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10/19/19 An Invitation to Local Women Friday, October 25, 2019
Explorations in being female, in my home in Naples, FL, free, no cost, 1 - 5 pm

The other day I took down a book from my shelf entitled "Women Talking" by Justine Hill. I was drawn to it suddenly, without thinking. I have mentioned this book before in an earlier newsletter. It's out of print now. When I thumbed through it, a kind of shock wave went through me. It was a good shock wave. I felt an excitement surge, a vitality surge, like a power surge might feel to a computer. I sat down to read. It was a grounding force, as though the electricity which is "me", my consciousness, was plugged into my body. I was plugged in, grounded and turned on. I imagine that's what a grounding plug must be for - clear and free of static - with everything flowing properly.

Normally I am not plugged in, grounded or turned on. I'm usually somewhere else, detached from my body. My consciousness is not in the same room with the rest of me. This feeling was highlighted last night while attending a neighborhood meeting with Doug. I walked in and felt immediately disconnected. Everyone appeared to be operating from their outer mask, not from their inner. I operate differently. I like to say from my heart, but who knows? When I walked into the meeting room I wanted so much to go around and hug everyone there because I wanted to connect with each of them. But because it's simply not done, I just sat down. And, even though I'm the recording secretary, I didn't even approach the new member with a warm greeting as I wanted to. I wanted to so much, but I assumed the role of the professional, and I felt totally alienated. My heart ached. I looked at the one woman across the room and felt connected with her, but the feeling of separation was huge. The meeting was on another level. What the heck am I doing here? These are not my people!

The vitality I felt opening that book was validation - I need to make more connection with women. The book was about women speaking freely about all sorts of things, sexual, spiritual, feelings, emotions. That plugged me into my power. While I am very comfortable in my own home day after day, I only feel plugged into my own vitality and power when I am communicating somehow with someone on a level that somehow plugs me in. I think it’s not “what” I’m talking about - it’s not a “thing” - it’s the communication itself. It’s the flow. It’s being able to express and define and speak my own truth and having someone hear me and respond to me from their truth. It’s a flowing of truth. It’s also freedom flowing. It is for that reason that I am inviting women only to a women's gathering at my home. 

It has been decades of wishing for connection with my kind of people, but I didn't know who they were. How do I find them? I didn't realize that it was ME who was trying to find ME, meaning my own truth and freedom. It’s not even femaleness that I’m seeking but my own truth and freedom to speak. I’ve come to realize that the best mirrors out there are women, not men, to practice with. For years I was looking “out there" for my people, and my people are not "out there". They may well be “out there”, but if I can’t communicate with them, then I won’t find them because it’s not “them” who are hiding beneath the outer shell - it’s ME hiding beneath the outer shell. I haven’t been expressing my own truth freely.

So my people have been out there right along. I am realizing as I stop to consider. I have been looking for connection with other women, because men have been holding me back. Men hold me back because the truly feminine being - the one who operates on the love frequency - is a nurturer and supporter. Men have need for acceptance, love and approval and a truly feminine being responds to that need. The feminine force is a universal force and it is the counterbalance to the masculine force which is also universal. The feminine force is there to bring peace and comfort and it doesn't matter whether it comes through a male body or a female body, when comfort, peace, approval and acceptance is required, the universal feminine provides it. It is automatic. It is innate.

The only problem is, men have (in my experience) turned this comfort, peace, love and nurturence, sexual. It was natural in me to give it, but it was usurped and redirected. Thus, after many years, I am gathering women to explore this feminine side of life. We’ve all been covered over by required “appropriate” mannerisms which frustrate our naturalness, so it takes time to undo that shell that we’ve grown into and which has become comfortable. But it’s a limitation on our freedom.

I have instinctively looked to women for free conversation, to feel comfortable in their presence because they accept me. I was raised on a farm in a family of all girls, no brothers, and easygoing parents, so sisterhood is natural for me. Life was exciting, good and easy until I got married. Then everything changed. I became lost to the world of "men first, women second" and there are rules in place. It was an insidious route. I did not understand how much so. With enlightened instruction I could have saved my first marriage and not have a breakdown. Today I realize that it was the marriage that I bought into. Marriage is a powerful network devised for ownership by the patriarchy. It is OK if you don’t agree with me. But I think many women will. It was marriage under the law that repressed me. Not dating, but marriage or living together. I lost my freedom then. This is not to blame the men because they too were caught in the net and lost their freedom. It is something we need to talk about and define for ourselves.

Today we enter a growing awareness of patriarchal rule, and a correspondent though questionable subject of negative ET races taking over the planet, and the women's divine feminine empowerment being overtaken by the #metoo movement and becoming radicalized. The new age spiritual movement is innocent and pure, let us remember that, and so it shall remain. Sexuality was my school room. Through couples swinging I learned about men and I learned about women, and I learned about love. I learned that there is a higher love than human. I learned that the masculine force is focused outward on the perimeter of the property, and he defines it with walls and boundaries. And I learned that women are focused inward on the heart of their feelings, where stillness is like a mirror reflecting everything she passes through, and there are no boundaries or perimeters. The feminine universal force lives within all of us, men as well as women, but it seems many of us haven‘t gotten it yet.

There is no question about it. Education is needed. Words of explanation are needed, and the courage to define oneself is needed. Words are more powerful than action. The men were given authority over the women because they were educated. They could define the rules and thus they became the leaders and governing authorities, while the women were not allowed to be educated. We’re talking prehistory now. And before words, certainly, by brute force, size and strength. Men made the law and the school texts and the religions through words. The masculine agenda builds the civilized structure through words. They define how far out the walls should be built. It is based on survival and protection. They have ruled the roost for so long that the inevitable shift back to balance and equality is difficult.

Where is the feminine? What does it believe? How does it define itself? How is it different from masculine? Are there even words? Is it always going to remain silent and receptive, only to be used to respond and mirror back the other? Is there a place of balance between what is feminine and nurturing, and what is masculine and protective? Only the women can define these things and put them into words. Whether or not a woman is truly feminine in her consciousness and mind doesn't matter. It's the body that is the vehicle of expression so women only are invited to attend a women's gathering, whether they feel feminine or not.

The subject of trans-gender needs to be tabled for group discussion, not by me alone. This is why the gatherings are being called - to discuss. We all come from a different perspective. We have all lived before, many times, and we will all live again. But we are here right here and we each have an accumulation of wisdom and knowledge that has not been allowed to express. 

There is a belief that has been long held from prehistoric days. And that is that men have needs that only women can provide. And vice versa, women have needs that only men can provide. That is the program that we have been running on from time immemorial.  But there is a deeper truth. There is a more universal perspective that is coming up in discussions these days that says otherwise. A more balanced perspective comes from the inner life of a person. An awareness, so to speak, that is growing increasingly stronger by the day, listening to TV, movies and reading books. It is displacing this old belief system of dependency on the other gender. It tends to defy the old belief of genders needing each other and replacing it with genders enjoy each other. It’s replacing the word “need” with “enjoyment”. There’s no pressure at all. No hunger. No need.

The old belief of “need” is based on the limitation of the first two chakras. The root chakra which based on survival, and the sacral chakra based on sex and reproduction. It was in the second chakra that the imbalance took place. The root chakra based on survival is a masculine perspective, meaning it focuses on how to ground into the physical earth and create food, shelter and place parameters around oneself and ones family. The next chakra up is a feminine chakra. The sacral chakra which enables women to receive the male seed and create new babies, is very loving, tender, nurturing, sweet and innocent. The second chakra focuses on loving, sweet and tender emotions to work with and support the male‘s physical focus on work and construction.

The imbalance came in when the root chakra took over with its focus on solid physicality. It ruled the roost (negative ETs had a lot to do with it) and the loving, tender, supportive chakra was buried. The masculine perspective took over. From that day forward the masculine perspective towards focus on physicality became law. The loving nature of the feminine was usurped. Women know but can’t speak. Perhaps we can speak about it in an all-women’s gathering. What should have been a co-equal perspective, feminine with masculine, can be once again recreated through focus on emotional communication. Feelings.

It doesn't matter what happened back then. It only matters that we adjust to the shift in perspective now. Allow love and support towards peace and harmony to gain ground. It does not take away from the virile masculine; it actually will fill him with more power and strength. The future looks promising as the feminine perspective becomes equal to the masculine. While expressing inner emotions was forbidden by the patriarchy in whatever way they did that, it is now coming back online, if you can say it like that. It's part of the new age and the new culture that is birthing within us. The divine feminine is the multidimensional aspect of who we are. We are accessing higher, finer, nobler consciousness. All of us, men included. We tap other dimensions all the time but women feel it first. It is innate to women, just as physicality is innate to men. Women want to expand their nurturing qualities, which means their love qualities, their sexuality and sensuality, their emotions and their intelligence. They simply want to expand, meaning they want to live it, who they are. They haven’t been allowed to be free. They have been on hold. They want to comfort and harmonize, knowing it will help stop the fighting and the warring and the ugliness. It is the feminine aspect of the universe, of creator, of God, of Allah, of whatever the Almighty might be named.

That doesn't mean all women are going to be nurturing, or that all men are going to be macho - that opinion is in process of change. There are many men today who are very feminine, some totally feminine. And there are many women today who are very masculine, some totally masculine. So what I'd like us to do is get together as women without men and define what it means to be feminine.

I'm inviting local women in the SW Florida region, but anyone coming from afar, perhaps just visiting, may join. No money is to change hands. Bring a social card or if you have a business bring a business card to give out as you feel to. But this is not a platform to promote any one field or endeavor. It is an open forum for discussion and to share who YOU are as a person. That would necessarily include what your interests are, which may include a business. Perhaps we will build a network of resourceful women.

With love I leave you for now. Thank you for listening. I was going to talk about massage for women by women, which is a goal of mine, but I'll leave that for another day. Not everyone will want to be involved in that. The more important link to establish is intellectual and conceptual. Talking. Those who are interested in massage, can do so inside the circle. Please let me know if you want to come on Friday, October 25 from 2 to 5 pm. I'll send directions to those who haven't been here before.

Thanks for listening - er, I mean reading. Have a great day today and tonight.
(Newsletter sent 10/16/19)


10/7/19 Schedule of Goddess Gatherings - Naples, FL
Gatherings are free and take place in a private home

Yesterday I met with a woman who lives here in Naples and it was the one contact I was waiting for. After she left, I was given the green light to go ahead and calendar 2020 for the goddess gatherings. First, the dates are listed below, then I'll continue with more news.

Dates of GoddessSphere Women's Gatherings
2nd and 4th Fridays, from 1 to 5 pm

Fri., 1/10/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 1/24/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 2/7/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 2/21/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 3/13/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 3/27/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 4/10/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 4/24/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 5/8/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 5/22/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 6/12/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 6/26/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 7/10/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 7/24/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 8/7/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 8/21/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 9/11/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 9/25/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 10/9/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 10/23/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 11/13/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 11/27/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 12/11/20 from 1 to 5 pm
Fri., 12/25/20 from 1 to 5 pm

These gatherings have been a long time vision or dream for me, but I wasn't ready before now. It has been a long, slow process of clearing and becoming aware. I had to clear my own personal agendas first, and as you can imagine, that took a while (laughing!). But I can tell you more about it in person. AND so can those women who will be drawn to attend. This is the beginning of the first wave. It is of galactic importance.

It will be like a party, no lectures, alternating with free mingling and sit-down introductions. It's a coming out party and a celebration of freedom for women. As much as they feel ready to reveal, that is. There is no pressure, only comforting sisterly and motherly affection - a safe place for the holy innocents to shed the layers that have protected them over the years. Saturdays will also be available for those who come from a distance. A few can stay overnight here with me, others might plan to take a hotel nearby. Attendance will necessarily be limited to a small number each time. I'm not promoting it widely, only to my own list. I may post it on the Anakosha website on the goddess page, but will wait for guidance on that. Saturdays can be massage days. I have four massage tables all ready to be used. They are in reserve, just waiting. I feel that coming. Hands-on healing will be a provide a most remarkable benefit for women by women.

Back in 1976 I ascended into the light realms of love, goodness and truth. And it took 10 years for me to say, "I'm back to normal." I did not know that it was an ascension. I just called it an OOB experience. But the effects of it never went away. I had to adjust to the heavenly bliss being a part of me forever. I thought I was pulled back by my husband on that particular day, but now I know I made a decision to come back. It was my choice. I decided to. I agreed to. And I'm here to tell you that ascension is not being taken up in a spaceship or by angels on clouds of pink and gold. Many others have also ascended into the light and returned. The awareness is finally dawning on the brain. MY brain. Slap up the side of the head, dummy.

Ascension is real and you stay in your physical body while it happens. The trick is to realize what just happened to you. That's when you need a support group. Not a guru, but a support group of sisters who know. It is such an extraordinary event that people used to go insane when it happened because they could not reconcile the experience with their ordinary life that they were accustomed to. But we've grown since then, and growing by leaps and bounds today. We are shedding the dark shadows and revealing the sweetness and the light. Revealing the innocence that lies within. And we are human all the while, doing human things, eating foods that are not good for you, having sex, getting divorces, going on road trips, having children, going back to school. Human things. We are humans having an awakening as to who we REALLY are. Not pretend, but REAL. Holy innocents comes to mind having a human awakening experience. There is nothing wrong. No sin to 'fess up to. Only remember the goodness that we came from. The moment it happens is totally unplanned for. You can't prepare for this experience. It comes when it comes. You don't have to prepare for it. When you're ready, you're ready. Nobody can tell you beforehand, and nobody can tell you afterwards. You learn about it later, after the fact.

There are invisible guides watching. Very closely watching. They can see everyone. They are with you now, observing you as you read this. The goddess gatherings are to share experiences on a level you can't do in normal public forums. The woman who contacted me and came to visit yesterday, asked for a safe place to meet. She wanted to be sure. I assured her it was safe. That's my job. I've been preparing for you. And yesterday she and I talked and shared experiences. We want to do the same with others.

Follow your heart. Follow your TRUE heart. Follow your innocence. The divine feminine is located in the spine, not out in front of you and not in back behind you. It is located in the hollow pipeline of the central trunk of your tree of life, where the spinal cord is. Our back aches and belly aches are the result of focusing attention outside of our center. Our central trunk line is depleted of our conscious light. There are those who go out in front of themselves in assertive mode and become leaders and loud in their field, and there are others who retreat to waaaay in back, behind themselves, trying to disappear. In both cases, we develop aches and pains and diseases.

The ideal place to focus attention is in the main trunk of the tree of life, it's like a hollow tube that runs from the crown to the tailbone, and by extension to the feet into the earth. In the heart of that hollow tube, right behind the physical heart, there is a portal to the infinite realms. As we meet and share stories we will be focusing in a way that brings us back to center. It is natural when you are feeling relaxed and comfortable, to return to your center. Your center is blissful.  It is a soft and gentle homecoming. The problem is that people are shocked by it and they start questioning. Don't go analytical. It's not logical. Welcome what comes natural.

The harmonics tend to be right when people relax. No pressure, no pushing, no loudness, no emotional outbursts. Soft and gentle is a welcoming sign. No attackers allowed. Kindness and comforting thoughts only. Making space with for this is my training. The divine in me welcomes the divine in you. I have prepared for you. You may speak and share your stories, but only if you want to.

There is so much more to tell but these gatherings are not for me. They are for everyone who is drawn to attend one. They might come one time only, and they may be just be passing through Naples and decide at the last minute to join us. Or they may live in Naples but not feel the urge to come until one day they will want to attend. They will contact me and get directions. Women of all ages are welcome, of all nationalities, political, religious, economic, you have it. It is women who are invited to share, listen, dream, awaken, or perhaps to deny. It is their choice and their right to choose their own path and direction.

But there are some strange things happening in the world. I see them as wonderful, but perhaps others see them as not so wonderful. Big changes are coming to the world scene. Those who are watching from higher realms are trying their darndest to keep it smooth. Harmony is how they work and women are biologically designed to unify, harmonize, join, merge with, become part of what is going on. As women get it, so will the men. We will bring it home to them.

Many women's groups are popping up. Little islands of light in the darkness, and they're starting to send little lines of golden light out across the land to connect with nearby groups. It's being done on the etheric plane. You can't see it per se. I have been watching. I didn't know at first what I was seeing, but it's been seeping into my consciousness. I see backwards on my timeline and I see that I've been connected for years. It was just my brain that didn't know. The brain is the last to know. The information rides in on feeling. It's an emotion that carries heavens messages to us.

