women. Lovemaking by itself is not the culprit. Men were afraid of her powers of freedom, and he called it "looseness". He removed the love from the lovemaking and reduced the magical act of lovemaking to physical penetration.  Sex without love. Sex alone, without reverence and sublime adoration together between each other, may bring the male to a bliss state through the orgasm but it is temporary and short-lived. It leaves the female wanting. See how soon he wants more? And more? And more? In the end he does not receive the love he so desperately wishes for. He thinks he can get it from physical sex alone. but he can't. In the end he is just as lonely as the woman he boinked.

In the original design, the female is a divine counter-balance for the male to assure that he doesn’t go too far down into the density of the concrete life. On the other hand, the male is a divine counter-balance for the female to assure she doesn’t go too far into the non-physical and lose touch with the ground. The need here is to re-establish the love energies WITHIN ONESELF up to par with the masculine energies so there is a balance. In those who are too feminine and without boundaries, they are to re-establish the masculine energies and ability to focus on boundaries and structure WITHIN ONESELF up to par with their feminine energies. There are techniques I will bring forth in time to exercise with. Bringing balance to one's world will transform one's life and the relationships within it. It takes self-examination in meditation with the higher self. One must listen to the inner voice of the heart - and pay attention! Take notes! 

Love enters a couple's relationship when there is reverence, sanctity and sacredness coming from both partners. When this is present before penetration, as in a quieting time together in preparation for surrendering to the higher self, the lovemaking act may be profound. Deep fulfillment may occur on both sides. This can be done in degrees, little by little, to test it and experience the results. The higher power is not present in a "quickie". The presence of reverence and adoration for oneself must be cultivated as a way of life, which then spills over to the beloved. Practice is required. It starts with a 15 minute meditation together on love and reverence for one another. Consider this as sanctifying the upcoming lovemaking act. Before rubbing and caressing stage and before penetration. It begins the unifying process. It brings the partners together better into alignment, called oneness. This is a next step in our evolution to higher levels of life and consciousness. It is done through loving reverence to the higher powers within self and each other, bringing them together. We are forgiven for not knowing. We were not taught. The absence of such sanctity of sex and love was imposed eons ago. It was not an accdient that we have been kept separate and in confusion over sex.

The first Tantric teachings taught it, but that was in a more enlightened period in human history. We lost the teachings when the dark cycle came upon us. There are natural cycles around the central sun, half of which keep us in the dark and ignorant, half of which is in the light. The dark has been called the Kali Yuga in Indian texts. We are emerging into another period of enlightenment. This is knowledge coming from BENEVOLENT extraterrestrials. They are here to help us remember and awaken. Our current culture has not identified the importance of love yet.  Sex is a foundational power out of which human beings grow upward to more spirituality. Sex is like the bottom of a ladder with two legs on the ground and we start there and climb up. There is no end to the top side. But first we have to own the bottom of the ladder within ourselves and add the principle of caring and loving the other. That's the beginning of the climb to the next rung.  We are to learn the principles of love, and stop the selfish acts of pushiness and demands.

Free feminine love would shine naturally as a feeling of warm openness and freedom and nurturing goodness during the sex act, but so many women have been damaged. Men too. Love has been taken away. It's just physical now, focused on the orgasm. Sexual perversion is the result. The freedom to love warmly, naturally, openly and freely with someone who is also warmly, naturally, open and free to reciprocate with enjoyment and pleasure, without guilt or shame or the need to hide it, would take the two lovers to the highest their souls are willing to go. 

When physical and spiritual love are equal in the lovemaking act, it is both human and divine playing together, bodies remaining on the bed and minds and spirits soaring aloft. We are designed to enjoy it. Love is a gift from the gods, but we've been tampered with. When used to the highest and surrendering the higher self forces within, then together they expand to include other dimensions. They blend and merge into oneness. They are doing what the gods expect them to do, what they were designed to do. Most of all they experience bliss not onlly together, but individually. They grow from each togetherness act, but they do not need to own or possess each other.  Their greater love defines them. They know it now, who they are. There is a greater benefit from taking time to prepare for lovemaking, to prepare for reverence and adoration.  If one person is pushing for a fast orgasmic release by dominating the other, then it's one-side. The other person is not engaged. It is one-sided and orgasm for one is selfish when it doesn't include the other. 

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6/23/19 - Around 3 am this past Friday I woke from dead sleep to wide awake and sparkling alert. Energy was popping in me. My muscles twitched. I undulated. I wiggled, tossed and turned. A half hour of this and I got up and went downstairs and out into the pasture in the dark. I grabbed a cotton sheet on the way. I keep a chair out by the burn pile so I put the cotton sheet on the wet grass for my bare feet (against insects) and sat down. The moon was overhead 3/4’s full. It cast a soft white glow in the ground fog under the trees. I tried to silence the popping enthusiasm in me but couldn’t. I was exhilarated. I was in joy. I was ready to start dancing but instead I started chanting and clapping my hands - in deference to my age. I wished I had a drum. There were sparkles in the atmosphere and there were rays coming off the trees and shining from the ground and even coming from ME. I was radiating! Suddenly I remembered - today is solstice. I forgot. I thought it was Saturday. There have been warnings of new cosmic waves coming in. An hour and half later I came in from the pasture, still not tired, and started this newsletter but didn't finish it until today.

I am writing a newsletter because a few people have been inquiring and I feel obligated. There's really nothing to report. What’s happening with Anakosha and the women’s circles? Well, actually I’m at peace. The need to start the women's circles or massage circles or anything else, has disappeared. I’ve been tapping into the larger picture, and it’s SO big that I'm dissolving into it. There's too much going on and I can't focus on the small things. The GoddessSphere letters which were going mostly to women are fading away. The bigger picture is absorbing my attention. And that is that MEN are just as important as the women in this shift of the ages. 

I am replacing the Anakosha logo today with the GoddessSphere logo, as it better depicts the process of merging masculine and feminine together. The former logo of a man and woman facing each other implies duality.  (picture of logo)

Each of them are looking in opposite directions. In the GoddessSphere logo, I see the planet as the masculine or physical aspect of our oneness, and the curvy shape of the woman as the feminine, or spiritual aspect of our oneness. Our masculine engages with the outer world and is ultra busy, and our feminine engages with the silence within - that infinite love which holds the planet together so it doesn‘t go too far out or come unglued.

I am seeing that we as a culture are lacking in the holding of the silence and infinite love. We are both physical and non-physical equally. Both masculine and feminine equally. Both matter and spirit. Men and women are not different after all. Underneath the biological (physical) differences, we are the same spirit. It is only where we place our attention that makes us different. Putting attention on the outside world and the chaos that exists there, draws us to become involved in human affairs where we remain limited to human knowledge and keep recycling it. We try to fix things from a narrow base. It is the masculine approach to focus on the outer world and want to make them better, but instead it captures us into a darker matrix without the counterbalance of the infinite powers of silence and receptivity within. The feminine.

The feminine is the silent side of us, the receiving side, the hope-filled, faith-filled, reverent and prayerful side of us that looks up. This side of us has been forgotten and almost lost. But not quite. The link is still there. It is the connection to the peace within. Because we reside in a masculine-oriented, overly-agitated world, one which nearly killed off the feminine or spiritual side of us, humanity is degenerated into confusion. We have messed up royally. Only the rare few have switched over to the contemplative life and transcended the chaos, although more and more people are considering it. Those few don’t pay much attention to the saber-rattling or politics. They live quietly in the world, enjoying the diversity and adventures just like everyone else. I know I do. 

It's a quieter life. A peaceful life. A higher consciousness. I am married to someone who doesn’t think like me or believe like me, but it doesn't matter. We have worked it out. We enjoy an inner life AND an outer life. It's a balance and it's exciting. It's a journey of a growing realization that I'm on my own path and he's on his own and the only thing we can give each other is love. Not advice, not correction, not fixing, but just our presence. I used to want more. I used to dream big and want to do things to help and change and move mountains out of the way. But that's all going away now. I find myself with not enough time in the day to complete the process of living in the now. I'm experiencing wholeness. I feel as if I am home. It's not a stagnant feeling, but a rich and abundant feeling. Moving into a higher consciousness is not leaving the planet bit coming into the present moment, which is so full there isn't enough time to enjoy it all.  The here and now is busy, not stillness. The process of coming into the present means leaving the baggage behind. I've been dropping off my hopes and dreams and desires and plans and projects along the way. Today, this moment, is jam-packed with more than I can handle.

