Anakosha
Awakening the divine feminine - The Heart is the New Baseline
Goddess
4/8/21 The New Race of the Awakened Feminine & Masculine
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When the Awakened Masculine meets the true, Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention. The Awakened , Whole , Consciousness Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths.
The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul. But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role.
When the Masculine meets the conscious Feminine vibration, it instantly realizes what is needed. The Masculine energy is stirred deeply and feels a pull on the Soul strings of his lost, dry, and forgotten heart. He realizes that although it is easy to lose himself in the glorious shakti sway of her body and the warmth of her sacred eyes, in order to stand next to her as a totem of Divine Masculine strength he must rise up in his own life.Her spiritual energy will cause his own to wake up to itself.
He will become quickly aware that it will not be enough to lazily get what he wants and leave. He will recognize that even if he enters into a relationship with her, that her trust in him will not deepen unless he starts seriously showing up in his own life – and begins to rise like a phoenix towards his Full Purpose. Her awakened energy will not tolerate the spiritually-sleepy Masculine tendencies towards laziness, denial, avoidance, staying in comfort zones, procrastination, cowardice and over-reliance on quick fixes and instant gratification.
Her sacred energy will pull him up out of his coma and avoidance tactics, so that he feels on a visceral level just how potent and transformational loving her could be. He will also feel how loving her – and being a recipient of the healing codes in her body – instigates a firing of the neurons and electrical transmitters in his system, sparking him into awareness of just how much of a man he is required to evolve into.
He realizes that she is the greatest gift that has ever crossed his path. He realizes that he may never have another opportunity like this one to be supported in becoming the best version of himself possible. He is aware that there is no other woman on the planet who could love him like this, and fire up his energy centers into creating the Divine Purpose he has always wanted to live, but has always been too scared to fully commit to.
It is his decision whether or not he is brave enough to take the challenge of loving, and standing next to, a woman who has claimed her place as a sacred Feminine warrior and holy chalice of love. It is really his decision in many ways, because although she will be the one to decide whether or not she wishes to see him again, or let him into her world – she is always doing that based on the quality of truth, assurance, purposefulness and willingness that she receives from him.
When his Higher Self brings him to a Whole Woman, he must sit and contemplate, in order to realize that he has chosen this meeting – because a significant part of him is ready to ascend into being a Whole Man. This is a huge deal, because he most likely has not had any role models of this evolved male energy in his life. He doesn’t have to be faultless, a know-it-all, flashy, or movie star good-looking. He only has to nurture that spark within his precious Masculine heart that wants to be the best man he can be. He only has to be willing and humble enough to learn from the Feminine, listen to her responses to his actions, and realize that she is the Divine Oracle for him, showing him where he needs to pull himself up. His Soul really only wants to declare something like this:
“I want to bathe in the sweet, sacred radiance of your eternal Light for the rest of my days, and remember daily what a gift you are to my Soul. I want you to be the Sacred Mirror on all the ways that I sabotage myself, deny myself, restrict myself and ‘flunk out’ on myself. I want to hear that you trust me. I want to show you that your trust is well-judged, and that I realize how your ability to trust me makes a difference in how deeply you can open your body and heart when we are together. I want to walk into brave new territories, risking rejection and even failure so that your trust in me soars, like a bird in flight. I realize that your sexual attraction to me increases exponentially every time I take a risk to rise into my Divine Masculine power and purpose.
"I want to be a pioneer of a new movement of conscious, evolving, willing and open-hearted males, defying the old paradigms and awake enough to walk beside women who are changing the world forever. I might not remember any of this, much of the time, and I may stumble, fall, collapse or sometimes fail at it. I want only to remember that my willingness to live my Sacred Truth, and my desire to do everything I can to earn your trust, are enough. I want only to remember that if I shut down my heart at the first hint of truth that comes from your mouth, your body language, your expressions – I will not win this game. I want to only remember that you cannot be expected to ‘mother’ me into being a grown-up (if I want to have a sexually vital and transformative love life). I do not want you to be my mother.”