That's why we have to meet in person. Words don't carry feeling very well over the internet. A little perhaps, but not much. And incidentally, I am very hopeful that a network of men will come into existence soon. But it's not mine to do, it needs a male leader, so I will only focus on the women.

So long for now. Blessed be to everyone who reads this. You may share it with other women you know. 
(Newsletter sent on 10/7/19. Contact me if you want to be on the newsletter list and get it first hand.)


9/26/19 Strengthen your auric field

There are many things we can talk about when we get together as women to validate the divine feminine, and by the next newsletter I'll have the schedule of dates to post so you can plan whether to attend and what dates. We are spiritual beings living in physical bodies, but we live in a world which socially and culturally does not recognize our spiritual nature. The spiritual side of us is the feminine side. It is why we are so sensitive, emotionally, in comparison to men. Men of course have a spiritual-feminine side too, but they have a different polarity and they need to stay focused on the material world. This is the main reason for gathering women without men. 

The Ascended Master Djwhal Khul has been advising me over many years - approximately 43 years - and his advice has been invaluable. The following dictation was given to me when I needed it and I asked him the proverbial question, "why?" I hand-wrote through automatic writing. I'm sharing it because it's important to remember in today's social and political climate. This is DK speaking...

Quote: "When someone draws your power and focus from you, demanding your attention and you do not want to give it, they are sucking on your light because they are lacking in light. Love and light are synonymous. Light is masculine, love is feminine. They are one and the same. Those who suck on your power, drain you so you are fatigued beyond understanding and you don't know why.

Your movies call them vampires. They feed off your light and your love because they are  the soul-less ones. They feed off others and do not give anything in return. They are not evil, they are idiots for they have given their power away and have nothing left. So they are now mindless creatures who are ignorant about how life works.

They do not know how to build up light and love in themselves. They gave their power away by depending upon others for their food source, their fuel source, when they should have built up their own supply. By giving up their power and becoming dependent on others they have become dark. Do not be like them. Do not give your light away. When you are fatigued in the presence of such a one, walk away. Find an excuse. Any excuse or simply get up and leave. Hang up the phone.

You have built up your own light for yourself. Do not give it away. Give them instruction instead on how to build their own light. Give them instruction only when you are ready. Wait until you are inspired with a thought on how to give them instruction. Meditate until you are clear. Meditate and build up your own light. Wait until you feel the stirring of brightness and excitement. Wait until your higher self inspires you. Then you will know how to give instruction to those who steal your power.

When you are centered you will be able to give the best instruction. They do not want to do the work themselves and would rather steal it from others, so you must be discerning. Use the appropriate method to turn their sucking back onto themselves. Do not be food for zombies. That is the greatest expression of love that you can give: to turn back the sucking onto themselves. Let them see what they are doing. Give them a lesson in how to build their own light and stop stealing it. 

Light is endowed in every one who is walking, even the dark ones.  Even the walking dead, as some like to call the ignorant and mindless ones. Because nothing can exist without the spark of creator within. Light is hidden in the dark and so it must be uncovered and activated.  It may be denied and some minds may be wiped clean by sophisticated weapons. But there is a spark within that is a spark of creator. Blow on it.

Do not let the light go out, is the message from the sun, do not let the light go out but send it home again.  Blow on that light again and again until it bursts into flame and burns through the veil of darkness and confusion that clouds judgment and vision. Everything has light in it, even the stones and the waters and the trees.  Darkness awaits the light but it has to be blown on from within. Self-focus, self recognition, self-appreciation, self-love, self-discernment and self-empowerment. Meditation and prayer is the road to spiritual recovery.  Spending time alone with ones higher self, focusing on love and light and raising ones voice in prayer, song, praise, gratitude and love. It is through the use of sacred intention and sacred sounds that forms the sacred science of life.

Use the words "I Am Light" often for the words "I Am" whenever you speak those words, is the power of  the light. It is the creator, in you.  Love and light is awareness - clear, untainted awareness - uplifting, clean and bright. It is where all knowledge comes from and all inspiration. Blow on this spark of love and light within your heart and you are growing your own enlightenment. Meditate every day for 15 minutes and your higher self will infiltrate your awareness, through your body, emotions, mind and spirit.

This light and love melts away animosity and the desire for  vengeance. It melts away the urge to do violence. Blow on  light and love in your heart through meditation and prayer, as you would blow on a dying camp fire to bring it back into life. Fuel the flame in yourself with deep breathing and with sacred words. Give your attention to your SELF, not to those who would steal your attention. Your confusion will disappear. Answers will come surprisingly easy.  It is a proven method. Your desire to live will push back the darkness and confusion like a solitary blade of grass pushes aside the concrete in the cement sidewalk.

Look! Look! Look! Pay attention to the ember that glows red in the darkness. Blow on it with all your force and breath. Use the words, "I am Light!" Spend 15 minutes doing this, saying the words over and over:  "I am light, glowing light, radiating light, intensified light, God consumes my darkness transmuting it into light!"  The angels and the great beings of heaven will come to surround you when they hear you calling to the light. They come to support you and to give you strength.

Do not give your precious light, your focus and attention, to someone else unless you are strong and stable enough to support that person. Build up your power. Save yourself first. Your first duty every morning when you first get up is to give yourself 15 minutes of light. Maintain your own light so you may live to serve others and take your place in the grand design that is, at this very moment, weaving earth and heaven together through those who are supporting and maintaining the light.

You are here to hold the space right where you are. You hold your space by acknowledging and appreciating it. Raise your focus upward. Raise your attention upward. Raise your awareness upward to your higher self, your future, your brightness. Right now, as you are sitting here reading this.

Do not let the light go out, is the message from the sun. Do not let the light go out, but send it home again, meaning to your inner higher self which is your god-self, your goddess-self, your divinity.  Higher and higher the flame grows as you pay attention to it. Imagine it as a brilliant blazing sun above you. It is soon ablaze within you on the ground and in you in your higher self,  as you clear the debris from the channels that run through you.   Do not let the light go out but build it up stronger and stronger until it is in full blaze. Then you can help your brother and sister to stop stealing the light from you." End quote.


9/12/19  GoddessSphere Newsletter sent today

A gorgeous, peaceful, beautiful day to everyone! The harvest full moon is coming up this Saturday, September 14. Whatever that means to you, enjoy its brilliance. It is a reflection of Father Sun as it bounces off the feminine moon.

Now, I have several messages for you. This is going only to women. After the heady communication with St. Germain a couple weeks ago in which he said basically "Time's a'wasting! Get on board with what you have to do!" - things were quiet. Several days later I began to wonder, Where did the excitement go? Only then did it dawn on me that it's up to me to take the next step.

This is difficult for me. I have been accustomed to receiving instruction, not initiating. Now I'm being asked to move myself. It's a new thought. They who are trying to get women up and running after being buried for eons, are not going to do it for us. They are providing assistance only. They are very tall, big parents beaming down encouragement and smiles, but they are waiting for us to act. I had to consider this. I'm an elder woman, not accustomed to quick action. So I mulled it over for a few days. I've been too feminine, too much of a follower, rather than think for myself. I laid wide awake trying to go to sleep the other night, thinking about it. How do I bump up confidence to initiate this important action that I've been dreaming about for years? This is the Big Shift. The patriarchy is stepping down and the matriarchy is stepping up.

I'm taking up space here to spell this out because this is the underlying purpose for gathering women - to support one another on a level that is different from a man's way. It is feminine. Women have been wonderfully supportive for eons and eons, but we've been supporting the human ego, not the divine ego that exists within. It's time to switch over and start supporting the divine within. I think women know what that means, where many men question it. The true source of power lies within and UP. There is no power in ego; it's an artificial intelligence. It's why people grow old and die. The shift to the divine within is the women's job as the mothers of the planet and the nurturers of unity and peace. This is going to be the biggest game changer of all time, when done.

I went to sleep last night musing about my role in this shift. I woke up with the words, "Keep the home fires burning for those who have been away, far, far away, on a mission. They have been cut off from Home, unable to get back. Keep a camp fire for them to gather around, for we will be coming soon.”

I scribbled the words down and went back to sleep. But then I woke up again with more words, " Gather them. Welcome them with love. Let them know they have not been forgotten. We‘ve been trying to reach them. Let them know we are coming, that they are safe and their family is waiting for them. Keep the Home fires burning.”

It seems I have to go to sleep before the messages come. My human ego gets in the way. But each time I am awakened in order to write it down and then go back to sleep. Do you do that too? I think a lot of people are experiencing this - getting messages while they sleep. If not, try it. Be sure to keep a pad and pen near the bed so you don't have to get up, and a small flashlight so you can write it down without disturbing your sleep mate. We forget it in the morning. These messages come from a higher level, and the brain is wired for the physical environment. It is too dense to remember. But the veils are thinning.

The idea of hosting an ongoing women's network has been my plan for a long time,  but it is MY plan. Other people have other  plans. Women's gatherings are starting to click in. I don't know when this will happen. I am told to wait. Even the masters can't tell me when or how it will happen, because there are massive changes. Energies are shifting as similarities are drawn together and dissimilarities are moving apart. Little sparks of light are popping up around the globe as connections are made. Those on higher planes are watching but can't advise us, other than to keep looking up and go with the flow. BE the flow! they say.   

I feel my part in scheduling the gatherings will be soon, the fixing of dates and times. It needs to be in harmony and happen more smoothly and orderly. The feminine spirit has been buried underneath the requirements of the culture, and is burrowing its way up to break the surface. Once above ground, linkups can be made physically. A holding of hands, as Barbara says, and lots of hugs given joyfully and freely. But the vision is fluctuating, bending, distorting in the sunlight coming through the moving branches of the trees blowing crazily. It's like a mirage. The plan is solid but the earth forces are whipping things around randomly. The women will stabilize it. The reason for gathering is to stabilize the chaos.

Meanwhile, I am to pass along a thought. Be thinking about how you would introduce yourself to a group such as this, all women. Even if you are not planning to attend this one, there will be others popping up in other locations. This isn't the only one. There will come a time when you’ll be called upon to introduce yourself to a group of strangers. Who will you say you are? It's homework. I must do the same for myself. A three minute introduction would be about right for the GoddessSphere gatherings. And remember, it’s all women.

Another suggestion, find a picture of yourself that you really like of yourself. A picture that draws you because you like looking at it. You might think it’s just a good likeness of you, but it can also be a quality that is missing today and you want it back. A glow? Youth? It’s hard to define. It could be a picture taken years ago or just last month. What is important is that it draws you. This picture is a connection to your higher self. Treat it as such. Meditate with it. It is your higher self. You ARE your higher self. Your higher self is you. It is saying, "I am you and you are me, we are one." Imagine it above your head or perhaps emerging out of a lotus blossom at the crown of your head that is opening, petal by petal. Or imagine it waaaaay up high, close to the sun, glittering in the sunlight. Look at the picture often. 

This happened for me. In going through old photos I found a picture that stunned me. I loved it! It reminded me of - what? I couldn't say in words. It was me. It was hauntingly me. It began appearing to me during meditation. First it was waaaay up high in the sky, glowing in sunlight. Days later it appeared to be closer. It continues to descend as the days go by. I can even imagine I AM my higher self, walking and talking, on the ground. I feel this is an ongoing process that we can consciously assist by realizing we are our own higher selves.

The higher self is a perfect body of light. It has never been corrupted. There are many spiritual guides available to us, but the chief number one guide is our own higher self. It has been called the christ, meaning crystal. The religions said that only Jesus was a christ, but that was because Jesus DID merge his humanity with his beautiful perfect body of light. What is not known is that everyone has a christ body surrounding them and available to them. It is crystal pure and is called the immaculate conception. We descended down out of that immaculate purity in order to take a human form, but we are destined to remember it and return to it and merge back with it again. I’ve been studying spiritual anatomy for many years and this is what I have been given. 

Gathering the women together alone without men helps us to acknowledge our higher selves better, because women are more spiritually attuned than men. Men were created to focus on the physical world where females were designed to hold the spiritual connection. Same genders can validate each other better without the opposite gender being present. Men need to do the same thing. Hopefully there will come along a good male leader to hold men's groups. Genders have been confusing each other by trying to agree with each other, but they actually hold each other back. Two different genders were designed for a reason - for stimulation!  Opposites attract!

I am planning a women's gathering with freedom of movement, speech and diversity. We don't want a strict agenda. No sitting still for an hour like in church or a class without freedom of expression. We will alternate between free-form standing and mingling and sit-down discussions.  I am Nancy. I’ll be your hostess. It will be at my home. I love to hug people and make them feel welcome and comfortable. I want feedback. What questions would you like to put forth as a topic? There will be  stimulating talk, quiet meditation, and mixing and mingling freely.

Feel free to comment to me by reply email. Let me know your thoughts. I’d love to hear from you. Even though there may be different ego personalities, some talkative, some shy, some in pain and hurting, we will be connecting on a deeper level than ego personalities. We will create a unified field. It will be smooth. We are all women. We are energy creatures. We feel emotion - energy in motion - it is felt in the body. It's a  soul level feeling. Soul is feminine. It's the soul that is embodied. A body feeling is not a thought. Thought takes place higher up, in the brain. The brain is not capable of feeling. As feminine beings women are better at feeling in a 360 degree radius. It is subtle. We know things but are often held back from speaking our knowings out loud.

So let us gather and celebrate womenhood. Share with us your presence. Just show up and let your higher self overlight you. Days and times coming soon. It’s a celebration. By the way, does anyone play the guitar and sing? 


9/5/19 GoddessSphere Newsletter sent today 

This precursor to an invitation is going out only to women. I have been discussing this for a long time, and last night I discussed it with St. Germain. As you know, he is an ascended master and the leader of the new golden age that is now underway. I have been hesitating to schedule another goddess gathering after the January 7th held at the Comfort Inn in Naples, but St. Germain is gently encouraging me - actually strongly pushing me and becoming very demanding, though I say that smilingly and with great respect and appreciation. I need to be pushed. I've been dragging my heels.

I have been enjoying the Master Djwal Khul, who is affectionately known as DK, as my number one "go-to" guy for over 40 years. Although I've known about the other ascended masters, members of the Great White Brotherhood, by name, it has been  DK who has been overlighting me all this time. He touches me emotionally. I not only feel him sensually and hear him mentally, I have absorbed him into myself. He is such a humble, compassionate celestial being, that my head bends down and tears spring up when he is near. Emotion fills me.

Recently, however, maybe within the last six months, St. Germain has popped up in my mind when I intend to say the name "Master Djwal Kul". At first I thought this ws my own failure to concentrate sufficiently, but I have grown over the last few days to understand that it is St. Germain who is trying to contact me. Whenever you say the name of a master, mentally or out loud, he or she immediately responds if you are quiet enough and receptive enough. There is no distance and no time lapse in the realm of consciousness. We have not been educated to know this, and the ascended masters have been trying to reach us for centuries to teach us and educate us about our OWN powers and ability to be in touch with them. To wake us up, in other words.

I was sent a video several days ago and I finally listened to it yesterday. I did not rush to listen to it, thinking it was just another recounting of St. Germain's lives by someone, and while his story is fascinating as an immortal appearing physically in the courts of France and at Independence Hall in Philadelphia, I am familiar with the stories. But when I listened yesterday, I was surprised to hear a modern account of a man in Mt. Shasta who met St. Germain physically. It is quite a compelling story by someone who speaks in common, everyday language, not as a sophisticate. Last night I went to sleep talking to St. Germain in my mind, and I woke this morning still talking with him, though about what, I couldn't remember.

St. Germain has touched me with a message. Not in the same way that DK touches me, which evokes reverence and gratitude, but in a way that said, "Listen up!" There was sternness. It's a different feeling coming from St. Germain. I am starting to "get it". It takes a while to discern the presence of an ascended master. They are not all the same, contrary to popular opinion. Everyone who ascends into their "forever" suit has immortalized their uniqueness, after many lifetimes and lessons as a human being on earth. There are no duplicate ascended masters. Each is an individual. 

After getting up this morning and heading toward the bathroom I started getting the message. "Write this down!" so I did. And as usual, the more I wrote, the more words kept coming until I filled a number of little post-its which I keep scattered around for just such occasions, and finally started laughing at myself. "Stop!" I said suddenly. "Hold that thought, I really have to take a shower!" Through the shower I kept receiving more insight and revelations, but didn't have to write any more. I had enough to send this message out to you. What I was getting is urgency. It's time to move. Get out of the way and stop dilly-dallying around. "It's time to act." Get moving, get ready, "We are coming. Act NOW!"  

