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The heart is the new baseline
The heart is the new baseline
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6/10/21 - Video - 5th Dimensional Love by Solara An-Ra
20 minute video
Solaro An-Ra channels Pleiadian 5th dimensional love to a group on one of her tours to Egypt. This is an excellent portrayal of feminine love as taught by the Pleiadians who are 5th dimensional. Solara An-Ra is an emissary to the Pleiadians. She holds spiritual retreats at her center in Ibiza, an island off the coast of Spain. Check out her website: solara.org.uk. She teaches meditation, energy and pranayama (breath) techniques that form the basis of spiritual connection and inner peace. Solara, together with her guides, has taught these essential skills for many years. Casa Solara Ibiza. This video is titled "Pleiadian Tantra Intro - part 2"
5/12/21 - Advice from Master Djwal Kul to the Feminine Soul
One morning I asked the Master DK, "How do I control my attention?" His answer, which I spelled out in longhand writing was lengthy.
You are too feminine. You must learn to use your brain too, along with your heart/feeling. You are too much in waiting mode and receiving mode, because that is your primary default as feminine through lifetimes. You MUST wake up to your brain activity and take charge of the direction of your life. Your brain is the human vessel control mechanism. This is the next stage in your development. Work together with your brain. The brain is how you control your attention. The general emphasis to the public has been directing people to go to their hearts and feelings because the masses are too brain centered. You are too heart/feeling centered.
Q: So it’s OK to have an agenda?
Yes, it’s OK. Make an agenda and use your brain which is your masculine side to control your daily life.
Q: Oops. I started kicking in with too much energy, like I had been let out of the box....
Remember to stay connected to your heart. Equality is remaining connected to the heart and the mind. Equality is perfect balance between mind and heart. The masters use the heart flame to raise or lower their vibrations as needed. They use the masculine directing force through the brain to direct their attention. Direction is given to act but the heart provides the power to act. The brain does not have the power. The brain is the masculine force and the heart/body is the feminine force. They must work together like fingers on one hand work together and help one another. They do not fight and contradict one another. So the brain and heart must work together. You have been learning this through your sexual activity between men and women.
The brain is not the controller. Control comes from higher than the physical brain or the physical heart. It comes down THROUGH the heart from the God-self. The brain makes the decision where to focus attention. You are in the brain most of the time, so you must use the brain to decide to focus attention on the heart. This is the work of the modern day westerner for he is too brain-focused. The heart is the main portal, the front door to the house you live in. Go and open the front door and let your God-self speak. You listen. You will feel it through sensations of wholeness, sureness, clarity, liberation, goodness, peace, truth. This is the God-self speaking to you. If you are connected brain-to-heart in a wholesome way, then your brain will make a wise decision to act. If the brain and heart remain connected, the heart/body will provide the power to act and the wisdom to act, the knowledge of how to act, and the truth and best way to act. The heart receives, the brain decides, the heart supports the decision and they work together, intellect and body. The power comes through the heart. If the brain tries to act on its own without the power of the wholesome heart, the innocent heart, it will not be able to sustain the action. It will collapse, either today or tomorrow or next week or next month.
The sustainability is the power of the God-self. Learn to listen to the heart but USE THE BRAIN! The message from the God-self descends down through 7 levels. The first three levels are perfect, but when the message enters the mental, emotional, etheric and physical, the four lower bodies have a will of their own called the ego or artificial intelligence that is not connected to the God-self. The physical heart lives and pumps blood and messages from the God-self as long as the God-self is connected to the body. We call it the life force. The physical heart pumps the life force and light messages out into the rest of the body, wherever the arteries and veins and capillaries go, so the whole body is capable of getting the sensation of life. Do you understand? (Yes)
Q: Re: massage by women for women only, why are we doing this?
It’s a simple matter. Those who are too masculine, there are many male bodies but there are also some female bodies whose biology is too focused on outer physical interactions. If the women are also brain-based rather than heart-based, they are also too controlling. Some masculine souls who are focused on outer physical interactions but are also heart-based. They are tender men. But the majority of men are too masculine because they are brain-based plus focused on physical interactions. The result is pressure on those who are too feminine and receptive. Many women feel pressured by men, as you did. But there are some women who are masculine and therefore focused on physical interaction and brain-based like a man, even though her body is female. Those who are too feminine are receptive and passive. They allow others to guide them and set direction. These souls are connected to their inner feelings more than connected to their brain or outer physical interactions. These souls must be awakened to understand this. This is an esoteric teaching because it is deeply personal to each soul how to adjust. No education has been provided on this subject. Knowledge has been given in esoteric schools called mystery schools and kept underground because the majority of the population was not ready to hear it. Women today need other women to work out an understanding between themselves without the pressure from those whose biology is from a different perspective. Each person is a package of dynamic knowledge locked in and held back to experiences from past lives, both skills and talents of the human kind and also spiritual wisdom and knowledge from the God-self. But it is all being held back because of cultural taboos and training against freedom to express. Her beliefs may be right or may be wrong, but she will not know until she is allowed to expose and express herself in spontaneous ways, in an atmosphere of feeling free.
Recognize your default program which is hard-wired into you and try using opposite approaches, like ways you don’t like. Start the change process. For example, women don’t know how to be truly intimate or how to cuddle because they are programmed to think that intimacy with men - perhaps women too - means sex. Teach women how to not be afraid of intimacy. Massage, cuddle, touch and hug without sex as a motive. Discuss that warm arousal feelings of love are natural and not to be afraid of it. Teach NOT TO GO THERE! Discuss this. Get over the sex obstruction. It is subliminal obstruction which is preventing women from feeling true intimacy and love. Women have been insidiously blocked from love without their realizing how it happened. Now they are trying to find the “right” man who will “make” them feel love. It doesn’t work because he will not always be in the right mood to “make” her feel love, he will change.
5/7/21 - The importance of having a women's massage gathering
Sharing different ways to look at things is only one of the reasons for a women’s gathering without men. The second reason is to physically connect with each other's energy fields through massage in a healing touch kind of way. This is truly nourishing to the soul when there is only upliftment and no ulterior motive to redirect attention to something else, like pleasing a man or worrying about him. Receiving 100% nourishment for yourself alone, exclusively, is healing not just for the body but for the soul. Women massaging women without men helps the soul, which has no allegiance to anyone but its own vehicle. The soul tries to connect with its own vehicle all the time. And we, bless our souls, think we are just a body. In fact we are the soul trying to make peace with our body’s functions and feelings but we’ve been programmed from birth to pay attention to everybody else and not ourselves. We play by those rules and conform to what was set down by others before we came along, unaware of how precious we are to have feminine bodies. We are the non-gender intelligence of this body. We are the spirit of this body, meaning we are the soul of this body, and we have a responsibility for it. It has been difficult making peace with this body because of so many distractions, especially by our male counterparts and children. We are torn in many directions. That is why I would like to host a women’s gathering. I'm supposed to be talking about it but I'm not ready yet. I need more support.