We need manifestors for men of the Light to follow now, because it is vital that they stand up and realize their true worth and value in the advancing New Age. Awake Women do not want to batter men, criticize them, punish them, or shut their hearts and bodies down to them. Whole Women WANT men: their unwavering hard presence, their rock solid actions, their warrior hearts, their dynamic, pursuing energy.
Many Men of the Light are choosing to cross paths with soul-embodied women now. This is because their own Soul recognizes that it is time to rise up into Purpose, and the desire to connect with the embodied Sacred Feminine will ignite that Purpose. A woman who is on the path of Light will not settle for any man, no matter how deeply she has longed for the masculine presence. She has no desire nor energy to rescue, mother, nag or coach a man into loving her. Yet the awakened woman carries more compassion, more unconditional love, more ability to support and nurture, more generosity and more sexual power than any other. There are limitless, never-ending, eternally-abundant rewards for any man who is courageous enough to risk his heart and life purpose for such a female.
This is the time of the emergent Divine Masculine presence stepping up to the edge and committing to live from there, rising up to support and protect the Sacred Feminine Mission of Global Awakening.
Via the beautiful Order of the Star FB page
Source
When the Awakened Masculine meets the true, Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention. The Awakened , Whole , Consciousness Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths.
The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul. But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role.
When the Masculine meets the conscious Feminine vibration, it instantly realizes what is needed. The Masculine energy is stirred deeply and feels a pull on the Soul strings of his lost, dry, and forgotten heart. He realizes that although it is easy to lose himself in the glorious shakti sway of her body and the warmth of her sacred eyes, in order to stand next to her as a totem of Divine Masculine strength he must rise up in his own life.Her spiritual energy will cause his own to wake up to itself.
He will become quickly aware that it will not be enough to lazily get what he wants and leave. He will recognize that even if he enters into a relationship with her, that her trust in him will not deepen unless he starts seriously showing up in his own life – and begins to rise like a phoenix towards his Full Purpose. Her awakened energy will not tolerate the spiritually-sleepy Masculine tendencies towards laziness, denial, avoidance, staying in comfort zones, procrastination, cowardice and over-reliance on quick fixes and instant gratification.
Her sacred energy will pull him up out of his coma and avoidance tactics, so that he feels on a visceral level just how potent and transformational loving her could be. He will also feel how loving her – and being a recipient of the healing codes in her body – instigates a firing of the neurons and electrical transmitters in his system, sparking him into awareness of just how much of a man he is required to evolve into.
He realizes that she is the greatest gift that has ever crossed his path. He realizes that he may never have another opportunity like this one to be supported in becoming the best version of himself possible. He is aware that there is no other woman on the planet who could love him like this, and fire up his energy centers into creating the Divine Purpose he has always wanted to live, but has always been too scared to fully commit to.
It is his decision whether or not he is brave enough to take the challenge of loving, and standing next to, a woman who has claimed her place as a sacred Feminine warrior and holy chalice of love. It is really his decision in many ways, because although she will be the one to decide whether or not she wishes to see him again, or let him into her world – she is always doing that based on the quality of truth, assurance, purposefulness and willingness that she receives from him.
When his Higher Self brings him to a Whole Woman, he must sit and contemplate, in order to realize that he has chosen this meeting – because a significant part of him is ready to ascend into being a Whole Man. This is a huge deal, because he most likely has not had any role models of this evolved male energy in his life. He doesn’t have to be faultless, a know-it-all, flashy, or movie star good-looking. He only has to nurture that spark within his precious Masculine heart that wants to be the best man he can be. He only has to be willing and humble enough to learn from the Feminine, listen to her responses to his actions, and realize that she is the Divine Oracle for him, showing him where he needs to pull himself up. His Soul really only wants to declare something like this:
“I want to bathe in the sweet, sacred radiance of your eternal Light for the rest of my days, and remember daily what a gift you are to my Soul. I want you to be the Sacred Mirror on all the ways that I sabotage myself, deny myself, restrict myself and ‘flunk out’ on myself. I want to hear that you trust me. I want to show you that your trust is well-judged, and that I realize how your ability to trust me makes a difference in how deeply you can open your body and heart when we are together. I want to walk into brave new territories, risking rejection and even failure so that your trust in me soars, like a bird in flight. I realize that your sexual attraction to me increases exponentially every time I take a risk to rise into my Divine Masculine power and purpose.