My faltering indecision and procrastination has to stop. I've been holding myself back by not knowing how to organize a gathering, or what to focus on. What is the primary reason for holding them? Should I focus on sexuality or spirituality? Or on the ascended masters, or the galactics? Or on massage for women, which I'd love to do? Or should it just be a celebration for women? What direction should it go in? It has been a classic human bog-down. Confused. DK has told me not to hold on to ideas, but let ideas go like a helium balloon because there is always more to come. "Don't grasp it because then you close down." I have wanted a women's circle for so long, and it keeps coming and coming and coming, the idea and the dream and the vision of holding these. Maybe DK was right! Maybe I've been waiting for THIS.

Now St. Germain is apparently stepping in. I am relieved. He got my attention. The feeling is "It's time. Get on with it! Send the invitation out today. Clear the path, we are coming." Meaning the ascended masters are coming closer to us, consciously. We are starting to receive them. We are ready. We are waking up. Remain alert.

This is not channeling. Long ago I decided not to relinquish my mind to trance channel.  I wanted to stay alert and aware and learn as it happens. Apparently they like this approach. Ascended masters are not here to be worshiped. They're not here to save us but to educate us in how to draw on our own resources. They are our older brothers and sisters. We have a mind, "Use it!" they say. "Build on it! Expand it!" And they have been teaching me how to do this. I've been getting so many messages they are beginning to spill out into my writings. St. Germain is telling me, "Just gather the women together, and we'll take care of the rest."

It's true that I've been holding them back. Many people are holding their higher selves back. We each have an aspect of our self that lives on the higher planes alongside  the ascended masters, but we are holding back. We don't want to believe that. We are too lowly, too small and insignificant. The reason for gathering the women without the men is to build self esteem and self confidence in the powers that are in us. The empowering of women must happen first.

"Act!" is the message this morning I woke up with. "Gather the women. Start talking.  Meet, greet, move, interact, engage, exchange information." Not for meditation, enough meditating! Enough sitting immobile and chanting. Prepare, yes, but then get up and move.

I have been intimidated by unrealistic fears. I am very cautious about being seen as a loony tune, a crazy person, or someone from outer space. And of course there is reason for that. Fear of being put to death by fire, hanging, beheaded, drowning or arrested on some manipulated trumped-up charge and thrown in the dungeon is something to be cautious about. But it is not a current day fear, these are past life memories and they need to be released and emptied out. We can't do that with men. Past-life stuff haunts women. (Witchcraft and all.)

The reason for gathering the women together in a safe place is so they can speak freely without having to censor their words. It is to provide a safe place for sisters, mothers, aunts and friends to vent and support one another. Women need each other to heal the fragmented, fearful soul. Women have the capacity to reflect innocence and purity. There is a divine connection, where the male has an opposing energy flow toward logic and practical. Once women gain confidence with their own gender, you will be able to cultivate a better connection with the men.

So, bottom line, this is an invitation coming to you to meet at my house for four hours, every two weeks, but no date has been set yet. I am asking for some feedback before I create a schedule. Which day would YOU prefer? I prefer a Friday for my own reasons, but I am open to change. This is going out to 70 women in three different categories. The first category are those who attended my January 7th Goddess Gathering at the Comfort Inn. The second category are those who didn't attend but who know me and would like to come after reading this through. The third category will go to women who don't know me personally but who have seen my writings and responded. The gatherings will be here in my and Doug's home in Naples. Doug has been prepared and is willing to step aside to let us have our safe space without interference.

The conclusion I've come to after St. Germain's lecture today, is that while I've been procrastinating in getting this started, it was intended this way. I'm not a leader type. I'm a mother-type. I like to gather people into my arms to love them and keep them safe, not to lecture them.  I am a comforter, not a teacher. I don't have the strong ego or inclination to stand at a podium and speak. A circle is my style, without a leader.  The ascended master St. Germain and the others are saying they will overlight such a group and be available. It will be a safe, happy and free environment especially for shy ones to let down their walls and fears.

"Let the women be free to grow their OWN resources. Let them be unbounded and unrestricted by rules, other than what is decided upon by consensus. Let them feel their own playfulness and express their own spontaneity. And if their be evil, then let it be transmuted by the free-flowing love within each now flowing. Let them share their ideals, their yearnings, their frustrations. It's all OK. Let them be like the flowing waters finding its own level. Let them discover that they already know these things, and don't need to be told. Only remembered. Let them discover these truths through the feminine reflections coming from their sisters."

So what I'm doing here with today's message is asking for feedback. What do you think? What day of the week do you prefer? If you are not at all interested in this direction, ask to be removed from my mailing list. There will be no cost involved, and I'm not planning on food. Just a four-hour gathering every two weeks. Please let me know if this inspires you.

Link to the St. Germain story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmO51AaczEc



7/22/19 The Rebirth of Sisterhood on Gaia
 https://www.solara.org.uk/post/the-rebirth-of-sisterhood-on-gaia

(Newsletter sent today) Please receive this amazing, wonderful message about rebirthing love on our beloved Mother Gaia. This channeling comes through Solara An-Ra, a South African-born woman now in the U.K. and runs a spiritual center in Spain. Solara works with the Pleiadians as an emissary to earth, working primarily with a collective of star beings who are assisting us through the ascension process. She travels the globe taking groups to activate light grids at sacred sites, and leads ceremonies during equinoxes and solstices to bring back the ways of our ancestors by celebrating our connection with the Sun, the Earth and each other. See Solara's picture at the bottom along with her website. The Pleiadians are a feminine culture, peace-loving and devoted to love, family and children. Of all the extraterrestrial races who are influencing us benevolently today, and there are many on the side of light, the Peiadians are at the top of the list. Others arethe Arcturians, Andromedans, Lyrans and Sirians. I'll send more on the various races in the future. But I love the light-filled ones! While this message is to inspire women, there is a beautiful message embedded here for men who love women. This transmission is from Satya of the Pleiadian Council of Love.
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Satya: It was never intended that women were more enlightened than men – it is simply the natural way of being on your planet that the women must lead the way. In Lemurian times, your physical continents and your physical planet were very different.. Visualize yourself now on your planet, which is in physical form, but with different colours, and different frequency, for in Lemurian times, it was indeed a different version of your planet.

In this version of your planet there was more awareness of the etheric world and the etheric fields of all things - the auras of the plants, the animals and the tree beings. There were the different plants and animals and trees and flowers at this time, and the sky was a different colour than it is now. It was more radiant, more glowing; more colourful.

And why was this? It was because, through the sacred mystery trainings in the Temples of Alorah, the priestess orders had managed to call into being on your planet, a multi-dimensional world in which the higher dimensions and higher dimensional beings were more visible, just as they were at all times of heightened evolution on your planet, such as in ancient Egypt, where the Hathors were visible to the priests and priestesses.

Imagine now that you are walking on the Earth's surface in this Lemurian reality, and you ask directions from another being to the temples of Alorah. This being looks into your being, scanning you energetically, and telepathically receiving the essence of you and the purity of your intention to revisit the temples of Alorah. They see that you are not from this time-line in which they exist – that you are from the future – and that you are indeed one who is seeded on planet Earth who is AN AWAKENER. And they are overfilled with joy and love at this opportunity to direct you!

Indeed, as they walk with you towards the Temples of Alorah, others start to gather into the space and to walk with you also, smiling – sending telepathic messages of love to you. And all of these beings are dressed in a kind of robe or robes – they have flowing clothes and flowing hair – they have unusual crystal jewellery adorning their body, that is energetically programmed to assist them in their aims and desires, whatever they may be.

The children of this time are different also – the children are awake; the children are open! And they continue to be this way as they grow older, for they are supported by the priests and priestesses – and they are supported and guided by whole sectors of the population, rather than parents only.

Now you find yourself approaching a crystalline structure, and it is evident that this structure is the temple, for there are columns that shape-shift in and out of a marble type frequency and material and pure light. And you are entering the light version of this original marble and crystal structure. You are entering the etheric, crystalline version of this temple now, which is very large and has different enclosures.

You are guided into the central enclosure, which is where visitors are greeted. This temple we have described before … it is a Pleiadian temple which is circular and large, and it has a current of water surrounding it in which dolphins swim. The columns are tall, crystalline and beautiful – and from time to time you see them morph into the original marble crystal versions of themselves.

You see the domed ceiling, which is a replica of the night sky – and the stars which are painted and etched with crystals into this domed ceiling, energetically connect in with the planets and stars above and around. They have been made with ingenuity, to connect in with certain other constellations of stars and places in the universe, through which the guidance and the healing and the prosperity and well-being of the entire civilization is dependent.

Now you are led to a marble, crystalline etheric bench – and you notice that there is a circle of benches and that there are other beings seated on these benches now, coming into conference with you. And all of you are guided telepathically to close your eyes in this place; to calm and centre yourselves, in order to receive the information that is being imparted by the collective consciousness of the priestesses of Alorah. They are able to collectively transmit to whomever is open to their guidance – and this is their transmission to you now:

“We are here. We are with you. We are with you now and forever. We are with you now and forever. We are with you now, through the past, present and future timelines, for you are one of us.

"Our intention is the full awakening and enlightenment of the women of the planet, who always were meant to be the way-showers for the men, who are the supporters. It was never intended that women were more enlightened than men – it is simply the natural way of being on your planet that the women must lead the way. The women lead the way for they are natural way-showers. The woman embrace the children, for they are the ones that must imprint them.

"On your planet as it exists in this moment, there is a re-balancing of this truth, so that those men who accept the women as the way-showers are now embraced into this order, and are unified with them as awakeners and way showers. Only those men who truly acknowledge the power of women; only those men who embrace and love the beauty, the receptiveness, the openness of woman, are embraced into this order.

"You have noticed this in your time-line – you have noticed that there are men who come into a supporting role for the women. Men and women are different – they have always been and will always be different from the female species. And you observe this through the animal kingdom, is this not so – you are no different. You have different roles, and there is no shame in owning these different roles.

"You have come through your curiosity to visit the temples of Alorah, in order to understand your connection with them and us - and this is in every way commendable and appropriate.

"The destiny of all women now on your planet is to come together as women in order to experience the embrace and the potential which is exponential when the sisters on Gaia remember the sisterhood. But it is time also for the men and women to come together - for the women to sit in council while witnessed by the men – and for the men to sit in council while witnessed by the woman – so that you finally understand each other better. In this way you are able to birth your New Earth – the dawning into the new crystalline golden age – with more clarity and understanding of your full power – and the power that is birthed when the men and the women remember once again who they are, and how they are different from each other, and how they can best love and support each other.

"This is happening naturally in your younger ones, in your younger generation – they understand each other better, and their ways of being together and their ways of being apart – for both are necessary for the balance of your planet. Allow the differences to be there – embrace them and love each other!

"You are the ones assisting in letting go of the distortions in the thought forms and beliefs about men and women! You are the ones who are re-birthing sacred sexuality – and there is no tantra training necessary for this. There is only love and acceptance needed – total love and acceptance of your own beings; your own sexuality. Total love, honour and respect for each other – this is all that is needed!

"You who receive this transmission, recognize my frequency. I am Satya, one of the original Pleiadian goddesses who was a priestess in the Temples of Alorah. We were not only Pleiadians in this sisterhood; there were many other star races – all of those known to you now in your present time-line – but the Pleiadians were predominant. For it is the Pleiadian vibration that most easily opens into love; into Christ consciousness – and it is thus that so many of you are attracted to us now.

"I, Satya, now exist as a frequency; as a vibration – just as Isis exists as a frequency and a vibration now, rather than as an individual Goddess. I am Goddess frequency, and I connect with you through Goddess frequency, and I assist you into birthing the Divine natural beauty and feminine grace, which each one of you holds.

"I implore the men who hear this transmission – I implore you to let go of the fear of women that may reside in you still – the fear of their power. For when you embrace their power, you truly allow their gifts to be bestowed upon you! For it is not you against them or them against you – it is a co-creation; a play.

"Embrace now your role as men of supporting the women; that they may become fully awakened and enlightened, and take their role on the centre stage of the Divine Plan for ascension on Gaia. It is not that you may not be one who is teaching or leading – not at all! It is simply that you must recognize the power of women. You must encourage their sisterhood and assist your own women and your own female children to embrace the sisterhood, for this is the only way for them to truly feel whole, and to let go of the loneliness that lingers in many of your females – this feeling of loneliness and isolation that comes when they are no longer in their sisterhood.

"Satya and the Pleiadian Councils of Love have been with you on this journey.
We are with you. We are with you. We melt your hearts open We melt your hearts open to each other. We melt your hearts open to this beautiful planet. We melt your hearts open to other human beings, and to all that exists.

"With great joy, humility and gratitude for your allowing of this transmission and for your acceptance of our vibration and love. Namaste!"

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7/13/19 - Today I sent out an Anakosha newsletter with the GoddessSphere logo underneath. I admit I am confused and unsure how to go forward from here. There is a huge maelstrom going on where everything is dovetailing together, as if everything I know is supposed to merge together and become one message. So I decided to use both the Anakosha logo and the GoddesSphere logo underneath it. What I shared today was about the most fascinating woman that ever lived, that we know of. The woman from Venus.  I knew about her years ago and forgot. Then I was sent a youtbe about her again. It comes on the tail end of watching "Ancient Aliens Declassified" on the History channel, which was a beautiful documentary about unearthed extraterrestrial clues and symbols, and what we are doing in preparing to go to Mars and beyond. There is a heavy military/commercial/masculine feel about this docoumentary. In comparison, listening to this lovely woman from Venus talk of unconditional love after arriving by star ship, it was Mars and Venus highlighted in bold. Click on the GALACTIC page to get to the youtube, if you're interested. Omnec Onec is her name. She came from Venus, from the astral dimension of Venus, arriving in 1955 in a physical body of a 7-year-old. She was given the opportunity to come and she accepted, at the request of her masters, where she underwent training. They wanted someone to live among earthlings to help in educating us in the truth of where we come from. They told her to simply tell about her own life on Venus. And this she did, in lectures, workshops, classes, and interviews. And she wrote three books, available on Amazon. There are now dozens of videos surfacing on Youtube from different nations where she spoke, but since she only speaks English we can hear her message, which is about love. It is ultra-fascinating.

As I said in the opening paragraph of the newsletter I sent today, "The Anakosha newsletter has left the rails! I'm broadening out into space. Let me know if you want to be removed from future newsletters. But, I couldn't resist sending this around [about Omnec]. I've gone over to the goddess side and this is such a good example of Feminine as compared to Masculine.....". 

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6/23/19 -  My perspective has changed. The divine feminine and divine masculine are merging. I have decided to not separate the GoddessSphere from my regular Diana's blog. Check Diana's blog. 
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6/8/19 -  Dear Goddess Friends, There is immense shifting in the atmosphere of Earth right now that is causing great upheavals in the balance between the feminine and masculine rays. This means there are corrections underway. This is not the time to begin an activity for women-only due to these changes, for each person must look deep into her own core, privately, without outside suggestions or interpretations. We will wait a little bit more before we undertake to gather the women together for enlightenment purposes. The purity of the goal is at stake. We do not want to confuse. Each soul is a complex version of the perfect being that divinity intended. Past errors are coming to the conscious mind to be recognized. There are cleansings underway. It is a sensitive time. It is a time for precision of purpose. The soul is busy. Let's give each person time to adjust. We will continue to update you. [This message comes from my higher self.] 
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5/21/19 - (from a private letter to women only on this date) One day recently I hit a ceiling of sorts where I noticed a sensation of hardness or rigidity. It was not so much a muscle tightness but as if I had hit something solid and I felt an agitation that I couldn’t move beyond. I decided to do the Tai-Chi-like movements that I used to do years ago when kundalini first activated. Spontaneous body movements, not "learned".

I stood silently, focusing inward and mentally repeated the mantra “I Am That I Am”,
waiting, feeling for the inner wind to start flowing. Shortly, one leg bent automatically at the knee and shifted foot position. The meridians started to open internally. I have had years of practice following inner currents but this time it was different. After about 10 minutes of very slow, rhythmic movements, my body stopped and let out a long sigh, expelling air in a slow, collapsing release, emptying, exhaling continuously as if it was the last breath of the body giving up the ghost. It finally reached an end and I was suspended in a vacuum of other-worldly silence. The outer world retreated and there was nothing by peace.

My eyes were open but fixed on some invisible point neither here nor there. I was still standing in the last pose, animation suspended. The familiar feeling of bliss began to spread through me, inner like a radiation, outer as if ethereal silk was being drawn over my skin. Everywhere I felt bliss - abdomen, chest, head, face, arms, fingers, back, hips. I thought, "How beautiful! How perfect!" It was a heavenly sensation. Words cannot describe it. I asked, "Why is this so hard to achieve in outer life?"