OK. Moving on. The feminine movement. I started out several months ago focusing on the women's movement. I wrote about it and moved through it and learned a lot. Now I see that the women's movement applies just as much to men as it does to women. Women are the first to respond to the increased radiation from the sun (the warming of the planet) because their bodies are built to receive spiritual flows. They are the connecting link. Women hold the center for the form world so the male body can use it to build. Men use this spiritual power to push the boundaries further out into form. They invent, imagine, build space ships and sadly war machines. Men focus attention outward. In the primitive times of human history, men were the ones to leave the camp fire and go exploring, hunting and gathering whatever they had a desire for. New territory perhaps or new tribes. Men are built to wander (no pun intended) while women tend the fires and kids at home. Women are the hub of the wheel while the wheel turns and traverses rocky ground.

However, the new woman is not going to stay at home. Just the opposite, in fact. She is going out there and starting to make her own way in the world. She is creating a new image of what a woman should be. She is no longer subservient. In addition, the new man is also changing, some are even stay-at-home dads while the wife starts a career. Many of the older generation are struggling with this change in our culture. Their fixed focus on "how it used to be", is not working for them any more. Hang onto your hats, the ground is moving. It's going to take time to adjust to the new roles of men and women. It's going to take more open-mindedness, and the quicker the better.

It is important to point out that the feminine side of a man is no different than the feminine side of a woman. The feminine in all of us is our spiritual nature. This has been largely dismissed or ignored. Or relegated to religion and dropouts. But we are mentally, emotionally and energetically, fully 50% spiritual (meaning feminine) and 50% physical (meaning masculine). We have not been equally blended in the long history of our past, which has caused us to be unbalanced. 50/50 would bring a wonderful balance to humankind. The new women's movement is a correction period. We are showing us the way to blend our humanness with our god-like natures. How we do this is unique to each person. It is a soul journey. How we begin to live more restfully, more kind and tolerant and wise, is up to each person alone. 

How we cultivate our feminine side is what makes us each unique. Our personality radiates out to others and reveals either a sensitive and kind person, or an up-tight angry and abrupt person in danger of exploding. We reflect our humanness, but we may also reflect as like a child of the sun, of the creator, of god or goddess, or whatever name or you don't have to call it a name. Call it feminine. But the patriarchy has not allowed the feminine in us, the spiritual in us, to be free. It has killed it off over the centuries. In men especially. Men don't easily accept the feminine side of themselves. They don't cry. Real men don't cry.

What is feminine, anyway, but the ability to feel and express freely the joy of spontaneity. It is living the feeling as it flows. It the power that comes from the sun, and it reflects the higher angel in us. It is pure delight, noble, loving, happy. It is caring, compassionate, kind and tolerant. It is beauty, refinement, dignity, grace. It is all of the qualities that human beings admire. But for some reason they have been rejected in favor of the coarse and ugly. We know what feminine is but it has been held back. When it is held back, we become frustrated. The free play of beautiful high emotions is not allowed. They are illegal. Only the grief, pain and suffering are allowed and amplified in human nature. The feminine side of us - the full 50% of our spirituality - has been suppressed. The pure and beautiful divine side of us has been repressed. This is what the feminine represents. It's quite different from the definitions of today.

The goal of the women’s movement is not to separate and divide against the men. It is to embody the qualities of the high feminine, the higher nature, the spiritual nature. The women's movement is to resurrect what patriarchy has almost killed off the planet. The women's movement is a remembering what has been lost. Women don't know it, but they have the closest link to it. The traditions that are upheld today are  masculine creations. Men were afraid of women and needed to control them. Otherwise women would love everyone free and they didn't want to everyone to be free. Control was a masculine trait. Even the male church didn't want women to be free or love to be free. The spiritual values are myriad. They shine like the sun, but they were curtailed. Clipped. And decency became unnatural. Love has been the enemy of the dark side of human nature, held back out of need to be the controller. 

Today we are seeing a turn of events. More women are waking up. They are entering the political and commercial sector and showing a natural talent for it. How do the women know what to do? Where are they getting their talent? They are activating their masculine side. Women are tapping into their own prior life histories. Men are doing the same thing as they activate their feminine side. 

Both women and men are shifting to strengthen their weaker sides and softening their stronger sides. Male extremism has been in control  for thousands of years, believing in the rule: “Real men don’t cry“, which is a lie. Men DO cry, they just don‘t show it. They repress it and the repressed emotions turn into selfishness, competition, loneliness and bitterness. We have seen it in creaky, brittle old men. As men break out of that creaky old box of rules that has caused so much pain in the world, they are experiencing release. We have a ways to go yet, but it's coming. Men of every culture have been burdened by extraordinary responsibilities simply because they were born a boy, and it's not fair.  We have the potential of a life of pure delight, happiness, freedom and balance when we live the 50/50 balance of feminine and masculine.
Becoming emotionally free is perhaps the first thing to consider in experiencing peace. Owning one's emotions means acknowledging it, sharing it with a trusted friend or at the very least, journaling it into words to review later. This will cultivate your feminine side. Plus leading the contemplative life by taking three times out during the day in silence and reverence. This is the feminine side of human nature. It has been ignored and laughed at.

There are women who have lost touch with their feminine side too. It's not just men. Angry and embittered women also need to cultivate their higher nature. It is a personal responsibility to own and express and sanctify their higher nature and stop bending the knee and compromising with the lower levels of life. Groveling is an ugly word, but people do it when they give their power away to less-qualified people. No reason is good enough to do this because there is a link to the divine within the human heart, and it could be accessed. It's up to each person to look for it and practice opening the heart. Investing in little acts of truth or kindness or taking a stand for decency is a beginning. It starts out with small things to make a change. Instead of fading into the background pretending to be invisible, stepping up to the plate is how one turns a downward spiraling life. 

Recognizing that there are men who are more feminine and women who are more masculine, we see that we simply can't divide the genders down the middle and put women on the left and the men on the right. We are quite intermingled and mixed up. We are all one species called human. It's called in higher spheres and other civilizations, the Adam Kadmon. Our human species exists everywhere in the universe.  It’s time to address the truth.

We've all lived many lifetimes before this one, and on other planets too. We've lived in both male bodies and female bodies and in many different cultures. We are the human species - gods in training. Other types of species do exist, also gods in training, but we are the human species and there is a divine blueprint mixed in with our DNA. Our mission is to fulfill the human blueprint by becoming masters of all conditions we face. We've lived and learned through many lifetimes and in many different circumstances, so we have the wisdom and experience stored in our cells. We've lived as rich and poor, as royalty and commoner, as famous and infamous, as  saint and sinner, and we've been guided by the homing instinct of our oversoul. The higher self is guiding us to fulfill the dream - the divine blueprint that is locked within the human DNA. Our blueprint knows what we should look like and behave like. It's time we recovered it. It brings great joy and peace, knowledge and abilities beyond what we've known up to now.

Men have been women in past lives, and women have been men. We switch genders to keep a fairly equal balance on our progress forward. Can you imagine what you'd be like today if you had been a woman in, say, 99 lifetimes in a row? Or if you were a man in all 99 lifetimes, what would you be like today? The soul switches back and forth to maintain an overall perspective. In the meantime we get to enjoy our male and female bodies. We explore them in every which way. The divine in us is the driver, leading us to achieve balance, but we need to have a full 50% feminine active in our genes. Until we do, we are unbalanced.

Reincarnation is commonly accepted in other cultures, and is becoming more accepted in the United States. But consider - it’s not easy to be a boy when the last three or four livetimes you were female. As a boy today you would still feel you are a female in your instincts and innate abilities. Your energy bodies need time to adapt to a a male body. They say it takes three lifetimes to adjust switching sexes. This would account for the feelings of gays and lesbians being born into wrong bodies or being repulsed by the opposite sex. It is a sign that the veil is thinning, allowing individuals to tune into past lives. The energy body, called the etheric body, is real. It contains the whole history of the individual. Flashes of deja vu are memories seeping through to the conscious mind. It behooves us to pay attention. Talk about it. Share it. Acknowledge it. It is the wisdom of the higher self making itself known to the lower self. The soul is in charge of past life knowledge. Why resist it? Feel it. Emotions are feelings. Work with what you've got. Adapt to your growing largeness. Tune into your oversoul, your feminine side. Ask questions of your higher self and watch for how the answer is revealed. It will surprise you. This is what feminine people do. They are connected to their divine within.

Well, once again, I've written a book. So sorry. Thank you to those who have stuck with it to the end. Laughing, I am hugging you! I really don't care if you read it or not but I have to go now. I appreciate your thoughts. Happy Solstice to you.  Have a wonderful summer.