The agenda will be discussion and sharing first, then massaging second. We need to begin. This is not an invitation yet. The power of each soul, meaning the power of YOU the human being, lies in your dreams, your visions and your ideals. You need to bring these dreams, visions and ideals to the surface of your life. Your highest good demands that you take precedent over the wants and needs of other people. You will be led when your soul is in charge. Spirit leads the soul. Spirit cannot lead the human ego because the human ego is not connected to spirit, it is connected to the human world of many distractions. We are kept busy. We don’t know that we are the soul. It is time we began to realize that we are soul. We think we are the body, we think we are selfish, we think we are poor and weak, we think we are worthless and low in esteem and in lack, because we feel all sorts of emotions that do not belong to us. We feel the emotions of the outer world and other people. We feel humanity's anger, humanity's worthlessness. Humanity's loneliness. Humanity's jealousies, resentments, vengence, desires to strike out and kill. These are NOT coming from our soul. These are coming from poor neglected bodies and there are many - perhaps even our own which has not been loved in a long, long, long time. The REAL you is loving, intelligent, wise, compassionate, respectful, reverential and enlightened for we are feminine nurturers. The soul in most cases is innocent. This is the reason we need to remove ourselves from our male counterparts for a few hours and give each other nourishment. This is why we women need to gather in circles. I do not know why I must keep talking about this but I must. (Love, Diana)
5/2/21 The Magical Relationship Between the Divine Feminine & Sacred Warriors
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Elizabeth Wilcock, wife of well-known David Wilcock, speaks on the priestess path and the road less traveled. She speaks of initiation, near death experiences, spirituality in a broken world, compassion, sacred warriors, womanhood and innocence. Hers is an unusual life story, mystical, powerful and feminine, she tells about her martial arts training, holding 5 black belts in Kung Fu and owns 5 martial arts studios. All women should hear her story. Click the video source above.
4/26/21 The Braiding of Feminine-Masculine Polarity by The Council of Light via Jenny Schiltz
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(Partial excerpt) "What is happening in the human form is the braiding of polarity. Particularly the masculine and the feminine as this was the first split. As the masculine and feminine within braid together, no longer acting in opposition, an activation takes place and the polarity within will change. For some this braiding may aggravate mental health issues, depression and an overwhelming sense of the need to leave. We advise that each person look at their personality traits and think of what is the opposite.
“What is the polarity of what they are holding? Can they then make themselves whole by bringing in the opposite trait? If one is holding sadness can they then also hold joy? If they are holding rage can they also hold peace? It is the polarity, the either or, that causes much discord in the human form. It makes them susceptible to programming, to be pushed and pulled in whatever direction the world would like the person to go. While this may seem counter-intuitive, it is not. It is through the duality, the polarities that one is vulnerable, one is susceptible to manipulation. As soon as one says I can hold love and I can hold hate and I CHOOSE which way to act, then at that moment there is immense healing.
“Healing will not take place by denying or pretending to not be the all. Rather healing takes place when one understands that You Are the All choosing to act in the light. There has been much damage done to the Divine Feminine and Masculine on your planet, yet the healing cannot begin until all the traits are seen, recognized, and understood. It is the shadow aspects within that are coming to light. For many this will be a time of challenge. To not get lost in the fear that is being drummed up on your planet. To not get caught up in the outer reality and miss the transformation that is happening within. The braiding of the Divine feminine and Divine masculine within the DNA will shift each person and could cause many symptoms as mentioned before particularly in the realm of mental health.”
At this point, questions were able to be asked.
Me: How do we assist ourselves and others through this next stage whether it is the braiding of the masculine and feminine, the first split into duality or the understanding of wholeness? Do you have any suggestions?
“You assist by really seeing yourself. For the good, for the bad. Can you then see that you also hold the opposite characteristics. For one who is not routine based, can they also hold discipline? For one who is lazy they can also hold motivation? That each moment is a choice. When you have an emotion that could be considered undesirable, do not try to clear it, as it is part of the all, rather bring in the opposite characteristic. Each word has its own frequency, its own opening into your field. I ask you where do you hold war?”
Me: I hold it between my solar plexus and my heart chakra, it feels as if it is clenching. But I also have pain in my lower back.
“Very good. Now examine the meaning or archetype of that chakra and what the meaning of lower back pain”
Me: Solar plexus is the place of the me, the human, heart is the place of the soul and lower back pain can be from feeling unsupported, taking on the world type energies.
“Yes! Now bring in peace into your lower back and your chakras. Now if I say to you where do you hold joy? What area of your body activates? Which chakra?”
Me: It is my higher heart and the area between my shoulders and around my head but it’s outside the body there.
“This is very good to see. For you see where you are holding joy outside of yourself not within, it must be called in. Not simply residing within the higher heart chakra of your soul. Invite it in.”
Me: I invite Joy now to every cell of my being may it make a home within me.
“Now look at the opposite of joy. We would call it sorrow or malaise. Where do you hold that?”
Me: Immediately what comes up is my intestines.
“Yes, now specifically invite joy into those spaces.
Me: I invite Joy into my stomach, my large intestine, my small intestine, my duodenum, my colon, I invite joy into the way that I absorb life. I invite joy in now.
“This is a very valuable teaching tool. Use it with yourself and those that you assist. Help them to see where they are holding one frequency but yet they can also hold the other. It is not about getting rid of one emotion It is about inviting in the opposite and then choosing.
Me: Thank you for your help.
“It is our deepest pleasure to assist humanity in this way.”
4/17/21 New Feminine Balance by Merlia - via Steve Rother on March 30
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Greetings, dear ones, I am Merlia.
I join you this day as the feminine aspect of Merlin. The game on Earth is fascinating to watch from this side of the veil, as you tear things apart and then put them back together. Absolutely incredible.
Id like to tell you a little story about your own world. You're starting to understand more and more about the feminine rising. Its been an important part, and yet it doesn't hold all the answers for humanity. It simply gives you a new base, a new tool, and new energies to work with, from which you can challenge and even perfect your world. But as we've mentioned, dear ones, the challenge is to find a balance.
Yes, that's the difficult part. We can point to many times on planet Earth where the masculine energy was in charge. We can point to other times, although not quite as many, where the feminine energy was in charge. Both can be out of balance, and that's one of the key elements many people are starting to work with. Its part of the reason that you have so many new ideas about sexuality on your planet, not even necessarily new, but certainly out in the open. Isn't that wonderful? New ideas, concepts, and new ways of working with all of your energies. Its an incredible time for you to be alive and in one of those bodies. Wed like to share one of the stories about this day, about your own world.