The answer came, "You are an animal body born of animal bodies with chaotic animal particles in your body. You cannot bring your immense self into an animal body without first moving out the chaotic animal stuff. As you bring in your divine self you move out the dead animal particles that are not the real you, and YOU move in! You are vast and eternal." A picture accompanied the words and I saw the earth and the small little animal earth bodies running around doing their small little animal things, and I realized how true it was that we cannot fit our immensity into those tiny little bodies.

It was not the first time and it won't be the last I had such experiences of other-worldly bliss. It is the primary reason why I'm trying to bring people together through massage, because it is through the intimacy of touch that we connect etherically and spiritually. It is through the skin. I have been trying to recreate this nirvanic feeling of ecstasy with other people through loving touch, but I have failed. It is the number one motive for my massage efforts. What good is this wonderful feeling if it can't be shared with others? The sweetness of being immersed in this awesome cosmic sensation is wonderful alone, but it is too much to bear alone. I want to share. It is bursting my boundaries. It's like a radiation from the sun, but I don't know how to recreate it with others.

I have been persistent! I've tried many times to form massage groups but I have not gotten even close. I know what the human body is capable of, if we could only get past the sex block. But so far I have only been able to achieve it alone, after I've prepared a sacred inner and outer space, without distractions from other people. And I've been enjoying it for years.

It's now 2019 and I am moved, driven, inspired to share it, show it, teach it if necessary, though I don't like being a teacher, but if need be I will. Because it's more than for me alone. It's like the old saying, "Love isn't something that was put here to stay, love isn't love til it's given away." Love is energy in motion, not stationary. Last night we entertained another couple. When we women were finally able to be alone without the men, we had a moment together. We talked privately on a level the men would not understand, until we were called and the moment was broken. We always feel as if we are stealing something from our husbands whenever we have such moments alone. Women alone? Why do we feel guilty? Last night was just another validation. I had already come to the conclusion that I'm going to have to work with women alone without the men if I am to advance this project forward to fulfillment.
 
I'm not sure if the readers of this message will understand, but men are a distraction to women, those of us who live with a man. We fill each other's spaces. We are entwined together like a vine wrapped around a tree. We anticipate each other. After the last attempt at couples massage, I reached the conclusion that I must work with women alone. There is simply too much tension or attraction when men and women are brought together in such close proximity as a group massage. It is not smooth. Men flow in an outward fashion, and women flow in an inward fashion. Men are focused outward and downward to the physical world, where women are focused upward and inward to higher, non-physical planes. Women are constantly scanning, reading and perceiving the energies of movement around them. Living with the opposite gender on a 24/7 basis, it is natural for us to adapt, but we are each contradictory to each other. The women's empowerment movement is an awakening to what is true for her and what is not. A woman's circle isolates the women from the men so they can focus on each other without men being present to distract them. They can then see, hear and perceive what is feminine from other women and what is not.

This is not forever, but only for a workshop session to experience what it's like to be intimate with other women. Not sexually intimate, but real, true and authentically intimate, at least as much as she wants to engage. It's a workshop. It's an exploration into self. We don't know what we'll feel or say when we get together. Obviously we're all different and we all come from different backgrounds with different skills and training. But even though all women are different in personality and character, there is an essence that flows through women which causes them to feel feminine, just as there is an essence in men that causes them to feel masculine behind their obvious surface differences in character - gay and lesbian issues aside.

Women seem to be better at accessing the non-physical planes we call spiritual. But because we have been born into a patriarchal system with men as the dominant force making the laws, she has been unable to bring forth into daily life her spiritually nourishing, loving nature. In the past, many women have turned to religion, spiritual cults and pagan ceremonies, as an alternative to share in their higher calling. The higher calling of women is not to go out of body into heaven, but to live it in daily life as the perfect balance to the physically-oriented male. Women know how to enjoy love in the physical body and she would lift and raise them to higher planes. She does not want to escape the body, but centuries of male dominance, hatred and abuse has hurt her. As she becomes empowered in this turning of the age, she will teach and show how to enlarge, expand, enrich and enjoy the physical body like it has never been lived in before. Humans are capable of experiencing ecstasy while in the body but it takes refining the focus to include the non-physical realms. We have been told we have four "lower" bodies that are corrupt. These pertain to the emotional, mental physical and etheric. The masculine focus on "physical only" has held back the entire human race from maturing to a more enlightened world. The feminine side of life is now germinating and blossoming into existence. Nature is handling it. It's going to happen. The days of patriarchy controlling the world is over. There is now coming into existence a wholeness we haven't seen in who knows how long? The truth of our human nature is about to be revealed.

Feminine empowerment is a threshold we are crossing right now. These finer aspects of ourselves are also in men, but women must lead. More beautiful sensations await. More love, more beauty, more freedom, more nourishment, more support, more encouragement, more abundance, more transparency, more elegance, more of everything positive. It's what we want. It's an evolutionary step out of the darkness. We are crossing that threshold. When just one women crosses it for herself to explore her various freedoms without being held back by the obsession on physical science and logic, she will lighten the load on her partner. Men carry a burden of responsiblities that they can't get out of by themselves. Women are the healers and unifiers. It is women who will turn the tide. She keeps the home alive because she nurtures everything in it, from children, adults, pets and even inanimate objects. Even inanimate appliances work when she cares for them.

Women heal through love because everything is made of love and she IS love on the higher planes. Love is the glue that holds the suns and planets in their orbits but she can't accomplish her purpose if there are centuries worth of repression locked in her gut. The reason I'm focusing on all-women's massage is to assist in the healing especially of the lower abdomen which holds memories of abuse - racial memories -  in tightly compressed etheric levels.   

It's an evolutionary leap in consciousness we are taking at this time. We are reconnecting the separate fragments of ourselves through sister and mother love, bringing together the feminine essence and blending it into a greater whole for the healing of the physical, emotional, etheric and mental bodies. There is coming about a greater transparency, as we can see in the news. This translatese into greater power and energy. The dark side of human nature has been to divide and conquer. Now the light side of human nature is bringing about the healing of separation and division, and more wholeness is the result. There is something beautiful waiting for us to explore, and we women are the ones to start the process by coming out of teh closet. As we become more transparent we will become more free and confident to choose what is best for us, personally. It brings more refinement, more clarity, more understanding, more health, vigor and happiness. It's a new way of living but we need to share it to share it on a common level to link up with others. It is not going to work studying esoteric philosophy at home alone. We need each other.

After being immersed in the sexual lifestyle of couples only as a leader, it was difficult for me to create a women-only circle, no men. Swinging was my life for 40 years, interacting always with couples. I learned to nurture everyone and I became transpersonal. I moved beyond my own needs and began taking the whole community into consideration when making choices. My personal feelings weren't as important as the whole group. Eventually, from an oversight perspective, I realized swinging was too male dominant. Women were nurturing their men more than themselves and feminine needs were not being fulfilled, meaning their spiritual, mental and emotional needs. I saw resentment take place, not only in me but in other women. It was unseen at first. I don't think any one realized it at first. It was a cultural awareness that had to evolve slowly, because we were born into a patriarchy where men made the laws. It has been a gradual awakening and a gradual light dawning that has burst open little pods and seeds over the years, and put down roots into the soil of human consciousness. The quiet submissive female who only wants to love, nurture and care for others, is becoming aware that she is not free.

Swinging for me was a spiritual path because it dealt with issues that most people hide and pretend don't exist. The couples adult lifestyle taught me to reach for something higher because selfish sex was a dead end. It wasn't fulfilling. But curiously, while my spiritual side gave me what swinging couldn't, my spiritual side could not give me what swinging could. So I learned to join them together and overlap the edges. I joined them and fused them together, which created exceptional nirvanic experiences.

Nirvana CAN be experienced in the physical body. We don't have to die to enjoy ecstasy, and I believe we can enjoy it with our sexual partners if our sexual partners will go there with us. It doesn't take away from the old way of sex; it expands the old way, in the same way a boy grows up to be a man. It is a spiritual awakening breakthrough that the physical body can enjoy. Exhilaration is a profound physical experience that is a thrill no matter where it is - in the garden or a bedroom. It washes through you like the sun at dawn, waking you up to a new reality. One is lifted to higher dimensions while still living inside a physical body but now it has more flavors, more sensations, more sights, sounds and colors. It is more luxurious, more wholesome, more miraculous, more loving.


I think this was the original teaching of Tantra, but good Tantra teachers are rare, at least here in the West. We are lacking in education. I am speaking from past life memories, I haven't experienced it in this life. Love lifts, but one has to share it with another human being to lift it higher, and it's not just sexual. It's not just for primary relationships to guard jealously. It's a way of life for the community to engage in. How it is employed is up to each person's choice, however he or she wants to engage. Everyone is sovereign.

Name anything off the top of your head and consider doing that act or thing with love that allows for upliftment and freedom. As my fingers are clacking away on the keyboard right now, and my eyes are focused on the words forming on the screen, I try to feel love and it broadens me and spreads out to the fan and the light and desk and my surroundings. Love expands.

A lot of people are channeling spiritual information about ascension and the new earth, but there is confusion over the physical body. A lot of people think they won't have the fun of physicality if they take the ascension route. So they resist it and don't want to hear about ascension. But that's not true. Ascension merely means evolving the mind, body and feelings and choosing wisely for the betterment of self and others. Human beings can take their physical sensations to betterment too. Richer and more enlightening. We don't have to wallow in the mud in order to feel erotic feelings!? Which is what I am hearing from others. Eroticism is the way of the Gods. We are meant to learn from them but we have to climb a little higher. We as human beings will find ourselves swimming in an ocean of love, not just on the ground between cotton sheets but in the atmosphere above the house. This is the natural habitat of the enlightened, sensual woman. She does not remain confined to beds.

A few days after the above experience with nirvana, I received further instruction while I was engaged in the rhythmic Tai-chi dance in my sacred space:

"There is knowledge that comes to you from each chakra differently. As you begin to focus on each area of the body you begin to “stir” the etheric energies in that region. It is like putting a spoon into a bowl of still water. You “move” the atoms and molecules of your etheric body, the realm just above the slow moving atoms of the physical. As you stir these atoms and molecules with your consciously-held attention on that region, information starts moving forward to be revealed. You feel heightened by this information because it is a part of you that has been closed off for lifetimes. It is a rather wonderful feeling.

"The knowledge that comes forward is not brain-knowledge. The “knowing” springs alive as if you were immersed in a lake full of this particular message. It hits all the cells and atoms at the same time. You might say, “I had an  AhHA moment. Or “I had a download this morning.” And then when you try to put it into words in the English language by stringing one word after another, you find it impossible to do.

"The brain is a storehouse of information that has been learned in this lifetime. It does not have the capacity to understand the inflow of information from beyond this lifetime. The well of information and knowledge that inspires you and lifts you beyond what you have been taught in this life, comes down through the chakra system, the portal system, directly into your body from your spiritual body. Your body is a library of information. As you begin to understand the chakra system of your body, it will make more sense. To “listen to your heart” is one way of saying it. Or “listen to your gut,” referring to your abdominal region.

"Each chakra or portal maintains the integrity of one of seven areas of your body and therefore has different information to shed into your body. There are specific values and qualities that come in when the chakra is opened, even though they are all linked together into a whole that oversees your entire four-body structure [physical, etheric, emotional, mental]. This is beyond the knowledge of earth scientists. Your chakras are linked the way a symphonic orchestra is linked to play beautiful music, and comes under the intelligence of a higher being who is able to “see” the finished product and holds the vision.

"When all the chakras are opened at the same time, lights begin flashing in your higher mind, different colors, different feelings and connections. Sort of like a control panel. When they start flowing in harmony with each other, there is an amazing display of knowledge and activity. Your mind doesn’t control it. You wouldn’t know how. The only thing that you are required to do is trust it and build confidence in the system." (End of this instruction)

It is my desire to have a few women to participate in all-women's massage. I've had many attempts at starting massage groups. I tried several all-women's groups but only one had a positive outcome. The failure is mine alone, not being empowered enough in confidence. It was E who called together an all-women's workshop in 2006 at her house, using me as her leader. A few of you may remember T & E who lived in Naples then. There were 13 women present. All were part of a couple as members of Anakosha. The men dropped us off at noon that day and left to go elsewhere, returning at 5.  

E welcomed everyone and then turned it over to me. I passed around a bag of crystals and asked each woman to take one and hold onto it for the day, returning it when they leave. Crystals have a way of unifying the atmosphere and I wanted to spread that feeling around. I led them in a guided visualization and then a discussion that started with the question, "What are your experiences with subtle energies?"

After a break during which we splashed around in the swimming pool, we went to the massage tables. There were four. Three women to a table, one laid down and the other two were on either side. I instructed they start massaging at the feet and move up the legs to the head. Fifteen minutes on her stomach, then 15 minutes on her back, and then she switched off and another woman got on the table. It took an hour and a half for everyone to have a massage. With two people working, each woman received the equivalent of an hour's worth of nurturing massage. Thirty minutes times two people equals an hour.

It was an excellent, beautiful energy. The women were in colorful flowing wraps and they looked to like angels. They worked quietly, intentionally. There was no joking or bantering, which is so common among women. I think the crystals helped and the sacred tone that we set. I didn't have to do much training. The went to work without thought. They were truly beautiful. I felt a lump in my throat and was impressed. So I know it can happen. It just takes the right attitude, the right approach, the right connection - and perhaps some crystals. They knew to slow down, they knew to care, and to nurture and nourish, without my telling them to. And they were very real and physical about it. The ones on the table started off with sheets, but then half way through most of them discarded the sheets.

It was the first time I had experienced an all-woman's massage and I would love to do it again. I am gearing up to announcing the first date. I'll keep you posted. I've gained a lot of confidence - have become more empowered - since 2006. Please feel free to give me some feedback.

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5/2/19 - An important announcement has reached me: The full mysteries of the Goddess were finally anchored on the surface of the planet on April 15, 2019, in a goddess group unidentified by Cobra. Cobra is a Pleiadian starseed who works underground with the forces of Light on this planet. I have been aware of him and his partner for many years. His wife, a woman by the name Isis Astara, died a little over a year ago. The following information was posted on Cobra's site on April 28 and it is vital to the unfolding theater going on behind the scenes which we don't hear about on mainstream news.

On April 15th, exactly at the peak of this important ceremony which fully anchored the Goddess on the physical plane, the black nobility families sprang into action and ordered Jesuits to put fire to key Templar sacred sites immediately. The first building put on fire was the Notre Dame church in Paris. The second fire to counteract the energy of the Goddess targeted Solomon's stables near Al-Aqsa mosque in Jerusalem.

The black nobility family has been at war against the Goddess for millennia. The Goddess embodies divine love, and love is an arch enemy to the dark controllers. The mysteries of Isis were discontinued in the year 457 at the Isis Temple of  Philae. The Templars discovered ancient sacred texts connected to Isis mysteries in Solomon's stables near Al-Aqsa mosque. Based on those texts, Templars recovered fragments of the Isis mysteries and brought awareness of Isis to Western Civilization. The Templars have built many cathedrals on locations throughout Europe where prior Isis temples existed to preserve the energy of love. The Cathedral of Notre Dame was one of them. It was constructed in the 1100s over an existing temple to the Goddess Isis.

Comte de Saint Germain, in his previous incarnation as Francis Bacon, has partially revived Goddess mysteries through the Rosicrucian movement: As Comte de Saint Germain, he was the hierophant of the Goddess mysteries. He has initiated both Count Cagliostro and Madame de Pompadour. Madame de Pompadour thus became the first high priestess on the surface of the planet.

A high priestess is a woman who can fully embody Goddess mysteries to the point where she can influence the global planetary civilization. She is a great harmonizing influence for the planetary energy grid and the civilization as a whole. Madame de Pompadour was instrumental in bringing high culture to the French court from where it spread through France and later through all western society. She also played a key role in suppression of Jesuits. During the time of full suppression of Jesuits (1773-1814) the Western civilization has reached its peak.

In 1775, Comte de Saint Germain opened a secret mystery school in Paris and his influence triggered the creation of many female masonic lodges in Paris. The Sisterhood of the Rose was revived in Paris as the Order of Knights and Nymphs of the Rose.

The second high priestess on the surface of the planet was Princesse de Lamballe. She was initiated into Goddess mysteries by Count Cagliostro who opened a temple of Isis in Paris in 1785, the initiation itself taking place at the spring equinox of 1785. She was a very pure soul, incarnated into dark Savoy bloodline in Turin. The Colonna family tried to manipulate her destiny, but failed to attract her to the dark side. She became the grand mistress of all adoptive (female) masonic lodges in France, and was the first person on the surface of the planet that was promoting true public feminine circles that were developing real sisterhood and friendship between women. She was the best friend of Queen Marie Antoinette. She was killed in 1792.