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6/8/19 - During a meditation recently this information started pouring into my mind. There is a massive blockage in the solar plexus. Mental processing takes place in this area - the third chakra allows in your mental abilities, it doesn’t come through the brain.  You think your mind is in your brain but the brain is merely the computer for the body. It is not the spirit of the body. The computer has taken over the body, like in your movies where the computer starts thinking on its own and makes war on the humans. This is what the ego does but the brain is the little man, the little woman, not the real person. The real man, the real woman thinks through the solar plexus region. It is here that the information from higher self comes in to you. Your higher self is the larger you, the divine immortal self who survives death and makes decisions. This comes through as a stream of awareness through the solar plexus chakra. Because you don’t know this, the information is not being maintained or recognized. You know it as gut instinct but you notice it only when you have a negative reaction. The information that comes in very alert and sensitive but because it is not being acknowledged, it becomes garbled and builds up a massive confusion in the area of the solar plexus until it becomes a huge ball of twisted strands of unresolved ideas, concepts, principles and awarenesses that haven‘t been processed. It is time to clear that area by knowing it is there. Acknowledge it and begin focusing down there. There are several ways to clear the area. One way is by chanting through your solar plexus the OM, which means “I Am!’ or simply “I Am!“ while holding an intention of clearing the area of darkness and confusion. Imagine a sun shining in here, very intense, very bright. Mentally chant “I Am clearing. I Am clearing. I Am clearing. I Am! I Am! I Am!” Breathe into the solar plexus while mentally chanting the “I Am”, the OM. See the sun shining there. Do this for 5 or 15 minutes, as long as you can. The longer the better. This area is the big block that prevents the energy rising up from your sensual feelings in the genitals to the heart. The block is in your solar plexus. Your body is designed to raise the energy from the tail bone or first chakra, up through the central column to the heart and then the head, to circulate energy all through your body, but this solar plexus block is holding it down to the genital, sexual/sacral center, the second chakra. So you can’t raise the energy up to the heart, head and higher. 
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5/27/19 -  Be conscious of extending upness, the light of an upward consciousness. Happiness and carefree delight.  So you are confused. Delightful!  What you DO with these confusions is the greatest opportunity you will ever have.  The confusing onslaught of light energies is God's energies, is God - use them to shape and mold your divine personage.  What YOU do with your confusing energies is uniquely you.  Figure them out, play with them, instill them with your uniqueness.  Make them your own and become the Immortal Self.  Remember love.  Some focus on freedom, some on truth, some on ascension flame, some on joy, some on healing.  Each of the masters has chosen an attribute to mold his thoughts and feelings around.  What will you mold yours around?  What is the most important attribute to you?  

The meaning of grounded is feeling like you are a part of the earth, that you belong here, not a foreigner.  As you develop this sense, you descend more physically into your body. You are not your body; you are consciousness becoming conscious of your body. As you develop a sense of being part of the earth, you rearrange molecules in your environment to suit you. Becoming descending more physically into your body is connecting with the feminine energies, earth energies. When you bring the light of your consciousness to earth, you "ground" yourself. You live here better and more firmly.  Whenever you close your eyes, picture gold light  - for you are a golden light - condensing within your form.  You are capturing your own essence as gold light into your body when you stop giving it away to other people and allowing others to vampirise your energies. 

When someone asks questions, seemingly picking on you, know that it is only because they sense you know things they don't know and this is their way of getting you to talk. Our advice to you is, don't give them answers to their questions; give them what they need according to your perceptions.  Be astute.  We give you new inspirations every day to keep you ever active and moving.  Give THEM new inspirations beyond their questioning.  Their world is fixed within carefully defined borders, help them to break down those boundaries, for that is what they seek.  They want to move on as do you.  We will keep you mentally stimulated. Our meditations are designed to increase your vibrancy and agility. Your world is being agitated, like water boiling on a stove, letting off steam.  Go with the energy flow and don't resist.  Do what is before you and don't worry about what is ahead or behind.  One step at a time. Stay in your center.  Strive to stay grounded here and now.

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5/2/19 - Last week I slipped on wet tile and ended up with bruises, nothing broken, just stressed and strained muscles. After my own home remedies eased some of the soreness I went to David whom I haven't seen in a while for one of his fabulous massages. David is sponsored on this website on the MASSAGE page here. And WOW! I had forgotten why he is there. It is THIS that I want to write about today, because under his corrective touch I remembered. 

As everyone knows who reads this website, love motivates me. It's not personal. I'm not seeking a lover. I've been there and done that enough to last me several lifetimes and it's a dead end. No. There's a greater love that I'm interested in. It's metaphysical, transitional, spiritual, yet we are all human. Where have we failed? The kind of love that motivates me is much greater than a romantic connection with one person. Words fail to define it. Is it the search for the holy grail? It's not a physical sensation but something wider, more liberating, more all encompassing. Everyone is seeking it. It's a life force.

When I discovered David four years ago it was a connection that expanded and blossomed in friendship. We explored the concept of love intellectually, not as lovers would normally do. David channels a life force in a way that goes beyond the traditional male-female connection. That's why he also does Tantric Massage successfully. Tantric Massage is not personal. He works with the life force of the body and re-connects meridians and pathways so the body is nourished and fed with more life. It's a living energy that I received during my massage and it liberated me so I was talking a blue streak, I realized later. I couldn't stop the flow.  This is part of my discovery as I continue to explore what love is. This is not love as much as it is a life force. It's not what men and women call "love" because it's not personal. I started out calling it love but now I'm trying to define it and learn its true nature. What is the secret behind love? What is the source? It doesn't come from human beings but it comes THROUGH human beings. It seems to require a connection with human beings. We can't find it all alone, by ourselves, at home. We need to engage with others. I must conclude that love is created through the CONNECTION.

There is a saying, "Love isn't something that was put here to stay. Love isn't love 'til it's given away." Our race, our culture has reduced love to an intellectual word and woven "love" into vows and promises that are fake and superficial. What is the real essence of love? We have bought into the reductionist approach hook, line and sinker. The reductionist approach is taking something you can't understand and reduce it to words or physical parts. As I study love out past the personal, sexual, friendships and on into forests and mountains and starry skies and further out into the Milky Way galaxy, because love is so hard to find here on the ground, I find myself coming back to myself. Love is in ME! I'm trying to find real love in other people but it's impossible unless I have found it within myself first.

David wakes me up to remembering that I am loved. He is a loving person. He channels love like the sun which shines on everyone alike, equally, without favorites. As young people when we find someone who we THINK is the source of love for us, we start to date them, and marry them, and then find it is less than we thought. For most people it wasn't really love after all, as things begin to go down hill. Again, where have we failed? So now when I find someone who is makes me feel more alive, what I have been calling "love", I don't turn it personal. I don't try to possess him, own him or date him (or her). No! No! No! That's totally the wrong thing to do because they are awakening something in me. I am supposed to receive it gladly, with gratitude, with happiness, that this "something" is activating in me. This personal is healing me, by reminding me that I am love. That there is love in me, clarity in me, excitement in me, freedom in me. I feel love because love is INSIDE me. Real love is always inside us. If it seems someone is giving us love, the wrong impulse is to credit that person for having something we don't have. We have been taught to look for someone outside us for answers. We were not taught to look INSIDE us for answers, and yet that's where love resides: inside us.

Real love is infinite and inside us. It is shining down on us as light. It comes through the portal of the sun, which receives it from a greater central sun and a still greater grander sun and so on. Light is shining down on us as individuals. This is an ascended master teaching. And each one of us is a baby sun in the making. Someday we too will be an ascended master shining down on others. But first we have to learn how to find the love inside us and KEEP building on that love and learn how to shine our love out to other people, and allow other people to shine their love back to us freely. Without owning each other or possessing each other or controlling each other by becoming jealous and restrictive.

Love is the energy of heaven. Love is universal, not personal. We human beings have made it personal, and we have a right to do that as we choose, but it is unwise to control, demand, disrespect or get angry at someone because they do not allow themselves to be "owned" or "possessed". We are evolving our freedom to express love and become the love within us. We are learning to recognize  the source of love is the life force of all creation. And it's there for us to enjoy, to give, to use for inspiring, for healing, for growing, for sharing, for creating families, new inventions, art, science, music and cleaner atmospheres, forests, oceans and mountains.  Love is the little particles sparkling in the air in the sun. Love comes through the sun as it shines on all creatures, great and small, without favoritism. As we grow in understanding how infinite love is, we don't want to build walls around people. We want to share ourselves with them freely, without owning them or being jealous of their time.

This is what I feel - and remember - when David massages me because that's what we talked about 4 years ago. What he is good at, is reflecting back to me my own inspiration and I am freer and larger and wiser when I leave him. I feel things and I know things that I'd forgotten.  I'm not even aware of what he's doing to my muscles - that's his job to work on the muscles - I'm engaged in receiving and feeling. I allow the feeling to grow. I don't shut it off. There is a quickening. An alertness. A remembrance. An intelligence. And I am starting to shine on the inside. I say things without thinking. I'm free to talk without censoring. I am more liberated. More awake. I am returning to the harmony that was broken in my fall and perhaps was broken from prior to the fall. This is the love that is not personal and yet it is very personal for I am returning to my own love inside. My search leads me back to myself as the source.