"I want to be a pioneer of a new movement of conscious, evolving, willing and open-hearted males, defying the old paradigms and awake enough to walk beside women who are changing the world forever. I might not remember any of this, much of the time, and I may stumble, fall, collapse or sometimes fail at it. I want only to remember that my willingness to live my Sacred Truth, and my desire to do everything I can to earn your trust, are enough. I want only to remember that if I shut down my heart at the first hint of truth that comes from your mouth, your body language, your expressions – I will not win this game. I want to only remember that you cannot be expected to ‘mother’ me into being a grown-up (if I want to have a sexually vital and transformative love life). I do not want you to be my mother.”
We need manifestors for men of the Light to follow now, because it is vital that they stand up and realize their true worth and value in the advancing New Age. Awake Women do not want to batter men, criticize them, punish them, or shut their hearts and bodies down to them. Whole Women WANT men: their unwavering hard presence, their rock solid actions, their warrior hearts, their dynamic, pursuing energy.
Many Men of the Light are choosing to cross paths with soul-embodied women now. This is because their own Soul recognizes that it is time to rise up into Purpose, and the desire to connect with the embodied Sacred Feminine will ignite that Purpose. A woman who is on the path of Light will not settle for any man, no matter how deeply she has longed for the masculine presence. She has no desire nor energy to rescue, mother, nag or coach a man into loving her. Yet the awakened woman carries more compassion, more unconditional love, more ability to support and nurture, more generosity and more sexual power than any other. There are limitless, never-ending, eternally-abundant rewards for any man who is courageous enough to risk his heart and life purpose for such a female.
This is the time of the emergent Divine Masculine presence stepping up to the edge and committing to live from there, rising up to support and protect the Sacred Feminine Mission of Global Awakening.
Via the beautiful Order of the Star FB page
12/20/20 Shocking news!
Feminine and masculine are two energies in one body circling each other. Two operating systems. Two ways of functioning. One is active, action-oriented, assertive, controlling, aggressive, stubborn and stuck in the belief that the physical body is all there is. The other operating system is open to universal mind, to goodness, light, love, unity, peace, purity, intelligence, truth and knows that human beings change and evolve. The average human being is operating on one or the other system. Men tend to operate on the first system, which is masculine. Women tend to operate on the second operating system. The feminine side of both genders has been dismanteled, which has allowed for the stubborn assertive egotistical side of humans to be in control. This has led to mankind being unhinged and unbalanced. The divine ingredient is missing. The awakening of the divine feminine is taking place now by decree from heaven and universal law. The time is 2020 preparing for 2021. Everyone is going through changes and the stubborn egotistical side of us, the old patriarchal stubborn masculine (in everybody), is being confronted. This page highlights what feminine traits look like. This is especially for men, but also for women too. It is not a war between genders. The divine feminie means to stop resisting. Let in some open-hearted, loving concern for those you think are your enemy. And situations that you think are wrong. Instead of debating the issue, be the bigger person. Give it up, turn it over to your gentle side, your feminien side. Lend an open ear, a quietude, compassion, tolerance, forgiveness.
No matter the gender, the mind is divided. It's anatomical. The brain is physical. There is nothing good nor bad in the universe, but thinking makes it so, and men are such thinkers! Yet men are as much feminine as masculine, and women are as much masculine as feminine. Both genders have been over-thinking and not utilizing the beautiful divine feminine qualities which would unify the world and bring peace to our communities. The right brain is one full half of the physical brain, yet the left brain has become dominant in the world for eons. This has placed men in the position of power and control, yet every woman has the capacity to think, while every man has the capacity to relax and be in touch with the heavens and the stars as women do. The right brain has been allowed to weaken and become severely damaged. This has disempowered the human species for power comes form the universe where everything is connected in harmony.
It is time that the human being integrated the left brain with its right brain. Understanding what the left brain is designed for is essential in order to bring about wholeness in all areas of life. The left brain is designed for conscious thinking, analyzing, speaking, calculating, designing and controlling one's path through life. The right brain is designed to be open, receptive and connected to spirit and the greater heavens, which operate with precision, harmony, unity and balance. Because we have under-used our right brain, the feminine side of ourselves, the humans on this planet have lost their way. The only solution is to begin to understand: your right brain receives messages from the stars. You must take time out to listen.