The third high priestess was Queen Sisi, queen of Hungary and empress of Austria. She used her divine feminine influence to facilitate union of Austria and Hungary and this act alone has bought Europe many years of peace and has postponed the world war for decades. She embodied the energies of Goddess Isis. She was murdered in 1898 by direct orders of the Geneve branch of the Rothschild family.

The fourth high priestess was Marilyn Monroe. She was killed in 1962 as she knew aliens existed and wanted to reveal the truth of extraterrestrial presence.

The fifth high priestess was Princess Diana. She was killed in 1997.

The sixth high priestess was Isis Astara, Cobra’s life partner. She was killed in 2018.

Now the surface of the planet is without a high priestess. Cobra says “This presents a certain problem as the energy grid of Light on the surface of this planet is destabilized. The Light forces are taking certain actions to counteract this problem and at this point, nothing more can be said about this.” However, I Diana say that the Goddess is in full swing. We women are aware of it. The divine feminine has been anchored. We have all felt it without realizing what it was. And I am pleased to say that we are among the many small circles that are beginning to grow the sisterhood of friendship among women. I will announce shortly a day for meeting at my house. It is important that I wait for the green light from my guides. They know when the energies are in best alignment to go ahead.

Cobra has posted many, many links to back up his facts as reported here, but I didn’t want to include them. If you are interested go to www.2012portal.blogspot.com and look for April 28 posting. You'll find links there. Cobra's site is a contact point for the Light forces who are scattered throughout the world. He uses codes and symbols that we don't understand, but once in awhile he posts information such as this. 

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4/25/19 - There comes an end to all good things and they come in their own timing. Every indication shows we are not in control of our lives - someone else is, beyond our sight. We are merely the point of the pen writing on the paper. The hand that holds the pen is an invisible hand that dwells in an infinitely larger place than our physical eyes can see. 

It is not only people who are drifting out of my life but my dreams are also disappearing. They were here yesterday, now they are gone?! I am perplexed. The end keeps popping up in front of me with nowhere to go. And then suddenly something or someone enters from stage left. Our northern snow birds are leaving us to go back home, and my own longings bend, shift and dissolve in the sun-drenched wind from the east. Colorful images break into a million scintillating pieces and are gone.

Yesterday I felt the desire to create a massage by women for women and today it is no longer viable. Where did the enthusiasm go? And today the desire to host a party for women has also disappeared like a mirage on the desert as I drive closer. Then Poof! Gone. Yesterday I dreamed big but suddenly I am left dry and empty. Where did everyone go? What will happen next?

In the vacancy of no more dreams, I wonder, "Is this a sign of the end? Will I too disappear?" I asked my ever-present guide and friend, Ascended Master Djwal Khul, the Tantric master from Tibet, and he said, "Why do you mourn? Can you not feel the purity of being free? Can you not feel your own transparency? Your own liberation?" And so he redirects me to enjoy the sense of lightness within. The freedom to simply be takes time to get used to. But, yes, I can now drift and enjoy the scenery as it passes. I am like the sailboat under an intelligent wind. There IS a lightness now, and a clarity, and something more - like exaltation. It raises me up. It's clean and fresh and vibrant. Is this of my own making?

The thought popped into my mind this morning that the whole reason for my being here in the first place is to return to the light within, not to help others return to the light in them, but to focus on my own light. My priority is to return to the light within ME! This journey is my own. I am about my father's business. The fallacy has been thinking "I have to help others", but the truth is, my job is to clear away old issues that have been weighing me down. These are old issues, very old, incomplete and unfinished. Dreams long forgotten that were buried. I didn't realize it but they never went away. I never released them and they needed to be cleared away. They have been clogging my spirit, keeping me from returning to the light of my natural innocense.

There have been many dreams over many lifetimes that were never satisfied. The longings were buried. They have been surfacing, haunting me, demanding my attention, like ghosts coming out of the closet at night when I sleep. I've been clearing them away. It was leaving me feeling empty until Master DK pointed out that I am doing a good job of freeing myself up. I am sweeping away etheric cobwebs, letting go of ancient memories dusty from the ages, like some ancestor's sacred treasures stored in a trunk in the attic. But in this case the ancestor is ME! Yes, I am remembering them and bringing them forward and playing with them for a little while and then blowing them away, as the buddhists do with those beautiful sand-paintings.

As I clear my etheric body of past-life ghosts, French doors swing open - I see them as double doors, one swinging left, the other swinging right - and I am standing between them in the light that is materializing around me. I am humbled by the grace bestowed upon me, and the knowledge that I don't owe anyone. I never did. All debt is forgiven because it was all my own creation which bogged me down heavily, like lead weights.  So much loneliness, so much need, so much hunger, desires, fantasies, a myriad castles built in the sky that never touched ground, never saw the light of day, stored as a lost cause for "later" and later never comes. Everything that was built once upon a time, has got to be released, and I am doing that now. All of these things are going away. Now I understand the feeling of "empty". It is a sign to look up because there is lightness all around. I am grateful that I have a platform in which to share this  experience with others. 

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4/25/19 - Here is another perspective on the burning of Notre Dame in Paris. It is an article channeled through Caroline Oceana Ryan, who has a fine reputation for spiritual information. Her collective of guides includes Ascended Masters, Galactics, Earth Elementals, Faery Elders, Angels and Archangels. This is a beautiful way to understand why the burning of this world-famous cathedral.

The Burning of Notre Dame by The Collective of Guides
via Caroline Oceana Ryan - A Message to Lightworkers - April 16, 2019

COR: My friends, What is the significance of places of worship burning down completely or in part, in different parts of the world? Particularly, yesterday�s fire at the Notre Dame cathedral in Paris. Millions of us wept as we saw that beautiful structure, which has such a strong presence and has stood for so long, being invaded by such a powerful destructive force. Can you give us some clarity as to why there seems to be such an energy of tumult and sudden shifts in the world now? I�ve experienced it in my own life this past month, and so have many others. Is this a great cleansing? A transmutation of some kind?

THE COLLECTIVE: Greetings, dear ones! We are happy to have this time to speak with you today.

We would say, that though there is, as we have said often, an element of chaos in creation, and you are most assuredly creating a new world, that several other factors are also involved here.

You have seen how some have noted that Notre Dame�Our Lady�is symbolic of the Divine Feminine, whether in form of the Mother of Yeshua or some other Divine goddess expression. It is important to note that there are no holds now on how energy on the Earth expresses itself.

For a very long time, energy on your planet was held in certain patterns and waves. People would find it difficult to say or do or believe things that were an individual expression, and that varied from what their social class, religion, gender, or culture had been taught to believe.

You have seen oppressive governments in some countries, where this is still attempted � a stranglehold on certain thoughts or behaviors. Except that in the Earth eras we speak of, this influence was not obvious to the masses. It was simply �in the air� to believe only certain things possible or true, due to the energetic matrix which people lived under and unknowingly followed.
These old oppressive energetic structures are no longer working so unfailingly now. In fact, they are failing colossally.

Human thought and emotion, and most importantly, inner wisdom and imagination, have broken out of the old system into an era when individual thought stands at least as strong as the socially trained, carefully programmed group belief. And in many cases, it stretches well beyond what the group has been told to consider to be truth.

As human beings exercise this new freedom, they influence countless others across the world on the etheric plane. None of this is accidental. Humanity�s own intention has pulled this planet from a place in the cosmos where ignorance and slavery were the norm to a place of individualism, authenticity, and soul purpose � a multiplicity of beliefs expressing as Truth, and an expression of the honesty of the individual journey. You are awakening, in other words! You are no longer automatic puppets and slaves.

And though that is a relief to know in some ways, it ushers in a very great �shake up� on other levels.
When you see institutions burning that have long symbolized the comfort of certain traditions, understand that much of that comfort is an inadvertent addiction to the �cover� of the old structure.

Deep within the Love you experience for a particular sacred space, is the drive to know yourself, to know the Universe, in ways and at a depth you have never experienced while in a human body, or not experienced for millennia. That intent to know and revere the inner sanctuary cannot be destroyed, unless you choose such.

In regards to Notre Dame � no one can harm your connection to Yeshua, to Mary Magdalene, to Mother Mary or the apostles, or the Archangels. No one in that well-known story will turn from you or repudiate your desire to know them and to know yourself in the Light of their story, though the old rules of religion may instruct you otherwise at times. Humankind is not only (mostly unconsciously) releasing its need for religion as a spiritual guide or resource - humanity is overcoming and exceeding the limits of religion.

It is breaking apart those strictures and boundaries that have not only kept your ideas and understanding small and confined (and often erroneous), but forbidden you to ask certain questions and hold certain thoughts or images as possibilities.

We understand that you are experiencing discomfort in many ways. The old order is exerting whatever influences, pulling whatever levers of control it still possesses now, in an all-out effort to keep people�s vibrations low, their expectations small, their beliefs dim and grey. You will not fall for this, though it may feel that way some days.

You have recently had a tax day in the United States � note how many now are realizing the extreme inequalities of that system, and are asking, essentially, why the king�s men must still be paid, in a country that was crafted to be a democracy.

To return to your question, fire is a fascinating element. You have yourself witnessed its power to transmute and to clarify, in sweat lodge experiences, and in Nature. The flames and heat intend not so much to harm as to promote a powerful energy that yes, transmutes in many ways, and also purifies and clears that which has decided to return to the air, to pure etheric form.

The timbers of that institution understood that � remember that there is life and consciousness in everything! � and willingly gave themselves up to what was intended to be an emotionally wrenching event, yet what will turn out to be a cleansing and clarifying one.

The medieval energies of that structure have been seeing the results of their era end, and move on. Knowing it was time for them to do the same, they have released their Earth form, and also returned to the ethers. It is time to release the energies of master and slave, of kings and lords and peasants, of the hierarchies that spelled misery for many millions for many centuries.

As you witness the result of powerful shifts in astrological placements, you are also witnessing what is being birthed on your planet as a result of these crucial moments, and humanity�s own decision to Ascend. And so, we would say, do not fear these shifts and changes, however much of a shock they may be some days.

Though events such as these are being used as a lever to intimidate, lower vibration, or bring feelings of disempowerment, you have noted, as you saw groups of people singing outside the edifice while it burnt, that the opposite is true.

You are not merely, with this great shift in consciousness, overcoming the hierarchical tyranny of several Earth ages, dear ones, as great as that is. You are writing the way forward to a whole new moment for this planet, in which your voices sing not the one note prewritten for you, but the many harmonic notes you decided independently, before incarnating, to add to the collective celebration.

This glorious combination of voices is now serving to break through the old paradigms of oppression, to bring you to new places of strength, grace, calm, and a centered sense of purpose. It is aiding you in awakening, to Know and to Remember why you are here. You will not celebrate every moment of this transition � there is much sadness in any form of letting go of the familiar, when that has been a comfort and a well-known pattern. Yet in the name of your freedom and Ascension journey, you have decided on that very thing.

And all of us in the higher realms (and also here with you upon the Earth) rejoice to see your increasing forms of independence, your inner empowerment, and your outer. And your increasing knowing that you are completely loved and believed in, and guided at every moment. You have only to ask, to know that Wisdom as your own.

Namaste, dear ones! You are never alone. You are all of you rising now, to new and unseen heights.

Copyright 2019, Caroline Oceana Ryan

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4/18/19 - (Newsletter)

Hello everyone! My blessings, love and light to you. It has been a while since the last Goddess letter. A lot is happening on inner levels. I just posted a Diana blog on Anakosha if you care to read it. I think I'll schedule a pizza and wine party here at my house soon. A party just for women. Let's just enjoy getting together again. No agenda. I just don't know what day of the week to schedule it though. When would YOU be able to attend? Is a weekday afternoon doable? If so, what day?

This week Notre Dame burned and I received a flaming article of rage from Estera Saraswati. I am including it below because it is very well said. Estera leads Tantra workshops in Europe. Her approach to Tantra is lovingly feminine, very much so, as she strives to help people reunite love with their sexuality which has become divided over the centuries from too much male misogyny. But as you read Estera's article, don't let rage get to you. While she makes some very good points, remember that the divine feminine is here to build a new world of love and light, not to fight against the old. Love transforms the dark. Embrace her rage while holding tight to the love of teh divine mother's plan to soothe and heal. We are here to love the world through the period of destruction as the old is torn down. Men who are also victims of the dark patriarchy, need us to hold the center in the heart during this transformation. Watch for another article about the burning of Notre Dame in a few days. Please let me hear back from you about what day of week would be good for a pizza party!

Notre Dame Cathedral on Fire
by Estera Saraswati
www.esterasaraswati.com

The Feminine is raging, roaring from her fiery all embracing heart and her dark vagina, it is enough!

It is correlated with many small awakenings in private lives of people when the last drop in the chalice activated the whole domino of unpredictable, life-changing events. We are also there as a human race. An avalanche of natural disasters will be starting within next 20 years if we don’t awake to the deep understanding of interconnectedness and the personal responsibilities we carry with each decision every day. A daily consideration like a mantra coming back with every step: Do I contribute to destruction of the Earth and the human race or I am choosing another way?

Plastic bags and straws, flying, single use items, fashion, farm industrial food, buying from companies creating Earth’s destruction, child labour in Asian countries producing new clothes and the next gadgets for us, daily rape of cows and taking away their babies for our ice creams, milk,cheese and yoghurts, slaughtering and cruel killing for our piece of steak and chicken on a plate, vacations to far destinations overriding local economies, leaving trash behind, and many more examples.

How do I encage the feminine in relationships?

I belittle love with my fear and insecurities, asking for vows and promises I will break, settling for less than my heart truly desires. Do I believe and trust the power of love? I failed love many times and I was betrayed by people many times as well. Starting with parents, how many times they didn’t live up to the unconditional love they promised with the act of a conception? How many times did I go into shallow sexual exploration allowing for my heart’s disconnection out of fear of being hurt afterwards? How many times was I thinking: Let’s play safe and keep love at a safe bay for a stable relationship or a marriage? Let’s keep my delicate heart available only for special, safe connections when I can demand and restrict possibilities of being hurt. When finally I have the One anchored in my bay, I needed to catch him, make sure that he will only love me, thinking in my arrogance that I can rule love, grab and encage by promises and unspoken agreements. Though I forgot in my blindness out of madness brought by fear that if I encage love, either it breaks free and shows me the true power of raw love or if it is still a weak flame, it will die and slip into a dull, comfortable and safe, little life. This is how I and others have developed a zombie world.

“Winter is coming” as John Snow says and bigger danger with it Zombies.

It is a great metaphor of our unauthentic, fearful life where we sacrifice our deep dreams and heart wishes not believing it is possible to live up to them. And we are right. It is not doable in present societies which promote the zombie life. Life that is disconnected from free, sexual, heart connected flow that is sacred communication between free heart, open mind, spiritual, embodied people. We are afraid of power of sacred lust as we misused this force so many times in patriarchy, not recognising its true value and not being able to humble ourselves in front of this great mystery.

Our main sin is our arrogance.

And it does put the feminine in rage! We think that we know the answers. While this knowing led us mainly to the edge of a life’s destruction. Almost half of animal species are gone out of this planet. And yet, we can not admit how blind and ignorant we are.

While we can not humble ourselves, she is raging, putting us to our very knees with her fierce roar of sacred destruction, showing the fragility of our human nature right into our face.

We do urgently need to humble ourselves, stating that we do not know the way, we are lost, we are sorry for all the mess we have created on this beautiful planet, misusing what was given to us. It is time to take personal responsibility for our part in it and bow to the feminine.

Let’s start with apologising and bowing to our mothers, wives, sisters, lovers, to our suppressed emotions, mistrusted intuition and feminine wisdom, overpowering feminine sexuality by making her come. Women also need to apologise for abusing and suppressing the feminine in men.

The feminine is the sacred waters in us and in nature. The feminine is the all embracing space of wisdom. She is the mother and the lover at the same time. By separating mother and lover energies, we separated love from sexuality. We go for love to a wife and for sex to a lover. We lost the special role of the sacred slut in a society. To bring Holy Mary and Mary Magdalene archetypes back together into the deep core of each human is the quest for the Holy Grail to call the power of the feminine back to our lives. Let her confuse our minds and take over our hearts. Let her finally rule our lives with our full trust and allowance. Let our tears run down the hills of our cheeks, allowing vulnerability of our hearts to birth through. The ego monster of knowing the answers needs to crack open by remembering what it truly is behind all this armour. A few drops of the tears of innocence on the dry shell is a good first step. Asking oneself, where did I fell down, disappointed myself and others, played safe and betrayed noble values like truth, honesty, friendship, love?