David is a muscle therapist. He is very good at it. But he is also an open conduit for the life force. I am sure there are others who also do this, but I don't know any. His hands are warm like the sun and while he works the muscles, that life force shines through his hands automatically and makes me blossom - like when a flower which has been indoors all its life is put outside in the sun and rain. It starts to thrive. It automatically grows upward, reaching towards the source. It's natural. It's instinctive. It's evolutionary. The sun evolves everything that comes into its radiation. Famous mystics and spiritual teachers have the gift and people flock to them for this radiation. Quickening the source of love inside a body is what a master does, or a therapist with warm hands. 

A quirky little fall on the tiles led me to go get a massage from David again. I wouldn't have gone without a reason. But I think it was more than the fall. It was time for me to receive more life force. A healing is when the body grows itself back together again, after a fall or accident or trauma. The body has the ability to heal itself, but this ability hasn't been awakened yet. In our current dumbed-down, limited belief culture, it takes  human beings who are marvelously awake to not only assist in repairing, but in advancing and expanding beyond former boundaries into full consciousness. We can't do it alone in the current state of mass hypnosis of not-love. We are meant to touch, to hold, to care, to love one another without restrictions that have hemmed us in with huge taboos.  But we must touch, hold, care and love one another. It's not personal.

The therapist isn't the source of the healing. The therapist is skilled in working the parts because of training.  What is the source of the healing? Ahhhh!  Where is the love?  It is inside of the person, covered over. It needs to be awakened. It needs to be remembered.

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4/18/19 - This morning during meditation I asked for help in how to use my mind to better advantage and felt to post what I learned here. Others might gain from my experiences. Ascended Master Djwal Khul, known as DK, was a Tibetan Buddhist in his last life before ascension. He has been a silent adviser to me for over 40 years, bringing me guidance through both thick and thin situations. Ascended Masters are not known by many people, but they are real and more information is becoming accessible in these days that reveal who they really are. I am inclined to mention them just to plant seeds. Only in the last 5 years did I discover DK is a teacher of Tantra, that is, divine Tantra, meaning INNER Tantra. One studies ones inner workings alone to bring one's own masculine and feminine energies into balance. Tantra means “web” in Sanskrit, referring to one's inner web of life.

I consulted with Master DK this morning because I continued to feel unsure how to focus my mind. He showed me yesterday but I still had questions.  My question is: Should I direct my mind by actively forming visualizations and verbalizing decree work (affirmations)? Or should I allow my mind to wander peacefully without thought, which is my natural default program?

Yesterday he said, “Observe your mind. Simply observe. Remain in peace and watch the thoughts that enter your mind. Don’t chase them, just watch them. See where they are coming from. If they are coming from you there will be a feeling, a wanting to follow them, a passion, an interest, an excitement to the thought. Then you know it is coming from you, initiated by your higher self. If the thought does not appeal to you, if you sense even just a little, that you don’t want to follow that thought, or you don’t like that thought, why go with it? Why analyze it? Why even resist it? Remain in your peaceful state. Why would you want to leave your peaceful state? You like being peaceful. Why leave it to answer the call of another thought that you don’t even want? Watch your thoughts. Pay attention to your feelings in response to the thoughts. Observe while staying in your peace.” 

That was yesterday. Today, when I asked him again, DK showed me how I am distracted by what I assimilate from other people, “even from the Ascended Masters themselves."  Apparently when I read something from the masters this morning, dictations through a channeling, no matter how enlightened and beautiful it was, something grabbed hold of me and I was confused over what to do with it. DK said to me: "When you entertain what other people are saying, you are called outside and away from your central core, which is your natural comfort zone. It’s like when someone taps you on the shoulder and you turn to see who it is, you are pulled away from where you were going and may forget what path you were on. You break connection with your inner self."

He went on to say, "This is the state of the world today. It happens to everyone. The world has grown to become chaotic. Your world keeps you on alert, tense and ready to leap into action. It keeps you from your own  path. It prevents you from being centered in your natural, inner comfort. There is a lower comfort zone and a higher comfort zone. Your lower comfort zone is lethargic,  stationary, your energies are not moving. You may feel comfortable in a dull, sleepy way, but it is a low vibration. Your higher comfort zone is active, exciting, with a light step and eager enthusiasm. Your energies are moving in a positive upward way. This is where you should strive to be. You contain a perfect blueprint within, the perfection of what you are striving to become and how to get there and  what attitudes you should entertain. In other words, your perfection is ever accessible to you in the higher vibrations, but not accessible in the lower. Strive to be in your higher vibrations. It is the way to tap into the immaculate concept and the divine template for you as an individual."

As I retyped this for the post, I continued to feel his words: You know when you accidentally connect with it because you feel absolutely good with yourself. Depending on what you are doing at the moment you might feel light-minded, enthusiastic, excited and motivated if you are active. If you are in meditation or resting peacefully you might feel highly blissful, light-hearted and open to receive messages from your higher self. Be at peace with yourself always. Strive to find what is light, easy, fun and good for you no matter what you are engaged in, even during conversations with your friend. Your divine perfection is always trying to reach your outer world, walk in your shoes and engage with your world - its world. You are carrying your divine template around with you but you have not yet embodied it with the high qualities which have been given to you. You are not your physical body. Your physical body is faulty and contains errors and mistakes, You are spirit striving to create perfection through your flesh body. Study more the seven God-qualities given to you at the beginning of your sojourn into the world of matter: that of love, wisdom, power, purity, truth, comfort and freedom. Lack of understanding these seven qualities, which you are studying now, is holding mankind back from embodying their ideals and dreams.

DK says “There are two parts to you. There is human and there is divine. There is personality and there is individuality. You are a personality (mask) when you engage with others, but you are an individual behind the personality mask. You are the same individual in every life you embody into, but you take on a different personality mask each time. You are a new personality in this life but you are the same individual who has lived hundreds or thousands of lifetimes prior to this one. Each time you embody as an infant to a new set of parents in a new culture, you build for yourself a new personality, but you are the same individual, which you call a soul. Each time you re-embody you take on DNA from your parents and you become acculturated into your home and neighborhood, village, state and locality. The air is filled with energy patterns from lifetimes of  natives thinking, feeling and acting in that region. These energy patterns are different from the energy patterns on the opposite side of the world. These energy patterns flow continuously through your infant form and you assimilate them as you grow to adulthood. They become part of your interface with the environment. These become your personality mask to the outer world, as the world knows you, but the world does not know you as the individual spirit spark that lived in thousands of other bodies, gaining wisdom and knowledge.

“You are the soul amassing knowledge with each new embodiment, accumulating skills which shape your future and become innate talents. Behind the human mask, you are a spirit spark learning to master the human vehicle from inside it, by managing your thoughts and feelings. You were born as a spirit spark out of the one infinite Father-Mother God which created every planet, every sun, every galaxy, every celestial being, every worm, horse, alligator, tree, human and angel. As an individual spirit spark you set your own course of action in your own unique way that is different from everyone else. You are cultivating individuality, not personality. Embedded in a world of chaos as a human being, many times over, you have enjoyed both successes and failures. You suffer growing pains, yet all the while you are gaining knowledge that is building for you an inner strength and power that will bring you to the day of graduation, called ascension.

"This life you live with your many relationships, is not the real you. Remember you are the real behind the mask of personality and between the folds of your physical body. Your personality mask takes over from the moment you awaken from sleep, but the real you is ever present hovering in the background of your day and night. You KNOW THIS! The personality mask is a software program, no different from that in your computer. And just as computer software can be updated and obsolete programs deleted, so can you make changes within yourself through conscious application of wise choice, decision and determination. Meditation is a timeless method of sitting in silence in communication with your greater self. Silence is the shutting down of movement in the body, mind and emotions and feeling the comfort and peace within.

"Your personality mask comes and goes with each embodiment, but your individuality is the same consciousness that came from the heart of the one infinite creator eons ago. You have never lost access to that glorious beginning. You exist in that glory all the time in the inner, higher ascended state. It is only your outer personality, your suit of clothes, that encumbers you. Set them aside on a daily basis and come within to your own ascended state where we dwell. We will meet you there and celebrate. You are an immortal innocent having a human experience. Remember? Try to remember. Be at peace. Sit in silence. In an instant you can be back with us in the warm enfolding aura of Father-Mother God, and through FEELING - be refreshed, revitalized and renewed so life is once again exciting, passionate, happy, loving, beautiful and peaceful."