Chimpanzees and Bonobos
Chimpanzees, or Chimps, are familiar to most humans. Born with bright faces that turn dark over time, they emulate humans in many ways including the use of tools. The Chimps spend their time hunting and gathering food. They are clearly a male dominated society; the males dominate with force, often showing extreme cruelty especially toward females. Aggression is common, and when a male takes over another males family, he kills the babies.
Bonobos are another branch of ape from the Congo; Chimps evolved north of the river, and the Bonobos inhabited land south of the river. In contrast, Bonobos are born with unchanging faces and have evolved into a female dominant society. About 90 years ago it was discovered that they were actually two separate species, although their DNA is very close. Of course, its worth noting that each of them have DNA that is closer to humans than to each other. Bonobos, born with unchanging faces, have evolved into a female dominant society.
Here they spend less than four hours a day hunting and gathering, while the rest of their day is spent playing, grooming and nurturing each other. The Chimps and Bonobos have developed in totally different ways. Chimps, like humans, spend most of their life gathering food, foresting, working, doing whatever it is to support the physical. However, the Bonobos spent less than 30% of their time doing that. It was more important for them to have time to relax, play with one other, nurture each other with special attention to the children. It is common for Bonobo females to nurture each others children. The Bonobo males provide security but in a unique, harmonious way, showing strength in numbers. There are other similarities that apply to the human condition at this moment. The feminine energy is rising, it is meeting massive resistance to changes in the perceived norms, as well as to those invested in masculine energy.
The New Balance
As the feminine rises there will be many changes in the way things are done. In both of the masculine and feminine there are imbalances. From the hundreds of billions of games throughout the universe, very few have ever achieved more than a momentary balance of this energy. We believe that humanity has a good chance to achieve this balance. From humanity's standpoint, this balance is rather challenging because you've been dominated by masculine energy for quite some time. And its difficult to even imagine what a softer, gentler, inclusive world would be like. You're living in the times of mastery. Yes, these are the times where you can have all the experiences needed to figure out what's important to you.
As weve mentioned, dear ones, there's a new game underfoot. You're creating a new game in a whole different realm, piece by piece. Its not something that's going to happen in a moment. Everything evolves or moves to the next level, and its happening now.
The Exercise
Everyone can now see this in their own lives, so that's what we're going to ask you to do wherever you see a problem. Imagine what it would be like if the society or circumstance you were living in was out of balance in the opposite way. Then you can start to see the imbalances more clearly. Find those things that are out of balance, as the pendulum swings back and forth wildly. Sometimes you can learn a lot about yourselves, and about what you want in this next part of the game that you're creating.
The feminine energy has risen, it is here. Make space for it to ground and grow within you, to find a more empowering balance of power. You're going to see more of this energy, in terms of moving into positions of power and decision-making. Now, you're still going to have the difficult ones, like those chimps who beat their chests fighting to keep things from changing. You are seeing some of that now, because anything out of balance needs to be brought to everyone's attention so that collectively you can come to a connection on a higher level of vibration. These are the times of Mastery, for you've already won the game. Don't get stuck in the mud puddles that you have to cross. Its simply a journey, so enjoy the ride.
It is with the greatest of honor that we ask you to treat each other with respect, nurture one another and play this game with love, as you create a whole new level of the game. Play well together.
I am Merlia, the feminine aspect of Merlin. The magic is returning. Come up and see me sometime.
Espavo,
The group - Steve Rother
4/8/21 The New Race of the Awakened Feminine & Masculine
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When the Awakened Masculine meets the true, Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention. The Awakened , Whole , Consciousness Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths.
The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul. But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role.
When the Masculine meets the conscious Feminine vibration, it instantly realizes what is needed. The Masculine energy is stirred deeply and feels a pull on the Soul strings of his lost, dry, and forgotten heart. He realizes that although it is easy to lose himself in the glorious shakti sway of her body and the warmth of her sacred eyes, in order to stand next to her as a totem of Divine Masculine strength he must rise up in his own life.Her spiritual energy will cause his own to wake up to itself.
He will become quickly aware that it will not be enough to lazily get what he wants and leave. He will recognize that even if he enters into a relationship with her, that her trust in him will not deepen unless he starts seriously showing up in his own life – and begins to rise like a phoenix towards his Full Purpose. Her awakened energy will not tolerate the spiritually-sleepy Masculine tendencies towards laziness, denial, avoidance, staying in comfort zones, procrastination, cowardice and over-reliance on quick fixes and instant gratification.
Her sacred energy will pull him up out of his coma and avoidance tactics, so that he feels on a visceral level just how potent and transformational loving her could be. He will also feel how loving her – and being a recipient of the healing codes in her body – instigates a firing of the neurons and electrical transmitters in his system, sparking him into awareness of just how much of a man he is required to evolve into.
He realizes that she is the greatest gift that has ever crossed his path. He realizes that he may never have another opportunity like this one to be supported in becoming the best version of himself possible. He is aware that there is no other woman on the planet who could love him like this, and fire up his energy centers into creating the Divine Purpose he has always wanted to live, but has always been too scared to fully commit to.
It is his decision whether or not he is brave enough to take the challenge of loving, and standing next to, a woman who has claimed her place as a sacred Feminine warrior and holy chalice of love. It is really his decision in many ways, because although she will be the one to decide whether or not she wishes to see him again, or let him into her world – she is always doing that based on the quality of truth, assurance, purposefulness and willingness that she receives from him.
When his Higher Self brings him to a Whole Woman, he must sit and contemplate, in order to realize that he has chosen this meeting – because a significant part of him is ready to ascend into being a Whole Man. This is a huge deal, because he most likely has not had any role models of this evolved male energy in his life. He doesn’t have to be faultless, a know-it-all, flashy, or movie star good-looking. He only has to nurture that spark within his precious Masculine heart that wants to be the best man he can be. He only has to be willing and humble enough to learn from the Feminine, listen to her responses to his actions, and realize that she is the Divine Oracle for him, showing him where he needs to pull himself up. His Soul really only wants to declare something like this:
“I want to bathe in the sweet, sacred radiance of your eternal Light for the rest of my days, and remember daily what a gift you are to my Soul. I want you to be the Sacred Mirror on all the ways that I sabotage myself, deny myself, restrict myself and ‘flunk out’ on myself. I want to hear that you trust me. I want to show you that your trust is well-judged, and that I realize how your ability to trust me makes a difference in how deeply you can open your body and heart when we are together. I want to walk into brave new territories, risking rejection and even failure so that your trust in me soars, like a bird in flight. I realize that your sexual attraction to me increases exponentially every time I take a risk to rise into my Divine Masculine power and purpose.