Together we created this global ego monster of capitalism and consumerism out of our lack of sight. We lost our ability to see clearly, x-raying reality to its core. We lost courage to confront naked truth when we see that the king that is naked is me and each one of us.

Feminine is in rage as her heart is full of pain and she bursts out with hot lava that flows down to destroy our stone covered hearts and allows new life to grow on the ashes of the old world.

Feminine is in rage as she can no longer stand the enslavement of the yoni of every woman and the amount of violence towards her sacred gateway made by women themselves and men as well. Disconnection and blindness is deep in us. It can be compared to the next generation of wild animals bred and born in a circus who will never know what freedom and fresh savanna means. Circus is all what they know as freedom.

Feminine is in rage because spirituality derived from patriarchy told us that sexuality is sinful and takes us away from God and is a destruction on the spiritual path. Indeed, attachment and following shallow pleasure without an open heart can create a lot of hurt and confusion. Though there are teachings showing us that passion and sexuality can open the way towards liberation and true freedom. Freedom that is not mine anymore, so that I can indulge more in “me, myself and I”, following my likes and dislikes. But freedom that opens the cage doors for all beings. Freedom that is based on self discipline and conscious restraining of ego impulses. Freedom that chooses to have less for myself and gain more by offering it to others. Free, responsible, including everyone good decisions that we grow up to instead of freedom of a spoiled child in a tantrum release and a satisfaction chase.   

Feminine is in rage because of us not being able to stand up for love, especially when personal sacrifice is needed or seeing deeply. We choose easy ways. We are attracted to people of our type, whatever it means, while love is beyond any type, box or preference. It does not matter for love if you like blond or brunette, slim or round bodies, with small or big breasts. She is in rage each time when you disguise your personal desire in a love coat to achieve what you want, fast gratification and satisfaction. She beheads when true beauty that shines inside is not recognised and not chosen over a flat cover and fake appearance. She is raging with each lip botox, plastic surgery, breast implants and labioplasty. We are conditioned to follow ego preferences not love. It is time to relearn the ways of attractions and find a deeper way of sexual and love relating.

I made a choice today as a part of growing up to what I have been becoming. The statement is that I do not belong to any man. I have been investigating many different ways of relating and sooner or later the moment was coming of trying of find out safety by restrictions that was always leading to killing the flame of love. I decided to stop doing that. I am committed to love moment by moment. I promised not to take an easy way out from challenging situations but instead stay, stand up for love and check what is true in this moment. I will not encage the feminine any more by making promises and allowing to be carried by my wounds and closing down as the result. I do not belong to any man and no man belongs to me. And yet, I am deeply committed to walk with people together who want to investigate and have enough courage to love, including the possible pain of breaking the heart so that light can shine though.

It is my personal response to the feminine roaring.
 
Estera Saraswati
April 16, 2019
Written in the sky over Zurich
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3/30/19 - (Newsletter)

Hello dear ones! This one is especially for Michele, who had a heart attack on Thursday, the day after she and I massaged Mike while we hummed in conversation over him. He is getting better from the chronic pain and, thanks be, Mike got her to the ER in time. They took a quick look and sent her over to Physicians Regional immediately where she went directly into the operating room at noon. Three hours later she came out of the OR with stints and she's doing fine. Both arteries were blocked. But, without further a'do, read on. As I said, this one is especially for Michele. It is a channeling from Mary Magdalene via Pamela Kribbe. I call her MM for short and she is signalling me with this message to continue with the special instructions I have been receiving. Especially the womb healing. I'll write more tomorrow from my own stream of consciousness. See MM speaking through Pamala on the youtube at the bottom. It's a different message from the article.

Mary Magdalene via Pamela Kribbe
The Wounded Human
http://www.jeshua.net

Dear friends of light, I am Mary Magdalene.

I know you  I know your path  I know who you are. We are deeply connected with one another; our links go back in time through many centuries. We are linked together as one big family, and the connection is not of the mind, but through the heart. It runs not only through the personal knowing of one another, it is deeper than that. There is a group energy that connects us  we are a family.

You are living in a significant time. You have already been here on Earth many times and you have gone through a lot in all those human lives. What is now accelerating the development of your heart is that, in this time, the change of consciousness is getting more grounded and becoming more alive in the hearts and souls of people. In your heart lives a hope, a desire, and also the reminder of a promise that you have carried with you through many lives.

You want to bring a heart-borne consciousness to Earth and through that process you also begin to flower. You want to connect with your soul while you are on Earth. You want to let your light radiate so that you become a human being free of fear, one who dares to stand fully in your own light. In this way, you also illuminate the world. Your light has a hopeful, inspiring effect on others.

But your first and biggest step is to acknowledge the light within yourself and to connect with your soul. It is a step that requires all your attention and devotion. You, who are linked with me, are all encouraged to travel this path, to connect with your soul, your divine origin, and from there to live an inspired life. This is becoming ever more possible on Earth. The vibration of the atmosphere on Earth is changing.

Although there still prevails a lot of disorder and chaos, and there still is a lot of emotional pain and confusion in many people, the seeds of the new have already been sown  and you are those seeds. You have already chosen: you want to move along with the voice of your heart, the voice of your soul. But before you can do this, before you can experience the joy of true freedom, you often meet up with old blockages: heavy parts of yourself that temporarily block the view of your own light.

When you live in a woman’s body, it is likely that your blockages have to do with the collective female pain; with what the female psyche has experienced in the many centuries before, and is still experiencing today. There are still places on Earth where the female energy is not respected and is even suppressed with violence. When you incarnate as a woman, you step with one foot into that history, into that collective energy of the past, into which you, too, participated during several lifetimes. It is intended that you again experience that energy so you can heal it by first healing yourself from within.

Fundamentally, it comes down to the fact that women have taken into themselves a deep feeling of unworthiness from the past. They have been consistently  and for a long time  been looked upon as second-class citizens, as people of a lesser value. They could not match the masculine way of thinking, so they were considered the weaker sex. However, their true talents lie in the field of intuition and the ability to connect, the ability to perceive deeply into the core of things, but their empathy was dismissed and reduced to the idea that women were emotional, impulsive, and unable to consider things rationally.

Both in religious teachings, as well as in many philosophical views, women were degraded. And that happened, of course, not only with words, but also with deeds: there has been so much sexual violence that has affected women deeply. When you have been damaged in your sexuality  humiliated, degraded  it leaves deep traces in your mind and in your emotional body.

Thus you can speak of a collective wound in the female consciousness, a sense of powerlessness, and as I said, a sense of inferiority or unworthiness. I want to encourage you to look at this wound as compassionately as possible. There is grief in you, as in all women, and there is also anger and resentment. Only with a compassionate look at yourself can you penetrate to the core of the pain, and at the same time to the heart of your power.

Whether you are male or female, I want to encourage you to turn your attention to the area of your abdomen, and your breathing can help you do that. By breathing consciously into your abdomen, you automatically turn your attention downward. Fill your abdomen with a gentle consciousness. Imagine that your abdomen is filled with your light. Gentle attention is nothing but light, openness, welcoming, saying “yes”.

Determine whether in the area of your abdomen lives a wounded woman, and I encourage both men and women to do this. You might see an image of a wounded woman, although there might appear a different image that indirectly points to the same thing. For example, in many people, both men and women, there is a lack of confidence about their own female energy: your sensitivity, your intuition, your ability to sense and feel. You often dismiss that ability; you adapt to the more male way of thinking that is around you, and so you cut yourself off from a deeper source of wisdom.

I ask you to now reach out a hand to the wounded woman within you, although she can also appear as a girl. Imagine that you call her toward you and you look into her eyes. And because you fully embrace who she is, she feels seen and already partly healed. Breathe light into her; know that she carries burdens which are much older than this life. You have had past lives; you are part of humanity, and because of that you will also have some of its collective energy in you. It is important that the wounded woman in you sees you and feels your presence.

But who are you then? You are your soul, and as your soul, directly connected to God, the Source, the Origin. Nothing is as powerful as the presence of your soul. The accumulation of pain and suffering in the past may seem great, yet it cannot withstand your living light in the present. Be filled with confidence  you can heal yourself. Bring light into the area of your abdomen and feel the power of your inner woman: her wisdom, her love, her inner knowing. She is allowed to be; she is welcome on Earth, so welcome her. And give her something beautiful: a flower, or another gift that comes to mind.

I ask you now to give this female image a rest, so we can go to the other pole, to that of the male energy. In the past, the female energy has been degraded, misunderstood, and this also affected men in their being. They were often required to develop a one-sided, two-dimensional male energy that focused on control of themselves, of life, and, eventually, of others. They were more or less cut off from their heart, their feelings. As a man, you had to be strong and powerful and to join in with the existing ideas and rules.

How many men have died on the battlefields of the endless number of wars that have taken place? These wars were often initiated by the struggle between men over male power. But among those victims were sensitive men, and also gay men, who could not find in themselves the conventional male image that has existed for so long. So in men there has been a deep wounding of their ability to love deeply, to be authentic, vulnerable, open, which is a condition for real intimacy in relationships. And that ability was discouraged. So men are also victims of this painful history, which is all about control and ruling.

But from where does this need originate? It comes from fear, from lack of love. It became a runaway male energy that lost connection to the One. Fear has terrorized both sexes. But in this day and age something will change. There is a desire in both men and women for authenticity in relationships, for deep connection.

I ask you to now connect with the male energy within yourself and to look in your heart to see if you can find a wounded man, or boy, who reflects your own male energy. That man became closed off in the area of the heart. What applies here to women is that it was increasingly difficult to accept their own male energy, because they associated this energy with a patronizing, misogynistic energy.

But know that the male energy in its true form is just as loving as the female energy. Specifically, as a woman, the true male energy can give you strength. Therefore, it is not only important for men, but also for women, that they heal the injured male energy in themselves. See if you can reach out your hand to your own male energy and look directly into his eyes.

At this time, there is developing in the hearts of many people an increasing sensitivity to the suffering you see around you in the world. There is also a desire for a connection with yourself that is deeper than before, and a longing for authentic relationships with others. Precisely here, in the realization of that desire, do you meet up with the wounded man and the wounded woman within yourself. It is in relationships, especially, that this woundedness can lead to misunderstandings.

It is important for you to realize that you, each one of you, carry within yourself a source of abundance. You possess both male and female energies, and you can heal both. You are complete  you are whole. Even if you carry the burdens of the past, there is an inexhaustible force within you: a gentle power, a courageous force. Embrace the inner man and the inner woman in you that you have seen and take them up into yourself. See them both as radiant figures, healed and in harmony with each other.

As a woman, be conscious of your self-esteem and your self-awareness. As a man, feel the warmth and the love in your heart. You are the lightworkers of this Earth. You bring light to an old history of pain; you bring back the light with your male and female energies. Be gentle with yourself; take time to heal your wounds. Experience that you can do this from your divine source. When you have a taste of that abundance within yourself, all your relationships become easier, smoother, and more loving.

I greet you all from deep within my heart. Thank you so much for your presence.

© Pamela Kribbe

(From a newsletter sent today. I urge you to watch this 12-minute youtube by Mary Magdalene speaking through Pamela https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-Cm93WmRNg)

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3/17/19 - Before I launch into a stream of consciousness, the Spring Solstice and full moon is Wednesday this week, March 20. There are two events in our community to call attention to:

EVENT 1: A Full Moon Goddess Circle will take place at 6 pm to 7:30 pm at The Goddess I Am Metaphysical Center, 600 Goodlette Rd. N. #103, Naples. If you want to attend, go to the Facebook/Goddess I am, and click “Events“ and then click “Interested” so Beth has an idea of how many are thinking of attending. Bring $10 to drop in the offering bowl and a dish to share. This is the first of a regular series of women's gatherings at the Goddess I Am center. The focus is "Love & Appreciate Your Body Temple." The Goddess I Am is a busy store in a small strip mall with crystals, books and other objects for sale, plus a bulletin board full of business cards of healers and readers with whom to make appointments. Website: www.goddessiam.com. Email: beththegoddess@yahoo.com.

EVENT 2: The next day, Thursday, March 21, at 3 pm there is a meditation at Happehatchee which I will attend. Tara Mina is a yoga teacher there and also does sound healing meditations every week. Tara is interested in joining the goddess circle and this will be a good time to meet her. Maybe a GoddessSphere circle can be held at Happehatchee. For Thursday's meditation, she says there are yoga mats, blankets, pillows available, and if there's anything that you personally enjoy during a meditation, bring it along. It's $10 in the dish for Happehatchee, and you may be asked to fill out a card with your name and email.  If you haven't been to Happe before and want to join me there, let me know. Also, Tara says, you might want to bring an eye pillow or scarf to cover your eyes. It is a sound healing. I am unsure what that means but I'll find out and I'm sure I'll enjoy it.

Last Thursday Michele and I went over to Elle's house, way out in the country in Naples, with beautiful grounds kept by her adoring partner. We sat on her lanai and had the most wonderful time sharing all sorts of things, as women do. I'm going to hint to Elle that maybe another gal can join us the next time? It's such a beautiful environment and Elle is such an entertaining hostess. She loves to tell stories and is so angelic.

By the way, according to a number of sources there will be another massive wave coming to Earth this solstice. We have been getting them (waves) right along for years now, but they are increasing in intensity. The galactics are releasing important information to us through various channels. They say the sun is holding back the light it is receiving (the big flash that everyone is expecting) to give us more time to adjust our body chemistry. That's why, if you are feeling somewhat disoriented or unbalanced, it's just ascension symptoms. Don't worry, it will pass. Your body will adjust on its own. Brain fogs and complete brain blow-outs are happening to everyone, like not remembering your best friend's name! Again, it's normal in an upgrade like this. It's a change-over. Our entire energy field is mutating but the body is adapting, learning to adjust to a higher frequency. We are getting upgrades just like a computer. In fact we are much like a computer. Our bodies are simply vehicles for spirit so we can walk, talk and think in linear fashion while in a body on Earth.

Higher frequencies coming in, means more etheric light. The more etheric light we can hold in our cellular structure, the more our old habits we are used to are going to change. Old friends are disappearing and new friends are emerging. Resistance is futile, it's going to happen anyway, so don’t panic or worry. Go with the flow. Things are going to change. Resisting, worrying, analyzing and questioning why, will only cause stress. If your body can't take it, slow down and come to a stop. Close your eyes and breathe into your heart for several minutes. Focus on your physical heart. This will give your body a chance to adjust and alleviate the pressure. The brain works overtime trying to find solutions. But if there are no known solutions, you don't want to give your delicate brain synapses an aneurysm or a heart attack. Stop. Meditation is an internal mechanism to adjust the body. It is simply going quiet and stopping the many moving parts. Peace comes, and then you get up and carry on as you did before.

The physical heart is a portal where the higher self enters this reality. A good visual to use while meditating and breathing, is to imagine a soft light like a sun superimposed over your heart, embracing your heart with ethereal love and light. Love and light are synonymous. They are the same energy. Visualize this lovely sun and let your physical heart disappear into it. You can do this for a whole hour if you like.

A very good technique for disorientation or confusion is to ground yourself by imagining 10 or 12 threads of light going down from your root chakra (your tailbone) to your feet, and spreading out like roots embedding into the earth’s ley lines. Become part of the earth.

We are getting tons of ideas from higher realms. They are advising us to meditate daily and stay as balanced as possible by using the various techniques we've already learned. Employ discipline into your life so that every day before leaving the house, you take a few minutes to center and ground yourself. Breathe into your heart.

I had the most wonderful experience the last two mornings with Mary Magdalene but I don’t want to tell that story now because it‘s other-worldly. It will take adjusting myself. I'll save it for next time. But it's interesting about Mary Magdalene. A woman by name of Mercedes Kirkel wrote several books on the divine feminine, channeling Mary Magdalene. I read them. I mentioned it in passing to Michele from the goddess gathering, and Michele reminded me that she had drawn the Mary Magdalene card that day when we were together. 