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4/2/19 - Today I found an old journal entry from the days when I was in and out of higher dimensions, dated 1986. Today I am more grounded and trying to bridge the gap between spirituality - where I spend much of my time - and sexuality, the playground of love. As a student of the lighter way I seek to fill in this gap. I found this article quite by accident.

(Me in a higher state of consciousness) In meditation today, I saw the rod that is “like unto a man, or a woman“. Those were the words that came to me. The power is given to the human into the pelvic region, the center, a glow, a tiny glow at the base of the rod, glowing brighter and brighter and brighter. And then another glow above in the head, and above the head, the spiritual nature of man and woman, the higher divine self, the monad.  There has been a separation, this light of man. A piece has been sent downward into the dimensions of physical matter and encased and enclosed in, round about with matter and the higher self is trying quite desperately to reach the lower light - the mother light hidden within the soil of matter. Oh, how clearly I saw this! I have seen it over and over and over, each time with a new beauty and a new spaciousness. It is here now, this light, glowing here in the pelvis and it is up to each man, each woman, to fill in the vacuum and empty spaces in between the lower light and the higher. There is naturally confusion because we are fluctuating between the lower physical consciousness and the higher spiritual consciousness where we know all things and then we lose it and fall downward into the heavy dense condition again. Only to rise once more in moments of ecstasy and inspiration and in those heights we wonder why we were confused. The wild fluctuations are the polarities shifting, first below, then above, then below again. As I saw it, we look like a tube of light, a neon tube, hollow and empty in the middle, with the glows only on either end, first one end, then the other, always glowing on the ends but never in the middle?!  It is in the middle that we must fill in. The middle is our daily life and actions, here and now. We have to blend the higher and the lower and make it all livable and available to us every day as we walk and talk with our neighbors and do our tasks. 
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3/19/19 - Entity attachment through sex is something I have been aware of for years but was afraid to mention out loud, seeing as how I gained my wisdom and maturity through the swinging lifestyle (smile!) I still encourage swinging but from a more loving place because people are mostly unaware of the dangers of superficial, ignorant sex. Someone sent me a youtube this morning and at long last someone else out there knows what I know. This gives me confidence to bring this out here. I took notes as I listened to Thomas Williams. He speaks with an English accent. These words are his words mostly with some editing on my part because I come from a most beautiful, higher, all-encompassing spiritual lovemaking, and I want that to shine through.  Otherwise I concur with him entirely.

(Thomas Williams speaking:) Entity attachment through sex is just one aspect that nobody seems to be even aware of. Some talk about tantric sex and how truly powerful sex actually is. The danger of sex magic has long been known by occultists. They know full well its ability not only to create life, but any human desire one holds in the mind. They know that engaging in sex opens up an energy vortex. What people don't know is that sex can also open you up to whatever he or she has harvested during their life or past lives, which is held in their energy field. Entity attachment through sex is real. You need to take it seriously.

Sex between a truly loving couple is another story. It has the ability to anchor essence, meaning beautiful higher spiritual energy, down into this reality. Superficial, ignorant sex is why low energy sex is encouraged by society. Unaware people are feeling the "push" and "nudge" and "attraction" coming from unknown regions, dark regions, non-physical entities. These promptings contain all sorts of needs and desires and some very dark indeed, from unhappy earthbound souls that are disembodied and eagerly awaiting opportunity to re-engage with flesh. They come down through the vortex created through sex. Sex has the capacity to open portals into the nether regions and they can enter into the body along with what we consider "heavenly" feelings.

A slow, easy, loving engagement with someone you know and have grown deeper with, is not to be feared. What is to be aware of is sex with people you don't know, just because it's expected of you. Or the one-night stand that escalates in a bar. If it is a drunken sex act, it will be most assuredly of a parasitic and negative nature. A drunken one-night stand is harmful in ways we don't understand. When you have sex with someone, you energetically pull them to you for seven years, whether you're living with them on a daily basis or never see them again. An entity can attach to you in a brief one-time encounter, unless you have the ability to do energy work and cut the cord. You can cut or remove the sexual connection, but very few people are aware of it. During a one-night stand, a woman can take up to 50% of the man's karma simply because she is the receiver and her energy field is open and welcoming. An energy transfer or exchange can happen immediately, and she can also pass it on to other sex partners.

An entity attachment or energy transfer are two different things. An entity attachment is a disembodied soul that can hook onto you and cause you to think differently and change your habits. An energy transfer happens between both people during the sex act. It then starts to change old patterns, thoughts, moods and behavior. It's common to see. If a relationship is toxic to begin with, the less toxic person who may be a very loving person trying to accommodate the more toxic person, can actually take on the personality traits of the toxic one.  Understand, we live in a multidimensional reality with different forms of consciousness that exists outside of our visible sight. A lot of this energy is distorted and reside in what some call the astral plane. There are many disembodied souls on the astral plane who are parasitic and bottom feeders, just waiting for the opportunity for you to open yourself up. Sex is one of the five hooks, ways for entities to attach to living people. Religion, alcohol and drugs are the other ways.

The occult practicing people know this all too well.  They know that anal sex is particularly powerful. This is why anal sex is used mainly on young boys in pedophile circles. That particular practice is far more powerful sex magic. These people are sick. 85% of this planet is suspected of being infected with host possession. People need to be informed. Maybe people will begin to see why this planet is so messed up. Sex is available in a society with loose, decadent morals. It becomes a real problem.

Another way that the new age program has pushed onto the public as being all love and light is tantric sex.  Remember the Kali Ma and the dark practices that came out of India which spread into Egypt and then into Europe. Tantric sex started in India and is wrapped into Hinduism and Buddhism, both of which are bastardized and corrupted versions of the Vedas. (End of notes from video and podcast. See link at end of my blog.)

Since I have been a student of the ascended masters, I have known about entity attachment and negative energy transfers. For this reason I have attempted to bring a more loving approach to the swinging lifestyle. I believe in positive energy transfers but, unfortunately, this hasn't gone very well because nobody has a clue! I haven't told anyone because I've been afraid of disrupting the desires and needs of men.  From my perspective, men have ruled the world and they get angry at ALL attempts to change their minds about sex. It has been a significant problem, trying to introduce slower, gentler, healing love into the act that is normally called "sex". The men don't want to hear it, or listen to it. Now that the women's movement is underway, I am thankful because this is a way to reassure the men that it is not the end of the world, but the beginning of a ic NEW way of making love, with more fulfillment. I know men don't like the word "connecting" because they think it means getting stuck and bogged down in a relationship. So women too need to become more educated and knowledgable about sex and love. Women too need to recognize that love should not be used to entrap a man into a marriage or commitment. The sweetness of a woman's body is a connection to soul. Making love is a way to connect with soul but it requires love. People can't be pushed, shoved, wheedled, cajoled, pounced upon, raped or violated - neither can boys or men - because it's a downward spiral. It only brings in more darkness to the planet and the people remain confounded and confused. The divine feminine is waking up in all people, so expect some enlightenment about sex and love to change the world. It will happen.  

Links to Thomas Williams and "Entity attachment through Sex" -  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoWoiRToCcA. Podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/user/8955881

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3/10/19 - Well, a few people have been asking what is happening on the Women's Empowerment front. So
much! Mostly I've been clearing my decks and phasing into a new thought process. This newsletter was sent to a small group of women a couple of weeks ago, but I'll modify it and send it to everyone since there are those waiting to hear. Yesterday was International Women's Day, and I can report to you that the universe is sending waves upon waves of wonderful, sweet divine feminine energy. It is overwhelming me. The transition out of the ancient male patriarchal system is in high gear. The turn-around is taking place. It's like a big wide U-turn on a fast-moving freeway. It takes time to turn such a big lumbering rig around and point it in a new direction.

Since I have been fluctuating through my own process of change, my writing is mostly to myself. I have lots of information pouring into me. Every morning I wake with phrases running through my mind and I start writing, but I don't have time to edit it and put it into publishable form. It's coming in too fast, and there's a reason for that. Ever since the Goddess gathering on January 7 and the newsletter on January 28 I have been peeling away layers of illusions, pre-conceived fantasies, a lifetime of projections - thoughts, expectations and feelings - onto other people. I am telling myself, "Stop doing that!" And I have excellent help from my guides. Every day I am given homework to do. I must find it in my heart to let go of ALL need to control. All personal desires. 

So I am detaching. I am tuning into empty. I was shown a method in how to get rid of bog-downs that ail me. I'll share it with you. Imagine a column of light running down your spinal column from your crown to tailbone. Imagine it about 4 inches in diameter and then spin it clockwise. Just play with the concept. Spin it. Spin it faster. The column of light is in your etheric body, not your physical. By spinning it you throw off everything that is not light. Centrifuge it off. The etheric body and your light body are trying to pop through into your physical body so you have the added benefit of higher consciousness and clarity. Old fears and delusions block the road so we're clearing our energy fields.