"I want to be a pioneer of a new movement of conscious, evolving, willing and open-hearted males, defying the old paradigms and awake enough to walk beside women who are changing the world forever. I might not remember any of this, much of the time, and I may stumble, fall, collapse or sometimes fail at it. I want only to remember that my willingness to live my Sacred Truth, and my desire to do everything I can to earn your trust, are enough. I want only to remember that if I shut down my heart at the first hint of truth that comes from your mouth, your body language, your expressions – I will not win this game. I want to only remember that you cannot be expected to ‘mother’ me into being a grown-up (if I want to have a sexually vital and transformative love life). I do not want you to be my mother.”
We need manifestors for men of the Light to follow now, because it is vital that they stand up and realize their true worth and value in the advancing New Age. Awake Women do not want to batter men, criticize them, punish them, or shut their hearts and bodies down to them. Whole Women WANT men: their unwavering hard presence, their rock solid actions, their warrior hearts, their dynamic, pursuing energy.
Many Men of the Light are choosing to cross paths with soul-embodied women now. This is because their own Soul recognizes that it is time to rise up into Purpose, and the desire to connect with the embodied Sacred Feminine will ignite that Purpose. A woman who is on the path of Light will not settle for any man, no matter how deeply she has longed for the masculine presence. She has no desire nor energy to rescue, mother, nag or coach a man into loving her. Yet the awakened woman carries more compassion, more unconditional love, more ability to support and nurture, more generosity and more sexual power than any other. There are limitless, never-ending, eternally-abundant rewards for any man who is courageous enough to risk his heart and life purpose for such a female.
This is the time of the emergent Divine Masculine presence stepping up to the edge and committing to live from there, rising up to support and protect the Sacred Feminine Mission of Global Awakening.
Via the beautiful Order of the Star FB page
(Click Source to read the whole article)
(Partial excerpt) "What is happening in the human form is the braiding of polarity. Particularly the masculine and the feminine as this was the first split. As the masculine and feminine within braid together, no longer acting in opposition, an activation takes place and the polarity within will change. For some this braiding may aggravate mental health issues, depression and an overwhelming sense of the need to leave. We advise that each person look at their personality traits and think of what is the opposite.
“What is the polarity of what they are holding? Can they then make themselves whole by bringing in the opposite trait? If one is holding sadness can they then also hold joy? If they are holding rage can they also hold peace? It is the polarity, the either or, that causes much discord in the human form. It makes them susceptible to programming, to be pushed and pulled in whatever direction the world would like the person to go. While this may seem counter-intuitive, it is not. It is through the duality, the polarities that one is vulnerable, one is susceptible to manipulation. As soon as one says I can hold love and I can hold hate and I CHOOSE which way to act, then at that moment there is immense healing.
“Healing will not take place by denying or pretending to not be the all. Rather healing takes place when one understands that You Are the All choosing to act in the light. There has been much damage done to the Divine Feminine and Masculine on your planet, yet the healing cannot begin until all the traits are seen, recognized, and understood. It is the shadow aspects within that are coming to light. For many this will be a time of challenge. To not get lost in the fear that is being drummed up on your planet. To not get caught up in the outer reality and miss the transformation that is happening within. The braiding of the Divine feminine and Divine masculine within the DNA will shift each person and could cause many symptoms as mentioned before particularly in the realm of mental health.”
At this point, questions were able to be asked.
Me: How do we assist ourselves and others through this next stage whether it is the braiding of the masculine and feminine, the first split into duality or the understanding of wholeness? Do you have any suggestions?
“You assist by really seeing yourself. For the good, for the bad. Can you then see that you also hold the opposite characteristics. For one who is not routine based, can they also hold discipline? For one who is lazy they can also hold motivation? That each moment is a choice. When you have an emotion that could be considered undesirable, do not try to clear it, as it is part of the all, rather bring in the opposite characteristic. Each word has its own frequency, its own opening into your field. I ask you where do you hold war?”
Me: I hold it between my solar plexus and my heart chakra, it feels as if it is clenching. But I also have pain in my lower back.
“Very good. Now examine the meaning or archetype of that chakra and what the meaning of lower back pain”
Me: Solar plexus is the place of the me, the human, heart is the place of the soul and lower back pain can be from feeling unsupported, taking on the world type energies.
“Yes! Now bring in peace into your lower back and your chakras. Now if I say to you where do you hold joy? What area of your body activates? Which chakra?”
Me: It is my higher heart and the area between my shoulders and around my head but it’s outside the body there.
“This is very good to see. For you see where you are holding joy outside of yourself not within, it must be called in. Not simply residing within the higher heart chakra of your soul. Invite it in.”
Me: I invite Joy now to every cell of my being may it make a home within me.
“Now look at the opposite of joy. We would call it sorrow or malaise. Where do you hold that?”
Me: Immediately what comes up is my intestines.
“Yes, now specifically invite joy into those spaces.
Me: I invite Joy into my stomach, my large intestine, my small intestine, my duodenum, my colon, I invite joy into the way that I absorb life. I invite joy in now.
“This is a very valuable teaching tool. Use it with yourself and those that you assist. Help them to see where they are holding one frequency but yet they can also hold the other. It is not about getting rid of one emotion It is about inviting in the opposite and then choosing.
Me: Thank you for your help.
“It is our deepest pleasure to assist humanity in this way.”
4/17/21 New Feminine Balance by Merlia - via Steve Rother on March 30
Source
Greetings, dear ones, I am Merlia.
I join you this day as the feminine aspect of Merlin. The game on Earth is fascinating to watch from this side of the veil, as you tear things apart and then put them back together. Absolutely incredible.
Id like to tell you a little story about your own world. You're starting to understand more and more about the feminine rising. Its been an important part, and yet it doesn't hold all the answers for humanity. It simply gives you a new base, a new tool, and new energies to work with, from which you can challenge and even perfect your world. But as we've mentioned, dear ones, the challenge is to find a balance.
Yes, that's the difficult part. We can point to many times on planet Earth where the masculine energy was in charge. We can point to other times, although not quite as many, where the feminine energy was in charge. Both can be out of balance, and that's one of the key elements many people are starting to work with. Its part of the reason that you have so many new ideas about sexuality on your planet, not even necessarily new, but certainly out in the open. Isn't that wonderful? New ideas, concepts, and new ways of working with all of your energies. Its an incredible time for you to be alive and in one of those bodies. Wed like to share one of the stories about this day, about your own world.
Chimpanzees and Bonobos
Chimpanzees, or Chimps, are familiar to most humans. Born with bright faces that turn dark over time, they emulate humans in many ways including the use of tools. The Chimps spend their time hunting and gathering food. They are clearly a male dominated society; the males dominate with force, often showing extreme cruelty especially toward females. Aggression is common, and when a male takes over another males family, he kills the babies.