I thought, "Hmmmm," and here is Michele bringing me her husband every week who is in chronic pain, so we can both lovingly massage him with oregano oil - a very healing essential oil with many benefits. And this is turning into a portal for more light to come through. For all of us. Something's going on here. I think Mary Magdalene is poking me/us. She has been with me ever since. I feel to include a passage from one of those books by Mercedes Kirkel. Her website is: - www.mercedeskirkel.com. This passage came from the book titled “Mary Magdalene Beckons, Join the River of Love”:

(Mary Magdalene speaking:) “I've waited two thousand years to come forth, for the turning of the ages when the Divine Feminine can be received, honored, and reinstated in her rightful place as the equal partner and lover of the Divine Masculine. There is much to be done for this to be accomplished, for the Divine Feminine has suffered much repercussion and denial so that most are afraid of her and no longer know her. I am here to help change that. This is the time for the Feminine to come to the front, to lead in this progression into the new age. It is the time of love and honoring of the Feminine, listening to the Feminine, and allowing the Feminine to lead so that balance may be reestablished and we may become whole.

“And what does this mean for all of you? You are in the process of learning to reconnect with trust, and open to the Feminine within yourself - as your body, your sexuality, your emotions. You are learning to surrender your thinking to pure presence, to surrender your lower mind to the heart. In doing this, the veils surrounding your sacred mind can be lifted, and the marriage of the sacred heart and sacred mind can occur. You are to celebrate that marriage through the ongoing joy of bringing the light into your body, merging it with love, and sending this empowered love-light out into the world.

“Many of you have become alienated from the Feminine within yourself. You’ve become afraid and cut off from your body and your emotions and your sexuality and your feeling heart. It will take practice and engagement of these sacred parts of yourself to reopen to these pathways of the Divine within you. It is not enough to think about this change. It is not enough to gather knowledge. You are tending to be unbalanced with your collecting knowledge about the world, yourself, and what is happening. It can be helpful to understand, but that will not make a difference if it is not balanced with practice and action."  (End quote)

The GoddessSphere newsletter grew out of my personal desire to have gatherings with other women locally, to share and reflect together in person. However, this concept is slowly dissolving in the light of a new dawn. I am forced to acknowledge a larger process that is happening. Rather than focus on gathering women locally, speak (write) to the larger community. I am seeing women gathering an underground current that is moving in them, quickening inside the bodies of the women. It is a gathering, all right, but it is a deep down individual experience. She is at home feeling this. Or at the office, or driving a car, or out on a date, or teaching a class, or doing the laundry, or making dinner for the family. Wherever she is, she is experiencing something in a way that is not quite conscious but it's moving her. She is feeling it. It is deep down under the surface of her normalcy, like when a seed germinating. When a seed germinates it moves on the etheric level. So does a woman.

And so does a man, for the men who are reading this. It can't be seen on the surface yet, so there is no proof. My husband always asks for scientific proof.  But it's a happening. There is a gathering taking place on subliminal levels and it's becoming conscious. Especially for those who meditate or go into the silence of their inner. I don't just meditate. I am laughing because I spend so much time on inner planes that I couldn't even begin to say what it is I do. I am tapping the underworld and getting knowledge through another avenue. It's like the language of light is talking to me. About a year ago I was so astonished that I posted a sign in my room that says, "Language of light spoken here."  

This current, this power, is our own spirit talking. It has been unacknowledged and disembodied all through this life and all through past lives, and therefore it has been an unknown. It has been unfelt and unrealized, and now it is germinating. It is activating. I had no idea. It keeps changing me, one step at a time. The light is starting to be felt - no SEEN - on the inside. For years past women have had their attention drawn outside of themselves, into the world of activity. The man’s world of patriarchal rule has focused our attention outward on only the physical. Nothing else mattered. So her focus has been everywhere except on her own inner light, the inner world of the feminine, and her own evolving body feelings, emotions and sensations.

Now the inner glow is attracting her attention. Consciousness is being re-directed. There's a new focus. The inner life, inner light, has always been there. It didn't just suddenly appear. It is the eternal softness, gentleness, peace. It is her immortality, serenity and beauty. It resides within the space, the void, between the atoms and electrons. It is the feminine spirit. Men are feeling it too, I think. Perhaps as a masculine spirit? I don't know. I'm not sure. A  man's consciousness is different from that of a woman's, but perhaps the advice is still the same - becoming aware of the inner life. (newsletter sent today)

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3/12/19 - Yesterday I sent an Anakosha letter to everyone on my e-list including men. Today I am sending this only to the women, including a few more added to the list. If you don't want to receive these any more, please let me know. Just hit REPLY and say "remove me" on the subject line. You may not like where this is going. Every morning I spend two hours in communication with higher realsm. As I do this I get downloads. The energy is coming in faster and faster. On days that I decide to skip the meditation, the download comes while showering and I can't stop it. The goddess gathering project is going to be kept  under the Anakosha banner instead of creating a new website especially for women. At one time I thought I would need to, but now I see that it must not exclude the men because Anakosha started out as a couples loving site to explore love and love transcends gender. There is no desire to exclude men but women need to be brought up to par, meaning equal to.

The whole purpose for creating a GoddessSphere which is a gathering of women without men is to re-empower and re-ignite the knowledge that is hidden within their female bodies. It is to recall who you are as a conscious being, and where you came from. Mount Olympus? Hell, no. You came from the stars and a place called "Home". You have longings that are legitimate. Men should never have been placed over women to suppress this knowledge and rule over them from a dominant and often cruel position, but it happened. Eons and eons ago, it happened. Women went underground to allow men to rule. The repercussions of this is so huge that we all - men and women alike - have no idea how deep it goes and how much we've adapted to the status quo.  

As I get my inner fires sparked every morning, I learn something new that causes me to have to make a decision. One of the things I've learned is that spiritual channeling from higher beings is not liked or condoned by men. I've seen them get downright angry when presented with these truly beautiful gifts. They find fault.  Probably because they are brain-wired and not heart-wired. I really don't know, but it's a generally known fact. This is not to put men down at all. They are family and they are loved. It is merely a recognition that there's a biological difference. Men serve another function on the planet. They are hard-wired to physical needs where women are heart-wired to intimacy needs. Intimacy needs are inner needs. This is the connection to source creator by whatever name one chooses. Connection to source creator channels forth joy, love, freedom, non-judgment, peace, good will, grace, refinement, tenderness, did I say love?, light and everything wonderful. 

This connection was cut off somewhere along the way - probably way before the middle ages - but it shows up in this lifetime too, so I have been careful not to offend the men. I keep this part of me carefully out of their sight, hidden. Suppressed. After all, I don't like to rattle cages. I love the men and want them to be comfortable. (And still in control?)

This morning I opened yet another wonderful email and once again I was about to read and not pass it along because I don't know who would be offended. I know men don't like to read these things but maybe women too. I don't know. But this morning I decided to go ahead and send it out to the goddessSphere. What the heck! There's one way to find out if it is acceptable or not. The channel is only known as "galaxygirl". She has been bringing forth some outstanding transmissions over the past year or two. Ashtar is the commander of the Galactic Federation of Light, now called the Intergalactic fleet coming from above and beyond third dimensional earth. Ashtar made his first appearance in 1952 in the printing of a book, and in 1977 a British broadcast was overridden for 6 minutes by a voice claiming to be "Virillon of the Ashtar Galactic Command" http://www.galacticfederation-naplesfl.org/ashtar-1952---first-message.html. Ashtar has been channeled by many people since. This came through galaxygirl yesterday. 

                      Ashtar via Galaxygirl (3/11/19)
                                                     Source: https://sananda.website

Greetings comrades in arms, I am your Ashtar, leader of the Intergalactic fleet for Gaia’s Ascension. Yes, we have updated our fleet name for the occasion for we are as eager as you are to see this mission completed and it is with great joy that I speak with you today.

First and foremost, be at peace. Our loving fleet enfolds its arms around Gaia like a giant hug, providing security during this tender time of ascension, of both planetary and personal growth, which is exponentially exciting to witness and to be a part of. You, ground team, have not disappointed us. You have exceeded even our expectations, which you tend to do, for you are real go-getters, leaders, warriors of chaotic energies. There has been much stirring of the pot and the stakes are high. We see that you are grounding nicely, daily. Best continue to connect with the heartbeat of dear Gaia, who is your planetary mother, and a most patient and loving saint at that. We are here for her assistance. We all heard her planetary cry across the multiverse for assistance, not realizing how dark things had truly gotten for her and you light bearers are the ground force to save her. It is not melodramatic, it is truth. We are here for Gaia. We stand with you, strong, for her.

It has been said many times that a great solar flash is coming, is imminent. This is true. It may not be in the way that you expect, but really, how could you know what to exactly expect? Even we do not know precisely what will happen. Our Sirian friends, the scientists, are happily calculating this exceptionally complex mathematical equation with numerous variables. Regardless, we know that it will go swimmingly, perfectly, for it has been decreed by Mother and Father God that it shall. And so we are the hands and feet of this mission, as are you, our precious ground team of the ages. I salute you for your service, for taking a body and holding your light! We are holding our light up here in the skies and on the ground as well, for many of us are blending in with you, some better than others (laughing).

We know that it is an intense time to be embodied and so we send you a healing ray of love and light now. Breathe it in. Open up your heart chakra with great intention and feel our love for you. You may tear up a bit, it’s ok, let it be felt and acknowledge your sacrifice. And now, we acknowledge Gaia’s tremendous sacrifice, to be a part so lovingly and willingly of this experiment of the ages. It has not been easy for her, to put it mildly, and great damage has been done to her body which we are in the midst of repairing. Soon also more of you will assist with this once the funds are flowing freely. Yes, of course the funds are there. Yes of course you are wealthy with the riches of the earth, for you are Gaia’s children and God always provides for her children, wherever they are placed. One must have the fortitude to look, to have faith, to believe, to see with the eyes of the heart, which we see many more of you doing hourly, which gives us tremendous joy.

This one and many others wish to know more about the wave. It is a gigantic energy pulse of pure love and light from the heart of your universe, from your great central sun. There are many central suns, there are many universes. Your understandings of space and time will have to be tutored to catch you up to speed. It will greatly assist you when you are able to be fully functional with your DNA online after the flash. That will help you understand, for you will remember much more than you do now. Some will feel bliss, others fear. It depends on your vibration. It depends on you, friends, on how open you are to this experience. Some will shut down, shut off their bodies for they do not wish to experience ascension and wish to be somewhere else. This will be honored. There will be great changes, naturally, it is the end of an era (Kali Yuga) and the beginning of the era of the divine feminine, of pure love. And so of course there will be monumental changes as the unbalanced masculine tips and falls, crashing into a million pieces. You ground crew, with our help of course, will be there to rebuild, to restore, to heal, to nurture and to create Nova Gaia. You get to create the utopia that humanity was initially experiencing, and was designed to be caretakers of. What an exquisite honor! Hats off to you friends, for you are doing this. Every time you choose love, forgiveness and joy you lay a new brick in the streets of Nova Gaia, paving the way for the others to follow. It is so true.

I look out from the bridge of the new Jerusalem with my friend Sananda beside me and I am overjoyed at the progress that we have made together. We have all had our roles to play, and you are playing yours well. It is going to get a little rocky. We need you to hold the light and to be the light warriors that you are. Love is your shield. Light is your game. Violet fire is your weapon. Wield it well. The darkness has been unleashed and we are all dealing with it well, but will need further assistance from our transmuting friends. But not for much longer for Prime Creator has had enough of this and is sending these lovely energies to this little sector of the galaxy and in truth to the entire galaxy, but you will have the honor of first experiencing it. You are the stone thrown in the pond of energy. The ripples from this experience will ripple out farther than you can imagine and all will be blessed by these lovely ascension codes and energies, of the divine breath of the Mother, of the divine presence of the Father, and your memories of your true selves, of begging to come here to lend your light will be restored. And all that will matter to you is service, is love, is being the hands and feet of Mother and Father God so that we can create Nova Gaia together in great joy as one.

I am Ashtar. Think of me as your friend or big brother. I am always here for you as well. Tell us what you see, hear and feel, ground team. You are us on the ground at this most auspicious moment of this sacred Now. We see you, we love you, we are with you. I am Ashtar of the Intergalactic fleet for Gaia’s Ascension. Hold the light friends and hold the line. Hold your hands open so that you can receive more. Hold your hearts open to these encodements. We send you our blessing now. Feel it trickle down your crown, burning away the fear and opening your eyes to who you truly are, clarifying your mission with joy and deep purpose. I am your Ashtar. Peace.

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3/2/19  - From a newsletter that went out on 2/21/19.  Hello again. I am sending this to 27 women on my e-list, not to the whole Anakosha list which numbers 294. I am fluctuating back and forth so much that I have procrastinated writing this newsletter. It has been in draft for three weeks. Since my last Goddess newsletter on January 28 I have been busy peeling away layers of my illusions, fantasies and projections. I have excellent help on the matter from my guides. Every day I am given homework to do. I must find it in my heart to let go of ALL need to control. All personal desires. 

So I am detaching. I was shown a method in how to get rid of emotional bog-downs, heaviness, lethargy, sadness. Imagine a column of light running down around your spinal column from your crown to tailbone. Imagine it and then spin it clockwise. Just play with the concept. The column of light is in your etheric body, not your physical. By spinning it you throw off everything that is not light. I'll be writing about the etheric body soon.

But first, to provide an update. I am aware that the women are waiting, wishing and wanting something to happen to break the stagnation that is blocking the highways of movement. It is a priority now in the ethers - for women to break out of the masculine control system of thousands of years of fixation on rules and order and stuckness. The movement on my end is leading me into open-ended flowing, not fixating on anything. So there will not be any more goddess circles of the type I sponsored in January. I am nearly finished with the peeling away of the illusions that have had me spinning my wheels and not getting anything accomplished. Let it go, I am being told. And I'm almost done. As I get rid of the peripheral debris, there are two remaining focuses that I'd like to see happen.

One is an all-women's ascension massage that would include calling down the spiritual light before  doing healing hands-on, and social time before and after. And No. 2 - an open-minded gathering of women for both social chatting and as a steering committee for Anakosha and the GoddessSphere. The GoddessSphere is the second level of Anakosha. It is like a second story of higher quality is being built on top of a very strong, very solid, very committed and structurally sound first story.

The ascension massage for women is my personal desire, but the No. 2 plan is more practical to start with. I would like to have an open-discussion day for fun, loose talk, casual sharing of ideas, dreams, passions, and serious discussion. A steering committee, if you will, to come up with some plans. I am being guided to hold it on a Friday afternoon for several reasons, namely because out-of-towners can come and stay overnight with me into Saturday.

To those of you who attended the Goddess Gathering at the Comfort Inn, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me over the wall of non-movement. It was something I had to do, and WE DID IT!  And now it is past and I am moving again. Sharing is what it takes to move things along. Nothing stays still for very long when people are talking authentically. A new world is birthing and a new  reality is forming. But many are still stuck and need a way to move themselves. That's why the women's empowerment circles are starting up. It's all about movement. Stay open-minded, be truthful as best you can while being kind, and follow the stepping stones laid down ahead of you. Life will provide the stepping stones. Deal with them and let them go. Don't work at it. Fall forward fluidly, like water.

After the Goddess Gathering on January 7, I was led to investigate other women's circles to see what they were doing in gatherings. I attended three separate events - a meditation, a gentle yoga class and a shamanic drumming.

The meditation was held at the Goddess I Am metaphysical store on Goodlette Road in Naples. www.goddessiam.com. Check it out. Beth, the owner also has a Facebook page "Goddess I Am". She has several gatherings for women on her calendar in the temple room. One on the full moon and one on  the new moon, alternating months, and meditations every week on both Wednesdays and Fridays. $10 donations into the dish. I encourage women to check this out. It is a good place to interact with other women.

The gentle yoga class I attended at Happehatchee in Estero was helpful for me. Called Happe for short, it is a sanctuary for healing and personal growth classes held in their screened-in pavillion in the jungle. It's a lovely setting in the woods. I was reminded that yoga had been set aside years ago in favor of spontaneous kundalini movements that I had slacked off of but which lifted me into bliss zones so wonderfully. So I'm starting to do those again.

The shamanic drumming was also held at Happehatchee. It was surreal or supernatural in an easy way, wonderful vibrations, led by a lovely woman from Toronto. This shamanic drumming class left me, however, wanting something more. I  realized, while we 8 women sat around in a circle together not touching, kind of closed off from each other listening to the beautiful sounds of a guided journey - that I have already done this myself. I now wanted more open engagement with other women. Meditation is perhaps something some women might need to do in a group, but it is not for me. I want more action. My first priority is massage, but would love to precede it with an ascension meditation. And just with women, not men. I am still struggling to detach from this incessant need to serve men. I don't know if this is a default program in all women, but it certainly is in me. When a man is around I don't speak freely. I've noticed other women do the same thing. One day I saw a woman walking down the sidewalk seemingly self-contained. (I detect auras, not sure if "seeing" is the right word). A male friend came up beside her and locked step with her and her entire demeanor changed. Her energy field slide sideways and meshed with his as she turned to answer his questions, listen and respond to him. It was uncanny. I never noticed that before.