Women are waiting, wishing and wanting something to happen to break the stagnation that is blocking the highways of movement. It is a priority now for women to break out of the masculine control system which is an ancient system that fixates on rules and control over others via the rule book. It's a stuckness that has been holding all of us back because there is only one true power, and that power is YOU. And that power has to flow. It's been stuck. As I break out of the old stuckness in me it is leading me into open-ended flowing, not fixating on anything at all. I am fortunate to live with a man who is also doing the same thing in his own way, so I am free. I know that others do not have the same freedom in their home life so I'm sharing what I know. Maybe it will help.

I'm staying in my center most of the time. The center is in the heart. The heart is where your higher self resides -- the part of you that is eternal immortal. So I am neutral most of the time. There is no movement in the center. It's a portal into light. There is clarity in the center. I can see better when I don't move around so much. Most people are distracted by movement. They go here and there and everywhere, as the outer world demands attention. But, as Lao-Tzu, the great philosopher who founded Taoism said, "Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner." And THAT's a turn-around, isn't it? We were taught from childhood to be nice to others no matter how much it pains us. We were taught by the old patriarchal rules to kill ourselves from within. Kill ourselves off by denying our own feelings, shut down the freedom and the love we feel, shut down our opinions and our own needs and our own connection to our immortal self and soul, and stick to the rule book. Lao-Tzu has many famous sayings that will turn your head around to look in the other direction. Look them up on the internet.

There will not be any more goddess circles of the type I sponsored in January. I am nearly finished with the peeling away of the illusions that have had me spinning my wheels and not getting to where I'm trying to go. So stop. Let everything go. And I'm almost done. As I get rid of the peripheral attachments that do not belong to me (they belong to someone else), there are two remaining focuses that I'd like to see happen.

One is an all-women’s ascension massage that would call down the light from above first, before doing any hands-on healing. This will be for women only. Soon. I really want to experience women massaging women so we can allow our natural feminine nurturing love to flow freely without distractions from the opposite sex. It's a divine instinct to apply sweetness and light, kindness and warmth - and the divine feminine responds freely to this calling when they are able and beyond reach of outside temptations that would put pressure on us. Women need time with their own gender in order to feel what it's like to experience their own femininity reflected back to them. And to feel it deep within their own cellular tissues and feelings, free of male influence to turn it sideways and outside. There is a deep healing potential here. Feminine love is naturally healing, naturally sacred, naturally wholesome, but when men and women get together it gets diverted, diffused and turned aside. 

My second wish is to have an open-minded gathering of women as a steering committee for Anakosha and the GoddessSphere. The GoddessSphere is the second level of Anakosha. It is like a second story of higher, more refined quality being built on top of a very strong, very solid, very committed and structurally sound first story laid down by men and women in the lifestyle of swinging.

The ascension massage for women is my personal desire, but the No. 2 plan is more practical to start with. Perhaps they can be dove-tailed together.  Time will tell. The universal energies are lining up. Every day we (the earth) is coming more into alignment with good will, harmony and unity. Cooperation and world peace is approaching. It's coming forth slowly through the 7 or 8 billion individuals who live on the planet. Some of them are coming around faster than others, while there are some who are kicking and fighting against the tide. Well, it is their loss because we are heading towards a world of happiness, freedom and equality for everyone.

As the second story is being built on Anakosha by expanding women's capabilities to express freedom to love as they wish, the women will help the men by supporting equality for all and thus bring forth the abundance that comes with the flowing of the inner intelligence. An open-discussion for women with fun, casual talk with their sisters, old and young, and the sharing of dreams, ideas, passions and intelligent plans. A planning committee if you will. Perhaps on a Friday afternoon. For some reason I like Fridays. Weekends are for family. 

Those who attended the Goddess Gathering at the Comfort Inn - thank you. It helped me over the wall of non-movement. It was something I had to do, and WE DID IT!  And now it is past and I am moving again. Sharing is what it takes to move things along. Truthful sharing. Authentic sharing. Quality time sharing. It's not easy to bring forth the truth (gulp!) so it takes courage to say what you really want to say. And if you have not noticed, the truth DOES set you free. It is the first step to come unstuck.

Nothing stays still for very long when people are talking authentically and truthfully, focusing on quality time together with equal amounts of listening and speaking from the heart. A new world is birthing and a new reality is forming. Many are still stuck and need a way to move themselves. This is the formula. Try it out. That's why the women's empowerment circles are happening. They are moving closer together to share. Stay open-minded, be as truthful as best you can while being kind, and follow the stepping stones laid down immediately ahead of you. They are not hard to find. Life will provide the stepping stones. Deal honestly and authentically with each situation that falls in your lap. Go with it and fall forward along the path that is in front of you.

After the Goddess Gathering on January 7, I was so very inspired that I was led to investigate other women's circles to see what they were doing. I attended three separate events - a meditation, a gentle yoga class and a shamanic drumming. The meditation was held at the Goddess I Am metaphysical store on Goodlette Road in Naples. www.goddessiam.com. Beth, the owner also has a Facebook page “Goddess I Am“. She has several gatherings for women on her calendar in the temple room. One on the full moon and one on the new moon, alternating months, and meditations every week on both Wednesdays and Fridays. $10 donations into the dish. I encourage women to check this out. It is a good place to interact with other women.

The gentle yoga class I attended at Happehatchee in Estero was helpful for me. Called Happe for short, it is a sanctuary for healing and personal growth classes held in their screened-in pavillion in the jungle. It’s a lovely setting in the woods. I was reminded that I had given up yoga years ago in favor of spontaneous kundalini movements that gave me so much more in benefits. But I have slacked off and forgotten them. So I’m starting to do those again.

The shamanic drumming was also held at Happehatchee. It was surreal or supernatural, led by a lovely woman from Toronto. This shamanic drumming class left me, however, wanting something more. I  realized, while we 8 women sat around in a circle together not touching, kind of closed off from each other listening to the beautiful sounds of a guided journey - that I do this myself at home. I now want more open engagement with other women. Meditation is an excellent practice and a class is good for those who haven't done it before, but it is not for me. I want more action. My first priority is massage but a special kind of ascension massage to call down the light. And just with women, not men on this round. I am still struggling to detach from this incessant need to serve men. I don't know if this is a default program in all women, but it certainly is in me. When a man is around I don't speak freely. I've noticed other women do the same thing. One day I saw a woman walking down the sidewalk seemingly self-contained. (I detect auras, though I'm not sure if "seeing" is the right word). A male friend came up beside her and locked step with her and her entire demeanor changed. Her energy field slide sideways and meshed with his as she turned to answer his questions, listen and respond to him. It was uncanny. I never noticed that before.

Happehatchee offers many classes. I recommend checking their website, www.happehatchee.com and clicking on their event calendar. It is easy to attend a class. You can walk-in unannounced for most of them. There might be a few that you have to register for. See the calendar. Bring $10 with you to put into the dish and you simply sign a card that is available at the table, so they know your name. The pavillion is very close to where you park your car in the woods. Chairs are provided if it’s a sitting class, and mats if it is a yoga class. The leaders are very friendly and welcoming. Most of the classes are women. The outdoor setting provides a looser atmosphere than an indoor class, like a campfire in the woods but without the fire. And at night fairy lights are turned on so it is not completely dark. You should attend some evening just for the sheer experience of the outdoorsy setting.

I subscribed to Natural Awakenings recently and received my first copy in the mail. At Happehatchee I had picked up some old copies and noticed that there are many new activities in our local area, and most are led by women. Not all, but most. There are one or two men’s support groups gathering. These are wonderful to see. It is so rare to find a men's transformation group. All good signs. The Goddess lives in men too. Opportunities abound for enlightenment and enlargement of consciousness.  The next evolutionary phase is coming forward and presenting itself so it is easy to find. I’ll try to provide as much information as I can. Send me anything you run across that would be of interest to other women. I will use the GoddessSphere banner to send out newsletters.

Because I find the high cost of enlightenment off-putting, I seek free gatherings or basic $10 donation gatherings. I'm at that point where I can't attach a dollar value to spiritual information. To me it is freely given. However, I understand that people need to earn a living and if they have something to offer along the lines of enlightened healing and spiritual evolution workshops, then by all means, go for it. It is personal for each of us. We create our own pathways. There is no judgment. We live in a world of great diversity which is constantly changing. Change is often like a U-turn, switching to an opposite direction as the pendulum swings.