Bonobos are another branch of ape from the Congo; Chimps evolved north of the river, and the Bonobos inhabited land south of the river. In contrast, Bonobos are born with unchanging faces and have evolved into a female dominant society. About 90 years ago it was discovered that they were actually two separate species, although their DNA is very close. Of course, its worth noting that each of them have DNA that is closer to humans than to each other. Bonobos, born with unchanging faces, have evolved into a female dominant society.
Here they spend less than four hours a day hunting and gathering, while the rest of their day is spent playing, grooming and nurturing each other. The Chimps and Bonobos have developed in totally different ways. Chimps, like humans, spend most of their life gathering food, foresting, working, doing whatever it is to support the physical. However, the Bonobos spent less than 30% of their time doing that. It was more important for them to have time to relax, play with one other, nurture each other with special attention to the children. It is common for Bonobo females to nurture each others children. The Bonobo males provide security but in a unique, harmonious way, showing strength in numbers. There are other similarities that apply to the human condition at this moment. The feminine energy is rising, it is meeting massive resistance to changes in the perceived norms, as well as to those invested in masculine energy.
The New Balance
As the feminine rises there will be many changes in the way things are done. In both of the masculine and feminine there are imbalances. From the hundreds of billions of games throughout the universe, very few have ever achieved more than a momentary balance of this energy. We believe that humanity has a good chance to achieve this balance. From humanity's standpoint, this balance is rather challenging because you've been dominated by masculine energy for quite some time. And its difficult to even imagine what a softer, gentler, inclusive world would be like. You're living in the times of mastery. Yes, these are the times where you can have all the experiences needed to figure out what's important to you.
As weve mentioned, dear ones, there's a new game underfoot. You're creating a new game in a whole different realm, piece by piece. Its not something that's going to happen in a moment. Everything evolves or moves to the next level, and its happening now.
The Exercise
Everyone can now see this in their own lives, so that's what we're going to ask you to do wherever you see a problem. Imagine what it would be like if the society or circumstance you were living in was out of balance in the opposite way. Then you can start to see the imbalances more clearly. Find those things that are out of balance, as the pendulum swings back and forth wildly. Sometimes you can learn a lot about yourselves, and about what you want in this next part of the game that you're creating.
The feminine energy has risen, it is here. Make space for it to ground and grow within you, to find a more empowering balance of power. You're going to see more of this energy, in terms of moving into positions of power and decision-making. Now, you're still going to have the difficult ones, like those chimps who beat their chests fighting to keep things from changing. You are seeing some of that now, because anything out of balance needs to be brought to everyone's attention so that collectively you can come to a connection on a higher level of vibration. These are the times of Mastery, for you've already won the game. Don't get stuck in the mud puddles that you have to cross. Its simply a journey, so enjoy the ride.
It is with the greatest of honor that we ask you to treat each other with respect, nurture one another and play this game with love, as you create a whole new level of the game. Play well together.
I am Merlia, the feminine aspect of Merlin. The magic is returning. Come up and see me sometime.
Espavo,
The group - Steve Rother
4/8/21 The New Race of the Awakened Feminine & Masculine
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When the Awakened Masculine meets the true, Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention. The Awakened , Whole , Consciousness Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths.
The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul. But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role.
When the Masculine meets the conscious Feminine vibration, it instantly realizes what is needed. The Masculine energy is stirred deeply and feels a pull on the Soul strings of his lost, dry, and forgotten heart. He realizes that although it is easy to lose himself in the glorious shakti sway of her body and the warmth of her sacred eyes, in order to stand next to her as a totem of Divine Masculine strength he must rise up in his own life.Her spiritual energy will cause his own to wake up to itself.
He will become quickly aware that it will not be enough to lazily get what he wants and leave. He will recognize that even if he enters into a relationship with her, that her trust in him will not deepen unless he starts seriously showing up in his own life – and begins to rise like a phoenix towards his Full Purpose. Her awakened energy will not tolerate the spiritually-sleepy Masculine tendencies towards laziness, denial, avoidance, staying in comfort zones, procrastination, cowardice and over-reliance on quick fixes and instant gratification.
Her sacred energy will pull him up out of his coma and avoidance tactics, so that he feels on a visceral level just how potent and transformational loving her could be. He will also feel how loving her – and being a recipient of the healing codes in her body – instigates a firing of the neurons and electrical transmitters in his system, sparking him into awareness of just how much of a man he is required to evolve into.
He realizes that she is the greatest gift that has ever crossed his path. He realizes that he may never have another opportunity like this one to be supported in becoming the best version of himself possible. He is aware that there is no other woman on the planet who could love him like this, and fire up his energy centers into creating the Divine Purpose he has always wanted to live, but has always been too scared to fully commit to.
It is his decision whether or not he is brave enough to take the challenge of loving, and standing next to, a woman who has claimed her place as a sacred Feminine warrior and holy chalice of love. It is really his decision in many ways, because although she will be the one to decide whether or not she wishes to see him again, or let him into her world – she is always doing that based on the quality of truth, assurance, purposefulness and willingness that she receives from him.
When his Higher Self brings him to a Whole Woman, he must sit and contemplate, in order to realize that he has chosen this meeting – because a significant part of him is ready to ascend into being a Whole Man. This is a huge deal, because he most likely has not had any role models of this evolved male energy in his life. He doesn’t have to be faultless, a know-it-all, flashy, or movie star good-looking. He only has to nurture that spark within his precious Masculine heart that wants to be the best man he can be. He only has to be willing and humble enough to learn from the Feminine, listen to her responses to his actions, and realize that she is the Divine Oracle for him, showing him where he needs to pull himself up. His Soul really only wants to declare something like this:
“I want to bathe in the sweet, sacred radiance of your eternal Light for the rest of my days, and remember daily what a gift you are to my Soul. I want you to be the Sacred Mirror on all the ways that I sabotage myself, deny myself, restrict myself and ‘flunk out’ on myself. I want to hear that you trust me. I want to show you that your trust is well-judged, and that I realize how your ability to trust me makes a difference in how deeply you can open your body and heart when we are together. I want to walk into brave new territories, risking rejection and even failure so that your trust in me soars, like a bird in flight. I realize that your sexual attraction to me increases exponentially every time I take a risk to rise into my Divine Masculine power and purpose.