The right brain is our divine feminine side, the left brain when it is fully integrated with the right brain, becomes our divine masculine side. The human male becomes more powerful when he takes time out to nourish his feminine side. The human male is in chaos right now because he thinks everyone is out to get him. He has lost his dignity, his pride, his ability to stand tall, straight, truthful, peaceful and free, because his own feminine side is weak. He must learn to strengthen his tender, emotional, vulnerable side, by listening and developing faith, reverence and love for his higher God-self. He has become detached, severed from his own wholeness. He has become too focused on the outer world of details and who is right and who is wrong, and how can he fix it. He cannot. He does not have the power to fix anything until he fixes himself.
Likewise, women have lost their connection to the stars when they have allowed their masculine side to wither, weaken and disappear. She who follows after a man because her mother did, allows that man to be her controller under the guise of being her protector. She has lost her sovereignty - her ability to think for herself. She must activate her left brain. This can be done quietly, on inner planes, by intention alone. Simply say, "I am activating my left brain." Or vice versa, in the case of a man, saying "I am activating my right brain." A quiet inner intention can become a daily, hourly mantra which feeds information into the brain. Then, saying "I am becoming whole brained." Imagine the right brain and left brain talking to each other. Imagine energy fluctuations moving back and forth, left to right. Feel the third eye waking up in the area of the pineal gland and pituitary gland behind the eyes.
They are meant to work together as a whole, not divided into two camps which have become enemies. The right brain receives divine instructions (now defunct) while the left brain works itself to death. The human being is designed to live happily, progressively, abundantly and peacefully a long fulfilling life. But to do so the divine feminine and divine masculine must integrate and become one person. The brain is meant to be a whole brain, not divided into two separate camps. With the left brain being so overly busy, the right brain is severely damaged and unable to function in both men and women
In the dawning of this new age, the divine feminine is intervening on our behalf by stimulating the right brain in humanity everywhere. This is a shock to the status quo. Rebellion and protests are taking place but it will soon pass as one by one, individuals will begin the integration process and link in to cosmic forces of unity and peace. We are changing our ways as a species. We have been accustomed to recycling the same problems over and over, to re-experience them in a different form. The divine guidance from spirit is: relax more, practice yoga, meditation, spiritual disciplines, listen to gentle music, alternatingly with your busy schedule.
A good practice for today is, whenever a situation arises that is disturbing, alternate looking through feminine eyes and then switch and look through masculine eyes. Say out loud, "Right brain!" or "Left brain" to make the switch consciously. A man becomes a whole man when he embraces his feminine side. A woman becomes a whole woman when she activates her masculine side. As more balance is restored, a sense of peace takes place and a feeling of being on top of things and in control. Not just men, but women too. Each human being is meant to be in control of their own life. Stop dismissing something that annoys. Instead, embrace it and consider it through the right brain, or consider it through the left brain. Bring them both into play. No one can do this but you. There is no authority but your Self - your whole Self. When the mind is divided, the body is divided and the soul is confused. Stop being divided. Reintegrate your inner female and your inner male. Be busy but rest periodically. Put a rhythm into your calendar. When it is time to rest, say "Right brain, take over." It is time to meditate. Take the shoes from off your feet and assume a humble pose. Talk to your higher self, tell it your woes and problems, and be still and listen in silence and respect. Feel the peace that comes. When it is time to go back to work, say "Left brain!" And return to the business of the day.