One of my U-turns has been a long, slow process of discovering that the spiritual path does not lead up into the vastness of blue sky, but down into the body. The new spiritual path is not worshipping a God "up there" but the god within the body which is the Self. It's a new way of thinking about God. God is here within. We are each a child of God, and Father God and Mother God reside within us. The religions have sent us on a wild goose chase, with all due respect. I mean no harm to religion, but neither should religion harm others. The new perspective is to make holy this human body and ground that humble realization into the cells and tissues of this world. Then the lightening process begins to take place within, as glands, muscles, tissues become brighter and brighter. Reverence, grace and self empowerment is the result. Consciousness slows even while the hands on the clock speed up and time and space are warped. Coming to peace inside the body brings unconditional love, clarity and serenity with the world. Stay in the heart and see clearly from this sacred location. There is no judgment here. The women's gatherings are engaging the energies of the higher, gentler dimensions. It behoves men to step back from trying to control the outcome of things. So what if things don't go the way you want it to go? There is fresh air in change.

It is quite extraordinary, actually.  I’ve been married three times and all three of my husbands continually reminded me, "Don't talk about your breakdown. Don't talk about the ascended masters. Don't talk about UFOs and galactics. Don't talk about swinging. Don't talk about private matters." Don't talk, don't tell. This has been a low hum in the background of my life ever since I married the first time. I hesitate to say it but the men have closed me down. I can remember times talking with a woman freely and having a man come in and suddenly the conversation changes direction. Women are sensitive to the presence of men and women instinctively change the subject or the tone or the vibrational frequency when men are around. That's why I want to spend some time with women alone without men, and see if I can bring that hauntingly familiar feeling of freedom back again. I am sure it is from past life persecutions that I carry within me for I’ve had some interesting flashbacks.

I ran across a journal entry the other day and when I read it, I immediately said, “Yes! that’s it!” I had forgotten. It was written in the '80's. In the dream I was gathering people for an advisory committee meeting. In the dream I asked everyone to form a circle. I asked them first to hold hands and then to, still holding hands, come and move closer together in the center, as if to form a hugging circle as best they could considering their numbers because I wanted their bodies to merge and connect. I did not want their mental energies, I wanted their body energies. I was still talking to them as I awoke so I could remember my words and wrote them down:

Your minds are the filters, filtering out what society says is not appropriate. Your minds censor what your bodies are feeling.  Your minds are opinionated and restricted, but your bodies are full of a vaster, far superior intelligence. Your body cells know precisely what to do and they are fed with a magnificent energy, a powerful knowledgeable healing energy that is a oneness energy. But your minds filter out this energy because society says it is not acceptable. Since it is the mind’s job to interface with society and make sure everything is done according to society and not upset the apple cart, your minds are continually censoring, rejecting, resisting these powerful knowings that are inherent in the body.

What I want from you is your body intelligence, your gut intelligence, your intuitive reasoning, the talent that you have built over a lifetime and many lifetimes of experience. Your body cells carry this ancient wisdom in them. You each have a unique history and superb talents to give Anakosha. Beautiful extraordinary knowledge, long histories of successes and failures and volumes have been written into your body cells. You know SO much, but you are continually filtering out this knowledge. And THAT is what I want from you -  all that you are. Everything that is in you. I want you to express and I want you to pass this on to those coming behind you. Each human being is so full of energy and talents and this energy and talent is so wasted in a structured society when it is held back. THAT is what I want from you on this advisory committee and I think partying after a committee meeting is very appropriate, if it is your choice to share your body intuitions. They are genuine. They are not masked.

Only the mind masks those feelings. I don’t want just your regular corporate mask with your censored beliefs and opinions. I want what you REALLY know inside. And as I was talking I felt this to the bone. I felt this through and through to the depths and beyond. I was totally drenched and immersed in the knowledge that THIS is where we are headed. THIS is the body wisdom that I am seeking in the people. THIS is what is going to make Anakosha grow. End of journal entry.

Now, this was written during my swinging days when we were holding parties. Those days are now gone, but I was liberated through swinging and I still feel these words are appropriate today. Today we are trying to bring down the light into action, movement, sharing, smelling and feeling the exquiste sensations of spiritual light and spiritual love. We've been censoring it out, trying to follow the rules of society. But the soul wants to walk freely on the ground. Anakosha is my platform and so I write about these things, and the Goddess gatherings mark a more advanced phase of Anakosha.

Well, I will bring this stream of consciousness to a close for today. Thank you! May Goddess bless you with new food for thought. (Newsletter sent today)

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3/2/19 - Much time has lapsed since blogging here. As I wrote in today's Goddess blog, there have been huge fluctuations on an inner level. But I don't want to talk about that here. This blog is different. Whenever I write in Diana's blog I am writing to both men and women. When I write in the Goddess blog, I write to women only. Men can read it if they want to, but I don't consider male needs. I consider only women. Since Anakosha began as a sexual site and the male perspective weaves in and out of the Anakosha philosophy (it's a couples site) the underlying forces that motivate me cannot ignore discussions on sex. When I write to women only, I feel them hurting and damaged and in need of healing by nurturing loving feminine beings, not men. Over the last few months my thoughts have been pinging back and forth between the needs of women and the needs of men. Today my thoughts revolve around sex which pertains to all genders - not just male and female but the gender inbetween. But I'm going to discuss esoteric sex.

I must start with spirit. Total atheists may exit at this point. We are spirit before we come to earth. Spirit means consciousness. We are intelligent before we came to earth, born into a baby's body.  Consciousness means light. It means spirit. It means intelligence. When we are conscious we have light in our minds. When we are unconscious, we are "dead to the world" but only THIS world. We are alive on other planes of existence.

As spirit, our life force comes down through the top of our heads. AND, as spirit, the life force comes up through the bottoms of our feet.  We have two flows going through our body at the same time, and both are intelligent. The one coming down is abstract intelligence and the one coming up is BODY intelligence. Both life forces are the same intelligence. In fact, both life forces are the same life - they are YOUR intelligence split in two. They were separated at conception.

A piece of your great light was split off and plunged to earth to establish an anchor at the location where you were born. Namely, where the two people lived who were to become your parents. The piece of your great light embedded into the earth became a beacon for the rest of you waiting in the infinite for you to grow up. You as a separated piece of yourself still held that immortal thread - there was no danger in losing it - but the big job was now on you in the body form. As a baby who couldn't walk or talk, the process of growing up was slow but your infinite self remained tethered like a balloon. There was no way to detach it because it IS you. And it is there waiting for you to "remember" it and invite it to flow downward more strongly.

Before you came into a human body, you were at peace in the summerland of the infinite. You've had many incarnations and gained many lessons, accrued much wisdom and knowledge as a unique consciouisness. But when you decided to be born again and take a new human body, you sent a piece of yourself to earth and caused a split in your consciousness. You have a spiritual consciousness and an earth-bound consciousness. Your job is to reconnect the two sides of yourself through, once again, a long life of trial and error.

There is a process to reconnecting the two polarities of self. The process of reconnection is following the inner thread. The inner spark or memory. Remembering who you are underneath the thick and abrasive skin of human form requires that you FEEL what is natural to you. This process is lost in the earth-bound ones. The technique has been consistently taught and passed down through the ages as love. Remembering who you are requires loving yourself as a flawed human being, warts and all. Fat and all. Wrinkles and all, emotional dumps, mental beatings and spiritual disasters, one and all. Love is the plan. If you can love yourself and stay positive through all of the misfortunes and ups and downs, and continue to forgive yourself and others, that's the path to reconnection with yourself.

That was the plan anyway. Most of us have not succeeded very well, but the good news is - it's not our fault and we should be kind to ourselves and forgive ourselves for not suceeding. You see, there was ANOTHER plan that superceded the original plan, and that was free will. We human beings were given free will to do anything we wanted to do while here on earth, because Mother Earth was chosen to be the home for a special test project of the creator. The test was a challenge. It was to find out if, in a world of vast diversity such as caused by free will, could human beings find their other half again and become whole? Could they remember and reconnect their masculine abstract self - we call it Father Sky - with their feminine called Mother Earth?  

With free will in place, all sorts of souls came to Earth to play the test game of free will. We all had choices from the very beginning. Each of us knew what kind of world we were being born into. We carefully chose our parents, just as we would choose chess partners. And we scripted our lives out before even being born. We had many lifetimes before this one. And once again we entered into this life feeling confident we could remember who we were and make the grade. We each know on inner levels that we are spirit and that intelligence does not have a gender. It is pure abstract consciousness. But the human body is animal and there are two genders in animals, each with different body parts - one male, the other female. And we forget. We are born as human animals. In the animal kingdom there are magnetic attractions. There is chemistry. There are tugs and pulls between genders.  So the question is, can we remember our spiritual thread of Oneness and reconnect with it? Can we recall our purity? Our pure abstract intelligence that moves through animal bodies?