"I want to be a pioneer of a new movement of conscious, evolving, willing and open-hearted males, defying the old paradigms and awake enough to walk beside women who are changing the world forever. I might not remember any of this, much of the time, and I may stumble, fall, collapse or sometimes fail at it. I want only to remember that my willingness to live my Sacred Truth, and my desire to do everything I can to earn your trust, are enough. I want only to remember that if I shut down my heart at the first hint of truth that comes from your mouth, your body language, your expressions – I will not win this game. I want to only remember that you cannot be expected to ‘mother’ me into being a grown-up (if I want to have a sexually vital and transformative love life). I do not want you to be my mother.”
We need manifestors for men of the Light to follow now, because it is vital that they stand up and realize their true worth and value in the advancing New Age. Awake Women do not want to batter men, criticize them, punish them, or shut their hearts and bodies down to them. Whole Women WANT men: their unwavering hard presence, their rock solid actions, their warrior hearts, their dynamic, pursuing energy.
Many Men of the Light are choosing to cross paths with soul-embodied women now. This is because their own Soul recognizes that it is time to rise up into Purpose, and the desire to connect with the embodied Sacred Feminine will ignite that Purpose. A woman who is on the path of Light will not settle for any man, no matter how deeply she has longed for the masculine presence. She has no desire nor energy to rescue, mother, nag or coach a man into loving her. Yet the awakened woman carries more compassion, more unconditional love, more ability to support and nurture, more generosity and more sexual power than any other. There are limitless, never-ending, eternally-abundant rewards for any man who is courageous enough to risk his heart and life purpose for such a female.
This is the time of the emergent Divine Masculine presence stepping up to the edge and committing to live from there, rising up to support and protect the Sacred Feminine Mission of Global Awakening.
Via the beautiful Order of the Star FB page
12/20/20 Shocking news!
Feminine and masculine are two energies in one body circling each other. Two operating systems. Two ways of functioning. One is active, action-oriented, assertive, controlling, aggressive, stubborn and stuck in the belief that the physical body is all there is. The other operating system is open to universal mind, to goodness, light, love, unity, peace, purity, intelligence, truth and knows that human beings change and evolve. The average human being is operating on one or the other system. Men tend to operate on the first system, which is masculine. Women tend to operate on the second operating system. The feminine side of both genders has been dismanteled, which has allowed for the stubborn assertive egotistical side of humans to be in control. This has led to mankind being unhinged and unbalanced. The divine ingredient is missing. The awakening of the divine feminine is taking place now by decree from heaven and universal law. The time is 2020 preparing for 2021. Everyone is going through changes and the stubborn egotistical side of us, the old patriarchal stubborn masculine (in everybody), is being confronted. This page highlights what feminine traits look like. This is especially for men, but also for women too. It is not a war between genders. The divine feminie means to stop resisting. Let in some open-hearted, loving concern for those you think are your enemy. And situations that you think are wrong. Instead of debating the issue, be the bigger person. Give it up, turn it over to your gentle side, your feminien side. Lend an open ear, a quietude, compassion, tolerance, forgiveness.
No matter the gender, the mind is divided. It's anatomical. The brain is physical. There is nothing good nor bad in the universe, but thinking makes it so, and men are such thinkers! Yet men are as much feminine as masculine, and women are as much masculine as feminine. Both genders have been over-thinking and not utilizing the beautiful divine feminine qualities which would unify the world and bring peace to our communities. The right brain is one full half of the physical brain, yet the left brain has become dominant in the world for eons. This has placed men in the position of power and control, yet every woman has the capacity to think, while every man has the capacity to relax and be in touch with the heavens and the stars as women do. The right brain has been allowed to weaken and become severely damaged. This has disempowered the human species for power comes form the universe where everything is connected in harmony.
It is time that the human being integrated the left brain with its right brain. Understanding what the left brain is designed for is essential in order to bring about wholeness in all areas of life. The left brain is designed for conscious thinking, analyzing, speaking, calculating, designing and controlling one's path through life. The right brain is designed to be open, receptive and connected to spirit and the greater heavens, which operate with precision, harmony, unity and balance. Because we have under-used our right brain, the feminine side of ourselves, the humans on this planet have lost their way. The only solution is to begin to understand: your right brain receives messages from the stars. You must take time out to listen.
The right brain is our divine feminine side, the left brain when it is fully integrated with the right brain, becomes our divine masculine side. The human male becomes more powerful when he takes time out to nourish his feminine side. The human male is in chaos right now because he thinks everyone is out to get him. He has lost his dignity, his pride, his ability to stand tall, straight, truthful, peaceful and free, because his own feminine side is weak. He must learn to strengthen his tender, emotional, vulnerable side, by listening and developing faith, reverence and love for his higher God-self. He has become detached, severed from his own wholeness. He has become too focused on the outer world of details and who is right and who is wrong, and how can he fix it. He cannot. He does not have the power to fix anything until he fixes himself.
Likewise, women have lost their connection to the stars when they have allowed their masculine side to wither, weaken and disappear. She who follows after a man because her mother did, allows that man to be her controller under the guise of being her protector. She has lost her sovereignty - her ability to think for herself. She must activate her left brain. This can be done quietly, on inner planes, by intention alone. Simply say, "I am activating my left brain." Or vice versa, in the case of a man, saying "I am activating my right brain." A quiet inner intention can become a daily, hourly mantra which feeds information into the brain. Then, saying "I am becoming whole brained." Imagine the right brain and left brain talking to each other. Imagine energy fluctuations moving back and forth, left to right. Feel the third eye waking up in the area of the pineal gland and pituitary gland behind the eyes.
They are meant to work together as a whole, not divided into two camps which have become enemies. The right brain receives divine instructions (now defunct) while the left brain works itself to death. The human being is designed to live happily, progressively, abundantly and peacefully a long fulfilling life. But to do so the divine feminine and divine masculine must integrate and become one person. The brain is meant to be a whole brain, not divided into two separate camps. With the left brain being so overly busy, the right brain is severely damaged and unable to function in both men and women
In the dawning of this new age, the divine feminine is intervening on our behalf by stimulating the right brain in humanity everywhere. This is a shock to the status quo. Rebellion and protests are taking place but it will soon pass as one by one, individuals will begin the integration process and link in to cosmic forces of unity and peace. We are changing our ways as a species. We have been accustomed to recycling the same problems over and over, to re-experience them in a different form. The divine guidance from spirit is: relax more, practice yoga, meditation, spiritual disciplines, listen to gentle music, alternatingly with your busy schedule.