Feminine and masculine are two energies in one body circling each other. Two operating systems. Two ways of functioning. One is active, action-oriented, assertive, controlling, aggressive, stubborn and stuck in the belief that the physical body is all there is. The other operating system is open to universal mind, to goodness, light, love, unity, peace, purity, intelligence, truth and knows that human beings change and evolve. The average human being is operating on one or the other system. Men tend to operate on the first system, which is masculine. Women tend to operate on the second operating system. The feminine side of both genders has been dismanteled, which has allowed for the stubborn assertive egotistical side of humans to be in control. This has led to mankind being unhinged and unbalanced. The divine ingredient is missing. The awakening of the divine feminine is taking place now by decree from heaven and universal law. The time is 2020 preparing for 2021. Everyone is going through changes and the stubborn egotistical side of us, the old patriarchal stubborn masculine (in everybody), is being confronted. This page highlights what feminine traits look like. This is especially for men, but also for women too. It is not a war between genders. The divine feminie means to stop resisting. Let in some open-hearted, loving concern for those you think are your enemy. And situations that you think are wrong. Instead of debating the issue, be the bigger person. Give it up, turn it over to your gentle side, your feminien side. Lend an open ear, a quietude, compassion, tolerance, forgiveness.
No matter the gender, the mind is divided. It's anatomical. The brain is physical. There is nothing good nor bad in the universe, but thinking makes it so, and men are such thinkers! Yet men are as much feminine as masculine, and women are as much masculine as feminine. Both genders have been over-thinking and not utilizing the beautiful divine feminine qualities which would unify the world and bring peace to our communities. The right brain is one full half of the physical brain, yet the left brain has become dominant in the world for eons. This has placed men in the position of power and control, yet every woman has the capacity to think, while every man has the capacity to relax and be in touch with the heavens and the stars as women do. The right brain has been allowed to weaken and become severely damaged. This has disempowered the human species for power comes form the universe where everything is connected in harmony.
It is time that the human being integrated the left brain with its right brain. Understanding what the left brain is designed for is essential in order to bring about wholeness in all areas of life. The left brain is designed for conscious thinking, analyzing, speaking, calculating, designing and controlling one's path through life. The right brain is designed to be open, receptive and connected to spirit and the greater heavens, which operate with precision, harmony, unity and balance. Because we have under-used our right brain, the feminine side of ourselves, the humans on this planet have lost their way. The only solution is to begin to understand: your right brain receives messages from the stars. You must take time out to listen.
The right brain is our divine feminine side, the left brain when it is fully integrated with the right brain, becomes our divine masculine side. The human male becomes more powerful when he takes time out to nourish his feminine side. The human male is in chaos right now because he thinks everyone is out to get him. He has lost his dignity, his pride, his ability to stand tall, straight, truthful, peaceful and free, because his own feminine side is weak. He must learn to strengthen his tender, emotional, vulnerable side, by listening and developing faith, reverence and love for his higher God-self. He has become detached, severed from his own wholeness. He has become too focused on the outer world of details and who is right and who is wrong, and how can he fix it. He cannot. He does not have the power to fix anything until he fixes himself.
Likewise, women have lost their connection to the stars when they have allowed their masculine side to wither, weaken and disappear. She who follows after a man because her mother did, allows that man to be her controller under the guise of being her protector. She has lost her sovereignty - her ability to think for herself. She must activate her left brain. This can be done quietly, on inner planes, by intention alone. Simply say, "I am activating my left brain." Or vice versa, in the case of a man, saying "I am activating my right brain." A quiet inner intention can become a daily, hourly mantra which feeds information into the brain. Then, saying "I am becoming whole brained." Imagine the right brain and left brain talking to each other. Imagine energy fluctuations moving back and forth, left to right. Feel the third eye waking up in the area of the pineal gland and pituitary gland behind the eyes.
They are meant to work together as a whole, not divided into two camps which have become enemies. The right brain receives divine instructions (now defunct) while the left brain works itself to death. The human being is designed to live happily, progressively, abundantly and peacefully a long fulfilling life. But to do so the divine feminine and divine masculine must integrate and become one person. The brain is meant to be a whole brain, not divided into two separate camps. With the left brain being so overly busy, the right brain is severely damaged and unable to function in both men and women
In the dawning of this new age, the divine feminine is intervening on our behalf by stimulating the right brain in humanity everywhere. This is a shock to the status quo. Rebellion and protests are taking place but it will soon pass as one by one, individuals will begin the integration process and link in to cosmic forces of unity and peace. We are changing our ways as a species. We have been accustomed to recycling the same problems over and over, to re-experience them in a different form. The divine guidance from spirit is: relax more, practice yoga, meditation, spiritual disciplines, listen to gentle music, alternatingly with your busy schedule.