The spiritual path is one of becoming transpersonal. That means moving beyond the limits of personal identity. One does this through brutal honesty, brutal open-mindedness and brutal self-awareness. Not by self-deprivation but by self-fulfillment. Soul-fulfillment through self-love. Self means soul.

It is through remembering ones own FEELINGS of love moving through the animal body, the physical body, that one reconnects the divine thread.  It is the feeling of love moving that connects us. We are meant to remember our divinity while living in animal bodies. We then transcend the animal nature and become god-men and god women - the pure consciousness living in human bodies, walking on earth, smelling the sea breezes, eating the wonderful foods of Gaia. The haunting search for something unnameable is the supernatural feeling of divine love moving through human skin, muscle, blood and bone. It is coming very soon. We are on the verge of discovering it within our own bodies. 

Ancient rituals and practices have been given to us to follow when we hear the calling to take a step onto the path. Spiritual technology is the path of self love, meaning soul love. The goal is to bring the downward flow and upward flow back into balance equally, so that we experience the joining and the reconnection of our masculine and our feminine into oneness. This is how it was before we descended into the many lifetimes that have distracted us and taken us on detours away from ourselves deep into further separation.  The plan is to reconnect what was once whole while we are still living in a physical body. We can do this inside our physical skin so there is peace, harmony, clarity, expansion of consciousness and a gentle flow without separation.

Diversionary tactics were put in place long ago to tempt us away from soul love. Religions have been the worse. Sin, shame, guilt and fear - all of these take place just above the root chakra at the second chakra. The upward flow of purity comes up through the legs, drawn to the downward flow from above the head, but it is blocked at between the first and second chakra (between the tailbone and womb, male and female genitals).  There it gathers, diverted, stopped, halted in its upward flow because of the animal nature in heat. Animals in the wild seek a partner because it is in their nature to reproduce. The soul who comes into a human body inherits this same animal nature. However, the soul is spirit-made. It comes from spirit. It has a haunting memory of something higher than animal. Its search is to discover what that something is. It has forgotten. It must find out.

The soul uses sex for as long as it takes to find out what it is seeking. Meanwhile, a whole lot of damage is done by those people who are unbalanced with too much masculine force, who are aggressively trying to attain something, and who put the pressure on those who are unbalanced with more feminine force, who are feeling inwardly for the same thing. Each is trying to find the spiritual thread of oneness connection, which will bring peace, love, harmony and balance to the inner male and female which hungers for it but which another person can never fulfill.

Once balance is achieved through inner love-for-soul practices like mediation, yoga, chanting, or in whatever form a person is called to do, and inner peace fills him or her, then sex does not hold the same attraction. A  new stage is reached. A higher experience of love-in-body awaits the person who has achieved inner peace through the Father God - Mother God connection. Being at peace, comfort, clarity and joy within oneself, should that person meet another person who is also at peace, comfort, clarity and joy, driven by spiritual rapport, not hunger, appetite or pleasure-seeking, then the two are drawn by grace into a greater love than they've ever known. 

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1/16/19 - Today I launched the Galactic page on Anakosha. I decided to do that today because it's the next step in our evolution learning about love. I will introduce information about the Galactic Federation of Light, a long-standing interest of mine, which includes ascended masters, celestial beings, angelics and the entire company of heaven which goes further up into the light than we can handle right now. But we are getting there. 

The reason I'm introducing the Galactics is because  it's the next step in MY exploration of love. I just finished launching the goddess gatherings, and suddenly the Galactics are a "must" looming largely on the horizon. The discussion of ETs, et al, can't remain outside the box because they are here with love in their hearts, right now, on the ground with us as, well as in the air above us, though they are keeping a low profile.  They embody Love with a capital L and it is selfless. If you see someone in the supermarket and you feel like hugging them, they may be an ET. They have an aura of calmness and peace. They are here to help us in surrendering our guilt to a greater trust in love. To love on a galactic scale. 

The women's movement is an empowering of FEMININE truth. Men have feminine in them too so it's not just for women. But it is mostly women who are starting to speak the inner truth. Men are not quite ready for it yet. Feminine truth is heart-centered, innate and connected to a greater love, a galactic-sized love. Women's truth has been buried for eons due to the heavy hand of the patriarchy and its approach to life, which reduces the complexity of life, such as sensitivity and emotions, to interactions on the physical plane. Higher civilizations don't do that. Higher civilizations are multi-dimensional and honor the emotions.

Most people today believe ETs exist, although perhaps secretly, and have been here for a long time. In fact, they are not visitors at all. They are our brothers and sisters. They just weren't born into the physical and don't walk in earth skins like we do. The fear-mongers of our race love to scare us with movies of monsters from outer space, but I and others know differently. Higher dimensions are physical like us but they are not dense like us. They can shift time lines and energy lines. They are not weighed down by fear, distrust and psychological smog that we were programmed with. ET's live in harmony and obey universal laws which are based in fact, not fiction. They have learned to live with other ET's from other civilizations who might look different, but they honor them and work side by side with them. And they form the Galactic Federation of Light, here now in fleets of uncountable numbers of ships. 

They are beaming love and light to us consistently, daily, guiding us with telepathic messages of peace, good will, and advice when we ask. They do not force themselves on us the way we do to each other. As we grow in understanding about the extraterrestrials, we will grow in our ability to love ourselves and honor each other. It will help us to live in more harmony and peace with our families, neighbors and associates. Life will get better and better, arguments will cease, frustrations will disappear, cheating and betrayal will stop, transparency will take its place and we will be fulfilled. We will become liberated of that which disappoints us. All because love is ready to expand out of the box - out of the ivory tower of our brains. Our job is to simply remain open-minded and wait for it and love everything that pops up in front of us.  complex things by reducing them to the interactions of their parts, or to simpler or more fundamental things.

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1/14/19 -  Yes, we held the Goddess Gathering on January 7, 2019. I will report on it a bit later. I am still unsettled and processing what I learned. As I shift focus to the feminine and spirituality, I am researching my journals to try to find hints of advice from the Master DK, who I have been channeling for over 40 years. I found an entry in April 2015 where I asked a serious question and received  a serious answer. I am posting it here because it is relevant to virtually everyone.

"The man-woman issues that you experience and continue to experience are actually an inner journey as you seek understanding about yourself. You learn through bumping up against what is NOT comfortable to you. You play with this for awhile, struggling with it, and if you are successful in accepting that this really is not what you want (some people never discover this) then you will shed it and not do it again. Of course the evolutionary journey is about discovering this process in a kindly way so that you do not hurt other people in the process. So when you reject them you find ways to let them down easily. This is the hard part. But what you are learning about yourself is what doesn’t fit comfortably with you, and what does.

What doesn’t feel right to you? Do you continue to hash it around and try to make it work? This prolongs the pain and the struggle. What feels good to you on all levels, will cause elation and joy. If it feels good on only one level but not the other two or three levels, It does not cause elation, but rather a sense of a pulling towards something as if that something will give you completion. For example, a piece of chocolate cake might taste good to your tongue, but your mind knows it is wrong for your diet and your feeling causes a feeling of guilt. The man-woman issues are the bumping up against energies of other people, to show you that there are many energies that exist in your life and it is a matter of selecting those energies that complete you and fulfill you, rather than trying to “make” something fit when it doesn’t fit you at all. Like a dress two sizes too small just won’t give you a good feeling.

The man-woman issues are a journey in self discovery but many people do not give themselves enough credit to believe their inner intuition. They may have a gut feeling that this person is not right for them, but they try to make it work because they don’t believe their feeling. They believe MORE in being courteous and trying to fit in. This is being dishonest to yourself when you do this. It is damaging not only to yourself but to the other people you are engaging with because they too are not feeling comfortable. If you’re not feeling good about the connection, then they are not feeling good about the connection. Elation and a joyful happy feeling is always the sign that you are doing the right thing.

The man-woman issues and struggles that you have pertaining to sex is your path of learning about what fits with you and what doesn’t. The discovery part is what doesn’t fit. Trust that and release it and let it go. You will move on when you become consciously aware of this. To remain unwilling to accept this is how you remain in the struggle. Evolve your awareness by trusting your sense of good and bad. By discovering what makes you feel bad and releasing it or taking steps to release it (it may take time) you are discovering the truth of your inner self. It is a discovery of awareness. it is not an outer world discovery. The outer world presents things to you one at a time. As if on parade, these things and people come into your view. It is up to you to say “yes” or “no” to these persons and objects. You must decide what doesn’t fit with you. As you eliminate the not-self, you will be left with your authentic self. Your real self. That which is what has been called “the Knower”. This is the part of you that is eternal and lives on after death of the body to live again in another body, all the while gathering wisdom and understanding. 
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