A good practice for today is, whenever a situation arises that is disturbing, alternate looking through feminine eyes and then switch and look through masculine eyes. Say out loud, "Right brain!" or "Left brain" to make the switch consciously. A man becomes a whole man when he embraces his feminine side. A woman becomes a whole woman when she activates her masculine side. As more balance is restored, a sense of peace takes place and a feeling of being on top of things and in control. Not just men, but women too. Each human being is meant to be in control of their own life. Stop dismissing something that annoys. Instead, embrace it and consider it through the right brain, or consider it through the left brain. Bring them both into play. No one can do this but you. There is no authority but your Self - your whole Self. When the mind is divided, the body is divided and the soul is confused. Stop being divided. Reintegrate your inner female and your inner male. Be busy but rest periodically. Put a rhythm into your calendar. When it is time to rest, say "Right brain, take over." It is time to meditate. Take the shoes from off your feet and assume a humble pose. Talk to your higher self, tell it your woes and problems, and be still and listen in silence and respect. Feel the peace that comes. When it is time to go back to work, say "Left brain!" And return to the business of the day.
Feminine and masculine are two energies in one body circling each other. Two operating systems. Two ways of functioning. One is active, action-oriented, assertive, controlling, aggressive, stubborn and stuck in the belief that the physical body is all there is. The other operating system is open to universal mind, to goodness, light, love, unity, peace, purity, intelligence, truth and knows that human beings change and evolve. The average human being is operating on one or the other system. Men tend to operate on the first system, which is masculine. Women tend to operate on the second operating system. The feminine side of both genders has been dismanteled, which has allowed for the stubborn assertive egotistical side of humans to be in control. This has led to mankind being unhinged and unbalanced. The divine ingredient is missing. The awakening of the divine feminine is taking place now by decree from heaven and universal law. The time is 2020 preparing for 2021. Everyone is going through changes and the stubborn egotistical side of us, the old patriarchal stubborn masculine (in everybody), is being confronted. This page highlights what feminine traits look like. This is especially for men, but also for women too. It is not a war between genders. The divine feminie means to stop resisting. Let in some open-hearted, loving concern for those you think are your enemy. And situations that you think are wrong. Instead of debating the issue, be the bigger person. Give it up, turn it over to your gentle side, your feminien side. Lend an open ear, a quietude, compassion, tolerance, forgiveness.
No matter the gender, the mind is divided. It's anatomical. The brain is physical. There is nothing good nor bad in the universe, but thinking makes it so, and men are such thinkers! Yet men are as much feminine as masculine, and women are as much masculine as feminine. Both genders have been over-thinking and not utilizing the beautiful divine feminine qualities which would unify the world and bring peace to our communities. The right brain is one full half of the physical brain, yet the left brain has become dominant in the world for eons. This has placed men in the position of power and control, yet every woman has the capacity to think, while every man has the capacity to relax and be in touch with the heavens and the stars as women do. The right brain has been allowed to weaken and become severely damaged. This has disempowered the human species for power comes form the universe where everything is connected in harmony.
It is time that the human being integrated the left brain with its right brain. Understanding what the left brain is designed for is essential in order to bring about wholeness in all areas of life. The left brain is designed for conscious thinking, analyzing, speaking, calculating, designing and controlling one's path through life. The right brain is designed to be open, receptive and connected to spirit and the greater heavens, which operate with precision, harmony, unity and balance. Because we have under-used our right brain, the feminine side of ourselves, the humans on this planet have lost their way. The only solution is to begin to understand: your right brain receives messages from the stars. You must take time out to listen.
The right brain is our divine feminine side, the left brain when it is fully integrated with the right brain, becomes our divine masculine side. The human male becomes more powerful when he takes time out to nourish his feminine side. The human male is in chaos right now because he thinks everyone is out to get him. He has lost his dignity, his pride, his ability to stand tall, straight, truthful, peaceful and free, because his own feminine side is weak. He must learn to strengthen his tender, emotional, vulnerable side, by listening and developing faith, reverence and love for his higher God-self. He has become detached, severed from his own wholeness. He has become too focused on the outer world of details and who is right and who is wrong, and how can he fix it. He cannot. He does not have the power to fix anything until he fixes himself.
Likewise, women have lost their connection to the stars when they have allowed their masculine side to wither, weaken and disappear. She who follows after a man because her mother did, allows that man to be her controller under the guise of being her protector. She has lost her sovereignty - her ability to think for herself. She must activate her left brain. This can be done quietly, on inner planes, by intention alone. Simply say, "I am activating my left brain." Or vice versa, in the case of a man, saying "I am activating my right brain." A quiet inner intention can become a daily, hourly mantra which feeds information into the brain. Then, saying "I am becoming whole brained." Imagine the right brain and left brain talking to each other. Imagine energy fluctuations moving back and forth, left to right. Feel the third eye waking up in the area of the pineal gland and pituitary gland behind the eyes.
They are meant to work together as a whole, not divided into two camps which have become enemies. The right brain receives divine instructions (now defunct) while the left brain works itself to death. The human being is designed to live happily, progressively, abundantly and peacefully a long fulfilling life. But to do so the divine feminine and divine masculine must integrate and become one person. The brain is meant to be a whole brain, not divided into two separate camps. With the left brain being so overly busy, the right brain is severely damaged and unable to function in both men and women
In the dawning of this new age, the divine feminine is intervening on our behalf by stimulating the right brain in humanity everywhere. This is a shock to the status quo. Rebellion and protests are taking place but it will soon pass as one by one, individuals will begin the integration process and link in to cosmic forces of unity and peace. We are changing our ways as a species. We have been accustomed to recycling the same problems over and over, to re-experience them in a different form. The divine guidance from spirit is: relax more, practice yoga, meditation, spiritual disciplines, listen to gentle music, alternatingly with your busy schedule.
A good practice for today is, whenever a situation arises that is disturbing, alternate looking through feminine eyes and then switch and look through masculine eyes. Say out loud, "Right brain!" or "Left brain" to make the switch consciously. A man becomes a whole man when he embraces his feminine side. A woman becomes a whole woman when she activates her masculine side. As more balance is restored, a sense of peace takes place and a feeling of being on top of things and in control. Not just men, but women too. Each human being is meant to be in control of their own life. Stop dismissing something that annoys. Instead, embrace it and consider it through the right brain, or consider it through the left brain. Bring them both into play. No one can do this but you. There is no authority but your Self - your whole Self. When the mind is divided, the body is divided and the soul is confused. Stop being divided. Reintegrate your inner female and your inner male. Be busy but rest periodically. Put a rhythm into your calendar. When it is time to rest, say "Right brain, take over." It is time to meditate. Take the shoes from off your feet and assume a humble pose. Talk to your higher self, tell it your woes and problems, and be still and listen in silence and respect. Feel the peace that comes. When it is time to go back to work, say "Left brain!" And return to the business of the day.
9/20/20 - I Look to the Sun
I look to the sun. I look to the sun always. I look to the sun first upon awakening, even before opening my eyes as I lie in bed in first consciousness. And all through the day I periodically look up at the sun and watch it on its movement across the sky until it sinks below the horizon at night. At dusk I go out and feel the change in the air. All day I am aware of the sun and I try to absorb as much of this conscious light as I can, for it keeps my hope alive through the night, knowing it will be there again in the morning.