A good practice for today is, whenever a situation arises that is disturbing, alternate looking through feminine eyes and then switch and look through masculine eyes. Say out loud, "Right brain!" or "Left brain" to make the switch consciously. A man becomes a whole man when he embraces his feminine side. A woman becomes a whole woman when she activates her masculine side. As more balance is restored, a sense of peace takes place and a feeling of being on top of things and in control. Not just men, but women too. Each human being is meant to be in control of their own life. Stop dismissing something that annoys. Instead, embrace it and consider it through the right brain, or consider it through the left brain. Bring them both into play. No one can do this but you. There is no authority but your Self - your whole Self. When the mind is divided, the body is divided and the soul is confused. Stop being divided. Reintegrate your inner female and your inner male. Be busy but rest periodically. Put a rhythm into your calendar. When it is time to rest, say "Right brain, take over." It is time to meditate. Take the shoes from off your feet and assume a humble pose. Talk to your higher self, tell it your woes and problems, and be still and listen in silence and respect. Feel the peace that comes. When it is time to go back to work, say "Left brain!" And return to the business of the day.
9/20/20 - I Look to the Sun
I look to the sun. I look to the sun always. I look to the sun first upon awakening, even before opening my eyes as I lie in bed in first consciousness. And all through the day I periodically look up at the sun and watch it on its movement across the sky until it sinks below the horizon at night. At dusk I go out and feel the change in the air. All day I am aware of the sun and I try to absorb as much of this conscious light as I can, for it keeps my hope alive through the night, knowing it will be there again in the morning.
I look to the sun because the church has taken away my hope, and so I have turned my back on the church to look for hope elsewhere. I looked for a better place in which to put my trust and I chose the sun because it is life-giving and does not deal in death. It is warm, not cold. It is natural, not unnatural. It is peaceful, not in conflict. It is stillness, not pushy. It is innocent and does not judge. It strengthens me, does not diminish me. It gives happiness, not guilt. It ives freedom, not bondage. It gives expansiveness, not restriction. It is alive, not dead. It gives life to me, it does not take it away. I am of the earth. It feeds me with life every day.
Because I have turned my back on the church and looked to the sun, by accident I stumbled upon a great truth, greater than the churches and greater than the saints, the angels and the ascendeds. I have seen God in the Sun, and I have heard him speak. He speaks to my soul, not to my mind. His rays bathe me in innocence, cleansing me as I stand alone in the pasture. He talks to me through the sounds of the trees and the grasses and the winds. My eyes have seen the rays coming up from the earth. I hear the blades of grass whispering to each other and the waters as they play and the fires as they dance. All of nature comes alive when the sun speaks to me because I am from the sun and I know that it, too, is alive and watching me and enjoys the earth through me. I am one with the sun. So long as the sun is beating down upon me I know that I am alive and well and there is hope. No one can take that away from me. I see that I have a glowing ember of the sun in my breast. It is like an inner light that flows like a river of fire through my arteries and veins, and I am lifted up whenever I think of it.
There are errors throughout the day and I forget. But when I think of the sun, it erases the errors. When people pass me by and I feel their hopelessness, I think of the sun it washes the hopelessness away, shatters the depression and returns me its warm goodness again. I just have to remember. I write this now while I'm awake and aware, but later today I will be a normal human mind embedded in normal human things. But I have learned a great secret. The sun is both my father and my mother. I look to the sun for miracles. It fills the void created by those who thought they knew everything but who put me down. The sun raises me up. The sun is the ideal father who guides me with wisdom and enfolds me in his arms with love beyond measure. The sun knows I have more to learn and it helps me to grow. It overlooks my errors the way a gardener overlooks a weak vine. It does not see sin. It makes no judgment. It does not need my promises to "be good".
And as my father is the sun, so my mother is the earth. My father plays with her, empowers her, impassions her, impregnates her with a lust for life that is more powerful than the humans and animals who live on her. Their offspring is the fertile soil, the tender grass, the volcanic fire, the roaring waters, the whispering firs, the hard stone, the soft sand, the colored flowers, the minerals, the herbs - and me. I am a creation of the earth and just as pure as these things. My body is pure. My mind is pure. My soul is pure. The past is washed away when I stand in the rays of the sun and reach up with my mind.