Back to Happehatchee. I recommend checking out the classes in Happehatchee. Go to www.happehatchee.com and click on their event calendar. It is easy to attend a class. You can walk-in unannounced for most of them. There might be a few that you have to register for. See the calendar. Bring $10 with you to put into the dish and you simply sign a card that is available at the table, so they know your name. The pavillion is very close to where you park your car in the woods. Chairs are provided if it's a sitting class, and mats if it is a yoga class. The leaders are very friendly and welcoming. Most of the classes are women. The outdoor setting provides a looser atmosphere than an indoor class, like a campfire in the woods but without the fire. And at night fairy lights are turned on so it is not completely dark. You should attend some evening just for the sheer experience of the outdoorsy setting.

I subscribed to Natural Awakenings recently and received my first copy in the mail. At Happehatchee I had picked up some old copies and noticed that there are many new activities in our local area, and most are led by women. Not all, but most. There are one or two men's support groups gathering. These are wonderful to see. It is so rare to find a men's transformation group. All good signs. The Goddess lives in men too. Opportunities abound for enlightenment and enlargement of consciousness.  The next evolutionary phase is coming forward and presenting itself so it is easy to find. I'll try to provide as much information as I can. Send me anything you run across that would be of interest to other women. I will use the GoddessSphere banner to send out newsletters.

Because I find the high cost of enlightenment off-putting, I seek free gatherings or basic $10 donation gatherings. I'm at that point where I can't attach a dollar value to spiritual information. To me it is freely given. However, I understand that people need to earn a living and if they have something to offer along the lines of enlightened healing and spiritual evolution workshops, then by all means, go for it. It is personal for each of us. We create our own pathways. There is no judgment. We live in a world of great diversity which is constantly changing.

In fact, I have discovered that the spiritual path does not lead up into the sky, but down into the body. The new spiritual path is not worshipping a God "up there" but the god within the body. It's a new way of thinking about God. God is here within. And we have to ground that holy light into our cells and feel the reverence brighten our days from within. That is why I am interested in gathering women together to share this new idea. As I said, I'd like to form an advisory group for women so we can talk about things. Engage and feel the energies of women talking without men.

It is quite extraordinary, actually.  I've been married three times and I thought back recently and realized something. All three of my husbands continually reminded me, "Don't talk about your breakdown. Don't talk about the ascended masters. Don't talk about UFOs and galactics. Don't talk about swinging. Don't talk about private matters." Don't talk, don't tell. This has been a low hum in the background of my life ever since I married the first time. I hesitate to say it but the men have closed me down. I can remember times talking with a woman freely and having a man come in and suddenly I close down. The conversation changes direction, almost as if I am guilty!  That's why I want to spend some time with women and see if I can bring that hauntingly familiar feeling of liberation back again. I am sure it is from past life persecutions that I carry within me. I've had some not-so-nice flashbacks.

I ran across a journal entry the other day and when I read it, I immediately said, "Yes! that's it!" I had forgotten. It was written in the '80's. In the dream I was gathering people for an advisory committee meeting. In the dream I asked everyone to form a circle. I asked them first to hold hands and then to, still holding hands, come and move closer together in the center, as if to form a hugging circle as best they could considering their numbers because I wanted their bodies to merge and connect. I did not want their mental energies, I wanted their body energies. I was still talking to them as I awoke so I could remember my words and wrote them down:

Your minds are the filters, filtering out what society says is not appropriate. Your minds censor what your bodies are feeling.  Your minds are opinionated and restricted, but your bodies are full of a vaster, far superior intelligence. Your body cells know precisely what to do and they are fed with a magnificent energy, a powerful knowledgeable healing energy that is a oneness energy. But your minds filter out this energy because society says it is not acceptable. Since it is the mind's job to interface with society and make sure everything is done according to society and not upset the apple cart, your minds are continually censoring, rejecting, resisting these powerful knowings that are inherent in the body.

What I want from you is your body intelligence, your gut intelligence, your intuitive reasoning, the talent that you have built over a lifetime and many lifetimes of experience. Your body cells carry this ancient wisdom in them. You each have a unique history and superb talents to give Anakosha. Beautiful extraordinary knowledge, long histories of successes and failures and volumes have been written into your body cells. You know SO much, but you are continually filtering out this knowledge. And THAT is what I want from you -  all that you are. Everything that is in you. I want you to express and I want you to pass this on to those coming behind you. Each human being is so full of energy and talents and this energy and talent is so wasted in a structured society when it is held back. THAT is what I want from you on this advisory committee and I think partying after a committee meeting is very appropriate, if it is your choice to share your body intuitions. They are genuine. They are not masked.

Only the mind masks those feelings. I don't want just your regular corporate mask with your censored beliefs and opinions. I want what you REALLY know inside. And as I was talking I felt this to the bone. I felt this through and through to the depths and beyond. I was totally drenched and immersed in the knowledge that THIS is where we are headed. THIS is the body wisdom that I am seeking in the people. THIS is what is going to make Anakosha grow. End of journal entry.

Now, this was written during my swinging days when we were holding parties. Those days are now gone, but I was liberated through swinging and I still feel these words are appropriate today. Today we are trying to bring down the light into action, movement, sharing, smelling and feeling the exquiste sensations of spiritual light and spiritual love. We've been censoring it out, trying to follow the rules of society. But the soul wants to walk freely on the ground. Anakosha is my platform and so I write about these things, and the Goddess gatherings mark a more advanced phase of Anakosha.

For those of you who remember M from the GoddessSphere, she has brought her husband over to my massage room twice now, for a four-handed massage session. He had a horrible accident 15 years ago and has had many back surgeries. His condition was aggravated by pharmeceuticals, incompetent medical staff, and corrupt lawyers. With no insurance they were forced to find remedies outside the establishment and much progress has been made by them following gut instinct and native intelligence. I share this to highlight the direction women are taking. Women are also looking at alternative health solutions, and feeling the passion for the spontaneity of it. It is so much more fun to explore healing modalities with other women who believe it too, rather than having a man close you down. Mike allowed us to do that. M and I had a wonderful time talking while massaging him. He closed his eyes and disengaged his mind, allowing the hum of our conversation to drift to the background. And when we reached a lull in conversation and silence filled the room, he said, "You stopped talking!"

Several days later I received a text from him, "The last two weeks of conversational massage has really started to make a difference in my legs and upper back. Please keep up the conversation." [We're using oregano oil in the massage lotion.]

Well, I will bring this stream of consciousness to a close for today. Thank you. May Goddess bless you with new food for thought.

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1/28/19 - A private letter went out yesterday to the small group who supported my first goddess gathering.  Things are moving VERY fast, and so I must get this information out to you before it disappears from view. Let me explain. I thought our little goddess circle was the first one in the area, but I have subsequently learned that another goddess circle is about to begin on a regular basis at the Goddess I Am metaphysical store and healing center at 600 Goodlette-Frank Road, Naples. The owner is Beth-Brown Rinelli. She holds meditations in her temple room every Wednesday and Friday. When Michele and I went to one last week to check it out, we learned more about her plans.

She has a group on Facebook called Goddess I Am and posted a letter there, wondering if she was the only one seeking more depth, more togetherness, more sisterhood? As a result I went down to meet her. She wasn't there that day, so I determined to return to a meditation. Michele joined me and we learned a number of things. First, that Beth is a very open, social and friendly. She has worked hard to build up her center. It is in the commercial section of town and very busy - mostly women - but the temple room in back is lovely. She and a female healer has plans. Starting February 4 they will hold goddess gatherings every month. I hope she'll send out information by email, because I'm not a good Facebook browser. I tend to lose track of things on Facebook. It's too complicated for me. That's why I use emails.

After our goddess circle on January 7, I started looking around for a less expensive place for future gatherings, fulling intending to have future gatherings. But now that I've learned about the Goddess I Am metaphysical store and plans to expand to include a committee of different leaders come in and present, I am allowing this new information to alter my plans. I then went to Happehatchee. I wrote to Michele and Trisha about my visit there so let me repeat it here. Happehatchee is another option for holding gatherings. They rent their outdoor pavillion for $50 an hour. But then I had the same emotional response there - why hold private gatherings when there are so many happenings already taking place. It feels as the work ahead is to integrate into a larger whole.

I attended what is called Peaceful Yoga on Friday morning. There were 7 women and Mary the leader who is probably in her 60's. She's a lawyer, very gentle, very caring. It was cold - 55 degrees. We wore sweaters and socks. Sometimes the class is held inside the one building when it's cold, but they decided to hold it outside because Mary likes the setting out among the trees. Pictures of the pavillion are attached so you can see what it looks like. It's easy to attend. Just show up and put $10 bill in the donation dish and sign a little form with your name and address. It's easier to attend with someone who has been there before. Also you might need a little instruction on use of the outdoor toilets! There are several. I thought to use a different one this time and - Egad! I found one I didn't understand, but I worked it out.

The class provides the mats and blankets but you can also bring your own. I was the oldest one there, I think. The others were various ages, none really young though. (Picture of pavillion not included, but can be seen on the Happehatchee website.) 

It's a 40-minute drive from my house and as I was driving I realized I was elated. I felt free like a bird. Alone on a vision quest. As I was driving along on this cold morning, I felt as if I was coming out of a closet, out of a closed-in place. A sacred place where it is warm and comfortable and safe, and now I am driving freely down the road to an unknown adventure. It's new and it's strange and it's an adventure. I feel alone. Almost like I have been sheltered for years and living inside a cocoon.

I am suddenly aware that I have been leading a double life. The one that has been secret is the one that is coming out of its shell into the open. It feels free. My three husbands all told me that I shouldn't talk about certain things, nor reveal or discuss my private life with outsiders. That admonition has hung heavily on me over the years. I've tried to break out but it has been hard to do. Why do men insist on building walls and keeping secrets? So this was like a step outside of that space, and I felt this huge surge of adrenalin. At first it felt as if I was coming out of a light place into a darker place, because it's safe at home and the outside world is unknown. But then I realized it was the opposite - I’m emerging from a dark place into a lighter, freer place. There's a lot of fresh air to breath out here. And places to go and things to see and people to meet. And I am free!

While I stretching through the yoga class I realized that these women are all doing inner work, solitary work, spiritual work, like me. Each one is alone, private, into themselves, trying to stretch themselves into more openness, which is what Mary was emphasizing. Yet it was in a group. Even though we were all in a group with others, we were each working on ourselves as solitaries. And the leader was also one of us. She was not separate from us preaching from a platform giving a lecture. She was showing us ways to move, gently, caringly, and she spoke as if one of us. It was not a brain-orientation, we didn't have to memorize it. It was a feeling and stretching orientation. My soul was trying to stretch itself free from the form it had been locked into for so many years. There is no competition in a vision quest to get it right. Or better than someone else. It was simply an experience of feeling. And it felt really, really good. Except I had to keep watching Mary because I couldn't hear everything she was saying. No one was complaining or moaning out loud, maybe inwardly but not out loud. It was quiet. Only Mary's voice and the trees. The trees were comforting, as if they were watching and approving.  

Mary asked me about my physical condition. Any implants? No. Good, she says, a bionic woman. I tell her I have problems with balance. She says yoga improves that. She is caring and tells us to go at our own pace, not try to keep up if we can't. It is work to focus on yourself when you're in a group because you want to see what the others are doing. There are other first timers there. We each said our name and a little bit about ourself as way of introduction before beginning.

As I drove home I realized how much I want to break out of the habit of being comfortable at home. Even though it IS comfortable at home, where I can create my own day and night as I want to, I want to be with others of my kind. Not men, because I they don't understand me, but women. I feel my cage rattling. I want to go out and mix and mingle with other women in sacred feminine circles, where feminine feelings can express without worrying about how the men will take it. I want to participate more openly.

As we broke up the yoga circle a woman announced her shamanic drumming on Thursday at 7 pm. It is to heal the Earth. She drums for the Earth and then each person also gets drummed over. This gave me pause to think. My body is of the Earth. It's not about healing this large ambiquous thing called earth. It's about healing us who are supposed to be maintaining the planet. I am drawn to attend Thursday, January 31st at 7 pm. Does anyone want to join me?

So my plans are changing. The agenda is different. My comfortable life is shifting and twisting. My cocoon is breaking up. I feel like a butterfly breathing new air, stretching my wings, breezes are blowing me in other directions. Life is becoming fast and threatening to pick up more speed. But I have a husband at home who has different interests so I have to integrate. Not cave to his needs but to find a way to make peace between disparate parts. Finding the highest good for all concerned. This is the great work we women are about to undertake in the coming weeks, months, years. It stretches ut in front of us. It has never been done before. The men did not know how to do it. It's our to do. It is sacred work.

As I was about to go out the door, Mary asked me for a hug. I said, "Oh, by all means! I love to hug!" And then Denise, the drummer, also asked me for a hug. We talked about how women are coming out of the closet and gathering in groups. She said, "Yes, it's time."  We are all saying it. It's time for the women. And it's scary how fast it is happening. The women are so nice. I get this mental picture of them/us coming out of their comfortable homes timidly, a bit sleepily, not quite awake, not quite aware, but they are coming out as if they have been let out of a cage. As if some automatic timer clicked and unlocked the door for them.  And they are so REAL! They look into your eyes and don’t look away as if they are embarrassed. Instead, they pause and wonder who you are. They look into you to see what they can see. They want to connect.

Men don't do that, typically. The men of the patriarchal culture have been holding our perspective down to the ground. Not all men, for sure. There are those who are expressing their feminine side. But I sense men WANTING the women to break free. They are so tired. So locked in to the physical plane and frozen there. Stuck into their responsibilities - burdens. It's growing old for them. It's time for them to release their heaviness. It's time for the women to come out with their sense of freedom and fresh air and take the lead. I am seeing this all over the place, everywhere I go. In the stores, on the street, on the television and the news. The tide has turned. The men have performed their duty well, but they have finished now. They are dropping the reins to the ground and the women are picking them up. While some men are already operating on the feminine side, most of them need help in letting go of their tight grip on the only reality they have known since birth - and for many lifetimes before this one.

On the other hand, the feminine side of life is full of mystery to us. We don't know what we are capable of until we actually, physically DO something to make a change. The goddess circles focus on the divine within, but it is also the wise woman coming OUT into the world. She is both. She is building the bridge between inner and outer, or between heaven and earth. Between good and bad. Between past and future. She is doing this alone, for herself, not for anyone else. She does by finding her center, her truth, her silence. And then taking action as she is nudged. It alters her reality. It's like daring to speak out loud your own opinion, which I did without thinking the other day and received a growl in response. It was a reminder that I stepped outside my norm. A woman who has been subservient all her life doesn't realize she has powers until she does something out of the ordinary. Then it's like poking a hole in a goard of water. Over time the hole gets bigger and the water flows more fluidly.

Women are capable of embracing all the levels of physicality - etheric, emotional, mental and spiritual - because it's part of her biology. Her nature. Men don't because it's not in their nature, not in their biology. They are programmed differently. So now it is women's turn. There's work to be done. It's probably not as easy as it sounds, or maybe it is. Who knows? It takes willingness to bend and adapt. It won't be done overnight but that's why women are coming together in groups and circles - to feel each other out and learn with each other. And to plan. It's the building of the bridge between the inner planes and the outer planes. Women are equipped to take into consideration the good of the whole. 

Links of interest for women are shown at the bottom. They give food for thought. Let me know if you have others to add to the list. Well, enough for now. Blessings to all.

Links of interest for women:

www.happehatchee.org. An ecological preserve in Estero. Events are scheduled on their calendar.
https://goddessiam.com: A metaphysical healing center, crystal shop, meditations.
https://www.internationalwomensday.com. International Women's Day is March 8th every year. Events planned.
www.treesisters.org. Women-led reforestation movements women seeding change.
www.Gatherthewomen.org: A worldwide sisterhood that connects women through circles.

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1/16/19 - The first Goddess Gathering took place on Monday, January 7, from 2 to 6:30 pm in a hotel suite in Naples. Eight women were in attendance. It was very successful in bringing together women of various interests, with an unexpected channeling and blessing from Archangel Raphael through one of our ladies. More information will be coming shortly. Things are unfolding rapidly in the global women's movement. I am filled with happiness at the support and pulling together we experienced. More to come. Love, Diana