I look to the sun because the church has taken away my hope, and so I have turned my back on the church to look for hope elsewhere. I looked for a better place in which to put my trust and I chose the sun because it is life-giving and does not deal in death. It is warm, not cold. It is natural, not unnatural. It is peaceful, not in conflict. It is stillness, not pushy. It is innocent and does not judge. It strengthens me, does not diminish me. It gives happiness, not guilt. It ives freedom, not bondage. It gives expansiveness, not restriction. It is alive, not dead. It gives life to me, it does not take it away. I am of the earth. It feeds me with life every day.
Because I have turned my back on the church and looked to the sun, by accident I stumbled upon a great truth, greater than the churches and greater than the saints, the angels and the ascendeds. I have seen God in the Sun, and I have heard him speak. He speaks to my soul, not to my mind. His rays bathe me in innocence, cleansing me as I stand alone in the pasture. He talks to me through the sounds of the trees and the grasses and the winds. My eyes have seen the rays coming up from the earth. I hear the blades of grass whispering to each other and the waters as they play and the fires as they dance. All of nature comes alive when the sun speaks to me because I am from the sun and I know that it, too, is alive and watching me and enjoys the earth through me. I am one with the sun. So long as the sun is beating down upon me I know that I am alive and well and there is hope. No one can take that away from me. I see that I have a glowing ember of the sun in my breast. It is like an inner light that flows like a river of fire through my arteries and veins, and I am lifted up whenever I think of it.
There are errors throughout the day and I forget. But when I think of the sun, it erases the errors. When people pass me by and I feel their hopelessness, I think of the sun it washes the hopelessness away, shatters the depression and returns me its warm goodness again. I just have to remember. I write this now while I'm awake and aware, but later today I will be a normal human mind embedded in normal human things. But I have learned a great secret. The sun is both my father and my mother. I look to the sun for miracles. It fills the void created by those who thought they knew everything but who put me down. The sun raises me up. The sun is the ideal father who guides me with wisdom and enfolds me in his arms with love beyond measure. The sun knows I have more to learn and it helps me to grow. It overlooks my errors the way a gardener overlooks a weak vine. It does not see sin. It makes no judgment. It does not need my promises to "be good".
And as my father is the sun, so my mother is the earth. My father plays with her, empowers her, impassions her, impregnates her with a lust for life that is more powerful than the humans and animals who live on her. Their offspring is the fertile soil, the tender grass, the volcanic fire, the roaring waters, the whispering firs, the hard stone, the soft sand, the colored flowers, the minerals, the herbs - and me. I am a creation of the earth and just as pure as these things. My body is pure. My mind is pure. My soul is pure. The past is washed away when I stand in the rays of the sun and reach up with my mind.
And at night when the sun is gone I stand on my back porch and look to the stars and I see not one but millions of suns. This array of suns assures me that I am not wrong in the placement of my faith. The stars nurture me at night with the same light to remind me that there is light always, and there is hope and reason and an order that defies the limits of humankind. It is an intelligent universe and I am reassured of my identity and my place within it. It is holy ground that I walk on and I feel the worship rise in me. (Diana 4/1/91)
I look to the sun. I look to the sun always. I look to the sun first upon awakening, even before opening my eyes as I lie in bed in first consciousness. And all through the day I periodically look up at the sun and watch it on its movement across the sky until it sinks below the horizon at night. At dusk I go out and feel the change in the air. All day I am aware of the sun and I try to absorb as much of this conscious light as I can, for it keeps my hope alive through the night, knowing it will be there again in the morning.
I look to the sun because the church has taken away my hope, and so I have turned my back on the church to look for hope elsewhere. I looked for a better place in which to put my trust and I chose the sun because it is life-giving and does not deal in death. It is warm, not cold. It is natural, not unnatural. It is peaceful, not in conflict. It is stillness, not pushy. It is innocent and does not judge. It strengthens me, does not diminish me. It gives happiness, not guilt. It ives freedom, not bondage. It gives expansiveness, not restriction. It is alive, not dead. It gives life to me, it does not take it away. I am of the earth. It feeds me with life every day.
Because I have turned my back on the church and looked to the sun, by accident I stumbled upon a great truth, greater than the churches and greater than the saints, the angels and the ascendeds. I have seen God in the Sun, and I have heard him speak. He speaks to my soul, not to my mind. His rays bathe me in innocence, cleansing me as I stand alone in the pasture. He talks to me through the sounds of the trees and the grasses and the winds. My eyes have seen the rays coming up from the earth. I hear the blades of grass whispering to each other and the waters as they play and the fires as they dance. All of nature comes alive when the sun speaks to me because I am from the sun and I know that it, too, is alive and watching me and enjoys the earth through me. I am one with the sun. So long as the sun is beating down upon me I know that I am alive and well and there is hope. No one can take that away from me. I see that I have a glowing ember of the sun in my breast. It is like an inner light that flows like a river of fire through my arteries and veins, and I am lifted up whenever I think of it.
There are errors throughout the day and I forget. But when I think of the sun, it erases the errors. When people pass me by and I feel their hopelessness, I think of the sun it washes the hopelessness away, shatters the depression and returns me its warm goodness again. I just have to remember. I write this now while I'm awake and aware, but later today I will be a normal human mind embedded in normal human things. But I have learned a great secret. The sun is both my father and my mother. I look to the sun for miracles. It fills the void created by those who thought they knew everything but who put me down. The sun raises me up. The sun is the ideal father who guides me with wisdom and enfolds me in his arms with love beyond measure. The sun knows I have more to learn and it helps me to grow. It overlooks my errors the way a gardener overlooks a weak vine. It does not see sin. It makes no judgment. It does not need my promises to "be good".
And as my father is the sun, so my mother is the earth. My father plays with her, empowers her, impassions her, impregnates her with a lust for life that is more powerful than the humans and animals who live on her. Their offspring is the fertile soil, the tender grass, the volcanic fire, the roaring waters, the whispering firs, the hard stone, the soft sand, the colored flowers, the minerals, the herbs - and me. I am a creation of the earth and just as pure as these things. My body is pure. My mind is pure. My soul is pure. The past is washed away when I stand in the rays of the sun and reach up with my mind.
And at night when the sun is gone I stand on my back porch and look to the stars and I see not one but millions of suns. This array of suns assures me that I am not wrong in the placement of my faith. The stars nurture me at night with the same light to remind me that there is light always, and there is hope and reason and an order that defies the limits of humankind. It is an intelligent universe and I am reassured of my identity and my place within it. It is holy ground that I walk on and I feel the worship rise in me. (Diana 4/1/91)