And at night when the sun is gone I stand on my back porch and look to the stars and I see not one but millions of suns. This array of suns assures me that I am not wrong in the placement of my faith. The stars nurture me at night with the same light to remind me that there is light always, and there is hope and reason and an order that defies the limits of humankind. It is an intelligent universe and I am reassured of my identity and my place within it. It is holy ground that I walk on and I feel the worship rise in me. (Diana 4/1/91)
I look to the sun. I look to the sun always. I look to the sun first upon awakening, even before opening my eyes as I lie in bed in first consciousness. And all through the day I periodically look up at the sun and watch it on its movement across the sky until it sinks below the horizon at night. At dusk I go out and feel the change in the air. All day I am aware of the sun and I try to absorb as much of this conscious light as I can, for it keeps my hope alive through the night, knowing it will be there again in the morning.
I look to the sun because the church has taken away my hope, and so I have turned my back on the church to look for hope elsewhere. I looked for a better place in which to put my trust and I chose the sun because it is life-giving and does not deal in death. It is warm, not cold. It is natural, not unnatural. It is peaceful, not in conflict. It is stillness, not pushy. It is innocent and does not judge. It strengthens me, does not diminish me. It gives happiness, not guilt. It ives freedom, not bondage. It gives expansiveness, not restriction. It is alive, not dead. It gives life to me, it does not take it away. I am of the earth. It feeds me with life every day.
Because I have turned my back on the church and looked to the sun, by accident I stumbled upon a great truth, greater than the churches and greater than the saints, the angels and the ascendeds. I have seen God in the Sun, and I have heard him speak. He speaks to my soul, not to my mind. His rays bathe me in innocence, cleansing me as I stand alone in the pasture. He talks to me through the sounds of the trees and the grasses and the winds. My eyes have seen the rays coming up from the earth. I hear the blades of grass whispering to each other and the waters as they play and the fires as they dance. All of nature comes alive when the sun speaks to me because I am from the sun and I know that it, too, is alive and watching me and enjoys the earth through me. I am one with the sun. So long as the sun is beating down upon me I know that I am alive and well and there is hope. No one can take that away from me. I see that I have a glowing ember of the sun in my breast. It is like an inner light that flows like a river of fire through my arteries and veins, and I am lifted up whenever I think of it.
There are errors throughout the day and I forget. But when I think of the sun, it erases the errors. When people pass me by and I feel their hopelessness, I think of the sun it washes the hopelessness away, shatters the depression and returns me its warm goodness again. I just have to remember. I write this now while I'm awake and aware, but later today I will be a normal human mind embedded in normal human things. But I have learned a great secret. The sun is both my father and my mother. I look to the sun for miracles. It fills the void created by those who thought they knew everything but who put me down. The sun raises me up. The sun is the ideal father who guides me with wisdom and enfolds me in his arms with love beyond measure. The sun knows I have more to learn and it helps me to grow. It overlooks my errors the way a gardener overlooks a weak vine. It does not see sin. It makes no judgment. It does not need my promises to "be good".
And as my father is the sun, so my mother is the earth. My father plays with her, empowers her, impassions her, impregnates her with a lust for life that is more powerful than the humans and animals who live on her. Their offspring is the fertile soil, the tender grass, the volcanic fire, the roaring waters, the whispering firs, the hard stone, the soft sand, the colored flowers, the minerals, the herbs - and me. I am a creation of the earth and just as pure as these things. My body is pure. My mind is pure. My soul is pure. The past is washed away when I stand in the rays of the sun and reach up with my mind.
And at night when the sun is gone I stand on my back porch and look to the stars and I see not one but millions of suns. This array of suns assures me that I am not wrong in the placement of my faith. The stars nurture me at night with the same light to remind me that there is light always, and there is hope and reason and an order that defies the limits of humankind. It is an intelligent universe and I am reassured of my identity and my place within it. It is holy ground that I walk on and I feel the worship rise in me. (Diana 4/1/91)